Ask a Schizophrenic anything! I may take a while to reply sometimes,

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Bump with a schizo doodle

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>>740634623
Bump

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>>740634133
Hi again i have been waiting for you here's the gore I said I was posting.

how often do you fap? the voices interrupt you?

>>740634133
Why are not you sleeping

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>>740634773
>Hi again
Hiya.
>here's the gore I said I was posting.
Neato.
>>740634844
>how often do you fap?
Anyween between 0 times a day, to 10 times a day.
>the voices interrupt you?
It happens.
>>740634935
>Why are not you sleeping
I haven't even been up 12 hours.

>>740634842
Sauce plz want moar

>>740634133
What's an average day for a fucking lunatic like yourself?

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the a16 of 7dtd is finally out are you enjoying it? i do

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>>740635041
>What's an average day for a fucking lunatic like yourself?
Mostly just playing vidya.
>>740635061
>the a16 of 7dtd is finally out are you enjoying it?
I've enjoyed the hell out of it.
>i do
That's good to hear. It's a really good game.

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>>740634980
You lucky im still awake also a question what is your favorite movie?
>>740634991
Found it on /k/ enjoy
https://touch.pixiv.net/member_illust.php

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>>740635160
>what is your favorite movie?
I don't have a singular favorite. (this applies to most things) But, here are a few of my tops in no particular order.
Shutter Island
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Benny and Joon
A Beautiful Mind
Inception (kill me, it's good)
Little Nicky

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>>740635327
Fuck I had a chance to watch shutter island yesterday but I watched seven instead.

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>>740635419
>Fuck I had a chance to watch shutter island yesterday but I watched seven instead.
You should definately watch it, it's a great movie. One of the few movies I think get better on rewatches.

Would you take it up the ass for $1mil? Because I sure as fuck would.

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>>740635502
It might be on again this week so maybe ill watch it.

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>>740635613
>Would you take it up the ass for $1mil?
Probably not.
>>740635622
>It might be on again this week so maybe ill watch it.
Just watch it online.

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>>740635715
Know any good sites?

What are the common misconception of Schizophrenia in your opinion?

would you fuck any one of your voices

>>740634133
How did you felt when the protagonist of the anime kissed your waifu?
And what did your voices told you to do about it?

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>>740635766
>Know any good sites?
https://123movies.io/
Best site I know of.
>>740635835
>What are the common misconception of Schizophrenia in your opinion?
That Schizophrenics are all violent, or that we have multiple personalities.
>>740635851
>would you fuck any one of your voices
Short answer, yes.
>>740635872
>How did you felt when the protagonist of the anime kissed your waifu?
I dunno, I haven't watched it in a long ass time.
>And what did your voices told you to do about it?
Nothing

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Hiya

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hey schizo, last time i saw a thread of yours i was in Wales and the wifi was so bad i couldnt type. My question is if you would like to live without being a schizophrenic? are you used to it or do you like having it? thanks.

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>>740635980
Hope your day is going well <3

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>>740635980
>Hiya
Yo.
>>740636019
>My question is if you would like to live without being a schizophrenic?
I have wondered what it would be like to be "normal". But, at the same time, I like being me.
>are you used to it
I am used to it, I've been this way for a very long time.
>or do you like having it?
I don't like it, per se.
>thanks.
No prob

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>>740635927
>last one I have
Thanks for link anyway why make a thread at 3:00 a.m

>>740634133
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eOefd87-rk
1:58
>How do you feel when the protagonist of the anime kissed your waifu?

>And what do your voices tell you to do about it now?

>>740635927
i implore for the long answer if that's alright with you, but i'm cool either way mate
thanks for the answer regardless

Do the voices keep you company like friends or are they more like an annoyance you've come to accept?
Which ones do you like and hate?

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what do you think about the brony fandom?

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>>740636036
>Hope your day is going well <3
It's going fairly well.
How's yours?
>>740636100
>Thanks for link
Sure thing.
>why make a thread at 3:00 a.m
Cause I was bored.
>>740636126
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1eOefd87-rk
>This video contains contect from Sony Music Entertainment (Japan) Inc.. It is not available in your country

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>>740636185
I can get more gore from the website if you want it but are you fine with death porn?

