Feels thread continued. I've seen her today and she was

>>743628117
I can say it easly, if you don't have balls to try just forget

>>743628388
Thats fucking horrible.

>>743628494
I can continue

not sure what you're asking but I'm feeling so fucking amazing finally had my first kiss and was kinda a make out session not much tongue but she did do some next kisses and god it was so fucking nice feeling her nice soft lips probably gonna do it again tomorrow and at least I'll graduate high school not kissless (she's a freshman) could greentext the everything like how we met up to this point if anyone's interested

>>743628476
We aren't together anymore my man, I don't know how I'm a pussy for missing someone

>>743628512

>I could never love somebody this much again.
Me neither... oh wait, you were being serious.

>>743628628
Did you not have it typed up already?
You gotta take this more seriously

>>743628628
Please no.

>>743628789
you'd be a pussy if you didn't miss her because that means you never took initiative and never cared about her enough like it seems like you did, it takes a man to love someone and cry over them sure it seems weak but let it out hopefully find someone else

>>743628773
I'm just sad bc I saw her today, and I don't know but the fact that she was so beautiful today make it so much worst

>>743628975
Yeah man, now you get it.
I still love her and I just want her happiness (it may sound like im a bitch) but I truly cared for her so yeah, I cried over her

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>>743628969
I will continue, here have a sad doggo

>>743629047
look man I was in your shoes but it was with a chick over the internet but holy fuck did I get attached nonetheless I felt lost, empty, seriously considered suicide but told myself to suck it up and stop being a bitch so I did and started talking to another chick and as we talked more feelings for her faded and now I don't give a shit because she ditched me for her ex who honestly looks autistic but once you develop feels they're there forever and when you have a heartbreak those feels have to be transferred onto someone else and they must fill the void go out and find someone I got lucky cause this chick hit me up (I'm way to timid/shy to go up and talk to girls)

>>743629300
refer to >>743629452
and I cried over this girl too but you sound like a bitch but a true bitch would not miss her it takes a man to get that attached and devoted to a girl a bitch just hooks up with side chicks for fun and misses no one in the end

>>743629452
I'm glad you've found someone anon, I wish I can find a person that makes me forget her

>>743629390
This pics sucks compare to others

>>743629755
she's only temporary she won't date since she had a shitty relationship past but hey first girl I held hands with and kissed I'm at the point where I just though fuck it enjoy it while it last and the reason being is I want a long relationship but it's to late for that I plan on enlisting around January/February cause you never know shit can change if I'm still single by then I'm going in the military and overseas

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Anyone feel?

>>743629602
Yeah man, I know I suck for feeling this bad for a girl, but God I love this girl like dead serious love, I guess it doesn't matter because she wake up one day and just leave, everyone get bored of me in the end

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>>743629998
Sorry anon, running out of material

>>743630084
good thing to have it shows loyalty and caring two things many don't seem to have but like I said time will heal it a little but get yourself another girl and those feels I guarantee will transfer over to her but not all but most

>>743630351
I guess you are right, I think that none can replace her place in my mind but hey she was a replacement for someone else already. Well fuck me

>>743629300
>I still love her and I just want her happiness (it may sound like im a bitch) but I truly cared for her so yeah, I cried over her
Nah, I don't think you sound like a bitch.
As much as it makes me a cuck, I hope this girl has found another guy. Because there's nothing in this world more beautiful than her smile.

>>743630654
I thought the same thing to that I'll never get the close or connected to a girl and she's irreplaceable trust me everyone is replaceable think of your memories like a HDD, right now her memories fill it, get with another girl and start overwriting those memories, replace them you won't get them all some will still be the same but slightly different but it will be enough you'll look back at yourself and laugh at the thought this girl brought you to your lowest point I know I did and still do but it takes time (month or two)

>>743630709
I know right, you love her so hard that it doesn't matter that you are a walking depression if in the end she is happy, if that make me a cuck I guess we are both that

>>743630900
Good advice anon, as you might know this is more easy saying that doing it. But every day I try and always fail bc I see her every god damn day ( she's my classmate), the struggle is real

As someone who has never been in love, I don't think I'm missing out

>>743631177
the girl I cried over was states away so easier on my end but kept her as friends on facebook you know I'm curios what she's up to all (there's a more sinister reason) but that brought me some comfort I don't think about her and laugh at the post her ex tagged her in and I see your struggle I know people will say go out and meet girls but I know that's hard and will not happen if youre as shy/timid as I am honestly stop giving a fuck about everything and do what ever fuck the consequences, live life (as in no illegal shit but see a cute girl at a store/bar fuck it as for info you never know)

