Ask a guy who overdosed, had complete memory loss, told his job

You can see where my face and glasses were in puke, dunno how long I was there but somehow I got up and went to my girlfriend

A month later and I have 20% of my memory back

Took 4 shots of Narcan to bring me back

What were you on?

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Did you do it on purpose, anon?
OC tits for you

I have eaten only fish for the past 4 days. I also only drink water. Should I be worried about my blood mercury levels.

>>735354155
Shot a bag of heroin, 7 beers and a hit off of three airduster can next to me
>>735354225
Umm.. 5 weeks with memory loss and I feel I didn't do it on ourpose.. but I was hella depressed, nice tits
>>735354353
Your mercury levels are normalish

Are you getting help? Did you lose anything out of this?

You still using? If so how often and how much? Is it literally impossible to quit without help? I have a sister who needed Norcan to be revived last year but claims she is clean now (never went to rehab, doesn't attend meetings)

>>735354812
I'm going to my local rehab, girlfriend and roommate are making me, I just got a raise to 18 bucks that night.. I'm on disability now, I told my HR what happened and she told be to get better before coming back

>>735354888
Im not useing, had to 1uit everything, was using heroin 1-3 times a week usually a bag or 2 a night (but you can't tell how strong it is cuz everything's mixxed) it's not impossible to get off without help.. it's just very very unlikely

>>735354888
I hope your sister gets better.. it's gonna be a life long battle

How did it start op?

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>>735355109
OP have a laugh. You seem to be in rough shape ;-;

>>735355244
Pain killers.. the feeling of enjoying not feeling for a while.. it's an easy relief to stress

>>735355261
Thanks, my memory is coming back.. but God dam is it rough as fuck, drive for the first time since the incident today

What exactly kills you in a heroine overdose

>>735353754
Any urges... asking for a friend

>>735355804
Um.. I think sometimes it's your heart stopping, your organs shutting down, or choking on vomit

>>735353754
How do you feel about your addiction? Is this a life changing ordeal? Or will you return to heroin ?

>>735355832
I wanna drink, I guess I think about doing dope again but I really also don't wanna.. wish I could drink still or smoke pot sometimes

Ever heard of iboga op?

>>735355999
I feel my addiction has stemmed from many things over the years, I'm not happy about it but I think it's for the better, it's better for my relationship.. it definitely changed my life.. but idk if I'll go back if it's offered.. I never drove to get it which was a huge factor of me going months without it at times

>>735356153
Nope dfuq is that?

>>735356153
I used kratom many times but it just made me want real opiots

Why did you get to keep your job?

>>735356203
Its some psychedelic drug that is supposed to be the only thing that can put an end to heroin cravings. Im thinking about trying it some time soon myself

>>735356430
Because apparently my addiction is considered to be a desease and you can't fire someone for that nowadays

>>735356348
Yeah krantom is piss weak

>>735356161
The hardest part about this is closing out all the people that influence you and embrace the people that support you... sounds homo I know but, trust me on this one.

>>735356468
Sounds dope! No pun intended.. I don't really have cravings.. this whole ordeal scared the shut out of me so I don't know if I'll want to use agein..

>>735356539
Not if you get the good kind and you drink a shit ton of it lol I used to make tea out of 20g and it got me fuckked

>>735356575
Thanks man, I know, and that's exactly what I'm doing.. only had 1 connect so I'm sure that won't be an issue

>>735356702
Ill have to try that some time

>>735356872
Good luck

>>735356800
Atleast you realize you have a problem... most people after OD will go right back to it... I wen't through a Hydrocodone addiction myself.. never went into heroin or anything like that. But it was a total bitch to get rid of .. and I still battle with it . the fight never stops, which is why you need good people around you.

>>735355804
you stop breathing.

>>735356161
>>735356575
samefag here... Can you elaborate on how you feel this is for the better?

>>735357044
Well I mean I knew u had a problem before hand, I have to stop not just for me, but for my relationship... I agree I need good people around.. I don't have urges.. and with my memory loss, when I do have an urge I forget a minute later..

>>735357167
What part?

>>735357281
you haver memory lapses not memory loss.. i tihnk

OP. You sound like $crim from $UICIDEBOY$.
Listen to them. They're on SoundCloud.

>>735357393
You said drug use was for the better of your life?

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>>735354353

Depends on what kind of fish you are eating.

The higher up the food chain the fish is the more mercury.

Tilapia, herring, trout ... stuff like that Low mercury

Tuna, swordfish, shark - High Mercury.

>>735357412
I couldn't tell you my social, or my phone number, or my new house, I can't remember half of my passwords, or who I'm friends with still.. there's tons of things I once knew but can't remember for the life of me.. some things now I'm second guessing.. but I've lost many things with the intention of remembering where I put them like my girls keys.. left a poster I bought at Wal-Mart in the bag at the register and didn't realize till I got in my mom's car and it was the only thing I bought

>>735357454
Idk what I meant the drugs use was just a coping method and I used for the past 6 years

>>735357634
Dam is that gonna wear off?

>>735357597
A lot of tuna,tilapia, and catfish. So I guess that's a lot of mercury. But I mean you know how fish is. It's absolutely wonderful.

>>735357824

Id lay off the tuna if I were you.

Maybe go for salmon if you want a flavorful fish.