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>>740634133
>>740636126
>same questions

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>>740636298
Her reaction

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>>740636158
>i implore for the long answer if that's alright with you
The long answer would be no. There are a lot of variables to that question, not just the money is the only thing that should be thought about.
>>740636164
>Do the voices keep you company like friends
or are they more like an annoyance you've come to accept?
I wouldn't quite say they're like friends, but they do keep me occupied when I'm really bored. More often than not though, they're a nuisance.
>Which ones do you like and hate?
I don't like or hate any of them.
>>740636172
>what do you think about the brony fandom?
Those still exist?
>>740636261
>I can get more gore from the website if you want it
If you want to.
>but are you fine with death porn
It doesn't bother me, if that's what you're asking.
>>740636298
>same questions
Her reaction is perfect

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>>740636298
After the kiss

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>>740636185
Mmmm.. I dunno, I just woke up. xD

>>740634133
Why aren't you washing your walls right now?

>How do you feel when the protagonist of the anime kissed your waifu?

>And what do your voices tell you to do about it now?

Still waiting for it. >>740636405

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>>740636459
>I just woke up
Oh, well did you have a good sleep?
>>740636546
>Why aren't you washing your walls right now?
Why would I be?

>>740634133
Have you ever looked in a mirror and noticed that your reflection isn't you but has a life of its own?

Do you also have paranoia? How does that manifest itself?

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>>740636575
>Still waiting for it.
Answers are still exactly the same.
doesn't make me feel any way, and nothing.
>>740636717
>Have you ever looked in a mirror and noticed that your reflection isn't you but has a life of its own?
I have looked in mirrors and the person in the mirror wasn't "me". But it doesn't do things by itself.
>Do you also have paranoia?
Yes.
>How does that manifest itself?
I don't know how to answer that?

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>>740636405
Im finding some more gore for you. Another question what I don't really know much about your condition but are there certain things that can trigger a freak out or make life a living hell for you?

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>>740636587
I did :D my room is very cozy <3

I like your taste in movies BTW

>>740636805
Forget the what was ever there it was mistype

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>>740634133
Hi anon. I don't know if you remember me, but months ago we had a conversation about LSD and talked about Inception and Shutter Island.

Have you seen Dunkirk? It was directed by the same guy who made Inception and Memento. I really liked it.

Does stress make your hallucinations worse, like it does for me? I've been kind of stressed lately by my job, and it's been pretty bad. I keep having paranoid delusions that stretch for days, I can't distinguish the voices from people talking around me, and when I lay down the ceiling is flickering and pulsating. I probably should see a therapist but I'm kind of scared to do so.

Do you have multiple types of voices? I have ones that seem like they come from people near me, but they're saying bad things about me. For years I didn't even know those were hallucinations. I also have weird angel-like creatures that come to me and speak in my mind, giving me weird delusions. None of them really have personalities, though.

Do you know many other schizos? This disease is so fucking weird.

Do you meditate? I kind of picked it up recently, and it's been helping tremendously.

Have you played Stardew Valley? I'm enjoying it, but I'm a complete noob to vidya.

>>740636787
How does that manifest itself?
>I don't know how to answer that?
What are you paranoid about? What do you do about this fear? What do you do because of this fear?
What do others try to tell you about your paranoid delusions?

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Do you talk to them?
Do they hurt you?
What do they ask you to do?
How many are they?
Are they here now?
Do they allow you sleep?
Are they good to you?

Ever been to England?

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>>740636805
>but are there certain things that can trigger a freak out or make life a living hell for you?
Mostly stress. It causes anxiety which causes paranoia which causes stress and so forth. It's a really bad cycle that is insanely hard to break.
>>740636891
>I did :D
That's good to hear.
>my room is very cozy <3
It looks like it.
>I like your taste in movies BTW
You like a good psychology movie, too? they're quite fun.

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Also
How old are you?
Where are you from?
What do you want to work/what do you do for living?

Care to make friends with someone like you (me) :)

>>740637050
When did the symptoms first start to manifest?

What were the first symptoms where you thought this might be something?

Was it slow or immediate?

>>740637098
Fun fact: in french "gerber" means "to puke"

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>>740636913
>Hi anon.
Hiya.
>I don't know if you remember me
I do.
>Have you seen Dunkirk?
I have not. I'll have to look into it.
>Does stress make your hallucinations worse, like it does for me?
Yes. Stress makes everything worse.
>I've been kind of stressed lately by my job, and it's been pretty bad.
Damn, sorry to hear that, I hope you get some down time soon.
>I probably should see a therapist but I'm kind of scared to do so.
Why are you scared?
>Do you have multiple types of voices?
Yes, I have 3 that are reoccurring.
>Do you know many other schizos?
I've met a few here and there.
>Do you meditate?
I used to, but not so much anymore. I find it much more difficult to get to that place where I can actually meditate.
>Have you played Stardew Valley?
Nope, I've watched some videos on it, didn't seem like my cup of tea.

