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I'm on patrol in this sector, and I've detected a distress signal in this vicinity. May I be of assistance?
It is a cruel, unforgiving world out there, but you needn't go it alone. You have backup. Let us strategize as cleverly as possible, so that today's troubles may become tomorrow's conquest.
For the Glory of Anonkind, I ask you: what is on your mind?
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>>733537898
ooooh a 2B thread E>
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To be or not to be, that is the question.
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Anon is dead.
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>>733537996
>>733538002
Sky, Velvet. Thank you for your support.
>>733538024
Give 'em a chance. They'll show up.
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I don't know what's wrong. I make sacrifices for the benefit of others, but I don't feel good about it. It doesn't seem right, it seems false and meaningless.
I dunno, man. I dunno.
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>>733537898
Why good evening 2B. It's been a long day...
>>733537996
Evening Sky, how are you tonight?
>>733538002
Hiya Grease Rabit, what's up?
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>>733538117
Stop doing that then.
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>>733538070
You're welcome.
>>733538129
The sky, Airplanes, gas prices, Jewish lie count, Satellites are pretty up. What about you?
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>>733538117
I would assume that your heart isn't entirely into it, then. What is it that you're doing Fenn? Also, thanks for coming.
>>733538129
*hugs you tight* Hey Rock, thanks for stopping by.
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>>733538129
How did things go, Rock? We can talk about it if you want.
>>733538189
Stop being nice? What's the alternative? Mindless hedonism?
>>733538245
Little things, like carrying food donations to the food bank, watching other peoples' kids, stuff like that.
It's a pleasure to be here.
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>>733538070
of course
>>733538117
I think it depends on the level of sacrifice... to much ... is too much... It also depends what were you looking to get out of it?
>>733538129
I'm better tonight
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>>733537898
Here madam with coffee right behind!
-phi
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>>733537898
*static* 2B we're under atta--- need assistan-- it's the--- I repeat it's the Cab--
*transmission lost*
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>>733538070
Hiya 2b!!
What's shaking?
Hello Thread!!
Mantis
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>>733537898
Hey there, 2B.
>>733538002
The question is "to be or not to be a trap", actually.
>>733538024
Nah, you're right here.
>>733538450
*sips*
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>>733538362
oh my ... Reimu has graced us E>
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>>733538320
Well, I don't look to get anything out of it, I guess. Never huge things; I stop short of giving out large amounts of money or causing myself excessive pain directly.
>>733538233
Velvet. Hope things are alright.
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I have a bunch of shit to do in the next 2 weeks but after that I'm going to have so much free time.
Hopefully I manage to get away with skipping the calculus exam if the professor is feeling benevolent. Physics is going to be easy but a little more work because formula memorizing.
gimme some words of encouragement please. also should i buy a PS+ card now or right before destiny 2 comes out and just play PvP on the PS3 like a schmuck.
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>>733538316
Indifference.
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>>733538316
I'd advise you to stop. Sure, these things are nice,selfless things to do. But you're not into it just for that sole reason, are you? You want some degree of fulfillment; perhaps its time to try something else?
>>733538450
*hooks an arm around you* Thank you very much, Mission Assistant.
>>733538454
Mission Assistant! Trace that signal!
>>733538475
Not much Mantis, just trying something a little different. How are the trains running today?
>>733538491
*nods* Louise.
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I hope you're having a wonderful night, anonymous!
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>>733537898
*hug*
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>>733538362
Reimu!!!
Damn glad to see you!!
Mantis
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Just got home
So, whats going on all?
I'm still halfway struggling with FEMT. I'm comfortable that we are friends, but I still feel more is at play
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>>733538491
Don't be a Trap, simple answer.
>>733538499
Alright as they can be, Job's good as fuck.
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>>733538710
Nope.
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>>733538619
>>733538651
Hmm. Maybe I'll cut back. But I need something to fill the gap. The charitable things does preserve relationships with a lot of people that I don't really care about, but that seem to care a lot about me.
You know, maybe I just need to invest emotionally in more people.
>>733538825
Good, Velvet! Glad to hear it.
>>733538816
EMT, welcome. Want to talk more about it?
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>>733538475
This would make a nice webm.
>>733538559
You say that like you aren't obviously able to handle it~
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>>733538362
Careful Reimu, I'm after your legacy.
>>733538559
What level of calc and physics are you taking, Pory? You're going to do well, I know it. You've studied appropriately and put in work, right? Those hours don't go to waste. Also, I'm your Commander. I demand that you do well.
Buy the PS+ card.
