>General Feels Thread Come and get whatever you need too

Don't waste your emotions and time on someone who isn't worth it.

>>730170557
She's also a chronic liar over stupid things that don't matter, and I've caught her in them several times and always give her another chance. Starting to think the bitch is psycho...

She told me how she fucked five different guys drunk at parties, and cheated on one of her boyfriends, only to later tell me she hasnt even had sex (after we fucked hundreds of times)

Stupid little shit like that all the time.
Fuck women.

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>>730170557
Bruh you're already a step ahead of most people: you realise there is a problem. If you cut it off now it may feel shitty but only temporarily, you will breathe much easier after cutting her out. I was in a similar situation myself and I was kinda fucked for several months after I split it up but looking back now I feel so much better.

>>730170775
Sounds totally nuts. Pump and dump my man pump and dump. Incidentally Flip chicks are the worst for lying about everything. It's in their blood.

>>730170954
I know anon, but how did you do it when you love them? This girl is mentally fucking destructive, abusive and brings the worst out in me (im not normally a yeller). But everytime I've tried to leave her in the past, she cries and says she can't afford to move out and she has to care about her alcoholic mother and her cokehead dad and im all she has, and I always end up giving her "One" last chance....

I'm petrified to lose my best friend, but I know there is no solution to this issue besides ending it.

Reading posts on these threads makes me so glad I'm single.

you gotta drop that girl OP

>>730170557
Don't let her beat you to the punch. Dump her and you'll feel better and in time be so glad you stood up for yourself. Walk away with a shred of dignity.

I feel you anon,

>Be me
> 23 years old, moved out with my girlfriend of three years
> first time moving out, working and going to school full time
> she works but doesn't go to school, just a local barista at a coffee shop
> come home 2 days after moving in... halfway across the country to her getting fucked by some fat stranger.

Fuck psycho bitches dude

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>>730171286
That's the hard part, and there's not really an easy way around it. You just gotta /do/ it. Psych yourself up, don't think about it too hard, and just cut it off cold. You can deal with the aftermath, as long as it gets done and you cut it the hell off.

>>730171286
She's manipulating you with those tears. You have to think of her as a block of wood when you're dumping her. Just say to yourself in your head. Block of wood block of wood block of wood. You can do it.

Fuck you Jessica for what you've done to me,
Fuck you...

>>730172183
You'll get better. I'm betting she was just a stupid bitch and there will be other stupid bitches.

>>730172121
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>>730172183
dude, it's just one part of your life, more to see bruh

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bumping with feels photos, I know 90% of you fuckers are sad as hell, come share.

I think my drinking and smoking habit might actually be killing me. In constant pain all over.

>>730172922
Not so much sad at this point. Just tired, fed up, numb and going through the motions.

>>730170557
I regularly have sex with a 550 lb girl and the sweat smell when she spreads her legs makes me gag a little.
but it's all I got right now.

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>all my friends are down in Disney Land for oneitis' 21st birthday
>mfw I wasn't invited
>mfw they keep sending me snapchat of them having fun

When will this ride finally end?

>>730170557
OP YOU DON'T LOVE HER, YOU LOVE THE HER SHE USED TO BE. YOU'RE FOCUSING ON WHAT YOU LIKED ABOUT HER AND NOT HOW SHE MAKES YOU FEEL NOW. DON'T BE A RETARDED CUCK. DUMP HER.

OP here, another beta feels of mine

Relatively good looking guy, strong jawline, dirty blonde hair and dark features.

But my hairline starts too high on my head, not receding just very high from birth.

>be me two years ago
>starting university, lifting a lot, feeling very good about my change, attracting grills left right and center.
>exams come, lose 20 lbs of muscle in the span of a month, look relatively unhealthy (stress, not eating properly)
> all gains depleted to a somewhat flat version of the gains I had before.
> make new friends, things are looking up, exams pass and gym routine picks up again
> new friend group consists of two girls and one dude.
> one day, out for a hike with them, go to piss in the woods, come back and before i turn around a tree, hear them all talking
>"anon would be so good looking if it wasnt for his huge ass forehead, it takes him from a 9 to a literal 6, i could never be with someone that looks like jimmy neutron"
> Spend days researching forehead reduction surgery, hairline lowering surgery.
> realize I can't afford it, lose motivation to better myself,
>gains leave, depression ensues, settle for bitch girlfriend (see first post)
>self-hate, go to the washroom to try and make my forehead look less shitty every 15 minutes

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When I say I am always here for you, I have a strong feeling that they don't know that I truly mean it, but that's okay.... I'm here all alone in the dark, just looking around the web, while they have fun with others. As long as they're happy, it's what matters.

