Anyone one else day drinking? It's a depressing day, unsure

yea working on a fifth of storebrand vodka because I am extremely short on rent and have nobody to ask for help this time and none of my shits selling on craigslist

im positive im going to end up homeless in a few days and i dont own a tent

this ones a tough one

>>733917069
I have a wealthy family, money isn't an issue. When you do make it in life and don't need to worries about money...comes different problems. Money is the root of all evil.

OP
Once you make it so far, you only want more. Then guilt kicks in for what you've done. Well...it does for me. Rest of the family is another story.

>>733916858

3 months ago I went 100% sober to better myself. Smoked weed everyday for 9 years and got drunk every few nights with the occasional coke weekends. Was really enjoying the straight edge life. Gf of 6 years left 2 days ago and I can't stop drinking. Went to Ned drunk last night. Woke 12 hours ago and have been drunk for 11 of them.

thinking about it OP. got 15 beer to drink alone. should be a good time. while I drown my feels.
Thinking I'll sit out side in my shitty backyard and enjoy them.

>>733917474
fug off

>>733916858
My 14 yo sister was taken by ambulance after drinking to the point of 1.4 promiles in blood. Fuck English.

To celebrate this event I'm drink right now too. Thank God for Google board. Thank God for vodka.

>>733916858
Today's my birthday, and I was going to get shitfaced and maybe kill myself, but then I saw there was a coupon on the Taco Johns app for $2 off a six-pack and a pound, so I went and got that, and ate 2 tacos, and now I feel like shit and it was just a very poor decision. I think if I start drinking I'm probably going to throw up.

>>733918582
what the fuck does that even mean?

>>733916858
>vodka and tequila
Are you all high school girls?

>work over night
>day drink everyday

I dont know when I'll stop.

not again another loser thread.. next thread: "I want to kill myself"

>>733917857
Never let pussy get you down. Been there, done that keep ok keeping on anon..

>>733918138
Living in the slums right now anon.. fuck it. Drink. Cheers m8ty.

>>733918232
Fuck you too. Toast. Giving a fuck is my flaw.

OP here,

>>733919788
thanks bro I'm outside for once enjoying the weather and some tunes. having my first beer now. cheers m8.

>>733918582
Hope she can handle her liquor one day, helps most of us get by with the mortal coil..
>>733919428
Killing yourself is the easy way out..death has to be easy because life is hard.

>>733919604
1800 is good...well not really.. but It's good as the what it does.

>>733919640
Never fuck it. Life's sucks, too short . Don't kill yourself over it.

>>733920162
Fire also has a calming effect of humans..just watching it. Chill, drink and think about nothing. Live.

>>733920420
thank bro, appreciating all your positivity. Woke up pretty depressed today. I need this haha.Hope you're finding a way to enjoy yourself too.

>>733920603
I wake up every day wI think temptation, I hade a problem with cigs, coke but I found my way to quit. Now I get up have a few shots and run. One day at a time.

>>733920916
I wake up every day and I wish I hadn't.

>>733920916
good for you man I used to have a stupid nasty drug problem with pills etc. but managed to quit for good. and even if you drink sometimes you just need to self medicate. You understand better than anyone what you need to make it through a day.

OP HERE, ever have deja vu? Having an extreme cases right now.. no idea why here's a pic of what made me think of a time that already happened..

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>>733921070
Anyone else,

>>733921070
I remember the first time I had deja vu
I pissed myself at school on the playground and no one noticed cause I pissed my pants so much there was no dry spots.

>>733921238
Such as odd feeling, imma have another shot. See what happens. Life is tough.

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>>733916858
>drinking pic related

how are we feeling today lads?

>>733917069
maybe buy a tent instead of vodka.

Just finished my seventh beer alone while listening to Soundtracks for the Blind by Swans, now I'm more drunk than usual and don't know what to spend this extra alcohol level on.

tequila with coke.
I'm poor, fuck off.

>>733921991
I'm getting there anon, also alone. I'm gonna listen to some music then maybe play some vidya.

simple pleasures

>>733922015
how bad does it taste?

>>733922646
keep that mind distracted. it's those simple little pleasures that make life worth living.