>>733538714
Is this cuddle or cinnamon roll?
>>733538816
So, let's hear it. What are you feelings?
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>>733538651
*transmission traced, picking up signal*
*slow evil laughter*
Your journey ends here.
*transmission ended*
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>>733538499
Hmm... I mean maybe your expectations are too high for what is recieved back... but also maybe something else is going on. Perhaps you haven't spent enough time on yourself. Life is like a pie with different slices... the piece that is personal time/growing needs to be adequately large...
>>733538491
traps are fine... so how is that a question? E>
>>733538710
Hey there!
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>>733538651
I will know in about an hour
Mantis
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>>733537898
This is a help/advice thread?
Why all the extra shit in the OP?
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>>733539038
A little RPing never hurts.
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>>733538837
awww, heck. I'm sorry, sweetie! what's going wrong today?
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>>733539038
Its for pure, unfiltered fun and joy of life.
Have a seat, and relax.
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>>733537898
automata making me depressed af
just done with ending E and on the way to finish the arenas
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>>733539174
Just life being shit in general.
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>>733538233
T-That escalated a bit don't you think? I'm just tired, it's been a long day.
>>733538245
*Hugs back* Hey sis, always happy to. And to see you so soon again, what a treat! How are ya?
>>733538316
Hiya Fenn. To answer your post, why do you feel the need to make so many sacrifices for others?
It was just a rough day at work, am exhausted. Took a few hours to get home and when I did, I found that the kitten peed on my bed.
>>733538320
Good to hear Sky. Honestly had me worried there for a bit.
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>>733538929
Hmm. Oddly, I know what you mean. If you're anything like me, Fenn, you're trying to form some kind of emotional bond with people, on some level. For what it's worth, I'm finding that you really can't force these things. The people I feel closest to? It just kind of happened. Repeated exposure definitely plays a role here, but don't force it at detriment to yourself.
>>733538955
*lightly grips here sword* What is it that you want? You're interrupting my first thread here!
>>733539026
Oh, right. You don't start until later.
>>733539038
What >>733539106 said. It can be silly, but sometimes life needs to be silly in order to be bearable.
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>>733538954
*detecting massive movements from skyline*
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>>733538954
Mostly that I really want to actually call her and whatnot. But It's been a year since we spoke in person or verbally. So, at this point, the entire friendship has been just about built via text (Which given the nature of it, is kinda remarkable in a way?)
But I know she's shy, and I don't feel a cold call will be too acceptable. Also, I am deadly afraid that I freeze up or say something remarkably stupid that forces her away.
So, thats more or less my main concern with her
>>733538929
Hey Fenn. You know the deal already, so...
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>>733538825
For such a simple question, you sure chose wrong.
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>>733539419
It's not happening.
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>>733539318
yeah, I guess that can happen. is it something new, or do you always feel this way? is it a situation within, or out of your control?
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>>733538993
I've lost the will to do things for myself, is what I think it is. I used to really enjoy the things I did on my own, but now I just... do them. Playing with video games, drawing, reading. None of it holds that joy anymore.
I guess I need to put a little more effort into feeling good. If I want to make things better, I should do something instead of complaining. Sorry about all this.
>>733539345
Well, I just feel obligated to say yes. They expect me to, so I do. They appreciate it, they say thank you, they offer to return the favor, et cetera. But I don't feel good about it.
Man, that sucks. Things looking up yet?
>>733539368
You know, you're absolutely right. I have tried to bond with some people, and it just hasn't worked. So far I've only managed it with three in real life, and I haven't seen one of them in a year.
>>733539419
I forget if you said, but have you called her?
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>>733537898
How do I join the friendship police?
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>>733539106
>>733539265
niqqa tho
>>733539368
You should put Help/Advice thread at the top of the OP and then add all that extra shit
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>>733538954
Is cinnamon roll some kind of challenger to the title of cuddle compatriot?
I'll have to deal with them some time...
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>>733538954
It's integral calculus, and the physics is well... physics. Nothing too hard, we're seeing basic shit like impulse and movement because the educational system got fucked up a bit, so we're going over this again.
Also the thing with the PS+ card is I don't have much money, and I'd much rather save it for a card when D2 is out. But I also wanna play PvP.
Decisions, decisions.
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>>733539310
Surprisingly, the ending was somewhat hopeful. Ending E straight gave me feels. It made me beam like an idiot, with the credits sequence.
But, you know, sometimes it's better that way, isn't it? With no resolution. I think we've gotten carried away with the notion that things need to resolve so cleanly and neatly.