>>743631334
As shitty it might sound love, I guess I'm happy for having to experience it, because no one can take the good memories from me and that's enough I guess (although there is a fuck ton of bad memories and awful feelings too)so I don't know

>>743631334
yes and no the feeling of love and being in love is describable and the best feeling ever but if that love is broken all that good feeling become opposite in size of the feeling you held and will eat you alive and destroy every notion of a possible person to love and you will be distraught I've been on both sides of the spectrum

>>743631947
I wouldn't have say it better myself, this is like the small letters in the love contract. Like
>"this could be the best thing in the world but without any reason at all it also can fuck you up fam, what you say, your in?"
>"Sure man I'm in"

>>743632310
>Love should not be taken while operating heavy machinery.
>If you have love lasting more than four hours, consult a doctor.

>>743628117
I was telling a girl how big my crush is on my friend and then she confessed I liked her and now I feel like a piece of shit.

>>743631947
>>743631696
I'm just damaged goods. I can't believe people can love me so I just deny every feeling I get.. ever. And to be honest life has not been bad

>>743632457
>Warranty might not apply if you care the most
>Secondary effects include: lose of sleep, eating habits distortion, unhealthy ingestion of various narcotics and death

>>743632572
You are building a wall around yourself my man, you have to be open to the bad if you want the good, that's is what makes the bad parts of it worth the suffering

>>743632572
I deny feelings unless they are so blatantly obvious then I'll show interest like the girl I'm talking to (the freshman) wanted to kiss and all that shit so of course I went along and we snuck around in the school after CC and made out for what felt like forever but was probably a minute or two didn't wanna make shit obvious but damn kissing a girl you care about is so much more enjoyable

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This hits hard anons

>>743632996
building a wall around yourself isn't a bad thing right after a break up it gives you time to think and cool down and be by yourself until you get your shit together I know I built a wall and tore it down when I felt ready to venture out and meet people

>>743633297
It sure it is, it makes you feel all the right things, like for just a moment you and her are the only person in this earth and nothing's wrong.
>I felt it once

>>743633466
What I'm saying that the way he said it, it feels like he doesn't have in the plan to get rid of his wall never

>>743633507
I've felt it to with one person and goddamn you feel so at ease and at peace with everything but it's a trap and if shit goes wrong it will fuck you up so much

>>743633657
He will I thought my wall would be up for awhile too but he will come out of it soon I've been in his shoes no ones wall lasts forever right now he's at his lowest so its worded as if he will never come out but he will

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All I want to see is her in love with me

>>743633795
>it's a trap and if shit goes wrong it will fuck you up so much
You are god damn right, obviously it went wrong and I was just destroyed (in fact still are)

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Keep going anon, there's a sunset for every one of you to ride to

>>743634107
love is a gamble anon sometimes you strike lucky like my parents (married for 26yrs and had 5 kids, 3 of which died before I was born) and sometimes you don't and this happens

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">Come on anon, hurry up we have alot of fun things to do today"

not really a love story and neither am i into green texting but here it is:

i am extremely perplexed upon what my problem is. i hate to do it, but im not open with many others. i keep shit to myself and i partially think it has to do with insecurities. i distance myself from others and i often hate myself and others for it but then change without notice each day. it's been complicated ever since i was young and i'm thinking about killing myself.

>>743633466
I do build walls around myself anon. you're right. I was raped when I was 9 years old. It warps my world view. I don't want anybody I know to hear that shit. This shit changes opinions. And I don't really plan to get rid of my walls at any point

>>743634638
Also, I'm a guy btw

>>743634355
This November my parents are going to get a renewal of their votes, they are married for 25 years.
Man it hits hard that my dad married my mom at 21, I'm 20 and I don't have a girlfriend.

>>743634638
I know how you feel they will come down eventually in your case could take awhile but hang in there /b/ro and don't take the final answer (suicide)

>>743634752
I've seen a HS go off get married and have a kid and I'm here like yay I finally kissed a girl at 18

>>743631334
youre not, its cancer. all the bullshit to find "the right one" is a meme. better to just focus on your life and what makes you happy than the cancer that is women

>>743634638
I know shit like this can really fuck your shit up anon, I'm a virgin and not because I'm a fat basement dweller like most of 4chin users, my thing is I have a fuck up dick,I got fordice spots and pearly papules and look like shit, so you have to look my face when people ask me why I haven't got a girlfriend.
Like >you are the best anon you are good and kind and samrt, how's that you don't have a girlfriend.
And I simply respond that I wait for the right person.
I also sabotage myself subliminally when I got to close with a girl

>>743634752
Same for me, I had experience with a woman.