>>730173127
That's some nasty practice pussy.

>>730173645
The worst part was rejoining them like I never heard them talking about me with that lump in my throat like the little bitch I am

My autistic weirdness prevents me from actually ever carrying about anyone. It's hard to explain, but it feels bad. My dad was in the hospital one time from a heart attack and I just found it exciting. Keep in mind my dad has always been there for me and has always taken good care of me. WTF is wrong with me?

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>>730173274
Wow...

I know that feel all too well. I'm so sorry, anon.

>>730170557
sounds like she is a borderline personality disorder chick.

You've identified the problems, you aren't happy, you want it to end.
End it and take responsibility and control of your life.
It will make you stronger.

If you let it continue, it will fuck up your self esteem.
Be rid of her, study hard and live well.
I wish i had followed the advice someone told me when my relationship had been a mess - but instead I hung on for another year or more, she left anyway and my health fucked up permanently.

my girls parents were out
went to hers to have sex with her first time
my dick couldn't get up, slightly got hard from head

>fucking xanax
>fucking impotence at 19

op here, last story

Be me, senior in highschool

>beginning of fit career, happy, going out everyday
>bestfriend is the most intelligent, fit and attractive dude ever
> been bestfriends ever since our first day of school
> could always count on him to guide me through relationships, pussy getting and generally anything I needed.
> Now when I say the dude was amazing, I mean, he was so intelligent, caring and attractive that it left most guys hating him, and girls drooling to wrap their lips around his cock.
> he was accepted to the most prestigious engineering school in Canada, I was staying at our home town university for the incredible science program.
> planned to meet up for several more experiences towards the end of highschool
>one day, schools water pipe breaks, rainy day and we all get sent home early.
>bro messages me and says he's going to a girls house from school to fuck her and hang out
> i go to work, and get a fuck ton of calls while out on the retail floor
> go out back and read a text from another friend saying "anon"
> another text from another friend saying, "are you okay man? What's going on?"
> confused I call friend #1, she answers the phone crying.
> Best friend is kill, car crash.

>fast forward through suicidal spout, grief and hate for everything, my brother eventually starts dating the girl my bestfriend was on his way to fuck that day when he was hit
> reminded every time she was here about that day, not her fault, but made my heart sink everytime.
> I miss you bro

>>730170557
hahaha u sound like my room mate. his gf literally treats him like shit, cheats on him and he is still cucked. i never understood people who are willing to take this much shit for security. stop being a fucking pussy OP and dump her ass, let her know you are better without her which u will be message her right now and post screenshot of convo, your days of being a beta fag ends tonight. DO IT

>>730174010

That's so true for me.

>worthless, what a fucking beta

ya

Im a wagecuck and I cant unwind from work. All I want to do is go chill with friends on my days lff but when I do chill with them, all I'd rather do is just chill at home and do nothing all day. I think my anxiety is keeping me from really wanting to be around people sometimes.

>>730175227
I've felt that too, sounds like you're wound really tight.

>>730173645
hahaha jimmy neutron

never heard anyone reference that

Well, fuck them dude.
Never listen to a cunt girl as shallow as that. Don't let people affect your emotional state, especially not long term.
It will become easier as you become older, but you can be developing it all the time.
You are who you are, and the insecurities you have about yourself usually aren't important.
You look how you look, doesn't matter shit. One girl will make fun of it, another down the road will find it something she likes about you - something that makes you you.
When I was young, people made fun of my lip being big, I was self conscious about it. My mother said, when I would be older, my lips would stay full when others have become thin.
Well, eventually met a girl, she loved my lip.
A girl after that too.

