Sup /b/ I held my girlfriend in my arms as she bled to death

>>745405257
you cant blame yourself for the past ESPECIALLY if you didn't know better you are not a professional. for what its worth she would want you to live a happy life and do as much as you possibly can with the short time you have, so many people have it worse than you and wish they had more time even if its to find what they want.

Im really sorry man, try and go to therapy of some sort. They will try to help you get over it, and try to pick up a new hobby in the meantime. It will help you move your focus into something better. No matter what anyone else says, don't kill yourself or harm yourself im any way, ok?

>>745405257
Periods are just a consequence of nature. Don’t blame yourself for it OP.

Probably gonna need to put some baking soda on that shirt and soak it before washing with biological detergent.

>>745405257
if this is legit..

you have PTSD, and you are no pathetic.

life is an odd journey, your intention was never for her to die - not your fault.

remember the good times, a lot of other people have gone through the same.

and seek help.

>>745405551
Honestly theres quite a bit of anger there too. A lot of "how could she do this to me". And then guilt about that anger. And then guilt about not saving her and regrets about our relationship and it just. It sounds so easy to just let it all slide but, i literally cant.

I mean, i even feel guilty knowing she wouldnt love me in the state i am now but not having any clue how to get better.

Fucked man. S'all just fucked.

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>>745405257
If christianity is the true religon and afterlife then her goose is cooked as suicides go to hell. but that's fine I guess seeing as pretty much everyone is going to hell unless you repent right before the end If you hope theres an afterlife you need to hope it's a neutral afterlife where you can chill with her and if you moveon you can chill with that girl too and have threesomes etc.

>>745405257
https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/anxiety/types-of-anxiety/ptsd

>>745405775
The good times hurt too. I think about how great it was and about how ill never have that again and it just makes it worse. I've tried to move on and date other people but between the fact im basically a functioning alcoholic and drug addict who wakes up crying in the middle of the night that hasnt gone too well, lmao

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>>745405257
how old was she and how old were you at the time?

>>745406202
fucking kys op

the world dosent need your pussy genes

>>745405257
Cannabis...

>>745406385
I was 20, she was 17.

Before anyone says it, it's legal in my country lmao

For sure OP you won't be able to meet her committing suicide...

>>745405551
It's not about being a professional, stupid. It's common sense:
She is bleeding? Put pressure on the wounds, idiot.
To some degree, OP is a murderer, accountable for the death of some random bitch, all because he did nothing to prevent her death.

>>745406671
How do you KNOW that tho. When it comes to death we are grasping at straws because nobody knows what death is until they die. I figure meh, it has to be at least a minute possibility

>>745405257
Anon, I'm not a doctor or any stuff like that, but with the amount of blood loss even if you had put pressure on the wounds she probably had agood chance of losing so much blood it endedup causing brain damage. She likely would've been potato for the rest of her life if you had saved her. death mightve been preferable at that point

Did you take pictures of it and why haven;t you posted them yet faggot

>>745406563
And what third world country are you from where people are illiterate enough to actually use petty excuses like "hurr I didn't know that tonstop bleeding you only have to put pressure on teh wound hurr hurr" and gobthrough with it without being chargedbfor murder?

>>745406741
20:20 fucking hindsight mate. I just freaked out and had no idea what to do.

>>745406821
How reassuring lmao

>>745406874
Oh /b/, this is why i love you.

To answer your question, no i didnt take pics of it.

>>745405257
get over it faggot

>>745406989
UK...

And as far as i can work out not saving a life doesnt make you a murderer. It makes you a cunt, sure. But legally not a murderer.

Look i get i suck and shit. I cant change it, i fucked up and i just dont know what to fucking do.

>>745406989
is your keyboard broken

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>>745407047
Hello, idiot.

>>745406989
legal age is 16 in the UK, FAGET

>>745406820
I know bc facing death doesn't mean artificially inducing it.
I feel really shit for you bro no one should face some like that in the 20's, I can assure to you that you have something to do here. Maybe God wants you to help the ones without the courage to get over it...

>>745407199
Not a cunt either. Just a worthless shit who allowed an innocent to die.
Maybe not legally a murderer, but morally accountable for it.
Now suck it up and live with it.

>>745405257
fap

>>745405257
>I just cant get the idea out of my head that theres an (admittedly small) chance of an afterlife where i can see her again

I have a personal, private experience about the afterlife.
I can guarantee you that something of an individual survives after death.
How long it lasts, how much personality it has, I have no idea.
All I know is that there's a component to the personality that lingers past the point of physical death.

>>745407301
>"god"

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>>745405257
hit me right in the feels man.

you didn't know, it's not your fault. its not you fault she did what she did. you loved her as much as you could in the time that she was alive and that is all that matters. seek a therapist otherwise it will probably just get worse for you. i feel you, and i hope you feel better man.

>>745405257
Can you fucking not, you were probably in shock and caught unprepared. You can't blame yourself for someone else's actions.

Don't let the guilt mount up because it will crush you. You need to speak to a professional counselor because you obviously haven't dealt with it and you're starting to slip into self-destruction.

>>745405257
I feel for you bro
I too, once fell in love with a degenerate

An EMT isn't going to tell you that... and if they even have a chance, they have more responsibility than just talking to you. Phony story is my guess then

>>745405257
Emts are trained to be empathetic and caring. They would not have told you you could have saved her especially not while trying to save her. Either high quality bait or that emt wins dick of the year

>>745407264
*triggered*

>>745407301
Thanks man.

>>745407406
I mean by my logic actually she is responsible since she is the one who cut her wrists

>>745407413
You died?

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>>745407199
>UK
Rest asured that if not dead thanks to your negligence, she would have died because of some rag head going full jihad mode.
The perks and downsides of living in a muslim country.

>>745405257
Is your girl's name Kelly?

>>745407635
It was after, as they were leaving. I was being a total wanker and basically blaming them and i think he just lost it a bit.

For real OP stop feeling guilty.. Sadly a soul who can beat the survival instinct and kill herself is already death inside. Just try to understand what is your call and let you life being worth it, try to save other lives I don't know do something OP don't let another soul go away

There is no afterlife. When your dead, thats it. Your dead. Well done your now dead. Dead, population = you .

