Feels thread. Get in here my fellow pathetic, substance abusing,

im 15, i was in a party. got a lil bit drunk. made out all night with this one girl i was texting for half a month. we kept on texting. she tells me that it was a mistake and she likes me but as a friend. feelsbadman (i dnt know how to greentext, im a newfag)

>>738169079
Come on you broken fucks, tell me why you're spending a Friday browsing this shit

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>>738169079
I keep telling myself that my depression is part of maturing but it has been going on for three years now and I don't see it going away anytime soon. Things feel very unreal and I just can't bring myself to be grateful to be alive. I hope the day will come when I look back on this and think of it as silly. I'm tired of feeling like this over and over again

>>738169079
I'm actually feeling pretty good, just picked up a gram and bought some really dope bean bag to throw in my room.

>>738169659
You a b& fag

>If you don't care for this girl as a friend and are still chasing that night
>Don't contact

>>738169079
Yesterday i was happy because a nice girl was flirting with me heavy
Today im not happy because i took her out, and i didnt kiss her.
We had alot of fun together, but im afraid she'll get the impression i just want to be friends with her, get bored, and leave.
Besides her i dont have anything bringing me down..

>>738169710
How old are you? I felt the exact same way, but sorry to tell you - I'm 10 years in now. Help seems like it wouldn't be a rational choice, but for a lot of people it is.

>>738169775
Gram of what mang? Good choice on the bean bag

>>738170226
Thats a shame to hear. 20, I told myself I will resort to help the moment I consider ending it, which is not a realistic choice as of now. How are you doing in life? What keeps you going?

>>738170114
Your first date with said girl? Have you been with many before?

>>738170291
Of some Blue Dream my man. Gonna be a great day to relax.

>>738170676
Ending it is always that choice you keep to convince yourself you have control, but it takes a certain type of desperation or crazy to end it. Gotta see if you fit the mould before you try the shoe.

Besides losing the girlfriend, it's not so bad. I left a comfortable and high paying job to chase juvenile dreams. But I'm making it work. You can always adapt, even to feeling like waking up is the worst part of your day

almost 19 years old
want to leave the army due to the depression and suffering it causes me yet im too afraid of the reactions from my family.
cant wear these uniform any more, im losing my mind and ill kill myself eventually.
i have no idea what to do anymore, i just want to run away from the depression and anxity, dont know if it will stop after i leave the army but i still suffer so much right now

i just waste my days getting secretly drunk and sleeping in the noon till the middle of the night and repeat that with the suffering i don't know who i am anymore

why cant it stop

>>738170828
Smoke up, /b/ro. I'm 3 months without smoking and would gladly suck your fingers for some THC. Enjoy the peace

I was just flipped upside down by the girl I've had it bad for since I was 11. After years of being together -23 now- she told me last week that she is trans and she hates when I touch her, and because of how she knew I would take issue with her being trans she hated it when I touched her. For a few months I knew something was up but instead of bailing I tried to fix shit, came up with things to connect us. One of those things was a notebook, a place where she could tell me how she feels without having to worry about saying them to me directly, well I thought the notebook was set down and left alone but turns out she wrote in it for months, and all it was when I read it was things like her wanting me gone, her hating the things I do, her internet friends fucking quotes on how much of a piece of shit I am, the note on her being trans and then finally at the end her telling me to get my shit and go. And making sure I knew I couldn't have the dog, really fucking making sure I got that point.

Bitch looked me in the eye and told me she loved me for months, already having written all that shit. Honestly that part gets me more than anything. More than driving myself crazy with assumptions and countering those by telling myself I was imagining her distance. Even more than having been so blindsided into leaving the place I've lived longer than anywhere else ever in my life.

In it's way though it's a relief I suppose. I've built myself around her, attempted to dull myself, convinced myself that someone so fundamentally different from me could be what I needed to complete myself.

Either way. Life goes on, and I might be sleeping in my car for now but I was raised to survive. Building back up is nothing.

>>738169079
My wife killed herself a year and 2 months ago. I'm miserable.

>>738171203
Why did you join? And why do you fear your families reaction? I'm assuming parents, probably dad?

>>738171339
On the off chance you're not bullshitting, you'll be grand. You were prepared to try and fix the relationship between the two of you, she burned the bridge. Bitch can burn right along with it.