High forehead, jimmy neutron or not, suggests intelligence.
Most men will have a receeding hairline, and maybe you'll keep yours beyond them.

Concentrate on improving yourself, not changing yourself.
Work hard, study, exercise again and keep at it, learn new skills, apply for a new job.
Stay positive and never listen to negative people, just stay away from them like they cause cancer, ok man?
After a while of being positive, you won't even remember your old insecurities or problems.
You'll be too busy enjoying life and you'll have a bunch of accomplishments and experiences under your belt.

Also, dump this chick, she's negative and unhealthy if you are wishing for her to fuck someone else.
Be rid of that negativity now.

>>730173796
Stop penetrating yourself.

Be positive about yourself.
You built your body up before, do it again.
When problems come, conquer them.

It is hard to start, but everything in, life is practice.

Man I hate this, I just realised I'm falling back into depression

It's a matter of time untill something bad happens while I'm under a lot of stress and I break down, and I feel like I can't avoid it

Such a fucking shame bros, I was doing great, managed to put away depression for almost a year, I wasn't truly happy but I was alright. Now I'm fucked

Why is that everyone around you when your a virgin has to brag or make fun of you for being a virgin? I'm sorry I can't keep a relationship down long enough, let alone ever have one half the time. I don't even care about being a virgin, I'm just done placing my feelings in someone who doesn't care

>>730173959
Maybe you've never lost anyone and can't imagine what it is like.
Do you miss anyone when being away from them?

One day I will burn myself alive.

>>730174913
Right? That picture sums up my entire fucking shitty life except for like one thing.

>>730170557
Sorry OP, today's my birthday and unless someone changes it in the next hour, it wasn't even recognized. Oh well on to another year.

>>730175461


This guy is right >>730173645

Also, as a fellow big foreheaded guy, I gotta say fuck 'em, if you get the right haircut and carry yourself with style you'll look amazing, high forehead or not, trust me I went from being a 6/10 to a solid 8 just with a haircut, a beard, and a better posture

>>730175621
Someone on here last year said "fight against depression like it is someone trying to take your life".

Fight it dude.

Exercise every day, eat well on a schedule, go for walks every day, study and work hard, force yourself to socialise.
Complete accomplishments.

Also, stay away from porn, fap less often - maybe twice a week maximum.
Eat more brasil nuts, walnuts and fruit, and have plenty of sunlight.

>>730175782

No. The only one I ever seem to feel bad for is myself. I don't know what to do about this.

>>730175929
Hey it's mine too and I'm in the same boat. Happy birthday.

I'm starting to catch feels for my 2nd cousin and I wanna fuck her badly. I am going to her house monday or tuesday to replace her phone screen anyone have any ideas on how I can fuck her?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KZqkMWGc0js

>>730176133
Start helping people, volunteer or something.
Also, having a pet builds responsibility and a bond from the work you put in.

>>730176284

I'll try that.

>>730175929
>>730176159

Happy birthday /b/ros.
You may be anonymous, but I care.

>>730176091
I know I should be doing this but every day I drop a bit lower

Untill a month ago I was doing excersice daily, I stopped and told myself it was because I had no time (started studying for SAT which I'm doing in june with hopes of getting out of the shithole that is Spain)

Tried to do nofap and failed, I'm back at daily fap now

Stopped talking to even my best friend

Started feeling more numb and stressed


At least I'm fighting it a bit, I picked up a bass and I'm managing to get myself to study too so at least I'm moving forward. I just hope I can hold on untill I move to the US and staart a new life

>>730176266
I saw you in a thread either yesterday or two days ago and you haven't made any progress? well idk any sure-fire way to fuck her unless she already wants to. Are you getting vibes from her and you think she wants to fuck you

>>730176332
It might also be that you just don't allow yourself to open emotionally.
You can try opening up to some people, a little bit at a time.
Share something, they should share something back.
Continue trading like that.

