Ask a depress Schizophrenic anything. I may take a while to reply

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>>733513378

>>733513378
Bumo

>>733513378
When did you start to have psychoses?

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>>733514474
When I was about 20-21, so about 5 years ago.

>>733514682
Was is drug induced? What happened the first time?

>>733513378
have you smoked weed ?

>>733513378
poser

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>>733515006
>Was is drug induced?
No
>What happened the first time?
I got really panicked, started hearing shit and seeing animals like snakes and spiders.

>>733513378
what anime dis is?

and what's a regular day for you like?

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>>733515343
>poser
goser.
>>733515619
>what anime dis is?
bakemonogatari
>and what's a regular day for you like?
Mostly just sitting around playing vidya, watching tv and posting on /b/

>>733513378
What kind of delusions do you have?

How frequent are they?

Are you ever aware that it's not a conventionally real thing or is it entirely 100% always believable to you?

shits not real op dont think too much and youre gonna be fine

>>733515406
>Seeing snakes and spiders on first psychosis

are you running on have meds now? If yes, do they turn you into an empty zombie?
If yes, is it better to be a stable zombie or unstable human?

>>733515707
not an argument

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Been a while. Have we been missing each other, or did something come up?

Once again, a million thanks for the (You)s you have been granting me.

>>733515878
This is what i wanted to type:

>Seeing snakes and spiders on first psychosis
Fuck that.
are you running on heavy meds now? If yes, do they turn you into an empty zombie?
If yes, is it better to be a stable zombie or unstable human?

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>>733515726
>What kind of delusions do you have?
They're usually of and relating to "being alive"? I don't know how to say it.
>How frequent are they?
Hard to say.
>Are you ever aware that it's not a conventionally real thing or is it entirely 100% always believable to you?
"aware" is a strong word. I know they're not real, but I feel like they are. I still believe they are.
>>733515821
Nothing is real anon.
>>733515878
They got better as time went on. I don't have bad hallucinations like that very often anymore.
No, I'm not on meds.
It's better to be an unstable human.
>>733515916
You're not an argument.
>>733515922
Hey there lewdanon.
>Have we been missing each other
I just haven't been around for a while. Only made threads once, maybe twice a week.
You're welcome.

>>733516141
no i'm anon
poser-fag-kun

>>733516141
Do you ever have nice hallucinations? Some that you enjoy?

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>>733516218
y r u so mean anon? ;-;

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>>733513378
Hey (you)! Love ya!

what's the meaning of life? Why are we here? Why do I have hands?

>>733516141
>Delusions Related to "being alive"
>Nothing is real

is it like you are trapped in your own mind? Cant know for sure that reality exists? Elaborate depress schiz anon.

Ever seen that copy pasta "If you are reading..."?

Ever tried dipping your mind in some Solipsism?

>>733516457
i was abused as a kid
still am
life is pain
yet
it feels empty
i want to sleep
forever
dreams and reality overlapping.
i completed other people their dream
yet i am not happy.
i will lose it all within a year.

>>733516703
Nice poem

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>>733516408
>Do you ever have nice hallucinations?
I wouldn't call them nice, but I do enjoy them sometimes. It's most the auditory ones, like hearing music, stuff like that.
>>733516512
Hey there, anonski.
How's it?
>>733516523
>what's the meaning of life?
To be alive.
>Why are we here?
To experience the universe, and all it's wonders.
>Why do I have hands?
Specifically to type that question.
>>733516695
>is it like you are trapped in your own mind?
I'm always trapped in my own mind. That's just part of being Schizophrenic.
>Cant know for sure that reality exists?
I know it does exist, or that it did at some point. I don't know if it still does anymore though.
>Ever seen that copy pasta "If you are reading..."?
Maybe?
>Solipsism
It's kind of what I believe, but not entirely. I'm Pantheist, and I believe that we "I" are the universe, and therefore god, and thus the only "thing".

>>733517043
POST 1D WAIFUS

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>>733516703
Sorry to hear that anon.
I know what it feels like to be empty though. It gets better, don't give up.

