Who esle /drinking/ here? What are you drinking bros? and

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>>745057638
Having a nice glass of pic related.

Went to the bar and had a beer. Outside is overrated.

>>745057800
mein neger

Beer

>>745057863
Just drink alone like me. There's nothing like getting shitfaced alone contemplating the past.

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Drinking spiced rum and hunting landwhales

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>>745057638

>>745057800
>>745057863
>>745057885
>>745057997
>>745058041
Why are you drinking though?

>>745058167
Depression

>>745058167
You need a reason to drink?

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this ....

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>>745059011
and this ...because im on the beach chillin

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I'm drinking this dry cider. I don't like overly sweet ciders, and this is a nice local cider brewed just a city away. It feels nice to be supporting local breweries. Plus it has a high ABV and isn't too pricey.

It's just passed noon and I'm drinking because it's my day off this week, and I was starting to feel benzodiazepine withdrawals and figured I would just go for a brisk walk to the local liquor store and grab a bunch of these to wash the Alprazolam tablets down with to eliminate all anxiety whilst abusing prescription drug potentiating with the ultimate goal of turning my brain off just to the point where I forget about a lot of things I don't want to think about so I can just sit in my one bedroom apartment quietly and maybe find the motivation to play a video game.

This is essentially the same scenario every day, but if I am working I just end up drinking after the day is done, along with a bowl of medicinal marijuana, I am able to comfortably relax at night and get to bed at a relatively reasonable time, most of the time. I just wish these weren't all vices for me. Oh well, G and Harry are alright. Let's leave the rest to them. On we go, to our next battle.

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help me choose

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>>745059084
looks peaceful mate

when i lived in australia i used to go all the time, even alone, at night... dont have a lot of beaches in sweden

>>745057638
Finishing my coffee now, have two 40s of King Cobra in the fridge I'm drinking next. Day off, so I'm getting wasted and playing xbox until I pass out, fuck outside friends and all that gay shit.

>>745059296
Dont have a lot of beaches in finland either,
Beer at home because life is not that good at the moment

>>745057638
This, and i'm dinking outta habbit, it's also my day off of work, i like to clean the house while i have a couple of drinks.

>>745059213
Jack Daniel is pretty gud

jägermeister, i always drink when i play vidya.

jameson on the rocks

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>>745059084
want a tampon with that?

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Guess where I'm at lads

>>745059187
go for Daniels Honey

>>745057638
Ive benn drikning whisksy all dau

>>745060167
Stinking peat bog, a few miles away from Mordor

>>745059187
You can never go wrong with JD

>>745057638
66 of Bacardi Gold. was on sale.

>>745060167
Dat sunset tho

>>745059124
Benzodiazepine's and alcohol are never a good combination anon. Trust me, one day it will hit you like a ton of bricks.

Ive gone about 27 days without drinking any alcohol. Got to the point where I was drinking nearly 750ml a night, started feeling like shit and knew i had to cut it out. Not really sure if i want to drink again honesty.

But is it weird that i dont really feel any difference? Physically I feel much better, but mentally I feel the exact same. I guess I thought not drinking everyday would greatly improve my life but it hasnt, at all.

>>745057638
I saw the nostalgic vidya thread early this morning
so I called in and been playing Baldur's Gate SoA drinking cocanut rum and Horchata

I was at the Swedish west coast at a friends cabin. We drived around looking at historical sites, churches vikings etc.. so I decided to make mead, got honey from a local. Now 2,5 months later it is a really clear golden liquid, extremely sweet, tasting of summer flowers, raisins and 24-25% alcohol. Got a cold so I told my gf honey mead is much better than whiskey!

Jack Daniels and Ice Tea because I'm an alcohol.

>>745057638
It's called /Alk/ you autism ridden fubber runny.

>>745060611
>24-25% mead

Jesus Christ, I wish it was available near me

>>745060511

Oh yeah, especially when you decide to give both up cold turkey and suddenly figure out you need Benzo's to come off long term alcoholism.

Fun week, learned alot.

>>745057638
Me
Coffee
Have a 8 hour night shift starting in 2 hours

>>745060796
Good luck anon, hope you'll have a productive day at work

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I actually am going to quit drinking for a while. I ended up throwing up blood yesterday during a hangover and that was sort of wake-up call. Maybe it is about time I listen to my mother and loved one and cut back on the alcohol for a bit. I'll enjoy a drink every now and then but I also intend to live out this shitty life for as long as I can.

