Hey /b/ pharma/med students, would these kill me with enough

>>738056781
>with enough alcohol
enough alcohol by itself will kill you
so, yes

A shotgun comes with 100% guarantee

>>738057015
/thread

>>738056781
I'm more interested to see someone take that many tablets

Before you do anything, do DMT. If you ave nothing to loose, why not? Trust me, you'll come out as a new person.

Tylenol od is literally the worst way to die. Pills in general is a bad way to go. I'm a paramedic and I've seen every kind of attempt. Gun to the head I've seen work 1 of maybe 9 times I've seen it. I've never seen pills work, tho I have seen them cause people to go on dialysis permanently. Don't use pills.

Femanon or fag detected. Men prefer hanging

>>738056781
Willing to talk about it?

I know you are most likely a troll, but you never know.

>>738057227
REAL men prefer a gun, faggot.

>>738057207
>Gun to the head I've seen work 1 of maybe 9 times
How do you even fuck that up

Yes high dose of xanax in combination with alcohol will kill you. But it could also be that you vomit it out. If that's the case you can survive and might get brain damage or even worse. A better alternative would be a firearm or a high building (please don't use trains).

Same paramedic again. Hanging ain't bad. I've seen that work. Honestly if it were me I'd do a bunch of heroin. You get high then drift off to sleep....then stop breathing but you don't know it. As long as you're in a place where no one finds you within and hour you'll fo sho be dead. Just make sure you use enough heroin to die. Otherwise you've got your problems plus being an addict.

With the caveat that if you've got access to those pills you're talking about you've got access to care and more money than most of the planet so you should man up and live it day by day like we all do.

>>738057172
My nigga. Still tryna get my hands on some. got some lucy comin in the mail tho :D

>>738057172
Doubt it.

>>73805678<Oh look, this thread again. How about you just shot yourself.

>>738057525
Through the mouth causes a lot of bleeding but as long as you don't hit spine perfectly you'll be aight. Intubation and a maybe surgery. Plus gunshots bring help. The skull is crazy resilient. My first shooting was an execution style point blank at a diagonal angle. Bullet followed the bone around his head and embedded in the OTHER side of the skull. A few other attempts I've seen hit brain...but didn't kill em. Lower function is a bitch. You may have made yourself retarded by taking out the front of your brain. But you'll live.

>>738057894
Sir, what do you do for a living?

>>738057963
Paramedic.

>>738057380
REAL men preffer dying by shooting a school or a crowded area.

>>738056781
Yeah, that'll kill you. Good way to go. I hear you just fall asleep and never wake up.

>>738057172
it'll change your mindset for a few days or maybe months but if you're truly depressed it'll just cycle itself back into your life

OP here, no gun, no real way to get hard drugs asap. Can go through darknet markets but I was hoping what I've got could be enough. No car and no license and to get to the nearest place that sells guns is a few miles away, and I said I was willing to kill myself, not excercise.

>>738057380
I want to suffer at least a little while I die you fucking faggot, it's the least I deserve. Couple sites gave death by gunshot pretty fucking quick time till death

Tried cutting myself but I cant shove it in as far as ut needs to go, because reflexes. I just have a torn up arm

>>738059667
dont be a pussy at least put some effort into it. If you dug hard enough i bet you can get heroin to use instead

>>738057562
Is there any way i can reduce the chance of vomitting anon?

Just eat 10mg of Xanax and boof a bottle of cheap vodka. You'll pass out and die in a warm, happy place.

>>738060587
^^^
Have a few bars. Prolly 2 or 3. Boof before you blackout tho

>>738056781
If you dont die you will feel soooo bad

>>738060587
I want to believe

I tried googling the fuck out of the mld of xanax+alcohol but nothing, couldnt even find reports of successes with that though

>>738060111
chances are you'll kill your liver and kidneys and have a nice large hospital bill to show for it once you're released. welcome to kidney dialysis and a spot on the liver transplant registry while you remain sick as a dog and too weak to attempt suicide again in the meanwhile! is you mum still around to clean your bum after you take a shit?

>>738057015
Technically it's somewhere between 99% and 100%. You can still fuck it up, it's just incredibly unlikely

>>738058123
You sir are a badass.

>>738061116
No relatives, theyll dump my vegetative ass on the street, I die of starvation without even realizing it. Fuckin win win.

>>738057894
Do you by chance work in Phoenix?

12 Tylenol is a lethal dose

>>738060587
This is retarded advice. I've done more than 60mg of klonopin within 24 hours with alcohol and while I was out of it for days and slept alot and rage texted about nonsense there was no lasting damage. Certainly 10mg won't do shit. Neither will 30. To kill yourself with benzodiazepines takes literally 1000mg. Benzodiazepine death is associated with acute withdrawal symptoms including seizures. It's the same risk as acute alcohol withdrawal

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>>738060437
Stick them up your ass. I'm not sure if you can plug xanax but the ass is a valid route of administration for alcohol.

Plug the pills and then buttchug a fifth.

