It's Saturday /b/ why are you on here tonight no plans?

le bump

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>>736843218

>>736843218
I work weekends so I hang out with my two real life best friends on weekdays.

>>736843218
i have no friends :( i just dont know where to begin getting a social life. Its because of bad life choices. my friends went to collage or got jobs and moved, and i stayed in shit neighborhood. terrible

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I'm hanging out with my brother and the dumb bitch he calls a girlfriend

27 years old. Make around 300k a year after taxes working in banking. Getting a PhD at a Ivy League uni. 6'3, considered good looking enough to model when I take care of myself. Well respected in the math and physics community.

Rolled around in bed all day thinking about killing myself. Not sure why I've been depressed for so many years when I have what most men would kill for. Thinking about moving to europe and becoming a writer. Or killing myself.

>>736844463
Can I have some money?

>>736844463
Give us some cash before you an hero

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>>736844463

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>>736844270
im sorry anon :(

>>736843218
it's sunday here so this is all irrelevant. if you have an issue, grab a tissue. condolences to your families.

THREAD THEME

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIhNoeKFwbE

>>736845248
Hard to believe i'm that successful, or that i still want to kill myself?

>>736845864
that you would want to kill yourself

more money = less stress

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>>736843218

>>736845948
spoken like a true child. not him btw, just a fully-formed brain and experience.

>>736845948
I think it's chemical. I'm working on getting back into better shape and taking different types of supplements. The money is nice in that it let's me travel and eat whatever I want, but it's like there is this huge gaping hole in my chest.

>>736845948
ha
Haha
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
I thought the same shit till about 8 months ago. It doesn't work.

>>736843218
Well I am eating the pizza already that I ordered and watching a film.

The delivery driver asked if I was enjoying the night, I gave a quick lie and then he asked if I was drinking, I don't drink.

I wanted pizza not feels. If only he knew how bad it really were.

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>>736846350

>>736846128
a void that's missing do you date at all casually?

>>736843218
Don't stalk your ex OP...how can you expect yourself to get over her if you're constantly trying to get all up in her private shit. Forget about your ex, go do some stuff, pursue a hobby, learn something, move the fuck on and you'll be a lot less depressed, trust me.

>>736846220
what doesn't work money? cause I can think of alot of things that'll make me feel better with money. debt, having food for dinner, providing for myself the list goes on.

>>736846523
Last time I had sex was 6 months ago. I'll have bouts of depression that last for half a year to a year, then I'll have sex with a bunch of girls in a few months, they will pressure me into getting into a relationship, and I will reject them. I know what kind of stuff is inside of me, and no one else should have to deal with it. I've already destroyed two girls' lives by dating them.

>>736846430
What is this guy?

>>736846594
>>736846594
im gonna get on some normie shit right now

but idk what happened shes all I think about who she is with, what she is doing. it fucking pisses me off she won't reply to my texts or she'll leave me on "read"

>>736846717
Holy shit you sound like me

>>736846798
its from samurai jack

>>736846631
Can't fix having a shit personality. I thought having mad cash would solve my personality problems which would let me meet people easier. Instead it's just become a large number in my account with no new people in my life.
Don't get me wrong, having lots of money is better than no money, but it doesn't instantly solve all of your problems.

>>736843218
spending my evening spouting bullshit lies to my tinder matches which I won't fucking fuckmeet anyway cause it's 40° and I am wasting all my libido on fapping to tranny porn and cheap but busty hookers

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low key chillen tonight pic related

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>>736846954
no you're right, im being ignorant as fuck

>>736844270
Same.. I feel

>>736846954
This. It's like checking off some things on a very, very big list.

>>736843218
>manlet
>dicklet
>ADHD
>bipolar depressive
>clumy and uncoordniated
>horrible memory
>socially awkward
Why even live

>>736846933
what did anon mean by this?

also nice dubs.

>>736846835
Because you're an obsessive fucking stalker, let that shit go and move on

>>736846999
I have been getting some luck ok OKC but ive been lying to all of them and all I wanna do is go on dates to forget my ex and nothing is working

I see these threads and I laugh.
I use to be a Neet vidya 16 hours and sleep 8 hours, rinse repeat for 7 years.
During this time period massive depression; no job,no gf and no purpose and that uncomfortable feeling of pressure and dissapointment i got from others for being a drain on resource.