>>733539345
A little nervous. But feeling better now that you are all here to back me up.
Okay, that was a lie. But I hope the message that I'm glad you're all here isn't lost. And I guess T Th is my new schedule!
>>733539406
*narrows her eyes and intently scans the horizon*
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>>733538498
Yes, her grace descends from the sky...
>>733538750
Hello!
>>733538954
Are you sure you want it? I gave it to someone once and she wouldn't recommend it!
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>>733537898
>human scientists be building war droids
>design?
>"let's make them exactly like us in everyone possible way, and that includes all the flaws and imperfections of the human form"
>built in weapon systems?
>"hey let's add some nice thicc thighs and titties on them. Oh and don't forget about the onahole"
>armor?
>"give them some tight mini skirts, a fucking snowflake bra, and a blindfold"
>Operating system?
>"fuck it just make them emotional and unstable af, with no op calculation powers or shit."
>assistant/companion?
>"let them chill with a bunch of floating coke cans that are mounted with machine guns"
>weapons?
>"like, give them these huge fucking butter knives, and ABSOLUTELY no effective long-range firearm weapons"
>humanity be extinct
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>>733537898
>what is on your mind?
I'm in pain.
I'm often in physical pain, but I pay little mind.
I feel emotional pain.
I think about how I've recently wasted my life, and I feel more pain.
I used to be a shit head, and then I made myself who I wanted to be.
I was pretty great for the most part, despite the ups and downs.
Over the years, I've become less and less like the man I want to be.
How I once was able to live like I wanted to, that adds to my pain.
I pursued knowledge, I pursued skill, and pursued creation and innovation, I pursued discovery and change.
I'm still productive relative to most people, obtaining knowledge, developing skill, and what not, but it's nothing compared to how I used to be.
Relative to how I want to be, relative to who I was, I'm a piece of shit.
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>>733538491
Well hello Louise
-phi
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>>733539721
>>for you
Mantis
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>>733538651
Coffee is ready. I apologise for the delay. To what donwe owe the pleasure of this thread?
-phi
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>>733539746
I mean, if humankind got forced to move out of its own planet they mustn't be very clever.
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>>733539705
*warning, all personnel are requested to counter attack enemy armada*
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>>733539450
Nothing is wrong with traps, but the whole "i'm not gay but I love traps" though train needs to end.
>>733539345
Nope, no escalation here. It's been a long hot day.
>>733538929
What about with you, what's goin on?
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>>733537898
So why havent killed yourself yet dude
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>>733537898
I think I've broken my wrist. What do??
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>>733539419
It's a phonecall. Just do it. If the relationship ever hopes to be anything more, either you have to overcome your anxiety on the matter or she needs to find some confidence. You can't make her become more confident, so I guess it's your call to make now. Take the risk and call her.
>>733539592
Three? That's a remarkable feat already. If that's all you need, call it a day there. It's the depth of friendship, not the quantity, right?
>>733539602
You may send your applications to [email protected] for review.
>>733539629
It had crossed my mind. Thank you for the recommendation; will do for the next thread.
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>>733539310
Nier ... has a lot beauty hiding in the darkness
>>733539592
Mmm depression does that ... a lot..
>>733539721
>tfw not sure if unintentional name pun...
>>733539772
It sound like it may be time to redefine how you view yourself, your goals, what you consider shit. If we are talking chronic pain, it may require to re-envision what life is *supposed* to be like...
>>733540028
==>doctor
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>>733539579
It has always been shit and at this point it's beyond repair.
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be a good little 2bitch
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>>733539772
What? From what I can gather, you got where you wanted to be in life but now your development is slower than it used to be? I'm a bit confused.
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>>733539885
>>Life, Liberty, and The Pursuit of Happiness>>733539914
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he he he, a perfect incubator for my seed.
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>>733540085
>It sound like it may be time to redefine how you view yourself, your goals, what you consider shit.
That sounds like giving up, and I don't want to be a quitter. Though I've fallen, I haven't given up, yet.
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>>733539772
so... change? it sounds like you wish you acted the way you used to! if what you need to do is change, then you need to find that desire to better yourself, and you need to harness it!
>>733540003
no one should do that.
>>733540028
I suggest going to a hospital! in the meantime, you can make a makeshift splint with a thicker magazine and duct tape, but it would be easier to have someone else do that for you. given, you know, you only have one good wrist!
>>733540100
I don't think that! have you considered outside help? you'd be surprised how loving and helpful other people can be.
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>>733540109
>>733540176
Post moar
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Got to pay off 1400 in debt and somehow still finance a plane ticket
how do
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Don't see Ikarous here, this is a good thing.
