Hey, Anonymous. How's it going? Something got you down?

>>744219284
fenn, why are you such a fegget?

>>744219284

i just watched dat film for first time. it was good

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>>744219358
I dunno, you tell me.

>>744219439
Hey, were you in last night's thread? I'm glad you liked the movie.

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Good evening, anonymous.
Here to lend a hand to hold and a shoulder to rest on. Let us carry your burdens for a while, anon.

>>744219284
I get confused sometimes. So you are Fenn and you are?>>744219664

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>>744219922
No, Fenn is a huge homosex, the name is Neptune.

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>>744219922
>>744220013
Yes.

>>744220269
>>744220013
Ok so its Fenn, Nep, Jill, and a few other right?

>>744219284
Is it bad to fall for a taken person? We feel alot of attraction towards each other. Don't know what to do...

>>744220416
the cucksquad2

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>>744220416
Pretty much, yeah. Reimu and Sky and Mantis are some of the others.

>>744220529
If the person you yearn for is willing to leave who they've already got, go for it. If they aren't, get away.

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>>744220529
Nothing wrong with you, but if you do shit like try to get them to break up you're a dick.

>>744220599
We stopped talking a few months ago due to this...but I still like her...

>>744220763
The thing is... Her boyfriend with be deployed soon...and well...it seems like a good chance...I know I'm a dick for thinking this but I.just really like her

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>>744220950
If she's already with someone, don't try to drive them apart. As Neptune said, that's a dick move. Don't even think about it, especially not while he's deployed.

Get your mind off her. Force her out of the front of your head. Start looking seriously for other girls.

>>744221079
Depends on whether you lust or love her eh

>>744221188
>>744221200
I mean she was the one who contacted me, I never made a move... We just kinda flirted for a while before she went back to her bf. She is a super hot latina so let's hope she doesnt contact me again. I feel sorry for these military dudes...

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>>744221079
Yeah, no bueno.
Don't be a dick.

>>744221485
Do you know the guy personally?

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>>744221485
Stay away from her and ignore her if she tries again. For his sake. Be a bro. Even if you don't know him.

I'm slowly recovering in the wake of a brutal break-up where my shedevil ex ended up fucking one of my friends and turned all of the rest against me. For the most part, my social reputation and everything about my livelihood has been completely eviserated by a legion of vicious, conflicting personalities all out to ensure that they remain head of the pack.
They are all sophisticated, interconnected, and equipped with state of the art psychological weaponry, where as I am heartbroken, mentally destroyed, and living in relative exile.
That said, do you think there is any chance of recovery? I'd hate to end my life without ruining at least one or two of theirs.

>>744221658
Do you mean recover as in, being the old you or recover as in just surviving?

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>>744221658
Get away from these people if you can, Anon. Short of that, remind yourself that they do not define you. They may have ruined many of the things you hold dear, but you're strong enough to move past that. You can recover from this. They don't have that much power over you.

You can rebuild after this. It'll be difficult, and it'll take time. But that's what life is like. Life sucks.

>>744221599
>>744221599
>>744221512
I'm not friends with him but I know who he is... I don't think he knows about us though. I just didnt expect him to join the military, especially with a hot gf staying at home...poor guy

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>>744221658
If they were swayed away that easily they were never your friends, be the adult of the situation and simply move on, if they were so easily manipulated into hating you there is no loss nor any need to mourn over it, go on, move on, stop caring about those parasytes.

>>744221872
There is no chance for me to become the old me since as soon as I put down this phone I will be swarmed by the most sadistic possible thoughts directed towards me until I run out of room to breathe and begin to stress eat.
My personality has been completely dissected from every possible vantage point, so I have to work against I'd say... 20 skilled predators completely alone with absolutely nothing to my name.
Also just barely surviving.

>>744222008
Well, to be honest, she made a move.
If it's not you, it'll probably be someone else eh. To not be a dick you shouldn't go out with her, but at the end he's going to get fucked anyway. Also, don't follow my advice, I mostly end relationships between people, but it's been a while.

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>>744222008
You're a dick.