>>745405257
post nude it will help release the tensions

did she cut both? mustve done some real damage if she only did one arm

>>745407843
Like I said. There's more responsibility. For example, dealing with the police.

>>745405257
>How do i stop being a pathetic fuck?
start by getting rid of that shirt and any pictures of it you might have.

>>745407872
>There is no afterlife. When your dead, thats it. Your dead. Well done your now dead. Dead, population = you .

citation needed
Plus, are you going to trust someone who can't use your/you're correctly?

>>745407971
>that's probably his cum rag

>>745405257
Timestamp or didn't happen.

>>745408035
You cant prove the existence of an afterlife, therefore only a total moron would assume there is one

>>745408049
even with a timestamp there is no fucking proof thats her dead gf blood on that fucking shirt

>>745406741
I just wanted to say, your provocation is transparent and doesn't affect anyone here, not the OP, not those of us who feel sorry for the guy. Nice try though. Keep practicing.

>>745405257

See a therapist, because as much as you may KNOW just WHAT to do, you won't be able to if you're already stuck in the destructive mode. You need another physical being you can trust to tell you what to do and how to do it and will support you in it.

>>745407413
DMT is a helluva drug

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>>745408376
>mfw

>>745405257

>newfags falling for stale old pasta

so many idiots in this thread

>>745405257
One thing that would help is getting rid of the shirt.

>>745407413

you're fucking retarded shut the fuck up.

>>745408805
OP here.

I can't get rid of it. She gave it to me two weeks before her death. It's been my cum rag ever since she died.

>>745405830
None of that sounds easy to slide, man. You're being really hard on yourself and that's understandable but the truth is everything you're feeling is natural given what happened. It's okay to feel anger and guilt. I mean, what else would anyone feel going through what you had to? But you have to realize that none of that was your fault. You didn't choose any of this. Also, fuck that paramedic for guilt tripping you like that. Making you feel like it was your fault; it wasn't, dude. You went through some really harsh shit and seriously, kudos to being here and able to talk about it, even with a bunch of faggots like us.
My advice is to seek out some therapy. One that specializes in PTSD. Things will get better OP. I don't know if it means anything but for someone I don't know, my heart seriously goes out to you man <3

>>745405257
So what? You have 2 choises you make something out of yourself or you let this kill you.Let me tell you a storie mate and fuck you if this is a bait and fuck rest of you who believe this or not but i will write you now my life.Mother abused me because dad never around home she blamed me for all beat me blame me for all.Around 20 years like that then she killed herself I found her in our backyard she overdosed. Father gets merried and leaves me after 2 weeks of funeral. Friends abandon me cuz i lost my mind and went to psy institution.Father comea back while i am sick in psy insitition takes everything that mom left me house and flat I am alone no job no money no friends notting.I got out and worked 6 years on me to produce what I have now...my own company car flat and fiancee...so i will say this. Dont expect a fast change but dont expect anything untill you except yourself and man up and do something in your life. And fuck all do something that produce a lot of money like it jobs and similar cus you need your mojo and power back myfriend i know and it is as it is...you decide will it kill you or make something out of you.

>>745405257
My mom killed herself just over a year ago, September 12th, 2016.

I was in my room and I heard the gunshot go off, she didn't know I was home or I don't think she would've done it. Walked into her laying on the bed with blood everywhere and my shotgun on the floor.
The image is stuck in my head, if I close my eyes I can still picture it like it just happened. Shit fucked with me bad. Good luck man, people say it gets better with time but it really doesn't. The imagery never goes away.

>>745405257
She slashed her wrists to get away from you. You're not going to see her in the afterlife if she sees you first.

>>745408205
Because while the brain is just a group of cells floating in a calcium bowel. I believe a soul dictates how the brain behaves, a broken or damaged soul will lead to chemical imbalance, an old soul will lead to a person being great and kind, a new soul is learning. Everything with a brain has a soul. So single cell organisms don't have souls or things like trees. But bugs and spiders have souls. But not like larger animals. Souls have size limits you cannot go too small or too big but a soul can get stuck in another species (however rare)

What else do you want to know? Want me to explain anything better or in more details? I'm trying to give a broad answer here to just give a better idea on what I believe.

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>>745409286
Probably fed up of your faggotry.

>>745408205
And you, personally, can't prove the existance of Antarctica. You have never been there and can't prove it exists. By your logic, therefore, it doesn't exist.

>>745406202
You have move passed it. Your coping mechanisms are failing you and you need to change. There's a reason you haven't killed yourself and I don't know that reason for you, but there is. Mine was my family and the logical thinking is that the way you are carrying yourself in unsustainable to your mental health long term. Seek help, or determine whether your life is worth living or not. With such a loss, no one could blame you, especially with that faggot EMT essentially blaming you, a civilian in shock, for her death.
tl;dr solve your problems or give yourself the release you desire

>>745405257
Post nudes

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>>745406062
Christianity is the true religion. It's just too bad you have not learned from it.

Your words are far from reassuring and helpful.
You are not God and do not know if his GF's "goose is cooked"..

This life is not easy and if one chooses to end their own life verses harming another's?

Then it is between them and God.

>>745405257

OP know this God loves us all.

You did nothing wrong.

If one day you find yourself in God's Kingdom?

I pray you will hear "Well done my good and faithful servant."

Perhaps you will be reunited with her and will enjoy an eternity of happiness?

OR You may find some one here in this life soon who will make you happy?

Either way?

Struggle on and try to love others. Do unto them as you would have them do unto you.

Be at peace.

>>745409308
Genetics and upbringing along with significant experiences make up brain chemistry and behavior. There is no such thing as a soul because that would imply there is a self to begin with. There is no such thing as an ego or self and ego is what's telling you you're going to be something when you do. It's an illusion. All that happens is you get rubbed out into nothingness and merge with oblivion and get spit back into the cosmos and you don't remember a damn thing because there was never a you to begin with.

