Feels thread, /b/ros. Why is it that love just isn't meant

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Everyday I repeat a shitty routine, just to distract myself...well, try to anyway.

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I've got nothing tbh

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>>733576419
I just looked up an ex that i still kinda like. She has a son and is engaged now. Fuck me i shouldnt have done that.
Atleast im fit as fuck now. That always helps keep feels away.

Well /b/ros, I used to be like you, depressed almost all the time, never had anything good happen til I reached the point where I said this is fucking stupid.
I started focusing on the good things and if there were none, I'd do my best to get just one small good thing in my life, and that's really not that hard, either start going to the gym or FORCE yourself to hang out with new people. Yes, force, at first you'll feel like that it isn't really for you, but after a while you get comfortable and start enjoying yourself.
After focusing on the good things, lie to yourself and others you're fine and happy, never think too much about it and after a while you will actually be fine and happy.
Fake it till you make it. Truly works.
Although "faking" it isn't really how I'd call it, you're just training your brain to look at things differently, so in the end you learn on which stuff to focus, stuff that makes you happy and you learn to let go all the stuff that bothers you. It is easier than all of you think, truly is.

>>733577371
i've stopped getting close to people though bad past; after i come to terms with my past it just comes right back to me and im back to square one i dont know what to do anymore anon life seems so hard

>>733577465
*anger
FTFY

>>733577572
Past usually is what drags most people down.
Next time you're faced with a decision, don't think about what happened last time, but what will happen if you do it or not do it.
Think about every situation in your current and future life like that. Just think about the future, no matter how long ahead. Allow yourself to get your hopes up about certain decisions, and if they don't end up how you want them to, just keep trying. And that's the hardest part, but you acquire a trait I've come to realize is one of the most valuable ones; and that's patience.
I've used patience for 7 whole months just waiting, knowing things will come my way, and they did.
Patience is a trait gained through so much pain, but after it is acquired, it gives back all that it took and so much more in terms of good things.

Same goes with hanging out with people. Force yourself, don't give up too easily, even when you're at the point where you think it just won't work, keep doing it and you will start enjoying yourself. Try it. You've got nothing to lose.

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>>733576924
Same routine everyday
>>733577465
But I cover my sadness up.

Why am I sad? Pic related.

>>733578131
you and me both, anon

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>>733578131
Always gotta keep the mask from slipping. To many people rely on me to be the strong one.

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>>733578246
Because if it slips, they won't rely on me. If they don't need me, they'll find someone else and I'll be even more alone than I feel.

Pic oh so related.

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>>733578394
The worse part is when you finally try to reach out, but even the suicide line is to busy.

>>733576419
>Why is it that love just isn't meant for me?

Keep working on yourself no matter what. Better yourself as best you can physically and mentally. The rest will fall into place. And make money. Start a business. Get a job. MOE money over everything

Also, start loving the absolute fuck out of yourself. Work on your fitness, your money, a business, read more...whatever you do, love the fuck out of yourself. So you've had a run of bad luck? So what. Their loss, not yours. You have absolutely every damn right to feel good about yourself, so fuck them all.

>>733576419
How old are you? I felt the same for the longest time but eventually even i found it.

fucking pussies.

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>>733577371
>Be stupid lazy tfw nogf autistic loser
>Get tired of my life being shit
>Take up Taekwondo for that flexibility and cardio
>Start dancing to get to know people, especially girls
>Start getting fit in general
>get my drivers license
>Get a job stacking shelves to pay for studies
>Finished my degree in math, start degree in CS
>Realize that none of it helped and everything still sucks
been there, done that
fun fact: my mental butthurt got so bad that it caused me literal butthurt. As in I have a stress induced condition which makes my ass hurt and causes haemorrhoids.

>>733578796
kek you're gonna be fine

>>733578796
>Realize that none of it helped and everything still sucks

well, yeah, if you look at it that way
It's really not only about the things you do and people you hang out with
It's about you internally. Seems like everything in your life is completely fine, but you just don't see it that way.
Things aren't shit. You just make them out to be like that.

>be me at moms wake tired from all the crying head hurting like crazy
>dontwanttocrynomore
>moms favorite songs start playing
>one she used to always sing so good starts playing
>sang so beautiful
>broken inside instantly cry
>miss her

>>733577371
best post so far

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>>733579998

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>>733580058

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>>733580113

>>733576419
I discovered today that I'm too stupid and uneducated for even trade jobs

I'm destined for a lifetime of minimum wage drudgery, replaceability and poverty. Wasting my teens and twenties with mental illness and laziness fucked me permanent.

tbh fam it was hard to not jump down to give an oncoming train a smooch today

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>>733580132

>>733580058
Fuck that made me tear up and i finally know why.
The world care more about a fucking mouse than it does about me.

>>733580511
nigga a fucking cat ever drags you into my house dying of shock I promise I will give you name and a little grave

>>733580511
That's not the reason at all my dude.

>>733580690
What do you think? Nothing makes me cry after being abused for 1 1/2 years. Not failed relationships, not the waste my life has become, nothing. Why this mouse?