>>744222164
You could always try losing touch with reality? I mean, as long as you're distracted by it it won't hurt. If everything's already gone to shit and there's no good outcome it can't hurt that bad. The upside is that you lose your sense for anything, and you're "free", the downside is that as soon as you back out (at least, I), it'll come crashing down

>>744221922
Wrong, see when you say remind yourself I actually am completely unable to. You drastically underestimate the shitpit I am in and am sinking deeper with every given second.
I actually now lack the psychological ability to fortify my self esteem with thoughtful reminders since that is straight up denial, it will only cause my brain to fracture and overheat. There is no placing it down because my entire manner of thought has been completely ensnared by multiple people and being chewed alive thusly.

>>744222123
Yes well even though they were assholes I'm apparently the bigger asshole because it turns out all life is vicious as holy fuck.
I can not move on, as I lack the psychological strength to focus on anything else. Drawing, writing, reading, etc. these activities actually cause my skin to burn and eyes to redden. It's fucking maddening and I'm positive one or are lurking around laughing as we speak.

>>744219284
Well. Not ok. I'm having an existential crisis. My gf left me and I was in love with her, to the point I got obsessed with her. I have a job but it's frustrating. And I have a really bad self-esteem with my abilities... And I am a total pussy to meet new grills and sheet. Sometimes I just want to kill myself, sometimes I just want to leave everything behind and go "into the wild", but then again I'm a pussy to pull any of those options. I think that I need someone to talk things through or someone whom can give me a good advise

>>744222851
I know that feel man, yet I don't really have good advice

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>>744222673
Yeah, no, I highly recomend not to try that as it could bring serious issues. That's what I did to try and escape my troubles and I ended up with serious mental illness.
>>744222699
Relax, anon, no one here is going after you, and honestly, you should try to get rid of the paranoia, by, again, trying to relax.

>>744222673
That is impossible at this point since my old means of losing touch with reality actually made the entire problem infinitely worse.
When I say I am fucked. I am f-u-c-k fucked.

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>>744222699
I mean, you've obviously got enough integrity to be aware of your problem and able to phrase it in an understandable fashion. Why can't you leave these people behind? Will they come after you wherever you go? I get the feeling that most of this is in your head.

>>744222851
I can't guarantee good advice Anon, but I'll listen. You've got abilities, and they're good ones. Maybe sometimes you can't see that, but it doesn't make them any less good. You're going to need to move on from your girlfriend and continue living. It'll be hard, but you can do it. You can power through this.

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>>744222851
You can hit me up on discord if you'd like to chat. Been through an existential crisis, pretty much became a full fledged nihilist.

>>744223005
Welp, can I ask what mental illness? I'm curious.
>>744223025
Can you describe what your old means were?

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>>744219284
How do you stop someone from committing suicide?

>>744219284
the weekend is loooong and all my generals are dead

I won't talk to another adult until next monday about this time either

It's getting to me

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>>744223339
If I knew, I'd have more friends.

Good luck.

>>744222851
>>744223266
Same. Life has a way of shaping us. I was a completely different person 4 years ago. I can't go back though...

>>744223339
Most of the time I've talked them out of it, other times I just agreed and other times I just let them go

>>744223339
any way you possibly can

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>>744223425
You can talk to us here Anon, if that helps. What video games have you got? Do you have beer in the fridge?

>>744223466
Damn... That was dark. I hope you are joking Fenn...

>>744223005
Well they were, just to twist the knife in a little more before my life was effectively destroyed beyond repair, now I'm just dealing with the shell shock of a massive, massive failure that will likely haunt me for life.

>>744223221
That is because I am using a visual aid to momentarily take my mind off what relentless, unforgiving Hell my entire life has become. I do not have personal thoughts anymore that are not extraordinarily painful.
I have no idea really, because they've filed down my system of reasoning to few base operations to where I physically can not orchestrate an effective route of escape.

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>>744223339
Is it happening now? Elaborate a bit further please.
>>744223266
Severe depression, NPD and ASPD. The last one is specially helpful in some cases for me atleast.

>>744223425
Take a cup of coffee and speak

>>744223529
I let my uncle go but I wrote him a heartfelt letter before and he was dying of AIDS back before it was popular.

I still.. I wish I could have know him as an adult.

