Hello my /b/rothers, I'm a longtime lurker. I don't

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>>738647956
So for example:

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
The hope that I might feel happy eventually.
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
Often.. Drugs, various media and isolation.
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Sometimes.
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
Poorly.. by consuming ludicrous amounts of psychedelics and over-analyzing every facet of my existence.

>doing better than my mum motivates me to try and build up my own life. I'm starting uni in September. TBH I don't know what motivates me. All I know is that I wanna get out of this shit town I live in and be on my own.
>I wouldn't call it emptiness. I'd refer to it as hopelessness. Cope by sleeping a lot tbh.
>I tend to ignore it. I don't really care if I would die.

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>>738648177
bumping with random shit

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>>738648230
Thank you for sharing your perspective anon

>>738647956
maybe i should have made this a feels thread
but i dont have the content required

>>738648414
Why don't you start ? What's on your mind

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>>738647956
This is gonna sound edgy as fuck, but fuck it.
>To improve, get better, to stop being "good enough"
>Anger at myself for being "good enough" rather than actually good, at how much i stagnated with myself and at how much potential i've wasted.
>Yes, a lot
>it gets filled with more anger-more anger=more self-hate=more motivation
>Yes
>i couldn't care less, it makes me cherish what little time i have-and it pisses me off more how powerless i'd be if it was to happen
>tfw any motivation i have comes from finding a source of anger in all the things
>tfw i got pissed off at not being pissed off once

>>738648480
>>738648177
Already did, that was me :)
I have utterly lost all sense of direction and purpose in my life. Don't know what to do anymore. Just thought maybe some different perspectives would help me get my thoughts together

>>738647956
I live solely based on what I enjoy and gives me pleasure. Basically all my life choices boil down to either long term or short term will this be fun/make me happy etc.

I feel emptiness about once every 4-6 months or so, it lasts awhile, I usually try to cope with a lot of human interaction, and usually get over myself and feel normal within a week.

I believe in no greater power, the o my thing that bears significance to how I live or what I believe is myself, not a god

I really don't mind the fact that I could die. I always live in such a way that I don't really regret anything and even if I died typing this right now, I'd know I lived my life to the fullest that I could've up to this point, even though I'd like it to continue.

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>>738648643
Hahaha thank you very much for sharing this. Your perspective resonates a lot with how I used to think. This cheered me up a lil :)

>>738648767
Thanks for sharing. Your viewpoint I feel is very much like most peoples'.

>>738648700
Where do you live? Alone, parents or? And do you work? Have you felt like this for a while or is it recent?

>>738649236
CA, USA.
Alone but not far from family.
I recently quit my last job and am looking for a new profession. I was not happy and I feel the need to derive joy from what I do. Should have lined something else up first but I just couldn't take it anymore.
Always felt kinda apathetic but the older I get the worse it gets and I've started becoming more anxious and avoiding others.
I just want to not feel tired and empty all the time... without having to take drugs that zombify me. Hoping self motivation is the key

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>>738647956
>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
I know that I only have a short time on this earth and I want to experience as much as I can in that time. I want to meet all different kinds of people and get glimpses into the lives of others to further my own understanding.
>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
I used to, because I know there is no point to it all.. but then I realized that life is an answer, not a question. Life is intent, purely. It's a response to outside stimuli. I just like to experience and I don't really search for meaning anymore.
>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Not really.. the most fathomable thing I could concieve is that this is all a simulation ran by a much more advanced civilization, or that as I said before, life has intent. Everything is god. We are the universe experiencing itself etc.
>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
By living in the moment.. and talking to others. I do fear death, but I don't let that fear paralyze me.

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>>738649509
You know your life is fucked up when the things you used to absolutely LOVE no longer do anything at all for you anymore >.>

>>738649236
I live at my parents but my dad is never home. I have sex with my mom often and it just makes me feels worse. I never have had a gf nor work.