>>733580588
i might have to take you up on that my negro

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I graduated from college just yesterday, got my Bsc in finance. I feel more anxious and empty than ever.

I never had intention of studying finance, I never gave a damn about it, but I wanted to study something that likely would have been a waste of time and money so I tried to stay on the ground and approach my future realistically.

It was a mistake though. I faked it till I made it, I have little to no knowledge about the field at all, let alone interest in it. Why does it feel so wrong, when objectively speaking, I made the right choice?

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And now cant even sleep anymore...

>>733580853
Empathy I'd say. That little mouse did nothing to deserve the fate it got, it was just how things happened. It's nature.

I'm of course not saying that you deserved all the bad things that has happened to you, not at all, I just think that since something awful has happened, and this time not to you, but to a little, fragile create, my guess would be that your empathy just kicked in.

>>733581124
huh, thanks dude. Hope you're having a nice day/night.

>>733581211
Thanks, best of luck to you too.

>>733581078
sadly the hard part comes before you fall asleep, at night when in bed, life hits the hardest so i try to postpone sleeping as much as possible

>>733576419
Same, I asked her out for lunch but apparently she doesn't eat out much. After that she told to me to look into her broken laptop.

Jdon't know, man, I'm confident enough, I can talk well, I can sustain a conversation if I want. She herself was dropping hints on me, keeps peeking at me and just smiling when I talk to her. Maybe it's the looks, maybe because I'm a bit chubby I don't know.

Fuck dude, I fucking hate being mixed.

>>733581496
good luck man, i am in a simmilar situation though there is no hope anymore, i am talking to a girl that dropped me once, she is really interesting, funny, cute a bit weird and unsure. last year i asked if she wanted to be something more and she dropped me softly, and then after a bit she started talking to me again, we go out on walk, does she want me to try again? am i gonna fall in the same trap twice

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>>733576434
I'm angry because this fucker spelt lonely incorrectly.

It ain't available to none of us

>>733581678
I don't fucking know man, girls are complicated. With all these stories and my own experience, I feel like giving up hope and just never commit. Two roads now, /fit/ road where I become Adonis and fuck every girl and their mother or /r9k/ road where I lay in despair and just continue drifting.

>>733581939
nobody likes /fit/ just a bunch of fools lying to themselves, you can change on the outside but on the inside you are still the same faggot that laughs at fat people and is a huge jackass, i've been on both sides of the fence currently on the shitteir one after i had a rough year i've let myself go quite seriously though i suppose thats the karma i deserve

>>733581939
Or quit 4chan for good. That's a third option

>>733582021
Yeah, lurked a bit and read stories. They're still weak on the inside and still spill their spaghetties. Well then, I guess I'm doing this for the guys mirin me.

>>733582044
The sites done nothing to me, have and always been a beta fuck. I was 13 once and I liked 9gag like every other kid my age.

>>733582261
That's good then, since you gave only those 2 options, /fit or /r9k, I thought spending too much time here is an issue and limiting it or leaving it for good would have been a good idea.

>>733582431
I wish it was. I really need to get out more fam. Just in time though, I need to finish my assignment and then I'll go to sleep.

>>733582950
Good luck out there dude.

>>733583134
You too my bro.

Anons, this turned into such a nice thread. Thanks guys, seriously. Reminds me of why I keep coming here.


>>733576655

Thats great, thanks


>>733578653

'fuck them all' is an attitude I always despised. I feel like the world (or at least my surroundings) would be a better place if I didnt disregard everyone around me. But you know... one eventually gets hurt and runs out of juice. 'Fuck them all' will take care of that. I might adopt it.

>>733578676

22. So in the middle of the pack I reckon. Still maturing to do though...

I'm turning to Christ, leaving behind the moon god Allah. What denomination should I choose, /feel/?
Been reading KJV and as recommended, started at Psalms.

>>733576655
This really got me good...

After my last relationship I am convinced I no longer feel love.
I feel lust, sure, I can care about a person, but never imagine myself with them, I've broken 2 or 3 hearts since then because no one can get past the wall that hides nothing.
I don't really feel depression. Just this emptyness, not exactly numb, but something I had there is missing now, and I can't get it back, and I've tried, believe me.
I've tried getting help, but I showed no improvement and it was a money sink.

A dying feels thread is truly sad.

>>733586535
Everything has an end. Not only things but people. Take comfort in knowing this also means the rough patches in yours and anyone else's life.

>>733587299
Yeah you're right, and it's probably for the best. I have no idea how many times I broke this cycle of going on 4chan--> spend hours here-->waste all those hours-->decide it's not right and quit for good-->still here

>>733587551
Get a hobby, an actual hobby, or a job, something that forces you, or someone that forces you to do things. But do make sure you either HAVE to do it or have fun doing it. Torturing yourself does many things, but helping is not one of them.

>>733587683
I'm this guy >>733580998
so I kinda have an idea of what forcing or even torturing feels like. I'm absolutely burned out.