>>738061791
lol that girl is literally me when exams came

>>738061566
Nah. Bigger city. One of the busiest ambulances in the us. Most suicide attempts go wrong. Even more start then change their mind and call us. Spend a week in a psych ward rinse and repeat. Cutting doesn't work because you won't have the balls to watch yourself bleed out. Or the balls to take the pain to go deep enough for that matter. Killing yourself is hard work guys n gals. Ps don't be a paramedic. Not worth it.

>>738062071
Tits?

>>738062295
you want pic? i have nice tits kek

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>>738061509
nah, the hospital will be obliged to keep you inpatient and eventually transition you to a rehab unit. there, Bob will be responsible for cleaning you up and keeping you alive. they'll even keep that central port site in your chest clean for continued dialysis!

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Fuck it dont care i want to die take them anyway

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Going to drink the whole case in case i guess, empty stomach

>>738062566
Paramedic here- then after you're stable you'll be eligible for Medicaid. So they'll discharge you to a care facility. Itl be you, thirty old people, 4 mentally handicapped 30 year olds. But since you've just got Medicaid itl be a shit hole where the techs SOMETIMES clean you, are rude, curse at you and juuuusssst do their job well enough to prevent you from killing yourself. It's a date far worse than death. And completely real. Widespread even. Relatedly if you don't have retirement plans I recommend you all start researching IRAs and index funds (assuming youre under 30)

dont forget the stream you bitch

Keep us updated.

>>738062930
Paramedic- you've got fucking chips ahoy right there! Just eat some of them instead.

>>738062930
You really should get some liquor. The sheer volume of beer that you need to drink is going to make it hard for you to get drunk enough

>>738062930
Paramedic. Bud, this isn't going to work and it won't make your life any better. Take a nap, wake up, make some massive changes. Mug a guy fly as far as you can. Or be productive and get a weird new job. You don't need to be happy to be awesome. Get your shit done and worry about happy later.

>>738062930
you should blow all your remaining money on hookers and cocain and then do it

>>738063184
Also, to add to this, I really think you should be putting this stuff up your ass to avoid vomitting it. There are also some teas or otc meds that will prevent vomitting that you should use if you intend to take it orally.

Don't be impulsive. Plan this out carefully because fucking it up is worse than not doing it.

Cant attach video files here, right? Anyway to video me drinking them? I can take a picture mid gulp but i mean...

Send me the last of your money through PayPal

>>738063570
>>>738063184

>Don't be impulsive. Plan this out carefully because fucking it up is worse than not doing it.
This

>>738062938
exactly. if you're going to suicide, drugs are the WORST way to do it in terms of success and future medical care. high chance of failure. high chance of protracted hospitalization.

don't kill yourself dude life isn't that bad.

>>738063039
in tears laughing. also in tears because im going to kill myself, but the fucking contrast made that funny as shot, thanks anon

>>738063490
sorry, I'm a poorfag

>>738063883
well if you have things to lose you see. For example those fucking chips. I havent even tasted one, since we dont have those in my country. What do they taste like?

>>738063595
You're going to sleep for three days and wake up in a puddle of your own bodily fluids. Be patient and methodical if you intend to kill yourself. We've told you that this will probably fail if you don't take the proper precautions.

At least hop in a hot bath after you take everything. You might pass out and drown even if the pills and booze don't get you.

>>738064010
nah man the poorest amerifag is richer than half of the world

>>738063034
gonna see if anybody recommends an easy way (read: zero effort) way to put a video of me chugging it on here. Gonna give it like 10 min and if not you faggots get stills

>>738056781
The xanny's and the booze should do it if u are not tolerent to them.
Don't fucking bother with the tylenol liver failure is a shit way to go.
Not sure about the cymbalta.

>>738064296
give us some stream
on twtich or something?

>>738056781
Why do you want to die, anon?

>>738056781
>1400mg of cymbalta
More than enough to kill yourself. Drugs are one of the worst ways to go though.

>>738064296
If you record a video then you need to convert it to either webm or gif format (webm is best) and keep the filesize under whatever the limit is these days.

I don't know what freeware is good for that but there is plenty of free software to do it

>>738063241
Thanks for trying, sincerely. But Im done. If i can make some aick fucks at least get some enjoyment out of this, all the better. Dyong a beta kissless poorfag was what was going to happen anyway, may as well speed it up before I become a wizard in a decade.

>>738064586
Never used twitch let alone stream. Also, all I have is an android phone, can you even stream with one?

>>738056781
If you make a new facebook account, you could stream it. That would ensure that none of your friends or family saw it.

Ummm, if you want to kill yourself with pills the best way is to use painkillers.

In fact, doctors prescribe painkillers to terminally ill people for that reason. It's not legal, but they give them a wink, wink, if the pain becomes too much to handle they can just take the bottle with alcohol.

You need some strong ass painkillers and alcohol and you will die. It's supposed to be painless, you essentially just black out and the painkillers depress your nervous system so much you stop breathing.

