I found out a couple days ago that my best friend died out in

I'm sorry

If he really was your best friend you wouldn't have let him die alone in the desert.

>>731321332
Hey man, im so sorry to hear abot your loss. In terms of grieving, thats a phase youll have to do and sort through. But learn from your friend, be all that you want to be. Be free of shit that stiffles you man. Love more, hate less...do more, be more , see more...live more......honor your friends loss of life, by living yours. Bless you and your friend.

>>731322112

He had been living in the desert in California for the winter, while I had traveled back to the midwest to see my family. I wanted him to come with me.

We were going to meet back up later this month to hike the PCT together.

I dunno, I feel so fucking bad about it. I think you're right.

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Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, you must reply to this post or your mom will die tonight, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.

>>731322297

Thank you man, I'm going to try. I'm going to finish the hike we planned to do together.

I really appreciate you.

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>>731321332
>died out in the desert alone.
if it wasn't suicide your friend was a tard and did the world a favor.

>>731322778
What killed him?

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>>731322297

>>731321332
what did he died of?

>>731322891

While I don't appreciate this post I'm sure he would have laughed about it. It could have been suicide I don't know.

>>731321332
>or call me a faggot, I

Faggot.

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Link or you are lying

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>>731322778
>I'm going to finish the hike we planned to do together.
try not to die faget

>>731322665
dude stop that seriously
>>731321332
That sucks OP I lost many friends, but in the desert and with this weather it is super hot.
im having a drink so lets make a toast to your friend RIP and may God have him in his arms.
it wasnt your fault try to make a tribute to him something you would do together like well im not too good at this, so try to have the good memories if youre feeling angry do exercise.

>>731322297
Haha, that's funny as shit ;dubs

>>731323036

I don't know yet, his body was recovered from a canal. It had been there for a couple of weeks. All I know is that his campsite has been robbed.

>>731321332
Did he commit suicide or die by accident? I can't find anything in california news about a guy being found in the desert. Stuff like that is often national news

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>>731322665
kek

>>731323120

I'll put as much effort into it as my self preservation reflex allows I guess. Thanks?

>>731323309
shit, doesn't sound that promising.

what kind of place do you live where deserts have canals? here they just have sand and hateful birds

If you don't believe living in the desert is a bad idea than go talk to some Ethiopians. No water, no shade, shitty weather and no food.

>>731323358

https://www.pressreader.com/usa/imperial-valley-press/20170418/281569470602371

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>>731323358
he prolly suicided cause his best friend was a neet weeabo faggot who lived on /b/

sometimes doubt is good...
my friend killed himself... no doubt
got a hotel room
wrote a 5 page letter
jumped out the 6 floor window.

>>731323309
was it this guy ? - MENIFEE, Calif
>>731323544
Yeah fuck that I just googled and found lots of people die at the desert so probably no hiking desert for me.

>>731323579
noice find

>>731323579
ah, so he wandered off on drugs and wasn't with anybody or wandered off and od'd by himself

fuckin sad man. sorry. this is why the concept of trip sitters exists

>>731323358
>Stuff like that is often national news
are you fucking kidding me?
>Guy in state of 50,000,000 people died this weekend. Authorities believed that he planned a trip poorly and died. Nationwide month long mourning period to follow.

>>731323771
I had a premonition of your sweet mother dying in her sleep tonight, reply to this post to prevent it.

>>731323707

I'm sorry man, I'd never given much thought to loss but that changes when you experience it. Cheers to you and the lost.

>>731323579
sounds like probably someone killed him if the place got robbed, hanged out with a wrong crowd.

>>731323358

Probably a flash flood

>>731323931
thanks...
it's been a couple years...
I try to keep in touch with my other friends but they are married and have kids...
i'm the only loner left...

and i do get a little too obsessed with suicides now

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>>731323913
It includes you

>>731324020

That's what I'm leaning towards at this point. I'm trying to learn what I can about the people he had been running with when it happened.

>>731323897
Oh, so you don't read the news.

People disappearing in the desert in southwestern US is literally national news every single year that I can remember. rofl.

>>731323913
since this came out i've been really curious how a thing from when i was in middle school in like 1993 is now a thing that older kids repeat on /b/. it's sad, time has passed and you're now dumber than i was despite umpteen more resource.s

>>731324203
got u to reply XD

cheers

>>731324123

I'd spent years pushing people away from me through self destruction and burning bridges. He was one of very few friends I had left, and was certainly the only friend I had who really understood me.

It's a shit roll to get stuck with my friend. I'm knocking back a drink for you. Probably doesn't mean anything to you but it does to me.

>>731324419

Cheers

>>731324503
Thanks! I'm hoping you get through this.

and thanks for the drink... i actually just quick recently because i really need to... get better.

