Feels thread. I'm hardly even intoxicated and I miss my

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Bump. Post depressing shit guys. I know you're out there.

>>737650169
Is that House?

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>>737650468
Sure is

>>737649819
sometimes i feel so powerless and angry because i still miss him fuck

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>>737649819
I'm feeling pretty shitty myself, lots of things to think about and being alone doesn't help...

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Anyone else like listening to hinder while drinking?

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I don't have any images to post but I have a question for everyone that's lurking... So I have clinical depression and everything is boring me. Is there any good anime or vidya that I should check out? PS if you haven't seen one punch man you should check it out.

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Had a serious talk over the phone with a girl I've been dating over 2 months now - I got shitfaced last week and sent over the top 'sweet' messages which repulsed her.
She said that she doesn't see it working and what do I think, I obviously said that this is a minor thing(which it is, I haven't had a drink in over a month) and we ended up agreeing to have a break.
Now I don't think I've heard a happy story about a relationship that takes a break and considering all the circumstances it wouldn't be the end of the world and I'd move on...
But fuck me is she special, my stubbornes and 'hopeless romantic' attitude sure makes life difficult.
Obviously nothing serious here, but I wanted to vent on a feels thread.

>>737651612
I got bored with video games either because of adult life or severe depression over the last year or two. But one of my favorite games was SOMA. It doesn't have amazing graphics, sometimes poor performance, but the story is really interesting. Turn out all the lights, make sure no sunlight is coming in, put on some good over-ear headphones, and get immersed for several hours.

>>737651652
>I got shitfaced last week and sent over the top 'sweet' messages which repulsed her.
wtf, what kind of chick gets repulsed over a sweet message?

>>737651612
It all depends on taste. I just make goals in random games then move on when I finish them

>>737651889
18 to 25 yo whores

>>737651852
Alright I'll check it out
>>737651959
I was just asking if you had anything you enjoyed. Usually I like stuff with a good story and character development.

>>737651889
She had a very bad accident when drunk once - ended up breaking her back, but she's recovering so well it's amazing. Regardless, she's obviously not very keen on alcohol, but she doesn't restrict me.
However, she's the type that doesn't really like sweetness and compliments, so me telling her that I'm really drunk yet I can't stop thinking about her and such didn't go too well... it's not the main issue here, but it was a turning point for her.

>>737651005
>rip in piece

Wow. Just, wow. Lotta faggot people who don't have the mental fortitude to not be a pussy. Get a hobby, quit being a faggot.

>>737652016
I guess so. They bitch romance is dead then act like you tried to cannibalize their baby when you're sweet to them. Baby boomers did a shitty job of raising their daughters.

>>737651652
Myself and the girl I was dating decided to break it off recently, she was the first girl I ever dated. It was a long distance thing but I tried to make it work, she kinda gave me the thing you got on that pic there, first she said she's bored, then she liked me, then we talked more, were meant to go on another date, she started flaking out on me but whenever she'd mention other girls or imply something, she would almost get defensive like she wants me to only focus on her, I honestly didn't know what she wanted and the distance wasn't helping. She was almost perfect tho, she seemed to really like me too but it just felt weird, like she wasn't sure what she wanted and didn't tell me, but she knew what I wanted so when I'd try to commit first she liked it, then she wasn't sure and was distant. We split up on good terms, we knew this wasn't going anywhere but man, I feel like I'll never meet another like her again. Thats why I'm here, until I'm happy again and can leave this place

>>737652194
that sounds like a really shitty excuse. I mean my dad is a drunk to the point his liver has all but /anhero'd/, but I don't trip on my wife for drinking. It honestly sounds like she needs to grow a little.

>>737652330
(OP here) my problem is similar.

I met this beautiful, smart girl online. She lived in Canada, like 12 hours away from me. It could be a lot worse but it was pretty far. I thought she was fucking awesome, man. I love talking constantly and we messaged all day almost every day. She's fucking beautiful and horny as fuck which matches me perfectly of course, being a young adult male. We shared a lot of the same interests and personality traits. She would randomly get mad at me for no reason but I would often forget whether I set her off or it wasn't my fault so I'd just let her blame me. After a while I started keeping track of my conversations and realized it was entirely her getting mad at me for no reason. She won't admit it but I'm 90% sure she has borderline personality disorder which makes you do dangerous shit like cut yourself (which she did) and also makes you randomly hate certain people for no reason then suddenly love them again. It describes her perfectly.

I'm terrible with women. I honestly don't believe I'll find another tolerable girl even half as hot as her. And she wasn't even like a 10/10. Honestly maybe an 8/10. The few girls I've found with good personalities are morbidly obese SJWs which give plenty of reasons for me to hate them.

I don't know what to do. I'm trying to be happy with the idea of dying never having really even kissed a girl. I mean I forced some girl in 1st grade to kiss me but that doesn't count.

>>737652349
Heh, the growing up part is rather ironic here - I'm 25 and she's .. 17. I know it sounds bad on paper, but we get along well and she's very mature, yes, the issue about alcohol is a bit tricky, but I see understand the angle of her perspective as well, however , she won't stop me from doing it if I want, her back injury ony was like half a year ago, so she obviously needs time to put her mind together.

>>737652235
if you keep pretending to not feel sadness, you're gonna break down one day. Some things you can't just power on through.

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Is there any hope left?

>>737652848
Oh and I forgot to add she hasn't talked to me in months. It's absolute torture. I wouldn't even worry if she at least let me say happy birthday and ask her if she's doing alright once a month. But it's been maybe 5 or 6 months now not a single word from her. She blocks me on kik and anywhere else I try to talk to her. That's the worst part. I can't stand it. I don't need her pussy. I just want to know she's OK. I love her as a friend whether or not we can be together in an intimate relationship.