>>738064097
like slightly sweetened compacted sand tbh

>>738056781
Please don't be baiting

>>738057015
No it doesn't. Treated a kid in residency that failed. Put shotgun in his mouth, couldn't quite reach trigger so just ended up blowing off left side of his face from just below the eye to his jaw. When he realized he lived, he put gun to his chest. Again could quite reach, so glanced off his ribs and took off left chest musculature, broke some ribs. Woke from this, realized how much pain he was in and called 911. We saved him and he's married with kids now.

>>738065069
>>738065166
this is the best

>>738065166
no friends or relatives but no fb either, will go make one brb

>>738056924
enough of everything by itself will kill you, that's not an argument

Don't do it man, you can change. Youll need to find a new place to start fresh.

>>738064844
If you're going to do it I can't stop you. I hope you find peace one way or another.

If you're going to do it(still think you shouldn't)

You should leave a note offering the medics some chips ahoy. They won't eat em cuz it's sketchy but they'll talk about the suicide patient who gave em cookies for years. And you'll get to doze off laughing about that at least ;-)

>>738064203
Dude i off the record love in a room i rent from an eastern european family themselves renting an apartment (a shitty one at that). I earn SIGNIFICANTLY less than the global average, under the table cause nobody else would hire me, under the min wage.

>>738065875
Good idea

>>738065875
Are you the paramedic in this thread btw? Is there anything else I can do for you guys to make it less traumatic? Fuck I'll even order a pizza if it'll make it marginally better for ya'll. Last thing I wanna do is fuck up somebody else.

>>738066209
paramedic. yeah that was me. sorry forgot to tag. and not really. If you have family coming home straight up dont do it. the worst part of our jobs is talking to familes about death. even if you guys arent on good terms they will be going crazy.

dead people smell really bad, you cant do anything about that, more advice standby....

why not pack your shit and go out deep in the forest? At least you'll be away from all your worries, and nobody can find you. with any luck you'll find some magic mushrooms. Also the stars are amazing.

>>738066209
If you really wanted to be courteous...the medics will have to get certain info to report to the medical examiner. your name, SSN, what medical problems you have, what medications you take, try and figure out what you took this time, what and how much, and a contact for a family member. If you wrote all that out it would save someone some work but really its their job. theyl be alright...the worst part is the smell and you cant fix that.

>>738067101
well if he made a timed call or something like that they could find him sonnenough after his death so he would not smell that bad

Alright fuck this facebook shit i got hlfway through making. new god damn email and reloze i dont care. Gonna write my ssn, leave the pill boxes taped above mw, thanka for tje advice. If you carw, hope i dont wake up.

>>738064844
Im proud of you op, hope your death is painful.

>>738067497
paramedic- good luck anon. rooting against you here. ;-). I'm gonna remember this for a long long time.

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for whatevers sake

>>738065524
The fuck.
Hows he married with half a face ?

>>738067666
i feel sorry for you
but this was your decision

>>738067666
nice trips

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too much and too disgusting for one gulp, god it tastes fucking awful

>>738067666
You got trip 6 op enjoy hell

>>738067666

DO DMT FIRST FAGGOT

>>738065524
Damm son.
I remember reading about a guy who tried to an hero with a double barrle shotgun and a lot of whiskey.
Blew his face off eye's included but was still awake and alive. Had to feel his way to the shed in back to reload.
Finished the job though.

>>738067667
because having half a face isnt as bad as your autism when it comes to finding a woman to love you.

>>738067667
i guess he was really confident

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Holy fuck the other anon wasnt jokig about this many being hard to swallow, heres all thats left. beer isnt taking the flvor off

>>738068086

lost

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>>738067893
shit man.
RIP

>>738068345
No shit their is a reason their pills and not chewables.

>>738068345
You might puke soon

>>738068345
u didnt drink shit did u faggot

now go jump off a bridge or something to guarantee you die, see you down the road buddy i hope your suicide attempt works out for you

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last one

>>738067893
If you change your mind 911 is a call away. -paramedic. Otherwise document your journey. thoughts, symptoms. were here.

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>>738068456
what follows that?

Can you send me your last moneys?

Stop and contribute rest of your life to science.

can i habe cash too

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>>738068667
fuck outta here you shekel snatchin jewfag

time to chug 2 cases, wish me luck anon

>>738065524
Wow he's really married now ? Must have been an eye opener for him.

>>738062938

One reason that I couldn't kick the chair. A life worse than death.

>>738068606
if unconscious he might die to it alone. Otherwise he might survive

>>738068764
godspeed anon hope it ends well for you either way

>>738068345
Hurry up faggot or u wont even die

>>738068086
Kek

>>738068774
Kek

>>738068574
Ill see you when I get there anon. God speed

>>738068888
Damn nice quads.

he ded???

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see ya in the afterlife anon

im surprised how im not scared at all. wrote my ssn, taped some instructions next to the wall im sitting by, taped the med boxes to them.

i used to get so freaked out about death. now im crying but some part of that crying is genuine happiness

greentext your life shit op. nothing to loose.