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>>745405257
i fell you something like that happened like 3 years ago, in college this girl really wanted me but i just wanted a job and a simple life, and after a year of playing cold,and telling her to stop cause she was a pain in the ass (it hurts even today) she gave a teddy bear...she told me (almost crying) sorry for bothering you, 2 days later i get a call one of her friends is insulting me (oh well shes really sad and her friends ara angry with me ok no problem) why? i asked...she took some pills and went to bed, with a note "im sorry mom and dad and sorry anon for bothering you"...take that shirt to the trash and swallow it, thats how i "get over it" not 100% but i took the tedy bear and give it to a homeless chil with his mom in the street, just let go man, it will follow you to the end of the world but...dont hurt yourself she woudnt want you to suffer for her, keep going for youre girflen, god have her in her glory.

>>745405257
Paramedic here. That really doesn't look like enough blood. Bleeding to death makes a much bigger blood stain. Anyway, no paramedic would ever tell you that she would still be alive if you did something different, thats taught to us in our training (at least in the UK)

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>>745409840
and sorry for my broken english.

>>745409843
Probably OP's paramedic was an irish drunkard who hates the english.

>>745406062
Hells actually cold. Someone did some math on it....

>EMT said I could have saved her

What the fuck, why would he say that

I would have just fucking lied and said you did everything you could.

>>745409646
so if you believe in mentally ill kike you are not white

>>745410189
That's basically what we do. Day 1 of training
>>745409843

>>745409843
Yeah that's the cops Job! Here in the US a friends wife died because of a blood clot to the brain an he called the police and they actually handcuffed him an took him down to the station because they 'thought' he killed her. Spent 3 hours there before being released. Think about being married for 25 years and by some freak accident your partner dies and the cops blame you right off the bat? Fuck cops.

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If you feel guilty, let a full life lived be your punishment. And if in that lesson, somewhere, you learn to be happy again, you are forgiven.

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>>745410189
>would have just fucking lied
>being this dishonest
>giving false hopes
You're a fucking monster, you know that?

>>745410266
Nice dubs.
Bad English.

Could you repost that in your native tongue or language and I will then reply?

Thanks

>>745405257
Take up a hobby, try hiking, helped me out a lot, best of luck OP

>>745410573
Etonce tu cree ke si tu cree en un pendejo, entonce no ere blanko

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>>745405257
Trying playing Metal Gear Solid V: The Phantom Pain. Maybe you will identify with Snake

>>745410547
>yeah, if you just held her wounds she'd still be here, so it's your fault basically

Or

>You did what you could, she was too far gone by then

You pick, retarded faggot.

>>745405257
You aren't pathetic because of your feelings. It's pretty normal even after a year of such a horrible event.

But you will have to eventually get over it. There is nothing you can do now and there isn't a big chance you could have saved her.

You have to let her go and only let her live with you as a beautiful memory. Dont let this destroy you, she wouldn't want that either.

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>>745410742
Wow your Spanish is worse than your English!

Did you mean?
>Etonce tu cree ke si tu cree en un pendejo, entonce no ere blanko


Yeah Christ will eventually deal with you.
I think I will pass on any further insults or replies.

Post her nudes so that we can remember her

You could've saved her in that moment sure. But if she killed herself what could u have done after that? Get her some help? How? Take her to a shrink? Put her on anti-depresents? Do u know how to save someone ultimately? Would you be willing to stick it out like that? You did what you did, man. If she was meant to be alive u would've saved her. That would've happened. This message won't help you, nothing anyone says will. But know this truth. It wasn't ur fault she died, and it's not ur fault she wanted to. She felt she couldn't live here anymore. I'm deeply sorry for her because I know how that feels, and I'm deeply sorry for you because u lost her and have to deal with this. I Hope you can let her go and live again. God bless, brother.

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>>745410841
>your fault
Or
>nothing you could have done
>mfw

>>745409646
Then everything has to be between "them and God" and Christians should never admonish anyone. "It's between them and God", "Only God can judge", etc immediately vanishes as a principle as soon as the Christian wants to admonish and treat someone as a child in doing so. Also, whenever a Christian doesn't agree with something, then "you're not God, you can't know this (or anything)", but the Christian can boldly and proudly pronounce anything to be fact without being god.

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>>745411011
>I think I will pass on any further insults or replies.
Yeah, run away like a coward.
Feels good winning an argument.
Victory is mine.!

>>745411104
>having someone's death on your shoulders

Or

>weren't able to prevent the death

Non-retards (not you) would prefer the first one.

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>>745411189
Yes everything is between you and God.

What you do is not my business unless you are my "Oikos". I can offer you help and Love. I can answer your questions.

But if what I have is the casting of stones? I am better off keeping my mouth shut.


Teach the law.
Struggle to follow the law.
Never dare to enforce the law.

God is our Creator and Judge.
I am simply your brother walking the path beside you.

>>745405257
just vote here, and she will come back

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/do-not-pass-hr672s198-combating-european-anti-semitism-act-2017

You couldn't have done much different, anon. Even if you had first aid training there's no guarantee things would be different, despite what the EMT said.

My point is you're not responsible for it you shouldn't blame yourself for . Sorry you're having to deal with this trauma, brother. Do get yourself some counseling, please?

Stay strong. <3

>>745411011
Yeah, it'll be between him and God. A Christian ought not to express glee at the thought of God "dealing with" someone. Sounds like you are thinking malicious thoughts about them and imagining yourself as being "obviously" exempt from being "dealt with" by Christ. You're using religion as a bludgeon. This is only going to entrench people in (admittedly understandable) mistrust and resentment towards the church.

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>>745405257

>I feel guilty because she was still alive when i initially found her and the EMT said i couldve saved her if i'd put pressure on the wounds.

Shock is a very normal part of any crisis situation and it can incapacitate people who, in other situations, might seem incredibly brave.

You cannot choose to NOT get shocked, it just happens. This is why you shouldn't blame yourself - it's a normal response and it happens to most people.

Paramedic was not looking at the big picture when making his comments, I'm sure of that. Even professionals should think from others' point of view before opening their mouth.

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>>745411371
Your argument was to call Christ a Kike and Pendejo.