My on and off again GF of 11 years broke up with me 2 weeks ago. Been drinking cheap vodka everyday since. Don't ask the story because its gonna be a very long green text.

>>745060045
The only rum that tastes good. Laphroaig here.

>>745060793
How bad were the cold sweats? I nearly fucking went insane.

amaretto & jameson on the rocks. It's what I had at hand, I'm out of beer

>>745061219
You can never go wrong with Jameson anon. One of the best whiskeys for your money.

>>745061056

Cold sweats I could handle. The constant feeling of dread and anxiety almost did me in. Not white girl anxiety, I mean full on de personification and racing thoughts.

I'm out of it now, I still use benzo's every so often but I don't drink at all like I used to.

>>745058553
This

>>745061479
Good for you man, I could always handle the anxiety but goddamn the withdrawal syndromes always kicks me in the nuts.

>>745057638
Straight Jack Daniels anon, breakup with 9/10 last week

>>745061735
How much have you drank my man? JD ftw.

>>745061801
Just started, nearly halfway on first bottle

>>745060511
>>745060793

Thanks guys. I legitimately appreciate the concern. I've been addicted to a ridiculous dosage of Alprazolam/Xanax as prescribed by my doctor who made a terrible clerical error and effectively prescribed me with 240mg of Alprazolam every 25 days. I've been treating my body horribly with benzos and alcohol for 6 years now. Thankfully I have begun a tapering schedule so I don't die too young.

I want to at least make my girlfriend happy, marry her and have kids and have a decent handful of years before I pass. Please follow the advice of these folks. My addictive personality has cornered me to an empty grave while I shrugged and chuckled at the tip of their spears. I'm not too far gone, I just hope I can supplement my health. If I didn't have a consistent prescription for Benzos, there's no way I would be able to function like this.

Please, never abuse alcohol and Benzos. It has ruined the last 6-7 years of my life and essentially the entirety of my 20s. I say this from a perspective while I am currently under the influence of 6x 6.5% ABV ciders and 10mg of Xanax. It traps you into the worse cocoon of fear and anxiety.

Just, don't be like me.

>>745061920
I wish I had the money for JD. I'm nearly done my bottle of cheap vodka.

>>745062053
Damn bro, what vodka you hitting?

Natty Bo and Evan Williams cause I'm broke.

Drinking to stave off the shakes because alcoholics shouldn't work at a liquor store, lol

>>745061999
Good for you anon. Never change that path you are on. Unfortunately for me, booze seems like the only option for me right now.

>>745061999
>Thankfully I have begun a tapering schedule so I don't die too young.

You'll be fine. It's going to be the ride of your life coming down but it's going to make you strong. You will come out the other side strong and you will have the strength again to get your life back.

Good luck

>>745057638
tap water right now.

>>745057800
You are a man of culture and taste.

>>745062106
New Amsterdam Vodka. It feels horrible but gets the job done. Hope I get alcohol poisoning soon.

>>745058167
Because I feel like it? Not everybody is an angsty teen or a widower battling alcoholism while trying to find his wife's killer.

>dating a girl diagnoised with extreme bi polar and multiple personality disorder
>breaks up with me everyday
>wants me back everyday
>legit
>super hot and cant stop wanting sex even if shes going crazy and hates me for no reason
>in love with her and hate her too

So im drunk every single day usually wine. Also smoke a good 500 bucks in over priced weed here in ohio. Its 2pm i will be cracking open a bottle of chardony here soon to deal with insane emotional problems

>>745062307

> not tullamore dew

Syke

>>745062504
I meant about 500 bucks a month

>>745062504
Chardonnay whatever the fuck this shit is

I'm not drinking yet because it's early. But, I drink mostly beer now. Almost every day because being sober fucking sucks and I lost a bunch of opiate dealers..

>>745062449
Damn anon, sorry to hear that, what's got you down?

How many here are drinking because of a break up? Goddamn anons.

Im drinking german beer, every night around 12 cans. This night is no exception. I know im a functional alcoholic and im only 23 years old.