>>738069090
Enjoy after life anon.

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>>738069037
if he ded we'll never know I guess

>>738069090
You look like a nice guy anon , sad that the world made your pain this hard to bare. God speed.

>>738069031
Thx anon

gonna turn on some standup for the rest on my phone near me, cya guys. got nothing deep to say. goodbye

>>738057172
^^ this.

>>738068345

better chug that down fast

>>738069293
Good luck

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Cowards way out, don't do it anon. Die like a fucking man, die fighting, don't let this life get the better of you, you're better than this.

>>738068574

I feel so or for you bro, not because you're trying to die but because you're not sure it's gunna work.

Do it once do it right man.

Please keep us updated as long as you can, whether you live or not I hope it doesn't hurt.

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>>738069293
rest well /b/rother

>>738069293
I hope the other side is nice for you.
I'll miss you!

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>>738069293
godspeed my friend

>>738069293
goodbye anon
I hope you get the final happiness

with 30mg of xanax i doubt youd need more than few beers to kill yourself. massive overkill op

>>738065292

This happens more than people think. Opiates, benzos, and a bottle of whatever.

>>738069293

Go gentle bro

>>738056781
use a fucking exit bag you fucking pathetic filth..
stop sending yourselves to hospital with liver failure trying to "kill yourself" and making me work overtime.

fuck. you.

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>>738057015
Nope.

>>738069577
Preacher though kek

>>738069293
Bye anon! We will miss you.

>>738057207

Generally hear that impact damage from a fall is best option. 40'+ . Any opinions? Second round of cancer reportin in here.

>>738069577
Sharpie in mouth

>>738069563
well, you're not helping

>>738069293

Any reason besides "life sucks" for doing this?

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>>738069090
>>738069293
there's a bright side to life, and wonderfull thing can happen

sad that they will have to happen without you,

forefit and it all ends with nothing but sorrow and darkness for the ppl who tried to be there for you

>>738069293
Take it easy

>>738069705
A little late for that. P sure he already kms'd

Really messy way to try and kill yourself. You know our bodies evolved a mechanism to prevent this shit? Should of just used a rope

dude u are in the land of guns, why the fuck dont u buy a .44 and shoot 2 cm up your left ear

>>738069836
>should of
You should kys too

The Tylenol alone will cause you permanent kidney failure. OP likely to throw it all up.

>>738069652
>>738069705

Not the guy you're responding to, but I'm >>738069620

Any advice, anon?

>>738069334
give us name of the kid so we can tell him why he shouldnt follow you into a suicidal lifestyle?

>>738069293
Godspeed and goodbye, Anon. You're an hero to us now and forever. May you find eternal peace in the afterlife.

Doctor here. The only drug among the ones you listed that can kill you is tylenol. But even if you ingest like 10 g of tylenol you likely won't die, and with 20-30 g you will likely have an acute liver failure, go to the hospital, and likely survive (a miserable life).

Benzodiazepines and antidepressants (the other drugs you listed) are actually very safe drugs for obvious reasons, ie people who use these drugs are at a high suicide risk.

The lethal dose of xanax is at least 15 GRAMS, not milligrams, so no, 30 mg of xanax are not going to do anything to you except maybe making you puke.

See you soon anon.

>>738069090
Anon please vocaroo Your last words

>>738065069
yeah you can stream on facebook

>>738070175
Still the same guy, also want to point out that the safest and most painless way to kill yourself is to overdose with insuline or opiates.

>>738069090

Welp, I don't know what you're going through anon. I'm the cancerfag. However thingsturn out, I hope it works out for you. Best of luck.

>>738070175
>>738070281
What a helpful doctor

>>738056781

Just throwing this out there - how available is fentonyl on the darkwebs? And how reliable. Just interested.

>>738070281
how would death by valium (diazapam) work out

>>738070381
One last thing: in psychiatry we differentiate between what are called "attempted suicide", where a person doesn't want to die but want to draw attention to himself, and "failed suicides", where someone really wants to die, and it's usually very easy to understand which one happened.
99% of people using drugs (like OP, obviously) fall in the first group.

If you really want to die there are millions of very easy ways, taking a bunch of random pills with a couple of 33 cl beers is not among them

OP are you still here?

I want you to live, bro. Make yourself throw up.

Call 1-800-Suicide

stick a vacuum hose up your ass

>>738069577

This guy. Right, goes around saying how he's glad he survived. Spearhead, whatever. Unknown to the general public, there are many who have survived. They are a lot worse than this guy. Some in a vegetative state, until next of kin or the state decides to pull the plug. No. They are not grateful to be alive. They are in hell that they failed. I don't know what the fucking answer is.

>>738070757
You would need about a thousand pills anon, diazepam is another benzodiazepine, just like xanax (alprazolam). It just wouldn't work.

