easily way to kill myself? also general feels thread, whats

carbon monoxide from a car engine should do the trick

>>740204755
stomach full of pills, massive bong rip then hang

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>>740205526
thanks! could i buy a take of c02 and just fill my bathroom up with it?

such a nice community

Why does it have to be easy? Are you worried that you're going to be tired after you're done?

>>740205883
it would be more painful but if your bathroom is airtight then I suppose. why do you want to kill yourself?

Please livestream it.

>>740206033
>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
>Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

>>740204755
no dont listen to that just buy a shotgun if youre over 18 and boom but hanging sounds good too or u can even just go underneath a bus and give the people a show before u go

You know the entire time I was with her I thought of how awesome of a story it was, but now that it's over it's painful to even think about, let alone discuss
Pistol, OP
Save up your funds, go to a pawn shop and purchase a firearm
Earn your right to die so you can do so with some sliver of dignity intact

live stream it

>>740204755
Ten years ago, I was a sad lil faggot just like you.

I'm lying in my bed naked, next to my wife browsing 4chan, like I do once every 2 to 10 months for the memories.

Truth is, you're not here forever. Enjoy your time on /b/ while it lasts. Because one day you'll let it go for something bigger. Chances are it's going to be OP's large faggoty dick, but it will definitely be larger.

what if since your already gonna kill yourself have a little fun and take someone else down with you?

>>740206230
still the people responding can't really know if OP is serious
Cool shit how this site wants to promote christian values
and then tells people to kill themselves

>>740206670
what can u expect tho its on the web and people are already assholes as is

What year did car manufactures start to put a Carbon Monoxide emission monitoring system in place?

Just needed somebody to trust, but that's not going to come
Fuck I've ruined everything /b/
At least the implants are starting to fail
I suppose institutional cuckery has some benefits
Honestly miss the screeching excitement though, hate going outside into the blood

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>>740206120
Ive been very depressed for a while, it keeps getting worse and worse and i just want the pain to go away, it's like drowning while everyone around you can breathe.
being so lonely everyday, its like im trapped in a dark room with no one else but myself, i have no friends or anyone that cares about me and this life of loneliness is getting old.

>>740208135
story you care to share?

>>740204755
>be me
>27 y/o but look and sound half my age
>brain damaged before birth
>very low energy, strength or stamina
>constant fatigue and chronic pain
>scared to leave the house
>lonely, no friends. sick of life

>>740206297
seconding. get your cobain on and take off the top of your skill with a shotgun

>>740204755
Bullet to the temple
Also, Maddy.

>>740208369
I know when you said it's like you're trapped by yourself in a dark room you were being metaphorical but how accurate is this in actual terms? people tend to get depressed when they don't have anything to do and no reason to leave the house. get out much OP?

>>740208473
The immature part of me that wants to scream it for the sake of his self-serving mythos wants to
The wisened part knows there are people in the trenches who are waiting to mangle me with the information
So idk, every facet of my being would do anything to get her back, but all I have left are the ghosts in my psyche that only exists to lead me farther away

>>740206844
in the real world or even on other sites it isn't like this
Funny how the people who claim to be the ones that can save society are the ones society needs to be saved from the most

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> be me 23
> never had a girlfriend
> meet a gorgeous 29 year old at work
> I am a student
> we hit it off
> date for 3 years
> some good, some bad, generally amazing
> we have a connection, want to marry this girl
> one day she breaks up with me almost out of the blue
> we discussed our wedding a week before the breakup
> heartbroken and miserable
> cant eat or sleep

> she eventually texts me
> we meet up
> hang out as friends
> I am going on a month long trip in august
> things are looking great again
> will come back and we will get back together

fast forward to today
> its her birthday
> I ask what she is doing
> she casually says nothing
> there is a festival going on, so i go check it out with a friend
> go to the biggest bar around
> she is sitting on some dudes lap
> shes having a birthday party of like 30 people
> she fucking lied to me about everything

I am so upset and heartbroken again, I need to let her go after this but its so fucking hard. I love her so much... shes already fucking someone else

