Ask a depressed Schizophrenic anything Pt. 2. I may take a while

>>733560353
Favorite anime?

>>733560353
U play Pokémon?

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>>733560594
I have a few:
Monogatari series
Psycho Pass
EurekaseveN
Steins;gate
Nichijou

Just to name a few.
>>733560655
Not since I was like 13.

>>733560353
do you have problems understanding language

>>733560749
Where ya from?

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>>733561384
I think you've asked me that question on more than one occasion, anon.
I do have problems sometimes, spoken language can get jumbled up and I misunderstand it fairly often.

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>>733561526
The good old United States of Trump, more specifically, Florida.

do you have a job

>>733561679
This isn't the end of the world, but you can see it from here.

>>733560353
I know life seems pretty bleak now and then, don't let it get to you so often. You're a good person. <4

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>>733561774
No, I get neetbux.
>>733561797
This isn't the end of the world, but it's only a step away.

>>733561878
>now and then
More often than not does it seem bleak.
>don't let it get to you so often
I wish it were that easy.
>You're a good person. <4
I'm beginning to question if that's true or not.

Read this and tell me how you feel about it please

https://books.google.com/books?id=j6tyHt_iVZIC&pg=PA454&lpg=PA454&dq=she+was+certified+schizophrenic+poem&source=bl&ots=U--rzAY8j2&sig=--xVR-aX6aBG0DJf8_uDfj6PT1w&hl=en&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwiJnrCu5YfUAhWLOyYKHQPoDpwQ6AEIIjAA#v=onepage&q=she%20was%20certified%20schizophrenic%20poem&f=false

sorry about the link

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>>733562113
>Read this and tell me how you feel about it please
I'm not sure how I feel about it. But it's fairly accurate.

>>733562440
I feel like this poem captures a moment of time. When the world of this girl opens up and the sadness is made into walking a beach breeze golden

do you plan on committing suicide in the near future

>>733562018
I already told you that it's true before, you just got to have as much faith in you as I do. <4

>>733562794
I know the date and time.

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>>733562692
That's a really good way of describing it.
>>733562794
I don't plan on anything.
>>733562795
I don't have any faith in me, and I'm beginning to lose what little faith I had.

do you hear voices if yes what do they say

>>733563039
At least try to see things from my perspective, why do I have to be anon to ask these questions anyway? <4

>>733563039
Boy or Girl

And what are you looking for I'm someone in terms of dating

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>>733563062
>do you hear voices
Yes
>what do they say
they don't really say anything by themselves. It's like a quiet whisper that's really far away and I can't understand anything they're saying.
>>733563185
I'm not sure what you mean
>>733563311
I have a weewee.
I'm taken, I'm also straight.

are you optimistic about your life and the future

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>>733563407
Feeling suggestions alignment of everything is all they are saying
I wish I could love you in a way

>>733560353
Do you like your parents?

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>>733563615
I've never been good at optimism.
>>733563641
Pardon?
>>733563792
I like my mom. my father, not so much

>>733560749
Did you know that Monogatari literally just means story?

what do you do with all your time since you dont work

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>>733564226
Yes, I am aware of that.
The series has a prefix before the monogatari part. Nise-Monogatari (fake-story) Neko-monogatari (cat-story)
>>733564278
Play vidya, watch tv, post on /b/, try to talk to her.

>>733560353
If your taken, what about your significant other? Arent they worried about you or anything?

what are you going to do when your neetbux runs out
howw old are you

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>>733564687
>what about your significant other? Arent they worried about you or anything?
I'm sure she is, but she has her own problems to deal with.
>>733564751
>what are you going to do when your neetbux runs out
Dunno.
>howw old are you
25

do you live with your parents or by yourself or share a place with your gf

I'm so tired

I remember you from last thread, how've you been?

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>>733565142
I basically live by myself, my brother lives with me, but he doesn't pay any bills and isn't here half the time.
>>733565192
Me too, go to sleep.

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>>733565285
What the fuck why did my picture turn into broccoli?
>>733565255
Hey there.
>how've you been?
Less than good.

what's your endgame what's your life going to look like in the next couple of years

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>>733563185
>why do I have to be anon to ask these questions anyway?
What did you mean by this?
Why do you have so much faith in me?
>>733565498
>what's your endgame
No idea.
>what's your life going to look like in the next couple of years
No clue at all.

Bumo

>>733560353

What is the daily feeling of schitzophrenia? like seeing visions or arguing with people that arent there.

I ask because sometimes I think i am psychotic, but that comes and goes as Im high IQ but also emotionally unstable so it could just be trauma psychosis rather than the full blown disease.

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>>733566222
>What is the daily feeling of schitzophrenia?
paranoia, anxiety, feeling like you're trapped inside your own head.

>like seeing visions or arguing with people that arent there.
That doesn't really happen to me.

>psychotic, but that comes and goes
You should get that checked out anon.

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>>733560353
Hi Shinobu. I'm the potentially schizo anon from yesterday.

