Good evening Anon. Something got you down? Come on in, let's

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Hello again

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>>737465643
Bump

How you doing, op?

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Ach. The Fenn has a thread?

Well. Next week will be busy for me

Sat-Sun - Work
Monday - Off
Tues- Work
Wednesday - Gotta leave home by like 1PM for the train (Will be there at like midnight)
Thurs-Sun - Fucking Around in Buffalo
Monday - Train Home
Tues - Work

Also, yea. AnarQT randomly messaged me today about stuff. Didnt go anywhere really.


-EMT (Gonna use these again)

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>>737465777
Hey, I want to tell you something: you inspired me to start writing again. I've put together some races with interesting dynamics between them, a small world for them to live in, and a very strange superhero.

You really got me going with your descriptions of the things you were coming up with. Thank you!

Also, what can I call you? Just Anon? That dude with all the neat ideas?

>>737465841
I'm fine, Mantis. How are you?

>>737465903
Looks packed, EMT. You can handle all that though, right?

>>737465903
do you ever actually need or give advice, or do you just use this place like a blog?

Kill yourself. Do it fag!

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>>737466033
Should be fine. Just a bit busy. I usually have a laxed schedule. So this is a first with how packed it is. But I think I'll be fine.

>>737465841
Evening Mantis. Hows shit for you?

>>737465643
Doing better. No more Gastroenteritis. Had a Dr. Pepper Float earlier. Gonna go to work soon. Then I'm off Sat and Sun. Thank god!

>>737466033
I respond to sunpeak, wall paper guy and thats about it. I never really gave myself a name, I let the others name me.

Also nice that your starting writing again.

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Not a lot going on right now.

>>737466355
Good, man. Lacing up my boots right now.

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>Need to finish reading a huge book (more than 900 pages long) about computer architecture.
>Need to finish reading it before the end of August.
>Only read 100 pages so far.
>Wasting my time on 4chan while feeling tired and feeling like shit at 4 am in the morning.

:'(

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Anybody got plans for the weekend? I got nothing.

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I just finished playing Parasite Eve. Pretty sure i now qualify as a doctor, the mitochondria man...But yeah, i got my degree by watching House, Scrubs and ER, ask me anything u.u

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>>737466282
Maybe some other time. How are you tonight?

>>737466355
I hope you find some time to talk to AnarQT.

>>737466360
That's great! I'm so glad things are getting better. Take care!

>>737466432
Sunpeak is good, I'll refer to you as that. Any big developments since we last spoke?

>>737466885
You got this. Plan it out. Write yourself a schedule for tomorrow, work out when you'll have free time and fill it up with reading. You can knock this out, it's not that hard.

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>>737466901
I've done some housework, but I need to get around to getting my 3D printer working properly again.
-Koi

I can't figure out what is wrong with me or why I can't do things I really honestly want to do. Something inside my head stops me, and then voices start, and I hate it, and tells me I'm dumb and I'm wasting away my life achieving nothing and not finding a passion or joy in anything and I just...don't know what to do.

Sorry for no greentext, can't quite put it in that way.

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>>737466901
Going to this night market in Santa Anita and maybe will attend Anime Expo

>>737466973
no one cares, Asterisk.

>>737466986
Thanks for reading my rant! <3

I will do that, actually; I will make a schedule! :)

>>737466885
You still have time. Read a little bit now. A little bit tomorrow. Before you know it you'll be done. You might want to take notes while you read. Seems like a lot to digest, and it might not be very entertaining.
Keep phone, and all other devices off while you do this.

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kitter

-meowbot

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>>737466986
I should be fine. Just curious with what prompted her to ask about my contacts. A little sketchy, but she may just be new to this.

>>737466901
Work. And more work..... I should try rearranging my days so I get these days off (for protest reasons)

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For once I'm up late enough to catch one of these threads. How is everyone?

>>737466901
A friend just finished refurbishing a river boat, so I'll head over to see her.

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>>737465643
I want to be cute male rabbit and get fucked
what's wrong with me ?
I am male asian by the way

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>>737467227
Kitter, meet pupper and baby

>>737467271
do you do anything other than blog post

>>737467011
Auditory hallucinations are signs of mental illness. Its nothing to ashamed of. But you do need to see a doctor very very soon.

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>>737465777
Hello! How are you?

>>737465841
Hey, what's up? Feel any better, I hope?

>>737465903
Does sound busy, but at least it isn't bad, right?

>>737466432
Hey how are you doin'?

>>737466885
Have you tried planning it out? Like make a schedule?

>>737466901
Ah... Nothin much. Just me being me. Did you have anything in mind, at least something?

>>737466994
Hey~ Good to see you. What did you want to print next.

>>737467011
First off, I'm really sorry Anon... But I have to ask, when you say you hear voices, do you really hear them or is it a figure of speech?

>>737467300
I'm doing great! What's new with you, besides the boat?

>>737465841
source on picture?

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>>737466973
Sounds neat. How do you find happiness when nothing is fun anymore? Asking for a friend.

>>737466994
I hope nothing broke. Is it a software issue?

>>737467011
I know that feel more than I'd like to admit. But sometimes, when you keep telling yourself not to, you need to force past that. It's hard, it's really, really hard, but it's possible. If you can overcome it, and do it anyway, it won't feel as good as it should, but you'll still do it. I was an artist once, and sometimes I told myself that I was never good, and that I should never draw again. It went on for a good long time, but eventually I closed my eyes, sat down at my desk, and just scribbled a picture. It was pretty bad, but I kept going, and I started doing art regularly again. Not as much, and not as happily as I once did, but I did it.

Your assignment: watch Kiki's Delivery Service

>>737467063
Hey, can we be nice here? If not for their sake, then for me.

>>737467122
That's good! I think you'll find that it helps a lot.

>>737467315
There's nothing more wrong with you than there is with the rest of us. Most people don't care if you want it or not as long as you're not hurting anyone. Keep it quiet and don't stress over it, and you'll be fine. Maybe someday you'll meet somebody who will want to do it with you.

>>737467227
You found your cat?

>>737467315
be what you want to be
try and draw yourself as one
see how it goes

-meowbot

>>737467138
Thanks a lot for your advice; that's what I try to do.
What's weird is I really, really enjoy reading it.
It's really awesome and I find the material very interesting.
But I have lots of problems in concentrating at anything; even stuff I enjoy doing; I get distracted very quickly and usually end up wasting my time doing something stupid.
I probably have ADHD or something similar, but I'm from a third-world country and getting diagnosed is a bad idea here; psychological help is of really poor quality, so I'll probably get the wrong diagnosis, or get prescribed the wrong medication. It happens a lot here.
I'm from Jordan, btw.

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>>737467460
Isn't bad. Yet...... How shit with you?

>>737467515
Her name is Genevieve Hannelius

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>>737466885
For every 5 minutes you spend on 4chan read 6 pages.

>>737466973
Heard about that game. Good survival horror?

>>737466986
I work best at night. Feels better to wrap myself in darkness. Feels like I put myself far away from here. Far away where nobody can reach me.

Anyway no I haven't but I am working on a bit now with the Great Empty and doing a basic write up of that.

>>737466994
Got a 3D printer? What for? To print your animes?

>>737467011
I know that feeling. Start with a little chaos in scribbling or drawing. Self loathing gets you nowhere. It is hard to enjoy certain things but just keep it simple and work your way up.

>>737467023
nice

>>737467271
Sounds shitty. Always good to have a plan though. Working you out dry like that.

>>737467300
A boat? must of been a lot of work.

>>737467315
Rabbits are symbolic of hyper sexuality and helplessness.

>>737467460
>>737467460
doing ok. Just video games and some sort of creation.

>>737467563
no, i adopted a new one
his name is alga (seaweed in brazilian)
>captcha is forge saltcoats

-meowbot

holy shit. I just came back to check on /b after a decadeof not browsing anymore because of all the cancer and I'm surprised to find this thread. I'm happy to find a non-cancer thread on /b/ after so long, brings me memories. Good night everyone

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>>737467063
Meanie, may i have the honor of knowing who i am talking with btw?