>my gf left me :(
>should i fuck this armybro's gf while he's away? HELP!
oh wow tough problems bro

>>744223339
Sometimes people literally just need someone to talk to. The world is lonely.

>>744223339
irl friend or online?

>>744223754
I know that feel
Sadly we can't bring back the dead

wheres jill

>>744223753
not much to say literally this >>744223789

not that I'm suicidal mind, I've felt good for a long time, just as nearly zero social outlets as is insignificant

>>744223923
that's one thing I always try to convey, suicide takes away your whole future and takes you away from people who would want to know you or for you to know them

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>>744223273
I misclicked look at >>744223695
>>744223660
Do you mind elaborating?
>>744223979
Jill is being an adult rn. Should see that nerd around soon.

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>>744219284
Hello
>>744219664
Sup

>>744224082
isnt jill like 14 though

>>744224082
On what?
Christ this is fucking terrifying.

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>>744223612
Of course I'm joking. Do I ever say serious things in these threads?

>>744223660
I'm sorry it's come to this, Anon. Have you tried escaping, and failed?

>>744223756
Look, everybody's problems seem big to them, no matter how small they really are.

>>744224146
Hey Mantis. My internet is slow tonight.

>>744224158
No.

>>744223695
>>744223873
>>744223789
She has always suffered from depression ever since she was a teenager. The guy that she was having sex with and helped her with her issues has left her. So she says she has nothing left. It kinda hurts that I'm not enough for her.

>>744219284
VirginFag here and i'm considering hiring prostitute because I'm really desperate. Is it the right thing to do? What do you think?

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>>744224206
Go for it mane. Don't get too worked up over it, or you won't enjoy it. Relax.

>>744223756
So what? You expect cancer patients to make these threads?

>>744224195
well the guy who wants attention for fucking a 'hot latina' is a cunt either way

>>744224054
I don't really have anyone to talk to either, but it's getting better
Suicide has always seemed useless to me

>>744224202
I've been in a relationship like this before. I'm sorry to sound kind of cold/calloused but unless you really both love each other you won't be able to help. To quote a note someone once left me:
"You can't jump in the water to save a drowning person."

>>744224206
Consenting adults can consent. Have fun.

>>744224331
>You expect cancer patients to make these threads?
yep not faggot attention whores, people dealt a shit hand maybe

>>744224195
No I have always stood by a cohesive system of ethics despite those who I stood for doing everything in the power to thwart and backstab me until I became something they were glad to revile.
Then, by sheer luck, I had a chance to turn it all around, completely, to actually fucking win in a way that couldn't have been beaten in return.
And do you know what happened?
I blew the opportunity, and it backfired so horribly that I actually know suicide would lead me to the fucking Hell now.

>>744224361
Damn, someones in a bad mood tonight. Sorry my problems trigger you so much

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I feel like I've lost control of my life.

I blow my money on frivolous things I don't need, I live paycheck to paycheck, I haven't taken my meds (anti-depressants) in weeks, and I live on fast food.

I need a serious intervention.

Help me, Naussica.

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>>744224202
ooh friendzoned with a bazooka

still you need to love you first and not feel bad that she isn't that into you

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>>744224158
Lmao, no.
>>744224206
Yes, do it.
>>744224391
Sadly, this.
People who become dependant on someone in order to stay afloat are really hard to deal with since they do not often trust many people to even begin with.
>>744224459
>>744224526
FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!
>>744224193
Eh? What is?

>>744224391
We are just friends but still, it's kinda sad that my friendship isnt enough..

>>744224082
Ah yes, thank you
I did have a time where I had the symptoms of NPD, but that was when I was a child if I remember correctly.
I don't really know if I have anything, since I don't really go anywhere. It's mostly like a game to me nowadays, life I mean

>>744224206
think of it like a tattoo and spend some money on a good one

>>744224606
My entire situation is terrifying, literally every last fucking detail is designed to kill me.

>>744224526
you're such a transparent faggot. I expected to read some real problems tonight not some loner who needs to blogpost on /b/ of all places for recognition

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>>744224361
So what?

>>744224202
If you've done all you can do, don't expect more of yourself. If nothing can be done, nothing can be done, and that's that.

