Where the fuck is my obligatory Friday night feels thread? Get

>>742539036
I mean, I was playing Overwatch with some of my friends and I usually go on 4chan afterwards so...

My life is mostly fine, and I've been dating this gorgeous girl for about a year now. She's funny, smart as fuck, she's really outgoing, but I feel so sad when I'm around her. She hates physical contact of any kind, I've only kissed her once, she doesn't like to cuddle, and she barely even hugs me. She's the only girl I've ever felt love for, and I'm usually very muted with my emotions. I don't know what to do.

2 months ago I was in the pits and know the feels, but now it was like the hand of kek reached out and touched me. This girl, who is not very attractive but is super rich is sugar mama'ing for me now, it's amazing. I hope you all find your way out someday.

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OP, heres my shit.
>woman of my dreams
>always close friends, never made it past that
>usually go out with friends to make up for the hole in my heart
>always get shitfaced, always end up pouring my heart out to my friends
>eventually they say they can't handle it, I'm too depressing and I bring everyone down
>basically exclude me from Friday barhop night
>sitting alone, getting drunk
>check my snapchat
>its her
>just a streak, its her and her boyfriend in their car
>they're out driving around and having the time of their lives, while I'm miserable and wishing she'd love me
>get on /b to find a feels thread to vent my problems to
>error 404 no thread
>basically ready to shoot myself

>>742539461
ayyy that sounds fun, yeah. any specific heroes you play?

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<3 /b/ro

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>be me
>have gf for 8 years
>perfect in every way
>leaves me 2 months before my birthday
>"its too hard to keep you happy"
>im happiest i have been in months
>find out theres some one else
>join gym
>get strong af and in shape
>still feel sad
>plan to suicide in 1 month 9 days

>>742539521
that blows anon, have you ever asked her why she isn't so fond of physical contact?

>>742540541
suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, my man
>its okay to have feels. but you must learn how to control them
trust me, now that you're involved and getting /fit, you'll have an easier time finding someone new

>>742540581
She avoids the question, but I've tried

I feel pretty empty. I hope this feeling of the inevitable end of my existence coming goes away if only for a little.

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Wife left me after having an affair.

Months later started dating a total 10\10. The first girl ever that the interests we didn't share I still find worthy of investing time in (theatre, gardening, big reader). Loved her body and totally fell for her brain. Sex was best I've ever had, she always nutted 3-4 times to my one.

Her sister died 3 months into is dating (sis 35, GF 23). Tore GF up pretty good but too independent to let it out and deal with it.

Holidays came around and she went fucking cray. Called me crying hysterically mud Dec "I can't feel like a shit GF and deal with my family stuff too. I never want to hang out and that's not fair to you"

Told her that if we stay in contact it's bc she knows I'm trying to get back with her, that I won't be friend zoned.

We texted back and forth often, but I saw friend zone creeping in. Started a woodworking project for her and when I got done with it was the day we either got back together or severed all ties.

We severed all ties. She wasn't ready so I had to believe she never would be.

Jesus I fucking miss her.

Pic is inlay on that jewelry box. Sure hope she kept it.

>>742540736
i have good and bad days as everyone does but some days I just feel crushed.

She saw through all my issues personally and my life.

Maybe ill make it anon, thanks /b/ro

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>I'm no one's first choice
>C dumped me like I was the fucking plague and now has the goddamn nerve to act all lonely and unloved
>no one fucking likes me
>I keep shitting the bed with N, I'm going to squander one of the best opportunities I've had in months
>Fate has cursed me, I'm stuck being a doormat for people who don't appreciate me, no matter how much I bleed for them
>Love isn't for me, and I'm not sure friendship is either, I don't believe anyone cares for me

I can't get my shit together, and the world just keeps falling apart

I'm not sure how much longer it'll be until I start wanting death

>>742540947
If you've made it through once man you can do it again.

That was completely out of your control. Just focus on where you want to be as a person and the rest comes.

Stay strong man. One day at a time.

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I'm smoking a lot of pot lately because it keeps the pain away

God I miss her so much

>>742540173
I have this saved on my phone and computer and make sure that I read it at least one time before I sleep so that I'm ready for whatever happens

>>742540541
Stay strong, /b/ro, there's nothing you can't do, this doesn't have to be the end

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>>742540947
Jesus Anon, that's fucking rough. Just reading that took a chunk out of me.
Keep your head up high, man, you'll make it through.

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If any of you are suicidal or want to talk to someone who will answer, I'll happily give out my discord.

You don't have to suffer in silence, /b/ros.

>>742539521
She's getting fucked by someone else bro

>>742541286
I just find it disheartening that I'm having as much if not more trouble getting over a girl I dated for 8 months than I did with my wife leaving me. To be fair I had more closure with the marriage but still. It's really throwing an added loop in the mix.

We broke up mid December, and severed ties early June. Still feels like mid Dec to me

>>742541414

Thanks /b/ro
One day at a time thats all i can do

>>742541544
It's all anyone can do, just keep it up

>>742540946
start smoking cigs. fills you right up

>>742539036
I like posting my body here

>>742541505
quality over quantity man

love isnt decided by how long youre with someone so dont feel bad there.

You have made it through the worst part man you can do this. I bet you didnt think you would move on when you were with your wife but you made it.

hang in there i know the feel

I have more greentext for >>742539734 if anyone's interested
if not I understand. One comes to the feels thread to release their weight off of the shoulders, not to gather the weight of others.

for u sad boyes
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ebhV5-3zpuE

>>742541910
continue bro we are all here for eachother

>>742541910
Let us hear it /b/ro, keep this thread alive

>>742541910
keep it going, bro

>>742540947


>>742541286


>>742541424

Also, first relationship that's ended that didn't end because of incompatibility, just shit timing.

It makes it harder knowing she struggles with us ending too.

We have a mutual friend, she told me that she spoke with exgf and said "you know, you really fucked up when you left Anon." Exgf went from collected to balling in nothing and said "I know"

Fuck, someone end the ride...

>>742541500
I deserve nothing more than the silence that will eventually kill me.

>>742540408
Lucio is my main. The amount of damage, speed, and versatility you have is amazing.

>>742542040
no one deserves anything but death, this is the only thing we are given at birth, we are born alone and we die alone

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>>742541941
>tfw this was more of a reason then i got from my gf of 8 years and its a fucking youtube video

>>742542003

You never know what tomorrow holds man. Hang in there, reach out if you can.