>>737467315
>Male asian
That explains a lot of things...Well there are plenty of guides around on 4Chan regarding how to be cuter, i could give you some advice but it'd be pretty much all stuff you'd find in these guides. Don't let no one stop you and pursue your dream, it is possible.

>>737467300
Is that a character from Hetalia? Ugh...I have so many bad memories regarding that fandom.

>>737467750
good night
we'll probably have a thread next monday
although many people make these threads they usually start with good evening, so just search for it

-meowbot

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>>737467661
I'm doing great! Thanks for asking!

>>737467688
Ah, nice, nice.What game and what are ya makin?

>>737467750
*hug*

I'm really happy to hear that anon, you just have a good night, kay?

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>>737467661
Will you not reply to anonymous, emt?
>>737467410
>>737466121

>>737467738
Oh! Welcome to your new Kitter!

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>>737467460
My next 3D printer.

>>737467557
It's a bed leveling issue.

>>737467688
Yeah, I got it a month or two ago.
Got it because they seemed pretty cool.
-Koi

>>737467750
b8

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>>737467688
That's... awesome. You keep doing it, man. You're making incredible stuff.

>>737467750
Just one small step in a long lineage. Say a prayer for us, okay? I messed something up.

Take care Anon.

>>737467923
I hope you can fix it without too much trouble. That renders it completely nonfunctional, no?

>>737467888
Trips waifu demand the guy not speak to the people!

>>737467902
i've had him for a month now
so it's not THAT old
but yeah i guess

-meowbot

>>737467557
>Hey, can we be nice here? If not for their sake, then for me.
so you're cool with people turning your already autistic thread into their personal blogs?

>>737465643
>Advice on lost passions

When I was in college, I used to dream of big things. All the normal stuff, success in my field of work, a happy wife, kids, etc. Fast track 5 years, I've completely lost myself. And none of those dreams have come true. Work has made me so busy I lost everything I used to do. I love music, I used to play a lot. Poetry was something I enjoyed doing, even the occasional short stories. I had friends, who could talk about anything under the sun and I used to be able to keep up. Conversations on opinions, I feel I lost all of mine. I quit my job recently since it's been toxic and now I found out the love of my life is also planning on leaving. Saying we've lost ourselves in this relationship. Now we're on a journey to find meaning again but separately. I'm asking, how and where do I begin to rekindle myself?

Tl;dr
I have lost myself,
To relationship and work,
Rekindle me please.

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>>737467688
I guess. I usually work 4 days a week, so maybe I can set them for Tues-Fri with Sat-Mon off?

Probably the best bet as most actions tend to be Saturday's

>>737467882
That's good. Fucking shit is bizarre on my end....

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>>737465643

>love
>attention
>understanding

long story short i have a list of mental problems including trauma, paranoia, depression and their friends.
All my life i had to do everything alone, the only one really helping me is my therapist that i have to pay myself.
How the fuck do i manage this constant lying and shitfest that the normies dish out?
Is violence the key or the fall?
are drugs helpfull distractions or harmfull?

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>>737467738
Alga means seaweed in spanish as well though, and it's not brazilian, it's portuguese.
>>737467750
Yummy bait.
>>737468044
You start by getting your shit together, for starters, you can go take a shower right after this thread dies and start making a schedule for what you might do from now on? What do you often do, anonymous?

I'm not happy, and I hate that it's because of one person that I don't really talk to anymore.

I feel sort of empty.

>>737467460
>>737467455
It's like...not actual voices. I think. It's weird, I guess. It's one voice, still mine, but it feels like a another person casting judgement on things I do so I can't even act stupid or have fun without it shouting me down. Shit maybe it's normal, but I don't know, and that bugs me more.

>>737467557
> Your assignment: watch Kiki's Delivery Service
Seen it, though yeah I should watch it again.

>>737468219
yeah, sorry about that

-meowbot

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>>737467627
Welcome from The USA.
You might have a little trouble with anxiety; switch to decaf for a while. I myself get distracted trying to read at home. I do my best work at the library. And while I'm there, I'll sit at a table far away from the computer terminals, the graphic novel section, and any other shit that will divert me from my purpose.

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>>737468150
Mmh, I personally use greed and debauchery as my fuel, I only wish to amass a decent amount of wealth to waste it in stupid shit, anything to bring me some kind of excitement, it is pointless in the end but it is what keeps me going personally. Use your demons to fuel your goals.
>>737468228
Fill that emptyness with new relationships, meet new people.
>>737468317
Why are you speaking to me?

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>>737467688
It is supposed to be a survival horror but i didn't find it that good at being scary...Then again, i didn't find spooky Silent Hill and Resident Evil games too, but they are survival horrors.
If you like these kinds of games, so with fixed angles for limited vision, tank controls and overrall similar to old RE games then sure, it's really nice. I have just a complaint though, in the game the amno you find wirk on every gun, them being pistols or grenade launchers doesn't matter, good thing they have these revolutionary ammo! Though i find it silly and stupid.

>>737467557
Thanks to my closest friends, they care a lot about me and always know how to make my days brighter, i'd be lost without them. Also silly YouTube videos!

>>737467978
Essentially yeah.
Can't seem to get the filament to stick to the bed at all.

>>737467994
Please, post more pics of Alga!

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>>737468480
Post moar

hug me?

>>737468480
Every new person I meet won't give me the same feeling as this person did, I don't know. I felt valued, important. With everyone else, I'm just a third wheel or the butt of their jokes.

>>737467346
It's funny how puppies gain relative autonomy after only a couple months.

Takes humans 2-3 years to even just not be a retarded shitting mess.

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>>737468534
No one cares Asterisk, go die in a fire dude, lmao.

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>>737468009
I have my reasons. He can stay, but I'd rather not have people being nasty or more aggressive than necessary.

>>737468044
You have all the resources now, but none of the dreams you once had. No more meaning behind this great wealth of the mind and soul.

Hmm.

Have you written any poetry or short stories lately? Perhaps you need to draw more from what's inside yourself by finding creative outlets, but at the same time dig further into the world around you to see what's really there. Get to know the people who live down the street, talk to the old guy at the post office, things like that. Do you still keep in contact with those friends, even though you don't have much to talk about anymore?

>>737468228
Losing someone is always hard. But you can move on. That's just hard too. This feeling doesn't last forever, but it'll hurt while it does.

Have you met new people? At school, on the job, on the street?

>>737468263
It's worth watching over again. Perhaps it will speak to you on another level this time.

>>737468534
Thank you.

>>737468592
Hm, that's not good at all. Are you going to have to replace the bed, or just fiddle with the mounts?

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>>737467882
Not a game, I'm no developer. Just a world building exercise that may turn into a book or something.

>>737468044
Don't depend on others to bring you happiness. When a fire dies out go find another or start one yourself, or you will freeze to death.

I keep my goal "realistic". When people say realistic they mean keep them low but high enough to be proud of them. Don't just take my word for it though, not a good influence when it comes to stuff like this.

Creation is also good for the soul. Lets you express yourself.

>>737468150
Like I said to somebody else creating something can be helpful, be it drawings or storys. Dont have to be great, just good enough for you.

>>737468228
I'm used to that happening, its a thing that happens a lot in life. You'll probably get used to it.

>>737468534
I don't get shit your pants scared of those games, I just like the atmosphere and art direction and game play. And universal ammo? really? That's one of the worse things to do in a horror game.

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>>737467460
Not much happening on my end besides that. The conference I was organising went well; I'm pleased to be rid of that workload. Besides that work as usual.

>>737467688
She and her husband refurbished it as a hobby over a year, they have a house siding on a canal, with a mooring spot, so it wasn't too hard for them.

>>737467859
I have no association with any particular fandom, being English it was the first thing I thought of to use as an avatar that was meant to offer a personification.

>>737467627
A quick tip, onset of boredom or fatigue when reading technical literature often indicates a misunderstood word or phrase. Just like when you force yourself to read through a section and find you can't remember the prior paragraphs. Take your time and make sure you understand what you read, it's not about being an information bulimic.