>>733922679
Like tequila, with coke.
Not too bad actually, some friends of mine that are mexican pretty much always drink it like that, I tried it, I liked it.

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>>733921991
>>733922015
>>733922646
I drink alone 99% of the time. Nice day, nice feels.. life. Ready for anything.

>>733923077
>>733923077
same and I prefer it to be honest.
alot of my good long time friends can't handle their alcohol.
2 of my best friends were drinking without me once got into a fight and one bit off the others pinky. glad I can handle my shit.
(got more to that story if anyone is interested)

>>733923077
>>733922646
Thanks guys, what did you do earlier today?
Its 00:09 here, and I all I did today was go to the library, then I started drinking around 19:00.

>>733923200
Ill listen to it, why not.

>>733923200
Im sure that would be an interesting read.

>>733923278
Started work at 3 am today, got home, had something to eat, and just now started drinking and browsing the chan.
I already got 3 invites to go out, and I don't want to go to any of them.

>>733923200
OP HERE, please tell. All will listen. Life's a bitch. Living is rough...

>>733917474
Oh shut the fuck up you trust fund faggot. You have no idea what life even is. Kill yourself you worthless fucking nigger

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OP HERE, living one shot at a time. The slums is where I belong, even with old money. Still, it's how I grew up.

>>733916858
day drinking cheap voddy since I had to quit my job. ill be homeless soon enough, feel u op

>>733917857
What's Ned?

>>733919428
Happy birthday you are now an alcohol

>>733923310
>be me at grandparents with dad drinking
>tell dad friends are drinking and want me over
>nope.jpg
>time to go home, we take a cab
>friends house is on way
>tells me if i want to go i can
>say cool thanks
>hop out of cab walk over to friends house
>yell "police open up!" as joke
>no one...
>walk in see blood smeared on walls and shit knocked over
>puke on coffee table
>wtf?
>take a piss in bathroom downstairs and leave
>walk out to walk back to grandparents
I guess my one friend who's house it was couldn't handle his shit. was talking mad shit to my friend who can drink a lot
was talking too much shit told him if he didn't shut up he was going to beat his ass
doesn't shut up
they tussle and end up on balcony and my one friend who was talking shit bites the others finger.
It was crazy the amount of blood there was. he bit the nerve I think in his pinky. poor fucker.

>>733923436
My friend, listen.
I also used to get invitations to go out, but declined all of them, simply because I did not want to. Now I haven't talked to my friends in a long time.

I dont have any friends anymore because of this. please anon leave the chan. Go out with the people that invited you. Whatever reason you don't have for wanting to is stupid, I promise. Speaking from experience.

You don't want to lose all your friends.

>>733923680
Dude you're cheesy as fuck lmao Holy shit

>>733923824
oh forgot to mention
>as I walk out to go back to grandparents
>cops and ambulance show up
>they can literally see me walking down the block away from them
>mfw they never came to ask me if I saw anything
>glad I wasn't there.

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>>733917474
>money is evil
>can afford rehab programs
>can afford doctors
>can afford psychologists
>post pic in clean, white shoes
>continues drinking and feeling sorry for self anyways

>>733923588
OP HERE, just because I hav3 a access to money doesnt mean I use it. I use nothing over 22k. I grand mother never made over that while raising 2 kids alone. So, I don't need anything over that. I drive a shitty car, have a shittu job, live in a shittu appt. But life is life. So you want to judge?

What's wrong with Vodka though, it's fairly cheap and generally tastes like shit but if you're trying to drink yourself into a coma it'll do right anon?

>>733923831
Eh, I wouldn't consider them "friends" to be honest. More like people you go out with drinking just so you don't go out alone.
I feel you though, i haven't had actual friends in a while.

>>733922865
absolutely, that's all we really have at the end of the day desu

>>733922977
I actually have never tried tequila in my life

>>733923077
yeah bro, I actually enjoy it, it's chill as fuck and you don't have to deal with normies at bars

>>733923436
Just go out anon, even if it's for 30 mins. Make some bullshit up about having to go see the gf/family or work needs you but like the other guy said, they'll stop inviting you if you don't go and when you do want to go out it'll feel pretty shit.