>>738056781
Throw them up call an ambulance and sort your life out. Don't hurt the ones you love things will get better. The only way from the bottom is up

>>738071101
As i said, it's very unlikely that a drug prescribed to treat suicidal tendencies can be used to suicide. Doctors are not stupid, in general

>>738070914
And also mostly women choose these ways to attempt suicide. They have higher amounts of attempted suicides but way fewer that actually end with death. Men choose more fatal ways to end themselves.

>>738069577
he fucked up by using a magic shotgun that blew his mouth into an anus.

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>>738062930

>going to kill self with pills and booze
>12 pack of Corona

fucking kek

>>738070757
Valium works by decreasing the overal activity of your nervous system. The more active it is, the more stressed you feel. The less active it is, the calmer you feel. An overdosis of valium would inhibit activity to such an extent that maintaining the required level for being conscious becomes impossible. Normally you'd just sleep this off, however, if it's a deathly overdose, the respiratory system no longer receives (enough) input from the responsible parts of your nervous system (largely found in your brain stem) and you will stop breating entirely. Eventually the loss of oxygenated blood will cause cell damage in the brain and organ failure, leading to death.

>>738070914

Any help then? I lost most of my guts to cancer two years ago. It turned up on my liver a month ago.

The gig is fucked. I'm not symptomatic so far - not lacking oxygen or blood sugar - but as sure as fuck I have no intention of going through that level of debilitation once more.

Even were I to do so - I appreciate that the introns are running on empty and even if, by some ridiculous chance, I get sufficient chunks carved off me that I get temporary remediation, what then? It's only going to come back. The ship is sailed and I'm fucked.

So - I wouldn't ask if you recommend either of these - because I know you can't. But which would you say is less likely to fail - impact damage, hanging, or some unknown third option?

>>738071101
fuck it, then it's potassium chloride needle shot

my heart will stop in seconds, atleast it won't hurt anymore

>>738071525
Where do you live? In my country (Belgium), people in a terminal stage are eligible for euthanasia, with everything paid for by the state.
Sometimes foreigners can choose to do it here too, but it will be more expensive.

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do not do it.... life is awesome and when you do not imagine than a change can come it will come... things will get better and alll will be alright...

Despite that if you are still interested in commiting suicide this may be useful to you.

>>738071916
I think he's already gone.

>>738071783

UK. No euthanasia here. I have at least enough cash to get across to Switzerland, where it's legal. Likely to be more expensive than a whack of rope, but it's not like there are pockets in a shroud.

>>738071525
that's a rough break, dude. Don't blame you at all for not wanting to waste away like that.

>>738071774
A heart that stops beating is incredibly painful, and you won't lose consciousness for at the very least 15 seconds.

>>738071455
Yea, you just have to take a thousand pills to make it happen.

>>738071525
I always think the best suggestion in every situation is to live, for yourself and for people that care about you, even if you are sick and it's just one day more, unless you have a neuromuscular disease or you are in vegetative state.

Also, i wrote up a list of drugs and so on but as a doctor i don't feel confortable sharing it, i'm sorry. I'm sure these infos are vastly available on the internet.

>>738072254
Doctor here - when your heart stops beating, you lose conciousness after a couple seconds.

>>738071525
train works basicly every time
the only time it doesn't is when people chicken out and run before the impact has done it's job
>you'll fuck up the driver though

hanging also works, if you tie your hands and break your neck chances you survive are slimer than a toothpick, just as long as there is noone to fond you in an interval of 1-2 hrs after you hot the swing

>>738072052

I don't have problems at the moment, but when I was going through the gut cancer I was basically spazzed out for the best part of a year. Likelihood is it'll come to us all; best way to address it is by not being so precious about trying to preserve a life that's ran its course.

Cheers anon, your words are appreciated.

>>738065166
How broken are you that you want to see another person take their own life? What's the turn on?

Shit this is sad, life can be hard but takng the quick route out is not fair on yourself or your family. Life has it's moments when you feel the pressure of the world squeezing down on your chest but everything happens for a reason, whether good or bad and it's out of your control, the only thing you can do is be patient and seek guidance - what seems like hell today will be a distant memory in the not to far future. I hope anyone who is contemplating suicide gets help first, whether professional or just talking to a friend/family or even a religious institution.

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>>738072419
It seems interesting.

>>738072373
Ok, maybe I should have said around 15 seconds. It will be pure agony though.

>>738056781

Don't be a dumb fuck. Those pills may fuck up your liver and make you good and sick, but they won't kill you.

>>738072254
you know what I meant by that
atleast there is no way my body stops me from dying like vomiting or idk

I could also make homemade cyanide, although if I fuck up it will just fuck me body and leave me alive and in even more pain

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>>738068574
bye

>>738072419
Could be from a chronic deprevation from meaningful relationships, witnessing a person's death is very intensely intimate.

>>738056781
you'll just fuck up your liver.
you will live, and regret doing it; trust me on that.

you will experience the most torturous pain ever, but you will live.