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>>733538362
Hey Reimu! Glad you could make it!
>>733538450
Evening Phi! How are you?
>>733538454
W-What is it Cayde, respond!
>>733538475
Heya train guy, what's shakin?
>>733538491
Did someone say trap
>>733538559
Pory, you really seem like a smart guy from what I've seen, I have faith that you can do well on any test. You're much better than I ever will be at math.
I'm not sure, maybe wait a bit for the card.
>>733538816
Heya bud, you made it ok. What else do you think there is?
>>733538710
Hiya friend, I hope you are too!
>>733539592
Why do you feel obligated then and don't feel good? We have to go a little deeper i think. Sounds like they appreciate it though.
>>733539705
You had me going there for a sec :v But you're sense of humor really is starting to shine through sis. Nah, ain't lost at all, hope that the new schedule works out.
>>733539934
Well of course there's no escalation, you're under the cars silly.
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>>733539592
Not yet Fenn. You have literally the most recent update.
She's doing department training today/tonight.
>>733540068
I know. But theres also the fact that shes very busy, and may not be too receptive of a cold call. So, I feel that I should at least mention it first.
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>>733540296
mmmm the breeding was a success now we reap the rewards.
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>>733540241
So why havent killed yourself?
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>>733540296
FFS I TOLD YOU! DON'T LET THE ROUGE ONES NEAR HER!
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>>733540314
Just the call atm. And anxious waiting for her message.
>>733540316
Forgot to sign
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>>733539667
There's someone out there that insists I'm a cinnamon roll. If you manage to find them, go easy on them, would you?
>>733539676
Ah, gotcha. Those are all basics, so I hope you're strong in these classes. They're going to serve you well if you getting into a STEM field.
If you're mathematics, God help you.
And if money is an issue, then you'd best hold off on it. You can delay gratification for just a little while longer, can't you Pory?
>>733539721
Give me six years to decide. I'll have an answer then.
>>733539746
>artistic license.
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>>733540068
*transmission received*
I only seek to destroy you all and claim what is rightfully owed to me
>>733540314
Do not worry little one, he's been taken care of
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>>733539885
Coffee you say??
Mantis
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>>733540313
Just cuz you don't see her doesn't mean she isn't around. Then again, 2B actually invited her. So given her nature, she might have decided to stay out of it. She's not unlike Gollum. She just sort of... follows you.
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>>733540313
I wanna rape you while you do your tarot thing
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>>733540356
because that would be actively, knowingly, harming a living being. doesn't sound totally appropriate to me!
though if you believe that I should, feel free to present a case as to why!
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>>733540174
Hello
-phi
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>>733540241
My experience says they are shit.
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>>733540314
Hello rock. I'm in pain. How are you?
-phi
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>>733540314
Heyoooo!
Mantis
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>>733540118
I used to be a self indulgent piece of shit.
I stopped wanting to be like that, so I made myself better.
I pursued knowledge and skill, and doing things with knowledge and skill.
I stopped doing drugs, I ate a healthy diet, I exercised regularly, I pursued knowledge, I stimulated my mind, and I did productive things.
Over years after that, my world got a little shaken up, and I started to become less and less like a "good" man.
I was still driven, determined, I had a fire under me that kept me going despite the hardship.
My fire just got less and less bright over the years.
The recent few years, I've been trying to keep going, there have been ups and downs, not to say that there weren't ups and downs before, but I just lack that drive.
I was a bit dull, holding onto hope, but I've become more broken down.
The past year, it was relatively dull.
The past few weeks, I've been not so dull, but more in pain.
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>>733540494
I think I can handle but it's fucking tedious, specially if it's for no reason. Were we doing a project or something it'd be fun but this is eh.
>>733538940
>>733540314
thanks dudes
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>>733539934
I dunno, Velvet. Feeling inadequate and underachieving, I guess.
>>733540068
You know, that's right. I may just try to chop off some of the fat, rid myself of the other people who want to know me who I don't really care about. That should help some. Then I can focus on the people I care about, and hopefully feel more fulfilled.
>>733540085
Really? Eh.
>>733540314
If somebody asks me to do something for them, something little, and they clearly care about me, can I just say no? I feel like I can't, like they'd be hurt. I think a lot of people think that I care about them too. More people than I'd like. But what can I do about that without looking like a complete cunt?
They do appreciate it, they say thanks, and later they try to talk to me about stuff. I don't get why I don't feel good about it. I should; they're clearly happy.