>>737653136
No anon. There never was.

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>>737653257
Just as I thought.

>>737652882
Love is love my man, as long as you're not like "I'm 45 and she's 13". I do agree, you can't change your life style and stop doing things you like cause some chick told you to. If you guys were together like 10 years and she asked you to stop, then it's more understandable, but ya'll have barely been together a blink. If she's that "concerned" she needs to find a boy her age.

>>737649819
were you here yesterday in that drunk CFI thread?

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me irl

I can't count the number of times.

>>737652848
The girl I dated was much closer but the thing was, she wasn't sure about a relationship and kept getting on and off about it so I was never sure if I should commit more or not. I'm going to college soon and she's about to finish her course, she doesn't know what she wants from life, she just "wants to have fun because she's young" she tells me, but seemed to really like me so I had no clue what to think. College would really make it hard for us to see each other too so I figure, best to end it now than try and most likely end it while I'm in college and fuck up my chances meeting someone there.

I was really nice to her but she was very dismissive and only answered things she felt comfortable about, but she'd ask me anything. Then she'd get very distant for no reason which kinda pissed me off but whatever I tried to be nice anyway, she just kept getting distant and more dismissive so I was left completely clueless, i think its the fact we messaged each other and it was a ldr, lots of things get 'lost in translation' if you get me?

She was perfect for me, shy qt3.14, not even hot but very attractive for me, had a ton in common but in the end it still didn't work out. I never kissed any girl or had sex which made me feel less than her, she didn't want to talk about sex so it made me feel (since she was a very introverted, but a "lets go with the flow" sort of girl) insecure, like she isn't what I thought she is, she took forever to open up and I never knew whats acceptable and what isn't and it made me miserable more than it made me happy in the end...Idk what I'm talking about at this point, it just sucks to let go of someone thats so perfect and yet so out of reach, it was never meant to be but I wish it was, kinda on the same boat with you I suppose. If she was the one I'd say we'd have found a way, we didn't so I guess she wasn't 'the one' after all which is comforting in a sense, but still hurts like fuck, its a break up after all

>>737651612
If your lookin for comedy Akiba's trip is a a series and a game

>>737653509
Booze isn't the issue here.
She's more concerned about the future, she still needs to finish school, go uni and achieve something in life. I'm sort of set now myself and I'm obviously at the age where I should start considering making a family and all - so obviously the main issue here would be our future expectations, I keep saying that I don't have a set plan in life now and I'm just going with it, she says she can't go like that, which is understandable at her age.
So yeah, a tough nut to crack here, I mean there is the simple solution - just split since we're on a 'break', but as I said before, I'm a stubborn bastard and I don't want to let her go. Hate being alone as well, need that someone(as everyone else).

>>737653567
No unfortunately.

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It's 1:32 AM and I'm still wondering why I was born to a single mother

>>737653158
>>737652848

>>737652330 >still me btw
Getting over someone always sucks, but what helps me is the fact that because I've experienced this, because I've found this near perfect girl, now I know EXACTLY what I'm after and I know how to get it, I mean, I got it the first time around right? every girl isn't the same but they are fairly similar from what I've seen, the details chance but over all, it can mean another girl might be even more perfect. And like I said, if it didn't work out, means it wasn't meant to be. Keeps me going anyway.

Theres a perfect girl out there somewhere for all of us I think, we just need to make that first step into finding her, it will take a lot of trial and error but at least with each time you know more and more about what you want, how to get it and how to make it work, it will suck a lot but thats just the way it is, the only way to find out if shes out there is to live to see it happen which I'm having a good feeling about.

>>737654295
Where you living nigga

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>>737654741
Fucking drunk fingers.

The porn ads are just making me feel that much more forever alone.

>>737654609
From EU, Baltic States.

>>737654295
its almost midnight here and I'm still wondering why I was born...

To be honest I'd prefer to have been born to a single mother than to a mother and an abusive father, thing is, I got used to the abuse and I accepted my dad because he sometimes managed to make my mom happy and sort of feels like he 'completes' the family, now they're talking about a divorce and it makes me feel like all these years of abuse could've been avoided

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>>737649819
Gf left me yesterday.
Shockingly im ok so far

>>737654849
How's life going with you

>>737655046
For me, it was just the initial shock of the break up, like "its over" but then I was fine for a bit, like "theres nothing I can do anyway" sort of deal...just the fact everything reminds me of her every now and then man, and it fucking sucks... you forget for a bit and function normally, then the "forever alone" feeling hits you and you try to pick up the pieces. The memories are a killer, not the fact the relationship is over

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>>737655064
Biological dad left mom as soon as he found out she's pregnant because he already had a wife, had an abusive step-father since i was 6 or so for about 7 years, he used to threaten my mom with boiling water, only whipped me twice with a cord from his phone charger. Had the chance to meet my biological father but I just replied that it was too late, I was scared that i'd get violent, the step-father still has keys to our appartment because he sometimes comes over to take care of our dogs when me and mom are out traveling, too scared to move out and leave her alone. so yeah, that's life so far.

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bump is done

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>>737650468

NO! THIS IS PATRICK!!

>>737649819
I have not felt happy for a year

>>737651189

His wife had just died when that was filmed. RIP, the magnificent Bob Ross.

>>737655247
fuck im listening to piano man right now, don't do me like that anon

>>737649819
idk why people are like this, why do you miss her? How long you been with her? you'll get over it. If I can get over my dead dog then you can get over a shitty person.... faggot.

