>so depressed that not even lifting isn't easing the

idk if im depressed anymore i just am

>>38083161
Lifting doesn't ease my pain. It just distracts me for the 1-2 hours that I'm there. Without that little bit of mental quietness I'd be far worse off

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I've been so sick since summer started..someone please save me

>>38083193
Stop eating raw food?

>>38083161
Deathspell Omega. Sick bro!

>>38083161

Between the damned,
the pissed and the outright insane
Grand architects of failure,
sculptors of loss
No golden thrones to follow
No shrines of solace to seek

I shall erect myself over transience
I shall ascend over flesh
Steadfastly tearing through aether
I shall rise to the beyond
I shall reveal heights
not yet imagined
I shall rewrite Summa de homine
I shall speak with tongues of angels
And I shall burn with pure light

I will burn allrigh

https://youtu.be/OadBAPv74CA

Why do I keep fapping to cuck porn is it because I want chicks on MY dick like that? How do I into becoming a bull that sounds like the LIFE.

>depression meds not feeling as helpful anymore
>avoided talking to family for months
>avoiding bills, summer classes, registration deadlines
>know that I can do everything and catch up easily, but paralyzed by senseless anxiety and the desire to just lie in bed forever

I want off this ride

>>38083448
Oh and also

>nightmares every night about having to quit university and move back home and restart high school because I'm a failure

>>38083448
You just look like your a lazy pussy.

Kys fag

>>38083161
This album had an awesome sound and athmosphere, sadly if i remember correctly most of their songs sounded the same

>>38083555
You'll have those for decades, anon. Eventually the idea will make you smile. Some of your most embarrassing fuck up will be the things you remember most vividly and most fondly.

>>38083161
Paracletus is such a badass album.

>>38085420
I think they're different enough once you've heard them a couple of times, but I think the album is supposed to be one large "experience" instead of a collection of songs too.

I never understood people who lift while depressed. When I strain myself hard like that I feel like fucking crying and everything seems so pointless and stupid. I have actually left the gym a couple of times after about a 15minute workout because I'm too embarrased if I start crying in the gym.

Cycling is what helps me a little bit, but lifting seems to do the exact opposite sometimes.

>>38083161
you aren't lifting hard enough. purify your mind, go for a PB. even if you fail, you will feel the progress from last time.
i was feeling down about bernie yesterday, had trouble sleeping. but my deadlift form has never been so on point, and my left side is equaling out with my right after a long-held imbalance. you'll be fine, just lose yourself in your progress and focus on your form. it all makes more sense when you're focused on form.

>>38083161
Have you tried killing yourself? That usually works.

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>tfw i spent my late teens and early twenties wanting to have friends to share and paly black metal with....

>>38085909
>if i start crying in the gym
>if i start crying
thats where you are went wrong anon... real men dont cry

>>38086102
Yeah I know, thanks.