>>740634133
Do you drink?

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>>740637050
"Which would be worse: to live as a monster or to die as a good man?" :D Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind is one of my favorites and Little Nicky is awesome :)


>lurking while I get ready <3

>>740634133
How bad are the hallucinations, if any?
How are you handling it fren?

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>>740637050
Sounds harsh last question tell me what's on your mind right now have any fears like reality is a illusion or a void of darkness?

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>>740636932
>What are you paranoid about?
I don't have a singular thing. It's just whatever happens at the time. Sometimes I'm paranoid about people, sometimes I'm paranoid about someone breaking in, sometimes it's paranoia that doesn't make any sense.
>What do you do about this fear?
Usually just think about it until it drives me crazy.
>What do you do because of this fear?
It's not really fear, paranoia and fear are quite different. But it all depends on what I'm paranoid about.
>What do others try to tell you about your paranoid delusions?
Nothing, I don't talk about them.
>>740637033
>Do you talk to them?
Yup.
>Do they hurt you?
It happens.
>What do they ask you to do?
Usually nothing, I've been told to kill people though.
>How many are they?
3
>Are they here now?
They're always here, but they're not always talking.
>Do they allow you sleep?
Not always.
>Are they good to you?
One of them is "good".

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>>740637334
Nice ass

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>>740637038
>Ever been to England?
No, but I want to go some day.
>>740637098
>How old are you?
25
>Where are you from?
United States of Trump, specifically Florida.
>What do you want to work/what do you do for living?
I don't know.
>>740637141
>Care to make friends with someone like you (me) :)
Sure, why not?
>>740637192
>When did the symptoms first start to manifest?
I've had symptoms of it all my life, but they became more noticeable around 20.
>What were the first symptoms where you thought this might be something?
Extreme paranoia and hallucinations.
>Was it slow or immediate?
I don't know?
>>740637323
>Do you drink?
No, I don't like alcohol.

>>740637539
Yeey my Instagram is @obs3ss3d__ just hit me up.. Any of you seriously I like making new friends online especially on 4chan where you get to see really interesting people n shit...

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>>740637382
>How bad are the hallucinations, if any?
Mine aren't too bad. They're not very common when I'm not psychotic, and when they are around they're fairly mild.
>How are you handling it fren?
Alright, I guess?
>>740637397
>Sounds harsh
It can be.
>what's on your mind right now have any fears like reality is a illusion or a void of darkness?
Right now, absolutely nothing.
>>740637334
>"Which would be worse: to live as a monster or to die as a good man?"
One of my favorite quotes from that movie. I adore Leonardo DiCaprio.
>Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind is one of my favorites
I love that movie, I need to watch it again some time.
>lurking while I get ready <3
See you around.
>>740637640
>Yeey my Instagram is @obs3ss3d__ just hit me up
I don't use instagram.

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>>740637255
The reason I hate therapists is probably not interesting, but I'll share it.

I first saw a shrink when I was 12. He told me I was either schizo or bipolar, and started talking about meds with my parents.

What he was saying about anti-psychotics made me convinced he was trying to hurt me. I ran away, got hurt, and had a confrontation with police that put me in a psych ward. I was nearly tranquilized there for just sitting in a chair unresponsively, and they made me strip every night to check for cuts. A lot of my friends got tranquilized, and I was forced to take some pretty nasty meds. The voices told me not to take them, which got me into some trouble.

I guess I'm nervous. I also really don't want to be on meds again. I know I can just say no to them, but I'm somehow worried that word will reach my friends/boss/whatever. I know I'm just being paranoid.

>>740637539
I ask about symptoms because I have some suspicions that I'm beginning to get some of them myself. I'm in my early 20's

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>>740637733
That's good well good night see you next thread I might have more questions for you.