>>733587828
Do you work?

>>733587951
Not at the moment, no. Just thinking about it makes me anxious. But this anxiety I felt for such a long time seems to be fading away, and I feel like it's getting replaced by apathy. Never thought I could miss being a little anxious, just to give me that push.

>>733588116
Ya know what bruh? I think you're gonna be alright. It might not seem like it now, but the problems you're gonna face aren't gonna be as bad as you think they are. When you do get a job, and you will, something changes in ya. A new sense of self responsability and care. Which brings me to the next point, get yourself something you want sometime. Seriously, you deserve nice things.

>>733588116
The Journey of a Thousand Miles starts with the first step. It's also the hardest part too, because you're commiting yourself to something greater than your being at the moment, because you're building a future for you and any loved ones you may come to have.
This may come off as Cliche'd, but the Power of Change is you bruh. You are both the cogs and their purpose. You just need to go for it.
Maybe sometime in the future you may come back to 4chan, or just reminisce and have a laugh about it. And that's perfectly fine, just remember, it's ok to look back, know what you've been through and where you've come from. But foward is the only way to go.

>>733588482
Thanks man, I appreciate it. I don't know that it's because I spend the majority of my time alone doing basically nothing productive, or because I spent quite a long time in anxiety and depression, or I'm not sure if it is even possible, but I do feel like that over time, I became dumber?

Seriously, sometimes I feel like I couldn't even do the simplest tasks, and I generally have a hard time understanding how things work and stuff. I'm not quick on the uptake, etc. All the things that even a low-paying job would require.

>>733588993
Remember, those sometimes where you feel powerless, helpless and just plain bad. Sometimes it's ok to be not ok.

>>733589555
Thanks bro. Wish you the best.

All I can hope for is that one day I'll have the inner strength to get out of this emotional hellhole I've been for so long.

Sometimes I feel like I just have it too easy, compared to someone who is always on the edge and has to give 100% everyday just to survive.

>>733590152
My mother loved to say: "there's someone worse off than me" and this is true. You're not the saddest man in the world. Or the one in most pain.Nor the happiest. You are you. Work on yourself first. Then move on to others. I'm not saying don't be empathetic. Just prioritize yourself, you don't have the world on your shoulders.

>>733590570
>you don't have the world on your shoulders.

So true but man, I don't even know for how long I've felt that it was the case.

Gotta go now, thanks again for the encouraging words, hope you are all right and again, wish you the best.

>>733591025
Likewise. Toodles friendo.

>>733581829
>story of my life
can't make friends because I'm too busy correcting them when they talk to actually have a conversation.

do people just want to be wrong through life? who wants to be wrong all the time?

>>733591228
It is Human to be wrong. It is also Human to correct oneself aswell as accept other's mistakes. Grow tolerance of others if you seek their friendship.

>>733588482
wow

My SO left me because I am crazy and depressed. I betrayed their trust by looking in their phone and freaked out. They say they love me but that they cannot promise they will want to come back to me. I was with them for five years. Its hard.

>>733591497
I try.

I stifle my urge to correct them when I do want to be their friend. but that's a rarity, itself..

but occasionally someone just says something so wrong I can't contain myself. the friends I do have have learned to accept it. some actively say/spell things wrong just to get on my nerves.

>>733591841
Stopping yourself from doing something that comes as second nature is quite dificult. Try to extent what you're currrently doing then. Let the little mistakes slide, then see how far you can let it go before needing to correct them. Can't imagine they make mistakes continuasly. What kind of mistakes do they even make?

>>733592181
grammatical mostly. wrong word usage in the wrong place. like using "differentiating" when they meant to say "different".

it's usually minor stuff like that. that's the stuff that really bothers me though. when they say something factually incorrect (which happens a lot too), it's easier to let go, because ignorance and human memory make it difficult to know the exact fact, so I tend to keep my mouth shut here, because if I try to correct them, I might then say something wrong. but when it comes down to Symantecs, that's where I shine... saying the earth is round is generally correct, but not technically. it is an oblique spheroid and don't you fucking forget it.

>>733580998
bc you fucked up. i almost did what you did but changed my major to a humanities. it really is scary knowing my job prospects will be shaky but i would rather study this and get something out of it.

>>733576419
You're not sad you're just an edgelord. Get over yourself and you'll be fine.

>>733577125
How long ago did you date?

>>733591681
why were you looking at their phone?

was it more than once?

was it general lack of trust on your part?

>>733591681
Why are you sad? You had it coming.

>>733592874

I was looking at their phone because they had cheated on me in the past. But we had been living together like three years almost this summer so it wasn't really an issue. But they started talking to this person who I was really intimidated of. It was the first time I'd ever looked at their phone and when I confronted them about it, they got really angry and so I lied about whether I looked at their phone. So in short, it was a bit of both. Generally I lacked trust in them but I had no reason too because they hadn't cheated on three years.

What I found in the phone were really sexual jokes with a person who I was intimidated by.

>>733592999
It's called remorse, or regret, I ain't him, also nice trips.