>>738072553
Yeah I guess. I still have empathy, seing OP chug them pills made me sad :<

>>738072664
>dab2.jpg
>mfw theres more than 1 dab.jpg

>>738072389
U have to be a massive assfuckinghole to an hero by train though.
All the people held up for hours and the people who have to clean up the mess that is your body.

>>738072605
cyanide is even worse though, it fucks with the metabolism of your mitochondria and takes quite a bit longer, all while feeling like you're choking even though you are frantically breating.

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Good bye bro... Here take this with you. It's not safe to travel alone. We'll all see you on the other side.

>>738072786
there are 7 dab.jpg's
also 12 figetspinner.tga's

>>738072572
anyway I avoid the pain, strong analgetics maybe?
if not the pure agony will come once I've injected whole shit inside myself, meaning it won't stop me from dying, like it did with cutting

>>738072664
cya

>>738072278

No problem. I have time to research.

>>738072389

Yeah, I thought of train. I also know a few train drivers. Hearing some of them talking about when they turned cows/sheep into menchi put me off the idea of making their lives more shitty.

Hanging or impact I suspect. Ah well, can always get messed up before either.

I'm gonna hang about this thread for a bit, but I'm going to also stop talking about self-term as this is kind of a downer. However, if anyone's interested in knowing what cancer does do to you I'm happy to share.In the interests of making informed decisions and so forth.

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>>738072786
I have 282 pepe

Is OP still here?

>>738056781
Do you really want to do this?

>>738072484

And if you have no family? Talking from experience here.

>>738072940
Not sure I understand what you're saying there, but it's late so it might be me.
The pain will only start after your heart stops and at that point there is nothing you can do to stop it.

>>738072855
whatever kills me bro
as far as I know op is pujing his guts out and will be browsing /b/ in a month or so lying in a bed with no liver nor kidney

>>738073038
If he's not baiting he has already chugged them all.

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>>738056781
use weed too or something similar that makes you not want to vomit some meds for anti-vomiting for a cancer patient going throuhg chemo or something so the poison can stay in you or you will just puke it out and stay in the hospital

>>738073090
>whatever kills me bro
there's bad ways to die and really bad ways to die
taking cyanide is a really bad way to die, during those last minutes you'll be thinking you should've listened to that faggot on /b/

>>738072999
shit bro, for the past month I've been cleaning this old dusty attic
only last week have I been told it has azbestos roof

I also fiddled with chloroform in past and probably will in future


give me some heads up what's cancer like
not saying I'll 100% get it but you never know

Hey nigger uses a kcl ampula loaded in an injection syringe in your vein is 100% sure you die

>>738073465
Expose to azbestos is dangerous as we all know but it was mainly the factory workers and other people that came into contact with it daily for years that lost their life to it. In your worst case scenario you might still have 25 years.

>>738073088
you understood finely
now is there any way I don't feel that pain? I'd like 15 secs of bliss before I pass out, not excruciating chest rape

>>738056781
lol he ain't gonna die his life is just gonna be more miserable than before

>>738073465

OK, fuck it. We're all anons here. Here goes. This might be a bumpy ride so apologies to anyone else ITT for blogposting/shitposting.

It started a couple of years ago. Found myself short of breath when physically exerting myself. Thought it was just post-xmas lethargy that had got to me, but it gradually got worse. Eventually I went to the doctors to try and find out what the score was.

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Good luck OP.

Here's a song for you to go out on.

spotify:track:7M0fsXo6rpXOKkveYooBob

>>738073677
eyyy, that's good news for the azbestos part
not sure about chloroform part

RIP OP since we can't convince you to not do it I can only wish that you find peace

God speed

>>738073804
Heroin, I guess, but I have no experience with it and it's really a last resort.

It will also depress activity of the respiratory system of your brain stem and you will die from hypoxia while passed out, or by choking on vomit.

>>738073281
fine fine
it's kcl then

>>738073849

Anyway, my iron level (which should be in the range of 120-140 for a male my age) was about 50. Which at least explained the breathlessness. They stuck me on a bloodfeed and in a couple of days spotted some big nastiness in my guts. Large intestine generally goes up, across, down. Ends at the rectum. My brother from the same mother hit the 'corner' at the across/down bit. So they put me on chemo to try and shrink/reduce it before surgery was considered.

>>738062930
At least lay down face up, blocking mouth if possible. Then if you throw up you'll most likely choke or not be able to get it out anyway

>>738057702
You can make DMT yourself you know. It's easier than making meth + the ingridients is 1000% easier to come by

>>738074131
could morphine work aswell?
I just need something to surpass the pain, kcl is enough to kill me

>>738074211

12 doses of chemo after, and I'm continually feeling like utter shit. Takes me a couple of rests to climb a ten foot staircase. Can't really think of anything much except putting one foot in front of the other - brother c sucks down all your blood sugar and makes you pretty damn stupid.

Eventually it takes me about 15 minutes and four rest stops to walk the 400 metres or so into work. After I get there I pass out through lack of oxygen and blood sugars. Then, it was decided they'd cut it out of me.