Do what feels right to you. You will only regret the chances you never took

>used to be best friends with this nigga named Michael
>we had a falling out and haven't spoken since last September.
>he always hated this nigga in our friend roster, Ray, but after our fling, he started sucking the guys dick and bullshitting about me
long story short, Ray spread that shit around like gospel and now I don't have any friends. B-but hey, friends are for normies, r-right /b/?

here's one thatll hurt boyos
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVMu3WzQof0

>>742542095
ayyy Lucio my man too

>>742539036
Friends are all moving into their next relationships while I haven't even begun my first.
>I don't know how to not spill spaghetti when talking to qts
>Most girls seem to just already have boyfriends and I do not want to have to greatly lower my standards to find one (they aren't even that high)
This one's the nail in the coffin
>5'7"

I know rap isnt big here but listen to this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AjKbw1Cqpt0

>>742541941
You can break up with me, but you are NOT taking my cat

>>742539734
atleast you have friends

Because it is Saturday morning and I'm on my way to work

>>742539734
this is me too, but with weed instead

>>742542645
dope fucking shit

>>742539521

I had a girl like that too. It took work to get her interested in sex, but she would rarely kiss me etc. She wasn't cheating on me, but it was frustrating as hell sometimes. Like, what the hell?

>>742542327
The only problem with maining Lucio and playing quick play a lot is that a lot of players see that there is a support and go 4 DPS lol

>>742540173
Damn it.

>>742539036
Cos it's Saturday at 1.46 pm here. It's also 36c outside now. Nahh, I'll stay in, shitpost and tf2 until it cools down.

>Wife cheated on me.
>Hate that I still love her.
>Tell her I forgive her.
>Try and look strong.
>Tell her I forgive her.
> 07/29/17 she asked me for divorce
>I have loved her for 7 years.
>She was my fucking life.
>Gave her everything.
>Nothing remains.
#numb

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>>742539734
>>742541910
>>742541953
>>742541955
>>742541991
>girl and I super close throughout high school, good friends but nothing more
>she'd lived down the street from me since she moved in during middle school
>had a huge crush on her ever since I saw her hop out of that moving van
>once in Junior year, I was 17 then
>she was a sophomore, 16
>I was young and head over heels
>I was tutoring her in geometry, I actually remember making a thread asking if I should make a move and try to win her over
>literally everyone said go big or go home
>she was with her boyfriend back then, too, same one
>regardless, I stepped up my game and flirted more and more
>she returned the flirty quips, I felt like I actually had a shot
>told her to close her eyes, I had a surprise for her
>she did
>my heart was pounding out of my chest, and every cell in my body told me not to, but I leaned in
>and kissed her on the lips
>she freaked out, initially freaked out because she had her eyes close and I just surprised her
>she awkwardly left my house
>the next day, she tells her boyfriend
>total fucking chad, mega dudebro, but is a pompous rich prick who only made it on the football team because daddy's money bought him a spot
>says he isn't going to fight me, honestly because I could've kicked his ass, no issue
>claims hes being the bigger man
>her and him are the school's power couple, prom king and queen material
>everyone in the school hears about my dastardly deeds, I become the literal shit stain of the student body
>all of the popular kids hate my guts
>girl feels bad for me, she knows her boyfriend spread what happened, she stays friends out of pitty
>years later, I'm still not over her
I fucking hate myself.

>>742543138
Don't go back man. You owe it to yourself. I know its hard because you still love her but you are worth more than being cheated on.

Stay strong man, my gf left me after 8 years for someone else

Hold yourself higher than going back please

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>>742540541
>>plan to suicide in 1 month 9 days

Maybe change plan. After 8 years, you gonna have to tough this one out a little longer. Sux, bro. Killing yourself over a woman that don't love you, that's pathetic.

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>never had friends because unable to show interest or emotions
>Not even ugly
>Face always no emotions just a bland cold look ( similar to wojak with less sadness)
>When try to smile feel humiliated and look obviously faking it
>Had 1 gf that broke with me after 2 months because "you never loved me or cared about me"
>When i told her i love her i felt very humiliated (i only told her only once)
>All people that knew me called me psychopath or told me that i have a huge ego because they think that i think i am better than other people

Anyone same?

>>742539036
>Almost 30
>No women friends

:^(

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Lost a great job from a random drug test, unemployed, can't find anything but minimum wage absolute shit jobs =/ hopefully I find something decent, I'm tired of being broke, on the upside I'll score me a few oxycodone to take away the pain for a few hours tommorow, can't wait to get another job, I need some dank to treat my deppression

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>>742543240
>Hold yourself higher than going back please

Wait, you're OP right? You're gonna kill yourself in a month? Are you saying I should kill myself instead?

FUCK U AND UR BAIT, OP. pic related, you never had a gf.

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>>742543358
25, never kissed, never hugged, never been on a date, stood up every time I've asked a girl on a date

Home after a party, hooked up a gorgeous girl, fell asleep after a party and we plan on seeing each other more. Pretty good shit

https://youtu.be/Yag41F7eCLU

>>742543705
thats no feels gtfo loser

>>742543705
Nice :')

https://youtu.be/82kx2AI1Gns

>>742543560
I wish that was me atleast he has a waifu

>>742543338
Yea, I'm pretty emotionless and don't talk a lot, cause I'm anti social, most people mistake it for me being stuck up

>>742542664
>not anymore
:(

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>was on PC
>switch to mobile to upload attached photo
>inbox link to myself
>find all the photos of gf and I that I hid away
>start to slip into bad thoughts
>help me anons

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Made this shit the other night. Dunno if its even readable, but fuck it. too lazy to greentext it all.

>>742543615
It's hard. I can tell you that. It feels like I'm playing on a hard setting.

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i cant bring myself to delete my ex's pics because i keep thinking to myself 'what if'. She came back recently to catch up, and since then she's done nothing but tease, insinuate she still has feelings, and ignoring my advances. i've never been more miserable

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>>742543806
I don't feel any emotions but i still feel lonely and depressed.
Why?

>>742541273
at least they were real girls you had something with, i've never tried anything with anyone if it wasn't online. kms

>feel empty inside because girlfriend wont live with me and hardly sees me anymore
>download random anon app to try to talk to disguised FBI agents to fill the void
>find someone that lives in my hometown and initiates conversation
>after two hours find out they are literally the complete embodiment of everything that I have ever wanted in life
>life basically opens my door and gives me the biggest middle finger it has to offer
>keep talking to her and she apologizes for "wasting my time" and tells me she has herpes
>ask her to stay friends because sex isn't top priority for me right now
>she disagrees and downs herself to the point of no return and disconnects immediately
>walk to my computer where life has already opened this thread and I have been typing ever since

just for u ;)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zwhauwG5yDU

>>742544269
All your time spent trying to be numb so you wouldn't have to be sad actually just made you forget how to feel anything else, and now you're stuck

>>742544276
Nice try, but I don't even have that

>>742544354
So you feel in love with a FBI agent? rip

>>742544465
fell*

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i come and then i go

i am a traveler from afar

i bring you feels thread /b/ros a simple picture

make what you make out of it

>>742544506
I downloaded a dating app to get online hardly real / mostly fake female interaction.

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More feels pics

Pretty much nothing else to do, not hung or good looking enough for Craigslist and like to spend time watching Law and Order reruns.
Also I don't have money for Backpage, or Life

>>742544670
I really like this outlook.