>>735357795
Well every day I'm relearning things.. and I'm retaining information a little longer before forgetting everyday.. but yes there is a noticeable difference week to week.. also I'm remembering stuff I forgot years ago like songs and stuff so that's neat

>>735354607
>Shot a bag of heroin, 7 beers and a hit off of three airduster can next to me
Why? Depression?

>>735358065
Fucks up with this fishy talk

>>735358065
True, Costco sells some pretty tasty salmon. But nothing beats some canned tuna.

I smoked weed that night also.. if I liked the quick cheap buzz from the air duster, drinking became an every night habit for me and was my go to cuz I wasn't doing heroin every day, the weed was an everyday thing to calm me down.. but yes overall I'm being told this stems from depression, incompetence, adhd, childhood neglect ext.. I guess it just feels good to not have to feel for a little peice price of time

>>735355804
Respiratory depression and choking on vomit

>>735358741
Yes, I'm my case I got phmonia from inhaling vomit, and sepsis which is poisioning my bloodstream aswell

Honestly I'm only doing rehab because It'll keep my job, I'm not exactly retaining much information I'm learning there and it takes me a half hour to pre in front of them because I'm pre shy

>>735359182
*pee

>>735359021
Shit, all from an overdose? I sort of od'd once, ended up with slower breathing and choking on my own vomit. The tucked up part is it doesn't even feel uncomfortable when you're barely breathing, normally when you're sober and held your breath it'd be uncomfortable as hell

>>735359297
Best way to describe that feeling is slowly drifting off into sleep, except everything feels really heavy and goes black

>>735359297
That's the point I guess.. an overdose is a peaceful way of suicide, you go out in the most painless way.. but it hurts the people that care about you.. they start blaming themselves, they wish they had noticed and had helped.. it's a super selfish way to go

>>735359357
Coming back from the Narcan was like tunnel vision and it sounded like people talking to me at the end of a long dark tunnel.. I was minutes within Dieing

>>735359464
Been there, except it was unintentional. I still feel bad for my family sometimes. You never really realize how much it hurts people until it happens

>>735359590
Crazy shit, I was in hospital next to someone who just got narcanned and they spazzed out

>>735359826
Yeah.. it really puts things into perspective..i don't think I did it on purpose.. but I'm sure it's been a cry of attention for a long while now.. even though I was always in denile

>>735359875
Yeah that happens.. I was just super super out of it, still am.. I asked them multiple times if I had a seized and multiple times if I overdosed.. prolly asked 40 times + the first day

>>735353754
OP how much was your medical bills in total?

>>735359974
Mine wasn't on purpose either, just some stupid drug combo that led to compulsively redosing and passing out ok the floor. Probably took the equivalent of 150mg xanax + u-47700. What'd you OD on?

>>735360094
500 thousand+.. not to mention my rehab on top of it which is another 20k+.. thank God I picked up the best insurance I could at work

>>735360148
I od'd on heroin,(it was prolly fentanyl) alchahol, weed, nitrous.. it was a bunch of things that night

>>735360302
Holy shit, you're lucky to be alive. You off that shit now?

>>735360515
Yeah.. I have to be off it, I'm in outpatient rehab and get tested twice a week.. I wanna drink and smoke weed alot, but I forget a minute later with my memory loss.. dunno if I'll ever try heroin agein.. prolly will.. my willpower is low and it's easier said than done.. but people are dropping like flys around my area

>>735360870
Good luck staying clean dude. Opiates are a birch but ah the end of the day they're not worth the damage they cause.

OP did you ever use dirty needles??? Did you always use needles?

>>735360960
Thank you sir.. it's gonna be a hard battle but I have an amazing woman supporting me..
>>735360975
Yeah I used needles.. I used used needles too, but I always used beech to clean them and then used boiling water after

>>735361067
Good to hear anon

Love you OP, this kind of stuff has been happening a lot to me lately as well. I just got outta rehab 4 days ago.

>>735361200
What part, me getting clean or me useing dirty needles? Lol

>>735361258
Love you bro.. you can do this.. your life is more important

>>735361326
Both, mostly getting clean but if you're gonna IV it's good to hear you're doing it "safely"

>>735361258
Did rehab help? Impatient or out? What did you learn and how do you feel now? Any urges?

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dam so many drug addicts here .
why are you fags so weak minded ?
do you all want to die so bad or
end up losing everything
and sucking some nigger cock for a dose ?

>>735361544
OP here.. I make 20 bucks an hour soo I could afford my addiction and love very comfortably.. don't judge a man if you've never walked in his shoes

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>>735361855
dosnt matter what you make if you dont get your shit together and dont accept the real world
you gone end up homeless sucking jamal for some
i knew some drug addicts/alcoholics in my life
all of them weak , all of them had a lot in life all of them lost everything
and they kept playing they are the victims , when the only victims was they are family and friends
family and friends who tryed to get them up and walking again ,
just to see them fall over the same path
yeh if any of you drug fags is reading this , either get your shit up and have a normal life
or just fucking end so you dont bring more pain to the ppl around you .
and pro tip nobody is happy and everyone's life suck so stop pitying your self and numbing the pain
and just grow a pair and accept it .

>>735360870
Good luck dude. I've been out of rehab for like 1 month maybe a bit longer. And it's been really though, the easy part is staying clean in rehab. The hard part is keeping it up once you get out.