Quitted, almost 4 weeks sober
Nothing but water, hate soda tonic and non alcoholic beverage in general

Trying some Elk Warning cider with strawberries. It's pretty nice. Much nicer flavour than a lot of the other Swedish super sweet ciders. Doesn't just taste like sugar.

>>745062696
Women anon, what else. I know it sounds like I'm weak as fuck but I cant help it man. Bitches forget things so easily, while I'm stuck in the past thinking about the good times I had with her, all the things I sacrificed for her. While she doesn't give a single fuck for me.

>>745062845
Feels 10/10

>>745062774
Here. Bitches ain't nothing but whores.

>>745062774
Females are mostly a waste of time so no I don't drink over a dumb bitch.

>>745062167
>>745062220

Cheers fellas, the support is much appreciated.

The morbid thankfulness I have it that I understand my seizure threshold and have been able to cut back a significant amount already without a terrible amount of discomfort. During a five year stunt in a kitchen with incredibly high stress, I ended up having around 16-18 seizures, many of which were in the kitchen in which I was employed. I have three very large scars on my head from impact trauma. Thankfully though, I had the good sense to leave that line of work and am now comfortable in my work environment, seizure free since I left the kitchen approximately two years ago now.

If I did not have the support of my mother and girlfriend, I am sure I would have passed away at this point. It's incredibly selfish for me to continue with alcohol and Benzos, however I largely have it under control as I taper down. I have good people in my life who keep an eye on me and assist me if I begin to slip.

I'm extremely excited to be rid of my addictive afflictions and truly become a responsible adult.

Drugs are a dream, then with the flip of coin, a nightmare,

>>745062918
I know that feel bro, bitch already out banging scumbags. Get up and show em you can do better

>>745063348
Surprisingly after 2 years I'm trying to do exactly that. Even though I'm drinking I'm trying to cut back as much as I can. One of these days I'm hoping I can be my old self, old self that didn't give a fuck and was so happy. Thanks anon for the kind words.

>>745057638
Have half a bottle of Jack to go

>>745063130
You are lucky than most of us here anon, you have some people in your life that care about you. Take that and be the best self of you. Best of luck to you.

>>745063655
No problem anon, I know the struggle. You can do it bro, hopefully I can too

Used to drink half a bottle of whisky every other day. Got a 40 hour a week job now so only drink on friday and saturday. But goddamn do I miss drinking. But I can't just drink one or 2 drinks and stop without immediately feeling like shit. I either drink heavily or I don't

>>745062918
I think as men we get blinded by tittys and ass and pussy and having a pretty girl in our car in our arms in our bed. Blinded like a deer in headlights to how horrible someones character flaws are. We all have an ideal girlfriend/wife image, but we choose a chick we like on the outside over a chick we like on the inside because the inside dont really become visable until its too late.

Who else /pbr/ here?

>>745057638

will be drinking beer tonight, just like every other night. alcoholic.

>>745064095
This. We rationalize all the red flags thinking they are just character flaws but in the end its just how bitches behave. They are naturally inclined to pick the next best spot on ladder.

>>745057638
Makers Mark. I drink every afternoon while applying to jobs that I will never hear back from. Eases the pain of inevitable rejection.

Stay strong depressed anons. Life will get better eventually.

Oh and my unemployed drink of choice was vat 69.

My employed drink of choice is singleton speyside cascade or glenrothers.

>>745064829
Damn.. that's my drink of choice, but you'll never guess where I'm from.

>>745060734
Yeah, it's crazy, but that is maximum strength, after that you have to burn the spirits.. can you say that?

>>745064829
Thanks Anon

>>745065435
Anyone from here listening to music?

>>745065002
South american or east asian? I can never picture from those parts drinking whisky.

Singleton or vat 69 btw?

>>745058553
Because of the health consequences, I sure would.

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This, it's horrible, because everything else is too

>>745065819
Everyone dies, faggot.

>>745065707
Close, South Asian. Vat 69 my man. Its the best whiskey for your money can buy from here.

>>745065944
>"wood aged"
>not even "oak aged"

Wow.

Have a borderline drinking problem so I don't keep alcohol in the house. If I do when I come up for air in like 3 weeks I get mild withdraw symptoms.

I'm married and continue to function as a professional, lift 4-5 times a week. But really life is just boring and bland without alcohol.

Like me some whiskey, eagle rare gets expensive at a 5th a night.