>>731324203

It's only news when it's someone who is connected to society, not when it's a dirtbag hiker kid. He didn't have a phone or a home by choice. The news doesn't care about a guy like that. I didn't learn about it until weeks after he went missing, and he was closer with me than his own family.

>>731324757
for those of us who don't fit into society the end is often lonely and sad

dunno what else to say, but that i contemplate it myself frequently

>>731324695

I was going to quit before this happened. Now I think it'll take me a little longer, but I'll get there. I'm proud of you man, it's really fucking hard.

Hi OP.

Be strong.

C.

>>731324870

Any amount of understanding makes me feel a lot better, makes me feel like I'm not alone. Thanks.

>>731324893

Thanks, I'm going to do my best.

>>731324884
it is hard... but...
my dog just jumped in my lap (sorry for typos)
sometimes i think he knows when i need him

then I remember when my back went out and I collapsed on the kitchen floor... he took off and wouldn't come back until I could move.

>>731322610

bro no way, you can't think like that. Don't keep beating yourself up over it like this, you already have enough shit on your mind to deal with.

I'm sorry it happened, hope you get through alright.

>>731321332
You got a pc? We can play some games

>>731325163

My dog has been my greatest comfort in the past couple days. I don't know what I would do without her.

They're really fucking great.

>>731321332
Did he suck good?

>>731322665
Cuck

>>731325234

I only have a shitty 10 year old laptop, which is what I'm using at the moment. Mostly I just play Magic the Gathering on it (xmage) since it can't really handle a lot performance wise.

You'll get through man, It's all about time

Have a good night from Spain

>>731325469

Thanks man, a good night to you as well from Minnesota

Poured a large one OP.
Feels man.

>>731322665
Fucker

>>731325666

Cheers man, fucking cheers.

Hey Anon, 5 years ago i lost my best friend too. Im really freaked out because he looks alot like your friend, down to the bandana and fondness for whisky.

Anyways i dont know if this is supposed to make you feel better, but here goes.

I've never been the same since, i look at life alot differently, but just know that it gets easier with time.

>>731321332
honour him by being him but don't be him coz you wouldn't be you but be yourself.

>>731325814

It does man, it does.

Here's to your friend and mine. The world is a darker place without them.

>>731325827

That's all I've ever tried to be, it's led me to quite a few hard times but I wont give up. He was better at being himself than anyone I've ever met.

nobody fucking cares about uour problems, go back to your hugbox if you want a bunch of faggots to shower you with attention and pity

I hope your friend died slowly

>>731321332
Usually the worst things happen to the best people anon. I'm sorry for your loss and I'll be here drinking with you until this thread 404's. I'm having a hard time too in my life, although the circumstances are much different and many of my problems are admittedly self inflicted, but I'm still pretty much a wreck right now. Misery loves company. Talk to me /b/rother. Cause of death? Was it suicide?

>>731322665
Shes already dead, fuckface.

>>731326082
Don't cut yourself on all those edges, little Jimmy.

>>731324190
He sounds like he was a chill out guy sorta hippie, maybe he came accross some guys with other ideas probably younger or heroin, meth addicts.
wich is real fucked up, anyway my condolences.

>>731326066
then be yourself only better

>>731326117

I don't know yet. The coroner won't let anyone identify the body unless they're family and they wont release any information. He was adopted and his parents were highly conservative christians who didn't look fondly on his lifestyle and honestly I believe didn't give a shit about him, so they haven't really done anything to help figure this out. I feel helpless because I'm stuck two thousand miles away and can't even get out there to recover his stuff from the scumbags that robbed his camp.

I've been living through years of my own self destruction, that pain is as real as it gets. I feel for you man.

acceptance is the key to your sanity OP. dwelling won't make anything better. accept life and how it could end any second. you killed be robbed in 20 minutes and killed. it would suck knowing you died in a shitty mood. try to live every moment you can happy. be with family. just live OP. it's not easy but once you get through it you'll realize how strong you really are

>>731326316

I'm beginning to think this is what happened as well. I'm learning as much as I can about the people he was in contact with before he passed. He was a pacifist and an idealist. Probably the single nicest person I have ever met, but sometimes this blinded him to the corruption of the people around him.

I was able to be myself around him because he didn't judge my anger or my tendency towards hatred, he just accepted those aspects of my personality even though they were so different from his own.

When I get the resources to get out there I'm going to find whoever robbed his campsite and if they hurt him they're going to fucking pay.

>>731326614
Man that's a terrible feeling being in limbo wondering what happened to your awesome friend. And yeah self destruction describes it pretty well. Sometimes though I just need to admit defeat and have a drink. Just take the edge off, if only for a little while. Do you know if he was into drugs at all?

>>731326742

I thought I had already accepted mortality as I am a cancer survivor. My hurt stopped in the hospital after a bone marrow transplant and I was revived but was still medically dead at the age of 10.