>>743635461
I'm turning 19 next year, and I never had a girlfriend.

>>743628388
i dont get it

>>743635372
I know. Sometimes, I do feel like we're missing out but most times I'm just apathetic. All the best to you anon. Who knows? Someday you might get over your fear and find what you are missing in life

>>743635461
Same guy you responded to, I kissed two girls a d that's it for me, like wow I'm such a heartbreaker

>>743635001
>>743634638
Is it okay if I don't want the walls to come down?

>>743635769
I'm just terrified that the people might find out.
And don't even get me started at thinking of telling the girl who's gonna have sex with me, just writing this makes me have a little panic attack

>>743634437
No Aiko you little bitch, that's my weak point

I can't tell if I have depression or not and I really don't want to know.

>>743628388
Ouch

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>>743636011
You might never forget me anon

Somewhat miserable, feeling like Sherlock Holmes when he doesn't have a case, just slowly losing my mind. I have a good job but its boring and can't stand it because I've found something that I absolutely love to do and family always tries to stop me pursuing it because they think I should just accept a simple 9 to 5 with decent pay and good benefits like them. Thankfully I'll be moving out soon so I don't have to deal with them all the time anymore, always felt like they wanted to temper my ambitions in life and anything outside of their sense of 'the real world' is bad.

>>743635886
look man it's your call, you know whats best for you, take it at your own pace but I will tell you they will come down eventually I know it, I thought at one point mind wouldn't and I'll never talk to anyone but that changed

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>>743636159
>Tfw you will never have an existential crisis over a little girl you fell in love with in primary school

>>743636050
This, I know I have some fuck up shit upthere but what if I go into the doctors office and I find out I have nothing?
I'm just fakin shit up?
Why I'm I feeling like a shit everyday?

>>743636469
How did it change if you don't mind me asking?

>>743636485
I wish I had some crazy gal who's in love with me
>That's so much to ask?

>>743635772
Nice, a girl never give me that much attention, I think the reason why I have trouble with womans because I grow up without a father figure

>>743636485
Even pun pun was kinda at peace in the end, I know nothing was so simple with him but anyway it feels that he was doing just so much better than I am

>>743636551
I'll tell 4chan anything but I realized if I'm gonna get over her the walls will have to come down and will need someone to create new memories/connections with I had a girl I snapped and decided to start talking to her when shit hit the fan and I got off lucky cause I had a back up per say and that's one thing I learnt, always have another chick in the loop but at a distance you know in case shit goes wrong you have a backup plan to move on faster sure it sounds like being a douche-bag but it'll help in the healing process

>>743636743
Maybe you are too agreeable and I find out that women just hate this, and like you mentioned the lack of father figure might affect you in some way.

>>743636650
Me too pal, ive had a gf (whom i never loved, i was only with her because of dem titties) and now that I want to engange in a real relationship i dont have anything. I just someone to cuddle with, watch some movies and tell her how much I love her. Is too much to ask? Probably

>>743636854
I see. Do you think you'll ever stop loving that girl?

>>743636854
It doesn't hurt to be at least a bit of douchebag because that will give you attitude, just don't go full retard my man

>>743629300
You're not a bitch.
That's the best you can really hope for if you care about her. And you do, and you will, for a very long time. I still care so goddamn much about mine, almost 6 years together, engaged, the whole bit. Lost love for me and left me, took about a month before she shacked up with my only childhood friend. It hurts, but you can't honestly say you ever truly 100% loved someone if you can't see that their happiness is worth more than your pettiness.

It took me almost two years and the act of moving as far away as I could (across the country, straight up bailed on my life out there) to get over it sufficiently, and I'll never be over it completely.

But it does get better. Get some distance, it works wonders.