Feels song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtlgYxa6BMU

>>742542316
sned ndues

>>742544396
nothing = nothing but in human emotions nothing = more sadness.

>>742544885
kfag

i dont get it, why is everyone sad in here??

>>742545099
because that's a feels thread, newfag

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Sometimes life has a funny way of bring you on here. Nothing especially sad. Just as I grew older the emptiness inside of you gets bigger and bigger. But it's never some angsty thing. It just gets dull. So, you get wrapped in all these different things. You become callous and cold. Or develop a series of defense mechanisms like sarcasm and indifference. The funny thing is none of us have nothing that bad to deal with. How about you, OP? Why are you here?

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>>742545099
Sadness is a part of life. It's not about experiencing it over and over, or reliving. It's about learning from it, letting it chisel you into someone better than who you were before. If you were sad, that means something happy happened before you became sad. Those fleeting moments are what life is about, because typical day-to-day gets stagnant, and gets taken for granted. So whenever you feel sad, understand that you were once happy enough to overcome it, and can overcome it again. I'm here because it lets me find catharsis, little by little.

>>742545099
This place generally attracts outcasts, it's late at night, and what everyone who has no one to confide has is shared amongst others who also have no one to confide in. We're being alone together.

Tonight is my last night in town for the next six months. All my friends know, but none of them asked if I wanted to hang out.

I hate myself
>social retard
>long distance relationship of 3 years destroyed by her problems making her think i didnt love her
>too beta to message again, its been three months also the time is gone
>get over that, gpa nosedives during that depression
>currently in the no future should kill myself depression
>all the people around me are caring and want to help me achieve my goals but i just fuck it up and let everyone down
>see my friends with actual problems succeeding far beyond me
>cant kms cuz everyone invested too much in me
>beat my dick for 8 years and my right arm is noticably stronger in public when working out
>still dont know if ill cut it as a self-sustaining person in future
When does this vicious cycle end? I tried to go to get diagnosed and prescribed and its $30 copay a visit. My first check from job isnt in yet either

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Are we gonna make it?

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>>742545634
>well fuck

>>742545634
I feel you, dude. Look for better people, or stop looking entirely.

Everyone here is fighting a battle and it's comforting in a way to know that we aren't the only ones suffering...we are alone irl but here together online everyday fighting our own battles, venting on these threads, and helping each other out, maybe getting in a few keks, it's sort of a beautiful thing, were all fighting our personal battles together in a way

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>>742545680

I typically stroke it 2-3 times\day. So sad I'm not game for a 3rd on a Friday

>>742545720
>>742545723
I'm just mostly disappointed in them. I really don't go out that much, but I do whenever I'm invited. I don't have a huge group of friends, but I have enough that I figured that at least one of them would have said

>hey man, wanna grab a beer or something before you move out?

>>742545814
I'm the same guy here but I was seriously daydreaming about suicide, a few anons had some kind words, then I saw other anons struggling and I did my best to help them, now I feel a bit better that I got to help others and the suicidal feelings are gone

>be me
>shitty childhood, raised by an ok mother. Always a different guy coming home.
>new husband doesnt want me around.
>leave home at age of 13
>move in with my aunt. Fuck that up.
>move in with friend. Fuck that up
>14 years old now, drop out of high school. Move in to a friends house.
>an older girl was staying there at the time. Got into an argument with her parents wanted to show them she didnt need their money or help.
>fucking gorgeous girl, blonde, thick af. really cool person but shes a senior and i was a freshmen before i dropped out.
>completely out of my league, whatever.
>we all chill lots of people older than me
>really like this girl
>she hangs with alot of older black guys i know i dont have a chance.
>we get to know eachother after living together for a few months.
>she starts to be flirty with me. I dont believe it. says she doesnt want the kind of guys she has been around anymore.
>she says she wants me to sleep with her that night.
>mfw im a virgin
>mfw ive told everyone that i slept with like 20 bitches to act cool.
>she 18 years old and has been fucking black guys in their 20s
> i fucking did not know what i was doing but i made love to that girl
>fell in love instantly.
>afterwards i wanted to date her
>she finally agrees to date me after like 2 weeks of fucking
>get jealous and ask her how many guys she has slept with
>she says 5 before me. None of them were her boyfriends. One was a 24 yo black guy that she fucked for about 2 years
>she let him fuck her in the ass twice
>she fucked a couple of his friends
> i had been hanging out with these guys and they all knew and i didnt and they would make fun of me and i never knew why.
>now i know.
>she tells me shes pregnant.
> i love her but cannot accept her past.
> fast forward 8 years
> we have 2 kids we have our own house i have a family now.
>still cant get over her past.
Im 24 now. I know im being selfish and immature but i just dont think i can ever get over it. This affects me deeply.

> be me
> ponders my mind every so often
> dated M'lady from freshman year to senior year
> year 4 rolls around
> claimed being depressed
>"Anon I can't handle a bf and college at the same time"
> I take her decision respectfully and take the demotion to the friend zone
> week later from break up
> M'lady plans with best friend's bf to get together behind our backs
> mfw
>gets engaged after about 9 months of dating..
> at mother fucking disney...
> mfw still no apology

Honestly I am such a happy spirit of a guy and I am really shocked that I didn't an hero.

I don't deserve Ally, niggers.

>>742539521
>dating
>only kissed once

Yeah.. you're not dating. talesfromthefriendzone

>>742546120
Everyone has done horrible things in their past. Is she cheating on you now? If not, you really just gotta struggle to put her past behind you if it isn't affecting anything now.

Server for depressed faggots discord/ eBAh6gE

Me and my 10/10 gf of 5 yrs broke up 3 months ago. I felt like shit in the beginning but I'm getting better.
I'm trying to spend most of my time with friends to not to think about her.
Had few solid opportunities with different girls. I didn't do any moves to get close to any of them. It's not like I can't. For some reason I just didn't do it.
I have no fucking idea why my fucking brain can't accept that I'm a single now.

How to deal with this shit b/ros?

I'm on b because I'm a fucking drunk insomniac and I need something to fill the void in my time other than lying awake and staring at the ceiling.

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>>742543207

>>742540831
Maybe she was abused when she was a kid and anybody's touch makes her skin crawl.

>>742546617
time. 5 years is a long time, you just need to give it a lot more time.

>>742541625
Is smoking just a meme or does it actually help? I used to smoke pot, but I'm on probation currently and can't be doing that for the next six months.

>>742546120
Well I cant blame you anon, that is something that you will have to look past as your life goes on with her. On the other hand you can really appreciate that she took a different direction in her life to be with a better man that could raise her children and not to mention your children will give you such a better look onto life. They will change you for the best. Cheers m8 dont worry about it

>>742546306
Tbh if I was in your shoes I would've an heroed, nice job anon

>>742539036
Because
>I'm reading Nekopara.
>I got weed
>I'm me so no friends

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>>742545680

>>742546566
This she was young and slutting around before she knew any better

Sounds like you two really love each other, if she's loyal now I wouldn't worry about it

Come back in a few months when I get rejected from all my dream schools for being a dumbass back in college

Im 70 days sober and dont know how to have fun without being fucked up

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>>742541939
What use is a burnt match?