>>740204755
>tfw one of my best friend died earlier this year
>tfw birthday coming up reminds me i'm about to be older than him now
>tfw his steam profile still on my friends list to remind me every day

Thought she were in the same boat as me
We got drunk held hands and kissed
Tried to confront her about the situation
She was just nice to me all along

I lost the person I care about most, they really are the only one I can ever see myself being with. We were supposed to remain friends, but the friendship is really bad right now and they are extremely distance and we don't hang out anymore. I am not sure how to tear down this wall they built up. Seven years gone like that, guess I will just lay in bed tomorrow too as I have for the past two days. I don't feel like getting up.

>>740208971
no i meant that somewhat metaphorically but still fairly literally, im 22 and i work around 12 to 16 hours a day, the only time i really leave my house is when i have to pick up stuff for clients or drop stuff off for them, i'm self employed so outside of talking to my clients i don't really have a social life, i might be going to college to get a degree in finance but idk if i want to go, my x gf goes there and it hurts just thinking about her, still love her. i also make fairly decent money now so idk if i can or want to give that up, i might not be able to financial support myself while going to college.

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>>740210214
i'm sorry to hear about that :(
yeah love hurts, me and my x we're friends for a little while after our break up but then she started talking about some other guy and we ended up growing apart.

hope you're doing well anon, i wish you the best

>>740204755
Whose woods these are I think I know.
His house is in the village though;
He will not see me stopping here
To watch his woods fill up with snow.

My little horse must think it queer
To stop without a farmhouse near
Between the woods and frozen lake
The darkest evening of the year.

He gives his harness bells a shake
To ask if there is some mistake.
The only other sound’s the sweep
Of easy wind and downy flake.

The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep.

Just keep living and WW3, overpop, or cancer will get you. Enjoy this weird thing life is while you exist or don't, don't care.

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>>740212333
Thanks anon, I appreciate it

I don't know if I am doing well, but I guess I am surviving

That's all we can do sometimes ...

>>740204755
aya, met on vacation when we were 13 she lives in the town next door she's all I truly.cared about in life.... the world and all.of.life sucks and I give could give two shits about it and people's drama and proble.s at tbe end of the day all.i want is to find her and get married and have a kid or two and all of us die in a car accident or something and go to heaven or whatever

>>740208369
Well OP do you have much going for you? Job wise or kids?

ive been here for a while, rarely post.
Cant remember the last time i saw the sunrise, i used to watch it all the time.
Lets watch it together
where ever we all are.
where ever we all are

>>740210214
>740210214
Just saying Op... shit happens thats live. Think of it like a opporunity. Overcome and outdo her. She isn't going anywhere she's almost 30 and not married yet. That says something that she is fucking up in life A LOT. As fucked up as that sounds. You're only 23 you got a lot more you can do. OUTDO that and realize you're above that.

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None of this fucking matters. We are nothing and will become nothing

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>>740213267
Not OP, but we dated for 3 years, so she turned 32 today and I am 26.

Your point stands even more now though

>be me
>stupid, dipshit 6th grader with close group of friends but never as much as made solid eye contact with girl
>go to local high school football game with friends
>Start playing tackle football by the bleachers (we were probably really obnoxious)
>ball gets thrown over by bleachers, I run to get it
>Look up, cute redhead girl reaches down and hands me the football, smiles
>"Hi"
I remember this moment really well. I don't believe in love at first sight but this is the close

Cont?

>>740213492
Sorry. Yea man thats good to hear. Are you way above her in life now?

> Be me, 14 year old outsider completely fine dying alone
> Have eczema, guess that lets me have lube freely in my room, I guess ;)
> Can't sleep, get out of bed ay 5:30
> Think "Fuck it, /b/ isn't ALL porn"
> Find a rare pepe
> Find this thread
> Type this greentext

In all seriousness, life gets better but in my opinion, if I ever take my own life, I'd jump off a tall building. Instant death with no choking.

>>740204755
why you wanna do that?

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>>740204755

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>>740213120
cloudy af

>>740213640
I am a software engineer doing machine learning at a startup, she does well herself, but hit her professional ceiling already. We make about the same.