>>737655351
Yeah i had a feeling it was going to be like that

On my way home i expected to see her car. Of course it wasn't there but the moment right up until i saw nothing i was really excited.
It was then i realized later on this is going to hurt

>>737655542
Well, you better keep holding on, it well get better as you get older
Are you studying, working?

>>737655542
I'm gonna give you pieces of advice even if this is absolutely not my buisness and you may not even recquired it.
Obviously you want to know your father, if you get violent that's more his problem than yours but at least try to be honest on what you want.

Second, change the locks. Are you traveling so often ? If he has no relation with your mother anymore I don't get why he still got the key.

At some point if you can, you'll have to move out. Better get prepared now. You don't even need to move that far away.

Anyway, good luck to you mate.

>>737655247
Fuck..

https://youtu.be/QXGfjyPmCac?t=122
The song gets me. Every goddamn time.

>>737655134
fuck man

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There is this dream i had years ago...it is a tale that i take you all can use:

A man was walking down a forest, alone and tired, he took some time to rest sitting closer to a tree. As he went to look around he saw a figure approaching...it was a hermit. An old man, wearing a long cape to protect himself from rain and cold, with a silver beard and long hair.
The figure saw the man, and slowly walked towards him. The hermit stood silent close to the man for a moment.
-Good morning my sir, do you need anything?- Asked the man.
-Good morning...-said the hermit-...i don't really need anything, but i am curious, can i ask what are you doing here?
The man looked at the hermit: Clothes that were old, that have seen a lot of what the world has to offer when you don't have a house, when you live on the outside...
-I have nothing to live for, i lost everything...- Said the man-...so i came to the forest, to get away from the memories.
The hermit stood silent for a moment again.
-What have you lost?- He asked after some time.
The man didn't want to answer, yet he knew he should.
- I lost the woman i love, i lost my job and all my money. I lost my dog, the biggest friend i ever had...i lost everything that was important to me...- The eyes of the man were overflowing.
The hermit stood silent again, and he did so for a long time, until the man was done crying.
-You lost everything, yet you are still alive, do you think that is punishment?
-It must be.- said the man- Why i would deserve this if this was not punishment?
The hermit looked at the man, slowly he kneeled to meet the man face to face.
-What if this is just an opportunity to start again, but you can't see it because you believe is punishment?
The man had no answer...
The hermit went away as the man took his time looking at the forest and a single question filled his mind.
> Why not?

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck my mouse and closing the tab with a long reply by mistake.... Let's go again without all the comments,...

>>737651612
Games: Doom (2016), Zelda OoT, FF 8 and 9, GTA VC and SA
Watch: Friends, Rock'n'rolla, Gone Girl, The Lion King, The Mask, Fight Club, Love Actually, Princess Mononoke

>>737656276
It won't hurt as much later I suppose, just gotta troop it out, eventually another girl will show up and replace the other, may be even better too so who knows?

It got a bit better for me now, it sucks at times but once it starts sinking in that she isn't coming back it becomes less painful, time heals but its a long ride

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>>737655046
That reminds me of a game called lifeline. It's about someone called Taylor that you talk to after her ship crashed into a moon. You should try it. For the 3 hours of the game you feel important and that someone wants to talk to you.

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>>737656301
Thanks, I'm currently studying, my last years of school. Going to try and get a job as a waiter / barman to help out.

>>737656437

He said he'd like to meet me, but that he would never have time to build a father son relationship with me, i don't think i even wanted that but it really pissed me off for some reason.

Also we don't travel much, but I think my mom is still too scared or shy or whatever to ask the stepdad to give the keys back, he acts really awkward and 'nice' ever since they broke up.

Thanks for the advice, i've never talked to anyone about this except some therapists who only cared about money.

>>737656746
Hmmm, this is very nice anon

>>737657013
I love lifeline
There was a part 2 as well
Nothing to do with part 1 though

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Thought I'd share this here
>be me
>12
>best friends with a kid name Darian
>we both love Zelda more than anything
>I play majoras mask, never liked ocarina of time
>he loved ocarina of time, didn't really like majoras mask
>both always argued about which was better
>always called himself Darunia after the goron leader in OOT
>called him that from that day forward
>flash forward to a year later
>i get a call from his mom
>she says hes in the hospital
>i walk into his room
>hes got casts on an he can hardly talk
>"hey anon, i got hit pretty bad."
>he tells me he got hid by a car walking home from the pool
>he holds out his hand
>"i want you to have this anon"
>its ocarina of time
>"im gonna miss you anon"
>he dies the next day
>i boot it up to play
>three files
>from top to bottom, "i miss you"
>cry
>play the game
>get to fire temple
>see darunia
>walks off screen
>cry even harder

I play that same one every year on July 15th in his memory.

>>737656950
Yeah im planning on it
Its just confusing, a month ago she said she'd never love someone as much as me
Now she's gone

>>737657095
I believe you are still young, be sure the step-father doesn't come back. Playing it nice to get back is the oldest strategy in the book. Ex never change though.
Your mom is obvisouly not made "hard enough" (I'm not sure the correct expression for this one) to handle it, that's why I'm saying it. I've saw that millions times.

I second your opinion about therapists. There are no issue you can't fix yourself in the first place.

And yes, punch your father in the face he obviously deserves it. I wonder if his wife knows about you.

Good luck with the end of your studying, hope it was fun.

>>737657095
You seem like a polite and nice person, just learn to stand your ground when you need to and I believe you can live a good life

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Well, since we are at it...