I do not recall his telling me to cast pearls before swine?

If he takes issue with what you say he is quite capable of dealing with you.

I am Italian so unsure if you consider that "White" or not?

But I see no reason to exchange insults with you. Your words are more than enough proof of your attitude and values.

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>>745411458
So you just said that non retards would prefer having someone's death on their shoulders, but somehow I am the retard?

Lol. Noted.

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>>745411601
Sorry you feel that way.

I did not express glee.

I simply chose to pass on a battle of words or insults.

>>745405257
be not sad at her passing, but happy with the memories that you shared. she wouldnt have wanted you to be so sad over her

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>>745411709
>hasn't grown up from having imaginary friends
>talks about attitude and values
>the only thing preventing him from murdering and raping is fear of being watched by imaginary friend
>tfw

Omg that's terrible, I hope that you can find someday something that makes you happier.

>>745411795
You're not sorry I feel that way. You're hiding a lot of malice behind religion. You made a threat with Christ as the fantasy attack dog for you, hoping to cause mental distress to the target. You very much want to vanquish him.

>>745408205
prove that it doesn't exist.

>>745412066
Why?

>>745412028
>You're hiding a lot of malice behind religion. You made a threat with Christ as the fantasy attack dog for you, hoping to cause mental distress to the target.
Religion in a nutshell.
/thread

>>745405257
My first thought was that i'd feel bad too

Though I would've put pressure on the wound, I mean that's the kinda shit you see in movies/tv and crap

Anyway, if she was suicidal she would've found a way to do it in such a way that would make it impossible to save her so, really, there's not kuch else you could've done

I wanna say "hurr durr get over it" but that really doesn't work does it?

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>>745411987
I stopped in to reassure OP.
Acting in compassion.
Fear of being watched?
More like concern for my brothers and sisters.
If I thought God did not exist you are right I would be a total psychopath.
Yes, Thank God, that he exists, and I believe.
Things could have been far worse for you.

(I never claimed to be perfect. I have simply been humbled by God.)

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>>745412211
>I wanna say "hurr durr get over it" but that really doesn't work does it?

OP here..... I actually feel better with this. Wow! That actually helped. Thank you. Now fap time, I guess. Pic related.

<3

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>>745412028
There may have been some passive aggressiveness in it? again I am not perfect, and I have not claimed to be.

But I came here to assist OP not exchange insults with you or the latin anon. And my hope is that Christ will deal with it.

Because if I DID the results would be far worse.

>>745412460
Stay well /b/rother

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>>745412498
Molte grazie signore pazzo.

>>745405257
You're a worthless faggot. Kill yourself now.

>>745412498
Far worse in what way?

>>745412827
He would murder/slaughter/sacrifice sinners, non believers, and/or infidels in the name of his generic Abrahamic deity.

>>745412816
This is actually sound medical advice. Thank you.

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>>745412960
LOL

No not at all.
That would make me a hypocrite.
I mean I am a sinner.
I am no better than anyone else.

As I said I came here to express my compassion for OP not to expose my own evil motive.

>>745412093
this is over your head kid. im asking the person whom posted the post i replied to.

>>745413412
"Over your head, kid". More hostility from the holy Christian.

>>745412093
Because while the brain is just a group of cells floating in a calcium bowel. I believe a soul dictates how the brain behaves, a broken or damaged soul will lead to chemical imbalance, an old soul will lead to a person being great and kind, a new soul is learning. Everything with a brain has a soul. So single cell organisms don't have souls or things like trees. But bugs and spiders have souls. But not like larger animals. Souls have size limits you cannot go too small or too big but a soul can get stuck in another species (however rare)

What else do you want to know? Want me to explain anything better or in more details? I'm trying to give a broad answer here to just give a better idea on what I believe.

>>745413558
I saw this exact pasta posted about a week ago.

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>>745413558
Not him but
>Souls have size limits
I don't think that's in the bible

>>745409646
>>745411466
>>745412377
>>745412498
>>745413247
These posts. Non aggressive, non retaliatory, just informative and philosophical.

Reading these made me feel good. Thanks /b/rother.

>>745413712
And I saw it twice in this same thread.

normie

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>>745413558
>old soul new soul

I agree with most of what you say except that.
All souls were created long ago.
We simply do not recall the before.
We are mostly oblivious to it.
We have all watched history unfold which is why some think they were Cleopatra etc..

But to be sure almost all living things are souls.
I am not sure about trees? They were often used as parable by Christ and the blind man to whom he restored sight? Said he saw trees walking about as men.

>>745413723
Nope but the Bible is not the complete stroy, Many things were held back from it by men who thought they knew better than you.

There are many books of the people of Abraham and many Avatars who God sent to teach us.

We need to find more of what we have in common and try to stop killing one another for our differences.

>>745413723
Why do you care about the bible if you're not a Christian? Don't tell me you are a Christian or "never said I wasn't a Christian, you shouldn't make assumptions" and then try to use that as a way of feeling superior and avoiding the question. Why do you care about the bible if you think it's bullshit?

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>>745413763
Glad I could help..

May peace be with you.

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>>745405257
Forget about her, she's a selfish bitch and she didn't care about the implications this would have on you, she clearly didn't love you, and never will. Stop being such a faggot and move on in life, the bitch is dead, you're single, go fuck some chicks.

>>745405257
>i didnt know how to apply pressure to a bleeding wound.

You fucking retard.

>>745414042
>believing in pasta
>so italian

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It is acceptable to worship a woman's butthole as a form of worship of God. The woman is simply a representative of God. God comes first.

>>745414102
not bad, too bad i just fapped 10 minutes ago

>>745405257
maybe she slit her wrists cos of you

>>745414042

what a lot of words without a single shred of proof.

you really should learn the difference between belief and fact.

>>745405257
I understand the confusion, anger and pain OP. My gf, an actual soulmate, if the old poets and masters are right, died this March. Raped and murdered by niggers on the street. I'll shoot myself soon. I miss her haha...

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>>745405257
>girl kills self rather than spend life with you
"I hope I can see her in the afterlife."