Cont.

>>736846999
Nice trips

>>736847161
I only move on for a brief period of time when I drink honestly that's when I truly forget what's going on and Im able to enjoy myself

>>736847350
From an anonymous email, tell her that her accounts have been hacked and that she needs to change her passwords. It's the only way you can move on OP

>>736844463
The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

>>736847517
>no one makes 300k at 27
>no one is 6'3
>no one goes to an ivy league school
>no one is depressed
>nothing ever happens

yea okay

>>736847350
That sucks, It's hard for your brain to get over someone when you keep feeling the same way about them. I hope you can move on soon OP, but remember you have to make conscious effort to do so, or you never will. Most people that don't get over their ex's end up spending like 3 years thinking about them because they give up, don't be them OP. She's not your sky, just a cloud floating by.

>>736847463
>>736847463
I'll just stop doing it all together, in general, I need to

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>go play online games
>greet everyone, ask about the situation, their plans and try help them fix some technical issue
>feel confident and take the leadership of the group giving out sharp orders leading the pack
>people follow my commands for the most part just as told to
>manage to lead mission to success
>everyone happy about our accomplishment
>get asked for contact and friend requests
>realization i can be competent and friendly with people that they actually want me around
>tfw i cant get my shit together irl

i have a girlfriend, shes polish and lives over 5 hours from me. im staying in Europe for school. to many Muslims for me to go out into the streets right now

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I'm going to a small concert at a local hall in town, the woman I've been seeing for the past month and a bit works the bar so I'm getting my drink on, listening to good live music and then leaving with her. I'm most likely gonna do the same thing as last weekend, which is smoke some weed with her and then fuck her brains out, pass out and then go to breakfast together tomorrow.

Life is good anons

>>736847199
I've fucked about 50 tinder/okc chicks past 12 months. All I want is a fucking girlfriend and some cute little babies but all I can do is hitting up girls with my pseudo macho antics.

Hitting 30 this year and still using /B/ as my shrink whenever I am drunk. Sad life.

pls respond

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>>736847659
>She's not your sky, just a cloud floating by.

why you do this to me anon, I didn't think of it that way

>>736843218
>>>/gif/10816371
bump

>>736847258

So enough was enough they threw me out of the house i was homeless for a year.
Slept in abandoned industrial buildings collected cans and bottles for money to eat.
Went to a job class got trained in a job field got clothes and job placement.
Worked so far for 3 years in this job field.
Have my own place to stay my bills paid got my own vehicle got a woman with me.

Still have depression infact its worse x3
So tfw no gf
Tfw no money
All full of shit cuz when you get those things the hole thats sucking in your soul is still fucking there and probably worse since you now have the stresses of respobsibility.

Now i look back on the days i had nobody depending on me and wish i was that neet again sometimes

>>736848076
interesting so you fucking these girls arent making you happy? you'd rather have 1 girl all to yourself?

I'm 32 and I'm friends with this 21 year old girl who struggles with depression and anxiety. I've basically become her therapist, because she tells me everything including, all her sexual encounters, and any risky sexual things she does. She tells me because she trusts me, yet I can't stop jerking off when she does.

>>736848222
nice get and im staying far away from that fucking thread

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>play HotS or whatever with friends until I'm tired af
>wonder why I'm so afraid of people
>read erotica for a while
>usually brother/sister wincest
>be too absorbed in arousal to remember how abusive my parents and ex-boyfriends have been
>masturbate a bit
>if I climax, I'll just pass out there
>if I don't, I'll probably poke around on craigslist, write in my journal for a while or lust for one of my ex's (thankfully I don't drink)
>sleep eventually?