>>733517349
what if it doesn't get better
i've got this empty feeling for 10 years now.
I'm gonna off myself soon.

>>733517043
>I know it does exist, or that it did at some point. I don't know if it still does anymore though.

How does that even work.

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>>733517303
>POST 1D WAIFUS
Pic related.
>>733517485
It always gets better. I was in the same position (mentally) for over 10 years as well. I promise it does get better.
>>733517495
>How does that even work.
Einstein's theory of general relativity.
From inside the universe, it looks like it's been 14billion (roughly) years. But the universe was actually created and destroyed in mere nanoseconds.

>>733517869
i'm not satisfied :(

>>733517043
Pantheism, sounds interesting.

Have you ever had to stay at a psyche ward for more than a day? First time? How was it meeting others?

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>>733517905
Those who wish to be satisfied will always push the hardest against satisfaction.
>>733517925
>ever had to stay at a psyche ward
No, luckily I've never had to be an inpatient.

>>733518027
what would u say to someone who is about to kill herself?

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>>733513378

Good evening Jon, I hope you have a great thread!

>>733518134
whats the fucking point in killing yourself?
its fucking dumb

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>>733518134
I can't tell you what to do, it's your own choice to make. I ultimately can't stop you from killing yourself. But life has a lot of great things to offer, if you're willing to put the effort in to try and obtain them.
There's a good quote that summarizes this.
"If you look for the light, you can often find it. But if you look for the dark that is all you will ever see."
>>733518190
Good evening. I hope your day goes well, too.

>>733518027
Good for you, no meds and no being an inpatient, you seem strong.

About that general relativity, the universe barely existed, stuff. I can pretend to get that. (Our reality is super slowed down?) But I don't get you saying, you are not sure if it still exists. Because if we are communicating now, and you know reality has existed, then we are still existing in reality? How could we not? Simulation?

I'm also schizophrenic, just have auditory hallucinations and sometimes the feeling of bugs on me. I'm on 3mg of risperidone. Can't really smoke weed much anymore just makes things a lot worse half the time.

Get no buzz from alcohol anymore or any other drugs for that matter and my self esteem has went down a bunch.

>>733513378
Do you ever have voices/hallucinations that tellyou to do things?

>>733518673
Don't abuse drugs, weed lsd and stuff like that can seriously be bad, man.

Don't worry about your self esteem, just a hiccup

>>733513378
How can we get out depression ?

are you a girl ?

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>>733518579
>you seem strong.
I've been told.

>you know reality has existed, then we are still existing in reality? How could we not?
It's like a blackhole. For exmaple, if I were to jump into a black hole, for me time would seem very, very slow. I would see thousands and thousands of years pass by before I eventually died.
But, let's say you were on the outside of the blackhole watching me jump in. For you, you would see me go into the blackhole, turn into a reddish color and fade away fairly quickly.

The universe is the blackhole, we are the people inside the blackhole. To the outside of the universe, the universe doesn't exist, and neither do we.
>>733518673
I know the feeling, whenever I smoke weed I get pretty psychotic. But it's just too much fun not to do.
If I were you, I wouldn't be on meds. I can't stand the thought of it. (don't take that advice)

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>>733518837
>Do you ever have voices/hallucinations that tellyou to do things?
I have voices, they don't really tell me to do things though. Or if they do, I just ignore them because I know the consequences of it will be too great.
>How can we get out depression ?
Willpower, lots and lots of willpower.
>>733519122
>are you a girl ?
Nope, I have a weewee.

>>733513378
whats your gender ?

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>>733519412
Forgot to reply
>How can we get out depression ?
Willpower, lots and lots of willpower.

>>733519542
Look at the post above yours.

can you show us something cool ?

>>733519651
That willpower you're talking about. It exists but couldn't find it. Even with anyone i love. So i don't know if it's just me or anything

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>>733520041
How is this?