I'm sorry.

>>744224459
Why do you care? Go read some Schopenhauer or something.

>>744224519
Well, does that mean there really is no hope of a positive future then?

>>744224574
Get it in order, Anon. Take your meds now if you've got them. Don't eat fast food tomorrow, go out and buy food at the store instead. Fry yourself up some burgers or something tomorrow night, if you can afford them. Or bake a frozen pizza.

You're the one you need, Anon. You're the one who can change this. You have to make the move yourself.

I'm telling you to do it now.

>>744224748
>/b/
>expected

>>744224574
stop buying frivolous things, they don't make you happy

upgrade your fast food to be healthier, like red robin instead of mcd's

and take your meds please we care about how you are

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>>744224748
I cant ask for simple advice because some faggot neckbeard is gonna get triggered. Kek. Stay mad

>>744224574
Pls go and see your doctor. You need to go back on your message, and he needs to know you've not been taking them.

>>744224819
No there really is not.

>>744224705
if you're not in prison in afrika facing getting your other leg cut off I'm not sure how bad it could actually be tho

>>744224923
*meds
Fucking auto correct

>>744224919
E P I C simply based

>>744224937
How well can one walk with no feet?

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>>744224635
I'm 18, so I don't know, I simply get by on life.
>>744224574
First of all, go back on your meds, anon. Please.
>>744224705
Well, you've managed to stay alive so far, haven't you?
>>744224919
You're not making yourself look any better...

>>744219284
Keep making these threads op, I could use a hug.

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>>744224919
Please don't continue the fight. Not worth it.

>>744224931
That's terrible. Will you continue on like this? For how long?

>>744225063
http://www.oddee.com/item_98313.aspx

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>>744225073
*Hugs you tightly* I go back and forth a lot on that, Anon. I'm not sure.

>>744225070
That's a good way, I think.
I had anger issues thanks to my meds for a while tho, that's for sure
Maybe it caused me to forget everything so easily

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>>744225073
Here

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>>744225073
Here
>

>>744225074
You are such a nice person… i wish i could have you in my life

>>744225172
I mean, without prosthesis eh.
I know that it makes walking without feet better

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>>744225383
People have wished that before, and regretted it. I'm pretty poisonous when people get close to me, Anon. Let's keep things the way they are.

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>>744225073
/b/ can be so depressing sometimes...

>>744225354
>>744225347
>>744225206
Thanks a lot guys, things are kinda rough right now but I'll make it through just fine.

>>744225073
Drink some coffee, anon

>>744225493
not him but I'd still have you in my life, poison or not

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>>744225506
You got dis. I believe in you, Anon.

>>744219284
I've been lonely af for a long time. Going to ask out a really nice girl who I met some months ago (and had a nice friendship since) this weekend, if it doesn't work i'm going to kill myself.

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>>744225493
Are you me?

>>744224937
That will probably be what's next for me considering the path I am on.

>>744225070
Barely, right now I am just leeching off someone else due to another miserable failure in life, handled the break-up poorly, mind started to break down and because my ability to rationalize was severely impaired, I flew off the handle and lost my car in a wreck. I have very little means to support myself and am quite easily in the most pathetic position I have ever been in.

>>744225074
Probably, and until I can develop an adequate means to defend myself, which is way way way way easier said than done.

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>>744225508
Some covfefe.
>>744225584
I wish you the best of lucks!
>>744225615
Do you like big dicks?

>>744225677
6 cups yes

>>744224819
I think getting back on my meds would be the first step. They worked and made me feel good.

>>744225584
No, you will not kill yourself.
You will live on, and learn what you can from the experience.

>>744225677
Thanks man, feels weird to still be able to find some nice people down here.

>>744225584
Why die for someone else eh

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>>744225562
No.

>>744225584
Do it Anon. But you know what? If she says no, you move on. You get over it, and you find another girl. Ask her. Maybe she says yes, maybe no. Move on.

Keep moving on.

You don't have power over anything but your mind, Anon. But if you're lucky you have complete power over that. Don't place too much value on things outside your control.

>>744225615
If you're a nigger-faggot who wastes hours every night posting threads on /b/, then yes.

