Good evening, Anonymous. Got something on your mind? Let's

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I would love a hug.

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>>742210194
*hugs you tightly* You can have one, Anon. Do you want to talk about things?

>>742210103
i have a question all intelligent op what do i do me and my best friends friendship is dying and i don't know how to save it

>>742210259
> Do you want to talk about things?
I only want to share some thoughts that i'm havin recently.

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>>742210330
Not OP.

Why is dying?

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My reputation has been affronted.

>>742210439
every time we talk its awkward and we don't even talk now

>>742210526
Ask him if he's okay.Ask him if is something that you said or did that let him down.

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>>742210330
>>742210526
Well, do you two still have things that you can relate over? If you don't really get along anymore, perhaps it's best to slowly shift apart and move on. You may find someone else who aligns more closely with you, that you won't be as awkward with. It's sad, and it's hard Anon. I'm sorry.

>>742210343
You can share anything here, Anon. We're both anonymous, and I won't be mean.

>>742210444
Affronted? How? Must you recover your reputation by performing some noteworthy feat?

fuck, haven't watch nausicaa in like 10 years

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>>742210796
It's worth rewatching if you don't mind the hardcore environmentalism. It's my favorite of all Miyazaki's movies. There's a manga too, did you know that? It's weird, far weirder than the film, but I liked it even better.

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>I want to see you become the best you can be, Anon.

Do you think you're the best you can be, Nausicaä? If not, how close would you say you are?

And, uh, 'best' in terms of what? How I make myself feel? How I make others feel? How I look, or how I think or how I act? The accomplishments I've made and the places I've gone?

What is meant by 'the best *I can* be?' Are different people, be it through birth or life circumstances, subject to different limits of how much they can improve?

Most importantly, does being my best mean feeling my best? Because physically and mentally, I am the perfect being, but there are definitely people happier than me.

>>742210691
its a she and it's not anything i did

>>742210713
but i dont wanna lose her that's the thing

>>742210103
why do all my friends leave me?

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>>742210900
I vaguely recognize you, but I don't think we've properly met before. My name is Fenn, are you called Dr. Manhattan?

I am far from the best I can be, but I'm moving slowly in what I think is the right direction.

Are you satisfied? Do you feel fulfilled? Life is different for everyone, but in many ways we are our own metrics. Perhaps you are perfect, but if you're not satisfied with your "perfection", maybe there's something you could do to improve your situation.

>>742211088
Well, do you have any ideas as to how you might draw back together? If things are awkward, try to loosen them up some. Play a game together, or hang out with some other people.

>>742211156
I don't know, Anon... *hugs* Do they come back, or do they stay away?

>>742211269
none come back im all alone now nobody talks to me

>>742210713
>You can share anything here, Anon. We're both anonymous, and I won't be mean.

Is that,happiness doesn't exist.Only euphoria exists.

What we call "happiness" is simply a moment of euphoria(an euphoria that quickly goes away) or contentment with your situation.

So how we need "happiness" to live,we must have euphoria,and how we have euphoria?Fulfilling our desires.

Euphoria comes when you fulfill your desire,and "sadness" comes when you can't fulfill them.We are slave to desires,we let the desires change our mood,affectin our life,affectin how we treat others,affectin others lives too.

To achieve the true enlightenment,we must kill desires,we must only live by "the flow",by what space and time give to us.So maybe,livin like that,we be less infantiles,don't letting mere emotions affect our life.

>>742211269
it all appended after i said i had feelings for her or that's how it seems

>>742210713
>You can share anything here, Anon. We're both anonymous, and I won't be mean.

Is that,happiness doesn't exist.Only euphoria exists.

What we call "happiness" is simply a moment of euphoria(an euphoria that quickly goes away) or contentment with your situation.

So how we need "happiness" to live,we must have euphoria,and how we have euphoria?Fulfilling our desires.

Euphoria comes when you fulfill your desire,and "sadness" comes when you can't fulfill them.We are slave to desires,we let the desires change our mood,affectin our life,affectin how we treat others,affectin others' lives too.

To achieve the true enlightenment,we must kill desires,we must only live by "the flow",by what space and time give to us.So maybe,livin like that,we be less infantiles,don't letting mere emotions affect our life.

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>>742210103
Hello Op!
Nice to see you up there!

>>742211518
>>742211558
I hate fuckin Captcha.

Sorry OP.

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>>742211368
I'll talk to you, Anon. It isn't much, but I'll do my best. Where do your friends come from? Do you meet them at work? Online? If you are friends with people who do the same things you do and think in ways much like yourself, they're far more likely to stick with you.

>>742211518
Well, happiness is really more of a side product. I like to think of the real goal of life, the true object of virtuous desire, to be satisfaction. In a way, actually, our desires are a part of the flow of space and time. Accept your emotions, and decide whether to act around them or with them. You cannot destroy them, emotions cannot be controlled.

>>742211538
Well, if she doesn't want to be with you romantically, you'll have to move on past that moment and gear into a platonic relationship. It can be really awkward for a time, but if you can prove to her that the things you do around her are not completely controlled by your feelings for her I think the situation will improve. Do you see what I mean?

>>742211568
Good to see you too, Mantis. How've you been? I haven't seen you in a while.

>>742211706
'sawright Anon, just one more push towards the bump limit, when we all get to go to sleep.

>>742211706
Captcha does suck ass. I think we can all agree on that.

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>>742211269
You know, I think I *have* done something to improve my... er, 'existential crisis.' I'm just not sure if it was what a human might call 'evil' or 'immoral.' I'll find out in November, but I have my own optimistic theory on how it will end.

Speaking of November (and this month) there are a couple of rather painful dates coming up. August 20 and November 22.

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>>742211995
I must agree wholeheartedly, with a slow connection it takes forever and sometimes doesn't load at all.

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>>742211938
Yeah, its been too long. Let's not let that happen again.

>>742211938
im in scool with them they all disapear when im broke one allways comes back smokes my shit and disapears again but its is my only " friend" should i stop seeing him?

I'm not ugly at all why cant I get a cute gf? I am 24 years old.

>>742211938
i have no issues platonic relationship i think she just just got so creeped out i said that

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>>742212082
Optimism can be pretty good. I can't begin to guess at what you might've done, but I hope it works out. Best of luck.

>>742212252
I'm sorry Mantis, my life got really busy all of a sudden. I haven't been making time for this.

>>742212304
Well, have you tried engaging with them on a level deeper than the financial? Talking to them about girls, or the things you and they like to do? If you can get them interested in something about you, and not just your money or smokes, you'll be getting somewhere.

>>742212322
I hear they're hard to find, Anon. Where have you been looking?

>>742212478
Hm. My previous advice stands: try to convince her that you're not going to let those feelings influence your relationship with her. Do you think that could work?

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>>742211558
I'm not OP, but I couldn't help but comment on your thoughts here. Hope you don't mind too much.

What you're describing seems to be in line with the hedonistic school of thought; more or less the 'pleasure principle'. People are generally governed by that which brings them the most pleasure and the least amount of pain. Although I'd like to think that people are a little more nuanced than that, I'm perfectly comfortable in asserting that it is a good enough generalization.

But I'd like to ask you; could you elaborate on what you mean by 'enlightenment'? This sort of sparks Buddhist doctrine in my mind. Am I on the right track?

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>>742212562
I guess. Thank you.

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>>742212322
Chek'd
How do you carry yourself? Do you have a quiet and easy confidence? Or are you a tightly wound autist?

>>742212562
i try my best but its like no weed no friends i talk witch them but as soon as they know i dont have money or weed they just go

>>742212562
but that doesnt mean my feelings will leave

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>>742212713
Let me know how things go, okay?

>>742212748
Well, could you draw them in with the greens, and try to get them interested in something else you like, or find out more about what makes them tick?

>>742212822
The feelings will never leave, Anon. They may change, but you will always have feelings. It's best to learn to work with them so you can use them to your best advantage or suppress them if acting on them would be harmful.

Being human is hard.

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>>742212562
I hope its busy with good and positive things! But you know you can always say hello anytime. You know how to reach me.

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>>742213062
I'll let you know.