This happened a few months ago, probably a year by now but it still haunts me.

I met a girl one day, probably in a game related chat, i can't remember at all. She was really nice, kinda funny most of the time,and we started to chat almost everyday 24/7.
She said she had a problem, but never really wanted to tak about it, even when i insisted that i wouldn't judge or anything related to stop talking to her.
One day we had an argument, i can't remember why, but it was for a stupid reason.
It was late for me, so i was simply tired and left the conversation witouth thinking twice.

The next morning, when i woke up, i had one last message.
"I'm sorry, anon. I'm just a terrible person, you didn't deserve to be insulted the way i did, i'm just gonna do it. I will kill myself, i don't deserve to live"

I really don't know what lead her to think about such a thing...

And no matter how many messages i sent, she never replied back, I went back to the chat i met her in. Nobody knew anything about her and they never got a reply either.

I feel like it was my fault, and it will always haunt me.
I'm sorry if it's bad formulated or something, i wish i could go into further detail, but english isn't my native language and i still use google to fix my errors...

I do exist I don't exist... I'm a machine that does not feel

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>>737649819
>be 2006
>me and my ex broke up
>she got married a few years after
>and so did I
>she has 3 kids
>I have 2 kids
>I love my family, my wife, my kids

and I still miss her...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x-Yi762sQTo

>>737657434
>we bonded [nintendo game]
>we had our differences regarding said game
>he ded
>i play [his game] when [anniversary of his death]
Show some creativity you faggot, I've seen tens of greentexts that go exactly like that
No one is autistic enough to call themselves "Darunia"

>>737651652
She's so special she doesn't want you. Every time this happens... EVERY time this happens... you want the idea of being with her more than you want her because you've built her up to standards that are simply not comparable to reality.

Wouldn't it be perfect if someone so awesome felt the same about me? That's love right there, having someone perfect.

No, it's not. It's infatuation and it'll die and take you with it.

When you've got someone doing for you what you're doing for her is when you've got someone you'll want to keep. Or, more likely, you probably won't even spot it and you'll let it slip because you're focusing on that "perfect" one.

Break the fucking cycle. Good luck.

>>737657354
Yeah, they've made more games. Whiteout is good. 2 is alright. Crisis line is really good. Everytime I play one of their games I don't feel like shit.

>>737657478
my one told me she doesn't think she can ever dislike me, she was sweet as fuck, that actually seemed true in the end, she was nice about it and all.

What bothers me personally, is the fact we were so into each other, like we were both very surprised that people like us even exist and actually managed to find each other. I felt like this is it, this is gonna last forever. It didn't and she's gone, it feels like somewhere down the line she'll be back in my life but I'm only kidding myself with that. Life goes on man, what can you do

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>>737649819
you're gay no one cares about your feels.

I am burning and no1 will turn me off.... Kill me

>>737658118
fuck you asshole! get out

there is no need for the feels
just play the vidya games

>>737657680
>>737657559
Genuinely thank you, feels good to get it off my chest, I think I'm gonna go for a walk now, have a good night guys.

>>737657753
In what this is your fault ? She obviously had anteriors issues that she didn't shared with you.
You don't even know what happened, maybe she's still fine, maybe she was lying or just get away from the game because of her issues and decided to focus on herself.

At least you have treat her with honesty without having to take care of everything you say or do. You have been sincere to her, if she still decide to leave there were something else than you.

>>737658163
i laughed

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>>737649819
>install SwiftKey
>haven't used it since 2014, 2015 maybe
>it remembers all its old autocorrect words for me because Google account
>see all the lovey dovey type things I'd say to my ex
>mfw she left me a year and a half ago
>mfw this fucks me up more than it should

Hold me /b/ros

>>737649819
my cousin just died and idk how i feel i already miss him so much it hasnet even been an hour im so fucking pissed and sad fucki i hate everything i wanna die i fucking miss him

>>737651852
I really fucking loved the Witcher 3, took me to a place games haven't taken me since I was little

>>737658368
"hugs anon tightly"

>>737658418
I like the picture a lot, but do tumblr bitches have to interpret art so the others know what to think every time?

>>737658476
I suggest you go do something else.
This is not the right place for you right now. Watch a movie, eat something, read a book or take a walk.
But don't go on the 4chan's thread of melancholia, not now.

>>737649819

>be 20
>dead end job
>small town
>engaged to high school sweetheart
>see old man a work
>he's spent 30 years in the factory
>that dead look in his eyes
>NotForMe.avi
>walk out of on job, join the army for a 3 year contract
>Infantry
>fast forward 11 years
>don't sleep so well
>body hurts
>no money
>no job
>no fiancee
>6 year old kid I haven't seen since he was 4
>couch surfing
>guilt
>wake up everyday wishing I stayed at the factory, and married that girl
>so many regrets
>drink to forget
>only makes me remember more
>read that 22 vets a day commit suicide
>figured I'd make it 23
>still here
>guess it wasn't for me
>can't tell if I'm disappointed or not
>don't really enjoy anything anymore
>I just argue with people on the interent, watch porn, and try no to think too much
>gotta stay distracted
>maybe then I wont notice that same, dead look in my eyes
>I should have stayed in that factory

not really feeling anything just kinda numb

lost my best friend (girl) we weren't in a relationship but I fucking treating as if it was and grew to attached to her and we just stopped talking less and less I'm also the type of guy who gives zero shits about my happiness and all the shits for hers and I just assumed she was happier not talking to me (she became friends with her fucking ex and kinda gave me the cold shoulder) so I left her and cut all connections and it fucking hurt me badly but I'm doing better only because I have another girl I'm talking to if she wasn't here I can't imagine how much pain I'd be in kinda want her back but also don't since I'm over her only because the other girl I'm talking to is kind of a distraction from the depression that'd fall if she left

>>737651612
Check out Cowboy bebop.
Never check out if you have a depression though.

