I think about killing myself everyday. I've been high for

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I've never had anyone to hold me. Only one girl. I dated her in highscool for a long time. We broke up. She died last year.

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Im 24 years old but yesterday I cried in my room for hours

>>735548783
Lol faggot

>>735548902
My friend killed himself and it's all that's playing in my head

>>735548252
It gets better. Don't give up

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Xanax sucks. You enjoy blacking out with almost no euphoria? Dammit. Shoot some diamorphine up your ass and wear an exit bag. Goodnight OP.

>>735548252
We all do. Act accordingly

>>735548252
You may not give a shit but other people do, don't be a fucking coward. If you cant muster the willpower to stop being a faggot yourself then get help.

>>735548252
Buy bitcoin and Live a good life.
Money fixes it friend. Listen.

Then you're being ungrateful for that xanax, if you want to die then do it and quit giving xan culture a bad name. Xans are for cool kids not depressed losers

>>735548252
As long as Xanax is prescribed to you, getting high shouldn't be a problem.

>>735548783
Better than bottling it up /b/ro--38yo that spent the night crying by himself.

I've been drinking 4 nights in a row OP, try not to do anything stupid. Maybe things will turn up one day. We don't have a choice to be born, but it's a miracle to be alive.

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>>735550655
Can confirm , used to pop half a zans drink two shots of hard liquor and go out almost every weekend eat fine sushi and beer, converse with anyone and go home and take a lil snooze.
>faggots who can't handle that are faggots who suck dick and expect a "high" from it.
It's ideally meant to show you what life is like when you're not being a sad fag and hopefully you choose to try to emulate that lifestyle at one point without xans.
Only bitches who die from it are queers who keep using their dose to chase the high while killing their liver and kidneys.
>how your friend died by the way op?

>>735548623
cute girl
>>735548783
nice $boys
>>735550790
at least you can cry

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>>735548252
You don't care about anything or anyone, and yet, here you are on 4chan begging for attention like the faggot you are. And why? Because you do care, you care enough to post and crave people's reactions.
So here's your attention faggot. (You)

>>735551101
>4 nights
>amateur hour

>>735551459
You're right.

@OP if you really wanna take your life please do allah a favor and build an improvised explosive device using a pressure cooker
look up for the instructions on google, you can find them in the "inspire" magazine its named "how to build a bomb in the kitchen of your mom"
it takes about two days to finish one, but its worth it, quick and painless suicide and you do allah a great favor by erasing a bunch of disbelievers, bismillah

That come down is going to be a bitch, no lie.

>>735553078
I don't really want to kill myself it's just a thought that won't go away

>>735548252
Read the power of vulnerability

>>735553340
That's life, my friend. All our parents lied to us. Life is for the people who haven't given up yet.

>>735548252
Faggot, Darwin yourself out of this planet please

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I'm only on this website begging for attention because I have nobody in my life who I can talk to about anything.

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>>735548252
>OP wants to kill himself
>Tries killing himself on Xanax
>Does not realize the LD50 (lethal dose of xanax) is thousands of mg (not even kidding)
>Ends up going into a coma
>wakes up with dementia and keeps trying to kill himself

>>735553737
Not trying to od on xanxs

>>735548252
No shit bud, thats what xanax does to you. Get addicted to a less trashy drug, even Tramadol would suffice, as shitty as it is. Spend a week off that shit and youll feel better. Its the drug for apathy, literally.

>>735553891
Kratom bud. Buy some on SocalHerbalRemedies. I mightve just saved your life. go on/r/kratom on reddit so you can finally get off that weak excuse for a drug.

>>735548252
How do you get a Dr. to prescribe 2mg xanies? I have had a drug and/or alcohol problem for my entire life and the only time those are useful is if you are on heroin or some other opiate (unless your goal is to take a 13-hour nap).

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>>735548252

>>735548252
I can't wait to re up on bars. Xanax is great, just makes you numb and relaxed as fuck. Maybe you should pass those xannies over to me and try adderall.

>>735548252
Take some MDMA or LSD and come accept the meaninglessness of life and just enjoy the ride. You'll get off the rollercoaster eventually. Until then enjoy the sensations it brings, however fleeting and temporary they are.