>>744225644
It's going to be hard to do Anon, but you can still do it. You've got this. You're going to survive this.

>>744225757
I have a friend who stopped taking his meds, and started slowly deteriorating. His mind is falling apart now. He might make it back to where he was before.

Don't be him.

Take them now.

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>>744225677
Why are you so mean to Fenn?

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>>744225931
Shut the fuck up.

>>744225860
Most of the people here are just faking it eh (hatred, I mean), from what I can tell

>>744224298
>>744224393
>>744224606
>>744224661

Still having mix feelings though. But I'll give it some thought.

Here's what I don't understand about you, Jill, Nep and all those other group: You insist that you are here to help, but always pontificate about how 'damaged' and 'poisonous' you are. Why? Why do all of you always say the same thing?
>you don't want me in your life.
>you don't want to know me, I'm too corrosive.

What a shitty attitude to have. Frankly I think it's hypocritical as fucking hell to spout off that kind of shit while you encourage gullible, impressionable /b/ tards to come to you for advice and comfort.

>inb4 'this is b8'

Not bait. I genuinely don't understand the mindset you people have. Care to explain any?

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>>744225931
I dunno, lets ask him.
>>744225904
Hey Fenn, why am I so mean?

>>744225904
Thanks, I forget I have to have that mindset or I genuinely will die, I just can't relax or let my guard down for a second anymore.

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>>744226107
Alright, I'll entertain you for tonight, give me specific question for specific answers.

>>744226107
I'd guess they'd just keep privacy? Or they're just keeping everything to themselves for reasons unknown/keeping reality and virtuality separated
Idunno

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>>744226107
We are btards. We are far from perfect. Very far.

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>>744225931
I really, really like that image of Seiba.

>>744226282
What exactly happened to you that was so bad that you have to tell internet strangers that shit happened to you?

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>>744226072
Good luck, Anon. I hope it goes well, if you decide to do it.

>>744226107
Dunno man. If you don't trust me, don't talk to me. I'll admit, I do have a pretty shitty attitude, and when people try to be nice to me or help me out I'm nasty to them.

Your complaint is acknowledged.

Do you think I should stop?

>>744226109
I dunno, you tell me.

>>744226197
Hang onto it Anon, don't let it go again.

>>744225897
Not dying for someone else, dying because the last time you felt anything close to happiness was like 10 years ago.

>>744226436
Hm, it really puts a pressure on just one girl eh
I've literally forgotten the last time I was happy

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>>744226383
I don't really have to do anything, and actually I am one of the most detached avafags of the whole group. Do you want to know my sob story or what?

>>744226629
I'd like to hear it

>>744226629
Me too

>>744226629
Edgy as fuck my dude.

I guess it was pretty stupid of me to assume I would get actual answers from you people, instead of you just turtling up.
Have a nice little circle jerk.

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is this true? :s

>>744226966
It's all a lie my man

>>744226963
how does it feel finally turning 13

>>744226423
Telling people to fuck off is not always the answer, people can be nice and you can enjoy those little moments with them.

>>744219284
My boyfriend (I'm a guy too) gave me food poisoning and I don't know if he did it on purpose or not. Can't stop thinking and wondering and now I'm afraid to eat his cooking.

>>744219284
Why does Shirou Enema have a pikachu?

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>>744226861
>>744226755
Alright, alright, basically it all started 2 years ago when I developed a depression, basically almost fucked up my senior year of highschool if were it not thanks to doctor's notes, had to go through 7 different psychologist before even starting an actual therapy because no one had free hours, thing is, with time my mental health slowly decayed, I was constantly feeling worthless and my parents were giving me shit for "being lazy" and saying that I was faking it, I ended up becoming completely detached to everything and everyone to the point I would simply toy with people. But I wasn't always like this, I first started out helping people because I didn't wish them to feel the same way I did, but over time it slowly started to decay as well, nowadays I do it simply out of the sake of doing it, there isn't a real reason anymore.
God damn this is taking too long and there is a lot of details being left out, FUCK!

>>744227428
Why do you think it was intentional?

>>744226107
Sometimes I wish I could help them, but this is /b/ after all.