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>>745065567
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IFcHa2ieK9s

>>745066029
tbf it doesn't have to be oak, but the fact that it doesn't specify at all makes me assume it's chemical-treated pine from the lumberyard downtown

>>745066197
>implying not mdf
Do you even distill bro?

>>745066197
It's almost always oak in good whiskies, save for some stand-outs like hickory, maple, etc.

Ballantines. I broke up with girl and I want to get drunk as fuck

>>745066403
Anglosphere?

>>745066541
Great Slavic Poland, heh

Drinking pic related. Pain relief, pain killers not cutting it tonight. (herpetic spinal infection)

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>>745066802
forgot pic

>>745060238
you monster, why would you do this to him

>>745066947
/b/ is not your friends

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Pisspoor beer with pizza.

Drinking Vodka, Beer and popped some Ativan.

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Some wine, cant afford wiskey anymore at this rate. Im not shure wy i drink anymore, My closest family is aware and especially my younger brother is awfully worried and disapointed.

I'm not drinking because I have shingles and don't want my immune system to be even slower at fighting this shit off. Otherwise I'd be on Lagavulin 16yrs, Gorlovka and maybe some gin

>>745067201
iktf man

Johnny Walker Red.

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>>745068254

>>745065947
You first, I hope. I'll take my time.

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>>745057638
some good ol' wiliam lawson...cause it's my birthday and i'm a lonely alcoholic

>>745070253
Happy birthday bro

>>745070253
I feel you. I was drinking alone on my last three birthdays too.

>>745070634
Thanks m8

>>745070894
Damn...

>>745057638
I'm on day 9 of no drinking. Been drinking 500-700 mls vodka per night for 10 years

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bass anna blunt

>>745057638
I drink because fuck you. Also soul crushing cultural degredation.

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I drink to forget about all the racist thangs yall white boi's said to a cadillac mothafucka like myself.

http://thefreedomforum.com/topics/religion-or-soccer/

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>>745071244
Good luck, hope it goes well.

I grew up in a wine region, and like, all of my sicoal contacts are addicted to alcohol. Also my father and my grandpa. If, you're not drinking for the taste. Stop fucking doing it. May sound edgy, but w8 till this shit destroys you family and friends.

>>745072649
I dont even care anymore.

>>745057638
>I'm here drinking the tears of my enemies and the blood of my victims. Because I can.

>>745060526
I made a promise to stop drinking for a month.
I was pissed off.
I'm always pissed off.
Drinking helps me care less.
I went right back into it and haven't looked back. I drink every other/ every 2 nights and I usually go ham.
Don't drink Barton's anymore because one time I woke up and my fucking liver was sore for a week. I wish I didn't drink so much when I was younger. I feel like I conditioned myself to be a functional alcoholic.
But hey, it's better than being sober.
I can't decide if I should take today off.

>>745073026
Ayy, close to 40 here and I drink way too much at the wkends, always have, and probably always will.
I was honestly thinking about buying a half litre of vodka tonight as well as some beers, but it's not the wkend... is what I keep telling myself.. I thounght about it, and though some more, and I think I've come to the conclusion that I'll feel 100x better tomorrow if I don't.
Maybe you should join me not drinking tonight anon?

>>745073026
i'm on the same ultimatum...in 5 years of really heavy drinking there were 2 times where i've been sober for a month...and then i miss drinking so much while listening to songs where i use to be wasted or just when it's night or wathever that i go right back into binge drinking....but the hangover and the feelings of shame gets worse and worse so i believe it's better to stop some day....this feeling of guilt and everything sucks ...i wish i was like Lemmy Kilmister....not care about it all and die while playing video games :D rip lemmy

Well, im drinking Desperados

>>745073817
If you don't drink tonight I won't. If you do, then fuck you cause I should have drank my wife's wine again.
That'll piss her right off.
I don't keep hard liquor or beer because if it's around, I drink it.

Anyone here who tried phenibut and can tell if it's worth to buy it?

>>745074018
OK anon, it's a deal.

why do these fucking threads always become sad alchoholics waiting to die

>>745074051
Ever tried benzos?

>>745074115
Do you really click on an alcohol thread and expect anything else?

>>745074145
One time. I took 20mg diazepam but I didn't feel much of it.