>>742546698
Who said i worry about it. I don't even miss her. I just feel lonely and depressed i am not going to have any friends or love in my entire life

>>742546566
Na shes not cheating on me and i really dont think she ever has but its always in the back of my head that she wishes she had that again. I mean i really think its all in my head but i cant help it or stop it

>>742546974
Nothing, that's the point.

>>742547006
Maybe you need legit therapy or something.

Look, brother, you CAN help it. You CAN stop it. Maybe not alone. Maybe you need to talk to her about it, or maybe a professional like I said earlier. Don't you dare give up hope, however. Man's greatest strength is to change himself.

>>742546965
You need to find a hobby. One way that I find the way to past the time while i was on my detox from marijuana was bike rides all along town. Please just give it a try I know it seems of an old dad activity but im 19 and I live for the hour or so I can just listen to some lofi and enjoy the lands. Just give it a try, please for me<3

>>742546779
Thanks for the laugh, need it.

>>742546965
Well congrats on being sober that long it's a big accomplishment

Find a fulfilling hobby, it might take some time, once you find something you enjoy immerse yourself in it

If you miss the mood boost, look into kratom, its a pretty harmless drug that's legal and non addictive

>>742543952
bro shes obv playing you out man. theres shit u just dont do when ur in a relationship. AKA cuddling with other dudes and hanging out with them all the time. She's obv not respecting your feeling or your boundaries and dosent want you anymore. I've had the same shit happen man and if its any consolation u just gotta say fuck her and try your best to move on.

I'M FUCKING BROKE

>>742547407
You could always mine bitcoins

I have feels... but they are not related to partners or relationships at all.

I'm in a hole of my own creation: currently a hardcore NEET who dropped out of school in his final semester because of alcoholism and an impossibly self-destructive relationship with myself, begrudgingly supported by my family. I don't know why my self-esteem has crashed to subzero levels in the past three years; i just know that it's been such an intense journey and that i am both way too fucking old not to support myself and way too young to be dealing with this crushing level of suicidal intent on the day-to-day.

I don't know what the future holds. I live day to day at best, and minute to minute at worst. I have good friends, true friends, but they are all far away, and my low self-esteem has caused my isolationist tendencies to reach an all time high.

Sharing in the hope that someone can relate. If not, oh well, i guess, it's just strangers on the internet.

>>742546866
Yeah i know. And she did all of it before we even met. I just cant help but to think about that shit constantly. 8 years it has fucked with me. Im an alcoholic im not the best to her and i could be a better father. It is just the main reason why i have lost joy in pretty much anything. And im not strong enough to put it in the past

>>742547531
well what is the self esteem centered around?
With your ability to be your self, confidence, decision making? Also there is time to turn your path around and finish what you started even though you could have a different vision of what you want to do in your life there is always a way to solve it. Tell me how your day went yesterday.

>>742546306
fuck that bitch bro. women flock to dudes with high spirits youll find someone way better if you havent already

>>742547281
always happy to help anon

>>742547459
not that anon but mining rigs or cloud mining cost $$$

>>742547129
Yeah i hear you.
We have talked about it alot the past 8 years. There really isnt much else to say i mean she did what she did and i cant get over it so we both are pretty much at wits end whenever we do talk about it. Life is too short and because of my unhappiness it makes her unhappy. I dont want to constantly bring it up so i just drink and sometimes i act like a dick to her and i know thats wrong but hey this is what it is and it just is that way

I have loved people, I have made people happy, done the whole thing by the book. I have never felt loved. What is it like to be loved /b/rothers ?

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>>742541307
Love the pic. I know how it feels anon. I havnt seen her in 2 years and it still hurts. Some days are better than others just keep doing you /b/ro. We'll make it somehow

>>742548129
It feels the same as not being loved, there's just some asshole in your personal space.

I'm reading about these "deaths of despair," how there's 1/4 more suicides than decades ago or w/e, and how one more wouldn't matter and I could remove all my life problems in one fell swoop if I pulled the trigger. Because of these feels I love lurking in suicide threads but they always 404 too soon, no pun intended. I wish there were more suicide threads on /b/.

>>742547794
Actually after I got the news that shes been engaged, im unsure if I should be looking forward to a wedding invite or just act like another body in this world. I know I shouldn't because she still wanted to go to prom even when we were broken up and made us take every photo you could possibly think of that you could take. sigh... women in todays age are just not like these used to be:/ its all about sex

>>742548129
same here, never really felt needed and loved by someone other than my parents maybe
it sounds so good thinking about the fact that a person (gf) loves you for who you are and all your flaws, plus she wants you in her life and maybe kinda needs you also.

never got that feeling from someone, and i dunno why

>>742548246
Hey man its up to you on how you handle this. You could either be stone cold and just move on or keep her as a friend and be happy for her. I'd prolly just cut her off but that's just me.

>>742545099
Because life is sad for everyone at one point and society tells us it's fine and not to talk about is so we post it anonymously online?

>>742543138
Thats rough anon i feel for you stay strong my man

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>paid an artist $60 to commission him to make snuff porn of three characters I love

Feels [spoiler]fuckin great even though in the back of my mind I still feel like a total piece of shit for getting off on this stuff[/spoiler]

>>742543952
I am in something similar myself.

>>742546120
girls are young and stupid at that age man, just as long as she grew out of it and is no longer slutting out like she does in high school. She's a good person and makes you happy, her morals are dialed in now a little bit with the help of age. Don't stress it, everyone has a past that they aren't proud of but it makes us who we are today and we learn and grow from it. You're a step ahead most people, assuming you guys have a healthy relationship. Hope the best anon.

>>742548567
Easier said than done.. Ive wanted to cut her off from my life like you would not believe. I have not had any communication in about 9 months with here. Unfortunately there is a mental note in my head that in every sun set I see, she is all I see. She could not let down how bad that those were going to be her wedding colors. Glad someone is here to listen, everyone I talk to in person just says sorry for what happened, happy to have you /b/ros are here with me atleast

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>>742543946
You'll be okay /b/ro we're all here for you

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What I've always worried about is why does anything at all matter? Like an edgy little shit, I thought why is there life? Why are there People? Isn't the big bang theory advocating for spontaneous generation?

Now I understand, no matter what people think, we have souls, it's who we are. Regardless of religion, Our souls are an aspect of our lives we never look at. When someone says their heart broke, they really mean their soul tore, and they will never be whole again. It is really beautiful. Love is a bond between souls, it is a connection beyond physics. To love someone is to want to share your soul and your very being with them, and that too is beautiful.