>>733513378
I have depression as well you're right about the willpower. I feel like I can be a bit dissasociative at times.
>weed helps with depression
>I smoke

>>733520068
Coming from another person with depression.
Just go with the flow of things and dont think about it too much and things (might) go well

pwetty kewl

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>>733520068
It's hard to find things when you're shrouded in darkness. That's the thing about depression, you need someone else to show you the light, basically. Or you have to be so strong that you can find it yourself, whilst completely blind.
>>733520341
Weed helps with so much, it's the only way I really feel normal anymore, too. But it makes me hella crazy.
Hope you can overcome your issue, anon.
>>733520501
>pwetty kewl
thx

>>733513378
Is anyone in your family a schiz

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Did you get the NEETbux.. ?

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>>733520732
>Is anyone in your family a schiz
I don't know.
I've never met anyone on my dad's side of the family, and there's a lot of family on that side.
>>733520786
I do get the neetbux, but not for the Schizo.

>>733520637
Thanks for the support, hope things dont get too crazy for you.
>420 blaze it

>>733520477
Tried. Never succeed. But thanks always appreciated it
>>733520637
I've already got gf, and any shit but don't think we need someone else.
Maybe to be strong enough. Only thing I need. Thanks for the tips

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>>733519191
>The universe is the blackhole, we are the people inside the blackhole.

I need to find a better word for interesting some day, it'll do for now.
Interesting concept! BUT continuing on that analogy, lets say the entire process takes 10 seconds. Which the person on the outside is experiencing. The same 10 seconds is thousands of years to Mr. Death By Black Hole. Even at the end of Mr.DBBH's life, after "thousands of years" he is still existing in the same 10 seconds, and the same reality as everybody else.

>>733520995
Hang in there anon, dont become part of the statistic. Sorry I couldn't give new advice.

>>733519191
I was without meds for about 3/4 months. Shit was just too dark and eventually I couldnt handle it anymore. I would hear stuff just about 24/7. Very negative, disturbing stuff like people screaming and talking about me.

Yeah meds kinda suck, I don't want to be on them at this point I kinda have to. When my symptoms have been completely gone for awhile I'll try getting off them and see what happens.

>>733521266
How long have you been on meds?

>>733521166
I've haven't got anything to do but fight it. But I must realize i'm exhausted to continue fighting this. Maybe you're right :)

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>Bump for thoughts on black holes!

>>733521418
6 months, risperidone 2mg for 5 months. And just moved up to 3mg now I only hear negative things here and there throughout the day.

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>>733520988
Sure thing anon.
>>733520995
Having someone else really does help, I can say that from experience.
>>733521266
Damn, sorry to hear that anon.
I should probably be on meds too, I hear shit basically all day. but I've gotten used to it.

>>733521471
If you ever feel like giving up the fight anon just remember
>sleeping is basically dying and going somewhere else for a while.
>might be able to sleep it off
>might be bad advice
>keep a dream journal

>>733521585
Do you hear voices from people that aren't there or does it feel like the actual people around you are talking about you?

>>733521479
Stoklasa? Is that you?

>>733521657
Ever feel like you know what people might be thinkin?

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>>733521042
>I need to find a better word for interesting some day, it'll do for now.
https://rickmanelius.com/article/interesting-boring-overused-and-lifeless-word

>Even at the end of Mr.DBBH's life, after "thousands of years" he is still existing in the same 10 seconds
Yes, they're all in the same reality. It's just that their perspective on what's happening is different. Since Mr. DBBH is inside the blackhole, he won't see what's outside of it, and is subject to the forces of the inside.

which country do you live in OP ?

>>733518134
Try growing a plant. Just a small, green little thing.

>>733521915
thats interesting

>>733521765
Its usually sounds exactly like what I would hear if someone outside my house was talking about me. For example I'll hear my neighbors and it sounds like they are talking about me loudly and I can hear it through my walls. Or I'll hear someone near me and think their conversation is about me. The things I hear are very vivid. They sound very realistic and I can hear whats being said clearly.

Sorry OP not trying to jack your thread, just adding my 2 cents

>>733521657
Maybe haven't found the good person yet.
>>733521695
Thanks for those tips appreciated it.
Going to sleep Have a good night everyone

are you genetically predispositioned or do you have a bad childhood or why did you get shizo ?