>>745074115
KEK :D because if you drink with friends or whatever it's ok...but think about it...if you drink and you're drunk and have such no live that you 're enjoying your drunkness on /b/...then of course it's sad AF....i'm no exeption don't worry...drunk as fuck and on /b/

>>745074177
alleluhya

>>745059011
Wow, just looked that up and it sounds delicious. Wish we had that in the US.

>>745074177
>>745074523
Makes sense I guess, I'm just pretty cheerful drinking even when I'm alone on /b/ listening to music so I keep hoping the threads will be too.

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Famous Grouse

>>745074758
what music do you listen to when you're drunk?

>>745075309
Usually a lot of classical or rock if I'm in the mood

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>>745057638

Late to the thread but awk well, I'm having a drink tonight, vodka with a splash of red bull, just because I'm in a shitty mood and couldn't be fucked with anyone right now...

What's better than getting drunk and high on your own when you're down?

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i just cant stop a binge, trying to stop one today, only gonna drink 7 beers today

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i wish i had enough money to buy some laphoaig instead of wiliam lawson tho

>>745075309
depressive music

>>745070253
happy bday,, do something memorable!

>>745076060
KEK :D

>>745076060
lol if you say so /b/ro I'm enjoying it with a smile on my face

>>745076125
yeah i'm getting drunk as fuck while smoking marlboro gold and listening to "Ghost" lol thanks m8

>>745060526
takes a lot longer to mentally get back in the game,, also you actually have to be pursuing something else. CAUSE you got way more free time now

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It's that time boys.

>>745076277
like something really memorable,, like go to jail,, ha jk but be creative

>>745076410
monica
Haven't had Maker's since I came to Europe, miss that shit

first drinking then smoking.

>>745076462
ahahaa :D thanks i'll try :D

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>cock pils :D
here

>>745057638
My therapist told me she won't work with me anymore.. How pathetic is that..

I bought 3 cases of 15 PBR and a bottle of Jack Daniels.. Just continually drnking till i pass out and repeating....

I dont understand how you guys can blackout and move/be belligerent without coke.. I just pass the fuck out for a couple hours

anyways life sucks, i hope some of you get the courage to off yourselves tonight, thanks for listening

>>745076784
why'd she quit?

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>>745076784
but you got some joy out of writing this, there is more joy to be have my friend! Basically drunk cause i said that,, gonna go get in and out,, call police to see if they can catch me lol

>>745076524
I'll pour a little extra for you. Cheers.

>>745076824
i have borderline personality disorder and i was to emotionally attached to her. she told me to go find other mental health services through an email and told me not to come in the day of our appointment

the sad part is that one of my main problems is severing all my relationships for no reason other than my self-loathing and depression and in this case the one person i thought was safe to be vulnerable with abandoned me..

>>745076924
amen brother, amen

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>>745057638
Drinking cuase it makes me happy/

>>745077095
Jesus... that's deeply fucked. Hopefully you'll find someone more skilled and professional.

>>745059187
get the stoli

>>745077260
thanks

>>745075807
tastes like burnt seaweed imo famalam

if mental, dont drink.. i quess. i am pro.

>>745075602

meh since no one is even interested, I'm gonna drink myself black out drunk and wake up for work tomorrow feeling like shit, then spend the whole day thinking about getting drunk and mangled off my face on drugs, only to repeat everything over again tomorrow night.

Enjoy your night /b/ros

>>745059296

how would you move from autralia to sweden
I mean like, isn't the cold incredibly shit?

>>745063093

this. please, just don't.

>>745071244

you better get it done and come here again to tell me. make me proud anon

>>745078074
hes metal af.

>>745057800
love it

>>745077898
Why don't you read a book instead?

>>745077095
Damn. I didn't even know that could happen.

Also, what's borderline like?

>bipolar 1 reporting in

>>745078563

I have ADHD (shitty excuse as I'm told by everyone but fuck it) so my concentration levels for trying to get indulged in a book is wayyyyy off what I'd like to do, it's 11:03 pm (ukfag) at the minute, so I'll probably finish off my vodka, smoke a joint and go to bed shortly.

Other than that, I'm quite proud I haven't shoved a few grams of speed up my nose and continue drinking for a further few days

>>745057638
I'm drinking shitty oak leaf chardonnay.