>>735554054
Dude Xanax is a useful drug all around. Boring on its own but still nice, and it enhances other drugs and eases crashes

>>735554054
>>735554020
I keep hearing about Kratom I'm going to do some research


>>735554054
I don't get them prescribed I get them from dealers/friends

>>735554214
How do you get the bars though? I have only gotten them in Mexico and had to walk them back stuffed under my ballsack. I have only gotten .5s from prescribed to me.

>>735554054
>>735554020
I keep hearing about Kratom I'm going to do some research


>>735554054
I don't get them prescribed I get them from dealers/friends >>735554121

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>>735548252
>High on xanax
Come again?

>>735554482
Try taking 8 mgs and then tell me you ain't high.

>>735554377
I live in Dallas and everyone sells bars down here

>>735554377
My doctor only gives me .5s too, fuckin sucks but still better than nothing

>>735554763
2mg would make me tired as fuck. I had to pull over my car and sleep because I took a bar once, shits strong. could've been pressed though

>>735554895
Please. Buy bitcoin and look at dnms. Protect yourself.

>>735554763
Fuck, I'm a hardened alchy and half a bar puts me to sleep. I'd imagine since they're both gaba agonists there'd be some type of cross tolerance, right?

>>735548252
Doesn't get you high. Try float therapy bro. Hope you feel better, your life can improve.

>>735555056
No that's just bars.

>>735555093
no cross tolerance but xans and alcohol seems to double the effect

>>735548252
lol what a lying faggot, says he doesnt care about anything yet said all he wants to do is get high, clearly you care about something

>>735555279
I'd imagine that combo would actually make me black out. The only time I've ever blacked out is when I've combined MDMA and LSD, and the blackout is very brief, only about an hour, which is no time at all when you're candflipping.

>>735555340
I guess I worded it wrong. Nothing in life really brings me joy except for drugs

>>735555659
howd you manage to black out from that? I've done a lot of shit on xanax+booze and still can't remember half of it. it pretty much erases your memory lol

>>735555772
then why are you crying about life, if drugs bring you joy become a dealer, or heavy user, people have done that shit before and lived happy..???? depressing people think so awkwardly

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I think I just need a girl to hold me and tell me I'm gonna be ok. Is 24 too old to cut yourself?

>>735556084
nigga..why are you cutting yourself in the first place, wtf is that going to achieve, and yes get a gf its not that hard, use a dating website handsdown not a joke shit is easy hookups and youll actually find someone who cares about you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wMOM34XEi2k
Stop being a little bitch, accept existencial dread as the oportunity of grow and development

>>735555856
I just don't remember the come up of my last candyflip. I remember feeling nauseous, vomiting, lying down in bed, and then about an hour later I came to high as a kite and watched videos of nuclear detonations for 12 hours straight.

>>735556250
Ok just made a tinder.
24 year old unemployed male, no car, home or ambitions.

>>735548783
Pussy bitch

Try float therapy or do blow or something different than you're doing and maybe get ambition from that.

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>>735548252
If you decide not to kill yourself make sure you taper off slowly so you don't die or have a seizure. I learned the hard way

>>735557311
what the hell ks float therapy? and doing blow will make depression 10 times worse. the crash is worse than meth, and for me it was so subtle I didn't even realize it was because of the coke

>>735557311
Cocaine is a fucking rip off. Unless you know a high level distributer or have the resources to purify your dope you're mostly snorting sugar and baking soda. Last batch I got was almost entirely lactose. Stick to psychs and weed mang

>>735550637
Why would you buy bitcoin?

>>735557311
Wtf is this float therepy shit every talks about. Blow is great

>>735548252
Shelby?

>>735557548
Seems like you have internet so try looking it up. Blow is not worse than speed dipshit.

>>735548252
In the same boat I am waiting for the nearest store to open now to get 2 bottles of vodka. I have dreams and know I would love to do stuff but I just can't be arsed to do them. All I look forward to is drinking, when I am sober it feels like a cloud of depression swallows me whole and when I drink I always end up blacking out and doing stupid and embarrassing shit like call people then they never want to talk to me again. Mostly I am bored and if I am not on weed or alcohol I don't have the attention span to watch tv or movies just youtube clips and I am so fucking bored and depressed.

Took 5 or 6 grams of xanax a day for six months and was functioning fine. Never was addicted just really loved it. Stopped taking them started smoking weed no side effects or withdrawals. All this to say stop being a little pussy.