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>>745414274
I did not say verily, I know nothing more than you.

I may be enlightened or I may be a fool?

But I am your brother and God's fool.


If the words don't help you? Ignore them.
I will not be offended.

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>>745414209
I believe it is acceptable to worship any kind of butthole.

If this shit is real OP then it was because that bitch was a fucking whore and our god and savior Satanas killed her by his own destiny to protect you from suffering, now thank our god and bow to our master OP.

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>>745414486
narcissistic sociopath

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>>745414507
>>745414534

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>>745414534
>using long words with a bible thumper

>>745414617
>Kek
>plot twist god and Satanas and the pasta thing are the same

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>>745414068
>why do you not care?
Didn't say that
>are you christisn or not?
Does it matter?
>do you think it's bullshit
man I'm just trying to U N D E R S T A N D
Damn

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>>745414727
NOT THE PASTA!!!!
>*cries in italian*

probably a troll post.

There's nothing pathetic about how you're feeling. Just because something is common sense does not make it common practice. You're a car salesman, not a medicine practitioner. My father is a psychiatrist and a pretty revered one at that, he thinks emotions are useless and if you can handle it, bottle everything up, shove it deep down, and forget about it and when the time comes, and it will; explode in a healthy way, all of your outburst should be loud, aggressive, and harmless.

Go take a week long hiking/camping trip and really get into nature briefly. Like look at animals, go fishing or hunting. You'll realize that regardless of how you feel that life will indeed go on.

>>745414876
Knew you wouldn't answer. Spotted the atheist.

>>745415238
Sounds more like an agnostic though.

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Guys
Guys what if
Guys
What if guys
Had
Listen
Guys
What if souls had size limits?

>>745415316
Souls have size limits you cannot go too small or too big but a soul can get stuck in another species (however rare) because while the brain is just a group of cells floating in a calcium bowel. I believe a soul dictates how the brain behaves, a broken or damaged soul will lead to chemical imbalance, an old soul will lead to a person being great and kind, a new soul is learning. Everything with a brain has a soul. So single cell organisms don't have souls or things like trees. But bugs and spiders have souls. But not like larger animals.

>>745415313
He's an atheist and so are you. You can't hide

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Listening to this is a religious experience.
>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h-vjJHO9-RU

Bladee is God

>>745415566
Alright alright that kinda makes sense
Now here's a big question

Fetus: soul or nah? If yes to soul when does it "get a soul"?

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>>745415703
Too much Auto tune.
Regardless he is not God.

>>745415827
IMHO
Souls choose their birth tunnel. So you knew your parents before you were born.
If aborted you return to the Goeth and try again.

>>745406485
And valium

>>745415827
When it sneezes and someone says 'bless you'.
Instead of a sneeze it can also be a small, tiny, in utero fart.

>>745406989
Very eloquent, Anon. Bravo
All points well made and well thought through

>>745416009
Autotune is an attribute of God.

>>745416009
So what kind of masochistic imbecile chooses to have a zfather who will rape him/her and a mother who will drink to pretend nothing happens? Or who will choose parents who will neglect them? Or a father who will murder the mother or abandon them?

>>745405257
You stopped being a pathetic fuck as soon as something this fucked up happened to you. What did you do following? No suicide? Then congrats you fuck, you dealt with a huge setback but you didn't give up. Continue to live. You unknowingly have more to give than you belive you weak fuck

>>745409450
that made me lol

Bro this is really sad to read :/. I think its the better, to get ober with it. Realise the beauty of live my friend. That your soulmate died is only an exclamationmark to how valuable life is.
You mustnt see it aß a journy with a goal at the end. There is so point in living. Its only for you to decide how to live it to the fullest. Its like music. Everyone hears it different. Some dont like it, and some love it. Just think about, what she wants you to do now. Well... But your girl find chose to die. And thats what you need to understand, bro. IIt needs some time, but youll get over with it and find joy in your life again - that's how it always works.
Greetings from Germay

>>745416357
Drop and give me 20 blowjobs, maggot nigger.

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>>745416305
One who chooses to trust our Creator and to be a lesson to his or her parents.

We can't all be rich and popular like Donald Trump. </sarc>

>>745416437
Why is that your response ?

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>>745416452
Oh my....

The lives of atheists don't matter. They even admit that their lives are meaningless, so it's best to call them on this and treat them accordingly. There's no need to respect, keep promises with, protect, etc any nonbelievers. They are to be exploited for their foolishness and lack of humility.

>>745416547
Why is that YOUR response?

>>745416592
Alloha ackfart, brother Abdul, alloha ackfart.

>>745405775
This guy said it. Seek help

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>>745416592
I do not agree.
We are all supposed to BE examples.
I find myself more often pissed off by the arrogance of my fellow Christians. Especially those who keep posting the never ending story princess threads. If we frighten others away from God and seeking truth then we have not served our Creator at all..

>>745416622
Because while the brain is just a group of cells floating in a calcium bowel. I believe a soul dictates how the brain behaves, a broken or damaged soul will lead to chemical imbalance, an old soul will lead to a person being great and kind, a new soul is learning. Everything with a brain has a soul. So single cell organisms don't have souls or things like trees. But bugs and spiders have souls. But not like larger animals. Souls have size limits you cannot go too small or too big but a soul can get stuck in another species (however rare)

What else do you want to know? Want me to explain anything better or in more details? I'm trying to give a broad answer here to just give a better idea on what I believe.

>>745408376
But he's right, you must be an actual 12 year old in the current year to not know basic CPR/Medical training like putting pressure on wounds, raising wounds to relieve blood flow etc.

Or OP could be american, that would explain the lack of basic education

>>745416769
You're actually supposed to suck the blood out.

>>745416798
Vampire fag here.
What this anon says is correct.

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>>745416798
my fucking DICK is bleeding fam help me out

>>745416769
Knock it off.
Not every one has basic first aid or EMT skills.

I seriously doubt you or the other asshole would have provided her with aid worthy of arterial bleeding. And your American comment proves you should have your internet privileges taken away.

OP, I know there are trolls and shit, but it, objectively, wasn't your fault.