>>743637022
It sucks my man, I had this girl but she doesn't cared like I do and she got bored and scared of the relationship and she just leave

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>>743636832
The thing I like so much about this mango is that shows that everyones live is far from perfect, but they are content with how things are even though they coulde've fixed and done so many thing better.
And I dont think PunPun was at peace in the end, he just decided to live with life's hardships and stop being a little bitch. And that aint easy

>>743637144
I stopped loving her and at one point you will but she will never leave your mind though you'll think of old memories and just kinda chuckle to yourself cause I think about our long phone calls and funny shit we sent each other and the relationship built and think it was worth it but don't miss it

>>743637200
don't wanna be to beta but do let your main girl know you have a back up plan never but the girl I kissed today is looking for a fling type shit so I gotta get a back up plan within a week or so but I guess it's a general rule in life, 'always have a back up'

>>743631334
You're missing out like hell. For all the excruciating pain it can bring, all the tears and the heartache and the loneliness it can bring out in you, it's by far the most beautiful feeling in the world.

>when you think you're over her and then one day you run into her and it feels like someone shot you

fucking sucks man

pretty sure she's my perfect girl but she doesn't feel the same way

>>743637275
I can my man, she is my classmate in uni (I'm at the 3 year of a 5 year career) so this isn't a option, everyday I get to open my wounds, yeah somebody just kill me already

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>>743637337
What if we became gay and loved each other to death anon?
Or pic related

2nd day of school
see really cute girl in one class
for once in my life, I find courage.
spur of the moment, write my number down on a paper.
give it to her after class.
> just read it later
I walk off with huge grin
She didnt text me
I vow to get a girlfriend by the end of the year. Fuck.

>>743637539
How is it beautiful if everything you just described is inherently negative?

>>743637588
Sounds good anon, it's not gay if the balls aren't touching right? Jeje.
Good luck anon hope you find someone, but I will always love you anon

>>743637551
>she doesn't feel the same way
Then she's not.

>>743637802
He was saying that all the bad things worth the suffering

>>743637797
You will probably get rejected if you try that again bro. Im not chad but god knows Ive tried

>>743637848
And they say /b/ is a horrible place <3

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>>743637355
>The thing I like so much about this mango

>>743637797

You just cannot leave papers, why did you think that would work?

>>743638112
>they say
Who the fuck is "they"?

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I'm so apathetic... All I do is work, so I can make enough money to basically keep working. I have no life outside my job and I can never save enough money to escape this shit hole.

All I want to do is experience anything outside this rut I'm stuck in, but it just doesn't seem like it's ever going to happen.

I still love. Even if she doesn't care about me anymore. It's been 4 months but it feels like 4 years since we were together. We spent every waking second we could together, until we didn't. When we broke up and got back together a couple days as usual this time was different, we were back together but she went in another direction. Changed into a whore, literally. Started doing coke and drinking a lot. I was too busy working and playing vidya to notice. I knew something was different, but couldn't put my finger on it so I just quit giving her attention. When we broke up for good I could see the difference in her, bringing me back my stuff, shaking afraid to make eye contact. This wasn't the girl I was with and fell in love with for over 2 years. I know I dodged a bullet but I wish she would at least just talk to me. Like fuck man it's for the best but damn, I never had a feeling toward somebody so surreal in my life. fuck bitches with daddy issues.

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This song is just so accurate, it's scary

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>>743638123
>He doesnt know the mango meme

>>743638203
>le internet peoplez
Looks alright now?

>>743638290
The beta cuck anthem.

>>743638456
You should listen to them. They know what's best.

>>743637559
There are ways, but if it's not possible then you'll just have to grin and bear it until you can get away. But seriously, at least in my case, I don't think I'd have survived if I stayed. I hope you're stronger than I am.

>>743637802
Because the rest, the feeling of belonging to something that is uniquely yours, the sense that someone knows you, actually KNOWS you to your core, having somebody there when you need someone, any time, for any reason, the warmth, and compassion, and tenderness that real love brings, it's enough to turn the worst situations around. And I've felt every one of those things and more, the good and the bad, and from those experiences, even though at the moment there's more bad than good, and I'm in a viciously dark place largely due to it all, I would absolutely do it again. A million times. Because nothing has topped that feeling yet, and it doesn't seem like anything could.

How do you know it's love? Please don't give me answers like "You just know it" and all

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dXjZeCL0C9o

My girlfriend died 2 years ago. Still feels bad. But I am looking forward, trying to meet new people and holding her memory in my heart to advance myself.

I hate feeling numb, because I'm forgetting her progressively and I use music to remember how it felt like. I remember that when she died, I nearly killed myself and was miserable all the time.

The worst thing is that she killed herself. So it's my fault, really.

so im pretty depressed and want to die. im waiting till my next psychiatry appointment so i can finally get some fucking adderall and just overdose on that. should be fun

>>743637797
Why the fuck would you do that? She doesn't know you. You haven't even talked to her but you want her to contact you. You want her to do the hard part without even knowing who you are.