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>>737468686
Might need a new nozzlehead, the bed leveling I can adjust myself.
-Koi

>advice
why are people blog posting in your thread when they could jerk each other off in your discord server? no one cares about your work schedule or that you're going on a trip.
>>737468652
seconding this.
>>737468686
well thank goodness you can just stoo people from posting things you don't like, right?
oh wait. it doesn't work that way.

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>>737468610
>
Nice Kersh Bandercoot.
>>737468620
Why do you keep torturing yourself over that person? If there is something you should know about relationships is that, most of them aren't meant to last for all your life, but you have to learn to appreciate them, and be grateful for the nice moments you get to have sharing with people, instead of being fixated on the fact that they got to leave at some point.
>>737468809
/thread

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>>737468809
I can't control what people post. All I can do is talk to them and try to help.

Do you need anything? This is about you, not me, and not about how I interact with anons or avatars. I'd like to get to know you.

>>737468686
I'll refer back to this: >>737468620
But to add on, I haven't really lost this person, I can message them. It's just I'm too scared to do it, I don't know why, I just can't.
>>737468709
I'm used to not being important...But with this person, all of a sudden not meaning something to them. It hurts.

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>>737468928
Thx m'dude

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>>737468973
No prob M'Nep -tips-

>>737468809
Why do you care so much about this thread? It's pathetic.

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>>737468957
At least you can still cherish those moments. Are you afraid they'll be mean if you message them? That's something that has discouraged me in the past, but I found that often when I did do it things turned out okay, or I was able to stand up for myself and get things going in the right direction.

Could they have stopped valuing you because you started to pull away, or did that happen later?

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>>737469095
Now this is a gud avatarfag. Every avatarfag should be like this

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>>737467923
Ah shit, sorry man. I missed that detail... You know what's wrong with it?

>>737468131
Anything new? Or more of the same?

>>737468044
Hey anon... What's something small you can do now, that'll help go towards that goal?

>>737468263
All right, good. It's just a question i has to ask... Now, is there a way you can get to a doctor or a mental health specialist?

>>737468758
Ahh, what was the conference about?

>>737468150
Definitely don't go to violence. It doesn't solve or even help anything.

I say, just try and go find people to be around. People that are good, and that'll support you. Maybe try some sort of group for people similar to you?

Drugs, I'm assuming you mean medication, when used properly can help. But, if you think they're not helping, talk to you doctor and see if you need any changes to your prescriptions.

>>737468617
*hug*

What's up, Anon?

>>737467882
Ah, sorry. you said "video games" so I thought you meant you were playing one.

I think I remember you... Yes! What's new in your world?

>>737465643
> In my 50s in Ohio
> 35 years of driving this body around like I stole it is finally catching up to me.
> 25 years of bad decisions means there's nothing I can do about it.
> Years of untreated diabeetus taking it's toll
> Near constant pain, dick barely works, vision and hearing going.
> Ready to lay this life aside. Christfag so no fear of death, means I get to go fishing and flying with my Pops again.
> God's keeping me here. My heart is getting bad, but God keeps me here. Can't kms, too many people need me.
> Just so tired...

>>737468928
fuck you.
>>737468946
I alread asked a question and you didn't answer it.
>>737469150
why do you think I care beyond getting under the skin of these newbies? I'm just here because I know how easy it is to spoil this for them, and they need to grow skin a little thicker than paper if they want to do these threads.

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>>737468635
Point taken, though what's the potential a puppy has once it becomes an adult of? What's the best it can do? Get run over by a car?

>>737468709
I know right? I'd accept it if they were at leats explaining how a bullet round could also fit a grenade launcher and become a grenade but nope, that's asking too much. Oh, also all the scientific facts the game gives are pretty much lies, if you want a real survival horror game you should play Lone Survivor.

>>737468758
I was able to tell you didn't since you don't sound like a hysterical girl to begin with, you can't even talk with these kinds of people.

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>>737469150
It's not this thread in particular, but their reason to be, these were initially made in order to offer assistance to anonymous, and try to offer some kindness towards them, but some people decided "hey, this is comfy, I'll come to this thread everytime and offer no aid whatsoever and if anything obstaculize and offer mediocre normie tier advice :--DDDDD"
Fuck me, man.
>>737469305
I'm only around for anonymous, at your service, fagget.

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>>737469452
I got lone survivor. Problem for me was him getting hungry all the time and such. I might go back it though.

Well I'm going to go off now. See you people later.

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>>737469429
*hug*

I know I'm just a stranger on the internet, but I really admire that you want to be strong for others...

I get what it means to be tired... Is there anything that you like, that would make things a little more pleasant?

>>737468928
It's just that they were really important to me and I was important to them, but now it just seemed to have ended abruptly.
>>737469187
Yes, I'm scared that they'll reply in a mean way, and most probably, even if they do see me in a negative light, won't be rude about it. But my anxiety is just too much when I think about messaging them. I'm not too sure why things ended the way they did, but one of the worst things I'd like to think is that I wasn't enough and they found someone better. I mean who am I to blame? It probably was my fault. I always find a way to screw thongs up.

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>>737469429
Keep at it, Anon. The harder you work to make things right for those around you, the closer you get to that ultimate goal. It's difficult, and it's tiring. But you've got to keep hiking on for a little while longer.

Remember, every step you're taking, hard as it may be, is getting you there.

>>737469450
I'm sorry, what was it? I'm trying to respond to several posts at once, and I lost it.

>>737469669
Take care, Sunpeak! I'll see you again.

>>737468928
It's just that they were really important to me and I was important to them, but now it just seemed to have ended abruptly.
>>737469187
Yes, I'm scared that they'll reply in a mean way, and most probably, even if they do see me in a negative light, won't be rude about it. But my anxiety is just too much when I think about messaging them. I'm not too sure why things ended the way they did, but one of the worst things I'd like to think is that I wasn't enough and they found someone better. I mean who am I to blame? It probably was my fault. I always find a way to screw things up.

>>737469528
Well then fag if you offer advice, what are some good torrent sites?

>>737469528
Well you're not wrong.

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>>737468617

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>>737468686
Who was that friend you mentioned btw? You know, if he was so curious he could've just asked by themselves.

>>737469669
You totally should recondider giving it another chance, the ending will give you a mindblow, you have no idea how many tears that game made me shed. Later~

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Aww, I'll go out to dinner so I'll have to take my leave.
I will gladly bless the thread again with my presence the next time, my lovely anons.
>>737469452
May death and misfortune infest your pathetic soul for all eternity.
>>737469792
Move on.

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>>737469306
In my own opinion, I think the nozzlehead is too old.
Other than not knowing the optimal height for the bed, I'm not entirely sure why the filament isn't sticking to the bed.
Also seemed like the bed didn't heat up just now, so that's another problem.
-Koi

>>737468323
Oh, I actually do that too, and it sometimes works, sometimes doesn't. Sometimes the library can be a bit noisy which distracts me.

One of the things that I have been doing very recently at home which helped me a lot is set a timer on my phone or computer to count down 10 minutes and then ring. What this does for me is it helps me keep track of how much time has passed because I keep track of how many times the alarm rang. So when it rings 6 times, that means an hour has passed. Another thing I find this very helpful for is keeping me on track; my mind often drifts away for long periods of time, but if the alarm rings, then I get back on track, so I will only drift away for at most 10 minutes.

>>737468758
Those are my thoughts exactly!
This happened to me often, especially when I was still new to reading technical text books. But now I do what you said; I try my best to understand all of the concepts before I move on. Sometimes I end up googling the topic I can't understand if I get stuck on a paragraph for a long time.

>>737469814
why is your thread mostly people blog posting instead of offering advice? if they want to talk about inane bullshit no one cares about, why are they doing it here?
>>737469987
fuck off already.

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>>737469306
Just more of the same with her being a bit sketchy. But I just feel she's sorta inexperienced with it. It did occur to me that maybe she's looking for one of us to have on her show? But that wouldn't explain the signal usage, would it? IDK. Just odd.

>>737469306
> All right, good. It's just a question i has to ask... Now, is there a way you can get to a doctor or a mental health specialist?