>>736848464
id rather have my situation than be in the friend zone honestly

>>736848802
dont know any guys that read erotica and say "climax"
weird

>>736848076
“I was also told that sex problems are a favorite subject in your youth organizations too, and that there are hardly enough lecturers on this subject. This nonsense is especially dangerous and damaging to the youth movement. It can easily lead to sexual excesses, to overstimulation of sex life and to wasted health and strength of young people. You must fight that too. There is no lack of contact between the youth movement and the women’s movement. Our Communist women everywhere should cooperate methodically with young people. This will be a continuation of motherhood, will elevate it and extend it from the individual to the social sphere. Women’s incipient social life and activities must be promoted, so that they can outgrow the narrowness of their Philistine, individualistic psychology centered on home and family. But this is incidental.

“In our country, too, considerable numbers of young people are busy ‘revising bourgeois conceptions and morals’ in the sex question. And let me add that this involves a considerable section of our best boys and girls, of our truly promising youth. It is as you have just said. In the atmosphere created by the aftermath of war and by the revolution which has begun, old ideological values, finding themselves in a society whose economic foundations are undergoing a radical change, perish, and lose their restraining force. New values crystallize slowly, in the struggle. With regard to relations between people, and between man and woman, feelings and thoughts are also becoming revolutionized. New boundaries are being drawn between the rights of the individual and those of the community, and hence also the duties of the individual. Things are still in complete, chaotic ferment. The direction and potentiality of the various contradictory tendencies can still not be seen clearly enough. It is a slow and often very painful process of passing away and coming into being.

>>736848936
I'm not a guy

guys also don't read, they watch

>>736848204
Because I praise the truth. Besides, it's a very good way of thinking about it.

>>736848807
I dont want to date her. when she was 16 we fooled around alot, but she was afraid of intercourse, just anal. We stopped talking for a while. Then she reached out when she got really depressed and ever since then I've been her shoulder to lean on i guess. But I have no desire to date her. I just jerk off to her experiences.

>>736848986
All this applies also to the field of sexual relations, marriage, and the family. The decay, putrescence, and filth of bourgeois marriage with its difficult dissolution, its license for the husband and bondage for the wife, and its disgustingly false sex morality and relations fill the best and most spiritually active of people with the utmost loathing.

“The coercion of bourgeois marriage and bourgeois legislation on the family enhance the evil and aggravate the conflicts. It is the coercion of ‘sacrosanct’ property. It sanctifies venality, baseness, and dirt. The conventional hypocrisy of ‘respectable’ bourgeois society takes care of the rest. People revolt against the prevailing abominations and perversions. And at a time when mighty nations are being destroyed, when the former power relations are being disrupted, when a whole social world is beginning to decline, the sensations of the individual undergo a rapid change. A stimulating thirst for different forms of enjoyment easily acquires an irresistible force. Sexual and marriage reforms in the bourgeois sense will not do. In the sphere of sexual relations and marriage, a revolution is approaching in keeping with the proletarian revolution. Of course, women and young people are taking a deep interest in the complex tangle of problems which have arisen as a result of this. Both the former and the latter suffer greatly from the present messy state of sex relations. Young people rebel against them with the vehemence of their years. This is only natural. Nothing could be falser than to preach monastic self-denial and the sanctity of the filthy bourgeois morals to young people. However, it is hardly a good thing that sex, already strongly felt in the physical sense, should at such a time assume so much prominence in the psychology of young people. The consequences are nothing short of fatal. [...]

>>736849087
I can feel my brain trying to think about her and what you said and the 2 ideas colliding and its making things much clearer im not even kidding

fuck this captcha

>>736843218
whatching this: https://youtu.be/EFbY2pmoRnA

I fucking hate myself. I'm not good enough for anyone,or to do anything. Why would a good god allow someone like me to be born?

>>736849192
“Youth’s altered attitude to questions of sex is of course ‘fundamental’, and based on theory. Many people call it ‘revolutionary’ and ‘communist’. They sincerely believe that this is so. I am an old man, and I do not like it. I may be a morose ascetic, but quite often this so-called ‘new sex life’ of young people and frequently of the adults too seems to me purely bourgeois and simply an extension of the good old bourgeois brothel. All this has nothing in common with free love as we Communists understand it. No doubt you have heard about the famous theory that in communist society satisfying sexual desire and the craving for love is as simple and trivial as ‘drinking a glass of water’. A section of our youth has gone mad, absolutely mad, over this ‘glass-of-water theory’. It has been fatal to many a young boy and girl. Its devotees assert that it is a Marxist theory. I want no part of the kind of Marxism which infers all phenomena and all changes in the ideological superstructure of society directly and blandly from its economic basis, for things are not as simple as all that. A certain Frederick Engels has established this a long time ago with regard to historical materialism.