>>730176159
>>730175929
Happy birthday guys, we care for you

>>730176469
talk to your friend
my friends are the most important people to me and if that's not how you feel about your best friend you need a better one

>>730176564

It is true it's hard for me to be emotionally honest.

anyone want a list of soundcloud songs that get me in a feels mood (it's only two artists but a ton of songs)

man fuck this shit,im killing myself someday
i don't give a fuck if i go to hell or something

>>730176469
Do the exercise again.
Like a robot. You have no excuse or thought in the matter, you just do it.
Exercise, sunlight and healthy food can all directly affect your hormones and neurotransmitters.
Do those things without hesitation.

As for no fap, doesn't matter if you slip up after 20 tries, keep trying. Every time you quit for a while you raise your self control and determination a bit higher.
First week is the hardest, second is easier - just stay busy and around other people.
Exercise when you feel like fapping.
After a few weeks no fap, you should have lost the addictive part of it.
When you feel in control, you can fap again to your imagination, a couple of times a week.

the girl at work strung me along for weeks. she gaslit me in to questioning my sanity. when she saw i was in pain she had no empathy. she's a sociopath and a narcissist. she used to be a dominatrix. no one at work will ever believe this sweet girl is capable of such cruelty. there's a chance she might fuck me over as well by claiming i assaulted her. i'm so fucked up right now.

>>730176998
I'm surprised you don't just leave your phone on daily to record any private conversations you have with her.

>>730176476
not yet and I can't really tell if she would fuck or not we don't get sexual and snapchat but at school we sit next to each other and were basically shoulder to shoulder if that means anything but in defense she is kinda slutty too and the advice I've been is just ask to fuck her and I'm not gonna flat out do that I have hinted of it though

>>730170557
I actually had a pretty awesome relationship last summer, but she decided to end it because she realized i didn't have too much "life experience."

>>730176667
Thing is, I don't really develop a great interest in most people, my current best friend is who she is because she helped me a lot in the past year and I helped her too, we are friends because we have been emotional pillars for eachother, but when it comes down to having fun and just feeling like I want to spend time with someone none of my friends comes to mind, I met someone who was THAT person for me but after a couple of months she just stopped being interested


I feel like I can't find people that I'd really enjoy spending my time with

>>730176790
Try it man.
Just a little bit at a time.
When you open to someone, a friend or a girl, it is a two way thing.
You will feel different and it should make a bond.
Opening up is always a risk, but it is part of life.
It is also worth experiencing.

Tell your dad about a girl you like, or something on your mind, or a worry.
Keep it small, in small chunks, and share an equal amount that they share.

>>730176940
Thanks for encouragement /b/ro, I'll try to dig myself out of this hole

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I'm fucking drunk and I just realised that I'm still in love with my high school crush.


The worst part is that she also had a crush on me and that I was just too beta to make moves
Holt shit I want to fucking die


Random sad peep
Wtf I got the captcha wrong like30 times lmao

>>730176811
fuck it why not
i kinda got my own. i just keep playing this shit
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GatpGFlMcAE

>>730176864
Do new things, you have free reign.
If you are so tired of things that you want to die, just kill your old life and do new stuff.
Change your job, or study hard and do nothing else until you are awesome, go on a trip, hike, learn survive! skills, talk with everyone you meet, learn an instrument.
You have nothing to lose.

>>730177102
i have text. it only proves she was flirty.

>>730177178
Not him but this is the hardest part of life for me

Either I'm compeltely closed or I pull an emotional version of superman's solar flare

>>730170557
Hey, OP. I'll tell you my story. I just got back home from my best friend's wedding, and I don't really feel like I have anything to live for.
>be me
>23 years old
>graduated college summa cum laude
>got my dream job with a nonprofit after graduation
>lots of work but I felt like I was making a difference in peoples' lives
>eventually I realized my boss was a complete douche (He asked me to lie on an IRS form among other things)
>I gave my month's notice and he made my life hell for that month
>He gave me bad references for every job I applied to
>Month ended, still no job, so I had to move in with my dad
>girlfriend dumped me because I didn't have a job, was living with my dad, etc
>friends disappeared (except for best friend)
>felt sad, but I wanted to push through for my best friend's wedding
>cousin that molested me as a child moved in with my dad about two weeks ago
>feel completely depressed now and I can't find any reason to keep going
Now that my best friend's wedding is over, I don't see any reason to keep going. I feel like I'm such a deadbeat now, and every time I see my cousin in the house, it makes me feel sick and helpless. I just wish that I had the strength to kill myself and stop hurting.