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>>740637825
> first saw a shrink when I was 12. He told me I was either schizo or bipolar, and started talking about meds with my parents.
Jesus fucking christ. Giving anti-psychs to a 12-year-old? I can't stand Psychiatrists like that.
>What he was saying about anti-psychotics made me convinced he was trying to hurt me.
He was probably a dirty fucking shill and didn't care.
>I also really don't want to be on meds again
I don't blame you.
>but I'm somehow worried that word will reach my friends/boss/whatever.
The only way that would happen is if you told them, what with the doctor patient confidentiality.
>>740637834
>I'm in my early 20's
That's when they usually show up, if you're worried about it go see a doctor.
>>740637876
>well good night
good night
>see you next thread
See you around

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>>740638077
Do you feel creatively inspired at times by your condition, art or otherwise? Or maybe limited or held back artistically?

>>740638449
Out of curiosity, did your voices talked to you about the sun?

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>>740638449
Nice art, are you a boy or a girl? If boy would you post a pic? :3 or just your eyes?

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>>740638584
>Do you feel creatively inspired at times by your condition, art or otherwise?
Yea, there are times when I feel super creative. It's usually with music. Music will just pop into my head and I'll create entire songs. But I have no applied skills with music so I can't actually create it.
>>740638599
>Out of curiosity, did your voices talked to you about the sun?
Not that I can recall.

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>>740638717
>Nice art
Thanks, but I wouldn't call it art.
>are you a boy or a girl?
A boi.
>If boy would you post a pic?
The lighting in my room is terrible and I don't want to get up, or blind myself with the flash.

>>740634133
I confess OP, I'm not super familiar with schizophrenia.

An ex gf had an older brother that was schizophrenic, but he wasn't being treated for it and was like actually kind of insane. Fine some of the time, get kicked out of the house and try to force your way back in with a sword while screaming at the walls the rest of the time.

She and her whole fucking family are crazy (pussy was great tho), actually, but that's another story; the point is, my view is a little skewered, I'm biased against your condition.

What's a "normal" schizophrenic like, or at least a functioning one? Are you in that category?

What kind of madness are you faced at with times?

What's it like to have the voices? I'm assuming you didn't directly, intentionally create them. Was it scary to hear them at first?

How badly does your condition affect your life?

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>>740636932
>>740637834
I might be able to answer this from the point of view of a different schizophrenic. It's a bit cathartic to talk about it, since 95% of the people I know don't know I'm sick. Some of them might suspect but whatever.
> What are you paranoid about?
The government is watching me, trying to find a reason to lock me up.
Google/Facebook/Amazon are microanalyzing what I'm doing and giving the data to the government.
People in my life are just trying to manipulate me, or don't like me.
I exist in a simulation or in some kind of divine test. Typically strange creatures enter my mind to tell me this.
I get scared that I die when I fall asleep, and a copy of me wakes up.
I hallucinate that people are talking badly about me, and it puts me on edge.

> What do you do about this fear?
I use a super-paranoid computer setup to protect against and detect intrusion.

I keep my social media accounts to a minimum.

I read some books about social engineering, manipulation, etc. to be able to detect it.

I've taught myself to be able to relax and make small talk even when noided.

I have a digital watch that I use to check whether or not I'm dreaming, since I have a problem distinguishing between dreams and reality. The numbers change quickly when I check it in a dream.

In "real life" I'm a programmer and compsci slave so people just think I'm big on cybersecurity.

>>740638584
Constantly thinking about how people would try to get you is actually a strength in some professions.

>>740638449
Nice drawing. I've wanted to draw the weird geometric hallucinations I see but I don't know how.

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>>740638728
I really like Jung's studies and I try to gather data, that's why I asked.

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>>740638819
Hmm. Then maybe next time. I have a thing for eyes and I want to meet the gaze of a schizophrenic.

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>>740638874
>I'm biased against your condition.
That's only natural, I can't blame you for feeling that way.
>What's a "normal" schizophrenic like
Most are pretty mild, and just want to be left alone. Only about 25% of Schizos are as bad as you described.
>Are you in that category?
It depends on what you mean by "functioning". I'm not crazy all of the time, and when I am I'm not off the wall batshit insane.
>What kind of madness are you faced at with times?
The main thing is paranoia, delusions and voices.
>What's it like to have the voices?
It's normal for me, I've had them for so long.
>Was it scary to hear them at first?
I don't think I've ever been scared by them.
>How badly does your condition affect your life?
Pretty badly, I'd say.

>>740638926
Would be interested in your security setup. You just made me realize I kinda have regularly the same paranoid episodes

>>740639194
Thanks for taking the time to respond, OP. Enjoy the rest of your day or night or whatever, man.