Unless what I'm afraid might be happening is happening.

>>742210103
I can't discipline myself I always give up or don't even try
My life gets shittier every day but i just can't find my way to just do things
I don't know how to change this do you have any advice?

Am I really a wanted human or am i just a failed project of DNA...?

>>742213062
they come and chill we smoke some but as soon as the buzz wears off they go somewhere else
i talked with someone i said i dont have money you still want to chill then he said no i go to other people

>>742213505
sorry for my english im from the netherlands

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>>742212082
Sorry, but I couldn't ignore how open-ended you left those statements. What did you do that could be considered morally objectionable?

>>742213468
You are a wanted human being. I want you to succeed.

>>742213062
i hate being a human being honestly i don't act human half the time

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>>742213584
Hey! Nice to see you!
>>742213718
What in particular makes you feel this way?

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>>742213369
Mostly, yeah. I'll try, thanks Mantis.

>>742213425
I trust you to take care of things, but I will be worrying.

>>742213468
The only way to build up willpower is by exercising it. You can start small, but you have to keep pushing yourself to do the things you don't want to do. You can't let up. Some people fail, some people never gain control.

You're no failed project, Anon. You're a real living human being, and you mean something. I want you to get on your feet, I want to hear that you're moving forward and doing the things you wish you could do.

>>742213505
Hmm. Keep looking? You might find other people who will value for things other than your weed. I'm not sure where to go from here, Anon. I'm out of ideas. And your english is fine, don't worry about it.

>>742213718
Well, because you are a human whatever you do is a human thing to do, is it not? You're doing okay Anon, it could always be worse. To paraphrase Nietzsche: humanity is something to overcome.

You may not like it, but you have to accept it and move on. It can't be changed.

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>>742213468
Not OP, but if I may offer some words?

You have two options, anon. Either you continue to let things degrade and possibly get worse, before they get better. Or, you can save yourself the heartache and begin to take small, iterative baby steps towards accomplishing what you set out to do.

Both instances merit patience, but the former might cost you dearly. It depends on how you operate, really.

Question: What is it that you're not having success at accomplishing?

And as >>742213651
is hinting at, you are a worthwhile, standalone person that is capable of so much more than you realize. You've hit a set back; they inevitably happen. But you can stand to show a little more fortitude before questioning your intrinsic value.

>>742214010
Could say the same to you!

>>742213651
Thank you
I know its just the internet but hearing such kind words spreads some warmth in my chest
I don't get to hear that very often
But if you a stranger wants me another stranger to succeed in life restores a bit of the hope in humanity i have

>>742214041
tnx man i will go out tommorrow and make me some new friends

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>>742214295
Good luck. I pray that you will succeed.

>>742214041
Thank you i will keep you updated in the next threads i will try with small steps

>>742214043
I can't get a job
I want to apply for a job and in the end just wont do it until its too late
I want to make a change.in my life but everything feels so extremely hard because for which person am i doing this when i don't even feel myself as a necessary person

>>742214617
Who are you doing this for?

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>>742214617
Best of luck, Anon. I look forward to watching you succeed.

>>742214926
I don't know and thats why I believe I can't go on with my life
I just rotate at the same spot for 1 year now

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For him

>>742214010
some times i feel like a shark and everyone else is a fish all im seen as is a threat or a predator

>>742215174
Doing the same thing over and over, while expecting a different result is....futile.
It appears like you're in a rut of some kind. So I suggest you try something different. I don't know what exactly, but start with that.

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>>742215174
Give me any shred of evidence that you're not a worthwhile person and I'll believe you.

If demographics of this board are any indicator, you're most likely in your twenties, and at that age, you should be striving to succeed and failing as explosively as you possibly can. You can afford to do this because you haven't much to lose, since you're only starting the main phase of your life-cycle.

As such, there is so much potential at you, but you're letting these negative thoughts blind you to that fact. This potential, although it might not be a concrete indicator of your value as a person, is enough to qualify you as 'worthwhile'. Even if it is all just speculatory.

>>742215621
You see yourself as a threat? Or do others see you that way?

>>742215796
Thank you all for the advice I will try to get my life together now
Thank you for your patience and kindness

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>>742215174
You're the only one that has the power to change things here Anon. If you want something to change, change it. Go somewhere new, meet someone different, do something out of the ordinary. Break the rhythm.

>>742215621
That seems to me like a way to put yourself above others. Do you feel as though you are more powerful or better than the rest? Or do you feel like they run away from you because you don't understand each other?

>>742211518
Someone here is reading too much Schopenhauer.

>>742216040
Your welcome!

>>742215943
I feel that way because there are nearly 8 billion people on this world it would be easy to replace someone like me

You are right I am 20yo
I can't see my future because I'm scared of it
I feel alone with my thoughts
The world is a scary place next time i wake up i might get bombed by isis or a woman will call me a rapist my life would be over these are just small things that can happen so quickly
You guys are the only one i can openly talk to without getting weird looks and comments

>>742216927
>a woman will call me a rapist my life would be over

I really doubt you need to worry about that too much.

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>>742216927
You are correct! We use our anonymity to get at workable, practical solutions for our problems. We can get at the truth, without fear.

>>742215976
i think people see me as a threat and sometimes i see myself as a threat

>>742217078
Yeah but there are so many things that could happen within a split second and my life would be even more hell than now
I was just exaggerating with that statement tho..

But you are right i need to break the cycle and even if something tries to fuck my life i have to deal with it like a man but where do i get this strength

>>742216276
i wouldn't say i'm better i just am so different from everyone i'm angry all the time and i just seem to make everyone hate me

>>742217463
Do you want to hurt people? Do you want to hurt yourself?

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>>742217463
Well, is that bad? How can you change it? Could you somehow prove to them that you are not threatening?

It seems like you're drawing away to protect yourself, but you're dissociating yourself from others a little too much.

>>742217535
You'll need to find the strength, Anon. Nobody's going to give it to you, you've got to come up with it yourself. But you can sometimes rely on others for support. You don't always have to be alone.

>>742217601
Well, how can that be changed? Is it possible? Maybe you don't want to change, but I think you do.

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>>742216927
It's /b/, it's us...those who live in glass houses shouldn't cast stones. Of course we wouldn't judge you.

And you're right anon. Technically? You're entirely replaceable. Even people we'd label as exceptional are replaceable, by someone just as good or even better. But that isn't the way to go about thinking about things, is it? Afterall, we're all human, so there's bound to be some amount of redundancy in our talents and capacities.

However, there truly is only one you. Ask anyone that you're even remotely close to. Someone you've shared laughs or tears with, someone who you've gilded time into memories with. They won't think you replaceable, I guarantee it.

Fear of uncertainty is only normal, but please do keep in mind that you are catastrophizing to a degree here. Those things, in all likelihood, will not happen. Focus on what is more important here, what is more at stake and salient. Namely, the probability that you'll continue into next year unemployed, less equipped to court others, less likely to enjoy the pleasantries that life has to offer.

>>742217684
i don't want to hurt myself i'm fine i'm not the type of person to commit suicide or hurt myself

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End my suffering

>>742217767
i've tried to fix it but i fail everytime

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>>742218360
Why, Anon? What's got you down?

>>742218442
Nothing will ever change if you don't keep trying. It's hard, but you've got to keep pushing on. What is it about you that makes you threatening?

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>>742218085
Ok good. But if you did, its ok to see a doctor about it. You will certainly be encouraged to seek professional help by me.

>>742218360
Ok:
See a doctor.

>>742218620
no i would never do that its selfish

>>742218556
i have stopped trying i dont know what to do at this point

uh hi my name's mark
sometimes my left elbow hurts a little bit.

>>742218756
Ok. How do you feel about other people?

>>742218945
other people that hurt themselves? or people in general

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>>742218756
Well, it isn't selfish though. It's their job, and it's what you're paying them for. There's nothing selfish about paying for and experiencing a service.

>>742218885
What do you have now? A job? Any friends? A house? If you want any kind of informed advice we'll need to know a little more about your situation.

>>742218925
Ooh, that doesn't sound too good Mark. Is it especially painful? You might put some ice on it. But if it's only a minor and occasional pain, ignore it. It shouldn't be a big deal.