>>743638710
You know it when you are willing to receive a bullet for her even if you know she wouldn't do it in a million years

>>743638816
Good luck with that. I doubt you'll od on it, but please stream your pathetic attempt so we can have a laugh.

>>743638710
When you really get to know them. You recognize every little flaw. You can predict every tick. But you can still look them in the eye and say "It's you".... god damn i sound gay af

>>743638990
Why would you love someone that doesn't love you back. Just move on. I know it's hard but it's the only way to open yourself up to find someone else.

>>743639056
ill do my best bb

>>743638710
I can try.
You know it's love when you can't go more than a couple minutes without thinking of them. They dominate every thought. You'll find yourself imagining what they'd do in whatever situation you're in, you'll be bored for a half a second and wham, there's a memory of them. And you know it's real, reciprocated love when they start doing the same. You also begin to notice that they know what you're thinking, they know how you feel even if you're giving your best oscar worthy performance; they see right through you and know what to do or say to make whatever they want happen. They could tear you apart with a couple words, but they don't. And that would normally scare you right? But it doesn't because you trust them to never do it. You can close your eyes and remember the exact way they talk, not just the sound of their voice, but the way their face moves, how they stand, how their eyes spark when they talk about something they care about. Shit like that. I could go on forever, but I won't because it's all sappy shit like this. Lol

>>743638615
I talk to her in uni like friends, just to know hows going everything and hear her voice. I know it's not the same and I'm not intended to doing it the same but talking to her it's a good palliative for her absence. I don't know if this makes sense at all.

>>743638763
Sometimes, I can't stop seeing her. She's reaching out her hand, falling in an endless void, with a desperate and shocked look. She wants to be helped. And I just sit there. With nothing. I sit on this throne of nothingness and apathy, unable to reach out. I can't do anything, I'm a prisoner in my own body as I see her dying, over, and over, and over, and over. It doesn't stop, it won't stop.

I tried getting myself to hate her, that way, it would've been easier getting over her. But now I'm either numb, or depressed.

>>743639238
That's not love, that's infatuation or obsession. Love isn't that insane. Love is simple and comfortable. It's dangerous to confuse love with obsession.

I dated this trans guy, I really loved him, but he was so serious all the time and when he started T he got mean. We split up. Was bummed but it happens. Got drunk and angry sent some not nice messages. He stopped talking to me all together. Understandable. I got diagnosed with cancer, had to start chemo, wanted to apologize before the worst happens or I end up looking like a scarecrow he won't return my texts, I text a friend asking if they can get him to text me. He asks me why I'm talking to his friends and when I try to explain everything he blocked me.

>>743638763
Not your fault.

>>743637355
Curious, what is the name of this manga? Just finished the one I was on, need a new one

>>743639221
I know it's stupid, I am a stupid and loves stupid. Nothing really matter and we all going to die in the end, so yes a love someone who's didn't love me back and I can't help it

>>743638710
Love is an choice not a feeling. You choose to love somebody no matter how shitty they can be. And when they spin your world upside down, you still choose to hang on until you are broken because they mean that much to you.

>>743639420
It makes sense; I still talk to mine from time to time just because I still feel so comfortable and connected with her. But she doesn't want me, and that's the feeling you have to understand and reconcile with if you want to move past it and work towards a friendship rather than a relationship~

>>743639221
People rarely choose who they love, most cases of love are mere infatuations not like this anon posted >>743639238. Look at Dante and how he described Beatrice, and how much she dominated his works. He only met her twice ever in his life and he was obsessed with her till he died.

>>743639619
Go ahead and call it love. Make feels threads on 4c. It's still an unhealthy obsession. Not love.

>>743639547
It is. We were perfect for each other, and I couldn't protect her. Thanks for the YOU, though.

>>743639491
I don't know, there's a lot of comfort in it, but it's not constant thoughts either, just blips here and there that remind you of them. I'm a rather obsessive person by nature though, something I've come to understand. That being said, I know that we were in love once, the time that I can say for sure that I was. It just didn't last, as people change a hell of a lot over their 20's and we became different people.

>>743639574
Oh man, this is the best and the worst manga you can read, it is oyasumi pun pun. Shits depressing as fuck but is a good read, good luck anon

>>743639844
No such thing as perfection, either.
I don't know the details and I won't pretend I do, but what happened has happened and as much as it hurts you'll never move on if you can't see that it was her choice in the end, and she was going to make it regardless of anything you could do. So unless you told her to do it (and I don't think you did, but I could be misjudging you) then she's the only one to blame. And since the dead can't hold blame anymore, you should let it go to the wind~

She would want you to get over it, and her.