“I consider the famous ‘glass-of-water’ theory as completely un-Marxist and, moreover, as anti-social. It is not only what nature has given but also what has become culture, whether of a high or low level, that comes into play in sexual life. Engels pointed out in his Origin of the Family how significant it was that the common sexual relations had developed into individual sex love and thus became purer. The relations between the sexes are not simply the expression of a mutual influence between economics and a physical want deliberately singled out for physiological examination.

>>736849181
oooooh ok thats alot better I think lmao0

>>736843218
fam are you me?
use to be logged into my exs facebook, and ig to see what she was doing and who she was talking to and shit. drive by her house, found her new house, it was bad for awhile but im past that

move on anon

>>736849350
It would be rationalism and not Marxism to attempt to refer the change in these relations directly to the economic basis of society in isolation from its connection with the ideology as a whole. To be sure, thirst has to be quenched. But would a normal person normally lie down in the gutter and drink from a puddle? Or even from a glass whose edge has been greased by many lips? But the social aspect is more important than anything else. The drinking of water is really an individual matter. But it takes two people to make love, and a third person, a new life, is likely to come into being. This deed has a social complexion and constitutes a duty to the community.

https://www.marxists.org/archive/zetkin/1925/lenin/zetkin2.htm

>>736849022
I sent you a DM maybe we can talk sometime

>>736849346
to whatc this tipe of shit: https://youtu.be/EFbY2pmoRnA

>>736849414
what did u do in between to get over it

>>736849575
You need to stop

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Pretty happy tbh

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>>736849517
no thanks. People that "wanna talk sometime" just want to pretend to be there for me so they can have their quickie hookup and ditch me the moment they find someone more appealing.

>>736849414
I used to log in to the facebook/email/myspace accounts of girls I knew back in the day when security was lax. I found out the true nature of girls back then. They are horny as fuck, and just as much dogs as guys are.

>>736849987
the girls that screech about how they're oppressed by the patriarchy are either closet trans (/pol/ tier conservative) or too autistic to acknowledge that other people might be different from them.

saying this as a girl with more male friends than female friends lol. We all want sex, guys are just more open about it.

>>736849956
>implying im in your area :(
but hey if you don't wanna talk then fine lol

>>736849619
I realized that she didnt give a flying fuck about me. She led me on, cheated on me and used me. She was never coming back and even if she did why would i want to take her back. id rather be alone than be a bitch.
I realized that looking at her shit and driving by her house would never lead to any happy realizations or outcomes.
Youre never gonna find a secret letter proclaiming her love for you in her email anon. Shes gone bro.
Youre gonna get over her sooner or later, might as well be sooner.
One day i just logged out, and havent looked back since

>>736848986
>>736849192
>>736849350

that's just sad bullshit from introvert who didn't get laid, that's garbage man

didn't apply 100 years ago, it's irrelevant now

stop clinging to shit like this else there are no breaks on your turbo autism train

>>736850340
Yes this I found out being so ignorant to how girls are that they are very sexually active just like men lmao

>>736849323
I'm glad what I said helped you OP, It's completely correct, it's not the only analogy btw. An even better one would be, she is not your world, she is just an island, you can choose to stay on that island for as long as you like, but once you leave, you should never go back to it. If you make her your island, you can leave whenever you like, but if you make her your world, then you are trapped. The reason you always think about her is because you have made her your world, your everything, so you cannot escape her, the thought of her. Understand that she should never be given a role of such importance, which is why she needs to be an island and nothing more.

>>736849987
exactly. this bitch had dudes all in her DMs and she would entertain them all.