What really bothers me is when people try to talk to me charitably, because they think I look lonely. Those are the worst conversations, because they're trying sincerely to be nice, and I want to be alone.
>>733540494
>Artistic license
>The whole reason we have good video games
Saying all the right things, 2B. Keep it up.
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>>733540516
Would you like a cup?
-phi
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>>733540793
You are neither dear Fenn
-phi
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>>733540613
maybe you haven't met the right people! let's try and change that.
hey, YoRHa 2B! you should say hi to this guy. he says he hasn't met a nice person and I think you're the person who could change that.
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>>733540590
Yea, you shouldnt
you must kys too fag for this world
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>>733540555
F-follow? nice trips
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>>733540793
would you like a hug?
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>>733540807
Yes plx!
Mantis
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>>733540241
>so... change? it sounds like you wish you acted the way you used to! if what you need to do is change, then you need to find that desire to better yourself, and you need to harness it!
That's what I've done over the years.
It's been getting more and more difficult.
I've become more and more dull.
At least I'm not as dull, I guess?
But instead I'm in more pain.
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>>733539772
Although it's normal to lose one's edge with age, it needn't have to be a certain fate. You've still got a say in how you choose to live and how you choose to be. Thankfully, you already have a perfect model to go by: your past self.
Tell me, anon. If your past self were to see you right now, what would they say?
>>733539885
*waves her hand* No worries Phi. The important thing is that you made it. And, this thread is slightly experimental, but I don't think our test subject showed up. So, you owe it to a silly whim of mine. I guess.
>>733539924
Scramble all forces! Attack the target. Leave nothing left.
>>733540003
The plot is barely thickening. Why would I leave at the beginning of the 2nd act?
>>733540028
The obvious answer is to see a doctor.
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>>733540908
*pours*
Here you are. Just so you know it is absolutely terrible.
-phi
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>>733540494
You aren't a cinnamon roll, no matter how sweet you are.
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>>733540241
I believe we talked a bit before. I'm Phi by the way.
-phi
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>>733540931
*Alert, all assets have been deployed but are taking massive casualties*
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>>733540931
Well it was an incredibly beneficial whim. Would this test subject be ika?
-phi
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>>733537996
>>733537898
Ɛ>
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>>733540568
While Wilfred watches?
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>>733540770
I think you might be getting bored, anon, a routine brings comfort, yes, but it also can end up killing the will, I don't know if you follow, but you could probably try and look for other things to distract your mind, and pursue higher, or if not, different goals, what do you think of this idea?
>>733541089
... what the fuck?
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>>733540841
I know, you've told me. I try to believe you sometimes, but stuff keeps coming back to me and telling me that I haven't finished yet, there's more to do, and I've messed things up.
>>733540882
Velvet, I would love a hug.
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>>733540931
>Tell me, anon. If your past self were to see you right now, what would they say?
That's an interesting question.
If my past self were to see myself, what would my past self think?
>If I end up like that, maybe all of my effort is useless
>I will never reach the greatness I want
>I will never reach my goals
>my life won't matter in the end
>I will be going through shallow self indulgence to ease the pain
or
>maybe I can see where he went wrong so I don't make those same mistakes
or
>what a weak pussy bitch
or
>he lacked the knowledge and intelligence to apply himself
Seems likely to be a combination of a few things.
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>>733540860
you're not very good at this, are ya? that's okay! feel free to keep practicing on me, because I won't give up that easily!
>>733540910
you can't hate yourself for burning out, or not being as perfect as you thought you could be, or slowing down. I would rather see someone try and fail a million times than never try at all! you need to allow yourself time to make mistakes, and have the grace to forgive them.
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>>733540304
Rework your budget so that you can make more contributions towards paying off your debt. I hope you're not buying coffee daily or eating out.
Additionally, put off buying the place ticket as long as you can.
>>733540316
Cold call. You're not an unwanted telemarketer, EMT. You're her friend, are you not? You sense a connection between the two of you, right? She'll be receptive if there things hold true.
>>733540793
An excellent strategy. You'll let us know how things develop, right?
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>>733541173
What thats weird
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>>733541089
Oh hi Spade. What's up?
>>733541293
I will 2B. Thanks a lot. I have an idea of who I want to start ignoring already...
Also,
>Nausicaa wallpaper
I post it sometimes. There are a couple more mixed in with my avatars.
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>>733541313
Oh, of course, you want Sam to watch, instead. Understandable. Not as fun as Wilfred is but if you think he's more waifu material, be my guest.
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>>733541225
You are still very young Fenn. A lot can change very quickly. Also everybody has made mistakes.