So i guess I am not above her, yet anyway. My ceiling is sky high and she has reached hers.

Yeh, I managed to snag a professional successful woman. Good for me .. except it wasn't meant to be

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>>740213120
I can't remember the last time I saw a sunrise. If you do it I'll do it faggot. It's not like I can sleep anyways. This alcohol helps tho.

>>740213786
Someone BAN THIS UNDERAGE FAGGOT!

>>740214482
That's really cool actually

>>740204755
carbon monoxide is a terrible way to go. some girl convinced a guy to kill himself by sitting in a car in a garage with the engine on and he said it hurt.

best way imo is to buy a canister of helium, get some surgical tubing, a mask, and just gas yourself with that. materials are pretty cheap on amazon

>>740204755
Wanna chat sometime, OP?

>>740213569
Ill continue anyway because I'm drunk and never shared this on /b/

>over next few years become close. Only real friend whos female
>she knows i like her and respects me. Im also definetly locked in the friend zone
>Take her to junior year prom. Kind of hit it off
>More discussions after, we go out for dinner some. See movies. People at school think were dating
>two weeks later she goes on a two week service trip at the beginning of summer
>Texts become less and less
>She comes back. She tells me she likes one of my best friends who was also on the trip
>They date for 3 years and i was too much of a cuck to tell them both theyre assholes

This happened 6 years ago. As gay as it is i still think about it from time to time

>>740210214
Man, fuck that bitch. That sucks but whatever. She's an objectively bad person, you didn't factor into her shittiness at all, you got no reason to feel bad about it. Move on, man, don't give that cunt the power of keeping you down.

>>740213086
im 22 so no kids but i do make decent money which is whats keeping me going tbh

>>740210676
My best friend died May 5th 2014 and I've felt these exact things. Every year I wish he could be growing like me. He did so much more with his life than I did.

The steam thing really hits home. I look at his profile all the time. We had videos of us as kids on his myspace and I tried to contact them about it but got no response and now they don't play anymore so I lost the only video footage I had of him. I think about the videos we took together on my phone and how I deleted them bc I had no idea he'd die. I wish I didn't do that.

I'm rambling but I feel exactly like you, man. You're not alone. Sometimes you can even convince yourself to live better for the person you lost, then again sometimes you're drunk and high like me at 1245 on a work night.

17, yet to have a girlfriend, pretty socially awkward, skinny as all hell. Girl that I've had a crush on for 3-4 years who I used to talk to now barely knows I exist. She's also in a 2/3 year relationship with one my now friends and it feels like I'm going no where in life. Pretty sure I'm just gonna end up being a disappointment.

I got my heart fucked in a long distance relationship at the perfect time to coincide with anxiety and fear from college to explode into the deepest depression ive ever fallen into. Logically, i know everything i can do and have my plans carried out in my head along with every conversation to fix my problems, but no drive whatsoever. I post to ask if any of you have taken antidepressants before and if they took the dread and fatigue out enough to do something dor yourself? My family loves me too much to become an hero so im stuck in this for a while.

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>>740209314
b is what reality is.
these are real people, just like you and i
therefore these faggots on this shitty website and the internet as a whole are what consist of society.

>>740212577
mask on, fuck it mask off

>>740216353
just find that one thing. it may be a hobby, a job, a dream. just find something to hold onto. you'll get out of it alive.

>>740209933
Double dubs of truth, I can see myself in the OPs place for the same reason, what's worse is that even after talking to people who supposedly care for me, they refuse any kind of help, be it emotional or letting me see a doctor. Just end my shit now I can't be bothered to keep crawling through life.

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>>740217895
it always seems the one thing i want is the one thing i can never have, feeling loved and cared for, all emotions that surround my life seem to be fake or artificial which i guess is fake

>>740217895
the people on 4chan are the first people i've talked to in at least 3 weeks that weren't co workers

>>740219554
what do you spend your money on? sounds like you have fairly disposable income which makes me less empathetic

>>740213405
Anon you ever heard of optimistic nihilism

>>740215634
Sir do not worry I have had worse than you, you can rest easy that someone was a bigger cuck.

no one gets out of this alive

>>740210214
Fuck that cunt man. Sorry to hear man. I hope you find the strength to do the best thing.