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>>740639050
>I really like Jung's studies
I really like Jung too.
>>740639091
>Then maybe next time
Maybe
>I have a thing for eyes and I want to meet the gaze of a schizophrenic.
I have been told I have a habit of "looking through the camera" hwatever that means.
>>740639296
>Thanks for taking the time to respond
You're welcome.
>Enjoy the rest of your day or night or whatever, man.
You too, friend.

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>>740639370

There is nothing wrong with schizophrenia. Be proud of who you are.

>>740639324
Which concepts on Jung did you find particularly intresting/lively? I'd like to have your point of view since you can percieve things differently and maybe percieve some that regular people can't.

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Let's go capture a loli and plan to raise it. Until one of us gets jealous of the other and hacks the other up into little pieces.

>>740639324
Ever play D&D?

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>>740639450
>There is nothing wrong with schizophrenia.
I guess you could say that.
>>740639484
>Which concepts on Jung did you find particularly intresting/lively?
I really like the shadow concept. I'm not super well versed in his work, as I don't read. >>740639494
>Let's go capture a loli and plan to raise it. Until one of us gets jealous of the other and hacks the other up into little pieces.
Sounds like a fun ride.
>>740639607
>Ever play D&D?
No, but I want to.

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>>740639050
This is eerily accurate. I always wear sunglasses outside because the sun causes me to see weird shapes and makes colors drift apart.
It's kind of like LSD but not as bad. I'm guessing it's because schizophrenia involves serotonin, which is involved in vision modulation.

>>740639226
I use Linux and open source software. I write some of my own stuff and use Emacs for just about everything.
I use a password manager and a bunch of Firefox privacy add-ons.
I'm too paranoid to put anything important on my phone.
I encrypt everything, and use two-factor authentication when I can.
Mostly I just read about different types of attacks and vulnerabilities.
The details aren't really too interesting, but /g/ has a lot of good cybersecurity threads nowadays if you want to learn how to protect yourself.

>>740638926
Thanks my man, I'm starting to see a lot of those tendencies in myself over the past year or so, might be worth checking out?

>>740638449
I like this, I make pretty similar art when I'm supposed to be note taking. I think I usually get a sentence or so into notes before I give up and fill the page with weird, freaky, or silly doodles.

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>>740639730
>Sounds like a fun ride.
Indeed it does. There needs to be more people like you in this world, OP. :D

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>>740639815
>I always wear sunglasses outside because the sun causes me to see weird shapes and makes colors drift apart.
My eyes have always been extremely sensitive to the sun. It makes everything seem really... fuzzy.
>>740638926
>I've wanted to draw the weird geometric hallucinations I see but I don't know how.
I just draw. I don't put any thought into it, I kind of turn my brain off and let my hand do whatever.
>>740639913
>Indeed it does
Maybe one day.

>There needs to be more people like you in this world, OP. :D
What, more crazy people?

>>740639730
I know focusing to read is hard, but you should try to read more about Jung. Can't your good voice tell other to shut up for a bit? I don't know if this kind of interaction is possible in your case.

>>740640031
>maybe one day
I'm diamonds at the thought. One can only hope our paths cross :P
>What, more crazy people?
mmhmmm They're not as boring

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>>740640103
>I know focusing to read is hard
Harder than you can imagine.
>Can't your good voice tell other to shut up for a bit?
It's not really the voices that prevent me from reading.

>>740639815
I'm Jung poster and security question asker.Thanks for your reply, man.
Where are you from, out of curiosity?

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>>740640288
>Thanks for your reply, man
You're welcome.
>Where are you from, out of curiosity?
United States of Trumpland, Florida specifically.

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>>740639827
Definitely talk to a psychotherapist. Schizophrenia is the type of disease where you don't really know how far you're gone -- you typically need an outside opinion. Hopefully it's not actually schizophrenia, but if it is they will help you out.

I saw a therapist for years who helped me work through my issues and taught me calming/coping techniques. Unfortunately it's a long, bumpy ride. I thought I was fine, but a couple more years have passed and I'm back where I started. I need to start seeing one again...

>>740640031
There's static on everything, right? It's awful.
Occasionally I can see spinning pyramids, weird fractals, etc. through it when my eyes are closed.

>>740640103
Unfortunately schizophrenia affects focus. It took me years to learn how to be productive, and I still depend way too much on coffee.

>>740640183
Yeah, the mind just wanders or enters a meditative haze.