>>742217951
2b is here summoning all spammers!!!!!!!!!

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>>742219231
I eagerly await the arrival of the glorious and most reprehensible black rectangle man. Thank you anon.

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>>742218925
Stop throwing the curve ball. Stick with a four seam fastball and the chageup. Ice your elbow at least 45 minutes after games.
The curve ball puts a lot of strain on the elbow and injuries can develop.
Ask your pitching coach about changing your mechanics with the curve after you've healed up.

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>>742219231
You're not gonna make us cry, are you?

My boyfriend is callous and cold. When I bring it up, he acts warm until he forgets, which restarts the cycle all over again..

>>742219925
How callous and cold?

>>742219925
tits pls

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>>742219925
Hm. Could you talk to him more directly about how this is a recurring thing? Communication is key, it's good you're already talking to him about it.

>>742219043
In general

>>742220088
Unresponsive to my emotions or worries. Self-centered.

>>742220181
I have and now I'm coming off as a nag.

>>742220829
Is this a new thing? Or has it been getting worse for a while?

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>>742220829
Do you mean that he doesn't place any value whatsoever on you and your emotions, or that he's not spending enough time and effort on them?

>>742220981
This has always been a thing. But love blinded me until we moved in together and now I'm feeling shafted since I spend time worrying about him but he probably never cares about me no matter what he says.

>>742221107
The latter. As if I'm being taken for granted.

>>>Hot Teens colection>>>>

http://nanachat.io/1uDs

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>>742221148
Well, it could be that his care for you is more veiled and subtle than your care for him. Perhaps he really cares about you a lot, but is either expressing it differently or too absorbed by work or other aspects of his life to be able to show it in the way you want him to.

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>>742221148
He may be under the impression that he must treat women poorly in order to "make them want him more". Guys actually tell each other this.

>>742220717
i think people in general are evil creatures but i have had bad experience with them

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>>742222038
People can be pretty good, try to give individuals the benefit of the doubt.

>>742222038
then, I would say keep to yourself. Do things that are uplifting and positive for you. And who knows? You might meet people with similar interests, and have good experiences with them.

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Bump

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>>742223600
I think it's done, Mantis. We're the only ones left. Let it die. You can gravitate on in to Sky's thread if you want. >>742213623

I stopped here because this was the first thread I saw that wasn't either porn or politics, subjects that have their own boards. I barely bother even coming to /b/ anymore.

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>>742223803
I know, Anon.

It's sad.

>>742210103
Is methane inhalation a good way for suicide?

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>>742223803
Thanks for dropping by, Anon. Got anything you want to talk about?

>>742223928
I mean, its not like this board is filled with the most fulfilling conversation or the best subject matter, but christ. I opened /b/ and it was flesh tones and people yelling about fascism for several pages.

>>742224037
Not particularly. I came to /b/ because I'm winding down for the day and no one I know personally is available to chat. So I thought I'd browse some threads.

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>>742223994
I think helium or nitrogen would be a better choice, but I can't recommend it.

>>742224179
Well, you can chat here about whatever if you like. That's what we're here for. Sorry that /b/'s gone so far downhill, but there's nothing anyone can do about it.

>>742224272
It's essentially become a containment board for crap. I mostly hang out on /tg/ for regular conversation, but my hobby isn't incredibly popular so threads on that board move very slowly. It's nice during my work day because I can leave and check back in an hour and the thread is still there to respond to, but when I'm not busy it's not quick enough for my liking.

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>>742224453
Ah, I see. Well, you could try out another platform. There might be another forum for your hobby, or a Discord channel or IRC chat, or a subreddit. Or you could make your own threads on /b/ and hope you snag some interest.

>>742224629
/b/ is mostly filled with 19 year olds who just want to jack off but are too lazy to tab into another window to do it. They don't want to talk about anything unless they're trolling each other.

I'm well aware that even if that weren't the case, they wouldn't want to discuss Dungeons and Dragons or converting the Fallout series to tabletop. I come here to shoot the shit about other stuff.

>>742225328
I, uh. Obviously don't talk to my hobbies about anyone. But I don't talk to anyone about my hobbies either.

>>742225328
Someone linked me a version of Fallout that was already made for tabletop RPGs. Seems pretty fun, blowing people's heads off in the post-apocalyptic wasteland. What kind of hobbies do you enjoy?

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>>742225564
I love blowing heads off in a post-apocalyptic wasteland. I play Cataclysm:DDA and Dwarf Fortress. Nobody I've talked to in real life has heard of either one, and at some point I stopped mentioning it when people asked. Works well enough for me, some things are better alone, eh?

I hope your tabletop Fallout goes well, do you have a group to play with?

>>742225972
>pic
how fucking horrifying

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>>742226162

>>742225972
I do have a group, I play with my cousins. They're the type that I'd probably see on /b/ but never admit it.

And of course I play Dorf Fortress. My most memorable run was in adventure mode, when my character lived through having all of his limbs torn off and for a time I rolled around the beach as a torso biting crabs.

>>742226237
make it stop

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>>742226254
That's beautiful. Sounds like you had a Fun time.

>>742226310
I have a few more, in varying degrees of intensity.

>>742226408
I haven't played in awhile. The last fortress I remember having was right after they updated to include necromancers. I accidentally placed my fort near one, and in the early stages when I was placing unused animal parts outside they were all raised as undead and I had to seal my dorfs inside. They starved to death. Losing is FUN I guess.

I'm not much into anime, but my girlfriend not too long ago made me start watching some of the Gibli movies. We started with Nausica and I actually really liked that one. I think it was my favorite, but I've only seen Howles Moving Castle and Spirited Away so far. Next is Mononoke.

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>>742226799
Nausicaa is my favorite, but Spirited Away is arguably the best one. Castle in the Sky is also really good, and so's Porco Rosso. Just watch 'em all, they're all fun.

My fortresses keep getting overrun by were-creatures. Last time was weregoats, I think. One dwarf got were-goated and I didn't catch him, and he bit a bunch of the others. They destroyed everything, and eventually died of thirst. That was Fun. Then there've been all my over-ambitious projects involved water...

>>742227130
I liked Spirited Away, but I think I liked Nausica better. Mostly for nostalgia reasons, I had an older step brother that was really into 80's anime and Nausica kind of hit that vibe for me and took me back to watching cartoons I shouldn't have been watching. Being cartoons my parents didn't pay attention to the subject matter.

I don't think I've had a dwarf even survive me thinking about doing anything with water. For a time they couldn't even go fishing without their asses being kicked by the carp.

>>742210103
Op. I am studying for a very important test that if I would pass would be my biggest step towards becoming a stockbroker. I've been studying for 4 months and my senior broker wants me to finish and take the test and pass already. But I am nowhere near ready. No matter how much I study my grades never get past the 50s. In fact they're becoming lower and lower. I don't know what to do because I've invested literally thousands into study material and tutors and my senior broker already hired other people that already have their license and I'm scared he's gonna fire me. I feel like everything is closing in and there's no way out of this or to solve this

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>>742227389
Ah, I liked it for the environment. The world they live in is strange and beautiful, and it intrigues me. The manga went into far greater detail about the different countries and technologies, and I ate that up.

My cisterns overflow, somebody doesn't shut a lever off in time, or water leaks into somewhere it shouldn't be and makes a mess. So much Fun to be had with water. I've never gotten far enough to mess with lava; every time I do something clumsy and the whole fortress falls apart.

>>742227552
Why are your grades dropping? Do you not know the material, or do you not have faith in yourself? Sometimes second-guessing yourself can kill your test-taking ability, and drag your grades way down. If that's the case, your senior broker is right and you need to just have faith in yourself and do this.

>>742227552
It's not advice at all, but in those situations I usually just take a stiff drink and try to enjoy a day off without thinking about anything. A vacation from my worries.