>>733522147
Goodnight anon, hope it helps.
>420 blaze it

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>>733517303

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>>733521905
Yes, I am able to "feel" people's thoughts and emotions. It's not always super clear, but sometimes it's as clear as the air, and I can feel everything they think and feel.
>>733521985
It sure is.
>>733521920
United States of Trumpland.
>>733522147
>Maybe haven't found the good person yet.
That's something you'll have to decide for yourself.
>>733522194
I don't really know, anon.

>>733522429
Got nothing to say, just want a (You)
Please.

>>733522429
I have the same feeling about a persons thoughts or thought patterns. But I'm just super paranoid and try to overthink what they mean. I can see what you mean about it being clear though.

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>>733522392
That was actually similar to what I was going to post the first, but I picked the wrong picture.
>>733522514
Here (you) go.

>>733521915
Where you just sitting on that link? Thank you anyway.

So, yes reality is relative. But you starting off by saying that you're not sure if reality, or the universe exists anymore. Which is still the part i'm not getting. You just said they exist in the same reality at the same time, so if the universe only existed for a split second, that means we are still in that split second - only being subject to a slower reality. Or am I missing your point from the very start?

>>733522642
>tfw free (you) is actually free
Feels good.
Thanks

>>733514682
Did you have any other symptoms before having psychoses?

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>>733522710
>Where you just sitting on that link?
No, you reminded me of it.

If it only existed for a split second, that second ended a long, long time ago. It just looks like it's still happening from our point of view.
Likewise with the blackhole, after the 10 seconds are up, the person is dead. But from their point of view, they're still alive for thousands of years potentially. They could theoretically be "alive" until the blackhole itself released them from its grip.
>>733522797
That'll be 3.50$

>>733522710
Everything and nothing is happening at the same time anon, what your missing is acceptance.

>>733522429
>I am able to "feel" people's thoughts and emotions.

Do you think that is a hightened sense and understanding, and you are often correct about their thoughts and emotions.
Or do you keep telling yourself that you are un-well and just imagining falsehoods?

>>733523106
Do you consider making something (great) of your life ? Do you feel your depression and so on is holding you back ?

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>>733523101
As a child, I had some symptoms, like social withdrawal I often saw and heard things.
>>733523215
>Do you think that is a hightened sense and understanding
That's bascially how I view it. I spent the majority of my childhood watching people. I learned to pick up on very small things that most won't see.
>and you are often correct about their thoughts and emotions.
I'm correct more often than not. I've had my thoughts confirmed by people whom I was observing.
>>733523377
I consider it all the time, and I want to.
But, I don't want to.

>>733523665
what would you do then ?

and what do you mean you want to but dont want to ?

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>>733523745
>what would you do then ?
I don't know exactly. But it would change the way we view things.
>and what do you mean you want to but dont want to ?
I mean exactly that. I don't know how else to word it.

>>733523745
I feel the same like him but I think I will do something great without thinking about it!

>>733523917
ok ill rephrase the question

usually people get to a conclusion when they think about stuff. if you havent gotten a conclusion, then what would speak for it and what would speak against it ?

Are the positive or negative things more important ?

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>>733524320
>if you havent gotten a conclusion
I have gotten to a conclusion.
>Are the positive or negative things more important ?
Not sure what you're asking here.

>>733524701
eh ok..
WHY do you want to and WHY do you not want to ?

>>733523106
>likewise with the blackhole, after the 10 seconds are up, the person is dead. But from their point of view, they're still alive for thousands of years potentially. They could theoretically be "alive" until the blackhole itself released them from its grip.

"Even at the end of Mr.DBBH's life, after "thousands of years" he is still existing in the same 10 seconds"
>Yes, they're all in the same reality. It's just that their perspective on what's happening is different.

Holy fuck, I can feel my heart actually bumping faster. This is really infuriating for me.
It does not add up to me, and I feel like you are contradicting yourself. Not trying to argue, just understand you.
Feel like I need to draw a picture or something..
Okay.