I remember that the latin for soul is amnis, and the latin for are an is amnia, or vise versa, don't totally recall. But isn't that awesome? Because as humans, Our very being is not some barrier or unbreakable barrier between us and "them," but a fluid motion that reaches out for new experiences and wants to be incorporated into actions, and intertwine with others. It is beautiful.

When I realized this, it made me so much more sad that I've understood myself to be alone for 5 years. I'm only 18 now, but I tell you, I am lonely for it. I am my own best friend. My stream does not flow out, and none flows in.

Tldr our souls give life meaning. Don't end up like me man.

Remember the line "What are friends for?"
I don't even know what friends are for. I am 20 years old and haven't had a friend since I was 5. I grew up with all of my peers being apathetic at best towards me, and more often than not actively despising me. I find it true that if you are told a lie about yourself enough times, you'll believe it.
I fucking hate myself.
I hate every aspect of my personality.
If I had some sort of machine that could reprogram my mind, I would literally have it obliterate my personality and turn me into an unfeeling robot.
At least that way life would hurt less.

>>742540173
fuck

>>742548129
I can tell you this, i never accept the love she gives me and i treat her like shit for her past but for some reason no matter what mean thing i say or do to her she is always there for me even when i act like i dont want her to and even though i dont deserve her. I havent talked to my own mother in 6 years. And yeah i hate to admit it i do know what love feels like because when i look at myself in the mirror i see a piece of shit and for some reason she sees the man she wants to marry. I may be an alcoholic asshole but she still waits for me to come home to her at night. And when i look at the children we made it does give me a glimmer of happiness. Maybe my life doesnt suck that bad and im just being a fucking cry baby bitch instead of manning the fuck up and being a better person for the only family i ever had

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I cant tell my partner that I am constantly sad and stressed.
Every day I keep a facade of happy go lucky, everything is fine, while when I am alone, I cry and scream in frustration.
I look in the mirror and see an ugly and worthless person. I have rheumathism, so it physically hurts every day too. I dont know why I feel like this, and I cant tell my partner in case they leave me for being too much to deal with.
Im so happy in reality, why do I feel like this?

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>>742544240
You dont have to delete them but looking at those pics right now is unhealthy anon and will make you go crazy. Try to focus on you fuck that noise

I can't even fucking do this man. Amnia is stream in latin. Amnis is soul.

>>742541273
It's time to say "So be it" and move on.

>>742548241
Made me smile.

>>742548804
Yea bro I totally get how hard it is to cut someone out when you deeply care about them. As shitty as it sounds you just gotta sit through it and find other things to entertain yourself an eventually you'll have moved on to bigger and better things and you wont remember anymore or it wont matter to you anymore. Let her just come as a lesson to you and help you grow as an individual.

>>742548956
Anon... I feel you. I don't know that it will make you feel less lonely, but I would highly recommend you go listen to some Alan Watts lectures on YouTube. You may like what the man has to say.

>>742539659
this post gave me aids

>>742549004
There is good people out there anon, just gotta let yourself be open for friendships and not be so closed off all the time. It's tough but good friends are worth it if you position yourself correctly.

You seem overly critical of yourself, I do the same thing. You have good qualities about you I promise.

>>742549255
:) thanks anon really

>>742549374
Difficult to see good qualities in oneself when everything I've done in recent times has been a complete waste of time. I lack even the most basic virtue of industry.

>>742545661
Fuck everybody else youre the only one that can make you happy. I believe in you anon. If you have to take some time off from school do it! Lifes not always about school and grades. Hang in there buddy really try to do something you really enjoy in the meantime

Not sure if bcuz of asian upbringing but
>be me
>be almost college junior
>everyone I know is sucessful and have internship under their belt, some even have jobs
>done virtually jack shit other than trying to get good grades
>grades are shit tho
>no extracurricular achievement to add to resume
>cant network for shit since I dont have any friends
>spent all this time talking to ppl only to make acquaintances
>most people I talk to just somehow end up close enough to know each other but not even close enough to hang out with
>maybe bcuz I have no emotions, or maybe bcuz I am somehow subconsciously pushing people away, idk
>no friends and no future

how to know one doesn't regret life or the way he spent his life when on the deathbed?

Cuz people are fucking flakes.
The older i get the more I accept that I will die alone.

>>742549724
why regret not grinding in babylon / bed / wherever. skipping all effort = best possible life

>>742539521
Leave.
That is sad and weird.
coming from someone who has been in a very similar situation.

>>742549555
Nothings a waste of time, I'm on the losing side of 25 man and I have failed at everything in life thus far. You don't see good qualities in yourself because you haven't had anyone around to point them out it seems like. You're not all bad kid remember that.

Gaging for opinions. Do you think this would be romantic?
>movie theatre is attached to the mall
>go on movie date with girl
>after date, offer to show girl something cool
>lead her through the back hallways
>sneak onto the roof
>the sun is setting
My faggot of a friend said that was creepy.

>>742544703
This is the most real post i have ever seen. I love you Anon, never forget that

>>742550060
Not all grills appreciate that kind of stuff. I dated a girl and I did shit like that all the time. She loved it. Go for it anon

>>742550060
Sure but prolly best to tell her you wanna take the to the roof or she might suspect you about to rape her or something

>girl of my dreams I see everyday
>shes a real popular fun person
>balls up and start messaging more tonight
>anon why are you messaging mW so much, you aren't this talkative irl
>tfw talk to her more than anyone I know

>>742540541
anon, dont do it. nothing good will come if you do an hero. your family will feel like shit and as will your friends. as someone who recently tried to take their life with benzos and liqour, i can tell you life is worth living. the world is you oyster, do whatever the fuck you wanna do with your life, go to a third-world country, get aids and fuck a shit ton of niggers. just live your life to the fullest

you'll regret planning on doing an hero once you see the good in this world. i love you, and as do all anons <3

>>742550060
do it, just don't make it creepy.

>>742550285
me*

>>742550234
I hope I'm not misreading this chick, but she seems like the type who would like it.
>>742550259
That's a good point, thanks.
>>742550306
I'll try my hardest. Hopefully I don't go full social retard.

>>742539461 jacob is that you?