>>744226107
This

>>744227534
I keep telling myself it wasn't, and I'm sure it wasn't, I'm just naturally paranoid and can't get the possibility that it was intentional out of my head.

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>>744227551
For most hosts helping out anons is what helps them, it is somewhat therapeutic to an extent.

>>744227632
Has it happened before?

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>>744227360
You're probably right. I have for a long time told myself that I am too weak to allow people to become close to me. I am too afraid.

Maybe that will change. Maybe it already has.

Maybe that's not really the problem.

I dunno.

Thank you Anon.

>>744227428
Have you asked him? Why would he do that? If you don't trust him, don't eat his food and stop dating him. If you do trust him, talk to him about it and maybe he can allay your fears.

>>744227430
It's a fox-squirrel. His name is Teto.

>>744227808
Show me your tits.

>>744219284
Hey, it's you again:3

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>>744227908
No.

>>744227961
In the flesh. And who are you?

>>744227485
Well, I ended up in the same situation (as in, toying with people) when I decided to see life as nothing and forgot almost everything what happened in the past.
Anyway ya got out of it?

>>744228086
Yes.

>>744227794
He hasn't done it before, I gave myself food poisoning once because I didn't cook sausage long enough, but he wasn't involved in that.

>>744227808
Asking him if he did it on purpose would just make me more paranoid. If he said yes, then he's trying to make me miserable or maybe even kill me, and if he said no my paranoia would kick in and I'd be thinking he might be lying about it. Truly, I do trust him, I wouldn't be alive today without him, but again, I'm so naturally paranoid that even trusting someone isn't enough for me to not think of the possibilities that they might have hurt me on purpose.

>>744227485
You seem like a really nice person, I don't have any real advice with your depression, but I really hope you come out of it and spend the rest of your life being happy.

>>744228132
Any way*

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>>744228136
No.

>>744228161
If you really do trust him, act like it. Your actions will solidify your belief, and the paranoia should fade.

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>>744228161
I say it was an accident. He didn't mean to do this. You can relax.

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>>744228132
Kinda, I'm still a nihilist, I can barely remember anything from 2 years prior and I sometimes have auditory hallucinations, other than that I am doing fine.
>>744228188
Depends on who am I dealing with the way I'll behave, but when it comes to anons, I have nothing but kindness for them. And don't worry for me, my ASPD supresses my depression most of the time.

>>744227485
I feel you. I'm currently jobless and my savings are drying up. My fiancee left me a year ago and I got fired from my job because my mind was so fucked up. I'm ok now, somehow you get used to all the chaos and despair. I might sound edgy but I feel like nothing can break me now. Maybe pain is the only way to get stronger, I hope you can get out of that hope you are in. Embrace the suffering.

>>744228592
*hole not hope

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>>744228592
I am way stronger than I used to be indeed. And I already crawled out of the hole long ago, interestingly enough all it took for me to get out was to give up. Funny, isn't it?

>>744228542
I used to be a nihilist
I've been having some hallucinations and I've only heard my name being shouted once while I was alone at home. However I've been getting weird things nowadays
Ya seem like a cool person to me

>>744228086
Summer-Wars-anon.

>>744228981
Haha yeah its weird. There is a certain freedom to it. I wish you the best.

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>>744229073
Hm. I can't say I remember you. Well, welcome to the thread.

>>744229160
Nevermind then.

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>>744219284
Really worried about that hurricane...

>>744227716
I started studying psychology in 2013, and you're right. Trying to help others with their emotional problems and feeling useful makes you feel way better than being helped. It's quite ironic

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>>744219284
OFFICIAL MIJ THREAD
Just your friendly neighborhood MIJ red wind reporting in...


MIJ
Fukin shoot me... Mission Impossible Operator DAD OR GOD Jason Westley Christopher Tatom is who I am.
I just made you all think "What was I thinking?"
YOURE ALL PISSIN ME OF AND IM GONNA STARVe YA...
MIJ

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>>744229431
What about hurting others?
>>744229041
Thank you, anon. Hope you are doing well.
>>744229124
Thank you, anon, same for you.

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>>744229341
Have a good one.

>>744229373
Which one? The one that just happened, or the next one?