Spectator watches DBBH last 10 seconds in life.
DBBH lives his 10 last seconds in life for - what he feels like - many years.
Now, this is it: Do the spectators 10 secs and DBBH many years not start and end at the exact same time? (to a 3rd perspective I guess)

Back to the original.
>If it only existed for a split second, that second ended a long, long time ago. It just looks like it's still happening from our point of view.
This shit right here man.
If that split second has ended, then the universe would have ended for us too. How could we experience something which does not exist anymore? it's because it does exist from our point of view, and if it still exists for us, then the split second cannot be over. Are we some kind of phantom shadow of what remained when the universe blinked?
I cannot buy that, I can buy a lot of funky philosophical shit.

>>733524701
ok whatever im out

>>733523189
I can accept that. I can accept time as a straight line or an illusion.
But I feel like he almost says something I can get behind and I want to understand it.

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>>733524960
I don't really have the question to either of those questions. Sorry.

>>733524970
You're looking at the whole thing from the wrong perspective.
You're looking at it from an objective "truth" point of view. That's not how this problem should be approached.
Perspective is subjective
From the perspective of the onlookers, Mr. DBBH died 10 seconds ago.
From the perspective OF Mr. DBBH he is still alive, and it's been 2000 years.
Is he dead or is he alive, how much time passed? Was it 20 seconds, or 2000 years?
There is no objective truth, they are both correct, and both false because they deal with the subjective reality of each party.

>If that split second has ended, then the universe would have ended for us too.
That's where you're wrong. From the outside, it would have ended, but we aren't on the outside. We are on the inside.

>Now, this is it: Do the spectators 10 secs and DBBH many years not start and end at the exact same time? (to a 3rd perspective I guess)
To an outside party, one outside of time, and reality would see both Mr. DBBH's thousands of years and the onlookers of Mr. DBBH's demise over 10 seconds at the same time. They are happening in tandem, it's just the perspective of each party is different.

Hello anon
I dont really have anything to ask or talk about but still wanted to, you seem nice

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>>733524970
Think of it like this:
Hitler, he was a bad guy, no? He murdered countless people.
But, from his point of view, he was the good guy. Saving the Aryan race. Ridding the world of the vermin.
Was he a good guy, or was he a bad guy?

There is no right answer. From his, and Germany's perspective, he was the good guy. He did many great things for the country, and its people.

But to the outside world, he was an evil, vile disgusting person who committed countless atrocities.

Only to a 3rd party who is outside of the perspective of humanities "morals" will one be able to see the true "answer" to that question. Otherwise, the answers will always be covered in a bias.
There is no objective truth to the people inside the question, only their subjective take on it.
>>733525831
Hi there, how are you?

Are you a boy or a girl?
I once lived near a girl that was schizophrenic and I've been thinking about a lot lately. I think might be in love with her and I wish I could go back to my childhood and tell her.

>>733513378
Bumping thread
Hello, anon. Hope you're OK.

>>733525820
>You're looking at it from an objective "truth" point of view.
Yes! THAT's the sentence I was trying to phrase. My mind just became a japanese garden.

>To an outside party, one outside of time, and reality would see both Mr. DBBH's thousands of years and the onlookers of Mr. DBBH's demise over 10 seconds at the same time. They are happening in tandem, it's just the perspective of each party is different.
Fucking A. Now I'm tuning in to your frequency.

Then, are there an unlimited amount of "outside the gravity well"

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>>733526399
I have a weewee.

You try to find her if that's what you want to do. Just know, that loving someone with Schizophrenia is extremely, extremely difficult and time-consuming.
>>733526458
I'm doing alright, how are you?

>>733526467
>"outside the gravity well"
I'm not sure what you mean by that.

>>733526379
Im ok, I finally started to see a therapist and soon a psychiatrist, but Im having trouble bringing myself to do the cbt things he told me to do

>>733513378
Unsolicited advice time!

I used to be a depress schizophrenic.
Socially isolated, very magical thinking, and hearing things that weren't there since I was old enough to remember.

I have run into a number of similar others.

If you want to stop being a depress schizophrenic, then go on an epic quest to find something both extremely interesting and down to earth.

There's a reason a fair portion of people who are at the bleeding edge of their field are extremely neurotic.

IMO intelligence is a double-edged sword and you get schizophrenia when you don't know how to wield it safely.