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>>738171611
Here's that final note
>pic related

>>738169079
Hey brother- same thing happened to be like 8 months ago. I worked on improving myself a lot, and we just started talking again. Enjoy the pain, it lets you know that you're alive and capable of making thigs better. good luck

>>738171187
Interesting, I hope you find someone to love again someday. It's always strange how you can still live a normal life when mentally you're dealing with all this. I guess it usually surfaces when your mind isn't occupied by something else or when it amplifies any kind of sadness/setback you encounter

My girlfriend of 2 and a half years went on spring break came back and dumped me out of nowhere. Before she left things were fine and I saw no signs of a breakup comming. She spent the break with her grandparents in El Salvador (where her grandparents live) so i don't think she met somone else.
I live in a college town that empties out over the summer. I've tried to branch out and make new friends but nobody is here. I'm not about to go out by myself just kinda seems even more sad to me. I have severe insomnia and my anxiety that causes insomnia has gotten worse so my insomnia itself has gotten worse.
I feel like nobody honestly cares wether I live or die. I know people but they all suck.
I'm in school and I make all A's but my parents help pay for my stuff because my anxiety and insomnia will not let me hold a job and school at the same time.
I hate myself for it and I wish i could do more but if I try I get stresse and it makes my anxiety and insomnia worse. I live in a constant state of uncomfortableness. I often contemplate suicide. I'll never do it because i'm to much of a pussy but I feel like things would be better if O just stopped existing.
I can't get over my ex. She was funny beautiful outgoing etc etc and I will never find somebody else like her. I think she left me because I study to much for school and that I don't have a job and my parents still help me out. As soon as she got a job and was going to school though she started failing her classes which makes me think she is a giant hypocrite and makes me angry. I can't rationalize the break up and it eats away at me. It keeps me up at night. I often wonder how much longer I can go on.

>>738171512
That's fucked man. Was she diagnosed with anything? Are there any kids in the mix? How have you made it this far?

>>738171512
Damn... Why?

>>738169659
>>738169659
>im 15, i was in a party. got a lil bit drunk. made out all night with this one girl i was texting for half a month. we kept on texting. she tells me that it was a mistake and she likes me but as a friend. feelsbadman (i dnt know how to greentext, im a newfag)
Her i greentext it for ya

Gtfo underage

>>738171339
You're the first poor cunt I've seen that's a sacrificial lamb to the 21st century. You seem straight enough to realise that this shit is insane though, right? Her shit, I mean.

She did you a favour man, find you and progress

>be a neet piece of shit
>pretty intelligent
>struggle to do activities outside due 2 low self esteem and anxiety
>depression
>virgin
>dont really give a fuck about you or me

i still push my self to do things i try to stay positive all the time but life keeps fucken me over

we'll all make it one day /b/ros i promise

>>738171339
My man. Seriously.
Fuck
That
Bitch.
You in georgia?
I'll hang with you if you want and are close by

>>738171901
It's your life my man. Your quality of life should not depend on others as much. And the breakup is bad, but millions of people think they will never find anyone like that again and still do afterwards, thats just how you think at this point in time

>>738171923
>>738172108
She was kinda crazy and abused as a child. I've got a stepson, but he's 22, I'm an oldfag, and lives Ohio.
I've gotten this far thanks to drugs ( Xanax, coke, molly, acid) and the fact that I can't do an hero without making sure my pets are taken care of.

I love my husband more than anything in the universe but he can be so selfish at times. He has depression and anxiety and I do too but I'm forever taking care of the both of us, regularly asking how he is and helping lift his mood yet he doesn't do that for me at all so I end up in a big ball of emotion.

I spent 2 hours crying in bed last night and when I started he just rolled over and ignored it. This was after a conversation of me asking him if he was okay and then telling him I'm not okay.

He's told me in the past he doesn't know what to do when I'm like this and I've told him again and again how to handle it, which is basically holding me and telling me everything is going to be fine, like I do constantly with him. But every few months when I falter under the pressure of basically mothering him and trying to keep myself from suicidal thoughts, etc, he does this.

I know /b/ is the last place to offload this. You're all shitcunts but you're the only people I know that might come close to understanding.

Leaving him is never an option, I just can't.

>>738172504
Hey anon. I'm close to GA. SC, but near Augusta.