>Wake up bright n' early
>Shit it's 2pm...
>Straight outta bed
>Hit head on door frame
>Get phone call
>Stub my fucking toe on a corner attempting to answer
>Pick up phone
>Indian scammer says I have "Comu-ar virus"
>Hang up
>Go to computer, browse around
>Leave house
>Feeling nauseated
>Start coughing up blood
>Lesions begin to explode all over my skin
>Holy shit.jpg
>It's all a blur, I am in quarantine
>As I come to, a man standing beside my bed
>The Indian scammer...
>Whispers in my ear
>"If only you gave me the $1200 in Target gift cards"
>It's all a blur again
>Wake up in fiery inferno
>It's Hell, and Devil says he won't burn my balls off if I suck his dick
>The one time I hang up on a scammer!
>The feel

>>742550617
rip nice

>>742550060
Thats cute anon i would have liked that

>>742539036
>loser fag decides to do something with life
>joins the army straight out of high school
>is a skinny weak fag doesn't join infantry decides to be a paralegal
>fractures elbow from tripping on side walk during basic combat training
>doesn't tell drill sergeants
>eventually is driven to hospital two days later when people realize arm is fucked
>holiday weekend docter isnt in get stuck in a makeshift splint for two weeks that fucks my arm more
>dont want to quit, stay with screaming drills for 6 months had to start BCT from scratch
>finally done with BCT
> paralegal training is too ezy
>over work arm too much prepping for the final AIT fitness test
>elbow gets a stress fracture 5 days before leaving to go to first unit
>at unit now with broken elbow

>>742542135
>born alone
........ are you fuckin stupid or just trolling?

>>742550927
>guy I replaced was kicked out of the army for failing fitness test and constantly being injured
>immediately was given his name
>start working as a paralegal
>find out from other people I have one of the worst positions for new paralegals on base
>get tasked with filing crap unit was supposed to do as far back as 2010
>call friend assigned a unit at same base
>"yeah this is easy here anon I literally just sit on my phone all day haha"
>eventually get done with filing still have no idea how to do half my job 2 months into being at unit
>get dragged into biggest case my units had in years
>pedo who raped 5 yr old daughters with 6 yr old son for years
>get dragged into two other big cases
>all pedos
>degenerates one of the kids asks why 30 yr old was trying to "pee" on her at sleep over
>have to stay at work late listening to super descreptive kiddo interviews to find evidence if accused actually slipped a finger in
>"no he just rubbed his hoo hoo all over it"
>pedo cases finally closed
>every day I get off work get on 4chan for two hours and fall asleep
>know no one in state, have no car literally just sit depressed in my shitty room by myself a few weekends I didn't leave my room at all

I didnt even get a safety brief when I left the office. My NCO just told me to eat food.

>>742550060
Tfw you will never have a gf to show anything to.

>>742542040
I respect your general self loathing.

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>Wake up at good time for good boy
>want to make father proud by warning filthy americun of malicious malware
>but first have to go shit in designated street
>put on americun mimic suit
>tux suit, tie, MAGA hat, whole package
>call up the americun man at home
>it b 2pm
>"hello u have comu-ar virus. it bad. dont do well!"
>white man have audacity to hang up
>he will be sorry
>take big boat to americu land
>see the white man
>stand by his sleepy mat
>"If only you gave me the $1200 in Target gift cards."
>loses consciousness
>facefuck his lifeless body in designated street
>mah face wen tat happened

>>742542003
Only death will stop the pain anon.

>>742542003
>>742550996
Only joking, chin up friend, you will learn to love again!

>>742550888
trips of truth

>>742550992
Some what?

>>742550888
Faggot confirmed.

>>742550060
girls love that shit. Do it man

Me raped and molested by step dad and brother for years
Never understood
12 get taken to foster home get out two years later
Somewhere in that time it clicks what happened
Become introverted fag with no life
Play xbox all day cause its what i know
Meet really nice guy
We become fast friends talk all the time
Realize that i have feelings for him
But im a straight white guy and after my past not about that life
Friendship last months as he tells me alot hes always sad
Guys been struggling with depression for awhile
One night calls me sounds super calm and better
"Anon, i found my dads gun"
Next thing i hear is the shotgun blast through the phone.
I failed at saving my best friend
Never got to meet him irl
Never told him i loved him

Ive been thinking of that time for years and i have a bullet with his name on it contemplating shooting it through my skull

>>742549004
Dude I honestly, truly feel you, and I am sorry you carry similar issues.

>>742551440
Me and my twin sister were best friends up and until she started liking boys and got a boyfriend. Been alone since. I don't have a bullet with her name but I know what it's like to think of a person in your past.

>>742543615
19 and a relationship that lasted 2 years. trust me anon, girls aren't worth it. Eventually everyone leaves. You'll be alone again before you know it

>>742549717
Nah happens to white people too.
>mfw finding friends after 20 is fucking impossible.

>>742549332
All posts give you aids.

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>>742547006
My relationship started pretty similar, and after 10 years it ended pretty much based on shit that i have done or said with those sicked ideas on my head. If u really want to get over it and have peace of mind, find therapy and fix yourself first

>>742551548
I just think places like this are indescribably sad. We are, many of us, the dregs of society, outcasts. The only emotional support we can get is from people we will never meet, never have a face-to-face conversation with. I think why so many people here seem to turn gay is that the only support they get is from other men online. I guess I'd rather turn gay than go through another 20 years alone.

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I'm an asshole, that's why I'm alone.

My night was going well till I didn't notice the signs and cock blocked myself.

I was too drunk at a game to realize this Asian girl wanted my number. By the time this drunk Asian girl left with some beta, I was too late.

Such a shitty feeling deep inside knowing you can't form a relationship. Even when the girls are attracted to you, I seem to fuck it up every time. Death sounds so much easier

Every night I ask myself this question, why am I not out partying or living it up. I'm still 'young'. Sure, it could be I'm just not around the right crowd. I've come to cope with not being involved in this kind of stuff, but I do wonder what it's like. But when your family is impoverished, you've not really many options. I've literally got nothing but the solace of the internet and all of its hilarity to keep me naive to what goes on around me. Even then that doesn't work out for me. I got into a long distance relationship which just ended up being me challenging my paranoia and losing. It fell apart with nothing but suspicions and unanswered questions left behind. The woman won't even talk to me, and it's eating at me because it only makes me feel like what I was suspicious of is right. Her and her 'gay best friend' (Like I haven't heard that one before) used to date, and she only recently mentioned it to me. Like what the fuck. You know something's up if you fail to mention a prior relationship with someone, but that ex is literally the only person you fucking talk about. We broke things off with me wanting to just get confirmation that she cheated. I know she did, that or she's just shitty with details, and timing. I invested way too early and all I am now is bitter towards her, I'm bitter. Funny. I know I'll have to make it out of college and become something if I want to have a good road into adulthood. The things I worry about are that knowing family will always be a concern, that if I'm more successful than the people I come from, they'll only try to live off my success. It's terrible to think in such a way, but that's really what it'll be. I'm positive I won't just be left alone to be a grown ass man. Somewhere, sometime, I'll be asked to help them and I can't say no. Not only am I faced with the lack of anything to do, but I know my future's gonna be shit even if I do somehow make it out in the world. So yeah, anonymous image boards. Loving it.

>>742552086
Having blonde Trump bb eye me at the grocery store got me harder than a prosthetic leg. Ye don't see 10/10s like that around here.

>>742552086
learn and notice the signs next time, you'll get better at it in time.

>>742551627

Ever tried talking to her faggot?