Yeah. I've got a therapist, I already know I've got depression and all that jazz. I've been reluctant to go to a psych for meds or anything because of well, the same damn problem I need to fix. I try, get shouted down, don't, hate myself, repeat. If I knew at least somewhat what was wrong I could try to fix it, but idk.

>>737469724
Man, I'd be happy if my feet would just stop hurting. Neuropathy is a Bitch, lemme tell you. Random attacks of some invisible beast biting my toes is what it feels like. And sunburn. Feels like sunburn when I put on socks or shoes.

I start to get chest pains if I go up a flight of stairs too fast, or too many times.

But it's nice to know someone cares enough to ask, honestly. Thank you.

>>737470159
do you need actual advice, or are you just here to shit this place up?

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>>737469528
Yep, that's pretty much what I do.

>>737469821
It's not that you're not enough, it's not that it's your fault. But it may seem like that's the way they see it. I think you should try to meet some more people, develop some more friendships. Having people to talk to can do wonders for anxiety.

>>737469981
He's not on here.

>>737470115
I can't control what other anons or avatars post, so they post whatever they want. I'm sorry if it's not to your liking.

>>737469987
You didn't give me advice (._.)

>>737470328
let's think critically here. who's the one actually sitting this up. emt or you? the guy carrying on conversations, or the one hounding them because they aren't up to your standard?

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>>737470328
Yeah, he needs advice. He's just got a round about way of asking for it.
But don't worry, he'll be fine. Thanks for fuckin asking.

>>737469814
Thanks for the encouragement. It helps.

Love Nausicaa, btw. First Anime feature I ever saw, loved it since. Still wanna build her glider one day...

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>>737470035
Mmm, jeez. One thing after another, huh?

I hope you figure it out. I know something like that would frustrate the hell out of me...

>>737470159
I don't know what to say bud, other than talk to her about it. Just start of with a hi, then normal stuff and just go on from there.

>>737470275
Damn... I get ya there. My ma has diabeetus and I'm really worried about when the nephropathy will kick in.... Her feet are already bad...

Just take it easy, friend... Hope to see you again, and you're welcome.

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>>737470381
I know it doesn't help much, but you shoukd write at the start of each thread
>Leave drama at the gate
Like Reimu used to do.
Anyways, could we talk privately on Discord every now and then? Hm...I think i had your account already.

>>737470381
you could ask them to stop, just like you did to me.
>>737470460
you don't want advice from someone who only helps anons to stroke their ego.
>>737470561
well, since you're falling for the bait, I'd argue I'm not doing all that bad.
>>737470657
then he should just fucking ask.
>>737470733
>pretending you deserve an ounce of respect around here
fuck off Asterisk.

>>737470085
Well, I like that you have a plan for studying this. If it works for you keep doing it.

>>737469987
I don't know if I can.
>>737470381
I've tried meeting people, I have friends. But I'm never the "best friend". Or I'm usually always the one that's teased, and tried to be made annoyed. For example, my best friend always tries to aggravate me in any way possible.

I'm probably sounding really selfish for wanting more or whatever. I hate that I do, I hate that I have to waste your time with my issues. But being bottled up is just so hard.

i have a suicide pact with my best friend. it's been planned for a really long time but it's this Thursday. I only posted this because I'm high, i haven't told anybody else about this. ask me about it dudes, i want to talk about it

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Don't forget, everyone, I love you all. Even if I don't know you, I still love you.

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>>737470720
I guess. Imma stop posting here for now. Apparently some people don't want me here

Story time.

>be me, 23m
>date qt 3.14 from work for ~6months
>break up, go basically no contact for ~1 year
>get new job and don't see ex for 3 more months or so
>get back in touch, she tells me she's been planning to move to Las Vegas for the last 6months
>figure no big deal, we'll fool around for 2 months before she leaves and call it good
>fall head over heels in love with each other
>realize that she's perfect for me, just wasn't ready first tine around
>after a few weeks of being together nearly 24/7 decide that I will move to Vegas after she gets settled in (1k miles away from hometown)
>things are perfect, never been happier, we have a couple tiffs but nothing serious

(Cont.)

>>737470867
grow thicker skin and actually ask or offer advice if you're going to post, anarchist cuck.

>>737470818
>>737468323
>>737468758
Thanks a lot, anons, for your replies and advice; I really appreciate it! <3

Goodnight! :)

>>737470856
Tell us about it, my man

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>>737470733
I don't think I will. I'd rather not turn anyone away, even if they're going to be a troll or just nasty.

You might have it, I post it sometimes. Fenn#4548

>>737470813
I think you and I have different goals for this thread. I don't mind if people have lengthy and irrelevant conversations, as long as we're all civil to each other.

I'll still be here to try to help, for what that's worth.

>>737470829
I used to be that person. A drifter, part of several circles, but nobody's "best friend". I'll tell you something terrible, and you should do it but never repeat it: find somebody below you. Somebody who's worse off, or has problems, or who is young and inexperienced. Be kind to them, become their friend, and they will look up to you. You'll be their best friend, and it'll feel good.

>>737470856
Why did you do it? Are you blood brothers, eternally inseparable?

>>737470867
I don't mind, EMT. You can stay. Pay them no heed.

>>737470856
Vows are spoken, to be broken! :)

>>737470856
Break it and let him die so you could laugh at him at his own funeral

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>>737470813
You say that while hiding yourself thanks to being anonymous, i'd like to know who i'm talking with if that's not too much to ask.

>>737471259
Thank you kindly.

>>737470856
What made you two start this pact?

>>737471138
>>737471259
I'm a dude and she's a chick. we've always been close but since we planned it we started being way more intimate. we actually made love for the first time last night and it was perfect, i held her afterwards knowing she's going to be there at the final moment of my life

>>737471370
we've both been through some intense shit and come from families that arent good at all. we both wanted to die so we thought we should do it together

>>737470870
Cont.

>move to Vegas after doing long distance for 2.5 months
>so happy to finally be with the woman I love so much
>stoked to also finally be out of my parents house
>everything is going perfectly, I'm stressed about getting a job but I'm the happiest I've been in a long time
>spend next 2 months looking for a job with very little luck
>being jobless and on my own stresses me tf out
>turn into a bit of a baby because of it, fall into slight depression
>gf stops putting out, stresses me out even more and begins causing problems between us
>argue fairly regularly about stupid shit
>doing my best to keep myself together
>she starts picking more fights, refuses to cut me any slack about getting a job despite putting out at least 5 applications a day for the last 2 months
>gf starts getting depressed
>slowls turns from the perfect woman to a selfish materialistic bitch
>constantly asking me when I'm gonna start paying rent, despite having agreed that she was gonna handle that shit til I got a job
>finally get a job, spending a less time with gf, making good money amd starting to make friends
>things finally beginning to turn around
>can finally begin to relax and let life get back to normal

(Cont.)

>>737470829
If you don't mind some advice from an old guy:

Daily remind yourself that you deserve to be loved by yourself, first. I've seen it over and over in my life where people seek outside themselves for affection, validation, even just attention. It never works for long.

Once you come to love yourself, truly love yourself as a human being, you'll find that you no longer settle for abusive, hurtful relationships and that people will value you as much as you value yourself. When you love yourself, you are never lonely. Learn to truly love and appreciate your self

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>>737469306
A mixture of topics, broadly speaking we invited presentations on cross-disciplinary topics pertaining to applied science. Keynotes were largely meta-science, regarding current issues in science publication (we had good representation from Nature in that respect).

So I thought the keynotes were interesting, and part of a conversation that needed to begin, and the rest was a bit out of my field. That said, the point of a good conference is to get the right people together, and we did that.

>>737469792
Self pity is no good reason to lose a friendship. Gather up your confidence and talk to them, and if you privately have a good idea of why things might've changed drastically (perhaps a disagreement of some sort) lay the matter bare and resolve it. Nothing will improve unless you act.

>>737471259
>below etc.
I'm going to wholeheartedly disagree with your advice here, and for a simple reason. It inevitably leads to disliking the person, controlling the person, then disliking yourself. Inherent in self-satisfying 'friendships' is some wretched needy viscous cycle.