>>744229431
Makes sense in a convoluted sort of way, I guess.

>>744229498
Neat.

>>744229373
Good luck eh

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>>744229631
>>744229690
Dont u IGNORE ME... DO U KNOW WHO I AM AND WHAT IM CAPEABLE OF
MIJ

>>744229690
The next hurricane. I got friends in Dominican Republic and Florida,

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>>744229902
I have no idea. Enlighten me.

>>744229916
Oh boy. Hope they're okay. Are you ready for it?

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>>744229902
Yo.

>>744219284
>>744219664
>>744220763
>>744224146
can you kys already pls

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>>744230054
Okay. What method would you recommend?

>>744229631
Hope ya are too.
I'm off for today, probably, since it's 4:10AM
Cya''ll

Why would anyone willingly talk to a 16 year old weeb?

>>744229902
My?

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>>744230128
Time to go to work, have a good night
>>744230029
You too.

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>>744230054
Maybe... maybe today is a good day...

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>>744230150
Have a good one, Anon.

>>744230175
Sure. Let's talk.

>>744228542
>>744229041
It's really hard to get out of nihilism. When you start to understand how inconsequential everything is, how no matter what happens the world will just move on, it's really hard to feel you have any purpose, or that such purpose could even exist.
I've been trying to not become one, but knowing that one day the Universe will just die (heat death) everything feels pointless.

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>>744230029
when did my name change to NEP instead of KEK?DAM MODS...
MIJ FOR YOU MAY THAT HOLY SPIRIT IMBUE U WHEREVER AND WHENEVER YOU NEED IT...
klik
MIJ
NEP

>>744230016
I live in South Carolina you think it might reach me also? Kinda worried

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>>744230229
Alright, take care Mantis. I'll see you around.

>>744230282
But it doesn't matter that the universe will die. That doesn't affect you. You can affect the little world around you, and that's all that should really matter.

>>744230251
Thankya
>>744230229
Good luck eh
>>744230282
Life is pointless, so be it

>>744230391
The words klik and MIJ are messing with my brain

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>>744230185
NNY JHONNIE THE FUKIN MANIAC
yea... U might.... call me that....
MIJ
Night Over n out...

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>>744230393
It might, Anon. Possible trajectories have it traveling all the way up the East coast.

As long as you're on high ground, you'll be fine. Make sure you've got enough water and stable food. Just in case.

>>744230533
Goodnight.

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>>744230282
My only reason to live is to die. The uiverse does not care about me, why should I care about it either? Everything dies, I do not care, I shall keep moving forward.

>>744230533
Goodnight my

>>744230282
To be honest, it all depends on our experiences in life. I see people live really happy lives, no nihilism. Unfortunately I got dealt a shitty hand and to me nihilism was inevitable. I can't simply ignore the harsh truths in life

>>744229631
If you're talking about how it makes you feel when you hurt someone else, there are generally three types of people (assuming that you're hurting someone who you don't actually hate), the ones that feel bad from the start, the ones who at first don't mind but later feel really bad (most people), and psychopaths (who just don't feel anything no matter what they do or the consequences of their actions).

>>744230054
Fuck off, seriously

>>744230394
But why affect the world around you when you know that no matter what happens during your lifetime, everything will die one day?

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>>744230757
Some people see the harsh truth and aren't bothered by it. They still believe in something.

>>744230840
Why?

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>>744230947
Because you can change things in the short term, and that matters. You're looking at the big picture, and you're never going to get anywhere if you get stuck on it. Focus on the here and now, and affect that. It's worth doing, for you and the people around you. Because in the little bubble you live in, it matters. And that's okay.

>>744230947
It means you can just fuck around

>>744230973
I lived in a shithole country for 10 years. Religion never helped me even though I tried devoting myself to it. I guess it's just not for me

>>744230973
We are all having a relatively relaxed time here, I hate when someone tries to ruin this kind of moments

I'm fat horrible with women a kissless virgin at 18 and probably at 19 and so on and so forth not going to be fit enough to join the military everytime I workout I'm bored out of my mind and it feels like I'm torturing myself I just wish I could curl up into a ball and let everything crumble around me

>>744230840
faggot

>>744231151
Yeah you're probably right, and I would probably describe nihilism as "looking at the big picture way too much".