>>738649509
I know this sounds generic and gay, but have you tried finding a new hobby? Perhaps buy a dog that'll keep you company. Go outside and just go for a walk. You gotta wait for shit to happen/planning your future and try to find out what you enjoy RN. I hope this makes any sense!

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>>738649706
Thank you for sharing this, I feel enlightened :)

>>738649854
Also don't take your family for granted. Visit them and try tell them how you feel. You can always rely on your family anon

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>>738649828
lol cool, but not me. nice attempt at impersonation though

>>738650051
You understand sarcasm.....not autissimo

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>>738647956
>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
My family I guess... they are the only reason I haven't killed myself yet
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
I just live with it, it is how it is
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Well something did create the universe, but I think that that something has left us
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
I say bring it on

>>738649962
Happy to share my thoughts. :^)

>>738649854
No worries. Thanks for the reply.
I have tried. Nothing really feels good anymore if that makes sense. everything just kinda feels the same. pointless.
I have a dog though, he's great. maybe I should get more dogs

>>738650105
_-_

>>738650273
Lets have a sex babe <3

>>738649998
I am the eldest, and the black sheep... I'm there to be relied upon, not to be dependent
But even if i tried they wouldn't understand just tell me to suck it up and move on which i'm trying but its just so tiring pretending to give a shit all the time

>>738650161
You. I like you :D
I often feel the same.
Thanks for sharing.

>>738650370
What about therapy? You can always try. And if it doesn't work out you just stop, but it's worth the try anon. You have nothing to lose just lots to gain

>>738647956
>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
To aspire to be the best i can, to live a life of integrity and purpose.
>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
I do sometimes, i stop and think about what if there is nothing else, but just this life and that what we do doesn't really matter. I then get this weird sense of arrogance that at least I am doing what I think is right and that im striving to be a better person
>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?

I do, was raised a catholic but im not big into the institution itself. Sometimes i think what if there isn't, but more often than not i get this weird sensation that something is looking out for me.
>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?

Honestly never really use to think about it, but then i lost a close family member. For months then i would lay in bed at night and just have this sense of dread, about death and the finality of it. It has gotten better, but made me really cherish all those i hold dear.

I am a bit of a fan of stoicism, and like the work of Seneca and Marcus Aurelius, in terms of my own existence, its really helped me come to terms with death, the purpose of my life and my own being. I highly recommend it.

>>738650478
I hope I'm not coming off as cranky. I must admit I am frustrated though. Exasperated to be honest.

I tried that for about a year a year back but I was just put on meds that destroyed my ability to form cohesive thoughts and be fully aware and conscious.

I'd rather be miserable and in control of my faculties than a mindless drone.

Either way though I can't help but feel like an empty shell of what I SHOULD be.

Maybe it's worth trying again I just don't want to be put on more meds...

>>738647956

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?

New things to try, new things to buy, save money for other stuff, helping others there is a lot in life to do and you only have one chance even if you're feeling empty.

>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?

I do feel it, everyday. And I think most of us do but I drink a lot and that makes me feel better.

>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?

I'm definetly not a religious person but deep inside i do believe a little in a higher being, I mean we could be all a simulation and a retard is playing sims with us, if we die in the game we become a leftover data that may be reused in other stuff and part of our binary code with it.

>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?

Well, I do fear a violent and painful death like any person on earth.

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>>738650513
You're actually the second one to recommend those, I will have to read them tonight, thank you.

And thank you for your candor. Your perspective is refreshing :)

>>738650637
An empty shell of what YOU think you should be or what everyone around you expects you to be?

>>738647956
1: I live out of loyalty yo God, I want to spread the word of God by my actions.
2: Yeah, I feel very tired and pessimistic sometimes. I work to feel better, is good for me to do exercise, study, or write when I am feeling down.
3: Yeah, I am christian.
4: I am not afraid of death. That is like being afraid of darkness or water, it's something completely natural and being afraid of something that is inevitable is not good for anyone.
I hope that it helped you.