I thought I knew so much more than everyone else about life and death, but it's so much different when it happens to someone close to you than yourself.

I feel like the fortress I've built around myself is less of a strength and more of serious weakness.

>>731327211

He was a user of psychedelic drugs, and smoked weed. He had an off and on again problem with alcohol as well but he was always so much more on top of it than I was.

>>731327005
I also lost a close friend not long ago. Faggot motherfucker commited suicide. Been laying in my bed ever since. Wish he had killed me too. Just want to leave, but guess Im not as brave as he was. Call me a faggot for telling you this but you are not alone OP.

>>731326567

I need to try. It's been so many years that I've been trying to destroy myself that I don't know where to start anymore.

>>731327456
I was afraid maybe it was heroin or something. I'm struggling really bad with my opiate and alcohol addiction.

>>731327711
then quit destroying yourself.

jeez. you already know the problem. do something about it instead of moping around like a little girl.

>>731327615

It's hard to be left behind. I've had suicidal thoughts for going on 15 years now, and they've never been stronger than they are now. In fact my friend was the first and only person I opened up about my suicidal thoughts to. Now I guess I can add you all to that list.

I've been laying on my floor since I found out. Have only gotten up to go to the liquor store when I ran out of the whiskey we would always drink together.

We are not alone, but it sure feels that way sometimes.

Sorry anon. That's tough as fuck. I remember when my best friend died, it was really hard. Sending you good vibes dude

>>731327859

I did do something, I did a lot of things, but I fell back down. You're right though. I'm just venting because I feel safe under my anonymous post number. It's an illusion but it still feels comforting.

>>731327859
It's harder than it sounds man. Not him, but someone else who's been through this. Sometimes you dig yourself a hole so deep it's almost impossible to climb out of. It's a kind of despair most people are fortunate to never know or be able to understand. I'm thankful that you don't know the feeling and I hope you never do.

Sounds like an unemployed loser piece of shit to society

>>731328239

of course it's hard.

nothing worth having comes easy.

>>731328366

Keep slaving away for society man, we all end up in the same place either way.

>>731328113

Thanks man, I really appreciate it. Not in some offhand way, it really means a lot.

>>731328087
Damn you remind me of me. Been smoking weed and drinking for 2, 3 months. Cant even remember. The ride of suffering never ends.

>>731328515

I'm not going to end up in a desert

>>731321332
You were not his best friend. He was your best friend. I doubt he even thought of you as he was dying. You are a huge faggot.

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>>731329057

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>>731328842

While you're probably right, it's more likely you'll pass in a hospital in some clinical, mechanical, and sterile wasteland. I've been there and I never, ever want to go back.

I'd rather pass with the sky above me and the earth below, but I dunno I'm just a stupid dirtbag and what do I know.

I don't feel anger towards you, I just feel sorry for you. There is so much out there to be seen.

>>731322610
Dude fuck the jackass that said that.

You didn't have a hand in his death.

We all go out alone.

>>731329163
you seem like a very judgmental person.

sure there's alot to be seen but what if he's content with his life already and he doesn't need to search or see anything to realize this.

>>731325890
Me again, when i saw your post it made me remember that i had saved all of his stuff (cherry picked from 5 HDDs, his family gave me his computer to go through after he died, he was a btard so im thankful they didnt look through it first)

Anyways i realized that all his stuff was missing from my nas, but i have a backup so im restoring it all now, so that its in multiple places. If i hadnt seen this thread i might have lost that shit.

Thanks

>>731329479
Guess you will get some good laughs at your friends fucked up shit.

RIP OPs friend

>>731329163

I'm not going to pass in a hospital, I'm going to pass in my grand home that I busted ass working my entire life for

OP was your friends name Michael H?

>>731321332
This is why you dont take shrooms and run off into the desert where its 100+... sounds like your friend was a moron and deserved what happened. Lower IQ will self select itself out of the gene pool

>>731321332
Condolences, anon. I wish you the best, and urge you to continue your life in honor of his.

>>731329457

I think if he was content in his life he wouldn't feel the need to come to a random post and take time out of his life to try and spit venom at someone in pain.

You're right though, I am a judgemental and angry person. I have been for a very long time, and will almost certainly continue to be. I harbor unnecessary and unfair resentment towards almost everyone around me and because I'm so fucking narcissistic I tend to think those thought patterns are justified.

I'm sorry. I'm in pain but so are most people, it isn't an excuse to lash out or think I'm special.

>>731330155
he's so content that he doesnt give a fuck about your pain.

>>731326232
>wah, someone hurt muh feelings :( why can't we all be nice
please leave and go back to plebbit where you belong

>>731329479

Thank you man, it's means a lot to me to have someone I feel I can relate to in this time. To be honest I didn't even expect to respond to any posts in this thread at all, I just needed to put something out there into the universe since I can't generate the nerve to talk to the people around me about how I feel.