>>742227816
I have been losing faith in fact. I read the material over and over and do practice question after practice question. Sometimes I try to comfort myself by saying I'm not concentrating on the right material but I just think I can't do it at this point. I've been told throughout my childhood by everyone besides my family that I am not capable of anything and that I will amount to nothing and die alone. And I'm starting to think they're right. I've never had friends until college and the first time I had sex was at 17. I've always had a thought on the back burner for years to kill my self but I've never had the courage to do it. I don't want to die but I'm just so tired of living and suffering struggling through everything I try to do. I just don't know what to do anymore

>inb4 do it faggot
>inb4 livestream it

Sorry to disappoint you guys but I'm not doing it. If I ever had the courage to kill myself id be dead years ago

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These threads are always comfy
Thank you for doing them, OP.

>>742228463
I don't know why people think losing your virginity at 17 is late. Most dudes fucking lie or had sex with pretty terrible girls if true.

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>>742228463
They're wrong, Anon. You can do a lot, you really can become something great. Don't let people put you down like that. They don't matter, and what they say means nothing.

Don't be thinking you're abnormal for having sex at 17 and no real friends until college; that's well within normal expectations. And believe me, if I weren't a fearful coward I'd be dead too Anon.

You've got to push past this. Don't let yourself get down in the dumps. If you need to, take a break from studying, take a few days to pull yourself together.

Then ace that test.

You got this. I know you do.

>>742228671
Sometimes I try.

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I work 6 days a week and workout everyday but all my money goes towards my jail bail bond and a few medical bills. And i look good but im not getting much gains i feel like all my time is thrown away. I barely have a social life or friends. Id love to have a girlfriend but i cant even afford a car. I know i just gotta keep going but i have no more motivation left and i just cant catch a break.

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>>742228671
It's my aquarium friend!

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>>742229239
You need protein for those gains. Get some eggs and meat in you. Hang on to what you've got, and treasure it. Do what you can for the people you have. You need to find meaning somewhere Anon, be it within yourself with some personal goal, or in someone you want to impress or get closer to. The bills will be paid off eventually, won't they?

>>742229247
Oh, hello. Have we met?

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>>742229584
I'm Hikari, hi Fenn! I think we've met before. I'm a rarity around these parts.

>>742228943
>literally crying like a little baby

Thank you so much op. That felt so good for someone that's not my parents or my therapist to say that to me. I feel like my parents are only saying that because I'm their son and they love me, and the therapist gets paid $65 every week to pep talk me, but hearing it from a peer is something different. I am going to study even harder tomorrow and go through the list I wrote of stuff I didn't know on my last practice test

You are a beautiful person op. As a Christian agnostic people like you sometimes give me hope that there maybe is a god. God bless you and I hope for the best for you

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I could use a hug.

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>>742229674
Right, I vaguely remember you. How've you been doing?

>>742229686
Take care of yourself, Anon. You're gonna do this, you're gonna blow this test out of the water. Don't let yourself think anything other than that. But too much studying can cause you to crash and drop productivity to zero. If you need a break, be sure to take one. It can help you to do better in the long run.

God's around somewhere.

Good luck!

>>742229932
*hugs you close*

Something got you down, Anon?

>>742229584
Yeah they will honestly though i just want to go back to doing drugs they really made me content with my shitty life ive been sober awhile but its just not fun. During that time i lost my virginity but the girl i was with dumped me cuz i didnt have the time to see her. I just feel empty not because of her but because my life seems so pointless all the people i went to highschool with are all in college and have successful relationships and a good job all while having the freedom to do what they want. Im just stuck working my ass off for fucking nothing but occasionally i do get blackout drunk which is great.

>>742210103
Broke up with a girl bc I suck at saying no to people to ask out a girl I was just about to ask out before the previous one asked me out, been with her for 4-5 months, she tells me that she was jealous of other girl while we were going out. Just today, she told me she liked me more as a friend, and I was just about to tell her I loved her
Hug would be great

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>>742229674
Hello Hikari!
Mantis here!

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>>742230018
>vaguely
;__;

I'm just picking out Pokemon in a list with a friend.

>>742230363
Heya Mantis!

>>742229247
Aye! Hello. How are your finned friends?

>>742230326
Edit: have really bad depression, and she made me smile, and actually happy, like no meds or anything needed, really happy, but not anymore

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>>742230047
Things can get better Anon, but it may not happen soon. The drugs aren't going to be worth it in the long run; when you want to stop again you'll have a hell of a time doing it. You know that.

You're working for freedom now, and that is a glorious cause. You'll value it far more than anyone else, because you're working like a dog for it. Everyone else had everything handed to them. Look, you're stuck in the real world on hardcore mode with only one life. It's gonna be really hard. I wish I had more to say, I wish I could help you somehow, but I can't. I'm sorry Anon. Good luck.

>>742230326
*hugs tightly* I'm sorry, Anon. I don't have much to say. Do you want to talk more about it?

>>742230606
That's cool. Have fun.

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>>742230018
Thank you. My best friend of 4 years left me over a stupid argument, hasn't contacted me for around a month. I recently got a 3 month old puppy which is really good because i love him to bits but also really stressful because he's a puppy. I'm not a social person so i don't really make New Friends, thus I'm pretty lonely. My only coping methods are YouTube, video games, and Rick and Morty, which is probably not healthy at all. TL:DR I'm in a sad place at the moment, although i know it's not as bad as others.

is this'a like one of em tumblr pages where people desperately pretend to care about one another to fill the empty void of sadness in their lives?

Fuck it, I ain't got shit else to do.

So I hate fluoride and stupidity but I want to get laid. How are you?

>>742230891
Yeah i guess youre right but so be it. Thanks though after a day like today its nice just to get things off my chest

My roommate/land lady had a thing for about a month and a half. I developed feelings, but I knew we were incompatable long term.

Long story short, she is dating again and it's making me crazy. I asked her to not tell me about her dates. She said okay

A week later she bring a guy home during the day to meet her pet and hang out

It's making me sick. I feel like she doesn't respect me and it's breaking my heart, because I thought she cared about me as a person now that we have lived together for so long

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>>742230610
I'm decomissioning my aquarium actually.. but what about you? How are your friends?

>>742230891
That's so dismissive! ;_;

I'm struggling to find the motivation to finish my school project. I think the cause might be that I've slowly lost my self-esteem for the last 6 months. Any tips about how to think more positive again?

>>742230891
Yeah, that'd be nice. Thanks for being such a cool dude (?)

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>>742231462
Yknow those motivational videos on YouTube? They work. Trust me. Good luck dude!

>>742210103
Wife got a new job that pays better but she works different hours than me now. Lonely only after a week of this shit.

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>>742231452
They're going strong.. just added a cute yellow and blue betta to my community tank. Sorry to hear about your tank.. space/time constraints?

So when we gonna see dem titties you avatarfags i can smell some of you are grills you cant all be faggots

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>>742232000
Tripps Chek'd

>>742210103
i just accepted that my best friend and i will be just friends, and decided to stop seeing each other for some time, he's kind of the only friend who i trust enough to tell all what's messing my mind, so i feel kind of lonely now

>>742230891
oi. Gimme attention. I'm craving that shit like a drug.

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>>742230957
I get you man. I haven't made any New Friends in three years. Could you try initiating contact with your friend, trying to get them to respond?

There are far worse methods of coping than what you're doing. Don't worry about that. You're not smoking, or hacking up your body. You're doing good.

You're sad, and that can't really be changed, can it? I'm sorry Anon, it's going to be sad for a little while.

>>742231164
Well, isn't every social interaction based around pretending to some degree? This is just an autistic level of pretend. Fuckin' fluoride man, that stuff's nasty. I'm fine, what's up with you?

>>742231203
It can feel so good just to say things, to get them out there. Don't be afraid to do it again here. You might even try to find someone in real life you can talk to, who will just listen to you rant about life's shit. Friends who will let you do that are valuable indeed.

>>742231390
Well, she does have her own life Anon. You may not like it, but it's not her duty to go to great lengths to hide it from you.

>>742231452
I'm sorry Hikari. What pokemon are you choosing?

>>742231462
Remind yourself that you can do things, remind yourself that you're in control of yourself. Hold your head up on top of your shoulders and wash your face if you don't already. Look back at things you've accomplished in the past and remind yourself of how good they are.

Don't forget all the good stuff you've done, it's important.