>>738647956
>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
Once in a while my actions align with the deepest demands of my soul and I am rewarded with a blissful feeling of "flow", where I cease to exist and there is only process and pleasure. I'm trying to find a way to make this feeling last all of the time. I have attained small bits of bliss, just looking for a way to increase and intensify that.

>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
Sometimes. It comes in waves, I usually cope by either smoking weed and meditating on death, or by letting the feeling hit me like a train, with no resistance.

>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
I never used to. Until I took mushrooms and felt a distinct connection with some entity that is eternal. I haven't been very afraid of death since, for some reason I know things will continue after death.

>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
Statistics. The universe follows laws of probability, and in all probability, given my personality and circumstances, I am not going to die a violent/horrible death.

>>738650648
Thank you for sharing. I know many who feel the same way. I think for me personally its hard though since i can never just be content - I always have to over analyze things to the point where it all becomes nonsensical and so just end up keeping to myself. i should work on breaking out of that cycle of self sabotage

>>738650889
Both

>>738650971
Thank you for sharing. Especially the last part, that really struck a chord with me.
Do you ever struggle with your faith? What makes you believe? Or would it be more accurate to call it hope?

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>>738650997
Thank you for sharing.
I feel as if I gleaned something very important from this.
Namaste

>>738650971
Gay. Why do "Christians" even come to /b/? Fuck off.

>>738650513
>Stoicism
Top tier philosophy there.
Socrates have an interesting perspective on death, but I bet you already gave it a look.

>>738651484
Might cut someone with that edge there anon.

>>738647956
>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
health, fun, myself
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
No not really? Idk that doesn't make sense I think my entire life has been this way, I think it's just a romantic way to be bored
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
if i don't know something i try not to even think about it. I was raised jehovah's witness to about age 5 but i had no faith my grandma said so until i was about 12 they tried catholocism. We went to church, prayed etc, but i never had faith and before i was 13 they just knew i was atheist or agnostic. That being said, I believe we may all be connected in some way.
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
I relish the fact that my body was made for that. I try my best not to live with fear, but a violent painful death is a much easier experience than some I have witnessed or lost friends to.

>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
I don't think about it
>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
No emptiness, I play Hanzo in Overwatch

>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Who cares?
>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
You should not be worried about what you can not control

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>>738647956

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?

I dont really know tbh, i guess the promise of a better future

>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?

Sometimes not very often, i watch some depressing movie to make me feel good about my position in life and go to sleep.

>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?

Nope

>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment

I try not to think about stuff like that, cuz if i do its a downwards spiral into paranoia

>>738651708
I... Don't quite know what to say. Can't really relate. Thank you for sharing though. Your responses were thought provoking to say the least. Gave me much to ponder

>>738651325
I struggle sometimes with my faith. It's not that I stop believing in God, is more like I want to give out and go the easy way.
I believe because I feel like God is there, I feel very sure God is real.
Calling it hope is a little simple, at least while you are alive. Being christian is not a way of evading all the bad things that life can give you, is just wanting to serve God while dealing with all the hardships of a nonbeliever. Going to Heaven is all nice and that, but sometimes I am a little afraid of existing forever.

>>738647956

>What do you live for? What motivates you?
Love, and Meaning. For myself and for the world.

>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
Yes, I find the ways in which I need to fill that emptiness with Love and Meaning.

>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Yes.

>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
I don't deal w/ it bc I don't focus on that at all. As long as I lived my life with Love and Meaning and spreading that, all was well.

btw, Truth is also important. The Love and Meaning needs to be True

>>738651866
Your responses were kinda taciturn and vague but you have made me consider playing overwatch. and you do have a good point with your last statement. Thanks for sharing

>>738651977
thanks, if you ask me though, these questions are kind of on the edge of something worth pondering, they lack substance.

>>738651479
Namaste my dude

>>738651989
Okay I can understand that
While we're on the subject, what do you think of non christians though - just out of curiosity

>>738652169
They're simply my own thoughts :)
not really meant to be thought provoking questions, though thatd be nice. just more like shit that keeps me up at night and I wanted to see what y'all think

>>738647956

Interesting thread. Thanks OP and respondents.