>>733917474
Unless it's health related, if you have money and your complaining about your problems, you are a pathetic, weak minded faggot.

>>733923278
finished all my college work so I've just been chilling at home playing vidya, shitposting and listening to music. It's 23:26 here, been drinking since 13:00, I've been taking it relatively slow though.

I swear the /b/ro's that drink and are alcoholics are the best people I know. Always willing to listen and give advice and be friendly. we need more comradery like that in this world. Cheers m8's <3

>>733924146
It's nothing special.
I never understood why people like one alcohol to another, they all have you end up in the same place.

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>>733923436
cheeeeeerssss

>>733924036
You sound so tough, but I see myself in your writing.
I thought I was cool and hip, but suddenly I am sitting alone, saturday night, drunk, 6 times in a row. Haven't talked to anyone of my "friends" in weeks.
Please don't let yourself let it happen to you.

>>733924485
true, especially with liquor

>>733924017
Money doesn't matter to me. I only take 22k every Jan 1st. I make it last and live. I hardly see make family unless we have to make estate votes.. but I make it on my own. AF1 90$ . (Shoes) few times a year.

>>733924485
Not who you replied to, but i for one turn into a massive asshole when i drink liquor and i always drink to much. Its better for everyone if i dont

>>733924594
So you're telling me you get $22k annual to do fuck all
Why are you pissing it away?

Fuck it, I'll vent.

It's been about a year since the gf left me now, still haven't really talked to girls since apart from close friends and friend's gfs. I called her on New Years and she more or less called me a joke but recently she's been texting me again trying to talk and I don't know what to do, I don't think I love her anymore, just the idea of her but the chance of it fucked up any recovery I'd made from her leaving and made me more or less drink myself to the point where I threw up blood with some friends to try and move on. Didn't work.

I'm pretty sure my group of close friends since we were 11 is about to collapse as we all go different ways.

I haven't been out of the house for anything social since that time I vomited which was about 2 months ago, partially due to exams but it's fucking me up a bit and I've lost control of my routine, going to the gym, diet etc.

There's probably more but I'm really tired and the thought of drinking anymore makes me fucking gag so I don't really know what to say.

I miss her and I know it's time to move on but I have no one else to go to. I'm scared my social life is about to die and my close friends will leave me. I'm scared I'll fuck the exams up. I'm scared my last summer break will be shit and I'll waste it either indoors on vidya or working some shitty job because I have fuck all else to do.

I just want the life everyone else has with the parties at the weekends, the gf, the friends etc but I've fucked it all up and I don't know how to fix it right now, that or I know but I'm too lazy and I just want to sit here basking in my self pity on fucking /b/. I'm fucking sick of it lads but I think it might start getting better soon, I haven't thought about doing anything stupid for about 4 weeks or so and I'm not sleeping all day and drinking when I'm not asleep anymore so I think I can get my shit together soon.

>>733924874
Because he knows that money is worthless.

>>733924536
I appreciate the advice anon.

>>733916858
I have drunk like 2 slabs or a bottle of whisky and a slab in the space of 3 days(my weekends) for a month or two now.
Is that bad? I'm starting to feel like I'm gonna have health problems from it soon

>>733924352
Weak? No, complaing no. I'm 26, using 1/10000000000000 of my familys money. Chose to make it on my own. Well..making on my own. I'm just another static right now..until I figure what in my best interest..or what I good at. Gym membership ship? 40 month, library card? 10 month. Learning, building.. I will make it on my own. Fuck what you almost say. I'll make it..

>>733924438
OP HERE, cheers mate. From Pittsburgh PA. Hope you make it too.

>>733925347
Stavanger, NOR.
If anyone wants to meet up, I would love to.

>>733924976
>Literally covered in material goods
Hurr money is worthless...
It buys rehab faggot. It buys therapy. It buys services that treat alcoholism.
Oh and it buys alcohol.

>>733924950
OP HERE, never let pussy get you down . Ivvery been there helped friends through.. fuck a few girls, keep on keeping on anon.. good luck. Do your thing, find a good whing man.

>>733925457
15132 OP HERE waiting for a non normie friends.

