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How do I stop feeling guilty about not working non stop? Apart from things all humans do plus going to the gym, I feel guilty about any of my habits. And I have no goals.
I want to read books but I feel guilty about reading a set number of pages a day. I am worried about being called a pleb for not reading ten trillion boring Western canon novels. I feel like an ADD pleb for rarely reading more than 60 pages at a time. I hate that I'm more likely to put a book down at the end of a chapter.
Similarly for working. I know I could always be working to become better off. I know that people who talk about taking breaks are just lying to themselves. I feel bad for not having the willpower necessary to work non stop on one thing for 10 hours.
And the funny thing is that I'm a Stirnerite. When you stay unspooked then everyone else's belief system feels like a personal attack. Fuck these people who say that X is so important. X is always working hard / enjoying yourself / focusing on one thing / focusing on many things / reading history / classics / philosophy / other shit.
The awful thing is that I know everyone else is a fraud. That NFL player who everyone loves and says is hardworking has never read a book. That mathematics professor known as a genius is a disgusting dyel. That literary figure who goes on about Shakespeare being a god doesn't know any maths or science greater than an 18 year old yet claims to be worldly. That billionaire who goes on about humanity's big issues does nothing but write checks for people who make social media apps.
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>>1617012
you think like that because you spend too much time on the internet. everyone is showing themselves in the best light - having the most willpower - working the most - no days off blabla. do whatever you want. this shit is brainwashing you.
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>>1617040
Agreed. I know it sounds impossible but the mental field can be adjusted. In the novel and movie Fight Club the main character had to blow up his own home just to get his life moving
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>>1617012
>I am worried about being called a pleb for not reading ten trillion boring Western canon novels.
I made this mistake, too. Read to learn things, not "classics", or novels.
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Try r9k
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>>1617012
Haven't figured it out yet. The only way to get away from this sense of guilt and stress seems to be to work.
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>>1617012
take kratom or l-theanine before you read. or adderall if you can get some from your doc. you wont be thinking about anything else except what youre reading, so no stress or sense of time passing. meditation helps with handling arising stress that distracts you from continuing reading or whatever youre doing.
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>>1617012
Holy shit, are you me? I feel the same way.
Every time someone on 4chan posts about something intellectual (be it a novel or a scientific study, etc.) that I haven't heard about, I feel insecure.
I particularly agree with your last paragraph. Everybody acts like they are hot shit, yet they have tons of shortcomings that they are unaware about.
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