>>738651957
Yep
pretty much where i'm at rn
thanks for sharing

>>738652295
I think all that need a nonbeliever is to open it's heart to God. Some nonbelievers are good people, even better than I am or some people that are also religious. The same thing happens with believers, some are two faced backstabber but they think that asking forgiveness later is all that they need.

>>738652089
Are you religious? Buddhist possibly?
Thank you for sharing :)
I think I lack love and meaning. How do i find em when all traditional methods have failed

>>738652506
Glad you think so :)
It's 9am and i've been up all night thinking about this shit lol
i could probably do with a vacation..
dubs decides where I go :D

>>738652691

Nope. But I do believe in God the One type of thing. I believe that everything is God, including me and you. And that God Knows, Loves and Is Everything.

Honestly, your feelings guide you in the directions you need to go. And they don't always mean to guide you directly to what you want. They take you through a journey of discovery.

Later, when I've gathered some knowledge. I try to design ways to always have them in my life.

>>738653033
hmm ok, i see. thanks for the input :)
also, checked. care to choose my next vacation destination?

>>738647956
>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
Haven't lost all hope for the future yet, tho it got pretty bleak at times, also, life's getting better now, turns out nofapping actually works, and most people here are addicted to porn, which is the cause of many of your struggles, try nofapping anons, coming from a guy who fapped 3-5x a day, I'm on my 17th day and I can tell you that this shit truly works. I feel fresh, even found love.

>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
Yes, I just cry it out. I don't know why it happens, but I let all the negativity flow outwards by crying loudly, I just grab a pillow and stuff my face in it and cry it out. I guess we all have our ups and our downs.
>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
I used to, but I don't anymore, those kind of thoughts originate from ignorance, I recommend you anons reading this that you watch Neil de grasse Tyson's presentation on intelligent design, he explains it so simply that even the common man can understand it.
>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
It was an evolving process, at first I'd lay in bed terrified of the thought of nothingness, then I started looking around me and searching for things that could kill me, for example, a truck tire, I'd make a long turn around those. At one point an anon linked me to Eckhart tolle and through him I learned to accept it for what it is, and live free from that chain of thought, I live every day alongside the thought of death, if it happens, so be it, I savor every breath of mine, even the last.

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>>738647956

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
I'm gonna sound like a faggot but Love is what motivates me. Just the feeling of love and seeing others in love.
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
I watch movies until I sleep
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
Sometimes I'm fully unconvinced but my whole family is religious so I also don't doubt sometimes
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
Whatever happens, happens

>>738653264

I'm not good at that. But have you read the book the Alchemist? Maybe read that, it's super short. You can finish it in a day.

>>738651163
You really should, I used to over analyze anything in my life, you just need to stop giving a shit.
And OCD too, i used to lock and unlock my front door 3 times before bed because in my mind if i didn't do that I tought that one of my loved ones will die, or flicker the light switch for a while, one day i said that okay, this is just in my mind and I need to stop, but I've stopped with a fear that some of my loved ones might die because of me, after I saw that it wasn't the case that OCD just went away.

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>>738653344
Thank you for sharing anon, I found great value in your post :D

>>738653344
Oh. Also, checked. Pick my next vacation?

>>738653608
Sure, I'm from Portugal so if you wanna come over I can take you around Algarve, it's a famous tourism spot

>>738653363
You seem like a happy go lucky, devil may care kinda fellow
wish i was more like that. thanks for sharing

>>738653565
I'm glad to hear that =) I really am, I was on the edge of spiraling down, the anon that linked me to Eckhart really helped me out tremendously. I'm happy I could do the same to another fellow anon!

>>738647956
1. I live for another, not for myself. Her well being motivates me.

2. All the time, I have 0 friends. I talk to no one outside of work. I cope by reminding myself that everything is insignificant, life is shit just different colors.