>>737652848
15 years ago I met a girl in an IRC chat room. She lived in a different country. We chatted all the time and we became a thing. After the first six months I'd spend all my weekly income to go see her every weekend, I was on first name terms with the customs officials and airport staff by the end of it. I did that for two years until I finally emigrated. We're married now, have been for years, back in my home country (work is easier here) we have children... a home... two cars... the works. I have made it to suburban mediocrity and life is sweet.

Anyone who says distance can't work is simply incorrect. The chances are smaller, the stats don't lie, but there is a > 0% chance that you can make it work. More than nothing is something.

However... that girl of yours is obviously not a keeper. You'll know a keeper when you find one. It will take no effort to make sacrifices to be with them and it'll be rewarded and feel rewarding. Most people don't get that opportunity at all, ever. Most people are in settled relationships, both believing they could have done better but they're at an age when it's getting harder to find someone so... good enough is good enough.

I legit count my blessings every day and I'm not even religious. I lucked out. Hope you do.

>>737658118
How long have you worked as a therapist?

>>737651652
decoded translation:
"I want a dependable personal servant/butler/handyman/ATM/chef/housekeeper who always agrees with and never dissents against anything I do or say. It'd also be nice if you could amuse me with laughter from time to time. Since you're not attractive enough for me, there will be ZERO emotional or sexual connection between us. I'd like to keep your services forever, but only if my future drop-dead gorgeous boyfriend will allow it."

Tldr: I want a 24/7/365 personal (legal) slave.

What don't you guys understand that every female wants a personal slave who will make her life a never-ending vacation. Men are the ones who find fulfillment in work, discovery, and innovation. Girls just wanna have fun, fun, fun. They're children who only care about being amused.

>>737655046
Fuck it there's plenty of women out there

>>737658645
Holy fuck

>>737658060

What you said is a little raw, inartful, and oversimplified, but...

You are absolutely right!

>>737658576
Thank you anon

>>737658748
i came here hoping id find something, something to take the pain away something to distract me maybe i will go walk around

>>737652848
Maybe try to date someone who is not so far from you so you will be able to meet and start "real" dating?

>>737658912
Are you talking about being diagnosed? I don't understand. But if that's what you mean, yes I am. I have dysthymia.

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>>737658645
that's a bummer, man

>>737658789
this
>>737656746
You still have time, you can give it away and die, you can waste it as you see fit. You can use your pain and turn into wisdom to help the weak...use the wisdom to have people around you that are grateful you are there. You can take care of dogs and help homeless people. You can learn something new, meet new people. You still have option and choice...because there's still time.
Your regret just show something to me: You had a wild life so far...you can't regret something you never did, that means you did something...and if you can regret it, you can be proud of it too...just perspective....
It is and it will always be your choice. I don't know you and i choose to say: You're better alive, you were capable of surviving until now, so you're strong and the world needs people like you. I don't know you anon, take my words as you see fit...you still have time.

>>737658975
Fuck therapists. One said I was a bad person.

>>737659012
we all know there's plenty of women but most of us just want that one girl out of billions and we can't have her or they broke our heart when we gave her everything sure there's billions of women but just one like her and the only one we want

>>737655046
give it time anon it'll hit you like a ton of bricks soon

>>737658645
If i was giving advice, i'd say ignore the dad. It's disingenuous to pretend to forgive someone. And besides, you reap what you sow...

>>737659404
I've spent years of my life with therapists, all they care about is your money, this board is better than a therapist.

to the anons out here if you wanna get rid of your significant other and hurt them for various reason it's best to ghost them, cut all connections on everything at once and leave them without a reason, they'll sit and dwell on why you left and it'll eat them alive wondering why you left and what they did wrong (if they don't try to reach your or it doesn't affect them, you made the right call)

>>737659614
I'm sorry to hear that. I'm a Britfag, i didn't pay a penny for my therapy. I saw several and the quality varied.

>>737659614
Yeah. They can't relate to me at all. I'm 19 and my dad is forcing me to go to a psychologist councilor and a psychiatrist. The councilor is the only one that doesn't suck but she's stupid.

>>737659212

Yes I do. It may sounds stupid but I believe once you have a name for your depression. Once you know you have a condition for it, you just tend to let yourself go for it. If you feel bad "meh, I'm just depressed today", if you feel good, you're affraid when you'll turn. We all feel bad at some points, no exception. So let's keep trying to feel better.

Otherwise cowboy bebop is a really good show with astoundingly good OST, I really recommend to look at it.

>>737658118
> I know what ill do!
> Ill go to a FEELS THREAD
> Ill tell people no one cares
> zozzle, ill even call them gay, since its /b/ and all.
> I'm so edgy, my friends on plebbit will think I'm cool
I think you're either:-
A) A massive faggot.
C) Austitic as fuck
3) dying inside, and socially unable to explain this.
Vi) all of the above.

Enjoy.

I let my insecurities get the best of me and fuck up a relationship with a girl unlike any other I've ever met.

Not that it would last anyway because of the distance that was only increasing with time as opposed to closing which would make it almost impossible for us to see each other or at least very inconvenient and she wasn't really all that committed into having a relationship atm, but I feel like such a pussy for letting insecurities take over, she fueled them in a way but still, should've known better...I know better now but she's gone...