>>742539036
> Didn't know it was friday
> No friends no job losing will to live
> Coming down off success in business
> The good times were just as awful as bad times
> Going to see how low I can sink before homeless / dead
> 1GB internet connection which is pretty cool tho

>>742548583
Bingo.
or society is like, "go see counselor"
free counseling is free for a reason....

>>742552304
wanna help me with my business anon before you die?

>been in jail for 50 years
>got out last week
>was so excited to get out of that shit hole
>the outside world is fucking awful everyone is a robot
>i dont know how to live in this world.
>next week im going back to jail or killing myself

>Be me
>December of last year
>Depressed as shit, parents on meth, living in a trailer that's slowly falling apart
>Not super poor, dad just didn't have the time to fix the place up.
>Been super depressed since I was 12
>18 now
>Depression spikes from combination of loneliness, school, dopehead dad, etc
>Drop out of school, halfway through Junior year
>Move states, thinking it might help the depression
>Just makes it worse
>Spend the next 6 months playing xbox live all day, eating taco bell, being a general fat neckbeard
>Sleep all day, up all night
>Get out maybe once or twice a month to look for jobs
>Nobody hires me because I'm obviously a lazy drop out fucktard
>Never met any friends up here besides a few other neckbeards I play D&D with every week.
>Go for 3 sessions, loving it, these guys are actually really fun to be around
>They move the sessions to a different friend's house
>Didn't tell me
>Back to laying around depressed
>Miss friends in home state
>Miss dad, even if he was a dopehead
>Regret dropping out
>LDR gf for a year, longest relationship, cheats on me with her fat spic drug dealer
>Sadder than I've been in my life
>Just end up sleeping more and more
>Sleep for atleast 15 hours a day. Usually more
cont'd? I realise this might end up being a long story.

>>742547459
What the fuck does that even mean.

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>>742539036
Good fucking question.
Probably Cause I'm a 28 yr old NEET that's too depressed to leave the house, and when I do, it's just to buy groceries to stay alive, covered in dog hair and depression crustiness

>>742543338
You need to trip on shrooms. 3.5g

>>742552357
Ok self made no money went to small town and gave the people what they needed to make alot of money in their business. Made $20k in two days in donations to rotary club. AMA

>>742552207
Always fun hiding a hard on in public. Belts are a lifesaver, just tuck your cock in the waistband.

>>742552220
I hope so...this girl works with an associate of mine, but the associate decided to not give me her number..
She was drunk too, I'm just venting now but I doubt she will want me now.
I'm like 5 years younger and barely established. I sound desperate but I wonder if she'll ask for my number

>>742551373
no girls dont like nice romantic shit they like manipulative cunts that bs through their fucking teeth

>>742539036
because I work nights and just got off working my 5th 12 hour shift. Just want to drink some beer and chill

>>742552408
Just stop, you gotta make some changes in your life or you're gonna continue to live in that fucked up cycle.

>>742552400
You learned how to computer, how?

>>742552576
I somewhat agree. It's a submissive trait maintained from the hunter-gatherer period.

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>>742539036
To be honest, I'd rather have a feels pic thread than a bunch of people whining

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>>742539036
today is birthday

yay

>>742552651
Yeah I know Anon. And I did start to make changes. Was looking into GED shit, got my first job ever. Small gas station, but I loved it. Then my sister finds out I'm bi and kicks me out just like that, because she thinks I'll fuck up her kids. As soon as I got on my feet I get everything pulled out from under me, and tossed back home into this shitty trailer.

>>742552290
Too much time has passed and she has a family now. They all have families now. All I have is this lousy Internet company. Sometimes I just drink beer all night and think about her.

>>742540947
fuck man. that's rough, keep doing you, homie.

>>742552845
happy birthday anon

>>742552920
t-thanks

>>742541307
I feel this on a spiritual level, /b/ro

>>742552887
Man it's never too late to reconnect with old friends and family. Just try. Yeah, it might be awkward at first but shit, push through it and make conversation, catch up and stuff, y'know?

>>742541500
you're the GOAT

>>742552845
Happy birthday /b/ro

>>742552460
What does one need to understand in order to start up and maintain a business, with all the bullshit cut out?

In my country its already Saturday

>>742553005
t-thanks

>>742553065
No problem my dude. How old are you turning?

>>742552845
How old are you turning, bucko?

>>742553019
In my country, it's already Sunday

>>742553099
>>742553112

26

>>742553117

thatt's not even possible anon

>>742553141

Congrats, not even one of the anons that responded you, but you are one year older than me! Happy birthday

>>742541941
>>742542324
>>742544380
Who's this dumb Slavic bitch??

>>742553155
Anything is possible, through the power of A U T I S M

>>742553141
Congrats man, how's life?

>>742548129
horrible once it stops.

>>742552973
Time is a one way street, well at least in this life. Maybe in the next life me and her will be close friends again.

>>742551923
You can't just suddenly be gay and be happy anon, i have tried, it is far more heart breaking and soul wrenching in the end to accept that you were so hurt that you changed a fundamental aspect of yourself to seek love and a sense of belonging.
love, like life i have found, is a promiscuous butterfly that we are lucky to catch and even more lucky if we dont crush it. Simply learn to suffer well, and the rest should follow, if we are so lucky.

>>742553307
Yeah, maybe. Hell, maybe in the next life, we won't all be sad /b/ros in a feels thread.

Just broke with gf, it was mutual i guess been 3 years together but everything started to go downhill lile 6 months ago, i feel some relief but at times i miss her and miss the good old times

>>742541307

Right there with you bro.

>>742550060
I've done that but one upped the fuck out of you.
I asked her
>do you want to see something beautiful?
drove her to Seattle and got on-top of the roof of a hotel I used to work at and looked at the sunset hit the skyline.
We drank a bottle of whiskey up there, and then a couple of years later she broke my heart lol.

>>742553365
Not the anon you replied to, but damn, really well said. The whole butterfly analogy gives me some odd glimmer of hope for the future. Thanks.

>>742553018
Networking is the most important thing in the world. Look at facebook. Everyone has a currency and everyone is self motivated so find out what someone wants then deliver if it benefits you. Don't spread yourself too thin on favors but always say yes to someone if they have a currency you need. Never misjudge your own value to someone even if they are friends. You are a cog in a wheel and you are only as good as your function to other cogs. Boost people's ego and dont let others boost yours unless it is because of real financial or political gain. Move other people on the chess board only let money move you.

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>>742553400
I hope so. Or at least that I won't be aware of still not being happy.

>>742539036
Fuck bros my mum has always been a belittling shithead towards me, I've warned her about this over and over the years, today she started it up again, just straight out told her she was wrong etc, and it's like the point where she is now the 'child' and I'm the 'adult'. I'm 42 with my own kid, so I'm not looking for sympathy - I'm in control of my emotions, if you have a mum who is actually nice to you you are lucky. Mines been a nasty piece of shit

>>742553155
My country is not very good at calendar

>>742539521
She is probably hiding some nasty stuff, like she was raped or something. Abort mission dude, this girl is probably fucked up

>>742553481
Glad i could help.