3. I do, but not in the sense of a religious belief. More of a, there is a higher power but not god.

4. Go to theync, you'll see a ton of painful deaths, pain is temporary.. especially when your dead.

>>738653469
Thank you very much, definitely shall do :D

>>738653676
I will surely plan for my next trip to be there :D
Now to get motivated and find a new job so I can buy a plane ticket!
Hey anon! you got me off my ass! GJ and ty

>>738653469
The author is Paulo Coelho? That is shit.

>>738653804
^.^

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>>738647956

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
Honestly, in recent days I seem to spend more and more time chasing my past. Otherwise, I suppose I try to be the change I'd like to see, but find I am lost amid a torrent
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
I honestly spend too much time worrying about whether or not I have some awful disease.
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
I had a fair few years when I didn't, but my faith seems to have returned to me.
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
Better a spectacle than fading away.

>>738653942
Thanks for sharing, feel like i gained some slight insight from your words

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>>738647956
I'm not sure. I just work, play games and smoke weed. I guess that I hope that "one day" I might get my shit together and do something with my life. (But we all know that I won't)

I push it deep down and try to ignore it. When it fails, I hurt myself.

No. But I want to believe.

Acceptance. From a young age I had pretty severe anxiety about just dying at any time. When I first learned about the ozone layer and global warming I could not sleep for a week, so after around 5 years of constant fear I sort of just went "fuck it".

>>738654403
Interesting, thanks for sharing. Made me think

>>738654308
Your motivation is motivating me too :) I'll be waiting for you here, join my discord so we can keep in touch anon discorddotgg/MR7y6Cj

>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
nothing
>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
yeah
i dont
>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
no
>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
id prefer a quick painless death, but id feel comfortable knowing it would at least end

>>738654538
lol thanks for sharing. you made me chuckle. also, actually you reminded me of a friend that is gone now. i feel i have to say - if you're in pain, please, speak with those who care. I only mention this because you write a lot like she used to and she ended up being suicidal..
and now so am i kinda, soo yeah

>>738654593
haha glad to hear it!
ok, but how do I do that? never used discord before :o

>>738654666
Ok Satan thanks for sharing...
Also, I'd like my soul back, please..

>>738655089
Oh, you have to download it then you just smack that link on your browser and you're in

>>738655349
ohh ok cool thank you, i'll be sure to drop by and say hi sometime :D

>>>What do you live for? What motivates you?
i live to provide a future for my kids. to give them what i needed growing up. i live to try and make money to help my family. and save for my future
>>>Do you ever feel a crushing sense of emptiness? How do you cope?
sometimes i do. sometimes i find everything inherently meaningless. i cope by accepting the fact the life might be mediocre. but id rather live that kind of life than sulk about it and wither away for the rest of my life. and when i play this "game" the rewards for hard work feel great and it doesnt really matter that other people have extravagant lives with millions of dollars. cuz theres millions of others out there who are below myself too. i was lucky to be born into this world in a place where i can think freely.
>>>Do you believe in a greater being/higher power?
yes i do. and i honestly think a fulfilling life is not possible without believing in something greater than oneself. it takes humility to exist peacefully in your mind.
>>>How do you deal with the gnawing realization that you could die a horribly painful, violent death at any moment?
shit happens. when my time comes it comes and i know it will be a beautiful experience. it will feel like it did before i was born.
death could come at any moment. its not something to be afraid of. we need to accept things even if we dont like or understand it sometimes. and when we do, were freed to start living. take risks, do dangerous things. the end will come either way, at least have fun and try and make something of yourself.

>>738649123
Probably the gun since it doesn't need a second opinion to determine it's accuracy.

>>738656068
thanks for sharing your thoughts, i found them oddly soothing :)

>>738647956
>>738656727
I want Civ back

>>738647956
I live because I can't end my life whilst my parents are still alive. Don't really have a motivation other than to be left alone and watch films or read a book with weedz don't need much money.
Yep, you get used to it.
I think there is a very small chance of there being one but don't/can't rule it out because I'm just some guy.
Just get on with it I suppose.
Also whatever the fuck