>>736850340
I found out that some girls, who seem faithful arent at all, I found out that some girls who seem innocent are closet freaks. I found out that all girls are just as sexual as guys. I found out that a girl who I thought I knew pretty well was sleeping with 4 different guys and had slept with 10 different guys in a month period

>>736850716
right? Girls complain about guys sliding in their DM's or sending dick pics. But it actually works.. If a guy has a big dick, its an instant response from pretty much every girl taken or not.

>>736843218
Im getting drunk by myself and I feel fantastic.

Soon il smoke a cigagarette thats been pushed and blessed by the virgin marys sweet cunt.

>>736850974
Can confirm, send dick pics to chicks on the reg and worst response I got was a "no thank you!", best response? Laid multiple times with multiple women. It's like in middle school/high school, all the girls said they didn't masturbate. All a byproduct of feeling ashamed of their sexuality.

OP here I need to get out and get some air gonna let the thread die now thank you all for your responses really helped stay classy /b/

I'm working today/tonight but spent majority of the day browsing /b/ and doing what personal shit I can do from work, and tomorrow me and gf going to concert. Yesterday I drank all day and cleaned my house.

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>>736846954
same boat, agreed. Fuck I'm comparatively rich, but so fucking lonely. I go to pubs and buy drinks for random girls in India - a country where one night stands du not exist and girls shout rape if you say hi to them.

Money won't solve anything for you anons, it's a battle you have to fight yourself.

>>736850442
>pretending to have read something clearly beyond his comprehension
2/10 because i replied

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>>736848394
when you're beyond puberty and the blatant mindless narcissism displayed all over the world in the form of selfies and shit, you realise life's too short to waste on a new vagina every day.

you realise you want to wake up next to the one person who makes it all worth it, who makes it easier to sail through the day.

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>>736848226
true anon. money is not going to fill the void in our souls.

I sleep with underage girls because they are the only ones who don't realize how big of a losed i am

>>736850461
It's because of a few things.
1) Guys are typically loud and proud by nature, and many will openly slut-shame a girl if she's been with too many guys
2) Most of the common religions have a huge emphasis on rephrasing ignorance as purity, and selfishness as loyalty; this belief permeated into modern culture. Because of this, girls are encouraged to either know absolutely nothing about sex and their bodies (i.e. no masturbation), or pretend they know less about sex than they actually do.
3) Girls are submissive by nature, and will try to avoid being slut-shamed by either not hooking up freely or lying about their encounters, or attempt to push back against the norm and not be taken seriously.

Tack that onto all the sexual taboos bred in ignorance (gay sex, transsexuals, polygamy, incest) and the taboo of sex on its own, and you've got a world where the majority of girls all try to pretend they aren't horny as hell at the surface level.

tada

I could probably write a fucking essay on why people don't talk about sex lol

>>736850974
honestly, random dick pics from total strangers are a little weird, but I'll admit it's a good show of confidence and a surefire way to signal you're not interested in just being friends.

Plus we can judge how full you'll make us feel lol.

>>736850787
Lol, I'm a little envious ngl. That takes some serious confidence.

>>736852946
Niga thats the gayest shit i ever heard

>>736853244
it's ok you're young. go have fun

>>736843218
Anon, move on. I was in the same funk as you, but stalking her won't change a thing.

>>736853223
yeah I read that too. I pretty much figured out that with an average sized dick I needed to learn how to eat out a girl properly, because I can't possibly compare to a bigger dick.

I also, learned that girls compare notes on guys way more than guys do on girls.

im basically just first-world-probleming here but thats what this is for eh?

19 years old, started uni last year because i wanted to get away from my family and because i do like the general topic im studying (IT). fucked up my social life pretty much cause i moved 400km, didnt really find anyone at new place. fucked up my first semester because it was winter, didnt really take care of myself, couldnt motivate myself to get my ass outta bed. started this semester with more energy, kinda got everything done for a month unt i again kinda broke down again, this time cause i got confronted with the topic of 'am i trans' and all that stuff. falling into emotional holes i cant really pick myself up from since then, pretty much missed everything at uni for 6 weeks now with exams coming up.

saw a psychologist who told me that, from her view, i most likely have heavy depressions (lel) and i should go to a clinic to sort things out so i have my head clear for more important topics then (education, identity). i also do seem depressed episodes since about 4-5 years.