>>733526835
Schizophrenia is more common in low iq people

>>733526753
>>733526458
>I'm doing alright, how are you?

I could be better than I am now, tbh. Thanks for replying, btw.

>>733526753
That's the problem man. It's like she disappeared. I can't find her anywhere. I'm not even sure if I remember her last name correctly.

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>>733526804
>I finally started to see a therapist and soon a psychiatrist
Good to hear you're taking the steps to get help, anon.
>Im having trouble bringing myself to do the cbt things he told me to do
It's something you have to make yourself do. The things he's recommending you to do are more than likely in your best interest. You just have to do them, you're the only one that can.
If you're really struggling to do it, bring it up with your therapist he might have some advice for you.
>>733526835
>then go on an epic quest to find something both extremely interesting and down to earth.
I'm trying to find that thing. It's difficult though, my current situation makes it very hard.

>IMO intelligence is a double-edged sword and you get schizophrenia when you don't know how to wield it safely.
This is too true.
>>733527153
>Schizophrenia is more common in low iq people
Only a small portion of people have high IQs, and only a smaller portion of people have Schizo. Naturally, a number of people who have Schizo and have a high IQ are going to be low.
Not to mention people with higher IQs are more likely to be able to keep themselves in check and likely don't want to seek medical help (for better or for worse).
>>733527168
Sorry to hear that. Hopefully, it gets better for you.
>>733527383
It might be too late. I'm sure you can find a qt Schizo grill here on /b/. If that's what you're into.
I'd suggest you keep looking for her though, at least for a while.

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>>733526753
>gravity well
May be the wrong term.
But if the universe is the blackhole and we are the DBBH.
Then from what's perspective is the universe only existing for a split second? Another layer of reality/universe? Are there unlimited?

A place for mentally ill posters

https://discord dot gg/wRezpMc

>>733527603
The cbt stuff isn't even hard, he's just having me write stuff in a notebook
I just, don't know how to put it or feel motivated enough to write it down

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>>733527693
>Then from what's perspective is the universe only existing for a split second?
Maybe there is no "perspective" and that's why we're still here. Maybe our own willpower is strong enough to keep us here, even though we aren't. Ultimately, I don't know what's outside of the universe. Hell, for all I know, even the outside of the universe died at the same time as the universe.
>>733527704
>Dickscord
I don't use that.
>>733527751
So long as you think that you need motivation to do it, you'll never get it done.
Just do it.

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>>733528100
Maybe you should instead of attention whoring on /b/

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>>733528273
I've been caught!

>>733527603
>Sorry to hear that. Hopefully, it gets better for you

Thank you, anon. See you next time.

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>>733528635
Take it easy.
Until next time.

>>733528100
>Maybe there is no "perspective" and that's why we're still here. Maybe our own willpower is strong enough to keep us here, even though we aren't.
That's kind of what I meant when I said "is it like you are trapped in your own mind? Can't know for sure that reality exists?"
Which gave me my debut, and only psychosis.
Although I felt like it was only me, my "willpower", mind that kept me thinking I exist.


Also weed and acid

>>733527153
That's not mutually exclusive.

If my hypothesis is correct then their faculties for higher thought basically ended up with sensory deprivation and went running off chasing wild thoughts in the absence of something more real to engage with.

Being given an IQ test isn't going to suddenly rewire your brain to take IQ tests instead of frying itself like someone who took too much acid.

Effectively relearning how to engage with the world not to mention finding things that are actually engaging in it is a long, ongoing, and bumpy process.

I've seen people find themselves and I've seen people lose themselves. And at this point I have a good enough sample size that I think I have a decent sense of how it works.

It's horrible there's too much stigma against mental illness (in Western medicine at least) for serious institutional evaluation of positive traits that can be cultivated when someone's currently in a mentally unbalanced and overall worse than normal position.

On the flip side, lots of people who are in overall better than normal positions suffer from a ton of imbalances that they can't easily seek help for without being ostracized. All the most successful people I know are quite neurotic.

>>733528789
me, of course meaning everything. Yet nothing.