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>>737470867
No. Fuck that. Stay.
Fuck the trolls. Stay and talk about that which you need to talk about.

>>737471259
it's not just your thread, it's all the other ones as well. people like EMT and Mantis come in and spend 90% of their time doing the exact same thing they could do on the discord server. the exact same stuff you guys said you were going to change a month or two ago.

People can be nice on 4chan sometimes.
Hope is not all lost! :)

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>>737471593
They have a discord and still chat here?

I've been feeling really down lately, I just got all my feeling balled up inside my chest... but I really hate niggers. And jews. And chinks. I just hate them. I hate them for all that they are doing to our country and fucking our women. Please tell me how to stop always thinking about this. Thanks.

>>737471725
exactly, that's my issue with it. threads like this turn into a circlejerk even though they have their own private place to talk.

>>737471259
I honestly don't think I can do that...I mean at least being around them just so I can be the "emotional support". I'll just feel even more selfish.

But...Maybe this is sort of what happened with this person. I started as a friend, a not too important one. Eventually we bonded more and they opened up to me. I became their support, obviously I was happy that finally I meant something to someone. But more than that, I was just happy that my friend seemed to have been getting better. But sometimes they had big problems, I tried to help the best I can. See the thing with me is, I'm not the best for emotional support, I try more to find a solution, but even at that I seem to be lousy at. So my combination of not being a good shoulder to cry on and shitty advice might be what drove them away.

This is why I really think that they just found someone that could provide more than me.

>>737471859
They should rethink things and come back without the circlejerk if they're going to do advice

>>737471751
Stay off race related websites and threads, for starters.

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>>737471473
Are you eager for this, or would you rather you could go on longer with her? Things can be improved, but it's often difficult.

>>737471502
Yeah. It's essentially hedonism in one of its worst forms. I did it once though, and what happened was it turned into something healthy where we see each other as equals. When we started to open up to each other they didn't look up to me so much as respect me as a fellow.

I can't see it working in every situation though. I often give pretty bad advice, sorry.

>>737471593
The threads often do drift away from their intended purpose, don't they? I've tried at times to arrest the shift, but things will go as they may. I can't affect things on a scale much larger than the individual. If the threads are going to turn into a place to chat, that's what's going to happen. I can't help that.

>>737471707
There's always some hope, Anon.

>>737471751
Well, there are some areas in the US that are relatively unaffected by foreigners. You could try moving inland.

>>737471884
They found someone different. You still have all your own merits, they're just different from those of that other person. Perhaps you need to find someone who complements your abilities and strengths.

>>737471960
Thanks for the advice.

>>737472152
moonbitch

>>737471488
I don't know how to do that, I don't seem to be good at much. And I don't have much motivation to do many things.
>>737471502
How? I have crippling anxiety and just starting to type up what I would say gives me chest pain.

>>737472127
Thank you for listening. I've seen these threads and they just keep ending up as circlejerks. But not you, I've seen you do good.

>>737471960
or at least admit that it's an avatarfag thread.
>>737472127
if you want to keep the threads on topic, you can either change the topic or you can cut the fat from this autism storm.

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>>737471502
Wow, you sound like a pretty intelligent person!

Though I can see why you're tired. Sounds like a lot of work. you do this often?
>>737470856
Why do you want to do this? What's the end goal, besides death itself?

>>737470859
*pet*

Love you too, Rabbit.

>>737471707
Hell, just cause I'm on the internet doesn't mean I have to stop being me. That's what I think.

You take care.

>>737471751
If you're serious, I suggest seeing a therapist of some sort.

>>737472186
takes a moonbitch to know a moonbitch

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>>737472272
You made me laugh very hard Anon. I only do the things I do to satisfy my need to feel "helpful".

>>737472359
Well, in our discussion of this we have devolved into the very thing you hate. So perhaps it's inevitable.

>>737470859
Velvet is in my thread? I love you, big guy. Thank you so much for all you've done for me. I'll probably see you again sometime soon.

>>737472359
That too but they'd probably get banned

>>737471484
Cont. (Last one)

>over the next couple weeks, things with the gf start getting better
>after my first weekof work, gf calls and says she's not happy, that she's worried things aren't going to get better
>talk her down, get her feeling better, assure her that with patience things will work out just fine
>another week goes by, things still getting better, I'm feeling close to being as happy as I was when we got back together
>fall for her all over again, start getting more comfortable with the fact that gf has low sex drive (was always our biggest ongoing argument)
>go to work one day, call gf on my break cause she's off work
>she says she needs to talk when I get home
>stomach drops, can already tell where this is going
>she dumps me, turns into TOTAL FUCKING CUNT MODE
>fight about shit, I get mad, she threatens to kick me out, tell her how fucked up that is since she was the one pushing me to move in with her
>realize that I can't stay with her crazy ass long enough to find own place
>don't wanna be homeless, have no money to stay at a hotel, decide to pack shit up and go home
>hardest decision I've ever made in my life but gf has gotten so bad I realize there's no way to stay with her without her fucking all my shit up or locking me out of the apartment
>now living back at home with parents at 24 y/o, working boring graveyard job at a hotel, hanging with the same lame ass friends that I have been
>trying so hard not to fucking hate my life
>fortunately ex turned into a cunt so getting over her hasn't been as difficult as it could've been
>still miss her sometimes, wish I could go back and do things differently
>can't figure out wtf I want to do with my life now that the ex is gone
>spend nearly every night laying in bed trying to figure out how to stop being fucking miserable
>can'

The end.

>>737472486
>I only do the things I do to satisfy my need to feel "helpful".
We're all just satisfying ourselves in the end; at least your self satisfaction helps others .

>>737472127
I've tried time and time again to find someone.
And now I've just sort of lost hope.

>>737472262
Start with "I'm okay, you're okay" and go from there. You should be able to find it in any library.

But until you read that, just stand in front of your mirror in the morning and say to your reflection, "You deserve to be loved, and I love you." Do that every morning, without fail, before you leave for work/school/whatever, until you believe it.

>>737472486
Quit the hugs too. That's pretty homo

kys avatarfags

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>>737472512
Damn... I'm honest to god to hear that it went that way.

Though, have you thought that maybe going away, on your own to another place might help? Sounds like you need a change of environment, obviously.

>>737472512
Build something. Something complex. Doesn't matter what, could even be you gettin swole inna gym. But make something real, something challenging, something you can be proud of. It'll tske your mind off her and help you find a new direction.

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>>737472512
Well, shoot.

Sounds like you need good friends, money, and something to do.

Good friends are hard.

Money is hard.

But I bet you can find something to do that can take your mind off this until you can straighten things up and start moving ahead. What are some possible options? I've always liked target shooting, but you could get into writing or some form of self-expression. Try getting away, find a small apartment or even just start hanging out in a park. The change of scenery could help.

>>737472604
Moral hedonism doesn't seem very bad, but it's very bad. Don't be that way, okay? Be genuine.

Don't fake it, let the good things inside you shine out.

>>737472638
Hmm. I really want to help you, but I don't have anything more to say. I've exhausted my standard meaningless options, and I'm fresh out of helpful ideas. You're not a bad person, you're just in a rough spot at the moment.

Things will change. Everything passes eventually, no matter how painful it is.

>>737472838
I like the hugs though.

>>737472486
no, this isn't what I hate, because at least there's a hint of discussion as to how you could improve your godawful shit stain of a community. meta discussion is better than the wankfest this was earlier.

>>737473309
but if you hate the what the threads are becoming you could just make youre own... leave them be...

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>>737472127
There's no need to apologise for airing your thoughts or opinions, regardless of whether I disagree. It's not the self-serving attitude that I object to, it's more that - unless you're able to gloss over your own motivations - it's a path that can lead you to disliking yourself.

But that's just my experience, I've lead a number of friendships as you describe, with varying motivations, and I don't recall ever ending up on equal terms with the other party.

>>737472262
Whilst the first part is knowing your weaknesses and issues, anxiety among them, the second is developing self control. We've all had to do things that give us chest pains, and make our ears pound, and scalp burn, and you learn from them, and you do them anyway.