>>730177164
I'm not great at advice but you need to somehow get a friend that you want to spend time with, my friends and I are constantly hanging out, even if we do nothing but sit around and watch youtube it's better than doing nothing alone

>>730177348
Anytime.
Don't stop digging once you are out, keep digging and build a mound to stand on to see the horizon better, and keep digging and build a castle and keep adding to it.
Think positively.
Research healthy foods, foods that build testosterone naturally.
Write a list and eat as a routine.
Same goes for exercising.
Keep it simple, good quality pushups and squats.
Go for walks, appreciate nature and the sky.
Pause for moments and empty your head, look around and focus on your environment.

>>730177412
Give me at least one reply you faggots, I'm really sad

It's my birthday and I'm on a feels thread....... Nuff said.

>>730177777
>>Holy Check

>Be me
>Parents are kill
>Mom died of cancer
>Dad remarried
>Dad's new wife died of cancer
>Dad couldn't handle it, suicides
>Several years later
>I nostalgia hard
>Remember when I was young, parents take me to Disneyland every other summer or so
>decide to go to Disneyland alone
>Plan disney trip
>expensive as fuck
>realize how hard they had to save to take me so often
>Go to Disney for 5 days
>1st day have all the nostalgia feels
>2nd day realize it's actually not that fun by yourself.
>3rd day trying to decide if I just just cut my losses and do something else from the rest of my time
>checking out critter country
>see girl, maybe 6 years old?
>she's crying, is all alone. No one is reacting to her
>Feel I should ask if she's ok
>paranoid of being an adult male approaching a child at Disneyland and looking like a pedo
>Fuck it, can't leave the poor child
>Ask her name and if she needs help
>tells me name is Erin. she is lost
>Ask where she last saw her parents
>says she is with her sister, and can't find her
>Tell her I'll take her to the lost child area on mainstream
>get there, her sister is already there, in an absolute panic
>thanks be profusely, offers to buy me dinner as thanks
>Sister's name is Sarh She's my age, maybe a little younger and 8/10. Not going to say no to that
>over dinner learn that she brought her sister to Disney as a distraction from their parents ongoing nasty divorce
>Tell her my story
>she offers to have me hang out with them by remaining two days
>tonsoffun.jpg
>Go back home, stay in contact with her
>year later, become armyfag
>after training, get posted to same city that Sarah lives in
>date her
>after a year, marry her
>shortly after her mom is kill from heart attack.
>Erin comes to live with us
>Erin graduates highschol next year
>planning to take her to Disneyland as a grad gift and for thanks in her part in getting Sarah and I together

>>730177482
That's the emotions building up and bursting.
Try releasing them - any emotions - more regularly, in little pieces.

When you are angry, say "fuck it!" and let it pass.
Same goes for talking to people.
A good example is with girls.
If you meet one you like, let her know as soon as you realise you like her.
The same day.
"hey, I like you, let's go for a meal tomorrow so we can talk more". Flirt with her lightly and build it up.

Otherwise, it builds up and you spill out "I LOVE YOU!!!!" after a year or two and you've never said anything about it before. Then she disappears.

>>730177765
I try that but it's just... I don't feel like spending time with many people, and the last (and probably the first too) person I met that I actually felt like I could spend time with... well, she kind of stopped talking to me and it hurt even more than before I had anyone, so now it's even worse

>>730177910
happy b-day /b/ro, we care for you

>>730177482
It takes practice dude, just try it and keep trying to let something out.
Share your fears with someone, one at a time. Or say what you like even if it might be a bit foolish.
Take little tiny risks by telling people stuff a piece at a time.
You'll find they then take the same risk and tell you something, and it keeps going over time.

>>730177777

I remember the first time I got quints.. it was literally 2 days ago.