I can't help but hate the person she has become, but I had to destroy every photo, every conversation, every memory, even for a secon remembering who she was and what we had hurts more than what I could say with just words.

>>740219707
well it depends how much work i get, i usually make 3-5k a month sometimes less, sometimes more, ive gone months without any jobs so i usually need a decent bank roll to carry me over the bad months like im having right now, i usually spend it on bills and take out, i try to pay it forward so often times if i get fast food ill pay for the person behind me or if i really need to get out of the house and i have the time ill go set down at a restaurant and pay for some random peoples lunch or dinner, only if i can spare the cash of course, i usually eat one 2 times a month, when i hit a upswing again im thinking about joining an mma gym down the street from me.
oh and i buy a lot of alcohol, probably take at least 5 to 10 beers a night.

Cpap mask and tube, attach tube to a CO2 tank and you'll pass out after a little while and never wake up, completely painless

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>>740212333
Fuck you. Love shouldn't hurt. Love should be something that brings two people together. Who the fuck ever said that to begin with. Why touch something that's gonna fuck you up?

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>>740220894
>>740219707
i usually pay it forward just to be nice but deep down inside i foolish think that it will cause karma to make something nice happen to me

It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath the skin

>>740220990
does this work? I'm about to get a cpap tomorrow. I've been laboring over how I would kill myself and this seems like a good solution. Can I just buy a co2 tank?

>>740220894
As an alcoholic myself, you gotta cut that shit out. I'm back up to a fifth of whiskey a day and I know for a fact that I'm happier when I'm sober. I smoke a lot of weed too and I don't think that's good.

All in all, my point is that you really don't have it that bad. Sounds like you need to go outside more. Go to a club or something. Concerts are great, you can go by yourself and be in your own little heaven and there's also plenty of like minded people around to chat to if you want,

>>740221133
you know, it's a fair point. I think if there is some cosmic balance, it kind of has to be an economy doesn't it? Otherwise it's just like an abrahamic God.

I had a couple years of being deep into new age thinking before I started drinking again and tbh, I was much happier when I believed in shit like karma.

>>740204755
Massive dose of digoxin will kill you with eficiency

>>740208625
Theres nothing too spectacular outside your house anyway. Just more pain. Stay inside and let the animals tear eachother apart

>>740222249
I understand what you're saying but this is really autistic

>>740204755
Lather yourself in peanut butter, and lay down in a special ed classroom.

>Be me 24 yo 7 yr ago
>medical social service
>have fiancee
>fall in love with a local girl
>begin to date the girl
>social service ends
>had sex with the girl and say goodbye
>fiancee see conversations in phone
>anon alone
>date with girl
>cheat 18yo girl with a colleague
>ex fiancee reconnect with me
>dump 18yo girl and colleague
>every day miss my little girl
>She was young but she is smart, sexy, nympho latina
>fiancee becomes wife
>6 years later I realize that 18yo became a nurse student
>sex again
>she wants to come back
>told her I'm married
>She want to become my mistress
>over paranoid wife always vigilant
>dump the nurse
>still thinks about my nurse every fucking day
>really miss her so much
>regrets

>>740210214
Ouch.
Thats painful.
What happened when she saw u at the party?

>>740205526
>>740205883
>carbon monoxide
>c02

>>740205883
>>740206120
>buy a take of c02 and just fill my bathroom up with it
>it would be more painful
Because falling asleep is painful.

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>>740204755
Good journey bro. Sorry things didn't work out.