>>738171795
Bingo, mi amigo. I'm pretty sure there's always someone else. The adapting thing is always interesting to me, it's like we're using past instincts and utencils to deal with our bullshit present issues.

You should still go find help though, man. I hear positive things from most people who have

>>738172654
what are you some type of a faggot? if so hang your self

>>738172221
oh yeah, I get the shit is crazy, I'm all for people doing what they want, hormones surgery whatever. But I take deep issue with a society that preaches those things to the youth like they are a solve all. Sometimes you have to work at liking yourself, it's not always easy and some magic man with drugs and a fucking knife cant do it for you.

>>738169079

It is so fucking hot here today.

>>738172599
My life is controlled by things out of my control. My insomnia scares me because I had an episode where it got so bad I had to stop taking several classes because I couldn't function. That was due to me living next door to a nigger who mever stopped partying but it fucked me up bad and now I'm scared I'm gonna ruin my life again if it gets bad another time.
The breakup has honestly eaten me alive. It came out of nowhere and we always talked about marriage.. she never even gave me the real reason we broke up. She mentioned alot of small things, many of which were hypocritical and none of it makes sense to me. I used to have a confidence level of 12/10 before the insomnia and my ex leaving me I'm at a fucking 2/10 now and I doubt it will ever get better.
I've never felt so absolutely betrayed in my life. I just. I just can't keep this up.

>>738172654
I totally understand. Depression and anxiety are so personal that helping someone out of them is almost impossible. One just ends up feeling so helpless because they can't do anything to make the person they care about feel better.

>>738172849
I'm the wife, you fucktard.

>>738172716
I'd still hang with you bro, not tonight but we could def get together some time. I play alot of video games if you are into that sort of thing
I'm this poster by the way
>>738171901

>>738173049
you didnt state that you fucken slut, all you said is you have a husband. And you still state that your the wife, which can still mean your a man. Fuck you and your pussy ass husband you depressed skank

>>738172452
We won't, /b/ro.

Those who strive, will probably find some comfort. The rest of us will be posting in these threads for a while yet.

You sound like you need direction though, you should try learning something from scratch. Like a martial art, language, teaching. Any shit that involves people. No matter how antisocial you feel, I promise it'll help to socialise.

>>738171764
What a fucking bitch. I mean, for all I know, you wrote that shit out and posted it for lulz, but again, if you're being honest, then fuck that crazy bitch with a cactus coated in capsaicin extract.

>>738171764
I'm so angry dude.
I'm so angry for you.

>>738173070
I used to play a lot of vidya before my wife's death sucked all the oxygen out of any enjoyment in life I had.
I'm this anon:
>>738172637
>>738171512

>>738172654
I guess you can't solve eachothers problems but have to find it in yourself instead. And just be as understanding as possible, I'm sure you know the way you feel makes you act differently than you would like to towards others.

Also tits for the feels guys?

>>738172637
Any dependant is good enough. What's your daily routine like, drug wise? Are you in regular contact with the stepson?

>>738173410
You have a PS4 man?

>>738173172
Fuck off faggot

>>738173351
I've stopped myself from raging by thinking of all the shit I can do now. like vegetables man, she basically only at peas and carrots, and honestly if ibwere anymore petty I would go vegetarian for a while out of spite.

>>738173567
Yep.

>>738173172
Mate, take your lame-ass attempt at trying to make me feel worse and jam it up the urethra of your pathetic, tiny cock.

>>738172654
Listen to me. Carefully. Leaving is an option. It is. Speaking as a crazy fuck myself (depression/anxiety/rage issues), I can honestly say that if I was laying next to my girl and she starts bawling, and I just rolled over and ignored it, I would be saddened if she didn't dump me then and there. And that's coming from a fucking ass burger no less. Dump his sorry ass, find yourself someone who'll treat you as you treat others. Life's too fucking short, and you deserve it. We all do.

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I feel great right now. Ever since I have been taking 3 grams of kratom in the morning it feels like my brain is finally functioning on the happy level. My apathetic outlook towards everything is less grim and find myself enjoying little things more and more instead of being annoyed or uninterested. 3 days I have taken kratom and since day 1 i feel as if im improving 100% everyday and proggress is the only thing happening. I just feels real good right now!