>>733925606
OP HERE, I buy it own alchol with the money I make fluting patties.

>>733925648
Cheers mate, I've just gotta get through the next few weeks and hopefully things'll be on the up. I just don't know what to do with myself right now is all.

>>733925842
Think long term my mans....long term..will make the reward worth wild.

OP HERE.

>>733923680
Maybe if you didnt dress like a fucking nigger youd feel better

>>733925751
What does that number even mean?
Sorry, but I am drunk.

>>733926060
Zip code poo poo head

>>733916858
Trying to /fit/ but fuck it's memorial day weekend and it's on my bday so I am drinking and eating fried smelt at a park.

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For the dick head who said I spend to much on shoes, 90 $ a pair. 3 times a year. I keep my shit nice.OP HERE.

>>733926060
Yeah zip code poo head. OP HERE, HAHA

>>733926150
Oh, so far away from my location.
I really want to meet many of you and talk, but geography a bitch.

Yeah I am at a rural cabin with my brother and his friends for my brother's bachelor party and we are drinking harrrdd

>>733926318
How does that shit taste anon? I've been binging on cheap crap and the thought of it makes me fucking gag now.

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How often does everyone piss when drinking? I took diabetes tests because of the ridiculous frequency and volume of urine but they were all negative.

>>733926733
It's not good... but It's good at its job. You will get drunk quick.

I cant even drink soda anymore. Or redbull. The thought of it makes me gag with liquor

Smoking heroin

>>733917069

Where are you from?

>>733925347
Cheer's from Canada SK. aka the middle of bum fuck nowhere.

>>733916858
The Lord Jesus Christ will give you peace purpose and hope and take away your fears selfhatred anger and loneliness.

>>733916858
I always day drink on my days off. I usually drink a fifth or so of cheap whiskey along with half a 40 of Mickey's, but yesterday I had a Romanian cab driver tell me that I couldn't handle some expensive Remy Martin cognac. So I took him up on his challenge and bought a bottle and needless to say the bottle is gone after this morning. Gotta say the hangover isn't as bad with decent booze.

>>733924950
I'm in the same boat bro.
got dumped from my ex like 4 years ago
and I've been such a beta male since then that I don't work or do anything just stay inside all day. my mental health never getting better. But there's certain things in life worth living for. You just have to admit you have a mental problem and it's not totally your fault. You'll get through this and meet someone even better. life it too short not to. and everyone knows that. just live your life day by day m8 that's the best you can do. don't give up.

>>733927637
70cl of ~40% cost around 600NOK, how much in the UK?
Or any other location? Please respond, I want to know.

>>733927841
A litre of own brand vodka is around 160 NOK in the UK

>>733927505
Thanks for your prayers anon.
OP HERE.

I day drink every day, working at home has its benefits.

>>733927841
The whisky in the photo costs about £11

>>733928154
I am sure that is not a benefit!

>>733928219
*vodka I meant. But the cheapest whisky is about the same

>>733927735
Cheers mate. I'll try and accept that it's not my fault and see if it helps because I've been blaming myself for the last year or so since everything went to shit. This has been the first time I've mentioned it in all that time and I think it's got to me. Good luck to you anon.

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I've been drinking and smoking all day long. taking a nice bonghit that makes you hurt, I tell ya, feelsgoodman

>>733928154
well most people dont live and their jobs and go home eventually. Some even still drink everyday

can we get some music talk going on in here?
what are you guy's listening to right now while drinking?
I've got some Jack White playing and I was listening to low-fi hip hop going on, if you want more on that look up. Jazzinuf - Coffee And Cigarettes
it's up beat for those who would rather listen to some depressing shit rn. but if you're outside and drinking like me it's nice upbeat stuff.

>>733928753
Outside on 4chan? Which is it anon

Hey Im day drinking too. Join us as watch this movie:
https://www.rabb.it/HumbleKagu

>>733928616
it really isn't man try and get yourself some therapy and perhaps (even though I hate pharma, not in an edgy way) some pills to help you cope and get back to your normal routine. good luck to you as well.