-phi
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>>733541293
*Alert, casualties amounting to 60% and rising*
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>>733541214
>what do you think of this idea?
I don't have too much of a routine and try new things relatively often.
>pursue higher goals
My goals were already pretty high.
Developing extremely high levels of knowledge. Developing extremely high levels of skill. Obtaining funds for scientific research. Obtaining funds for technological advancements. Be on the cutting edge of science and technology, holding the torch, leading humanity into the future. To bring about a higher standard of living for the whole world. To have a higher standard of knowledge and understanding for the whole world. Generally speaking, anyway.
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>>733541246
You shouldn't focus on the "what if"s, anon, you should focus on what's ahead. You should always make confident decisions, even when you are not so sure.
>>733541293
Sis, this guy >>733541089 turned the 3 around...
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>>733540954
I'm sure its fine!!
>>>sips<<<
Ahh that's good!
Mantis>>733540987
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>>733541293
I guess. But still, given that she can be on EMS calls, at work, doing training, or Family shit. Kinda makes it a bit risky if I call at a bad time. So, I would atleast just ask if its fine to call. But thats it I guess.
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>>733540844
>>733540613
People that think others are terrible tend to have a shitty outlook on life. But hello, YoRHa Unit No. 2 Type B here.
>>733540987
Sweet? You have me confused with someone else.
>>733541057
Have the left flank rally and push forward through where the enemy is the weakest. That should buy time to get artillery within range to target the center.
>>733541070
Precisely. You catch on quick. Knew there was a reason why I hired you.
>>733541089
Just a heart? Come on Depth, you can do better than that...
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>>733541292
>and have the grace to forgive them.
I think that I may have trouble with that because I've fallen off track, and I could very well die of old age before accomplishing a small fraction of what I want in life.
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>>733541573
....that is a first.
-phi
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>>733541626
And here I thought you hired me out of pity.
Jokes aside I saw your evaluation. Thank you Madam.
-phi
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two bee its me chaaz hello
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>>733541663
well, I'd say that you need to internalize that, then! you only have so much time before your light fades, and you'd be better finding ways to be happy and help those around you, rather than attempting to burn yourself out trying to accomplish everything under the sun!
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>>733541611
Chek'd.
These Dubbs indicate that you should call.
Now.
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>>733541626
-transmission received-
*evil laughter*
You cannot win this battle, inferior being, now kneel before your new leader or face total annihilation
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>>733541828
Hello there Chaz
-phi
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>>733537898
>whats on my mind
Why you are such a fucking faggot?
You should drink bleach
Why havent you drunk bleach yet?
Is this an advice thread?
Do you really think anons want your advie?
This shit is a circlejerking
Why fucking sings/names on an anonymous board
I fucking hate all of you faggot
Yea thats pretty muchs whats on your
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>>733541828
Hello!!
Mantis
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>>733541961
yo hru pheye
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>>733541545
I... uh, what about having a quiet, calm life? Your goals are really, really, uhm, unrealistic I'd say. One can not singlehandledly become something so big, maybe you could become prominent on certain branch but not something as big as you desire, anon, sorry.
Maybe you could do with a routine? A schedule of sorts, maybe trying even newer things, like, basket knitting or something, dunno.
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>>733541522
You're absolutely right. Maybe tomorrow I'll feel fine.
>>733541989
Is something wrong?
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>>733541989
Careful, don't fall off that edge.
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>>733541663
agreed with >>733541837
there is such a thing as too lofty a goal, it's okay to have lofty ideals, but they must be tempered with reality, otherwise you run the risk of sitting in limbo always working, but never achieving.
>>733540793
Yep, depression can sap the fulfillment/joy out of just about anything.
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>>733541989
Is everything alright anon?
-phi
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>>733540434
You're going through with the call?
>>733540507
W-Who was he?
>>733540702
In pain too, we can be in pain together...
>>733540765
Heyyyyy~ Always makes me smile... What's up?
>>733540786
No problem, because it's true. Just keep that faith in yourself and you'll get ahead.
>>733540793
Of course you can say no. You don't even have to give an explanation, but knowing you, just explaining why a little won't hurt. You have to take care of yourself too. If they care, they'll understand.
I know it can be frustrating when people talk to you charitably, it just feels like a pity talk, no? But people can really mean what they say, and truly do want to offer you companion ship, but you say you want to be alone... Why is that?
>>733541173
Jokes aside, it's good to see you in the threads again. I'm looking forward to tomorrow's.