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>>742552845
Happy birthday anon! I love you

>>742553272
>>742553618

thank you guys

/b/ forever

lets have a happy song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d73tiBBzvFM

>>742539036
Dumped last week. Girlfriend going to a good college, moving onto bigger and better things. Here I am, working 13 hour days at a shit job 7 days a week, no real friends, still living with parents, family thinks am fag because diagnosed with depression, anxiety, severe derealization.

Never thought I'd be a 'what's the point of living' guy, but hear I am.

>>742539521
She wants a dad bro. That's why cuddles n no sex.

My gf is clingly as fuck and is blueballing me, it's cause she wants me to be her dad lol

19 y/o emo faggot, who is constantly berated and made fun of by the few people I can cling to and call friends, just to ease my loneliness. Realised I was trans about a year ago, and can't really do anything about it. My friends already thing I'm enough of a meme, without me being trans, and my parents are fairly conservative and wouldn't even THINK of helping me transition. So I'm stuck looking at myself and feeling gnawing disgust at my body, because I'm pretty masculine, even if I try not to be. Feelsbadman.jpg

>>742553515
I like this advice thanks man.

>>742553694
Been a while since I heard this one. Got a good beat to it.

Here, have some music in return, anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Puky9v7V89k

>>742553775
That is really weird dont you think taking testosterone would help?

I feel bad for the nigga with a rocket launcher....

>>742540541
Just like your muscles which hardened from pushing past the pain. Your mind also strengthens when you push past pain.

You can lose literally half your brain mass and your remaining brain will re-path things and get you back up and running. Push past this pain and you will be rewarded.

It's a speed bump in your road is all. You'll get over it, just slow down.

>>742553946
Taking testosterone is the opposite of what I want. I want to be pretty and feminine, not some hairy ass muscle man

>>742553775
sucks bro.
There are forums for trans individuals, i dont know about them, but they are out there.

>>742554086
I honestly thought legit T would help you DESIRE it less..
but you just really really want it dont you?

>>742553515
Also to add on this if you are young and have no money or direction and feel miles behind someone who is moving up corporate ladder don't worry. You can pirate software like photoshop and have a function for one or two businesses and make enough money to support yourself. Let word get to other potential clients and you will have more money than you expected. A degree and networking from college is credibility and a name but let your work be your name. Proof in concept. I started with nothing in a town I knew nobody and was living out of hotel basically homeless then had more clients I could keep up with had to hire help. Keep very different business and personal lives. This will overlap because you will become very social with your clients and grow your network but be sure there is a currency for everything. If you are invited to family BBQ make sure you only show up for a little bit and leave to save face but don't start dating your clients sister because it taints the money flow. Make the money as clean as you can; You perform function and get paid for it. Keep it simple. Humans are self interested so never forget to look out for yourself or people will take advantage, dont hold a grudge just always have leverage or leave the situation.

>>742554092
Yeah, I'm on the LGBT board like 90% of the time, just saw a feels thread and thought I'd get it out.

>>742554173
Yes, I do. Besides, I don't think taking more T and hiding from the dysphoria and stuff would really help. Probably just lead to more depression and regret

>>742554086
Dude, I feel you. I'm a pedophile and I don't want to change, but realistically, I *should* want to change, right? I don't plan on doing anything about my urges n shit, but do I have a moral obligation to seek help?
>inb4 "kys pedo" pedos make up like 20% of /b/

>>742547006
my soon to be wife was married years ago. she was not happy. but she used to fuck with her ex in ways she won't with me. i was very active and did all kind of shit (golden shower, bdsm, public, etc). now i dont even get to fuck her ass.
i really love her, we got a house, two kids, new job, but sex is bad, for years now.
i found letters from her ex he was writig her when they were together, there he described stuff they did. nothing special really. but she denies even that to me.
thinking about it all the fucking time, why she did stuff with him and not with me.
i sure know how to pleasure her after 10 years. still, everytime we fuck, its just some standard shit.
can't tell her, even if i did, would not change anything for sure...

>>742554425
Actually and unironically kill yourself

Coulda been out with group of friends but theyve become too much drama so been slowly distancing myself. Cant ever go out drinking and have fun cuz they get too drunk. The girls get all emotional. Once turns suicidal. The other one wants my dick but shes too chubby, which is a shame, cuz she culd be pretty if she lost weight. She had an std before so that also disgust me lmao. Guy friend gets too drunk and reeks of alcohol but thinks he can get all the girls. Always ends up in me having to apologize for their drunken bullshit. The few decent chicks at bars, dont like sloppy drunks. Theyve noticed I dont like this shit, so have Im getting invited less and less. Semi sucks but everytime I do go out with them, I remember why Im being cold to them, and they reciprocate. It just isnt fun anymore.

Thats why Im 4channing this friday night vs being out.

>friends all went to uni
>im still in my shitty hometown

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>>742554513
>herderderder
That's you, faggot.

are any of you sad fucks tryna talk on discord

>>742554425
50% of /b/ should kill themselves. go for it you sick fuck, before you do something stupid

>>742554602
With lolis??

>>742554425
Yeah, I know. Some people like us just get a shitty hand and are stuck desiring the exact opposite of what society says we should want. Though I don't think you are obligated to seek help. As long as you aren't like, going around raping kiddies or nothing, you're all good in my book. Besides, I believe stuff like being trans, sexual attraction to kids or men or whatever, that stuff isn't gonna change. No amount of therapy or hiding from it is gonna change that you are this person. I suppose we just gotta learn to love ourselves, yeah?

>>742554627
bro what

>>742554617
not that anon but your essentially berating a retarded person for being retarded

>>742553714
man i cant even get a job

>>742553714
bro fuck family, they're usually dickheads anyways

>>742554617
>>742554513
>kill yourself
Nice, what you just did was more illegal than any perverse shit I exhibit. I'm not gonna harp on you though because I'm not a dick.
>>742554640
Oi thanks, I really can't help that shit. And I don't plan on ever harming a kiddo.
>>742554681
Fair analogy
>>742554627
Fuck off cunt, you're doing me a disservice.

>>742553775
your friends sound like some dumbasses

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>>742554282
You sound like a complete sociopath, man.

>>742554712
Yeah, I try to tell myself other people have it a it worse, doesn't really work.
>>742554808
Sucks when family's all you got. Was easier to not care about family when I lived with gf

>>742554879
>any perverse shit
never watched cp, yeah

>>742554937
Sometimes they are, tbh. But they're still my friends. It's either be close to people that make jokes about me, or be alone 24/7

>>742554879
Np anon, you do you, I'll do me, and we wont do eachother, probably.

>>742555040
Actually never have. Why run the risk of getting caught? It's easier just to ignore the problem.

>>742555059
aye man.

there's always better people out there for ya