>had a date on tinder, pretty cute girl nice and all
I hadn't had a relationship nor sex for almost 3 years so i'm like go johnny
>get in couple fast
>not the best relationship but sex was good and we laughed

>one day she told me she thought i considered her as a fuckbuddy and she basically felt she meant nothing for me.
>Recomfort her by telling i would not have let her meet my friends.
>3 weeks later, after epic sex she says she not sure of what she is searching for
>a month later she stopped responding to text, phone and fb (at this time it's 3 months in the relationship)
>ask for a coffee for clearing all this shit
>no response

>2 weeks later, go to a bar kiss one girl, kiss her best friend
>get one to muh rape dungeon
>at the second i insert the pussynator
>text message from ex "hey sorry anon, would you like to take a coffee"
>take the coffee we laugh blah i tell i'm okay since i've fucked my hate on someone else
>1 month later, this thursday, "hey anon how is your cat?
maybe i'm at a bad time like always ahah but would you like a drink this week?"

dream't of her all week
i kinda have feelings for her but i can also fuck other girls
inch allah

wat do

>>730177412
Same boat, now she's engaged and it looks like it will work out for them. The worst thing is I can't sever those ties no matter what I do.

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>>730177455
Idk man...i just finished to read this picture and its true.i will always be this fucking failure,.i failed to do 99% of the things people have already done at this age (20) and im fucking tired after dealing with depression for more than 4 years
i appreciate your good will tho

>>730177412
Fuck you guys,I'm not even I'm in a party, I'm actually in house alone after drinking 2/4 of a 3$ dollars vodka anyway, also I don't need replies sober me can deal with his feelings,I just lied about the whole party thing because ima 19 y/o virgin who will never get invited to a party and my birthday is tomorrow

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>>730176811
songs seperated by the artist and ordered by how sad they are
Samsa
komodo - https://soundcloud.com/iamsamsa/i-should-have-been-a-pair-of-ragged-claws-prod-tomppa
solo - https://soundcloud.com/offthejump/samsa-solo
Haunt Me - https://soundcloud.com/iamsamsa/haunt-me
Butterflies - https://soundcloud.com/iamsamsa/butterflies (this isn't sad just a good song)

Atlas
such nice sounds - https://soundcloud.com/atlas/suchnicesounds
severance package - https://soundcloud.com/atlas/severance
Anxious - https://soundcloud.com/atlas/anxious
No One Ever Said - https://soundcloud.com/atlas/nooneeversaid
stfu - https://soundcloud.com/atlas/stfu

>>730178116
>>730178270
thanks for the advice /b/ros, really appreciate it

>>730177607
Find ANY job, work as many hours as you can, save all of it, and move out to a rented place, even a room so you have your own space again.
After that, keep applying for better jobs, save money and move into a better place when you can.
Even another town, city or state where you can find better opportunities and more peace of mind.
The girl wasn't worth keeping if she left like that.
Focus on the future.

>>730177412
Had a similar instance happen to me in highschool /b/ro.

My good buddy told me "You can't miss what you never had, so why are you still caught up on what could have been years ago?"

That got me thinking, Was my oneitis due to my thoughts and fantasies, or was it the real deal? A year later, the girl I spent years depressed over because I 'loved' her, hit on me at a party, and literally drunkenly begged me to fuck her.

That wasn't what I fantasized about with her. I fantasized about making love, about knowing her, kissing her face and laughing. I fantasized about a thousand years flying by in just seconds because of the comfort of the thought of her.

The point is, that you can't know that you are in love with her, you are in love with idea of her, and the fantasies you have associated her with in your head. Learn from this, and next time, approach the female of your interests. Try and retain from attaching love onto things, and just take them as they come

I promise you the rest will come into place /b/rother, much love.

>>730176271
Holy shit anon, i'm almost in tears.

>>730177607
Also, start doing pushups every day and learn how to throw a good solid punch.
Then beat the shit out of your cousin.

Take back control of your life.

>>730170557
A bit frustrated.

Im in a 4 year relationship and its wonderful. Shes a great woman, faithful, domestic partner, drinking buddy, gaming buddy, business partner.

10/10.

But also like 6 months into our relationship my best friend (since 10 years) decided it was as good a time as any to tell me she wanted me to basically elope with her, move across the country and start over together.

I loved her for a long time but held my tongue not for beta reasons but circumstancial, and knowing how to read a woman and if you can get it or not. She was too confused and trying anything was a trip to the friendzone, im sure of it.