>>737651612
/fit/ helps out

>>737659106
Glad to help

>>737659614
never been to a therapist (mainly because there's none around me and I don't have money to spend) but I agree I just think therapist can't relate and probably give the same bullshit and cliche advice I could've read from fucking facebook you know the "it'll get better soon", "just focus on other things/get a hobby", "there's plenty of women out there", "just move on and forget about him/her"

This last 4 years have been a living hell, i have lost all my friends, i dont feel attached to my family, and i am incompetent at my job. I hate myself for not fixing my life.

Alright thread, i feel you OP im ending it all shortly when in done woth my projects ill be in peace

>>737659918
my insecurities lie not in my looks but in my personality I get jealous and insecure if a girl I'm talking to talks to other guys more than me I know it sounds petty and dumb but it gets the best of me and fucks me over...as it did recently..

>>737658076
Ill definitely check out the rest

>>737649819
Different? Try lazy. Social skills are just that skills. You dont practice them you wont be good at it. Fucking lazy pieces of shit.

>>737659860
Dysthymia is a chronic depression meaning it's always there... It affects me each day. Either I'm lazy and feel like shit or I'm sad lazy and feel like shit.

>>737660021
I've been there too.

>>737653223
You sound battered bra

I dont remember a single time that i've actually been happy. I think the lack of sadness is really what i would assume the closest thing to happiness but even that goes away quickly. going in to work every day not knowing whether or not im going to make i through my shift that day without walking out is only punctuated by my isolation at home. i don't understand how people meet others and make connections with them, i try, i really do. it seems like im competing with other guys to get any girl but i havent even started the race.

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>>737658088
Fuck
It seems that you and i are in the same position
Stay strong brotha
I know im gonna try

>>737660021
See>>737659331

>>737651612
"guys i keep doing the same things every day and its getting boring!

how can i do the same thing more to have fun"

lold you should jsut kill yourself. you dont have clinical depression you have clinical beiing a bitch

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My first and only love moved away yesterday

The last time I ever saw her was her sucking face with another man.

I posted a greentext on r9k two days ago, will post if people are interested

>>737660196
I know, I know. Still, psychology is such a hazard field of science for me. What would stop you to be the first one to prove it wrong ?

Anyway if you got a good game to play I'm all ears.

>>737660091
I forgot to mention but their story is all connected. Remember the green monster in 2? It was made by the aliens. Also if you name yourself Taylor in lifeline crisis he mentions that he knew Taylor as a kid.

>>737659545
> screencap of a post from 2013
Plenty of people posting with live problems right now that could use some insight dude, focus.

>>737651612
Read Grand Blue manga, it was pretty funny. Even if it made me sad because I realized what I had missed. It was good to me and I'm not usually into the anime and manga shit.

>>737660234
you have to give a shit about other people. if you can't, pretend to. eventually you will.

>>737659012
I know and have accepted that

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>>737655685
This

>>737660408
Well, i can see the attitude you've arrived with this evening.

>>737660084
same but that wasn't what got me eventually, it was the fact that I never kissed any girl, never really dated, never had sex and never had a gf and she seemed on my level until I found out she dated before and possibly had sex, it made me feel 'less than' and like she had more experience and like she may have some sort of expectations.

I told her I'm no good at this, I keep fucking up, asking the wrong questions at the wrong time, feeling like shit because of it. She told me 'not to be silly' but she was fairly distant in the recent days and I feel like it was that nail in the coffin, I think the distance was also fueling her doubts since we didn't see each other as much as we'd like to and one thing led to another, she said she doesn't want to do this anymore, so we ended it there and then... I know she said the whole "don't be silly" thing about me fucking up but I can't help but feel like she was just trying to be nice so lessen the blow of the break up. It sucks and I blame myself, the only comfort I find is the distance, it would've ended us eventually, but I'd prefer to think the break up was over that and not because of me...

>>737660356

good point. too hostile, but good point.

if you don't try new things, you'll always be the same person.

>>737660356
You fucking with me? I try new games and anime all the time. I just get bored and forget about it halfway through. So fuck you.
>>737660414
Alright I'll check it out.

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Hey cmon guys don't be down we all have a lot to be happy about life gets better you just have to look on the happy side

>>737660376
Dude no way
That is awesome

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>>737660021
I feel ya. I've been a slacker for about 4 years, drifting through low paying jobs. Although I have deliberately unattached myself to my family, as i don't enjoy their company very much, their behaviour borders on bullying and they give plainly ludicrous advice.

I'm planning on spending Xmas alone this year.

>>737660373
My brain chemicals would. I don't choose to be sad. Subnautica is pretty good. Realm of the mad God is fun if you join a guild and talk on discord.

>>737660663

see
>>737660646

>>737660494
i'm actually really good at pretending i haven't yet found a single person able to see through the act without me blatantly complaining it to them. i think that one of the biggest factors has to be my exposure. im around alot of people all day but none except for 2 are around long enough to talk to. i've been looking for places that i could not look like a creep by talking to someone i don't know but in a town of 50,000 there arent many places like that around if any.

>>737660984
I get what he means now, yes I do new things but it's limited because I'm a pretty anxious person. I weight lifted for a month and got bored. Started doing sprints. The outcome was all the same.

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Am I the only one who experiences loneliness as a weird feeling in my chest, as if something is struggling my heart? then it feels as if I have ice flowing down my veins. Maybe just a heart condition.

>>737661637
yeah, i get the same thing. it's like the girls that aren't there are actually there and they're trying to kill you.