>>738173211
thanks man, i guess we all need some type of direction. life shit i cant find no fucken job cuz the job market sucks where i live and its even shittier when you're broke. Don;t have money, and my grades were pretty shit when i was in highschool so fuck college.

I hope everything goes your way man i really do, always keep a positive outlook on life even tho life is fucken shit.

>>738173172
well better post your cock now faggot. she's calling you out. Don't forget the stamp bitch.

>>738172881
I get you man, but the best defence against that shit is just living with common sense. Once people feel like they're being impeached upon they'll just go further into retardland to make a point. Fucked up times. Glad you're out of the front row

>>738173811
you would like that wouldn't you u queer

>>738173640
Mate, go super vagitarian and fuck any female you can. You'll feel better for it. Plus women love a sad, "broken" man. It's in our nature to comfort.

>>738173664
you and your husband should try taking drugs together, like LSD or weed not like heroin or coke maybe you'll guys connect a slight bit its always worth trying new things unless you guys do it already

I don't even know why I wake up in the morning. I have no prospects of getting a gf, I have no passions/skills/talents I can turn into a career. The only reason I can muster is the chance that something good might happen. Thats is why I live for small bursts of happiness in between the doldrums of cynical acceptance and the crushing sadness that comes with realizing what I'll never have or be

>>738173519
I take xanx almost every day. Molly if I'm off or after work if I'm not working early the next day and I have it (kek, none of the guys I know can keep up the supply up with my demand). I usually do some coke with the molly, cause the 2 together are the antideppresant of the gods. And, acid whenever it is around. I have a halfway decent job, so I can afford to stay drugged up.

>>738173877
OOOOOOOOOOOOO SOMEONE'S INSECURE ABOUT HIS TINY DICK OOOOOOOOOO

>>738173655
Ypu got battlefield4?

>>738173885
your great anon, never change.

I was completely cucked by the woman of my dreams, who I sincerely believed was my soulmate and who I'd settle down and have kids with, then everything started to change and I began to know her less and less
Now I'm alone and paranoid as I believe others are taunting me as they take turns fucking her since I'm too weak of a man they defend her
Now I'm never going to see her again and losing the potential of a family with her is incurably soulcrushing
But it's all my fault, she's going to have children without me and I'm going to sit alone in misery for the rest of my life

>>738173655
Sorry i ment battlefield 1

>>738173215
I just really don't want this to be true, if I'm being honest with myself.

>>738173805
It's shit because of the lack of direction, we literally have no givenreason to be alive for the first time ever.

I appreciate the words /b/ro, I'll keep trying.

Have any artistic shit you're into? If not, is there any way for you to find the scratch to get together a monthly sub for whatever course interest you?

>>738174070
No. But, I can always buy it. Last game I bought was infinite warfare. Kinda a disappointment. Especially cause no man's sky sucked so hard.

>>738174028
im not haha idk y u wanna see my cock so bad man

>>738174312
Anon, just admit you've got a micropeen. It's obvious to everyone.

>>738174312
I only commented initially, the rest is other anons. Your the cunt afraid of looking like a bitch boi.

>>738174269
Yeah man i'm staying away from call of duty for a while I figured it would suck.
Idk man I'd feel kinda bad if you dropped money on it.
Do you have elder scrolls online?
Or do you like to play zombies?
I have all the zombie maps for black ops 3

>>738174228
yeah im sort of into animation im working on a show (progess is pretty slow due to laziness) thats the only thing im looking forward to im gonna try to release it within the next week or so.

>>738174430
>>738174396
if this is your ways to coming out the closet boys im proud of u, u guys are almost there.

>>738174484
drop us that channel link broski. I promise to only call you a nigger once. Unless I'm drinking.

>>738174430
Sure, mate, sure.....

>>738174312
POST YOUR DICK
POST YOUR DICK
POST YOUR DICK
POST YOUR DICK

>>738169079
my girlfriend of 2 years had a three way with my best friends yesterday

>>738173495
I would timestamp tits, but the cunt in this thread doesn't deserve to see them.

>>738174574
I was planning to release it on /b to see what you guys think about it. theres nothing on the yt channel rn but ill give it out if u guys want to wait till like next week till i drop it.

as i said progress is a little slow, theres not even a trailer out but im like 65% done

Femanon brighten our troubled day with tits and timestamp please

>>738169079
I may need to get a colostomy. I think I'd rather die.