On a more positive note, I JUST got payed enough to pay my debts and still have enough to survive the month. feelsgodman.jpg

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>>733528789
I get the feeling that it's only me, sometimes. Just traversing whatever all this is. But, I don't know if that I believe it.
>>733529047
That's good to hear anon. Stay strong.

>>733513378
Do you believe in god?

>>733529399
Pantheism
>>733517043

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>>733529399
Not in a personal "god" as in Jesus, or Mohammad, or anything like that.
I'm Pantheist, so I believe the "universe" is "god" and so is everything inside of it.

schizophrenic eh?
any of the voices pretty chill?

>>733529602
Congratulations, you found the one true religion. The rest are still cool superintelligent schelling point metaentities tho. - God

>>733529259
Thanks anon.

About that dedicating your intelligence to a field and committing.
What field front line of progress would you like to be in? Anything in particular that excites you?

>>733513378
How do you tell what's real and what isn't? What meds are you on?>

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>>733529740
Most of them are pretty chill. They don't really do anything "Evil" or "Good" per se, they're mostly just kind of natural.
>>733529888
I don't think there is one "true" religion.
>>733529893
>Thanks anon.
You're welcome.

Psychology was my field of interest before. I still like it, but I don't know if I have what it takes to commit myself to learning enough about it to get anything done.
>>733529959
>How do you tell what's real and what isn't?
Experience. I've learned (for the most part) what is, or isn't real. There are times when I can't tell though.
>meds
None, I try to avoid medication unless it's completely necessary

>>733530257
I recently ended up in a psychiatric hospital because I was delusional. Got diagnosed schizo. I need my meds apparently, didn't seem to before.

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>>733530450
It comes in waves, there will be times when you'll need them and times where it feels like you're normal and everything will be okay.
Sorry to hear about your break, and stay in the psych ward.

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In my country you have a 70% chance of being rejected for a firearms license. Do you like guns?

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>>733530848
>that pic
2Cheeki4Breeki

I like guns, I've fired quite a few of them. I plan on getting my own firearm at some point.

>>733530257
>Psychology was my field of interest
I want to study Psychology, never have.
I find it *interesting* to analyse behaviour and such. Although I've heard once you get to a more advanced level psychology becomes biology/chemistry inside the actual brain.
I'm sure you have what it takes anon.

Kind of ironic but fitting that the man with psychological abnormalities wants to study them. Maybe you can let your classmates use you as their object of study.

At what times do you need medicines? just intense delusions or as a safe net like when you need to be stable at a job meeting or something?

>>733531145
please tell me a coach gun is within this lifetime. i think every good firearms owner should at least have some respect for it if not to have one

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>>733531280
It does get to the point where you're learning about what "causes" it, and that has to deal with a lot of biochemical things inside the brain.
>Kind of ironic but fitting that the man with psychological abnormalities wants to study them
I studied psychology for a little while, and all the psych professors I came across all were not normal. I think that's the real prereq to an interest in psychology.

>At what times do you need medicines?
I probably need them when I have my breaks, I get really anxious and paranoid about everything. I don't take any though.
I've never had a job interview, but I can maintain myself in social scenarios. Even if I'm having a break I can keep myself in check for a while.
>>733531459
huh?

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>>733513378

Brother is that you? I've been waiting for you. Come on. Let's go together.

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>>733531981
Sorry, I can't leave with you.

>>733530790
How did you find 4 chan?

>>733530257
>Most of them are pretty chill
what's your opinion of the voices 'origin'?
do you think about it much or just leave it at schizophrenia?
do you see them as some entity aside from yourself (aside from your we are all the universe belief, you know what I mean)
how do you explain or view them?

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>>733532252
>How did you find 4 chan?
A friend told me about it, something like 7 years ago. I lurked occasionally but didn't really start posting until about 2 years ago.
>>733532266
>what's your opinion of the voices 'origin'?
Not sure, really. Some of them have kind of been around for a long, long time.
>do you think about it much or just leave it at schizophrenia?
I do think about it occasionally, but I never really come to a conclusion.
>do you see them as some entity aside from yourself (aside from your we are all the universe belief, you know what I mean)
No, I see them as an extension of me.
>how do you explain or view them?
I don't really try to explain them. They are what they are, voices. I view them as a sperate part of me, just a different perspective on the world.