18-fag here, so sorry for being new to all of this. This shit is legitimately scaring me.

>>736843218
Just drink. It helps me but I only have a couple days to drink a week because of my schedule.

Im in the same boast minus stalking. 4 year relationship soon to be engagement down the drain. Fuck my life I wanna die this shit hurts. Happened 1.5yrs ago still not over it or hooked up/ had sex/ talked to another female.

>>736853846
ok, honestly, if you want to practice eating someone out, get some of those jello or pudding cups that parents would put in kids lunches, and eat it without a spoon.

>girls compare notes on guys
yeah, what did you think the joke, "we could talk about boys" was?
besides, there's so many subtle things you can talk about with guys; girls are just butt, boobs, legs and face.

>>736853959
>this time cause i got confronted with the topic of 'am i trans'
>depressed for about 4-5 years
>recommended to go to a clinic before resuming studies
fuck, this sounds too much like my life

Is there any chance you can lean on your parents for support while you're struggling?

>>736854412
oh I already learned lol.

And I knew girls talked about guys but I thought it was all just emotional, not sexual lol.

subtle things like?

>>736846954
no issues with personality for me, money would solve all my problems at this point

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>>736855016
>fuck, this sounds too much like my life
whats going on, anon?
>Is there any chance you can lean on your parents for support while you're struggling?
financially, as long as they dont know about all this, yes. due to living in germany and stuying here i do have a relatively good student loan system. i dont expect my family to accept anything if i would tell them about the trans topic as theyre originally polish so rather conservative.
sometimes thinking about suicide which is probably why my psychologist wants me rather in a clinic than here without a social life. funnily enough my depression is more like really hard lethargy, the forced acceptance of everything as it comes and not the will nor power to get anything done (uni, sports, even videogames)
>tfw alright assest for a man, tall, relatively male build, blonde (but with hairloss) and blue eyes but this is the opposite of what i wish to be

>>736855315
I mean, there's a little bit of emotional stuff, but it's more like, does he put pleasing you before pleasing himself? Will he cum in your hair or on your clothes or anywhere else that's obnoxious? Do his abs interlock, or are they symmetrical?

One girl was talking about waiting for the AD (athlete dick) to show up to parties, aka the college guys that make an effort to stay in shape and just blow everyone else out of the water. Personally, I look for the soccer players, but I know a lot of girls that prefer a guy with a hockey scholarship.

>>736847517
*autistic works of fiction.

>>736853959
Sounds like you should just chop your dick off and then go back to uni
You could make it harder but why?

>>736856302
I got the impression if a girl fucked a guy who was amazing in bed, but wasn't in a relationship with that girl (or was in a relationship with a girl outside that social circle) other girls would actively try and fuck him

1 year away from Associate Science degree. Planned to enlist afterwards but having Catch-in-throat fear of not being able to get the specific score I need for my desired rate. Can't into even basic algebra. Failed the remedial course my very first semester at Uni. I would rather anhero than stay in my home town and never accomplish anything
>T. Red neck with aspirations.

>>736855901
I'm mid-late transition (HRT for a year, currently fulltime and passing), and my mom wants me to deal with my crippling depression/anxiety without missing a beat between work and school. She's saying that it's my fault I'm depressed, and that I chose to do this to myself.

I don't know where I'm going to live or how I'm going to eat this fall, much less whether I need to get a student loan even though my parents promised to pay off my education in full. I'm fortunate that my relatives are fairly loaded, so they might be willing to help me for a little while, but I doubt I'll get the support I need from my shitty parents, even though they each make my yearly tuition in a month or less. All they do is complain about how expensive it is for me to barely scrape by, when they're planning to save enough so that they can retire at 50.

>>736847070
lol, have fun getting rated by smelly immigrants

>>736856621
i mean, i could kill myself then aswell
>bandages here for someone who actually needs it
>funeral + grave n shit cost loss than continuos hrt

>>736856752
Maybe I'm just prude and have prude social circles, but I don't see that as much. I wouldn't be surprised to see that with more popular girls lol.