You didn't know better. I know these mean nothing to you, but just know that's the truth, I have nothing with you, so I don't care.

It's okay to be hurt.

It's okay to grieve, be sad and regret, even for years, this way, you'll do the greatest thing for someone who passed away:

Remembering them.

>>745416622
That following paragraph wasn't me. But.....i'm lost now

>>745405257
Friend, I am sorry that she put you through this shit. I can't imagine the trauma and pain you had to go through. Don't think most of us /b/tards can. I can only reassure you that it wasn't your fault, she was fucked in the head and made the choice by herself. The person you were a year ago wasn't prepared for shit like that, hell most people aren't prepared for shit like that. Don't blame yourself and don't try to forget it through drugs or booze either. This experience, as shitty as it was, is a part of you now, so no point in crying about it. Accept that it happened, accept that it wasn't in your power to prevent it and move on. You still have a long life ahead of you, wounds will heal, scars will stay. Good luck.

>>745416884
>not everyone has basic first aid skills

Yes they do anon, sorry you live in the third world

>>745416858
Bueno

>>745416884
idiot

>>745416955
>>745417006
No they don't.
Sorry you think so.

Most schools do not teach classes on first aid.

One has to either approach the Red Blue or White cross aid groups. YMCA or scouting. Russians and Chinese as well as Americans and most Europeans do not get any of that training unless they seek it out.

I will still refrain from the insults..

I understand this is /b/ and it is difficult not to just mock every thing and every one.

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>>745405257
Suicide is a selfish act. Depression is a monster but, killing yourself is the ultimate answer for a finite problem in life.Grief for now.
You will move on, eventually; so keep living life. Maybe with another soul in this life or maybe in another life with her. Remember, our whole existence is about as big as a grain of sand in all of the oceans that is the universe. Everything makes sense and nothing makes sense. Just live a life that's worth living. Do what you want; that's all you can do.
Also If this is a troll, fuck you nigger faggot.

>>745405257
and the ugly people losers try to trap me ugly way so ill tell there secrets and the ugly people losers outnumber everybody and cheats and smell worse then dog shit and try to hurt the ugly popular people ugly way to be better then ugly popular people ugly way so fuck this shit socitey cause the ugly people losers try to be better then ugly popular people ugly way and smell worse then dog shit and outnumber everybody and take anything and the ugly people losers smell worse then dog shit and my short ugly loser old short ugly loser father try to show off to ugly people losers how he hurt me ugly way but is short and ugly and cant make friends cause hes short and ugly and loser and old and never did anything fun in his whole life cause he was short and ugly and while his brothers and sisters was tall and see him as dead weight and my short ugly loser father is ugly and cheats and is scared of people in real life but try too hard to hurt me ugly way and doesnt mention that and doesnt mention hes short and ugly and hurt me ugly way and try too hard while hes short and ugly and lame and short and ugly and cheats and read people to know how pathatic he is and other ways to take advangate of peple hwne read people but this short person is able to and use to to make him less ugly cause hes short and ugly and old and loser and has no life and is short and iam still suprised how this short ugly midget can read me and hurt me ugly way when hes a ugly midget loser

>>745405257
I didn't know that camouflage, what's the name/origin ?

>>745417216
i went to a fucking awful school in bumfuck nowhere and i learnt basic CPR in year 5, aka when i was 10 years old

To take the driving exam, you must pass a preliminary exam (see: driving theory) which involves multiple what-if scenarios, including road accidents, which of itself includes stuff like crashes (punctures/blunt trauma) and burns, and how to respond to both of these

With 0 effort on my part, as a normal citisen of the 1st world, i know basic first aid response.

Im not even mocking you anon, i actually genuinely 1. dont understand and 2. feel sorry for you. you lack knowledge that most humans have, and because of this simple fuck up, somebody died. i dont take joy in this, but you denying it pisses me off.

>>745417359
Dried up cum mixed with some menstrual blood (4:1 ratio).

>>745405257
and the ugly people losers try to trap me ugly way so ill tell there secrets and the ugly people losers outnumber everybody and cheats and smell worse then dog shit and try to hurt the ugly popular people ugly way to be better then ugly popular people ugly way so fuck this shit socitey cause the ugly people losers try to be better then ugly popular people ugly way and smell worse then dog shit and outnumber everybody and take anything
and this short ugly old loser that has no friends and he is short and old and ugly and lame can read everything and still cover how lame he is and still cover for the ugly people losers how lame they are and if couldnt cheat then we can make fun of them how the ugly people losers make fun of people doing the same thing the ugly people losers do to me like my short ugly loser father that is lame and short and ugly and short and stay home all day hurt me ugly way and i dont know how while he is short and ugly and old and loser and just use this power for his pathatic self and none of the ugly people losers outnumber everybody doesnt say anything so this is a pathatic shit scoiety and my short ugly loser father try to get angry and read people to cheat cause hes short and ugly and scared and short so has to read people and smell worse then dog shit and is short and ugly and old and keep chalgeging me while try to read people to cheat cause is scared and ugly and this ugly mother fucker is a waste of my time but keep reading me so can hurt me ugly way and so dont look bad by cheating like my short ugly loser father

>>745416858
Stop playing with it

>>745417451
Thanks, I'll ask my sister for some blood.

>>745417216
Can't even respond to an anon on the internet, nevermind save a life, coward

>>745417442
You said "EVERYONE" that is why I am disputing you. It is great that your teacher decided to add to the curriculum and your country decided to require more of its drivers.

I take CPR classes every two years by my own choice and learned basic first aid n scouts. But that was MY choice. No my country does not require it. It is a FREE choice.

My denyal is agin to your comment about EVERYONE.

And your arrogance of thinking OP some how is responsible for the tragedy in his life.

He did not know first aid and probably never expected to experience this. That does not make him guilty of any wrong doing.

The vast majority of World citizens do NOT have basic first aid skills. Sorry that you apparently have never watched a video at Liveleak or TheYNC or you might have known this,

Again congrats on your knowledge, now go work on your compassion.

>>745417726
Your point?

>>745417707
What is wrong with you?
I responded..