>>740640288
Russian-American. I'm usually bouncing around the US but right now I'm shitposting from Moscow.

>>740640183
I can imagine fairly well, I'm a high functioning autist with borderline schizophrenia.
What do prevent you from reading? Being afraid it could induce paranoiac episode?

Would you ever say that your schizophrenia is a good thing? would you ever reccommend it? are you ever offended if people say something like "I wish I heard voices" or "i wish I saw things or something?"
I only ask because I feel dreadfully bland in life and I wish I had a real reason to an hero

>>740640472
Also i really like Schopenhauer and the movie Synecdoche, New York.

And do you find crying to be cathartic?

>>740634133
have you ever been raped?

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>>740640472
Not OP, but schizophrenia is bland when it's your daily life. We all seem boring to ourselves, and there's really no reason to try to legitimize suffering, as we're all capable of it. Our pain is not greater than yours.

If you're really curious though, watch Shutter Island, and/or try a tab of 1p-LSD (after doing a lot of research). My entire life is basically a drawn-out bad acid trip.

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>>740640363
>There's static on everything, right?
More like everything has long thin triangular hairs.
Now that I think about it, the sun penis comment earlier, I know what they're referring to. Squinting at the sun makes it have these long "beams" that are kind of like triangular tubes. Kind of like a kids drawing of a sun.
>Yeah, the mind just wanders or enters a meditative haze.
yea, just being able to focus on something for long enough is hard.
>>740640419
>What do prevent you from reading?
All the words start to blend together into nonsense, or I'll completely lose my focus and won't remember anything I read. I could read the same sentence four or five times and still not know what it said.
Also, black letters on white background (or any dark letters on light backgrounds for that matter) absolutely fuck with my eyes.
>>740640472
>Would you ever say that your schizophrenia is a good thing?
Hmm, it has good aspects to it. But on a whole, I wouldn't say it's good.
>would you ever reccommend it?
Recommend Schizophrenia? No.
>are you ever offended if people say something like "I wish I heard voices" or "i wish I saw things or something?"
No, I don't get offended by anything, really.

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>>740640757
nice Lain pic, currently my laptop lockscreen

this is one of my faves

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>>740640547
>And do you find crying to be cathartic?
No.
>>740640690
>have you ever been raped?
Nope.

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>>740640862
Hey, another Lain fan!
Do you go on /g/'s cybersecurity threads (/csg/) or on Lainchan?

What would you say is the worst fetish? From your perspective.

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>>740641062
>What would you say is the worst fetish? From your perspective.
anything related to shit.

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>>740641040
No, but Now I know where I'm headed. I actually didn't have that one so

Thanks friendo

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>>740640363
>>740640788

Jungfag again, I never post my work here, but you two might like it.

>>740641106
I was into scat for a while. It only came from being a degenerate and watching too much porn.

That aside, are you still a virgin? and if so do you plan on losing it in your lifetime? If not, tell us the experience?

I still am at the age of 26.. I'm almost a wizard :/

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>>740641139
No problem. If you're the programming type be sure to check out /λ/ since there's probably thousands of dollars of ebooks there.

>>740641148
Damn, I wish I was that talented. What tools did you use to make this? I recognize the long exposure technique.

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>>740641148
>but you two might like it.
Are both of the pictures your work?
The first one has something askew about it, I like that.
The brain one is really nice too.
>>740641244
>I was into scat for a while.
Das nasty anon.
>watching too much porn.
>watching porn at all
Pleb.
>are you still a virgin?
Yes
>and if so do you plan on losing it in your lifetime?
I plan on it, if I can find a person worth having sex with.
>I still am at the age of 26.. I'm almost a wizard :/
>under the age of 30
>wizard
that isn't how wizardry works, anon.

>>740634133
Are you cute?

>>740634133
hello again kv-2 friend
hows your day been?

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>>740641463
>Are you cute?
I've been told.

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>>740641507
>hello again kv-2 friend
Hiya.
>hows your day been?
Pretty uneventful.
How about yourself?

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Do you know the root cause of the Schizophrenia? Do you do any drugs to help? I'm kind of worried for my own psyche as my disorders manifest themselves in everything I do, It's torturous to the point where existance (sober) is a living hell and I need, pharm meds to smoke weed, or ironically do some psychedelics to give me a moment of relief from my own mind

>>740641519
Are you a girl and cute or a boy and cute?