>>742231572
Yeah, I'm a dude. Not a cool one. This point cannot be argued.

>>742231756
Talk to her about it. Maybe one of you can get your hours changed so you can spend more time together. As always, communication is key.

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>>742232249
Hm. Well, you can tell me whatever's on your mind, Anon. I won't be able to provide the emotional connection your friend can, but I can listen and I can try to give you advice.

>>742232362
*pats head* (You)

Alright, what do you want now?

>>742232365
meh, you're helping all of us. But yeah, she went from "Y'know anon, I was kinda jealous of you when you were going out with N, I'm glad you finally asked me out" to "I think I really just like you better as a friend" Tonight. Idk what to do bc she was keeping me out of depression, and always kept a smile on my face, and now I'm already feeling like shit without her

>>742231390
>It's making me sick. I feel like she doesn't respect me and it's breaking my heart, because I thought she cared about me as a person now that we have lived together for so long

Or maybe she respected you enough to think you'd be a fucking adult about this.

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>>742232622
Well, either you need someone else or you need to figure out how to deal with the depression on your own, perhaps with a counselor.

I'm sorry things didn't work out, but regardless of how hard it is you need to move on. If she doesn't want to, she doesn't want to. You can't change that.

>>742232365
Buggin like a hornet, mostly. Live with a woman that I threatened to kill multiple times if she keeps trying to push me in her servitude, but she doesn't seem to get the message. Flouride drinkers and materialist. Makes me sick, but jealous that they're at least getting laid.

Erratic explination of my well-being, but it's kinda hard to describe. The things I value most in life, I feel, are being threatened all the time, and it scares me into being an outwardly agressive, angry, unsociable creature. Rather still fluffy on the inside, but can't show it ever or find any outlit. Been looking at those horrid imiges of "Fluffy abuse" just to reafirm that I have some semblance of emotion left in me. They made me feel sorry for the dying fictitious creatures; hopefully a sign I'm not a complete monster yet.

As stated, bugging like a hornet. Nobody trustworthy to turn to. Refuge on 4chan, site of the outcasts, yea?

>>742232545
posted in >>742233062

>>742232365
Thank you :)

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Lived with a narcissistic sociopath, and his gf for 6 yrs. Things seemed normal at first. and when they argued I stayed out of. about a year or two in he would began cheating on her. when she asked me about it (always in front of him) I played dumb. I didn't see what was really going on, I think because Ive never seen anything like it. I wasn't raised to treat people like that, or around people who acted like that.

He was constantly abusing her emotionally and mentally. Treated her horribly, cheated. she had no friends, family, job, car, and for a long time no phone. He eventually got her pregnant and kicked her out. He than brought another girl in and started it with the new one. It broke my heart to see this shit. I felt because me and him were friends I didn't want to risk that, so I stayed out of it all. I couldn't talk to her at all either, cause he would often ask if I was doing anything with her (sex wise), and I didn't want her to get in trouble.

He also sold drugs, and used his drug dealing as a weapon, to cause people to OD, or just drive off the rails.

Towards the end, I had enough. I cut him out of my life. Had him fired from our mutual job kicked out of the house. blocked him on everything.

I can go on about the shit did. but mostly, I feel by not stopping it sooner, I am partially responsible for how far it went and escalated. Feel bad for the original gf. She was a good person. I should have been a better friend to her than him. just six years I stood by and did nothing. and it haunts me.

The heroin dealing and physical abuse I found out about long after I cut him out and moved away. and that just makes it worse.

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>>742232249
You can certainly speak your mind here.
you are among friends.

>>742231892
That's pretty rad. Will they get along?

Time constraint for me. Salt water takes too much maintenance for me at this point to do.

>>742233022
true.Thanks mate, you're pretty damn amazing, and thanks for the hug by wire

>>742233207
You did a good thing anon.

>>742233207
Ha! Should'a banged her, looked the fucker in the eye, and told him 'bout it with some base in your voice and pride in your stance.

Then again, I'm a sociopath a bit myself, so that's just how my mind thinks.

>>742233344
Yeh! The betta only wants to attack things as pretty as he is.. fortunately hes in a tank with a bunch of bottom feeders and tetras so I dont even think he knows they exist. He mostly hides in my oversized amazon sword and pokes his little freckled face out when hes board
And ah yeah I can totally understand that about saltwater. I've had to neglect my brackish a little lately just because salt gets so expensive for water changes.

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>>742233062
Ooh, fluffies.

Can you just ignore her? Is there really no way to escape? That sounds kind of awful. You do need a way to get away, at least emotionally. Perhaps that's what this place is for.

>>742233207
What a guy. Glad you finally escaped him. Look, Anon. There's nothing you can do about the people you've left behind. All that? That's behind you now. You can't go back and change it. You may regret some of the things you didn't do, and I'm sorry for that. But they can't be changed now. Keep your head pointed forward, keep moving on. Don't forget it, but don't dwell on it.

>>742233173
>>742233374
Sometimes I try.

>>742232545
well then, i'm not sure if i should let my family and other friends know that i'm gay, i think my sister realized but i'm not surrounded of the kind of people who it's ok with things like that

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>>742233803
Yeah, you probably shouldn't. Keep it on the down-low until you're around people you can trust with that sort of thing.

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>>742233790

Thank you, for hearing me.

Pic not related.

I need a hug....I'm at the point that I've completely give up on the concepts of love and happiness. My fake smile I'd a natural part of me now....Im so goddamn lonely....

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>>742234442
That's a, uh, a really nice picture you got there.

Anyone can listen. In fact, I encourage you to find a friend or really anyone in real life who will let you talk about this stuff. You could even go to a priest and talk about it through a grate if you'd rather not say it to someone's face. Getting things off your mind can really lift you up.

>>742233687
>salt gets so expensive for water changes.

truth. not to mention how much of a pain they can be.

also you have to take a picture of it sometime.

>>742233790
Oh I can be off any time I damn well please and go back to my real family. In the meantime, my brain is rotting from all the fluoride water and terrible food. It's the most degraded and disgusting form of bullshit ever. The sick sad part is that nothing is going right for me because I'm not going right by anything, see? I've been an unapoligetic asshole, and the whole locality just wants to make a bitch of me and the only way I know how to cope is being aggressive and over-compensating. I made a terrible decision two months ago, and whining about it ever since. I was supposed to let this old crone die of her little coancerous condition and be off on strange trails with my family. What do I do instead? Let my stupid empathy get in the way, come back, essentaly save her and make her comfortable for her last little years and the like, and sacrifice what is esentaly my whole life for the next few years in exachange for her strange little culture of shitty food, Americanised "conviences" and flouride water. Every day I just kick myself and go "shoulda let her die, shoulda let her die, shoulda let her die"

What's worse of it all is that some people generaly want to help me. But, they want to help me in "their" way. Offering materialistic comforts and bullshit of the like to bait me back into their weird little culture and the like. But it doesn't do with me to put an iphone in front of my face and say "don't you want it?" or say "be grateful you're living in a house!" because I could frankly go right back to living in the woods and be JUST FINE. What I want, is to know that I won't be braindead in the next few months. And pussy. Really want the pussy.

as much as I hate avatarfagging as a concept I came here to say that Nausicaa is lovely.

every day is hard to live. I wish it was all over.

>>742234754
You're too far gone.

Harden your heart.

>>742235395
no. Keep living. No attachments. Free yourself from all attachments.

Both a hug and an advice please
Be me
>20
>Recently moved to my father's
>Mom's a complete psychopath
>She never married my father they were only in a non-marital relationship
>She left him
>She said he was a piece of shit who always abandoned her
>She said he forced her to use crack and fuck other people in front of him
>Date a new guy
>He's supposed to be a nice person
>Dad come backs and ask her to be together again
>She leaves the nice guy
>She's pregnant
>Doesn't know who's the father
>I was born
>Grandma tells her to leave her house
>Tell her she hates her
>She leaves like a nomad from house to house with "dad"
>They even had to sleep in a car with a 8 months old me
>"Dad" leaves again
>Fast forward a couple of years
>They have been doing that routine quite a lot
>Mom starts working
>Earn good cash
>Living with "Dad" again
>I'm four years old
>Happiest time of my life
>Dad says he gotta leave
>The country is going to shit
>Communist party took control
>He says he'll go to another country
>He gives me a final good bye kiss
>Says he loves me and shit
>I clean my cheek
>At that age trought a "wet kiss" was disgusting
>Mom says I did that because I hated him like her
>He thinks so too
>Look at his back while he leaves
>Wanted to say that I didn't hated him it's just that I don't like other peoples saliva
>Didn't say it
Cont

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Goodnight everyone.

