How do I stop feeling guilty about not working non stop? Apart from things all humans do plus going to the gym, I feel guilty about any of my habits. And I have no goals.
I want to read books but I feel guilty about reading a set number of pages a day. I am worried about being called a pleb for not reading ten trillion boring Western canon novels. I feel like an ADD pleb for rarely reading more than 60 pages at a time. I hate that I'm more likely to put a book down at the end of a chapter.
Similarly for working. I know I could always be working to become better off. I know that people who talk about taking breaks are just lying to themselves. I feel bad for not having the willpower necessary to work non stop on one thing for 10 hours.
And the funny thing is that I'm a Stirnerite. When you stay unspooked then everyone else's belief system feels like a personal attack. Fuck these people who say that X is so important. X is always working hard / enjoying yourself / focusing on one thing / focusing on many things / reading history / classics / philosophy / other shit.
The awful thing is that I know everyone else is a fraud. That NFL player who everyone loves and says is hardworking has never read a book. That mathematics professor known as a genius is a disgusting dyel. That literary figure who goes on about Shakespeare being a god doesn't know any maths or science greater than an 18 year old yet claims to be worldly. That billionaire who goes on about humanity's big issues does nothing but write checks for people who make social media apps.
>>1597536
1 is infinitely more than 0. Just do SOMETHING to better yourself. Slowly you'll be able to add more pressure to yourself.
>>1597536
you can try r9k
>>1597536
>And the funny thing is that I'm a Stirnerite.
How are you still so spooked then?
>>1597536
Why would you feel guilty?
>>1597585
This
I often feel exactly like you, op, but then I realize that it doesn't matter. I work or read when I feel inspired to work or read, I lift when I feel inspired to lift, and I do meaningless Vidya shit when I feel like it.
>>1597536
Just scrolled quick because, fuck what a wall of text....
Guilt is what you want it to be. I almost never feel that feeling, its fucking useless. If you do something, If you don't just live with it. Quit being a bitch, live your life doing what you like.
You'll never be good at anything if you keep on trying to do what you think is expected of you even though you have obviously no interest in it.
People are different and good at different things. Other people should not matter, you got only one life, do what you want to do and try to become the best in this. It works.
Or just keep complaining about meaningless shit and hang yourself at 40yo.
>>1597963
>translation: I'm an undisciplined fuckboy that is addicted to video games and justify it any way I can
>>1597963
>then I realize that it doesn't matter. I work or read when I feel inspired to work or read, I lift when I feel inspired to lift, and I do meaningless Vidya shit when I feel like it.
me currently.
going with the flow
>>1597536
Get out of here loser and go to r9k