>>743639744
Love is an emotion. You have the power to turn it on or off. You can romanticize it all you want but she doesn't love you back, turn it off and move on. Believe me when I say that your time here is limited. There are other people out there that are a better fit. Go look for them NOW. I know that we're not normies so it's not that easy. However, it's also not impossible.

>>743639707
Yeah I made a promise to myself that no matter what I'm not going back to her, I can be her friend and all that, be for her and all that shit but im not coming back, because I'm scare that if I get back with her she will get bored of me all over again and I don't know if I gonna endure that shit again, I just can't

>>743639919
not the other guy just fyi
>there's a lot of comfort in it
And that's probably why most people just hold onto that feeling and call it love. I wouldn't quite call it obsession but strong feelings of like plus strong feelings of infatuation is definitely what most people settle for.

>>743639919
Well, there you have it. You know yourself to be obsessive so you're kinda proving my point. You had a good run. Move on. Don't obsess over something that you can't recreate.

>>743640222
To a point, I agree with this, however the trick is finding the "on/off" switch.

Not all people have access, not all people can let go of something so beautiful so easily, even if there's absolutely no hope for it. That doesn't mean they shouldn't try, however.

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I've been a blank spot since high school. I have no friends, no desire to socialize, I did terrible at high school and currently doing terrible at college.
I'm supposed to be graduating in december but by the looks of it it might take a year and a half more.
People always forget about me.
In family reunions everyone always asks how my sister is doing ar med school and get into interesting talks with her, I just get a "Hi" from them.
I always to team projects alone because no one wants them in their team and I am too afraid to ask.

Been in meds for ADD for 4 months but they barely help me.
I can't do anything right, even tho I try my hardest. Last semester I almost got kicked out of college because of the high amount of failed courses.
I've tried to make friends, both with similar interests than mine and completely different. But they always end up making me aside.
The only friends that I made in elementary/middle school are graduating and getting jobs and making their own lives.

I'm sitting alone in my dorm, just thinking about how bad things could go for me.
I'm at a point were my parents really don't expect anything from me.
Both my parents have brothers that didn't finish college or high school and are a bunch of drunk unemployed fellows.
Maybe that's who I'm destined to be.
Maybe I got the worst from both sides and life is just waiting for me to give up.

God, I wish I believed in you because things would be much easier. But I'm stuck here on my own.
My mom can pray as much as she wants, but God is not going to save me from myself.
I only hope for the best outcome, even if it's not the desired one.

>>743640332
Good plan; you don't need someone who was so ready to abandon you once. Find someone who wouldn't dream of it instead.

>>743640453
>not all people can let go of something so beautiful so easily, even if there's absolutely no hope for it.
I feel like you are talking directly to me in this line

>>743640642

I did not have hope, and was near leave it behind, glad I didn't. Yeah, we have to fight till the end.

>>743640504
Im sorry things arent looking well. I know how terrible life can be.
How are you sleeping/eating?
Talk to your psychiatrist about switching meds, if they dont help, then change them. Work with them in order to help yourself with the right medication. That might be enough to instill motivation on you to help yourself.

>>743640453
>something so beautiful
That's the thing. If she doesn't love you, then it's only beautiful like a work of art. I guess you can probably buy it if you have the money, but I doubt that that's what you're hoping for. Again I say; move on. I do agree that turning love on and off is not easy, but if you want to have experiences in this life, fucking find the switch. If you want to experience love, you're going to have to experience heart ache. The faster you can dominate the heart ache, the faster you can get back in the game and hopefully find ms right.

>>743640453
This, and 0.01% of people whom are genetically inclined to potentially develop attachment disorders can get obsessive love. That shit can't be fixed without years upon years of therapy. People like that are fucked, they will destroy themselves trying.

>>743640504
I feel the same anon, what I do is thinking that if a fail they would win and I don't want this, everyday I get up of my bed trying to be a better person so I can show everyone that I'm not the failure that all people think I am

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>>743640504
no gonna spit any inspirational bs towards you my man, but hang in there.

>>743640359
This is very true, but while I know myself to be somewhat obsessive, I do know that that's love as best I can describe it. Less the domination of thought and obsessive bits I described and more the feeling of true belonging, of having a world that it unique to you and your person that nobody else could possible understand or recreate perfectly. And infatuation can sometimes lead to real love, givn time to mature. I can safely say that after six years and as much as we went through together, there is no way that what we had was infatuation; but even love has breaking points.