I was wondering if you've had any of the same delusions/hallucinations as I have. Here's some of the common ones for me:

- I die every time I fall asleep and wake up as a copy.
- I'm dreaming and I need to wake up.
- Everybody else is fake and some higher being is testing me.
- The world is being "rendered" as I walk around it.
- God exists and I am imminently going to hell. He is calling me to the light.
- In the dark I sometimes know there's a floating, mutilated animal corpse watching me from somewhere nearby.
- Scary faces appearing around corners when I'm alone.

Good vibes~

Are you treated differently by others? What will make you happy? You're a great person anon

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>>733567003
>Hi Shinobu.
Hiya.
>I'm the potentially schizo anon from yesterday.
Sorry, I don't really remember much from the other day. Do you have any other information that could jog my memory?
>was wondering if you've had any of the same delusions/hallucinations as I have
I'd be glad to.

>- I die every time I fall asleep and wake up as a copy.
Not this exactly, but I have died in other "universes" and that's why I'm here.
>- I'm dreaming and I need to wake up.
I've had the sensation of dreaming whilst awake, but it's not very common.
>- Everybody else is fake and some higher being is testing me.
Fake, in what regard? Like robots? I don't get that. But I get the idea of people being fake in that they never show their true self.
>- The world is being "rendered" as I walk around it.
I don't get this one at all.
>- God exists and I am imminently going to hell. He is calling me to the light.
I don't believe in "god" in that regard, or hell. (Unless this is hell)
>- In the dark I sometimes know there's a floating, mutilated animal corpse watching me from somewhere nearby.
Not exactly like that, I always feel like there's someone looming over me. Maybe like a ghost, or a demon or something like that, just waiting to stab me with a knife.
>- Scary faces appearing around corners when I'm alone.
In windows specifically.
>>733567029
>Are you treated differently by others?
Always have been.
>What will make you happy?
If she's happy.
>You're a great person anon
I don't believe you.

This is going to be my last bump, then I'm going to let it die and go to sleep. Unless some more anons show up. I'll still be here until the thread 404s if anyone has any more questions.

>>733566410
Thanks for the advice. I'll probably get checked out just in case.

You dont see dead people or hear voices that argue with you at all right?

I mean hallucinations, auditory or visual or sometimes tactile like someone choking you.

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>>733568582
>You dont see dead people
Not dead people specifically, no. But I see disembodied faces/heads.
>hear voices that argue with you at all
That I do have.

>I mean hallucinations, auditory or visual or sometimes tactile like someone choking you.
Auditory, yes. I hear music, animals, people just to name a few.
Tactile, not really. I occasionally feel a bug on me, or hallucinate a smell. but it's quite seldom.

>>733568818
Ah thanks for the description.

What do you do to manage it?

How did you find out, and find treatment?

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>>733567645
I didn't say anything important. Just that I'm a fellow schizo and that I keep myself really busy to stay sane.
> I've had the sensation of dreaming whilst awake, but it's not very common.
Nothing's real, and everything's zoomed out and gray. Usually I get the feeling that I have to die or somehow escape the dream/simulation.
> Fake, in what regard? Like robots? I don't get that. But I get the idea of people being fake in that they never show their true self.
Yeah, like robots. And I get the feeling that they're all watching me when I'm not looking.
> I don't get this one at all.
Nothing outside of my field of vision exists. If I go crouch in a closet, pace in the bathroom, etc. like I do during episodes, it feels like the room is the entire universe and outside is just emptiness.
> I don't believe in "god" in that regard, or hell. (Unless this is hell)
I don't believe in God either. Unfortunately a lot of my delusions have to do with religion nowadays...

>>733568582
My psychiatrists never gave me a precise diagnosis, but I've had those types of hallucinations. Faces, people calling my name, something touching my foot or close to my face.
I've argued with stuff but I don't really hear it so much as know what it's saying.
Medication helps but ultimately I had to learn to deal with it. I don't need meds anymore.

Have you gone this far without attempting suicide because your razor talks to you?

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>>733569065
My parents thought I was a drama llama until I ended up in a psychiatric ward at 13.

I keep myself busy working, studying, programming, etc.
Just anything to keep my mind occupied.

Learning some calming techniques (box breathing) and learning to meditate helped tremendously. Now when shit goes down I can keep myself calm and grounded instead of flipping out.

>>733569200
That's not how it works, fam.

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>>733569065
>Ah thanks for the description.
You're welcome.
>What do you do to manage it?
Nothing really, just kind of live it day by day.
>How did you find out, and find treatment?
Saw a psychologist for sleep issues.
>>733569081
>I didn't say anything important
I vaguely remember it
>Nothing's real, and everything's zoomed out and gray.
I don't get the colorshift, but everything feels fake. Like I'm not even in this world anymore and everything just feels volatile.
>Yeah, like robots.
I see, I don't think I've ever had that before.
>outside is just emptiness.
I know what you're talking about. It's kinda like the dream feeling, right?
>>733569200
>Have you gone this far without attempting suicide because your razor talks to you?
Made me kek. But no, I don't really have the desire to die.