I drink because I hate my life. Because this bipolar has taken everything from me. Because I'm cursed to this illness and because im not sure if living is even worth it.

The wifi is out. I'm alone. Nothing to do but sit and drink and think.

>>745079379
read some bukowski then.

>>745079503
>bukowski

Why?

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>>745057800
Favorite drink so far. I was thinking about trying this drink pic related. Has anyone tried it?

On a miller high life kick ATM. Drinking because despite quitting a dead-end job, moving from a dead ass end town and genuinely trying to improve my circumstances I still feel like I'm living a dead-end life. But mainly after enough brews I stop thinking negatively and sleep pretty well.

>>745078583
i didnt think it could happen either. i created an incredibly safe world for myself to avoid my emotions and triggers and now its all crumbled

if i had to describe what it is like for me it ultimately just boils down to this cycle that i'm on where every 1 - 3 months i have an intense uncontrollable emotional episode that i can't stop without harming myself or using drugs to force a suicidal episode. small things emotionally affect me very much and slowly add to this pool of emotions that eventually boils over. i generally take everything that happens personally and blame myself, but i've been doing better at not dwelling on suidical thoughts because they snowball. i am not really able to maintain relationships due to my emotions because i have intense feelings of abandonment and self hate so i generally avoid them completely. the most annoying part about borderline is that things that aren't even emotionally charged can affect me... for example when i watched the new star wars movies the loud sounds and explosions during the space battle scenes can emotionally affect me and make me cry, despite not having any emotional charge to it, its just misplaced uncontrollable emotion sitting there.

all of this has actually caused me to become somewhat ableist towards peolpe with emotional disorders because i hate myself for how i am. i definitely need to shake these beliefs if i'm ever going to get better.

what is bipolar 1 like for you?

I've enjoyed a lot of the Japanese stuff I've tried lately, though I haven't tried that one. Definitely putting it on the list. Did you try Yoichi before they ran out of the stuff they were age stating on?

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>>745057638

>>745080121
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>>745057638
Glenmorangie 12 neat
Just failed to get the job I've been after for the better part of a year

>>745080683
what kind of job was it?

>>745080789
Pilot job, I'm still a well-paid pilot with lots of options, but it's a kick in the nuts

>>745081059
that's gotta be an interesting line of work. well hope you figure it out

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>>745061999
tfw not american and cant get in on the legal opiod epidemic

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>>745077168
mission success, probably piss myself in 2 hours

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>>745079947
Hmm. Wow. That sounds rough. I used to be too fucked up to have relationships myself. I almost miss those days.

As for your question.

My brain undergoes cyclical chemical changes. They affect my mood. My emotions. At the deepest of the downs, I become incredibly depressed. I feel little emotion. Almost none. Life becomes very bleak and pointless. I don't kill myself because it's too much effort.

At the highest of the ups, everything becomes a fight against the mania. Mania is what happens when my ultra-elevated emotions start feeding into eachother. Every emotion becomes very strong. It's fun. It's also incredibly dangerous for myself and others if I let the mania win.

One time, before I knew I was bipolar, I went so manic for so long that I developed psychosis. A psychotic manic, I was.

I was forcibly hospitalized.

I'm never going back there.

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>>745076784
cause you gotta do crazy shit to stay up,, like vandalizing elementally schools and shit

>>745081286
I will, but until then I'll pour another. Cheers.

>>745079633
hes a pro at drinking. helps with depression.

>>745077898
fantasizing getting drunk is the worst thing you can do for yourself,, but it's so fun

>>745080121
No haven't tried anything Japanese tbh. Some guys I know that specialize in whiskey said Japan is amongst the top ones. Will add Yoichi on the list

>>745081907
i can't even imagine what that must be like. for me depression/suicidal idealization is the epitome of "emotions" what is an emotionless depression like? is it like a lack of energy?

also what does letting mania win mean? do you blackout or start having delusions?

being someone who doesn't know they have a disorder is the worst situation to be in. i also remember being depressed as a kid before i knew what depression was. what a horrible place that is.

you don't have to answer these questions if you don't want to, but I am interested. what makes you miss isolation? i kind of fear that i will stay here forever becuase it really is more comfortable than dealing with triggers. it sounds like you're doing a little better though, i really hope the best for you anon

>>745081961
i would lose energy and motivation mid vandalization - dunt get it