Start with a simple greeting, and see where the conversation goes. And, if you can, call them rather than typing. Words are easier spoken than written.

>>737472396
I occasionally organise conferences and similar events, whilst they pay for themselves they're not particularly profitable, so have to be driven by a need to generate discussion (or just to become known within a field, no way to self promote like running the event). In this particular case I took on the work expecting to be able to delegate most of it, unfortunately those I was working with weren't particularly competent. Academics in the sciences tend to lack basic instincts when it comes to communicating with, well, anyone really.

It's fun to run events though.

>>737473037
Tbh I'm glad it went that way too. I learned a lot from the whole experience, and I'm super glad I got away from her before we had bought a bunch of shit together, or proposed to her like I was planning to for awhile. Like looking back, her and I would never have worked out, I was really just blinded by lust/love.

I really want to move to a bigger city, like really fucking badly, but Idk how in the fuck I could possibly afford it. Idk many people outside my hometown and I don't wanna live with randos unless I have to. At this point I'm mostly trying to figure out a career path for myself that could pay well enough to move away on my own. I have a bachelor's in psych, but we all know how useful that degree is

>>737473408
>make your own
because the pseudo-advice community here latches onto anyone making a thread, whether or not it's theirs. they sink the possibility of these to begin with.

>>737473683
you could try on a different board tho

>>737473738
Most boards are slow and probably hate advice

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>>737473458
Well, perhaps the positive outcomes of my suggestion are far more rare than I had thought. It was really not a very good idea.

>>737473821
r9k

>>737473821

>>>/adv/

>>737473880
Haven't been there in a while, I'll check it

>>737473738
on a different board, where this would just immediately be labeled as avatarfagging and banned? these people know what they're doing by sticking to this board.
>>737473848
go ask the other people in your circlejerk that make threads, if they prefer a focus on anons or on people in the community talking about the same shit every day without contributing.

>>737473223
>Don't fake it, let the good things inside you shine out.
I've got good in me, but I also understand hedonism, despite no studying it.
So, I sort of understand hedonism.

Perhaps, you should take your own advice.

>>737473204
>>737473223
Yeah I've spent the last couple months getting my diet back on track and getting in the gym more often again. I definitely do need some distractions, it's just difficult to find the motivation to start something new. I'm also gonna start looking at apartments for myself next week now that I've got some more money. I'm actually getting paid more than I ever have now, so I'm sure that will help.

I just need to get some independence honestly, but it's tough because getting out on my own isn't something I can do overnight, so at this point I'm stuck trying to preoccupy myself until I can get my own place and figure shit out from there.

And honestly, my friends are awesome, they're just all in serious relationships so it's hard to take them out to help me meet people, which means I just have to work on getting comfortable doing that shit by myself.

Thanks for the replys btw, I honestly didn't think anyone was gonna read my story, just figured I'd get it off my chest and that might help.

Imma go smoke some weed and drive around before I go to work now. I appreciate the help anons, good lookin out

>>737474041
So do you think that the peripheral conversation discourages anons from posting about their troubles or whatnots?

>>737474178
It does

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>>737474041
Does it really bother you that much?

>>737474137
Perhaps.

>>737474141
You can make things better, Anon. That's almost always in your power, even if it's difficult. Good luck, and stay safe!

>>737472702
Thank you for the advice, I'll try to follow it. And I do enjoy reading, I can probably find the book in a nearby book store.
>>737473223
I really appreciate the fact that you tried to help. Even if you don't have any more to say, just thank you so much for actually replying.
>>737473458
I feel like talking to them straight up feels like a big step. Maybe I should try to talk to one of their friends just to start small?

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>>737473458
Yeahhh, I get what you mean. They say the more intelligent you are, the more likely you are to be bad at interacting.

Sounds tough, but you seem like you have fun, by what you said.

>>737473615
There has to be another way. I'm sorry I don't have much advice to offer. I just don't know... I wish the best though.

>>737473683
You know we organize these in the discord, we're not randomly latching onto advice threads. You could make your own and most of us wouldn't show up.

hello

>>737474178
I think seeing the same couple of people as the first posters in every thread, and then never responding to anons asking for advice, makes this look like an inclusive community.
>>737474338
why do you welcome people in your advice thread if they aren't asking for or giving it?
>you're not giving advice anon!
yes, I am. I'm talking you how to make your threads less shit.

my roommates dog keeps shitting in the hallway and she dont care.

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>>737474575
hey

I'm thinking of catfshing pedos into sending me 1000bucks on paypal. Any advice on this particular line of work? Any advice on setting up a convincing facebook accounts of jailbait?

>>737474607
how are you?

>>737465643
In an unsocial lame ass how do i get a gf?

>>737474338
>Perhaps.
It'd make me feel better if you'd consider thinking about how you're not that bad of a person, but I also don't want to pressure you to do something you don't want to do.
You may fall into old thoughts out of habit, but you can try not to, change your perspective.

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>>737474644
Do it the Chris Hansen way

>>737474567
except when people show up in one's that don't get posted, or other communities' threads as well.
also thank you for ignoring that one of my main issues is that you have a discord but use an advice thread for your inane conversations.

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>>737474385
Sometimes I try. I hope you figure out something that works. Communication is key. <3

>>737474589
It's not a strict advice-only thread.

>>737474644
Good luck. I've never catfished for pedos, so I couldn't help you there. Sorry.

>>737474744
Shower, shave, comb your hair. Stand up straight and start going places. Greet people in a friendly sort of way whenever you see them, cultivate an air of confidence and friendliness. Then see if you can get into some kind of club or group of people with interests similar to yours.

>>737474762
This thread's not here for me, it's here for Anon. Thank you for trying to help.

>>737474843
I personally don't disagree with you, just wanted to say you could make a thread.

>>737474385
It's no step at all, it's just what you used to do. Even if you just end up with a 'hello, how are you' exchange, you've broken the ice, and you can set about rebuilding your relationship.

As to speaking to their friends, I don't see what that would do to help. If they find out they'll just be confused as to why you're not talking to them, but talking to their friends aside from them. It's just complication that isn't needed.

>>737474535
Well the old joke in the mathematical sciences goes something like:
How can you tell a mathematician from a physicist?
A mathematician stares at his own shoes whilst talking to you, whereas a physicist stares at yours.

>>737474589
I must say, I'm new to these threads and only post occasionally due to time zone differences, but if your complaint is true I do understand how it could exclude anons. I myself was fairly surprised when people replied to my first post here a couple of weeks back, as I thought it was a closed conversation.

-LittleEnglander

I'm moving back in with my parents - halfway across the country - because I'm too depressed to live on my own. Go me!

>>737468219
>>737468686
>>737468709
>>737469306
Im >>737468044
Thanks for the advice and sorry it took a while. I've tried to schedule everything, been working on my health started to jog. As things I do these couple of months? I'm ashamed to say but mostly video games. I know its a distraction and something that just gives temporary happiness but in games there's a direction you go to advance. Maybe I'm looking for directions on where to go too.

I've gotten back to writing poetry, it's easier with the emotions I've been feeling recently. Started just 4 days ago, I can't say its good but it helps release my frustrations with myself. Heck just writing this makes me feel a little more at ease. My previous friends, I lost all contact with them. I'm a person that values privacy so I'm not that active on social media sites.

I think that's also the problem, finding happiness from other people. Because of the job I had its more of helping others achieve something and say I was part of it, rather than be happy for myself because I helped someone.

>>737474943
>It's not a strict advice-only thread.
>This thread's not here for me, it's here for Anon. Thank you for trying to help.
so this thread is for anons, but you're willing to let others post the same shit every thread and not talk to anons at all? at least try and keep your story straight in the same post.
>>737475064
I have in the past and had a few of these people show up acting like it was theirs.
>>737475118
>I must say, I'm new to these threads and only post occasionally due to time zone differences, but if your complaint is true I do understand how it could exclude anons. I myself was fairly surprised when people replied to my first post here a couple of weeks back, as I thought it was a closed conversation.
here's the issue I have, Fenn. this guy felt this way as well, not just some random person picking on you. this is what you need to fix.