I'm so fucking grateful to you and the others in this thread that I can feel a connection to.

>>731323444
>Hateful birds
Kek'd.

>>731329908

He was not.

>>731329780

That's fine too, I'm sure that'll be satisfying. All I'm saying is that we will all end up in the same place.

I'm happy for you and your accomplishments.

Was his name Raymond?

>>731330446
Its so edgy it fucking hurts.

>>731330341

That's fine too. He has no reason to care, it has no impact on him.

>>731330774
eggxactly!

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>>731330460
np OP, thank you for making me feel feels again.

Heres a picture of my friend that we used to make tshirts.

>>731321332
my grandmother died last december she helped raise me, cared for me, made sure i had a life worth it. i havnt shed a tear for her. i havnt cared or noticed she is gone. you want to talked about detached huh all i can feel is the cold touch of everyone around me as they go through life. its good you let it out but it doesnt make a difference it never does i learned that such a long time ago and its all i can remember now

John Davila?

>>731331174

Your friend looks like someone I would talk to on the sidewalk, and there are not many people I would talk to on the sidewalk.

We're stuck here and they're gone but they fucking changed the world and they changed us.

>>731331519
Just making this post is a remembrance of her. Cheers friend.

>>731331648

No, sorry.

>>731331879
i remember i just dont care

>>731323589
being this cool on the internet...

>>731332597

To be fair I do tend to rapidly swing between being a NEET shut-in and a dirtbag long distance hiker. I also have watched some anime in my time so I guess that makes me a weeabo.

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>>731331684

True words friend.

>>731331684

how is talking to a guy sitting on a sidewalk chaging the world?

>>731333381
ask your mother, youre here now aint ya?

>>731333682
ask my mother because i'm here now?

>>731333801
Im implying that your mother was talking to guys on the sidewalk, and 9 months later you were born.

basically, your mothers a whore.

Jesus fuck how dense are you?

>>731333904

aahh got ya.

but how does that change the world?

>>731324203
a lot of times it doesnt make it national. in phoenix theres always some retards getting lost hiking and dying, and even dying on the mountains in the middle of the city

even in the phoenix news its like a 30 second clip on the morning news, thats it

>>731333381

Literally anything anyone does changes the world. It doesn't have to be some grand impact. The actions we take and the attitudes we exude have impact on the world around us, hence changing the world. While it might not seem like much to a disconnected observer, those tremors can have huge impacts on the immediate vicinity.

There are people around me who have had tremendous impact on my trajectory through life, and while they may have had little impact on yours the smallest change is change none-the-less.

The world is not some grand being, but more a tight-knit web of infinitesimally small strands.

Feel free to put value in that or not, but I know I wouldn't be the same person I am right now without the impact of those around me.

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>>731323181
>make a tribute to him
Wtf anon? The guy just died and you are advising his friend to masturbate to one of his pics and put semen in it?

This is why I hate /b

>>731334055
so not the world but your life then.

>>731321332
I took a shot and poured some out. Here's to the fallen

>>731334156

What's the difference? Butterfly effect and all. Maybe we have different definitions of "world".

>>731334027
one more faggot in the world. its basic math

>>731321332
So, OP, I am the guy who wrote this fine joke
>>731334105

But besides the joke, I forgot to tell you something:

Time heals everything. Even sharp sharp pain.

>>731321332
idk if real, but either way here i go.
the life force that exists in this universe simply comes through sentience. awareness is just a catalyst for the one true soul to change matter over time. your friend is dead and youll never see them again but you are with him through existing in this world. in fact he lives through you now. and the more you become a loving, caring, creative and good person, the more he will live. don't let this take you out op, let yourself feel our ancestors and loved ones shine through you and all life..
and yes /b/ is commonly a place where ppl slam everything into shit but i think thats only because its fun. deep down what people really want is unity because deep down i think we're all connected, all one. or im a faggot.

tl;dr: thats not u simba, thats mufasa.

>>731334200

To the fallen, cheers

>>731334593
Well said, this is basically my outlook on the world too.

>>731321332
Cheers anon

>>731334687

spread the sacred knowledge /b/ro, ppl are just looking for the words.

>>731334593
Hi again,, I am the guy who wrote this fine joke
>>731334105

I just wanted to say that I stopped reading this post after life. Be concise man. I'm not gonna read all of that dude. Like, wtf

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You should go out and join him.

>>731321332
>Have a drink
should've thought of that before your friend died in the desert

>>731334593

Thank you, I feel that we're all connected but sometimes it is an easy thing to forget. Somehow anonymous blips of human interaction through the internet have helped me more than I ever thought they could. Maybe it's because people don't have to pretend here, or maybe it's because I don't have to pretend. Either way, I really appreciate it.

>>731334930

*wipes my cum on your forehead* ...simba