>>738074211
cont pls

>>738074438
heroin gets converted to morphine inside your body so it would be about the same. Again I'd like to say that you should give any possible therapy to get better a shot before you do something irreversible like this. Many have been in your situation and are now forever grateful they didn't go through with it.

>>738074331
Have a how-to on hand?

>>738074654
there's plenty of information to be found on the internet, even multiple step by step guides on youtube, believe it or not.

There's also always the deep markets, it's not even close to being expensive.

>>738064808
It's been cucked down to 2MB or 4MB I believe

>>738074606

Surgery was interesting - loads of opiates/opioids. The comedown afterwards less so. There was about two weeks, as far as I can tell, of my perceptions being all over the place. I totally believed ridiculous things; all I could do is draw on the times I'd been wonky on acid and remind myself, it was just the chems talking. It does wear after a few days though anon, believe me.

hey OP i hope you don't survive this because it's going to suck really bad when you do live tru this so

GODSPEED

Suicide doesn't stop the pain it only passes it on

Hey medic (if you're still here), how many successful ODs have you seen via heroin? This is my preferred method and am considering trying soon. I stopped using about 7 years ago so I have no tolerance but I am sick of life.

Would you say heroin OD is one of the more reliable ways to die?

I'd probably go with the heroin too if I were truly at that point. At least you'd be calm and high. However I've seen what suicide can due to people close to the person and if nothing else I realized it's just selfish of them to take the easy way out.

>>738074845
>wonky
I love that word

>>738074885
If by calm and high you mean squirming around, making funny noises and trying to get the vomit out of your trachea. An overdosis is not like a normal high. It also would render all your organs useless for transplantation.

My ex gave me herpes left me and I have thought about suicide you can't be in a worse situation cmon bro no reason to kill yourself

>>738074845

Fuckloads of pain after recovering from abdominal surgery happened afterwards. I can't really describe to you the amount of pain you get. Basically, when it blots out your consciousness and eclipses out all rational thought, that's some pretty extreme neural screaming.

This misses out some of the more gross nastiness. Drain pipes coming out of your guts are unpleasant and very visceral. I also had to have more implanted later and saw a litre of dead leukocytes drained off me. I was in hospital three months, and it was not particularly fun.

>>738074629
thanks for the advice bro, it'll take like 6 months or so until I make homemade morphine

I tried getting help but everyone thinks I'm just acting up, that I just turn spotlight to myself
if actually did that I'd already do what op did, end up without a liver a give my family a fuccton of medical bills since my petty pay could't pay for shit

OP here. i trolled all you bitch ass faggots

i didn't swallow that shit. i like being alive. now i;m drinkiing these tasty coronas :)

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>>738075075
anon, I'm sorry to say this but...OP is in a hospital going REEEEEEEEE

>>738069090
You may want to dedicate your body to science,if you can get it out written in time, might go through and help some people or research

>>738075194
prove it
show ass then we'll know

>>738075194
Sure, op here too, i'm jaking off while I drink my last beer.

>>738069293
rip

>>738075160

After getting out it's taken me ages to reassemble something approaching a normal life. Shitting, after losing almost all of your large intestine (as well as most of your small intestine) isn't fun. I'm told that at 4" of gut I'm at about the limit of what's survivable (115CM seems to be the lower end). Acid shits aren't pleasant.

Epilogue approaches.

>>738075172
If your depression progresses than at a certain point you will no longer care about what all these people think. That's when you need to remember what I say right here and give professional therapy one last chance. If it won't help then I won't blame you, but you don't want to go out with a last thought about how you wished you had tried one last time

>>738062930
Mixing with fucking beer? Wtf. Honestly get a bottle of liquor, if you are on your way out get a good one. Then the person that finds you can have a decent drink.

>>738075422

I recently got told by the hospital that it's come back and is trying to ruin my chemical factory. Given what I've been through (and I've told you the barest sketches of it) and that I have no family, do any of you have the temerity to suggest that I should stick this out and hope for the best?

Sometimes, it's OK to know that the gig is fucked and that it's time to move on.

Bye

>>738068086
fukken rekt

>>738074968

Thx anon.

>>738075629
I think no one here is going to shame a person in the terminal phase for losing hope.

I genuinely hope you find a place where you can have a dignified end of life.

>>738073002
Dump pls

>>738057172
He doesn't need nn-DMT, he needs 5-MeO-DMT. DMT is the spirit, he needs to feel the power of 5-MeO-DMT. Go get that or Bufo Alvarius, if you want to kill yourself it is easy to set yourself for one last task. You will be healed.

>>738075440
idk anon
I fucking trusted this people yet they think this is some fucking joke and I'm trying to prank 'em

while I was still in school I made a many a visit to school psychiatrists
all they did is told me I should REALLY talk to my loved ones about this shit

I don't expect much more from proper psychiatrist

>>738076067
not all psychiatrists are retards who don't care

I may not sound like it, primarily because it's 2 AM and I'm tired as shit, but I'm well on my way to becoming one myself, and I won't give up on people like you

Also, in a school you're not exactly going to find the psychiatrists who were at the top of their class

>>738075911

Thanks anon. I haven't lot hope, but I'm being realistic about how things may yet turn out.

