Hey b I've been feeling kinda depressed the last 4-6 months.

It's called depression

OP here.
I also feel like I'm not entitled to feeling unhappy, because honestly my life could be a lot worse. I come from a loving family, I'm not broke, I get very good grades. I've never been through real hardships, so I feel like a pussy too, which is also one of the reasons I don't want help from anyone.

>>734194190
Have you tried vicodin? Maybe faking your death to spice things up in your life.

>>734194318
Kek
Have no access to those kind of drugs tho

Smoke some weed man

Was in the same boat before May. About 7 months of fantasizing about killing myself. Not that I would do it, but it was nice to think about.
Moved to a different area, still in a similar social situation not getting out much but feel like a brand new person. Well more like how I used to be. When shit hits the fan, you don't have to stay in the room and get blasted.

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I'm in the same boat OP. Chronic pain that has brought me close to suicide many times over the past 8 years. You need to find a Doctor who will listen to you and persist. Go and tell them about your pain, tell them what tests have been done and tell them that it's so bad it's making you suicidal. I don't believe in giving opiates to just anyone, but if you're in pain and your life is suffering as a result then you qualify as deserving. As long as you take them as prescribed you'll be fine and will be able to get back to normal very quickly.

I'm on 200mg Morphine daily for mine with 400mg Tramadol thrown in. It literally saved my life when I finally found a doc who would listen and not just dismiss me as drug seeking.

>>734194398
That's just gonna isolate and demotivate him even more. He has no energy and you want him to smoke a depressant.
Weed isn't the miracle drug you think it is.

not sure what have you have already done, but maybe consider geting a brain scan could indicate the cause to where ever u are in pain, also dude hang in there consider counciling and if nesscsery mediation however any psychologist worth his degree will say that the "gold standard" is counciling and medication for specifically MAJOR depressive disorder, medication alone not so much. Hang in there mate, where all stronger than we think we are, including you.

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>>734194578
Honestly thank you guys. It's nice to hear from someone going through the same shit

glad we could be of some assistence. Is there anything else you would like to speak about or want to get off your chest ?

Ever tried weed? Helped me with depression, good luck to you all :)

>>734195015
It helps me to think of it like this: in the still-infant field of Quantum physics, at the very core of our consciousness is a grouping of quantum states that are basically the "us", call it the soul or whatever you like. These states are connected to something greater behind a curtain which we cannot see past - think of it like being a computer connected to a server. Without that server you'd be alone and pointless. Without you, the server would have no connection to the world outside its server room. So as that one single local PC interfaces with its user, we interface with the world around us.

The server doesn't concern itself with good and bad calculations; it doesn't care if the local PC is overheating because it's being overwhelmed with data, but at the same time it is in its best interest for this terminal to continue functioning, so it adjusts the load from time to time.

Your suffering isn't happening out of some cosmic spite, or from a deity that hates you - it's simply life experienced through the filter of pain, or happiness etc. Your purpose is to provide experiences regardless of how you personally feel about them. My computer doesn't feel sad when I watch porn or gore threads, it's simply there to process, as are we.

You are exactly where you need to be right now and no matter how you choose to deal with your pain, there's no wrong answer. Although there is a less wrong answer which is getting some painkillers and tests going and as much help as you need.

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I don't know what you've been through, but I might know how you feel. Last year I was extremely depressed for after a bad reaction to weed, now it wasn't the weed itself, but the anxiety attack I had that rewired how my brain worked and just felt the same deep, dark emotion for a month straight. The best way I can put it is hat I was feeling suicidal with the caps lock on for the next month.

I don't know why, but I never went to the doctors for this and forced myself to do atleast something about it. So I started to sleep and wake early from 8pm-5am, daily 20min meditation sessions, cold showers, went sober, video/audio diary, stopped listening to music, intense exercise, and did NoFap.

I still might have a light form of PTSD from this experience, but the first time I felt happy out of that rut was one of the best feelings I've had; I was extremely grateful. I know it isn't easy, but youll have to claw your way out, day by day and I'll promise you it'll get better.

If you (or any other /b/tard) ever wanna chat or play some video games to pass time, you can add me on Steam, just don't expect and instant reply
(steamcommunity.com/id/phoeng)


tl;dr
Google "Benefits of NoFap"

Thanks for all the help everyone, truly. I intend to go to the doctor soon and tell him/her that my pain is causing depression and I need help. My schoolyear is almost finished, so I need help soon, because I know I won't be able to be alone with my feelings during an entire vacation, I need to do something. I'm hoping to receive som painkillers (different from the paracetamol I've been using for several months) and maybe get help from a therapist. I just cried, it's good to know people out there have gone through it and arrived at the other side, and that people care. Thanks everyone.

>>734195015
>Honestly thank you guys. It's nice to hear from someone going through the same shit
Doesn't sound like they're going through the same shit. I don't hear these other anons dealing with chronic pain.

I've had back problems since 2003. At least doctors finally started believing me after I got an MRI in 2013. But still, it sucks how it's gotten progressively worse.

>>734196167
Yeah it sucks... How have you dealt with it?

>>734196271
>How have you dealt with it?
I'll be retiring next year. I don't think things will really change all that much (it would basically be one long weekend and my weekends are kinda shit already), but I try to tell myself it's worth hanging on until then.

>>734194190
>TL;DR
Smoke weed (in moderate doses).
It cures pain and anxiety (which goes hand in hand) and those in turn causes an endless downwards spiral.
Don't get tricked by pill-pusher chemicals.

Dont go get opiates op they will only ruin your life once you take that pill it will not only be instant relief from the pain but the depression aswell. Ive seen many get hooked and soon once you have a tolerance the pain will just be back and you will need the pills just to function. Sure they help many but you seem young and unless you are in excruciating physical pain i would stay far away from opiates. Going to the dr will write the script for them it easy but not worth the risk. Sounds like a good therapist would help you in the long run.

>>734197069
Does anybody know about anti-depressants? I read a study that those could actually also help with chronic pain, because they interact with some of the pain-inhibiting chemicals in the body. I think that would be an obvious choice, but I'm not sure

welcome to adulthood.
try reading philosophy, and the kybalion. that could help you come to terms with your existential concepts.