>I caused the woman I love to miscarry
>mask how fucked up I am over it by making fun of her
>"I dodged a bullet"
>she killed herself

>>740221630

that's not gonna work. breathing in CO2 is gonna cause a suffocating feeling. that's why helium is always recommended on here

>>740204755
I've killed my self seven times, it's not the nicest feeling but it's really nice afterwards. One of the times I hanged my self with piano wire from a great height so my head would be cut off, but before I jumped I glued my hands to my ears so it looked like I ripped my head off. Shit was cash

>>740228108
I did this once, but instead of piano wire I bleached my asshole

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>>740204755
Alice, I can't stop thinking about her, I love her more as each day passes

>Be friends with girl for 3 years now
>She's beautiful in every single way
>Share the same interests and hobbies
>She's so small and shy
>I love everything about her
>We spend every single day together
>Go on little dates every other day
>Last night we watched a movie together
>Notice her looking over at my every now and then
>She's blushing and smiling at me
>Finally catch her looking at me and tease her about it
>We eventually hold hands on the couch while watching
>She's leaning her head on my shoulder
>"Anon, you know you're my best friend right?"
>Happy as fuck leaning back against her
>Then she says it
>"You're like a brother to me"
>A bit worried as I lean away and ask her
>"So you'd never want to be with me romantically?"
>She starts fucking snickering loudly
>"Of course not, you're pretty much my brother"
>At this point she's laughing pretty hard as she talks
>"I could never ever see you like that"
>My heart completely fucking shatters
>At this point I'm holding back bawling my eyes out
>Movie ends and I pretend I have to shower and go to bed
>She leaves and I cry my eyes out in the bathroom for a solid 4 hours

I feel like a pussy crying my eyes out for so long, but holy fuck the way she said it and laughed at the thought of being with me in a relationship hurt so much, I don't know where to go from here to be honest, I feel like I need to be with her, she's like an addiction.

>>740204755
Remember that easy is different from painless

Slitting your wrist, stabbing your throat, biting your tongue off, I can go on and on

>>740229497
There is still openings at suicide camp, best summer of my life I spend there during my youth

>>740229497
The girl I knew and loved for 5 years recently told me I'm like a grandpa to her because I'm older, I'm 25 and she's 22

I got grandpazoned

>>740230114
My granddaughter told me the same

>>740213694
I'm 21 and i call BS

I hate who I am.
How do you cope with the inevitability of self, facing mortality head on, and realizing that your passions hold no merit in this life?
If my consciousness does leave my body when I pass on, I'm still not that special. Everyone else will have the same thing happen. Sure, you could argue I'm a unique specimen, but isn't everyone unique? Doesn't that also make us all the same? The same sad meat sacks that evolveds and fucked each other until we have arrived at today, with me asking these questions if life is so unfair doesn't that make it fair for everyone?
Or maybe the universe doesnt even bat its eye at us.

>>740206664
This. Someone you hate

>>740210214
Do you want to die OP? Because if you do you should kill her and then kill yourself

I heard about a guy who got drunk, left a suicide note in his car, drove to a bridge, and jumped into a river.

The thing that's weird is that they never found his body. Seems like it would float and end up on the side of the river eventually.

>>740213786
MODS UNDERAGED FAG DETECTED

>>740204755
Larry

>>740213023
Parallel lines, as well as all other lines, 'meet' in infinity. Also negative infinity.

>>740204755
Easiest way was to be on that Ohio Fireball ride last night.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cd8J7X3zHxY

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>killing yourself over a female

Quit setting up pedestals for every wet hole you get

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>>740218132
Anon, dont give up. Do something with your life like reading Nietzsche. Free your mind.
Same situation here. Nobody cares, im on myself right now, But I wont do shit to myself.... This point is exactly the point where YOU need to take action by yourself.

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>>740208369
I feel you /b/rother. Same with me. I also met this girl, but fucked up badly when I went on drunken "full-depression" Mode. But let me tell you something. You are here a little time, so do the best by it. Do self improvement as much as possible. You dont need anyone But you to be happy with yourself!

>>740215119
>Convinced to kill himself.
>Said it hurt.

what?

>>740204755

>killing yourself over a female

cheesus crust thats pathetic.

>>740204755
>easily way to kill myself?
Shot in head, but its not legal to own a gun here so hanging i would say. Poisoning is kinda risky.
>also general feels thread,
>whats her name /b/? story?
Her name is life and i am sick of her.