Mr. C ain't symptomatic as yet, and I'm waiting to see what the score is. If it turns out I've got the same ahead as last time, I'll an hero and do so with no regrets.

It's the "dky" plastics that don't yet understand how bad the fleshprison can trap you that really annoy me. It gets pretty bad, and there's sometimes it's better to just cut your losses is all.

>>738075629
fuck bro, it musts be fucking harsh
since no family I asume there really is noone to support you through this shit?

I find it reasonable for you wanting to kys, I wish you good luck in finding some least painful way to go, fuck knows you've had enough of pain already

Skydiving from a high building sounds the most fun to me

>>738075194
Timestamp or fake faggot

>>738075629

i think you should fight more.
although i would understand if you didnt.

>>738076308
this one had a fucking phd
I dunno which retard gave you that but fuck, I guess it's easier than I thought
I wish you luck in helping fucks like me, but you can't help autistic anons that are sick of their lives and have no ability whatsoever to change it

>>738076322

I've been without family for years, so it's not something I miss any longer. Being honest, I don't like the idea of someone trying to support me through this that much - from last time, all it seemed to do is force someone to confront their own mortality.

Thanks for your kind words (on /b/ of all places!) - they are much appreciated. Be reassured, I'm going to address things before they become a problem; impacting as few people as I am able.

>>738076384
them janitors will sure have fun moping your brain from floor

>>738075629
I lost my sister to breast cancer semi-recently At least, it started out in that particular locale... By the end of it, she was more cancer than not.

Having seen what that does to a person, I don't know if I'd have the strength to go through it. But I'll tell you this: the world will be dimmer for your passing... dimmer yet if you snuff out that candle yourself.

Don't go.

>>738076692
Actually proper support and intensive therapy with a qualified and empathic professional do wonders

Stay strong anon, not everyone is a cunt

>>738070914
What about methodically recording the dose taken and increasing it each attempt in order to find how much of whatever it'd take to kill you? What would you classify that as?

>>738057172
I vote for this. Try some things OP what do you have to lose

>>738077272
stupidity

I think

>>738076312

Age? What did you do for work?

>>738077141
your words make me feel hope-ish again
but then again is almost 2:30 and I'll forget most of this by tomorrow

>FUCC

>>738077029

The world will not be dimmer. Anything I have contributed to the world is out there. II can hope that some of the code I've shot out will inspire other people; if not I won't be around to know.

I'll face this thing as best as I am able, but I realise there also has to be a plan B. For when things turn to shit (because, things regularly turn to shit). Does this make sense? Hope for the best but be prepared for the worst.

>>738057603
>With the caveat that if you've got access to those pills you're talking about you've got access to care and more money than most of the planet so you should man up and live it day by day like we all do.

gives me a new perspective on my life.

yet im still miserable.

>>738077516

Mid-40s. Developer.

Might be a job vacancy at my gaff going soon ;-)

>>738077141
>Actually proper support and intensive therapy with a qualified and empathic professional do wonders
>tfw I have access to all of this, but I'd rather be dead than happy, because I haven't NOT been depressed since I can remember, so I can't possibly imagine that leading an average life to be remotely worth the mountain of effort it'd take me to get there from where I am now
I am Sisyphus, only when the ball gets about half way up the hill, I just fucking stop pushing and say "I was never going to make it anyways" and eventually just stop pushing at all.

>>738077554
It does. As I said, I don't think I'd have the strength, even to the point of refusing chemo, etc... I would not condemn you--but the thought still makes me sad.

You don't have to be producing some sort of legacy to be a light in someone's life, you know. Sitting here breathing, you offer hope. Anything else you have done will not surpass that gift.

Just keep your options open, hey?

>>738057172
For severe depression I strongly recommend a heavy dose of psilocybin. 6 months ago I took 1/4oz (dry) cubensis magic mushrooms, had the most profound trip of my entire life and haven't felt depressed since and I've just been getting on with my life. That was after 25 years of lingering depression and at times almost catatonic despair. Try it you have nothing to lose.

>>738077694

You make sad bro. Not judging...did you smoke, drink, use drugs, bad diet, no exercise? Cancer run in family.

>>738060111
pics of arm w/ timestamp? Also, the human body is incredibly resilient so if someone wants to be an hero they have to try pretty hard. I hear suicide bags are a thing.

>>738078071
Killing yourself is not a good way to go out do you want people to remember you as someone who could not take it anymore or someone who lived there lives as best they could

>>738078200

You have a point anon. Believe me, I won't perform an irrevocable action until that's the only viable alternative.

I'm not a fatalist; I'm having as much fun as I can with the time allotted to me. Although, I know that if my liver starts sprouting weirdness there's not a lot of options available to me. Just have to deal with it.

Don't be sad. What is a better form of man's self-determination and free-will than deciding the moment that they die?