>>735548252
I've taken weed for 3 nights in a row and I feel the same OP. I don'r know how to love anymore. My mind is no longer curious. I am nothing..

>>735557579
Maybe when you grow up people will stop stepping on your shit before they sell it to you

>>735558096
Wtf is wrong with you guys. Bud and benzos are what made me fucking vibe when i was in collegem

Get help my friend. I had the same problem and now I'm back on my feet and better than ever. Sadly abuse of xanax leads to depression OP. You need to put the bars down bud, withdrawl maybe awful, but it's better than throwing your life away

>>735558148
It's just how the coke game is out where I live. I've heard stories of people getting crushed up vitamin supplements from close friends. The only people I know that can get the good shit are either rich enough to afford it or are close friends with a distributer.

>>735557997
Yeah that's what I'm feeling. All my time spent sober is torture.

>>735548252
bruh send those bars this way before you do

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>>735548252
stop wasting your time and make me some baskets.

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ROFLMAO WTF BBQ IDK. And you call yourselves /bros. A thread practically the size of a dictionary and not a single one of you has told this QQfag to an hero already.

(pr0tip: it doesn't count, OP, unless you put shoe on head and take pics before. Additional points may be awarded for creativity)

>>735558443
Who can help me?

>>735548623
This shit happened to me when i was quite into it back in january, you have two options, get off xans by not taking the whole bar but smaller pieces (english os not my first language sorry) or do what i did and replace it with klonapin

>>735558601
OP here. Been here since 2006 and I'm surprised as well.

You don't want help. Float or die motherfucker.

>>735558601
This is new /b my son, we the newfags have come of age and we reject the senseless nihilism towards other /bros.

>>735559072
Wtf is this float shit

>>735548623
Sorry

>>735548623
Lol toopoor is not your ex girlfriend that died.. she's a hipster/emo Instagram personality

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>>735559153
Translation: >"This is no longer /b father, we the eternal newnewfags are eternal children with no courage, conviction, or balls. Conveniently disregarding a hard determinism that has never been disproven, we take turn licking each other's fairy cocks and patting each other on the back over every perceived insult or injury."

Ah, I see now what you meant, son. Granted, your vaginarot has festered to the point that all creative thought or hardiness of character has vanished from teh /b, but you are still disappoint father much so. If only that abortion your mother agreed to had worked, you would have been spared life as a cuck D':

>>735550582
departed quote detected

>>735548252
Fuck u ur a fucking faggot for being a dickrider of that shitty soundcloud "goth" wave fucking queer kill yourself your parents know your a failure your friend deserved to die for even hanging with a faggot like you go back to listening to hellboy and beating your dick to laylas pancake ass

>>735555772
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P6KEgf7-1vY

>>735559153
Those that don't have the courtesy of caring about themselves can't be thought to care about others.

No one is patting you on the shoulder for being a good person besides yourself.

>>735559842
/b was never hard but was full of edgy faggots with no character. It hasn't changed in that respect , truth is /b is, was and always will be cucks.

i havent touched this website in 2 years and im starting to wonder why i left at all

between once upon a time ago when this website first cameout i was on here ewveryday then i grew up and the anon documentary reminded me camer back bunch of angry fuckers everyware that was backwards to me come back again and its back to the kink and lolz - man i missed this shit

>>735559980
I am not patting myself on the shoulders, its pure selfishness. If I help others, others will help me. I am a terrible person with no drive, ambition, conscience or any real morals. I deride immigration because I enjoy hating niggers and Muslims not cause I care for the country. I love the left for giving welfare but love to hate the sjw's.

Im alone, had some short timed friendship but nothing has come out of them, never had a girlfriend also because I'm afraid to get closer with other people.

>>735557997
In the same boat. I've been trying to kick start myself, but man, it's not easy. It's a good day if I can stay sober for three quarters of it. At least it's better than the four hours of slight sobriety per day I was doing a year ago

>>735559909
Gothboiclique bitch. I'm listening to hellboy right now. You seem pretty bitter did peep fuck your girl or something?

>>735559980
Original "an hero" towncrier here. Well said, sir.
>>735560042
proof of newb; every btard I've ever talked to knows its changed. It always had edgelords, but it wasn't supersaturated with pussy faggots and actually still had some creative new content being made. Newnewfags just barely readjust nearly decade old memes and think themselves edgy and creative XD it's pretty hilarious, just sad that b/ died.

always remember fags your an observer of emotions you aren't the emotion. sad days come sad days go stop being a fag smoke a cigarette realize that shit changes all the time and death will come for you when it needs to.

