I'm feeling kinda strange /b/. Can't feel happiness

>>745119501

It's called depression, dumbass. Get some help from a therapist or psychiatrist before you emotionally scar your parents when they find your dead body in the bathroom.

>>745119936
That's not depression you potato

I never understood how people could think filthy frank was amusing seeing as he isn't white... fucking 2017 man.

>>745119501
all i see is grey

>>745119501
no matter how many colors you tell me

>>745119501
and i love you,i do.
whoever you are
but all i can see is the color of concrete

>>745119501
It's an apathetic form of depression. Depression is not necessarily sadness. It can manifest as apathy. If you can't make yourself be happy or even feel situationally, it could be medical.

>>745119501
you make me live
not all the time,but sometimes

you
are
my
broken-glass
punching-bag
...and i love you because you hurt me when i need you to.

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>>745119501
>What is wrong with me?
You got hurt.

>>745122014
OK I guess so - what now ? How do I turn the tables ?

You're just hungry, anon. Get some gut keebab

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>>745122207
You can tell a stranger on the internet who hurt you.

Nothing here will ever come out of this window we are all looking at.

We dont need a name, we just want to feel what you feel and learn from it.

>>745119501
>whats wrong with me
you are 13

>>745122435
See brother, I have been hurt too many times by too many people. I am done with that. I just want to stop feeling hurt.

>>745124714
>
Wish i could say or do something so you wont have to live this life,

i dont know how old you are, but you probably should try to put that on paper.

even if you are the only one to read it.
atleast you will feel like you can now put words to how bad you feel.

Some call it art.

>>745124890
I am 22 now brother. The life since 16 has been really bad. All sorts of shit has happened and I have grown pretty bitter. Never had a gf either. But I dont care, have a few friends but we all live really far away so cant really hang out.

But yeah, I dont feel happy OR sad for that matter. Its like I feel bitter and I dont really enjoy doing anything. I am almost an adrenaline junkie right now - doing whatever that gives me a rush so I feel sort of alive.

>>745119501
26, been feeling aimless for a long time. Dated someone great briefly but autism'd so hard I fucked it up.
I know the feeling, boyo. The closest thing I came to an answer is realizing my life feels empty, so my answer is to try to live how I want too. Learn some new things, make videos, try to do things I refused too before. Nothing really matters here, and once you're gone that's it. So since nothing matters then what do you have to lose? Might as well live it up while we all can.

>>745125796
I remember this poster - If you knew you could not fail, what would you do ?

Shit really hit home. I am live like that now.

>>745125236
>>745124714
>>745122207

Thats me too.

I dont know why but sometimes I just want to feel emotions, not feel numb as fuck like I am right now.

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>>745125236
i get it.
why bother?

Why do any kind of effort if no-one will ever give you the appraisal for it?

You saw someone die from a terminal illness rigth?

>>745125925
I dont seek appraisal or validation.

I am no stranger to death if that is what you are asking. Terminal illness is alright - you know the person wont make it - its the abrupt shit that hits you. Like Straight outta fucking nowhere.

>>745125993
Then what do you live for?
to piss off death?

If so you're doing well and you are still alive.
keep it up, you'll end up being an artist at 30 if you survive.

Start making stuff, we need people like you.

>>745125912
>>745126129
Yeah, life's what you make of it, to use a corny stupid saying. But I'm at the point where I want to live corny and even kind of stupid because where I was going was nothing but emptiness. Just because of everything that led to you here now, or perhaps in spite of it, doesn't mean you can't do more tomorrow. Or maybe something different. Just live, Anon. And you'll figure out the rest in time.

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>>745126129
I do some programming every now and then. Hey its not as artsy as making art but yeah, its a good way to spend literally hours staring at the screen lol.

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You know I just have like this one thing I want to like try out, I want to know how it feels to be loved. I dont know why but I just want to know how it feels - is it as good as the movies lol. Or is it what the songs are written about lol.

<< This is some actual advise that I recently started following - " Learn to rest "

>>745126252
Also, you probably will want to stop watching that specific kind of porn you keep watching.

You know.

>>745126360
Dude I usually just watch softcore scenes - solos but they are hard to come by lol. I will ))

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MNte5pRNsa4

>>745126349
The closest thing I can say is it's one of the few things in life that really matters. Loving another person, trusting them enough to let them in. And if it doesn't work out you aren't quite the same after them.
Between that, familial love, love for friends, its the little things that really matter. Also good advice anon.

>>745126529
i was just trying to fuck up your mind actually.
watch the porn you want.

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>>745126799
Its already pretty fucked up lol.
If I can suggest - Malena Morgan - she does the best solo scenes ))

>>745126706
>"And if it doesn't work out you aren't quite the same after them."
That really is true.

ALSO

>mfw someone asks what are my plans with life

))

>>745126923
Part of me wonders how many of us have been hurt like this. If it's why we're here at the asscrack of dawn. But to OP and all you niggers reading this at the asscrack of dawn on this fucking site of all places:
No matter what you've done to get here, you deserve better, for no other reason than because it's your life. Love yourself and if things aren't working out whatever you do don't give up. Just because nothing matters and you feel lost now doesn't mean it has to be that way.
Speaking of asscrack of dawn I should have gone to sleep forever ago. Take it easy, everyone.

It's called being an adult.

Stop talking and keep working, you'll be dead soon.

>>745126923
>Malena Morgan
I just watched and i would say that you are a man of fine tastes

>>745126923
what is your relationship with drugs?

>>745127203
Good night man - whenever you get the time that is.

Ofcourse we all deserve better but does it even matter ? Like we are asking - we deserve better homes, cars, family, people, friends, or in my case - a better keyboard and mouse, I am running the cheapest G100s keyboard and mouse.

But I guess, what you mean is that we should treat ourselves better. Sure nothing else matter but we should be taking better care of ourselves lol. Like "learning to rest" is one of these things.

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>>745127366
Dubs mean something lol.

>>745127412
Thanks )))

But like I said, they are hard to come by. I can suggest another - Heather Vandeven. She is already pretty old now and hasnt been active for ages but she has this thing about her lol.

Relationship with drugs -
I'll say this, I cant get through the day without taking medication. You can only push your body so much )) It has its limits. But its forgiving. I guess in a years time I wont need them anymore. I get really bad headaches right now if I dont take them.

>>745127628
The woman in your picture.
part of me feel like i know her.
but it's not her, its never her.

>>745127628
From one fuckup to another.
if you ever do drugs.

Take tolerance break.
i know i should.

But i hate myself so you probably should not listen to me.

>>745127628

Here is her Twitter - she is now some sort of PR consultant for a vaping firm

twitter - malenamorgan

Like even she sorted her life out lol. Does some shows on Periscope and cams. She used to have these live chat things back then and I can say this - she is pretty smart. Not to stereotype people who work in porn but she knew her shit.

And my last suggestion would be Carli Banks. And Mellisa Clarke (she only does photos though) - and is apparently a DJ now.

Like I just looked up my bookmarks and thats all that I have saved.

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>>745127927
I know that feel brother. I know that feel all too well.

>>745127990
Its your life man, dont let anyone tell you otherwise. You know best.

>>745119501
its normal