>>733541293
A question sis, are you going to try to do threads more often? And did i ask how you were?
>>733541089
Hiya Spade, good to see you. How are you?
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>>733542013
Are you alright?
-phi
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>>733541246
The nice thing is that you can use that past version of yourself as an inner voice to drive you forward. So, why not show that past version of yourself what a weakling he was and strive to make your future self an even tougher act to follow?
Unless, you want to be washed-up, of course. Decision is yours. This seems more like a mental barrier more than anything.
>>733541435
Any other way I can help, you know where to find me.
>>733541566
*shrugs* That's Depth. He's pretty cool like that. See? He even has the sunglasses to show.
>>733541611
She's not on call at all times, she's not working at all times, she's not training at all times. Stop making excuses. Take a best guess at when she wouldn't be occupied and just call her.
If she doesn't answer, leave a voice message saying you'd like to talk and ask when is the best time to reach her. Better yet, ask HER to call you back.
>>733541788
I'm glad to see that you took well to it. Up to discuss it later?
>>733541828
...
You were chaz this entire time?!
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>>733542090
DM me later Fenn.
-phi
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>>733541989
Welcome.
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>>733541989
Haven't heard drink bleach xD in years since it went stale. Welcome summer fag
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>>733542148
From work?
-phi
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>>733541989
hey bud! like I told the other, please feel free to practice these on me! I can tell you need a little more work on your delivery.
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>>733541881
While she's doing EMT training?
Nah
But the fact that this song played at work today, maybe
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p0pM5dm--yQ
>>733542148
I will, just waiting on her message first, then I'll figure it
>>733542183
I guess I can be fine with that. Just need to figure out when she is available now. Or take a guess atleast
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>>733542183
Happily if you have some time and if I can stay awake for once.
-phi
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>>733542236
Yeah. My joints are acting up, especially in my hands. My body in general just hurts. I should see a doctor... Should you see one too?
~Rock
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>>733542148
You did.
And I'll best hosting threads every Tuesday and Thursday at 6pm PST! Swing by if you can.
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>>733542183
ive been nothing but chaz this whole time!
>>733542182
yea
>>733541991
yo
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>>733542336
You aren't going to do it.
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>>733542278
Hello there.
-phi
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>>733542183
He sure seems like such the cool guy. :0
I have sunglasses too!
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Time to slink off into a greasy pit somewhere.
Catch you horrible people later.
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>>733542358
No, I'm just a bit beat up. I'll be better by Friday. Hopefully. Just a few bruises from my fake class.
-phi
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>>733542510
Wait
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>>733542096
Nah, I'm fine. It's probably just the low air pressure.
>>733542148
I'm too independent to accept their pity, I think. My entirely family loosely holds to a kind of "fuck the whole system" philosophy. If I want to do something, I make it happen, often with basic materials and no external plan. If I want to talk to someone, I will blast my way into their conversation and talk to them. I don't want to talk about my "interests" with someone who sees me every other week and thinks they know something about me.
Maybe I'm too cynical. I don't know.
>>733542183
I'll hit you up if I need to, 2B. Thanks.
>>733542206
I probably will, Phi. I know you've got good things to say. I'm only sporadically on Discord while I'm on the thread though. Shifting back and forth is hard.
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>>733541837
>>733542046
>>733542096
>>733542183
>singlehandedly
I never said that I'd be able to accomplish those things alone.
>maybe trying even newer things, like, basket knitting or something, dunno.
I've tried a lot of things, including basket knitting.
>but they must be tempered with reality
There are humans accomplishing great things, similar to what I want.
What's different is that they apply themselves, while I sit around and post on 4chan being sad, and being a half assed loser learning some things here, developing some skill there, when I feel like it, instead of dedicating the time and effort.
I dedicate time and effort, not nearly enough.
Anyways, I've decided to give up on this thread and try to get back to work and probably get distracted and end up doing not enough, going to sleep, and being sad again the next day.
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>>733542420
Chaz. Tell me how you are today.
-phi
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>>733542510
Love you too velvet
-phi
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>>733542336
Just take an educated guess. No harm if you don't get it exactly right.
>>733542341
We'll hope for the best.
>>733542420
But this entire time you're been masquerading as this dragon maid! At any rate, thank you for giving me a bump. I certainly appreciate it.
>>733542475
I need to find myself a pair.
>>733542510
Oh, you mean the Discord? Take care, Velvet.
>>733542566
Of course.
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>>733542510
Later, Tater.
Mantis
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>>733542554
Waiting.
It's a dollar a minute.
>>733542677
You're an adorable person.