What you think this is the only thread or site I am on? Hundreds of conversations not just yours my oh so arrogant anon.

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>>745417726
Ok, brb, I'll go now and work on my com...

>>745417794
That apparently you are willfully ignorant?
Since I made my point in the very comment you just replied to.

>>745417726
>my teacher decided to add to the curriculum

No, i live in the 1st world so its a mandatory subject, sorry that you think you live in the 1st world mr american, but sadly thats not the case

>>745417940
Oh, is that so?
Ok, hold on, I will read it and reply right away.

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>>745405257
>How do i stop being a pathetic fuck?
go to trauma therapy and talk with an professional. Duh.
Also don't post on /b/. people just assume that you are shitposting and you are instantly labeled as a person who lies on the internet.

>>745418003
Dismissed as a Troll.

Mr American here helped to develop the Kermit protocol. With out folks like me? You would not have the internet to behave like an arrogant Anti-American asshole.

Good Day Sir!

Best thing is just distract yourself; 3 years ago a family member of mine had died from some "silent killer" condition with their heart two weeks prior I had a random thought in my head saying the problem was with his heart. He's still be here if I wasn't a fucking retard. Just distract yourself the guilt will never leave but you can move on.

7 years next december. Lost my fiance and absolutely the love of my life in a horrible car crash. its the absolute worst thing that can happen to someone other than child same way, i still do believe.I used to get so angry when people would say sorry you
'lost her" and i would be pissed cause she was taken from me. Its not a situation or grieving process that many can get or relate too. I was certian life was over. all i can say is, time heals everything and constantly go and try therapy of any kind because it really helps. i did one year of doctor perscribed meds cause i was literally just so bad my family got involved. then after a year i stopped, just weed and therapy. and i can honestly say i will be ok one day. And i was sure i would never bounce back from it. i was just waiting to die. daily. but i think the 4th year was when i could take a minute and thibk
'hey i wasnt thinking about her like before" and i can honesty say im at the point where i can think of her and smile or have a conversation about her without crying. but there is trauma that needs to be reversed. therapy, therapy, therapy. its really hard dating. im really weird about checking in after drives. im overly protective and ill always have a weird shame or guilt if i think about loving someone. but its kinda getting normall again. Stay positive, do fun things, dont drink or do downer drugs thts when it gets dark. i can honwestly say were brothers in this misery. nobody can understand that feeling. having your loved one die is awful enough, but i looked her in the eyes and felt her take her last breath, and that will always be with me. also trophys like that sweater and things of hers you use to trigger memories, get rid of it. or get one box. lock it storage and its there if you need it. its a long road but you'll make it.

>>745405257
Stop being a car salesman and dedicate your life to something meaningful.

>>745418407
>died in horrible car crash
>the chinesest thing that could ever happen

>>745405257
She killed her self to get the fuck away from you.

>>745418703
You may want to stop using the Internet there are so many folks out there waiting for you to help them. Hurry, no really, hurry.

>>745418867
Bugger off!

>>745405257

seriously, you didn't elevate her hands or put pressure on the wounds?

thats seriously fucking basic, i must have learnt that when i was about 5 years old

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>>745405257
See what I mean about idiots thinking it's 1995?

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>>745405257
Cleanse your honor and commit sudoku like her.

>>745418217
>the past = the present

lol

>>745418974
already posted this anon
>>745416769
op is in denial

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1.throw out the blood stained shirt
2. Appreciate the times you had with her
3.Get a job, hobby, >>passion<< and surround yourself with people who will help you get through this shit
4. I suggest lifting if you dont have a clue where to start, as it has a lot of positive sides, also cut it out with the depressing music and create an energized playlist for yourself
(see the sticky on /fit/ to get going)

GL

>>745419193
>sudoku
Seppuku


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Should anyone happen to find their post linked above? Do the world a favor and leave the Internet. The World does not need your opinions and lack of compassion.

Good night /b/

>>745419988
Goodnight, sweet prince.

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>>745419988
searching for compassion on /b/ is like
playing call of duty to get real combat experience

>>745405257
It took me 16 years to accept my brothers drowning wasn't my fault. That I was a kid and couldn't save him. I watched him die. You paniced. You aren't a first responder. You aren't a professional. There was little to do and there is no way to say what it actually would have done. /b/rother... I am sorry. I wish that this wasn't the only thing I could say. If you are religious give it to your god, if not do what you must to find peace. Forgive yourself. I will pray for you.

>>745405257
>put pressure on the wounds
Basic first aid says apply direct pressure to a wound.
That's Boy Scout shit

I would most def consider taking a hot bath and slitting your wrists. It's the only way to get over it anon.

>>745422494
Would you mind showing us how?

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>>745422430
I suspect he was kicked out of cub scouts for eating too many Brownies.

consider: OP has successfully murdered his ex and got away with it due to this suicide BS story he now posts on the 'anniversary' for kicks

>>745422494
how about you do it first? get your figure collection and put it around you in a circle.

>>745405257
get a psychologist and a psychiatrist. avoid any and all antipsychotics. avoid ones you feel are shit after 3 months.avoid getting jacketed.

>>745405257
Date someone sane, idiot. Its called mental 'illness' for a reason, its terminal a lot.

>>745423778
actually, in most cases, chaff like you are the cause of suicide, no the illness itself.

>>745405257
Consider seeing a therapist about that. I'd also move on and meet new girls. No one can replace a dead person, but you could find someone else you'd be happy with.

>>745410496
This

>>745412690
lol wtf

>>745405257I can't imagine what that feels like OP. I'm very genuinely sorry to hear for your loss. As others have suggested, you should see a therapist. I know you feel guilty but it isn't your fault. You freaked out and that's understandable. Anyone in your situation without training would have.

I hope you feel better, /b/oy, and you have my support.

Gonna choose not to believe this because an EMT wouldn't say "you could have saved her bro" but if it is true the EMT it's a piece of garbage.

>>745405257
Try live a life that she would be proud of, its not your fault, wish you all the best

haha op's gf killed herself

>>745405257
>I'm a car salesman not a doctor

Are you still wondering why she killed herself?