>>737660193
>>737660229

:(

>>737661035

the goal isn't to fool someone so that they can't "see through the act". you're not acting or pretending, you're being interested in them so that they will want to speak to you again. they want to talk about themselves. socializing, at least at first, isn't about fulfilling some need for yourself. it's about the other person. they will be able to tell that you don't give a shit if all you're doing is acting. only then can you have a real relationship with someone. the way you say "pretending" makes me lose hope of you understanding

first you must learn to be content with yourself. only then can you truly care for others

>>737661637
no my fellow anon. I feel lonely too, but i look at it as a side to a coin. If i can feel lonely, that means i can be together...that i know how to feel closer to someone. Thing is, it is not easy to find people that really want to get closer...
And some times, we don't want to get closer, we just don't want to be alone, it's a big grey area right there.

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>>737649819
I was singing along with Let's Ride Into the Sunset Together and when the female singer joined in I started crying. I'm a sad sack of shit but I can't help but think and dream about what my life could have been if I were happy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHGPECKzW9Q

>>737661308
Dude, we always got bored. Why you try /fit/ thinking it will be a passion ? Fitness is about working your ass off whether you feel like it or not.
I think you need a good routine, not a new passion every 10 days.

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>>737661308

at least in terms of exercise, i found that exercise needs to be a secondary effect of an activity if you want any chance of sticking with it. straight up sprints, lifting, running, etc is boring as hell and i don't see how anyone, depressed or not, could do it for fun.

an activity that happens to also be great exercise is the best way to stick with a discipline. in my experience at least. went to an mma gym with the primary goal of fitness. after a month all i cared about was increasing skill in ju jitsu and boxing. exercise became a convenient side effect of a true passion. 4 months now and i feel i have begun a passion that will last a lifetime.

all it took was me saying "i hate traditional exercise, so i'll try something different". took a chance and it payed off

>>737659843
Damn, that dialogue stings. I just watched this movie for the first time a few days ago, too.

anyone have the adonis story?

>>737662106
I didn't know that. I thought people did it for fun.
>>737662475
I can't work out at gyms. I did everything at home. If I worked out anywhere public I would get way too stressed to be there and leave... It's happened before.

>>737662764

so find something you can do alone. or learn to feed off of other people's energies and feedback. do private lessons if that's what it takes. no more excuses anon!

>>737662764
It gets fun. But it's never fun everyday. Sometimes you've got to do it because, for fitness, you need to do it. You can't lack of training if you want to make it, so you just do it. Sometimes it's better than you think, sometimes you don't reach your peak. But better done than perfect

>>737663368

very true. 99% of the time i want to give up instead of train. it's only after you train do you feel the rewards. it's hard af to get yourself out the door very day. but you have to unless you want to be a loser

>>737655134
A wallet was more important than his life or son.

Anyone else get their hopes up over and over again. Whether it's a girl you think might be interested in you, or some plans you made with someone. The those hopes get crushed. It just seems to happen over, and over, and over. Every time i get excited about something all that ends up happening is me getting let down in the end.

Fuck me /b/ros, life is just going to shit. I think it's just cause me and all my friends are just growing up, we don't hang out anymore. I don't have a girl, I don't have time for chicks right now Ive been working 6 days and 10 hour shifts. It's a hard labor job I've only been doing it for 6-7 months and my body is already hurting really bad I'm just waiting to get drunk enough and get the balls to end this shit life.

I saw someone here post this before and it really hit home dudes. It said something like "you ever see someone smoking cigarettes tell me that they truly look happy with life" I've been looking and I haven't seen one don't smoke guys, it's a wasteful and expensive habit

Say ten nice things about yourself, and one bad thing.

>>737663834

don't rely on others for happiness. and don't let failed plans get you down!

>>737664111
Trips yo, good job fam

>>737663934
You just leave college and start working right ?
Well, you need to think bigger, you need a plan to improve something that matters for you. Oh and don't go to exhaust point with your body, you sure can spare a rest day no ? Just call your old buddy and organize something.

>>737663023
Now that I think about it, you're right. I am making excuses.

>>737664356
I didn't go to college, that's why I'm doing this job. I wish I could take a day off but I might lose my job because we are really behind and my foreman is on edge the whole time we work. And I do all the time they just never respond

>>737664111
It just happens every single time, it's tiring.

>>737664449

I'm so glad you said that!

So much of motivation comes down to positive thinking. Some people say positive thinking is BS, but if that's true,then negative thinking is BS as well. If it's all BS, choose what makes you feel the best.

>>737652259
People need to realize that baby boomers are not the generation before millenials, it's generation x. Generation x did a shit job of raising daughters, baby boomers raised generation x.

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>>737658118

>>737664601

It truly is.

If people are constantly letting you down, perhaps it's time to find new people. Who you choose to surround yourself with has a huge impact on what type of person you will become. Surround yourself with people who get shit done.

>>737651189
Fucking. Bob. Ross. such a legend

>>737664526
I see. Well you still need to vent, so time for new friends or some side-activity. Maybe try to be pals with your coworker, idk.
I lost a lot of contacts like that, just don't let yourself go to apathy.

Keep up the good work.

>>737665300
I'm going to college this fall and just had orientation recently. Met a lot of new people, most people didn't really show any interest in me. But i'll have to see how it is when i'm really there this fall

>>737658060
/thread should end here.

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What really sucks is starting every week hoping it's going to end different than the last and you might have someone but it ends up being just another week.

>>737658088
Anon what were her initials?