>>742234754
pick yourself up. Get off the computer. Go outside. Pack all that you need. Hitchhike.

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>>742234754
*hugs you tightly*

The fake smile's a part of us all, Anon. Don't give up, though. Keep pretending, keep moving on, until you don't have to anymore. Someday you won't be faking it.

I wish I could do more to help keep you from being lonely Anon, but there's only so much that can be done here...

>>742235000
So, you're stuck taking care of an old woman instead of living in the real world, and all the people who would help you have exactly the wrong idea? Okay.

I'm going to suggest you do the evil thing and try to escape. Put aside your morals for a moment and leave it all behind. For your own good.

>>742235106
It's pretty bad, eh? The other avatars really aren't as bad as you may have been told, though. Some of them are pretty wonderful.

>>742235395
They may not get easier, but they can get better. Things can always get better as long as you're alive, Anon.

>>742235563
*hugs*

Regret, Anon?

I love you,I wanna live in cyber space with you untill cosmos implodes on it self and the last subatomical particle stop vibrating .Soon after we will be reintroduced to interstellar space through out explosions of billion dying and rebirthing stars as to become one .Therefore realizing "It always has been ,It is and will be that way .

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>>742235787
Who? What? Sounds like some trippy new age shit, don't get too deep into that man. You'll never live it down.

>>742235640
I've tried picking myself up....but some one always knocks me down again....I literally only have one single fucking friend.....I haven't had so much as a date in 4 goddamn years

It seems as though most anons know each other here. I'm sorry if I'm interrupting the normal nature of this place, but there is something I have to tell someone.

For about 8 months now, I've been on a steady mental decline. It started with a unending sort of bad mood, which developed into depression which turned into an anxiety which lead to me today, hearing voices and having delusions and whatnot.

I have been taking medication and keeping up with my various doctors, but I think my family and friends are starting to catch on that I'm different. Unfortunately I come from a group of people who think rather lowly of the mentally ill, if you want to call it that. I'm scared that I'll lose what little bit of contact I have with other people if they find out what I live with. The last people in my family to have some sort of mental issue were shipped off to God knows where,I haven't seen any of them since they left.

My condition effects how I sleep too. My parents (which I still live with, I'm still in college and housing is too expensive around here) are catching on to my odd habits. What should I do? Despite the way I phrase this, I am terrified.

Also I love Nausicaä, it's one of my favorites.

>>742235735
Thanks....I just don't know how much longer I can go before I just shut down and shut every living being out of my life....

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Things are going good tonight, nothing to really complain about besides a mild headache.

I sincerely hope that the anons that are having problems will be healthily resolved soon. Things are going to be alright, and will be alright. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and understand that you deserve great things. You can get these things if you try hard enough, and I know you guys have it in you.

Chin up, guys.

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>>742235735
>It's pretty bad, eh? The other avatars really aren't as bad as you may have been told, though. Some of them are pretty wonderful.
This is why i mean I hate it in concept. Some of them may be lads, sure, but the point of this site is to be anonymous and avatarfagging ruins that implicit lack of identity that contributes to this site's unique style of conversation. Of course /b/ is already a fucking hellhole so who really cares anymore. To be honest I have a recognized persona on another board too but I never avatarfagged or namefagged or anything. I just wish things were like 2006 again when everybody was nobody.

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>>742210103
hey what do you think about my waifu

>>742235563
Kind of fucked up the start but I wanted to clarify my current age.
>Fast forward nine years
>Life has been rough with mom
>She had a nice job but too little time
>Practically self raised since she was never home
>When she was she was throwing parties n' shit
>Lots of alcohol
>Lots of kangz and ghetto people
>My first time drunk was at age five
>Her ghetto friends got me drunk coz they trought it was fun
>She didn't do nothing about it
>She always hitter me, slapped me and even hit me in the head with a wrench coz I shat my pants
(Not really sure why I did it tho, I had that problem always. Actually even now it's painful for me to evacuate normally, anus hurts like hell)
>One time because she got home and I wans'nt asleep stomp me in the ribcages with platform shoes
>Always doing that kind of shit
>Got eyes like a fucking panda coz I always waited for mum to come from work even if I had school next day
(Yeah I know it was irresponsible from my part but hey that was the time of the night that I could watch Looney Toons, Tom and Jerry and Adult Swim)
>A couple of her partners treated me bad too
>Once I asked one of them why did we have shadows and what is it
>Called me a retard
>She heard
>Didn't say shit
>Well at least she abused them a lot too
>Time passed
>13 years old
>Wake up one day
>Had a different perspective on everything
>See the world different now
>Depressed as fuck
>Her mistreat plus the edgy fase made me a fucking suicidal thinking faggot who hated everything

>>742235735
Your advice is well accepted, and I know in my heart that may be my only chance at retaining any sense of sanity. Thing is, it's not even a moral dilemma. I could kill the bitch myself for all I care. It's that mystical "maybe something good will come along" thinking. And these people... so much makeup. So much pride in their little worldly indulgences. So much pride in their status and superficiality. It's sickening to think of myself as becoming one of them. I was meant for better things. But when I say that, people in their narrow westernised thought belive me to mean "I deserve a good home, car, phone, ect...." and while I would enjoy these things verry much and do desire them, not at all to the point where it's my life's priority. Distractions from fulfillment of a grander scheme, you know? It's soul crushing beyond belief. I prize my intilect over all things. I prise my pineal glands and neurological build up. Why would I ingest things to deminish these? The food thing really bothers me to a disturbing point. Also, I'm pretty sure I just drank something with a metallic additive from this old crone's fridge. Disgusting. Suicide is more honorable then sacrifice of the selfs perception for materialistic comforts.

>>742236028
Don't be afraid of living that life, buddy.

Sometimes it's the only path ahead of you.

I have no real sense of direction in my life. I have tons of interests but no passions to go after. All I've ever really known and been good at is vidya. I'm not artistic enough to be in game design and can't stick to any one game for more than a few months. Ive hopped from idea to idea on what to do as a career but I don't have the drive to do any of them. On top of that I have no friends since moving to my current house last October. I just feel so alone and list and it eats me up every day that all I do is wake up, eat, sit at my computer then go to work and repeat it all over. I would live to get into some sort of relationship but don't feel like there's any possibility that a girl could be attracted to me. Kinda just wanna die most days
> Wat do

>>742235942
I'm not joking, dipshit, leave it all behind and emancipate yourself from attachments. Take bare essentials in a backpack and hitchhike to wherever. Learn and live in the real world.

>>742236223
>Contacted "dad"
>Tell him everything
>Haven't crossed a word with him since that time he left
>Hated him too but saw him as a way to escape my mother
>Actually have deep meaningful and interesting conversations
>"This guy isn't that bad, he left me tho..."
>One day when I was 14 asked him why he left
>Told me that my mother made him go, she was driving him mad but he lasted four years coz he was worried about her doing the same to me
>Ask him why he never contacted me in those years
>He said he tried but mom never allowed it
>I want to fucking leave this shit hole and go with my father
>Mom gets medieval on me
>14 years old virgin with a couple of friends, only friends since I was an only child
>Can't go out with them
>Can't go out to school parties
>Only distraction was NatGeo, Discovery(when they were good) and Vidya
>Have a first gen Xbox
>Fuckin' nice games
>Ninja Gaiden, 007 everything or nothing n' shit
>Starting to learn English with Vidya
>Had to be playing Vidya all day coz after school I had to go directly home or else I'll be kicked in the ass and embarrassed in front of everyone
>Starting getting bullied by some fat faggot who trought he was the shit
>YES I was the kid who was bullied by the fatso of class
>Between 13 to 15 life was a complete hell
>Bullied in school
>Bullied home by mom who said I was an useless parasite
>Says she can't be happy because of me
>FeelsBad.jpg
>Feeling guilty because I was useless
>Having suicidal thoughts
>Thinking that killing myself would be good for everyone
>Didn't do it
>To much of a pussy
>Fuckkk it I'm done.