>>733531774
would you ever own a double barrel?

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>>733533278
I would. But, I will probably get a handgun as my first gun. I plan on owning a few firearms

>>733533389
what kind?

>>733532908
> I see them as an extension of me.
makes sense
my head's a little bit fruity, I tend to view influence like that as external
I have gone over the internal idea a good few times but I feel like you can tell
I bet there's a word for the kind of delusion I keep circling around but whatever

sounds like you're doing good anyway, well done, it's comforting to hear

small follow up, you think intelligence and mental illness correlate?

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>>733513378
how hard wold you bang Shinobu?

>>733531774
>I studied psychology for a little while, and all the psych professors I came across all were not normal.
Makes me want to start right away

I smoke meth

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>>733533534
Probably a 9mm Glock as my first. I like how they feel. Then probably a pump shotty, or a double barrel then a .45 d-eagle.
>>733533600
I've never really thought of them as outside of me, but then again they've kind of always been there. So they feel like me?

>I bet there's a word for the kind of delusion I keep circling around but whatever
You're having circular delusions? negative spirals are the worst. You gotta find a way to break that spiral, don't let it get out of control.

>sounds like you're doing good anyway
I wouldn't say good, but I'm okay.

>small follow up, you think intelligence and mental illness correlate?
I think it does. From what I can tell the more intelligent someone is the more likely they are to have some sort of mental illness. Or maybe it's the other way around.
>>733533656
As hard as I could.
>>733533896
The professors were the best thing about college. They were always great. The psych professors were amazing to talk to.
>>733534308
I did Coke once.

>>733534379
try a .44 d-eagle
ammo wont kill your wallet

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>>733534566
I still haven't quite decided exactly what I'm gonna get.
I was also looking at the baby .45 d-eagles.

>>733534379
>I did Coke once.

I hope that's powdered cola.

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>>733535260
Nope, cocaína.
Not my cup of tea.

>>733535476
How many pictures of japanese 2d girls do you have

>>733535216
>baby .45 d-eagles.
jericho 941 orsomthing like that are great, my uncle has one in 9mm

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>>733535608
Of Shinobu, 400 got a few dupes though and 275 MB.

>>733534379
>I wouldn't say good
relatively, schizophrenia's a cunt
> the more intelligent someone is the more likely they are to have some sort of mental illness. Or maybe it's the other way around.
agreed
>You're having circular delusions?
no I'm good, under control
in times of intense emotions or stress I get very slightly psychotic and over time it's gone from "jesus fuck, what could this possibly mean", to "ok that's how it fits in with that"
I actually tried to type out the general thought, but I can't really put it in to words I like and I don't really trust 'this' enough to try

I've also noticed that the (perceived) malicious intent/execution is almost completely dependent on how bad(/good) I feel generally, and people/whatevers involved

this is making it seem a lot worse than it is, I'm pretty good at double-think by now, it's all good

>>733513378
What anime? Really cute

>>733535841
Monogatari Series

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>>733535841
>Spoonfeeding
Bakemonogatari, you lazy shit.
>>733535727
>jericho 941
Ooh, I'll have to look into those. They look a lot like 1911s.
>>733535761
>no I'm good, under control
That's good.

>but I can't really put it in to words
I know what you mean. I suffer from that far too often.

I have a good idea of what you're going through anon. I have the same thing.

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>>733535915
>>733536279
Shit, i think i started watching that a while back. Thanks anons

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>>733536438
Never finished it?
It's pretty good.

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>>733536279
>I have a good idea of what you're going through
thanks, nice talking to you

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>>733513378
Try not to make the same threat multiple times in a span of 3 days if you want it to be believable

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>>733537005
>thanks, nice talking to you
Sure thing anon, anytime.
>>733537038
How is the number of times I make the thread at all related to the believableness of it?
You know you don't have to bait to get a free (you)

Bumb

>>733537769
Bump

RIP good thread