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>>735560321
>gothboiclique bitch
hahaha im so glad im not like you anymore im actually quite happy with my life right now
i used to be a fan when gbc was only wicca phase springs eternal and doves but as soon as peep joined up it went downhill for me and i stopped listening to them and being a depressed faggot doing xanax
improve your life dont sit in your room all day crying about past bitches while listening to horrible music faggot

>>735560244
I'm alone too, I think that's my worst problem. I'm afraid to get close to people as well. Do you have car and job?

>>735560521
What do you listen to now? What made you stop popping xans? Also, how old are you?

>>735559833
I wasn't trying to imply that toopoor was my gf. I wish she was though

>>735551201
Sucking dick doesn't make you high???

In this century what kills suddenly you is tragic but everything else is killing you slowly. Lies, expectations, uncertainty, society etc. There is an emotion that Feeling of being late to the life, late for yourself which is poisonous one.At this point nobody cares about it, Life is short and it's being ugly by the some people that I don't even know why, how cruel it is! No need to make this short thing shorter more.

>>735560733
I use public transport and I study engineering, its even more depressing, you see a fuckload of faces everyday and not one of them cares about you

live for goodness of somebody, like little child or someone who really needs help. Go to poor countries and join to helping organization. Just do it, you will see the other face of the life you bored. make it!

>>735562363
at least you have something going on in life. You will probably makes shit ton being and engineer and find a woman. Woman only care about money or tip

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>>735548252

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>>735548252
2 weeks dude that's amateur hour.. I've spent the better part of the last 4 years struggling with depression and a crippling xanax addiction. Hell, I still take one almost every day. Life has ups and downs, if anything I learned that you've gotta experience sadness to gain a full appreciation for the little joys in life. shoutout to all the other anons who wasted years fucking around with these.

>>735548252
Benzo addicts are the worst scum on earth so go ahead OP

>>735548252
Justin is that you?

>>735562579
That's why I don't want them in my life, but then again I feel like something is missing in my life, when I was younger I thought that being alone wasn't that bad, now I find my life really boring because of that, people only talk to me to ask me for homework or notes, and that's it.

>>735548252
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2fAgC-hq2OQ

bye.

>>735548252
you're just going to ignore whatever advice is said in this thread as soon as you can get high again. what's the point

>>735554763
At a certain point no matter how much you take you don't feel it you just pass out. I took 10 bars before and just got really tired and was in a daze for a few days.

>>735562931
Are you the ex gbc member

>>735562931
Are you the ex gbc member>>

>>735563071
Word.

>>735555093
It's a good combo to die

>>735563071
No some of the comments were pretty profound surprisingly and saying how I really feel to strangers on the internet makes me feel a whole lot better

>>735563377
go eat another bar junkie

>>735562699
4years? Damn. How much do you take dailynow?

>>735563497
I'm out:( and I'm a piece of shit loser with no job

>>735563377
ME ME ME

>>735563632
Just drink gin like I do.
26,here and I had a bad night a few months ago. Was close to getting my 9mm but just couldn't because my parents and sister would be devastated. Been better now, working but still no women in my life. And that still gets me in the feels.

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>>735563552
I cut back to 2mg a day for the last 6-odd months. used to be upwards of 40mg's on some days when I was really being a jackass

>>735563632
it's probably for the better that you don't have unlimited access to them lol

>>735563686
Yeah I'm a narccicist

>>735564481
narcissist

>>735548252
Hey OP, been where you had been. I used to be 300 pounds (6'3) and now I'm 170 after never exercising before. I had no friends or people I really considered "friends" and I'm sure a lot of us have been there, "they're just people you hang out with". Go outside, start doing everything you can oustide, if you gotta be on a computer, trade to a laptop and hang out in a cafe for an hour or few each day, talk to a barista. You'd be very surprised how similar others feel and might share views but also have a view on life you haven't seen or had explained to you properly to inspire living. Get out, get two real hobbies and do them outside and get uncomfortable, embarrass yourself and be social. Try harder, it sucks, but maybe see a counsellor, you might just be bad at holding your thoughts and dont realize it