Going to have to break up with a really good girl. She and her family are suffocating me. It's causing my business to suffer and making me miserable overall. They don't understand the demands my work has and their confusion when I try to express it sickens me. I want to sleep, I want to recuperate or on the other end I want to be able to take a spur of the moment vacation with some friends and unwind. I don't want to be surrounded by screaming children and barely literate coal miner conservatives. I'm where I need to be in life and my ambitions are completely incompatible and beyond the comprehension of her entire family. They are like those people that if you're training for a body building competition, insist on you eating chocolate cake and get upset when you refuse. It sucks I became "that guy" and part of me is trying to keep things going to avoid the terrifying realization of what I've become, but I know it's inevitable. I think about it and worse I just feel like there never seems to be a way to not be the villain other than avoiding relationships and most people altogether. Everyone always starts demanding and when you meet those demands they demand more and when you finally don't give into their demands, they will inevitably hate you regardless of all of the good stuff you've done for them in the past. It's just a losing proposition and really soul crushing. That pain is masked by my financial success and personal satisfaction with my own life overall though and people even seem to want to take that away by sabotaging me. It fucking sucks.

https://youtu.be/DKf70Nx9YFk

>>737665539
Thanks man, but their activities just include drinking and I went out to do that once but didn't feel to comfortable cause I'm only 19 (we were at a bar) and I'm just gonna let this ride out and see what happens

>>737658479
This, After entering adulthood video games didn't move me anymore. then came the Witcher 3, I still fire it up just to trot around on my horse and listen to feels music and get nostalgiac as fuck

>>737657478
anon what were your girl's initials?

>>737665591

I remember orientation. Don't stress about that too much.

The good thing about college is that there will absolutely be other students who have your interests. Don't be afraid to join clubs or groups, especially the first couple semesters. Try to have a roommate as well.

>>737665815
The chair scene from Knocked Up...gets me every time...

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I'm not sure if I'm autistic (if I am I have it in a very "low level"), but EVERY single thing that isn't exactly like the way I want it makes my mind race and I can't stop until it's fixed, for example my room HAS to be clean and nothing can be just laying on the floor. this has grown into different things where every little flaw about myself makes me go crazy and this makes me kind of hate myself. in the day I cancel out most of my feelings but late at night behind my PC, they start crawling in my brain, making me realise how unhappy I am. also I'm just a fucking introvert, I will be in a club and just get lost in my thoughts in the middle of the club, thinking about random shit, or just wanting to sit on a bench smoking a joint with a stranger. I know that nobody cares, and I'm not the type of person to care either, but I feel like I just have to write my feelings down somehwere, and /b/ is just the place for that... If anyone has read all of this you probably feel the same in some way. I hope it gets better and that I will find true happiness

>>737651612
Oldschool Runescape :^)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lyMS4qJ8NXU

>>737666104
Met my room mate at orientation, he seems a little off but overall is a nice guy. I'm planning on joining a bunch of clubs and hopefully finally getting a chance to meet people interested in what i'm interested in.

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>>737649819
recently dumped my ex gf cos i thought the releationship was going south
hardly ever saw eachother - busy lives, mainly me
around a month passes to about a week ago and now I really want to speak to her and tell her I miss her....
kinda sucks cos she doesnt wanna speak to me really.
I can tell her though but im too chicken shit, dont like feeling vulnerable and that im gonna be let down even though it was me that ended things
>wat do

>>737658340
You know what really sucks? Finding someone whoncares about you for only a week, then act like they barely know you.
Find someone diferent, cycle repeats

>>737651612
Mr. Robot (american TV show), death note (anime), tokyo ghoul (anime), elfen lied (anime)

>>737666241
a beautiful grind

>>737659878
kek

>>737663834
Let me tell you about crushed hopes
>9 years ago
>be me in middle school
>10yo
>most autistic person Earth
>I had been away from my hometown for a couple of years because reasons but I cam back to do middle school there
>first day I get absolutely hung on one of the girls, a girl I'd known since I was 3yo
>I eventually ask her out but my absolute inability to socialise and being ugly make sure she says no
>time goes by
>find 4chan and get even more depressed than I was before
>have a brother 10 years older than me
>he's an alcoholic
>sometimes beats me
>twice he almost kills my mother
>I basically loose the one person I looked up to
>Over time it makes me despise alcohol to the point of not being able to stay in a room with people drinking, specially if they are my friends
>Last year of middle school comes
>Lurking in 4chan has taught me how to people
>I grow a beard and trim it often to look good
>correct my posture
>finally get rid of acne
>take perfect care of hygiene
>got fit
>teach myself to stop staring at the ground
basically all the shit you need to be a functioning member of society
>But it's not enough
>the people here know me as the autistic fag I was
>that's all they're ever going to see
>That's all she's ever going to see
>Convince my parents to move to Almería (I'm from Spain, used to live in Madrid)
>my daydreams start being dominated by the ones about meeting a perfect girl when I move
>final day of middle school comes and the next day I'm already setting in Almería
>It's Saint John's Eve
>My niece (same age as me) has a party prepared with her friends that night at the beach
>At this point I've spent weeks daydreaming about meeting some amazing girl that night
cont

>>737655247
Currently listening to this. Hit me hard

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wvx3dkYoX34

>>737659878
underrated post

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>>737665662
this

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>>737649819
Pic related

playing vns while drunk isa bad idea

>tfw you'll never be in highschool and fall in love for the first time again

nerve gear, save me

I keep distancing myself from my oneitis, she has hung out with this one guy every single day for the past week. She tried assuring me that's she's not into him and that's hes too old for her. She texted me today and asked me if her and I are still friends. I just said yeah and why. She said some shit and said she was just being emotional, didn't text her back after that. Idk if I hate that i love her or love to hate her.

>>737666706
Gimme dem feels anon