>>733928753
Rivers of Nihil, Archspire, Spawn of Possession, Insomnium, Shylomogoghnar, Book of Black Earth, Dark Tranquility and Insomnium.

And a fuck tonne of liquid d&b and neurofunk.

>>733928823
I know just man, it's been like 4 years of me just being inside the weather is nicer out and I literally needed some outside to just enjoy myself. otherwise I was going to dig myself deeper I suggest you do the same once you get some time. I'm still alone aside the /b/ros. but yeah man it's a good idea.

>>733929304
what genre is this? just so I have an idea? too lazy to look up everything. and I'm a music snob fag. not saying my shit is better just that I'm closed minded when it comes to music.

>>733916858
it's night time here but i'd day drink if i had the chance. i found my father dead three weeks ago and life isn't what it used to be, idk when it will be. i can push through this but my mother is obviously devastated..shit's fucked man

I unironically like Mumford & Sons and I don't care who knows it

>>733929519
The bands are Metal, some plain old Death metal, some technical and some melodic.

Neurofunk is 'heavy' drum and bass, Liquid drum and bass is relaxing d&b I guess.

Happy to answer any questions you've got anon, might not have the best answers in the state I'm in but besides this and watching shit TV I'm out of things to do apart from go to bed.

>>733921200
oooh i want somme

>>733929814
Nice, I'm not a huge fan of metal however I have huge respect for it. The instrumentals in metal are like nothing anyone has ever heard. If I had a good taste I'd check them out. and should. I'm looking for good vibes though. even though metal can be the best of good vibes. I'm drunk and that was a bit too much information for my mind to process. and if you feel like you've got nothing to do distract yourself bro. Play some vidya or something that interests you. got to bed on your own terms bro.

>>733929792
pffft whatever man that's totally fine you're entitled to like what you like m8.

Most metal is boring

>>733930286
Fair enough mate, check out some liquid d&b then, can't trust myself with recommendations at this point but I always liked anything by Maduk, that shit never fails to make me happy.

Actually, fuck it I've got a whole playlist of the shit. Last 100 tracks or so are pure liquid stuff. Anything past that is Neurofunk, trance or metal and a lot of it is shit that I need to go through and get rid of stuff that's not that good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IPBHTs5mCaE&index=644&list=LL7uBKOpF5kD-kKohzhh9Zsg

I never used to like metal either, thought it was trash but the more I listen to it the more I get into it.

I'm gonna finish up my show and get to bed. I'm too tired to type right, this shit is all autocorrected by the underline thing and I'm at the point where I'm too tired to care about the shit that made me vent here in the first place.

Night anon.

havent drank in months.feel like such a pussy 3.5 beers in and im tipsy. waiting on my blow. -_- my beer will be done by then fml. may have to hit a bar

>>733930447
To each their own anon. What don't you like about it anyway?

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Having this little concotion I like to make I branded crunkonut. It's pretty sweet but fuck you sometimes weet drinks are good. Bottle is nearly empty so will probably go to beer after its gone.
Music note, discovered Muse just the other day and I'm surprised I never heard of them before they are really good.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=seNrC4_5Xxs

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guys, hit me up with some music right now. I'm feeling good, been chugging whiskey all night YAAAAAAAAAA

>>733931395
saw them live last year bro, it was crazy, they use shit loads of lasers and shit

>>733931493
What are you after anon? If you're taking anything I'll throw you some shit I'm into right now.

Been a good day. Been really buzzed buzzed all day, gonna kick it up a notch with admiral Nelson (I'm poor).

>>733931561
Oh nice, i've never been to a concert still (24 yrs old). Though planning to see beach boys as my first concert in a month so hopefully that will be fine.
>>733931493
I'd say MUSE as it's been what i've been listening to, but here is a song I like to listen to while drinking.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kQSFyq6mac

>>733930286
night bro sleep well thank you for the recommendations. hope tomorrow is better for you m8.

>>733931959
Where anon? Pretty sure I've got a load of mates going who keep offering me a ticket.

>>733932286
Wait not a month I'm retarded a few months away, I think september. But they are coming to a small casino I visit occasionally in Laughlin, Nevada

(It's pronounced LOFT-LIN for some reason)

>>733931183
if you aren't too bad risk it and drive to the nearest liquor store, spend a night at home chillin. and the blow will help you drink more I'm on like beer 4 or 5 and I'm tipsy too m8. nothing wrong with being a lightweight. it's cheaper.