>>733542708
No, I'm off on an adventure.
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>>733542566
Oh I'm pretty normal. You however are the spectacular one. I know I'm coming off heavy but you're not as bad as you think.
-phi
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>>733542647
ive been lonely all day. been pretty sad and somber. dont feel sad often so im confused. appreciative of all my friends though!
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>>733541435
>>733542148
I saw my grandpa for the first time, in a sketch my family sound while cleaning. My mom was so happy she cried, good day. How's everyone?
>>733541626
I cannot
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>>733542708
We will hope then.
-phi
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>>733542778
Nothing just kys
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>>733542778
Ah?
-phi
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>>733542875
You first.
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>>733542811
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>>733542811
Well I can give you a hug first. Any idea at all on what could be up?
-phi
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>>733542708
*emergency, 90% casualties and multiple fronts broken. Withdraw strategies in effect*
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>>733542903
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>>733542708
i have many forms. chaz is a shape shifting being!
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>>733542632
That's quite the self-defeating attitude right there anon, I hope you can find what you need eventually.
>>733542708
I'll ask for some, post a pic that can be used for the edit.
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>>733542708
True. I know todays not good, as she told me shes doing Training tonight
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>>733542632
I hope so. Be sad. Be depressed about it. But then, someday, who knows when, I hope that you snap out of this lull and begin putting in work. You know what you want, know what you need to do. Get it together.
>>733542778
Adventure? You'll have to inform us upon your arrival.
>>733542813
Oh, whatever.
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>>733537898
So whats on your fucking mind
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This thread is full of niggers
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>>733543191
Welcome, summerfag
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>>733542962
Crap. The battle is lost. All units, withdraw from the immediate area. We'll try again Thursday.
You haven't seen the last of us.
>>733542998
Ever consider a job in intelligence? I could use your talents.
>>733543020
Hmm. Try this.
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>>733542336
Sounds like a plan. Though the cold call is starting to grow on me a bit...
>>733542365
O-Oh jeez, silly me. Always hoping things are ok, even when you people say so...
Wow really? That's great! You have my full support, sis!
A question too though... Was motivation ever an issue with you? I kinda want some tips on it, even though I've been much better lately, I still want to improve further.
>>733542420
W-Wait, your Chaz? S-Sorry man, what's up?
>>733542510
Cya Velvet, take care bud.
>>733542551
Well get better, all right? Why do you say fake class though?
>>733542566
Hmm, I get that. It's good to be independent, but also, there needs to be a balance to it. While you don't have to accept pity, because pity isn't something that feels good, I know, would it be possible to see who is being real and who isn't? If someone wants to get to know you, they wouldn't "think" they know, they just want to get to know you.
Those are my thoughts...
>>733542813
That sounds lovely, great to hear! I'm doing a bit better being in the thread now, but it was a rough day...
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>>733543191
Hi!
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>>733543191
Do you think I'm black?
-phi
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>>733543319
Fake class because it isn't really studying in a traditional sense.
-phi
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>>733543312
id love a job in intelligence, i believe id perform well beyond the expected capacity!
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>>733543138
You. Why are you so angry?
>>733543319
A few times, yes. I have a few tips, but it might make me sound like a mad-woman if I voice them publicly.
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>>733543138
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Is this you, frog poster?
~Neptune
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>>733543551
Oooh. You sound confident. Do You have experience?
-phi
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>>733543319
It kinda is growing aswell. Still I almost still want to try just asking if I can call first.
And obviously worried that I'll go full retard or some shit
>>733542708
Also, I am kinda afraid that I won't know what to talk about, and it will be a disaster.
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MY schizoidism is taking over. I can no longer enjoy fiction -- my favorite thing in the whole world.
I let my fears, doubts, and uncertainty control my life. I know I'm a low-level reality-warper and it scares me. I don't trust myself, I'm nasty on the inside.
I don't know what I want out of life. I want to be happy again. I miss being ignorant. I don't think I'll ever be the best at anything. I want it all, even though I know that's not the way this works. I know the world is cruel but I don't have that killer instinct in me until i'm up against the wall.
I wonder if I'll ever get a stable job, or a girlfriend or even a wife. I wonder if I'll find "The One" ...again.
I don't have the resources to be a mad scientist like I wanted to be as a kid. Yet. I was going to build machines; great and terrible machines. I used to be the smartest person I knew. Now... I'm Flowers For Algernon-ing. I was supposed to be destined for greatness. I can feel my old self slipping away.
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>>733543551
Hmm. If you're being serious, I might try and make you join YoRHa...
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