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Give me a ring 07795973929

>>740234313
That pic is the best advice I can give, I just stopped giving a fuck about the outcome and yea it's led to some mistakes, but I'll be damned if it hasn't been a fun ride so far.

>>740220294
someone's been watching kurzgesagt

I miss her, I miss her so much. She was the only one next to whom I would feel happy, I would regain my mental integrity next to her. Mental issues? Fuck that, she would make everything go away.

She also wanted me to go away.

I'm way too fucked up in the head to start building another relationship, so I'm stuck with dreams of her and happiness, memories and re-reading old conversations to make it seem real.

Now that i looked over this I realized I'm really pathetic

>>740205883
CO2 is not Carbon Monoxid

>>740204755
I wish I was a normie /b/
I know I'm a "bit" eccentric so shit is hard doing all what I'm doing right now.
I wish I was normal.

every single day feels like I'm falling deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit that I simply cannot get out of.

She was everything that could calm me down and make anything disappear. I miss her...

>>740206670
When did this site ever promote christian values lmao this site hates christians

>>740223658
>monoxide
>>c02

Same thought I had, people are retarded.

I wanna die so bad. Ive attempted twice about 3 years ago. I overdosed twice but the 2nd time I went into a coma and they put me on some thing that made me breathe.
I wanna hear some ideas about what you think would do the job for sure.

>>740240533
dont tell anyone about it next time

what do you do when your friends are ghosting you?
i don't even know if i did something wrong
fuck it, i'm gonna kill myself and haunt them as a ghost as revenge

i wanna fucking die. im being stalked, getting high everyday, life is fucking worth nothing. my days are blurring together. i just wanna die. i hate living. im so sad.

>>740241048
>im being stalked
youre already sad and suicidal so why dont you take the time to entertain anonymous faggots and tell us why or how youre being stalked

>>740241144
stalked by my ex. hes insane and makes accounts pretending to be other people and stalks his ex friends and shit. he lied about getting raped to all of us and a lot of other shit. its been 3 years. im so tired of him i want to kill myself

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>>740204755
easy? jump from a tall window.

well, where do i start...

i used to play the piano. the school had this event at the end of the year where we had to play something, like a little concert. i was super afraid of it because once i made a mistake and when i went back to sit near my parents they told me "you made a mistake and everyone else in the room was looking to us. you never studied your part, we're wasting money on this to be the joke of every other family".

i had to put aside the uni program to work with my father because "uni is for idiots, this is real work". well, now the company where my father used to worked isn't going to give me any more work since they just agreed to keep me because of my father who had strong contracts with many important customers.
i shouldn't had let me throw away my dreams, now my best shot is a 7$/h work, 24h per week, in a furniture mall.

shit.

>>740204755
They are only keeping me back. I should just dump them, not me.

Those are toxic people. I am the only master of my destiny and I live for myself.

She was so important. I destroyed myself for her and a promise was made this day : I would never live for anyone else but me.

It keeps me going over the pain. It keeps me going even if killing my self would be sweet. Pain is my engine.

I just want it to end for god damn it. I want to live in peace, quiet, without worrying. But they don't understand so fuck them. I will try to not end it.

Fuck everyone, for in the end, you'll always be alone in the grave.

>>740241375
yikes did you tell the police or anything?
surely there's something you can do besides killing yourself

>>740243028
its all online so i doubt theyll do shit. also he wants to get a restraining order against ME. i freaked out at him today and texted him saying he should kill himself and stuff so i look pretty bad. but im just so fucking sick of this guy and all my friends are too. hes legitimately the most insane person i have ever met.

>>740210214
>shes already fucking someone else

Ha, she was ALWAYS fucking someone else, you were the guy on the side that just lasted longer than she thought.

>>740229497
If you get friend zoned, friend zone their ass right back. If you're that close to a girl you can do it again with another. When you do tell the first girl you can't hang out any more because of the new girl and end all contact after that, after awhile she'll come around...or not....either way you will have gotten someone out of your life who was just using you.