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>>740641402
>watching porn at all
>Pleb.
I respect you for it, but don't look down on me
><
>under the age of 30
>wizard
I said almost a wizard. This is why your still a virgin, virgin.
>I plan on it, if I can find a person worth having sex with.
Alright, I'll help you out. Just this once anon. gibbe the pucci b00ss
Well, I'm going to find some boipucci soon enough, just you wait. I'll shitpost pics on your threads of the experience for weeks :P

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>>740641606
pretty good
managed to trade some memes with my friend to get some good animu pics (pic related) but thats just about it

>>740641386
I'm a sculptor/painter/photographer.
It's the only thing I can focus on, but it's not really focusing; it's like I just let the things inside me express themselves.
Like your voices can tell you what to do.
You are right about the long exposure, I took a picture of one of my sculptures with long exposure and light painting.
>>740641402
I only posted the brain one "Insider"

My work is mostly based on the thematic of the "Shadow" and "Persona".

Is it hard for you to try to stay normal? How often you get mood swings?

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>>740641616
>Do you know the root cause of the Schizophrenia?
No.
>Do you do any drugs to help?
Nothing actually helps, but weed makes me feel as if I am a little more normal.
>>740641633
>Are you a girl and cute or a boy and cute?
boi
>>740641809
>I respect you for it, but don't look down on me
I kid, friend.
>This is why your still a virgin, virgin.
shit, I can't read.
>gibbe the pucci b00ss
Hell naw I aint gay dawg
>I'll shitpost pics on your threads of the experience for weeks :P
you're welcome to.
>>740641888
>pretty good
That's good to hear.
>managed to trade some memes with my friend to get some good animu pics
That's not half bad.

Spoiler Koyomi gets cut up into pieces by Gaen and meets up with Mayoi in hell

In the last thread I believe you said you play LoL right?
If so what other vidya do you play or just LoL?

Also earlier in this thread you said one of the voices is good, which is interesting to me what has it done to be "good" and how are the others bad?

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>>740642055
>Hell naw I aint gay dawg
It's almost tradition at this point to post on your thread asking for your ass. kek

Femboys are good though.. Hence avatarfagging ciel and juuzou.

Too each his own :o

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>>740642055
>boi
Can't win em all I guess.

Sup boi, 20 yo anon here, ill try to keep this short. tl;dr the older i get the more i become convinced that i'm slowly turning schizo (I'm becoming increasingly paranoid and i started hearing voices a couple of months ago, the voices came back only once but still it scares me). My grandmother is schizophrenic so it is genetic in my family, got any tips on how to deal with it?

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>>740642000
>I only posted the brain one "Insider"
I see. You should post more, it's really neat.
>>740642039
>Is it hard for you to try to stay normal?
I don't think I'm ever "normal".
>How often you get mood swings?
Every few weeks usually. I have periods of apathy in between the mood swings that last for months.
>>740642145
>Spoiler Koyomi gets cut up into pieces by Gaen and meets up with Mayoi in hell
Bastard
>>740642234
>In the last thread I believe you said you play LoL right?
Yup
>If so what other vidya do you play or just LoL?
7 days 2 die
LoL
Axu (some indie roguelike)
Factorio
Kingdom
>which is interesting to me what has it done to be "good"
It's more supportive, similar to having an angel sitting on your shoulder.
>and how are the others bad?
I wouldn't say they're bad, they're just not good. One of them is neutral, and the other I guess you could call "bad" it's just more negative.

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>>740642350
>It's almost tradition at this point to post on your thread asking for your ass. kek
Someone always wants to see my ass, hehe.
>>740642369
>Can't win em all I guess.
One day, anon, one day.
>>740642413
>got any tips on how to deal with it?
See a doctor.
Other than that, you have to learn to realize when you're being crazy about stuff, be it hallucinations or delusions or what have you

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>>740641616
Schizophrenia is a mysterious disease, but research seems to indicate it's a mix of childhood trauma and malfunctioning neurotransmitters. Therapy really helps.

I took anti-psychotics for a while, which helped stabilize me. They kept me from having delusions or hallucinating.
I got off of them because it was hard to do any actual work. I do too many recreational drugs (weed, LSD, benzos, vodka), but I'm trying to replace them with meditation, especially since they make me more paranoid.

>>740642000
Keep it up, it looks really good!
I hope I'll find time to try doing art someday... I read a book published by Princeton on generative art and I'd really like to try my hand at it.