>>738174697
what. the. fuck. Where are the motivated keyboard warriors when I actually have something to get them raging on.

Cunt, ruining it for everyone.

>>738174475
I'm not worried about money. I'll probably spend a lot more on drugs this weekend than the cost of one game.

>>738174484
Hell yeah, give a link. I can't do shit like that so I'm easily impressed, I'm just putting that out there.

>>738174818
Why do you need that?

>>738174804
drop it, I'll sub at least, always down to check a bros work out.

>>738174697
There is always some cunt, don't let him ruin it for the others

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This video should help

>>738173998
All acts as an antidepresant, but what fixes it? Are you deep enough in any that you can't cease usage without severe enough withdrawals to fuck up your daily life?

Anyone want pics of my ex? she's 14

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>>738174952
what he said

>>738174847
Fair enough man.
I've been playing battlefield 1 a good bit lately it's up to you if you wanna get it though.
My screen name is A_Hidden_Cheese

>>738174931
>>738174904
channel/UC_PGn4owJJdMV2aVpsXmv_w

No promises bros but ill try extremely hard to get it out asap

>>738174566
At least if I was gay, I would be gay with a penis that falls into the normal range, not a medical college curiousity of pathological abnormality.

>>738175085
screen capped to get to later, on mobile at the moment

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>>738175021
Please don't derail the nice thing we got going on here

>>738175207

no worries man you'll see me back here in a week so promoting this shit ahaha

>>738174993
I keep switching around, so I might go a month or so doing acid everyday, but no coke or molly. Lately I've been really enjoying the molly and haven't done any acid. The Xanax withdrawls kinda suck, but that's mostly insomnia. I don't really notice any issues with stopping coke.
It's more like I'm addicted to drugs without a specific drug. I'm just not happy with reality.

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Eh. I don't really have much to complain about compared to most. Just mostly worrying about my future and trying to get my mental health sorted. Having a gf and going to the local MMA gym help me take my mind off of things, but sometimes I wish I'd gone down a different career path (studying law, wishing I'd gone down the medical route).

Ah well. Just gonna keep putting one foot in front of the other and trying to find happiness. Good luck anons.

>>738175021
No

Y'know something? I started browsing /b/ because I was depressed as shit, was going to start a sad music thread. I feel a lot better now. Thanks guys, you're one of the few things I can count on these days.

>>738175021
Kik me sjt76565

>>738175070
Cool. I'm gange0440. I probably won't get on today, I've got errands to run (and things to buy).

>>738175480
I can't add.. add me instead FBI.gov

>>738174952
Hubs just woke up next to me (it's 9am here), so I'll have to take it later or when he gets up to pee. If this thread 404s, I'll stuff them in the next feels thread. Forward warning, they ain't anything special and if small tits are your preference, well they won't satisfy your tastes.

dont know how to greentext cuz newfag but here u go:
>be me 15 years old
>barely has any friends and the ones i have hate me
>start talking to 10/10 girl in my friend group
>talk for a week and i find out she likes me and i tell her i like her too
>we get together
>best time of my life, cant even feel my depression
>fast forward a week and she tells me she and her friends have started getting threats from some dude
> i ask why
>turns out they ripped the guy of off aprox 2000$ of weed
>things escalate
>5 days later we are hanging out after school
>she says that we should take a break because of the dude thats threatening them
>says she doesnt want me to get dragged into her shit
>i understand so i accept it since she said that they where paying the dude back and hopefully they stop fighting
>1 day later she says she doesnt want to get back together after they stop fighting
>fuck me..
>depression gets worse and as a result my OCD does too
>fast forward 4 months
>they are still fighting with the dude they owed money, im on anti-depressants but they dont work for shit, my friend situation has come to the point where all my friends except one are ignoring me, im pretty much over the girl but i still like her

>>738175758
Mate, greentext on point. You've got that going for ya.

>>738169079
The girl I'm dating told me today that she met and fucked a guy 3 times during a 12 hour period. I actually saw a future with that girl because we clicked right away, but I guess I don't anymore. She was also the first date I ever had in my life. We had like 4 dates before she told me. Trust no thots

>>738175547
Gotcha man i'll send you a request

>>738175941
trust no thottie love no thotties bro

>>738172452
>pretty intelligent

why do people do this?