For cocaine lovers and ex-lovers: I'm 32, male, brazilian.

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For cocaine lovers and ex-lovers:
I'm 32, male, brazilian. Used cocaine systematically 5 times a week from 2011 to 2015 (4 years), from 9pm to ~2am.
I had a girlfriend (now we are married), worked home office (still do) and had a very normal life in all this period, but that 5 hours was some kind of particular second life I had and nobody never knew about it.
In the beggining, I passed that time snorting, drinking some whiskey, reading, playing some pc game, watching movies, etc, but in the last year I was just snorting more and more, intercalating with 4-5 beers, and jerking off all night watching every kind of porn, mostly very weird stuff, locked in my room. The whole situation was disgusting.
Suddenly, I married and moved with my wife and just stopped with that cocaine routine. I confess I used it one time or another in party occasions, but since more than a year ago I decided to never use it anymore.
I frequently dream that I am snorting cocaine. It's not the effect of the drug, but the ritual of prepairing the stuff and take a nice line of coke after drinking a beer, and get awake again. Sometimes when I drink a lot of beer I also wish I had bought some coke.
I know that my life is better without it, but I miss that disguting hours I had 5 days a week.
Do someone here, who quit coke, have the same dreams or frequently feel that need? Do you think that maybe in some years I will forget it forever?