>>743640385
Don't get me wrong, I am! For the most part~ These sorts of experiences brand a part of you though, you never truly forget them. But I have learned from it and I've kept myself single for the better part of two years now to be sure that the next person I find isn't a rebound, something to sate my obsessive tendencies, or an attempt to recreate something that could only exist once. The next one will be an entirely new and different experience, because nobody deserves to be molded into a past love, if that makes any sense lol

>>743640504
anon you're doing fine. hell I'm 22, college dropout, unemployed, and have quit over 5 jobs and I still don't feel as much as a failure as you. Quit worrying about other people and listening to the noise. Do what the fuck makes you happy and doesn't leave you homeless.

>>743640619
Yeah, I gonna keep talking to her tho, I just love her and I need at least talk to her so I don't feel so bad, I suck

>>743628117
This, too, shall pass.

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Op here, green text is appreciated if someone wants to share

>>743640991
Again, I agree, but there's a finesse that comes with dominating that heartache and every single person and every single situation can call for a different approach to doing it. My best medicine has been time, and while I have had a too-long mourning period, it's on the cusp of ending and I'm glad I let myself take the time to do it.

Also, there's a certain amount of love you can't turn off. I still love her to the ends of the earth, however, I don't need her. I won't ever need her again, because I'm past it. I still love her though, for what we shared, what we accomplished, and how we grew together, and I'll love her for as long as I live because the changes she made in me have shaped the man I've become. There's nothing wrong with hanging on to the healthy bits of love, you just have to cut out the obsessive bits ;D

>>743641601
>Also, there's a certain amount of love you can't turn off. I still love her to the ends of the earth, however, I don't need her. I won't ever need her again, because I'm past it. I still love her though, for what we shared, what we accomplished, and how we grew together, and I'll love her for as long as I live because the changes she made in me have shaped the man I've become. There's nothing wrong with hanging on to the healthy bits of love, you just have to cut out the obsessive bits ;D
This was beautiful anon, thanks

>>743641150
>if that makes any sense
It does. Every relationship is a part of you. Those memories can be precious. I don't think that it's bad to remember the good times. It's only bad when those memories are the only thing you think of. The way you're speaking now seems much less obsessive than before.

>>743641594
what is there to share fam im just a depressed faggot who's had a good life but wants to die

>>743641150
anon I had a similar relationship as you and am quite obsessive. but you need to let that bitch go it's been 2 years. True love never fails so it wasn't love it was lust. and she fell out of lust with you. It's one of the hardest things to go through but damn quit romanticizing the shit. People who fall into real love don't think their partner is some magical fucking princess that can do no wrong. They notice their flaws. They see their imperfections. They just choose to overlook some of their flaws and compromise. Love has more to do with communication than lust.

>>743641270
You don't suck, as I said I've been there and from time to time (albeit over great distance) I am there still.

As long as you still enjoy it, talk to her all you want; the trick and the condition I will give you is that you can't NEED to talk to her. If you need to talk to her, you'll never move on, You can want to talk to her all you want, but love is a strange sort of addiction when it comes right down to it and if you want to break that addiction, you have to stop yourself every time you feel like you need the addictive substance. Wanting is okay, but needing is too much.

>>743641820
Op here, I'm the same my man.
After her all I want to do is die, I wanted to die before her too but now it's worst

>>743628117
I too saw her again today. It was awful. She's just going to avoid me like every other ex that I've had. And it's such bullshit. I didn't do fucking anything to her. She broke my fucking heart without good fucking reason. All I want are answers. But, I've just decided that I just have to forget about her and her perfect new boyfriend. If not now, then eventually.

>>743641966
Thanks man, I'm trying my best

>>743641601
>I still love her to the ends of the earth, however, I don't need her
I think at this point we're discussing semantics. What you're calling love, I call fondness or some other shit. I get your point and I agree. I've had relationships that I still cherish even tho I wouldn't re-enter them.

>>743641819
Yeah well, the first step to dealing with a problem is admitting you have one; and my obsessive habits have been a problem in the past. But I'm growing and they're shrinking~

>>743642007
I wish I could even love. I don't like being around my family because their love makes me feel guilty. I don't deserve this house i live in. I dont deserve good parents. I dont deserve anything, I literally unironically have nothing to be proud of and no talents at all.