>>742236758
This is great advice to get yourself fucking killed.

Just saying.

>>742237030
>16 years old
>Mom lost her job
>Got a guy who maintain us
>Treat him equally as bad as me
>He left
>No job
>No money
>No food
>Started going to a construction site
>Told them I was 18 so they can let me work
>Probably didn't believe me but still give me work
>Started bringing bread to the table
>NotSoUselessNow.gif
>Still getting called useless
>Time passes
>Didn't bring enough money to pay rent
>Only barely to buy floor for cocking arepas
(Kuddos if you know what that is without using Google, if not you should try it, tastes pretty good)
>Owner of the house ask us to leave if we don't pay
>Nowhere else to go but to Grandma's
>She hates us but agrees to have us in her house for a couple months
>Go to her place
>Mom sold almost everything
>"Why didn't you do it before to pay rent?"
>"Didn't crossed my mind"
>"Fuck"

I want a hug.

>>742235964
You're not interrupting anything, what you're doing is what this place is intended for.

What do you suppose could be causing this decline? Is it lack of social contact? Is it lack of fulfillment? I'm not sure what you should do next, but the first step I'd take would be to try my hardest to act normal and appear as though nothing at all were wrong. Conceal it from them in every way you can.

>>742236028
Something needs to change, Anon. You can't keep this up. Make it different if you can, I don't know what to say beyond that...

>>742236032
Thank you, Anon. Hope your headache leaves you soon, and that all your dreams are pleasant. Have a good one.

>>742236160
Well, that's still the way in most threads. This situation works for me; it allows some people to be anonymous and others to identify themselves. I'm sorry you don't like it, but it's not going to change.

>>742236200
Acceptable.

>>742236223
Hm. I'm not sure what to say, Anon. Is your story finished, or is there more to come? Sounds like things have been pretty awful so far.

>>742236596
You need to talk to more poor people. Make some friends lower down the social and financial ladder, and you should start meeting good people. Lower class people make far better friends, and are more enjoyable to be around.

>>742236686
Look, you don't have passions or skills because you haven't developed the interests far enough. You've got to take those interests and make them bigger, chase after them until they're more tangible and you can do something with them.

If you want a break in the monotony, you'll have to make a change. Get outside, go for a walk. Meet some new people, or talk to someone you see every day but haven't met.

>>742237030
Damn. These trust issues.

You dying won't be good for everyone. You still, despite your varied and miserable past, have the potential to become a wonderful and useful person. In fact, I think you are already.

-Fenn

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>>742210103
Can I get a blowjob?

>>742237235
Don't we all.

Just wrap your arms around yourself and pretend there's someone with you.

>>742237081
I'm still alive.

Also, blessed is he who wishes for death. Blessed is he who has no fear of death.

Your fear of death is evidence of being too firmly rooted in connection and emotional addiction. Loose ALL connections, you will loose all true sense of suffering.

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>>742237235
*Hugs you tight and holds you close*

Something got you down, Anon?

the only helpful one of these OPs

>>742237466
That made me feel more lonely but sure I guess

>>742237488
I'm not afraid of death. I just don't believe in throwing him out there without informing him of the likely risks involved.

It's irresponsible, at least.

>>742237532
I'm just really lonely with no one to turn to

>>742236686
I'm not OP and i came to /b to fap
But lemme tell you that i had the EXACT same scenario, get a pet, it will force you to think about someone else than you, if you choose to adopt a dog (good choice if u want friendo) when u go for walks go in parcs and public places, look at how people interact, and since u have a doggo, animal girl will automaticly look at you and probably even go for a quick chat with you!

>>742237605
You just need to pretend harder.

It'll work eventually.

>>742237785
Pretend with me

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>>742237592
Stop saying that. The others do a wonderful job too, many of them do it far better than I do.

>>742237719
I understand that too well. You can talk to me about anything you want, at least until I fall asleep.

>>742237309
The impoverished element in most urban arias is full of drug addicts and niggers that fall to the same fallacy the rich do: roots firmly put in materialistic indulgences or worldly indulgences/addictions (drugs).

To me, nothing trumps prioritising intellectual capacity and perception above all things. My dream is to leave this world with at least one original thought.

This is a virtue that some in the upper socio-economic circles shair, and thus I can actualy get along with them far more then the tribespeak niggers or druggies. It's the supperficiality that is held in such high esteem by some of the middle echelons of society that gets me.

>>742237844
>many of them do it far better than I do.

false you're the best at this

>>742237844
I've had people to talk to they just recently delete or ignore me, I much rather want an embrace or to feel loved

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>>742237309
>Acceptable

aww yeah

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>tfw morbidly obese alcoholic living at home and soon to be entering my mid 20's

..a-at least I have a full time job that pays okay

>>742237711
Stop lying to yourself. Any nigger with a fucking rap song can say he isn't afraid of death. Prove it to yourself. Ever watch fight club? Make your breakfast taste better in the morning.

Now. Loose. ALL. Attachments.

Seek real freedom for the conciousness, as your suffering is a symptom of a greater problem at hand. Suffering is a gift to learn from. Misery, however, is a denial of that gift, and therefor an ignorant dwelling in that suffering.

>>742237838
Sorry, my imagination is dead.

And I can't be anyone's partner anymore.

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>>742234900
>>742234900
Heres a shot of the community tank, disheveled. The brackish is underneath but its got no lights currently.
I haven't even tried saltwater due to the cost. I like the look of live plants more than coral tbh (even though mine could use some ferts)

>>742238332
Worth asking I suppose q

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>>742237943
Shoot, who's left? I know people who do what you describe, prioritizing perception and intellect, and they're great people. But they're rare. I do know people like that who are from higher up and lower down the money chain, so maybe it's linked to something else.

I don't know what you can do to get away from materialism. The industry of this world is founded on it, and it's not about to change.

>>742237963
I will not argue this any more. I am no better than anyone else here.

>>742237993
I don't know if I really can make you feel loved, Anon, but I can try. What is it that's meaningful to you?

>>742238061
She's really cute. What's her name?

>>742238105
You're doing better than some of us, Anon. There's still hope, there's always still hope. Grab onto it and keep reaching for something better. You're doing good.

>>742238248
Believe what you will. I do have ties that bind me, attachments. I never claimed to have what you have.

I just don't fear death.

>>742238477
Meaningful to me?
I'd like to say the friends I still have, but I'd be lying there isnt much I find meaningful besides what's in my best interests at the time.

>>742238477
I have real friends already, thankyou. And we come from all walks of life, sort of.

The problem is I'm far away from them, I think. My people are here too. I think.

I'm off for now. Seeya. Take care.

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>>742238709
Well, perhaps that's the problem. You need to assign meaning somewhere so that you have something to care about.

>>742238858
Alright, I will. You look out for yourself. Good luck.

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>>742238477
Jem
https://youtu.be/UtNPFSz9-5c

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>>742238397
planted tanks are so beautiful (just like yours). i suppose you need some good inverts to keep them clean?

maybe I'll turn mine into a planted tank hmm. I suppose you use a canister filter?

>>742238946
I assigned some meaning to my ex and friend of 5 years then he fucking moved and deleted me from his life. I hate giving people mean cause they leave after a short while. If not people what then?

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>>742210103
Anon I want to be a doctor, I'm on the right path and I've already taken all the hardest classes and I go to the best 4 year university in the state so I'm not slacking, But I only have a 3.1 GPA and I'm motivated to do well in my classes but I'm not motivated whatsoever to get A's. What should I do.