>>736857059
>funeral + grave n shit cost loss than continuos hrt
Maybe over span of 10 years without insurance, sure, but my HRT costs are around $250 a year. It's the other stuff (electrolysis, FFS, SRS, establishing a new wardrobe from scratch) that tends to get pricey.

>>736857434
Ya could be. I knew mostly trashy girls

>>736853223
yeah, ur a whore

Just got home from a date and chilled with my family :) it was a good day

Just got home from a date and chilled with my family :) it was a good day .

>>736843218
I do the same shit OP, even logged into her Facebook to read her chats. She changed her password a little bit ago because she found out.

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>>736857032
>fulltime and passing
well now i do want to kill myself :)
>tfw never pass

>She's saying that it's my fault I'm depressed, and that I chose to do this to myself.
that doesnt even make sense, i hope you can have less contact to her at some point as that doesnt seem to help you at all. optimally she would admit that it may be an issue outside of your own decisionmaking
>All they do is complain about how expensive it is for me to barely scrape by, when they're planning to save enough so that they can retire at 50.
well, i guess thats clearly your parents behaviour being quite wrong but i assume you wont be able to change that just like that. id suggest trying lo live off of your relatives if its not possible in another way but then again i feel like i cant really offer you any proper advise /:

>crippling depression
what brings you down, anon-chan?

>>736857566
>death is not financially more efficieant than being alive
goddamnit anon

>>736857659
I'm sure my sister would know better than me lmao. I never really had that window to grow and make mistakes.

Just got home from a date and chilled with my family :) it was a good day

>>736843218
I hugged my cat, he snapped at me. A couple cm up and I would have lost my eye. This was right after I thanked God for giving me a creature that loved me so much.

>finish closing shift
>go home
>drink vodka
>wait for drug dealer to drop off cocaine
>do cocaine
>watch animu on hulu
>masturbate
>drink more vodka
>pass out (not sleep, thats for normal people)
>wake up
>repeat
Such is life for an autistic wageslave. I wish I had a gf.

>>736843218
>No friends
>got a girlfriend, first girlfriend
>she becomes obsesive, stalker, crazy
>broke up a week ago
>hacked mi emails and accouts
>got them back eventually
>blocked her in all social media
>all alone
>despite all i miss her
>spent day watching clarence, remembering childhood
>its my birthday

Im out of country for work and my girlfriend is going to get drunk with her friends at a party tomorrow and im dead afraid that she blacks out and cheats on me

>>736859033
Happy birthday anon, I'd share my drugs and alcohol with you

>>736859033
Hope its a good one Anon.

>>736843218
Well.. I just got a new girlfriend a week ago. She gives great fucking head and has pretty damn tight holes so i agreed to be her boyfriend. We had plans to go for A dip at the lake then go back to her place and go to pound town on her tight little pussy. From the start, i knew she wasn't good girlfriend material. she has at least a dozen guys on the hook right now. And is still talking to them after a week of being in a relationship, And she decides to tell me that she loves me..

>loves me?
>obvious bullshit

So I gave her a chance to own up to her bullshit and stop talking to all these dudes and the dumb bitch is still thinking she can play me like a chump. So I'm kinda pissed the fuck off. And am giving the bitch the cold shoulder till she fucking checks herself.

>>736858372
>never pass
you haven't tried. Faggots always try this shit, and they just end up developing BDD to complete the narrative. It's fucking mentally ill.
>optimally she would admit that it may be an issue outside of your own decisionmaking
she's a TERF. She blames me for my problems and hers, and if I call her abusive or manipulative, she just starts acting like the victim.
>I'd suggest trying to live off of your relatives
I have this internalized feeling that seeking help is weak. I was always hit and gaslit for telling people my parents were being abusive and negligent, and I was always so isolated that I rarely got to see what a normal family looked like. I was always told "it could be worse" and that I should be grateful instead of crying all the time, and whenever I saw people with loving families, my mom would dismiss it, saying, "a parent's job isn't to be their kid's friend", or that there's no manual, so it doesn't matter how shitty and controlling and morally disgusting you are.