I'm probably too late to say anything but it's almost 5am and I've been depressed for a while now.

I fell in love with this girl, a couple of months ago she came out as a lesbian. Following this she found out I liked her but she was gay so I was whatever about it. Recently, us two and three others went camping and while me and a friend where walking around at night, she had a threesome with the straight couple we where with.

She told me directly that they had it, I'm not sure if she just forgot I liked her or she was being malicious but it was the most I hurt in ages. I want to say something but my anxiety stops me every time I try to structure something

>>743640962
>>743641094
>>743641117
>>743641251
Thanks for the thoughts.
Been working things out with my doctor and things look brighter than ever. It's maybe just a slow process with me.
It's just that I really don't talk with anyone and sometimes these threads are a good opportunity to express myself.
Thanks again. You made my night.

>>743642016
That's the attitude my man, she is a shitty person if she just leave you without a good reason and she probably have this guy even when you were still together, fuck her ma

>>743642258
This one is not for you. Move on.

>>743642258
Shit fam that sucks, im sorry that it hurt so much. Try to get some sleep okay? Don't let that one mishap ruin your mind for days.

>>743641864
I have let her go, but sometimes past shit can still come back and bite you in the ass at times~

She fell out of love, not lust. There were long periods of the relationship where we wouldn't do anything lustful, not because of problems, but because we were happy to laze around and cuddle. She had flaws, lots of flaws, but I loved her for them as she loved me for mine. But then we changed too much in opposite directions, and as much as it hurt (and indeed, still does at times), I'm glad it ended and I'm glad we walked away.

>>743642257
Yeah I feel it too anon, exactly like you

>>743642313
We are here for you fam, you are always welcome here and we will always be here

>>743642398
I want to but I can't get her out of my head

>>743642398
I start uni in a couple of days, I see her there which is painful

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>be me in 2015. 19yo.
>failed first two semesters of college and was kicked out
>never made 1 friend while there
>first long term girlfriend dumped me for jacked dude
>depression got so bad i stopped eating for 3 weeks, would throw up whatever i did eat
>still don't have license cause too scared to drive

>be me 2017
>reinstated into college. doing well
>made a couple friends cause i actually spoke up
>eating on the regular
>get to drive places

i get it, i haven't made any HUGE accomplishments, but life doesn't suck anymore. Always hang in there.

>>743642610
>I want to but I can't get her out of my head
I didn't say it was easy. But seriously, convince yourself she's not the one. She's not.

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>>743633170
here's the original pic if you want it

>>743642216
We might be, but I think that it just has a lot to do with each individual person's interpretation of love. Either way, it's been a lovely chat!

>>743642313
No problemo my man, that's exactly why I've made this thread so we can share our sorrow with fellow anons and so we don't feel so alone

>>743642658
Dude, that's amazing progress, I'm really happy for you

>>743642139
I'm rooting for you~

>>743635645
guys thinking about his ex or whoever he loves, and instead of "brown" he sees "the colour of her hair" cause it's literally all he can think about.
HOW CAN YOU NOT GET IT
WERE YOU NEVER IN LOVE?

>>743642736
I was fine when she said she was gay, I think I just felt betrayed with no real closure

>>743635645
Go to bed, Billy.

>>743642658
DUDE fuck yeah that IS huge! Holy fuck I am so proud of you anon, keep pushing!

>>743642753
Thanks bro, what brought you here?

>>743632496
>FREE CANDY

>>743642797
Thank you so much

>>743642896
>I just felt betrayed
There you have it. Should you love someone that does that to you?
>inb4 I can't help it
Yes you can.

>>743642896
If you feel as though you havent gotten closure, talk it out with her. Trust me, itll be better than keeping this all in and letting it get to you

>>743642998
its only 3.8 tho :(

>>743642658
Fuck yeah anon, keep striving~
More than half of life is in strife (HAHAHA WORD PUN, GET IT) but you have to work for those little moments of happiness and success till they build into something greater than the struggles.

>>743642658
Awesome anon, getting over an irrational fear, gaining control of your health, improving your social life and getting your life headed in the direction are HUGE accomplishment. Keeping kicking life in the balls.

>>743643072
Thanks anon

>>743643074
I'll talk with her soon, thanks

>>743642998
No amount of candy can repair the damage

>>743642757
Btw even though I know all that about turning love on and off, I came into this thread because I'm depressed af over a girl. So there's that.

>>743628388
Can someone reupload this?

>>743643347
But it's free!