>>742238596
Oh well. To each his own. Sometimes it takes a realisation of deaths impending arm to really drive the power of a statement like denying fear of it home. The problem is, sometimes each passing reaffirmation of life leads to shedding that fear of death that after a few good times, it's almost scary how much one can desire to actually reinstate a fear of death just to return to some semblance of normality. And each chaotic endeavour to jump in deaths arms grows greater and greater with the only thoughts being "maybe I'll feel something, maybe I'll feel something, maybe I'll feel SOMETHING"

It's scary to not fear death. Not freeing. Not pleasant. Scary.

Goodnight, dear anon. Love yourself to the fullest.

>>742239519
>Love yourself to the fullest.

It's impossible for me to love myself.

But I appreciate the sentiment.

>>742239401
Do you really want to help others? I used to want to but lost all desire

>>742238946
Help me friendo, i need to decide between continuing to take mood stabilizers like i have for three years or stop. They make me high, so high i cant think and i feel like im losing my humanity, ive become colder and no longer feel emotions as clearly. When i dont take them im happy but im too emotional and run the risk of becoming depressed and suicidal again. Help me brother

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>>742239365
A pet, like a dog or a cat? Or some mid-term goal, like paying off a loan or finishing a class.

>>742239401
Well, if you really want to be a doctor you've got to make that association in your mind between getting As and becoming a doctor. Getting As means becoming doctor. Once you have that straight, the motivation might get easier.

>>742239879
My dog dropped down the stairs and died
As for classes what in? I'm not too smart

>>742239519
We often see malefactors, when they are led to execution, put on resolution and a contempt of death which, in truth, is nothing else but fearing to look it in the face--so that this pretended bravery may very truly be said to do the same good office to their mind that the blindfold does to their eyes.

-Francois la Rochefoucald

>>742237200
>Had to sell my Xbox, my only distraction from everything
>Go to my grandma's house
>Things were worse
>She screamed and hated ur guts
>Lived almost a year there
>Can't work coz underage and she didn't wanted to sing a permit for me
>She didn't worked neither
>We were starving save for some times my grdanma pity us and gave us food
>"Dad" calls me and says fuck it, come over here with your mom, at least this way both of you will be better
>Send us tickets
>Fly to where he lives
>I was fuckin' extatic thinking about how now I will have the family I always wanted
>Didn't last long
>She starts her shit all over again
>Dad goes broke
>Fucking starving again
>She goes mad fighting daily, even going as far as to say he wasn't my real father
>He says it's ok, I'm his son in his heart.
To make the long story short time has passed, I'm 20 now and about to start a great job, my mother kept her shitting on me for these last years but I've been optimistic about the future, until today when she told me that she hates me, she wished she never gave birth to me and that I should just die, that she sacrificed her possibility of being happy because of me and told me to leave her home. So when I started packing my stuff he grabbed a knife and tried to stab me. I grabbed everything I have and went to my father's, she followed me and tried to kill us both with the same knife and ordered me to go back home, neighbours called the cops and she left. But not without saying that she'll kill herself and that I will live with the regret of abandoning her. What to do Anon? I love her, she's my mom but she has made my life so unhappy that when I finally see some light at the end of the tunnel she comes with this and just makes me want to become an Heroto end all of this, I'm just tired and don't know what to do

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>>742239214
Sorrysorrysorry! I was meant to reach you sooner but the stagecoach took soooo long ^^"

>>742239214
Yep! Fluval 350, been working for well over 5 years with no issues. I actually don't have any inverts in the freshwater right now
Current stock (overstocked) is
4 white corycats
5 green corycats
5 peppered corycats
4 panda corycats
4 siamese flying fox (these guys ANNIHILATE hair algae. Would recommend)
1 lazy as fuck chinese algae eater that steals all the shrimp pellets
1 adorable betta
I think getting hearty plants like java ferns to start is a great way to cycle a tank seamlessly/ensure no big nitrate spikes once you start adding fish.
My filter was broken for a week before and the plants i have (+ 1 powerhead) kept everyone oxygenated and i didnt even notice a change in water quality

>>742239803
I think so. Originally I thought I wanted to be a medical researcher but after working in some research labs in biology dept here for the past year I realize I don't think I could possibly do that happily for a living.

This coming semester I'm getting my EMT certification so I'll know for sure then, but atm I'm at least 80% sure.

>>742240429

Oh i forgot +5 lamp eye tetra. Never see the fuckers thanks to the overgrown plant to the left

This a hug discord discord/ eBAh6gE

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>>742239857
Get off 'em, but transition off slowly if that's easier. It'll be hard, but life will be better when the head on your shoulders is your own.

>>742240031
You could start a hobby, like painting miniatures or drawing or small-time programming. Once you got interested in something like that there might be some learning involved and goals you could set for yourself.

>>742240346
I think that now you finally have a chance to distance yourself from her and get away for good. You can become your own man now, and live out in the real world without being manipulated and put down by her at every turn. Get as far away as you can, and don't look back. Read over all you just posted, and tell me you should go back to her.

Get away, start a new life. Don't ever go back to her. She's not worth it.

>>742240772
Maybe I'll start photography

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>>742240429
That's a pretty rad setup. Java ferns huh.. I may need to bug you sometime once I get a planted aquarium for some tips. lol siamese flying fox sound hilarious, they apparently don't look like their name

>>742240406
Tis okay, I've waited not very long!

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>>742240925
Go for it. It'll be fun. Enjoy it, and apply yourself to it. Don't just brush it off, jump in with both feet and give it an honest effort.

Good luck!

>>742240346 # are you actually asking, or looking for a pity party? You see she is the dir3ct cause for your unhappiness and already know you have to cut her lose, but say you don't know what to do. So you love her by she is your mom? Nothing about that prevents you from leaving her. Life is a series of dilemmas but the important difference between the options is making the choice that leaves you happier than before you were faced with it.

>>742240346
Your mom is very unstable and needs professional help. Now. None of it is your fault.

>>742241083
<3 I might be crying rn but I am happy not loved but a step in the right direction

>>742240346
Honestly, if you still love her and are worried about her own safety you would
1. Tell her your coming home.
2. Call the police and tell them the situation and that she's suicidal.
3. Live out the rest of your days happy.

You'd most likely still be able to visit your mom and she'll get the help she needs

>>742222937
i doubt i make friends either way

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>>742241182
Keep going, Anon. Don't let this slip, keep moving in the right direction. I wish you luck, and I hope that all goes well.

I need to go to sleep now, I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry Anons, I wish I could stay and talk to y'all for longer, but I'm exhausted. Take care of yourselves, and I'll see you again sometime. Goodnight.

>>742241650
You might not at first. Give it time.

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>>742241038
But i actually made you wait a lot since our last conversation! I'm very sorry but lately i've been super busy with an exam i'll have to take soon, in fact i'm always absent from the threads for that too...

>>742240772
God dammit, thank you Anon. I wanted to do that for so long, I just wanted to live as I want, control my own destiny without her fucking me over and ordering me what to and how to live as if I'm some toy. I will, starting from tomorrow I'll live as I please, do what I want, see with my own eyes how the world is and grab it by the pussy as D. J Trump says. I will be my own person, I'll screen cap your answer and every time I feel sad about her I'll look at your words and say, fuck it. You just gave the push to change someone's life, Anon. Thanks I'll always remember your advice, also can I get another hug?

>>742241802
Grab the world by the pussy, I think I'll remember that. Good luck, Anon. I know you can do it.

*hugs tightly*

You take care of yourself. You're going to do great things, I know it.

-Fenn

>>742241763
im losing my best friend whos slowly slipping off my finger tips and i now fel sick to my stomach and am scared

>>742242061
Losing a friend is always hard.
I'm at work, but MANTIS XXX#6680 is my discord. We can talk more there.

>>742241289
>>742241113
>>742241105
Thanks for the advices /b/ros, this is the first time ever I stop lurking and start sharing something about me, and it's because I just needed someone to tell me that I'm not the bad person she tries to made me think I am. I've fucked things up as much as the next guy, but I never done something intentional to hurt someone or to make someone suffer, specially her. I love her but I think we need to part ways or else she'll keep manipulating me and made me as unhappy as her. Thanks again for the push to get me in my senses.

>>742242772
No prob!

>>742242528
can you link it it'll be easier

>>742232630
Thanks anon i needed that tough love