>>737475500
Well that's pretty rude of them.

>>737465643
Why my fingers smell like ass?

>>737475555
Quads

>>737475590
Wash your hands, pls.

>>737474943
>This thread's not here for me, it's here for Anon. Thank you for trying to help.
Helping yourself will help me, and dare I say that helping yourself will help other anon.

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>>737475380
Video games are far from the worst way to distract yourself. I'd look into finding some kind of group, maybe a gaming group or writing group, to find people with similar interests. That's always a good way to connect with potential friends.

Do you need to learn to accept that you can feel good about things you've done because you did them and they were good?

>>737475500
Look, I only run threads occasionally. I have little to no control over what goes on, and some people are really sensitive and I don't want to upset them by telling them to stop.

I realize that there are probably better ways to deal with all the issues you've presented, but I can't think of them right now. At the moment the thread's going pretty well; a lot of anons are discussing things and asking for genuine advice. As threads go on it usually ends up this way.

>>737475590
Perhaps you need to wash your hands.

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>>737475500
I agree wholeheartedly, These threads should keep conversation between those with faces at an absolute minimum.

>>737475590
>Why my fingers smell like ass?
Disinfectant?

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>>737475850
But that's hard, and I'm lazy. If I were a stronger person I'd be a good person. This will do.

I need some general advice, ive recently dealt with serious depression and sat in my bed for the whole day and stared at the wall and didn't answer to any of my friends and have lost them all and now Im trying to build myself back up but im still lonely on a daily basis and some days I can't take it and want to go back to just laying in my bed. I need advice on how to relate with people and how to be socially normal.Thanks

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>>737476022
Well, I think you've reached the point where it doesn't come naturally immediately. You need to make an effort to relate, you may even need to smile and pretend at first. But if you try really hard for long enough, you can get up and you can care. You just need to make that effort.

Lying in bed and doing nothing is the easy thing. Do the hard thing. Go out there and enjoy something, even if it's hard. It'll get better if you keep trying.

>>737475867
then maybe you shouldn't run threads if you don't know how to manage them properly.
>>737475890
thanks, worst waifu.

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>>737476180
I never should have started. This will probably be the last one, I'm sorry.

>>737476013
We all have strength inside of us, and we all can be better, no matter how hard.
That's something I should account for more myself; thanks for the conversation.

>>737476291
Practice makes perfect. It's better to that you make these threads rather than having none at all.

>>737476291
thank you for owning up to your failure.

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>>737475500
I will add though, that once I posted (something to the effect of 'what are these threads, and what's with the avatars') I received plenty of helpful replies.

There's a need to strike a fine balance; if there's no sense of community then there's no weight (or comfort) behind the advice provided. Equally, if an overwhelming proportion of posts and only avatar-to-avatar conversation I suspect it can make random Anons feel like they're interrupting something ongoing when they request advice.

So also pertaining to
>>737475890
I think that may be going too far. I think that faces maintaining a light flow of conversation would in fact encourage anons to post, but an overbearing quantity of blog posting is negative.


In any case, it's now late (or perhaps rather early) over here, and I am in need of sleep. So I shall doff my hat and bid you all a goodnight: Goodnight.

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>>737476180
I'm not worst waifu, You're thinking of Esdeath.

>>737476291
But I like your threads, they beat that bar and that shrine /( °~°)/

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>>737476358
I need to find that strength. I'll get there.

>>737476436
Better that someone who knows what they're doing and who actually cares make them.

>>737476515
I'll stop.

>>737476690
I disagree. The bar and the shrine do a much better job and say things that are actually helpful. But thank you.

>>737476291
>This will probably be the last one, I'm sorry.
your threads will be missed greatly

>>737476838
No they don't, they haven't gone meta yet

>>737476838
>I'll get there.
You're not alone on that journey.

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>>737475118
Lol, that's rich! I'll just screen cap that.


>>737475231
People need companionship, so I don't blame you. But take this as an opportunity to improve and to plan things accordingly.

>>737475380
It's good to see that you're working on improving yourself, really. And it's okay to use tools to try and sooth yourself, no shame in that unless your hurting yourself.

And I know, it's hard to try and find happiness within, instead of through others. But I think you just need to find something you love, have passion for.

What drives you?

>>737476022
All I can say is to try and find a place to meet more people, whether it be online or irl. The only way to relate and get better is to communicate.

About the staying in bed, I get that, honest to god. What I can say is to go out, at least once a day, and just walk. You don't need to go anywhere in particular or spend money, but just go outside.

It'll help.

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>>737476842
This is, what, the third one? It won't matter.

I appreciate your sentiment.

>>737476911
>being meta

>>737476928
I know that. But I like to be alone. Somebody will slap sense into me and tell me how selfish I am at some point, and then I'll feel bad and be better.

>>737475867
Hmm good advice, new people to share ideas huh? But where do you find those? I live in a thied world country, in a city that's primarily mountain people?

As for accepting that I feel good because i did something, I could do that before. Now it seems like meaning is lost.

Also I like your thread, it may not mean much but I appreciate the effort.

>>737477053
>not being meta
They too allow the circlejerk and, from what I've seen, have no plans to fix it

Hey uh... yeah Nausicaa is my spirit animal. you ever see the "Warriors of the Wind" oldschool shit? Yeah, even that was transformative for me.

Foxsquirrel for the win!

I started eating lotta fiber lately because I get bad stomachaches

now I have gas but no stomaches

what do

>>737476838
>actually cares
You care, and you know it.

>>737476013
Man this right here - I can't even look at it without hearing that music.

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>>737477197
I've told people in the past, if they don't want to help anons or just want to RP, to stay out of my threads.

>>737477053
>But I like to be alone.
Me, too.

>selfish
We're all selfish.

It's too late, I must leave immediately.

>>737466033
OP I swear you are reaching into my brain and stealing my soul. You know how many times I watched this movie in my living room at 5 am before the rest of my family was awake.

Yeah you got some kind of deep shit going but really - the deep shit IS Nausicaa. The rest is just Bullshit.

>>737477482
his still beats yours

>>737466986
I mean, you can hear her voice right? Not the new Lindsay Lohan (or whoever is exactly the same as her) but the original WotW. YES.

>>737477033
>What drives you?
In all honesty, I don't know anymore. A dream that I lost? Meaningful conversations? An ability to interact with others again? Hmm I loved numbers, I took a course in finance, loved it. But it's been repetitive recently. I used to have a small band, it's nothing special just a couple of friends jamming. I sound like an old fart reminiscing, like wanting that past me back.

>>737477575
no they're the same

bunnyslut has the best

>>737477689
Haven't seen that one, I must see for myself

>>737467557
OMG when she gets that insect to follow her just from swinging that noise-maker thing!

I was only 8 when I saw it first, but I came buckets for whatever the 8-year-old equivalent is. Yes YEs YES!

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>>737477575
:ok_hand: thanks. can I help with anything else? I'll stick around if you want to shit on me a bit more. maybe it'll make one of us feel a little better.

>>737477777
Q U A D S

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>>737477188
It means a lot, Anon. If your city is big enough, there's definitely someone who will care about the things you care about. May take some doing to find them, but could you put out something in the paper or online, or send word around by mouth about trying to start a club or something?

I'm sorry, I'm not great with people.

>>737477197
The threads are very nice though, and they do a lot of good things despite all that.

>>737477275
One of my favorite movies, and hands-down my favorite manga. Glad to meet a fellow fan.

>>737477296
Eating too much of anything is never good. I don't know enough about nutrition to recommend anything though, sorry.

>>737477360
Maybe.

>>737477393
The child singing, or that sweet 80s keyboard?

>>737477482
Hi Jill. Sorry I fucked things up again.

>>737477502
Take care, Anon. Stay safe.

>>737477522
Nausicaa's really something. There's a lot that can be read into both the film and the book, if you look closely.

>>737477575
I will contest that.