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>>744231234
Religion can't help everyone, though many people would like to think it can. Are you content with believing in nothing Anon, or do you have hope for yourself and the few people around you?

>>744231236
Sorry Anon, but you can't stop them. The best thing you can do is ignore them entirely, but I'm not very good at that.

>>744231266
You're still pretty young, Anon. This is not the end. This is only the beginning. You've got a lot of time to improve yourself. But you'll never get anywhere if you curl up into a ball and tell yourself you're awful and you'll never get better.

That's bullshit.

Stand up and keep moving. If you want to get ripped, start lifting. Eat a ton of protein and cut down on carbs. If you want to get good with women, start spending time with women. Keep trying, keep practicing, and you will get better.

>>744231465
Find some hope for the little bubble around you, and don't concern yourself too seriously with the things outside it. The big picture does not matter. It doesn't have any tangible effect on you or the people around you.

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I hope you all die extremely painful deaths. :)

>>744231236
MASSIVE FAGGOT ALERT

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>>744231946
Me too.

>>744231964
Thanks for warning us of your faggotry.

>>744231736
I'm content with not having a higher power. I simply enjoy the little things life has to offer. Particularly a burger with some fries and some fruit punch. I remember wishing for one of those back in my country. The first time I tried it, it was heaven on earth.

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>>744219284
Both times I slept with young women I contracted a disease. First HPV, and then maybe herpes. Might be having my first cold sore now. My ex left me because I cheated on her, I was too cowardly to break it off, and not mature enough to appreciate her and settle down. Now I feel like I will never have a chance again at long term happiness with an other. I miss her. On the upside I am alone again but it is even lonelier this time.

>>744232041
np little fag

>>744231266
Have you been to a psychologist? It'll help you get some things straight. Right now I can only tell you that:
-not having kissed a girl and specially being virgin at 19 it's normal, don't worry about it.
-you can start by dieting. Do not make a temporary diet (like eating only vegetables for some months), they do not work, just keep eating as much as you do right now but try to make it more healthy (less sugar and fats)
-That attitude of sitting around letting the world go on without doing nothing is the worst thing you can do, it will kill you. Do whatever you want but that, it's better to spend the whole day watching movies than just laying in bed.

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>>744232045
And there's nothing wrong with that, Anon. Continue to enjoy the little pleasures, and that can be enough.

>>744232086
Try again, but don't mess it up this time Anon. Don't cheat on the next one, and deal with problems like a man. You have another chance; you're still alive. You will grow stronger, and you will move on. Keep going, Anon. Maybe you'll be lonely for a little while, but that's okay. We all are sometimes. It doesn't have to be forever. Don't resign yourself to that.

>>744231736
Wow, it's incredible how much it helps to just spend some time speaking with strangers through an internet forum. Seriously you are the nicest person I've seen today.

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>>744232502
Must've been a shitty day.

Thanks Anon.

>>744232620
Very shitty, even for my standards.

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>>744232774
Well, what went wrong? Was it anything specific, or did you just feel miserable all day?

>>744219284
How do you find the time to help others? don't you have problems to deal with on your own?

>>744232316
I like being alone, but less so now. Maybe I could learn to love myself and be alone gladly again instead of avoiding the world. It was so nice to have someone to hold and communicate with, even if I didn't appreciate it as I should have. Thanks for the response. I'm trying to make an effort, become better so I can be there for myself and maybe someone else eventually. Either way, i keep acting instead of wallowing all the time.

>>744232978
My mother has depression and today she felt the worst she has been in months. She started shouting really loud about how she wants to kill herself and didn't stop until two hours later (I did my best to help her). Apart from that, a very normal day, but normal to me means lonely.

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>>744233699
This is how I spend some of my evenings. I don't have any problems.

>>744233777
You don't have to like being alone. It can be a temporary phase. It's good that you continue to act, Anon. Inaction is your enemy here.

>>744233840
Is she seeing a doctor or a therapist? That's pretty bad, and you shouldn't be the only one to help her deal with it. Loneliness... I presume you dislike feeling lonely. Where might you find some friends to hang out with?