>what brings you down
Transition sucks. The early stages are lonely and discouraging.
Parents don't care about how I'm doing, and have to witness a mental breakdown to understand how hard things are getting for me. They think I'm making a mistake, and that transitioning is a choice. They think that barely paying for my food is enabling me to be a NEET. They keep pushing this agenda on me that I'm fully functional and capable of fending for myself.

>goddamnit anon
you shouldn't lie to yourself just so you can believe it's better to an hero than it is to struggle.

>>736843218
>gf is on her way over to deliver a subway sammich
>guest pc is up and running for her to play games on with me when she gets here
>just texted me to say she bought a 36 pack of condoms too, should be a fun night
>best friend waiting in the wings to come over after I'm done with dinner and dessert
>his pc is portable, going to have a mini lan party with my closest people
>better still, I recently started playing games again with my old man
>stocked up on alcohol, marijuana, new vidja and snacks
>feels good

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>>736843218
Idk what ur talking about anon? Im outside about to head to the movies with the 2...

Lurn to get the clover app fgt...that way tou can be outside and stll 4chan while waiting for friends and ubers....

>>736843218
>I stalk my EX to see who's she with by driving by her place to snoop

Hows that working out for you?

>>736844441
off by 3, third wheel

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>be me
>year ago
>friend invites me to a group call
>him and 2 girls.
>ok
>they're pretty nice, good looking, funny.
>end up falling in love with one.
>they lowkey hate eachother.
>something happens, dont remember, they fuck off for like 6 months.
>one day, get text from Chromosome One.
>says she wants to talk again.
>start group call again.
>each time. massive fight between C1 and friend.
>cant fix it
>they vent to me
>depressed (more than usual) for a month
>everything goes to shit.
>C1 texts me intermittantly every now and again.

It hurts to live at this point. I cant do anything, socially inept.

>>736844463
>working in banking. Getting a PhD at a Ivy League uni.

I have a hard time believing this part. You wouldn't have a fucking saturday off.

>>736860714
what is a group call? like you all get on skype or something?

>end up falling in love with one.
>they lowkey hate eachother.

really confused here. why don't you just talk to C1 you love?

>>736860847
this

>>736860847
socially inept
hate myself, dont know how she feels about me.

>>736861179
How are you going to know if you don't ask?

>>736861179
well I have some good news for you! you can do something about that.

everyone has to go through this bullshit. just send her a chat, and talk to her.

don't talk to others

do it now. send her a message NOW you fuck

>>736861179
>dont know how she feels about me
there's literally only one way to figure it out, and you'll never even have the chance to hear a yes if you assume they'll say no

>>736844441
Steve?

>>736859827
>you haven't tried.
lets look at it realistically
>6'1
>hairloss
>male stature
>relatively deep voice
>male + big hands and feet
its quite uncommon for women to have all this so one of the first associations will most likely be 'thats a guy'. voice is something that will change due to training admittably, if i do sound female is quite questionable though
>she's a TERF. She blames me for my problems and hers, and if I call her abusive or manipulative, she just starts acting like the victim.
well i at least wouldnt call someonr manipulating ir abusivey these are attacks noone will react to in any other way
>I have this internalized feeling that seeking help is weak.
same kek
>I was always told "it could be worse" and that I should be grateful instead of crying all the time
was that told to you by you parents or other people?
>and whenever I saw people with loving families, my mom would dismiss it, saying, "a parent's job isn't to be their kid's friend", or that there's no manual, so it doesn't matter how shitty and controlling and morally disgusting you are.
actually it is a parents job to be a trustworthy person to talk to for their child. tells one alot about your parents
>Transition sucks. The early stages are lonely and discouraging.
do you have some friends that assist you?
>parents n shit
well, i do understand your parents point of view from a pure analytical point of view, i obviously dont approve it, theyre not good parents

>you shouldn't lie to yourself just so you can believe it's better to an hero than it is to struggle.
well, an heroing would be the last mistake id do instead of thousands to come