>>733931493
https://youtu.be/hbKdECzJlW4?list=PLHMbIkYVEK6q5jq2lIYbTnBWogRmXjAIv
here's some easy chill wave shit for you anon.

>>733931183
>>733932469
This if you are a solo drinker being a lightweight is so much better. I drink way too much and I think it takes me around 10 to get tipsy and I finish around 18~24. So I buy a 36 pack every 2 days. Sure if I'm doing drinking games with friends I'm the cool guy, but at what cost? The cost is all my money, thats the cost.

>>733932651
>>733932651
exactly, I bought a 12 pack of beer for the night thinking I'd be fine but I'm like 6 in and starting to think I'll run out it's only 6:15pm ffs. been drinking since 1:30-2:00 pm but forgot to smoke weed so I just had a joint those beers should last me now.
also I know this is long already but, When I'm at a party I tend to drink more and irresponsibly than I would if I was alone. so. alone is better for me.

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I bought this shit yesterday. I've already done the bottle.

It's bank holiday, what else am I supposed to do.

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>>733916858
It's true watches at $ 0?

>>733932568
>>733931959

I'm digging it lads

>>733916858
Hey Geronimo easy on the firewater

>>733935584
Well you might like this musician then if you liked the last song.

Has a really nice 50s/60s vibe to it with a modern mix.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lnrl39hmWXM

>>733932651
use to drink a lot and drugs. hanging with the wrong crowd. once in a while ok. i went to get more beer. another 6 pack and two tall cans. also got /fit/ went from 260 lbs to 178 so 8 beers in and 6 months without im tips. need my cocaine lmao

>>733935584
if you want more chill shit check out this as well.
got that 50's fall out vibe at the start.
this type of music they tend to sample really good classical music or old school hip hop songs. https://youtu.be/5mjMbQlOIM4?list=PLHMbIkYVEK6q5jq2lIYbTnBWogRmXjAIv

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on my 20th cigarette

>>733936321
man I smoke way less. I only need one when I know I can get a head high from it or after a meal/joint or I need to swallow some emotions.
for someone who's been smoking for 4-5 years I don't smoke much. You can do it bro.

>>733936032
I feel like I understood half of this but good one you for getting fit. I'm weighing more than I like these days, up to 180 lbs at 5'11, would like to reduce it, or very least make it into muscle.

about to get some nudes lads, I have small dick though so I hope she doesn't ask for a dick pic lol

>>733936808
I'm 6 foot and like 145-48 pounds. I'm the skinniest I've ever been I can't gain weight so I need to at least put some muscle mass on. But I haven't been active for years. So i need to start slowly with like walks around the block, I'm skinny fat.

>>733916858

If you need an afforable tequila buy Altos.

1800 is such shit. Tastes like rubbing alcohol.

If you have good money then get Don Julio. Best Tequila you will drink without spending $100+

>>733937243
asko bro's who are average/above average to post dick pics on here so you can send?
>share nudes with /b/ro's?
>profit

Be me
20
Was drinking alcohol after 1 year and a couple months of drinking everyday. Was spending too much money so i quit cold turkey, felt fine for the first 18 hours.
Then i ended up having withdrawls that consisted of
: Increased heart rate, warming in my body, mostly face into cold sweats and back again, whole body tremors, physical pain from head to toe, dialeted pupils, severe depression, dehydration, palness, feeling weak, brain fog, insomnia, stomach pain, inability to eat, nausia on vomiting, and a seizure to cap it off. For three fucking days straight!
I was drinking a pint and 80oz. Of beer to a 1/5th every day.
Now im hypoglycemic, i can't drink or smoke weed, can't eat carbs or sugers, and i always feel like shit, everyday is a struggle to not kill myself.

How are you doing?

>>733937458
if i get the nudes I shall share of course, 18 year old asian chick. She's cute as fuck

>>733937554
don't worry about it too much bro. What would happen if you had like 4 beers?