Also, the dispatcher would have told you how to perform basic first aid.

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>>745405257
Sounds like you've got a sandy vagina. Need to man the fuck up and end your life, you drove her to the point she couldn't confide in and trust enough to help with her suicidal thoughts, for good reason since you let her literally die in your arms without doing shit but cry on the phone like a bitch.

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>>745405257

Your profession doesnt matter - everyone should have basic knowledge of CPR and emergency life saving measures.

Ignorance is a choice. The best you can do right now is to tell your story & try to get others to learn from your mistake.

You could even make money doing it but you dont seem that kind of a (((guy))).

How many units a month faggot,

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>>745405257
Shit man get therapy

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all religion is shit and just a excuse for you being a retardet human being that needs other shits to tell him how shit works cuz you never ever think
you are a modern workslave consumer drone and thinking about death and the reason of life is too complicated for you, eat shit you brainlet
*tips fedora*

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>tfw you realize she killed herself because she was with such a miserable sadcunt, and figured if she dumped you, you would kys.

>>745428688
this kills the op

>>745405257
Bait. I dont care if you are a doctor or 18 working at mcdonalds, EVERYONE knows to push pressure.

>>745405257
2 options, go out and find a girl (or dude, if that's your bag of cats) that will accept you including your problems and help you grow past this shit, or an hero and don't have to put in any effort again, but also lose the gamble for possibly having a more fulfilling life after her death.

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Post a pic of her tits

>>745419988
you are a crybaby piece of shit and your gf killed herself at least partially because she was sick of your bullshit

you should follow her example

I feel for you man. Nothing I can say to you will make you feel any better. But I definitely feel for you.

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>>745418316
Pupperito

If this is legit, my best advice to take MDMA. It helps with PTSD; which is what you most likely have. Then find someone, a friend, a partner, anyone who will listen to you that can help you with your problems.

>>745405257
bet your ass she wasn't thinking of how it would affect you when she decided to slash her wrists. in fact it's a real bitch move to do it minutes before you arrived, no? it's almost like she wanted to hurt you

>>745405257
Everyone knows to put pressure on the wound

You don't need to be a doctor to know to apply pressure to the wound , your a dumb car salesman

>>745431104
This. You don't need to be a professional to know doing nothing is fine.

"I feel guilty because she was still alive when i initially found her and the EMT said i couldve saved her if i'd put pressure on the wounds. I'm a car salesman not a doctor"

>exactly, you are not a doctor. There's no way you could have known what you were about to walk into, and you're not trained in life saving procedures like that. Even if you were, she very well may still have died anyway. You can't blame yourself for actions that she took herself. I'm sorry you went through that, but it is NOT YOUR FAULT. REPEAT. IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT.

I cant sleep and when i do i have the same recurring nightmare basically reliving it and i wake up rekt. I can't live without her, I miss her and I pretty much want to kill myself.

>I know it seems like you can't live without her now, but you absolutely can. I recommend going through Patton Oswalts posts on Facebook from the past year or so. His wife died in her sleep one random morning and he was left with a 4 year old daughter and felt like he'd never find love again. Fast forward a year and a half later and he's engaged to be married. It may feel like the end of the world now, but that's your mind playing tricks on you. You can and will move on, but you will prob need help. GO TO THERAPY, OP. Talk about your feelings with someone who can help you work through them.

"How do i stop being a pathetic fuck?"

>you're not pathetic, OP. You went through a seriously traumatic experience and have every right to have your head fucked up as a result. Best way to get over it? Go to therapy and talk it out with someone, that shit really does help. Wallowing all alone and looking to asshats like people on /b/ is not going to help one bit.

Get the help you need, OP. I'm sorry for what happened to you, but you can and will get through it and you can absolutely have a long, happy life with someone else. Time heals all wounds.

I'm not expert but I had a blood soaked bedsheet and it didnt look like that, it looked like several different hues of brown with small bits of purple mixed in.

>>745406202
For the sake of argument, let's just say you have free will. And that's what's eating you now, that you could possibly have chosen differently, and she'd still be alive today, and you wouldn't feel so bad.

The fucked up thing about that, is while you beat yourself up over making the wrong decision, you let her off the hook for her use of free will. It was *her* choice that created the situation you're in.

And I'm not telling you this to make you feel better, because nothing can remove that hurt. But for your own mental health, you *must* let her own the consequences of her decision, no matter how much you disagree with her logic.

On a spiritual level, what she did was like running out of a restaurant without paying. Just because she's gone and you're still in the joint, does not obligate you to pay her tab.

I hope you can find a way to close out this story where you're no longer the villain.

>>745406989
have you ever been in a situation like this? I'm an army combat medic and I can confirm your mind will draw a blank if you aren't trained in muscle memory for this type of thing. you can't always expect someone with no training give proper medical care by themselves. it's called being an average human being, you should try it sometime.

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>>745416884
>>>745416769
>Knock it off.
>Not every one has basic first aid or EMT skills.

Everyone who doesn't like people dying around them for stupid shit does. I watched my cousin slowly bleed out when I was 12 because someone booby trapped the jungle gym we played at with a knife hidden at the bottom and she fell on it piercing an artery on her leg.

Ever since then I've made sure to know first aid and nowadays I keep a first aid pack in my car when I'm not on duty as a paramedic.

I absolutely hated myself for not knowing how to save her until I became an EMT and had a call where a father didn't know first aid and it led to his kid dying in his arms before we arrived.

I guess after that I couldn't be mad at myself anymore because at least I was a kid. Everyone should learn some basic first aid and have an emergency kit on hand, especially if you don't freeze up when shit hits the fan like most people

>>745405257
Dude it is normal as you say you loved her (unless you are phsycopath who don't have feelings ) but if you fell it is too much go check a doctor he might help you overcome it. But just drinking alcohol and weed will make you remember it more these things will just revive your memories

>>745405257
>t-tfw you drop your ice cream and it goes up at a 90° angle and lands all over the favorite shirt.

>>745405257
The bitch is dead.

Her wrists had to piss.

Fucking kek