>>740641809
Where exactly are all these people looking for gay schizo boipucci? Urgent question.

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>>740634133
Fellow Schizo here! how bad is it for you? I stop taking the meds a while ago because they weren't too effective

>>740642571
>Someone always wants to see my ass, hehe.
I guess being cooped up in my house for years on end has turned me into a desperate pleb. :P

>>740642571
Well shit, i'm broke atm
>Other than that, you have to learn to realize when you're being crazy about stuff, be it hallucinations or delusions or what have you
I kinda have this part covered tho, i have an iron resolve so it never bothers me to the point where i cant function properly. Do you get any medication?

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>>740642575
>>740642445
Glad you like it.

>>740635327

Watch Synecdoche New York

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>>740634133
whats your opinion on these kind of people, or are you them? do you feel electric shocks in your body or hearing voices from your throat?

>>740642575
Yeah, generative art is cool. But stay away from fractals, this shit is everywhere, I think you have what it takes to code you very own thing. And if you make it base on Phi or golden mean I would love to see it.

>>740642880
Get out tinfoil hat

>>740642575
>Where exactly are all these people looking for gay schizo boipucci? Urgent question.
Texas :P I'm also schiz

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This is my last post, I need to take a shower and get ready for bed.
I'll catch you guys in the next one
goodbye, and goodnight, anons.
>>740642650
>how bad is it for you?
Right now, not too bad. But it can get really bad.
>>740642757
>I guess being cooped up in my house for years on end has turned me into a desperate pleb.
I think that goes for most people on /b/
>>740642765
>I kinda have this part covered tho
That can change in an instant though
>Do you get any medication?
No, I don't take medication for anything, not even headaches.
>>740642808
>Glad you like it.
You've got some skill, anon.
>>740642855
>Watch Synecdoche New York
I'll look into it.
>>740642880
>whats your opinion on these kind of people,
Who are these people?
>do you feel electric shocks in your body or hearing voices from your throat?
nope

>>740643171
>That can change in an instant though
Well shit, i'm not gonna stand around and play tough then, ill get to a doctor asap. Thanks for responding anon, matters a lot to me

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>>740643171
>showering in 2017

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>>740642765
Investigate what your insurance covers. You should be able to get seen for no/little cost.

If you're a student, most universities have their own psychiatrists and psychologists.

>>740642996
Thanks for the tip. I do a lot of simulation and data analysis stuff so I try to find cool ways to represent the data. I wish I could post stuff but I don't want to be identified.

>>740643044
I know where I'm moving next.

>>740643171
Goodnight anon. Always a pleasure to stumble on your threads.

>>740643171
thats what i wanted to ask you, since you are a shizo you should know of "them" but it seems like you never saw them before, be happy it means your life isnt going to end soon if you dont see them

>>740643389
>I know where I'm moving next.
Hit me up when you get here :P

>>740643389
Me neither, that's why I've modified my pictures a bit.
Do you have a throw away mail? Would like to stay a bit in touch, will send other picture of the same sculpture as proof

>>740634133
When you read something, does it feel like your own voice reading the words or an alien voice?

>>740643976
>>740643389
Me again.
I was wondering, are you the one behind the 'wired sound' website?

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>>740643397
Those are metronomes. It keeps musicians on stage in time with other stuff, kind of like the conductor. This is why we should see therapists and take meds until stable, or we go through life having these kinds of delusions.

>>740643976
>>740644344
etolikho (at) protonmail.com

I don't really have anything anonymous to show right now, but I'll keep you in mind.

I'm not behind that website, unfortunately. It's brilliant.

>>740643482
I really wish bae

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>>740644851
Hmm.. I wonder what it would be like if two schizophrenics hooked up. :3 could be chaotic lol.

>>740644851
Sent DSC_1045.
Will lurk a bit more here, but have to work at the same time

>>740645372
Received, thanks.

Feel free to send anything you want critiqued. If I ever end up making something I'll send it to you.

>>740642055
Have you asked your doctor about getting a genomind test to see if you have any mutated neurorecepotors? Several mutations have been a big reason for my problems.

>>740634133
How can I intensify hallucinations?
I'm the opposite to a schizophrenic; I've learned to have strong control over hallucinatons (Or rather, I have a tulpa who does), but I can't have fun with it because I can barely hallucinate.
I don't often dream, and have never had luck with wake-induced lucid dreams.

dgh