>>733937774
Not sure, I'm guessing it wouldn't be too bad. Im 3 months clean now but i still fell like shit.

>>733937554
I've seen programs here where they give the indians like 2 cups of beer a day. I don't think quitting cold turkey is best way but then again I'm for sure not a doctor. You need to just ease off your intake of alcohol gradually to the point where you can quit. I've heard once you haven't drank for 3 years you don't even want to drink. So hang in there. And not to sound like a fag but if you get the right kind of weed once you've weened yourself off a little on alcohol that should give you an appetite and even help with your seizures if CBD for that. hang in there man. Proud of your efforts so far man. that takes courage and balls.

>>733937679
that would be awesome to see a win for a /b/ro.
May the autism be with you m8.

>>733938282
are you planning on staying clean forever?

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>>733938401

>>733916858
I drink either a fifth or a liter of Jim Beam every day, otherwise I start to sweat. This on top of 45mg oxy daily.

not proud, don't be me. I'm a high functioning alky. T

Not sure if i should post this on a feels thread but:

>Be me, 21, college
>Meet Blondie qt3.14, from my class
> Begin talking to her & shit
> Afther a while we hang most of the time togheter
>afther a few weeks i see she uploaded one pic
with a random guy kissin him
>Not giving me much atention anymore
> No fuks given, wish she just told me instead so i wouldn´t waste time
>wtv...
> 2 months later
> She hits me up to hang out like the old times
>lost all feelings for her

Wondering what to do, should i just fuck the bitch or should i ignore?

Well I was but my wife made me leave the fucking reception and won't let me go back after the kids fall asleep because she's a fucking bitch nd doesn't want me to die or get a dui

>be me, 20 years old, getting high all the time and failing college
>get in touch with high school sweetheart and begin a relationship
>everything i could have wanted for the first 3 months then i find out that i got her pregnant.
>fuck it, time to double down. Get my shit together, start working full-time, doing night classes, kicked out stoner friends, turned second bedroom into kids room and moved sweet heart in
>live the domesticated life style for 4 years.
>realize that sweetheart isnt all i made her out to be in my head, get into fights, having less sex.
>still keeping my shit together for my daughter and thinking i can still make this relationship work.
>get into fight one night 4 weeks ago about how she never had a chance to be her age. Leaves pissed off, doesnt come home.
>next day i find out that she fucked the local Chad bartender at the place she works.
>living alone now, get my daughter every other week and constantly fighting off suicidal thoughts while trying to handle all of my previous responsibilities.

Needless to say i do a lot of day drinking. And night drinking. Mostly just drinking.

>>733938800
Just fuck her and get your regret and emotions out. She very well could have liked you before but only chose some other guy cause she was afraid you didn't feel the same and didn't want to keep wasting time/trying to make you jealous.

Take chances, make mistakes, and get messy. Live by that line.

>>733938800

Oh, related note, all the pics with her "Bf" are gone from fb

>>733938429
Yep. Never again! I fucked my liver/pancreas up good. Hypoglycemia is shit!

>>733939029

Thanks anon, the thing is, i actually lost my interest in her, so im somewhat confused on what im going to do ....

Good line aswell, legit af

>>733939028
hang in there for your daughter.
As for your gf I don;t have a wife so I don't know but my gf of 4 years found a guy at work. No wonder in the 50' the women stayed at home. Feel for ya man. Hope you you feel better soon. Forget that bitch.

>>733939342
do you have diabetes?

>>733939664
Thanks b/ro. Ive lurked in this site for years and its probably only the 3rd time i've ever posted. I like how people here can be either extremely callous or surprisingly open. Im in Austin right now. Went to a family members Wedding last night that both me and her RSVP'd too. But yesterday of course it was just me. Everybody kept asking where she was. I got shit faced and escorted out by the end of the night because i couldnt walk. Im in some fucking candle wood suites right now since the grey hound doesnt leave until tomorrow. I didnt even bother leaving the hotel today. Just drinking cheap whiskey and wayching some fucking matathon on SciFy. Reading some Bukowski in between.

>>733917857
Why does anyone do this? Destroy your life and all your hard work for some chick. Gross. Sober the fuck up and move on you fucking weakling.