I've been feeling kind of empty, I feel this deep anger or depression at random times and I honestly do not know what triggers it, its a dark place I keep landing in and I don't know how to find my way out. I'm working my dream job have a good girlfriend and almost everything I wanted since I was younger but I feel lost somehow.

>>737477824
t h e y ' r e a c t u a l l y q u i n t s I ' m a n i d i o t

>>737477777
THE QUINTS HATH SPOKEN, NAUSICAA REIGNS SUPREME

>>737477843
Anon here.
You didn't fuck anything up.

>>737477821
Not the anon but post feet

>>737478043
it's a guy

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>>737477843
nothing's fucked up, hon. don't worry.
>>737477883
what do you feel like you're missing out on, then? what's the missing puzzle piece?
>>737478043
will this do?

>>737478110
I don't mind :^)

>>737477777

witnessed

>>737477777

I wish I understood what was happening but fucks damn it, we are in a Nausicaa threat and I rolled quints. If anyone out there doesn't know why we give a shit so much about Naus, Kushanna, Yupa, Asbel, and Kurotowa, you should take this as a sign from the "great" 4chan gods to go

FUCKING BE HUMAN.

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>>737478135
This character looks familiar, is from gaem?

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>>737477645
What can you do now, that's in your control?

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>>737477821
I wasn't upset, but now I'm upset. Something is wrong, and I don't know what. Part of it is my fault, but I don't think all of it is. I don't know how to make things better. God, my head feels stuffy.

I'm sorry Jill. Tell her I'm sorry, that I messed something up and didn't understand how to fix it.

>>737477883
Is there something missing here? Do you not have everything you wanted, or have you started to think that what you wanted is not all it seemed?

>>737478009
I did, actually. A lot.

>>737478135
I think I really actually did though.

>>737478273
Kurotawa was the best. My favorite character by far.

>>737478320
VA-11 Hall-A

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>>737478320
is from gaem, yes.
>>737478511
nothing's messed up. we'll talk you through this.

>>737478655
>>737478658
Is it gud?

>>737478511
the only thing that's messed up is your attitude

you were fine until now

jesus christ all avatarfags are attention whores

>>737478511
It's great how you're mixing in the movie and the graphic novel. Not that I think they really say the same thing (obviously not), but they are really part of the same dialog, taken to different extremes.

After my quint, I am totally convinced you are the real hero here.

>>737478730
If you like visual novels, cyberpunk, alcohol and cute girls yeah.

>>737478511
Anon again
No you didn't. A lot of anons got their questions answered, by you! And you sparked a discussion on how to improve threads. I think the same empathy you have for others makes you a little bit self critical. You're doing fine. Don't give up now.
But you also now know the toll these threads can take. Its not fucking easy. Be good to yourself. You need to be here.

>>737477843
I don't have much charisma to try and start a group. I'm also not great when it comes to meeting new people. I feel stuck and all I could do is watch.

>>737478429
I've been improving my health lately. Going on jogs eating healthier. Aside from that nothing. I get home and see nothing's really changed since yesterday.

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>>737478730
no. and the soundtrack is absolutely awful.
>>737478862
he'll be fine, don't worry. just give him some time.

Well guys, my longest relationship fell apart over the last few months and I'm really bummed out. I thought we were gonna try working it out, but she bailed out of going to the local fireworks show with me about a week ago and we haven't talked since. Today, while at work, my manager showed me a screencap he took of a tinder profile belonging to my now ex-girlfriend and needless to say, I pretty much feel like dying right now. I've been drinking since 4 and I'm not entirely against continuing on for the rest of the night. Or morning I guess.

>>737479176
But why use the character?

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>>737479224
>

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Can I have your Jill folder ?

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>>737478730
I hear it's great, but I haven't played it.

>>737478862
All I'm here for is (you)s after all. Why else would I make such a thread?

>>737478872
Well, I think Miyazaki wanted to explore more of the possibilities of the world he had made with the book; he certainly made it a lot more child-friendly in the film.

I'm no hero, and you should never think of me as such. I just watch anime and post on a pakistanian potato-peeling board.

>>737479018
This thread's turning into a conversation about me. That wasn't the goal. Let's talk about something else.

Thank you for your support.

>>737479151
Hm. That makes things difficult. Does talking to people online help much, or is the magic gone there?

>>737479224
DM me? Fenn#4548
That hurts. Things dying so suddenly like that can really knock you down. It'll wear off, but it won't feel good. It's like a scab growing over an open wound: it itches a lot, but eventually it'll peel off and it'll feel great and new.

>>737479416
Well that's fine, I'm not obsessed with her, I'm just tired of living as it is and this is more of the icing on the cake if you will.

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>>737479567
:^) ?

>>737479224
That is a lousy way to find out she broke up with you. For now, don't drive and don't make any major decisions to do shit until you sober up.

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>>737479224
I'm so sorry, anon. I'm not gonna lecture you about self-medicating with alcohol, I think you deserve a couple. it doesn't go away, but the pain does fade over time. I'm sorry.

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>>737479151
Does it make you feel better about yourself? Do you think it could lead to other things you may like?

>>737479558
I can't even handle it. Thanks OP for this trip, but if I see Naus take any battle damage I'm gonna cry. I hope someone in this thread explores her world for us.

Payce!

>>737479558
Thanks mate, I'll be fine though. Probably just stay up and chain smoke some more.

My girlfriends angry with me because I accused her of ignoring my texts, and now she won't answer my fucking texts.

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>>737479851
Call her a slut, get a better girlfriend.

>>737479851
Sit down and talk with her face to face.
Apologize.

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>>737479851
you could try apologizing, and consider that maybe she was busy with something else?

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Good night Anon's. I'll be checking out.

Please talk to my friends if you need assistance.

And take care, you are loved.

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>>737479765
Take care, Anon. I might see you again sometime.

>>737479766
Take care of yourself, okay? Don't do anything too stupid, just remember that things change.

A smoke might help.

>>737479851
Do you have issues like this a lot? You might consider looking into getting a more recent model.

Jokes aside, talk to her about it if you can, try to apologize and make things right, but if you can't talk to her it won't work. Every relationship pivots on communication.

>>737480208
I've sent her apology texts, but haven't gone to see her yet. I will tomorrow.

Everytime I come on here, they have goddam dicks on my screen!?! I just don't know, why mines?

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>>737480280
Sleep well Rock. Thank you so much for coming, it makes me smile to see your every post. <3

>>737479558
>talking to people online
I feel a bit alive knowing someone out there is listening. One more thing that bugs me, I sound better when I write. I mean I'd like to speak as well as I write. Its hard for me to express thoughts. When I do speak, it seems that I've already overthinked. Losing the will to continue speaking.

>>737479746
It makes me appreciate that I'm alive. I'm not sure if it will lead anywhere but I like the feeling I get after. Like a sense of fulfillment for making an effort to love myself again.

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>>737480293
Make yourself respect, anon.
>>737480539
Update adobe reader.

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>>737480293
if she doesn't respond to the texts, just give her some space. you guys had a fight and need to talk through it, but she also needs time to heal.
>>737480539
try out /hm/, you sure won't see any dicks there.

>>737480539
You mean the ads at the bottom of the page? That's HiroMoot, trying to make money.
You could try adblocker.

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>>737480560
Speaking well takes practice. Nobody's good at conversation right off the bat; we all need some experience with it. Don't stress too much over it, don't focus too much on what other people think of you. But keep doing it! Keep practicing.

>>737480539
Don't look at the catalog.

>>737480908
Reload the page and cancel the reload when it's almost done. The ads load last, so they won't appear. Works on Firefox.

>>737481099
I hadn't thought of that.

where do i download python to mod smash

>>737480930
Thank you, I keep saying things will be better with time. Meet new people and keep practicing. Sound advice and I appreciate it. I'm a fan of your threads now.

>>737480280
Thank you to you too. I appreciate it. Good night.

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>>737481257
From their official website, python is free.

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>>737481257
you could just Google "download Python", anon..

>>737481408
i feel retarded, thank you, bye

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>>737481257
The full python library and IDLE can be downloaded here:
https://www.python.org/

>>737481298
I hope things get better for you. It may take a lot of effort; improvement is never free.