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>>733938337
Thanks man. Because of my hypoglycemia I'm not allowe to touch any forms of cannabis which is tough on me. Been clean since 4/20 because i took a dab and immediately felt like death (increased heart rate, warming, tremors, dehydration, sweating, blurry vision, and brain fog) it's kind of like the withdrawls only minor though, turns out cannabis forces the body to produce insulin. I would have tapperd off but i didn't think i could get withdrawls so early. Quit after 6 years of daily smoking and here and there after the withdrawls and didn't feel withdrawls from cannabis at all. The kicker is that i cant smoke my own bud i grow (pic related)
Edibles are a NO GO as it causes me to shit out excessive amounts of insulin. It's gotten better but at 3 months, im wondering if it will ever go away. I didn't have it before the withdrawls so IDK how it happend exactly, maybe the stress was too much on my liver?

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>>733924028

>just because i have access to money doesn't mean I use it.
>have access to money

You have a cushion you dumb cunt. I see a lot of kids that have that same mentality. Act like they fuckin grind check to check or some shit but in reality if shtf the money is there for you and you know that.

I have $35 in my account for the rest of the week nigger. You know what Im having for dinner all week? Caffeine and sunflower seeds because the rest is going in the gas tank. Im not complaining because at least all my bills are paid but if anything goes wrong i don't have a cushion to fall on. I need to man the fuck up and figure shit out the hard way unlike you. Faggot. You know what i need to do in order to get a fuckin beer right now? Suck some fuckin balls son. Did you suck balls for that beer. I think not.

>>733940353
you know what you're a man and that's the hand we're dealt sometimes, you drink and try to feel better. as for the drinking too much at a wedding it happens to the best of men. You're not the first. No one there understood the pain and struggle you go through and that you need a bit more than the average person to cope. Not your fault m8. Hang in there.

drinking kokanee on my balcony over looking my scumy city taning my pale skinny fat body

>>733938603
Shit man, i have a hard time differentiating what substances youcuse more of to counteract the other, u ok?

>>733940613
yeah don't blame you man. got some fucked up body problems myself but I'm too depressed to do something about them (it's not how I had planned to spend my 20's) but to me it sounds like you have your things together and are making progress keep fighting through the bull shit and you'll be back to normal in no time. "Much love" hope you find yourself at ease soon. sorry I couldn't give better advice.

>>733941265
that's what I was doing earlier. feel better man this is your time to enjoy,

>>733940974
Im sorry shits hard for you man. I know what is like to live pay check to pay check. The uncertainty of life. The stress of having people depend on you. I get that you're mad right bow b/ro but just keeping going. Its all you can do.

>>733940001

no why?

>>733941099
Thanks b/ro. Cheers to you tonight. If you haven't heard if him check out Charles Bukowski. Genius of the Crowd is a good piece. I prefer reading it but they have audio of him doing readings on youtube.

>>733940974
Man, i sit on 5k in my bank account, but i cant touch it, because if my exams go tits up i have to pay back 10 months of government subsidies in one go.
I simply visit a bloodplasma donation clinic thrice a fortnight and live on 25 bucks a week. It works, but barely.

>>733940974
But the real question is what flavor sun flower seeds, I have 4 on my desk at the moment/what brand?


Side note/serious note this is the truth. I was at one point in my life going to school while living in a tent by the lake, these people know nothing about finacial struggle. That being said I regret none of it. I have a bit of a hatred for rich pompous people but I now make 40k a year for just being a bartender through a bit of hard work and I feel like I'm being spoiled/richest man in the world despite the fact tons of people make far more.

>>733916858
wearing those walmart tennis shoes its a wonder you can afford liquor

>>733942593
Not him, but I make a decent amount a year and still mostly wear walmart clothes. I'm not a jew or anything but I really don't understand fashion and why I should pay more for shews that have 2 colors versus one. They all wear out, all die, and I rather replace cheaper ones than more expensive ones.

>>733942850
>shews
I meant shoes but fuck alcohol apparently and somehow fuck any intelligence I ever had.

>>733916858
Recommend swapping that 1800 for Don Julio. The best tequila