Anyway, i saw the potential in my current gf, denied her and she went without me.

We talk every day and i still have strong feelings for her. My relationship is fine and i dont cross any boundaries with the other girl conversationally or otherwise, but its still very clear she loves me, though she doesnt say it because shes been very respectful of my relationship.

Girls gorgeous, though.

Not lookin for advice or anything. I know what im doing. But man that shits frustrating as hell. Probably gonna cut her off. More for her because she wants a man really badly and cant find anyone and i feel like shes waiting for my relationship to fail or shes comparing them to me or some shit. I feel i need to get myself out of her head.

>>730178019
i fucking sneezed

I'm getting scared shitless by all this North Korea talk. I am an anxiety-ridden mess after hearing that they've sealed up that nuclear site.

I don't even know why. I live in Ohio. I need to calm down somehow.

>>730178427
I'm the anon who post this list if anyone listens or like a particular song reply to the post with the list

>>730178427
Arctic Monkeys - Bigger Boys and Stolen Sweethearts

>>730178309
you're both confused on what you want in terms of a relationship.

You like fucking other girls right? Of course you should, you're young and just figuring out about life; what you want. Like seriously, how awesome is getting some random girl you just met lick your cock.

Yet... yet you also like the idea of having a woman you love and care about. Everyone has one of those women. Some men more than others; but none the less we fall in love. We want those kids to raise, we want that white picket fence house where the woman of your dreams wakes you up with pancakes & a blowjob when you wake up. Every man wants a woman to not only "fuck" but to make love to. And i feel like with this girl you are talking about; you make love.

Notice how confusing this is to you? Can't make up your mind on what you want?

Friends?
Couple?
Fuckbuddies?

She's just as confused as you. Have an open honest relationship and you'll make it out alright.

TL;DR

>FUCK LOTS OF WOMEN
>GIVE ZERO FUCKS
>???
>PROFIT

>>730178386
I first passionately kissed a girl at 28 dude.
Time frame doesn't mean anything.
Don't compare yourself to others, just keep moving forwards and try hard at the things you do - without giving up.
Look at Arnold's six rules of success on youtube.
Listen to it enough times that you really understand it, each part.
Begin applying them to your life, repeat them in your head.
DO NOT listen to negative thoughts, immediately generate a positive thought right after.

Failure is the road to success, you can not succeed with failing. You just have to keep trying, becoming better each time.
Same with playing a video game. Treat life like a game and you can do it.

First step is STOP THINKING.
Start doing things without any fucking hesitation.
No time for doubts, your hand is already reaching for the phone, or your shoes, or the door handle.
Your feet are already going for a walk or a run, you didn't even have time to think about it or feel about it, you were already doing it.
That is how you will kick the crap out of depression.
Fight it hard and don't think.
Depression can't win if you don't let the thoughts have time to settle.

Chemical fight is by exercise, healthy food, sunlight and accomplishing lots of small things - having a shower, washing the dishes every night before bed, learning to cook something new, overcoming a fear in any small way.
Talk to a stranger at a bus stop, ask the time, make a joke, mention the weather.
Keep trying it.

>>730179316
That's a bad advice, an open relationship will end in tears almost always

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Last weekend I was at an amusement park with my friend in line for a ride and it was like a 45 minute wait. Ahead of me in the line was this girl who was just so beautiful. She was perfectly my type- blonde hair and blue eyes and she was just really pretty while still being in my league. Like what I mean is she wasn't one of those "hot girls" type shit, but I was very attracted to her. The way the line zig-zagged, I would be standing next to her every few minutes as the line kept moving. I was wearing sunglasses so I was like checking her out but being subtle about it so I didn't seem like a creep. A few times she looked over at me, and probably didn't think I noticed cause she couldn't see my eyes. So anyway I tell my friend I think she's cute and he's like "Say something to her." And my friend is outgoing as fuck and was talking to girls that whole day. Every time I would be near her in the line I would really want to say something but never did. Since she was ahead in line she rode the ride before me and was gone. This whole past week I couldn't stop thinking about the situation and beating myself up about it. Sometimes things like that happen- you wanna say something to a girl, chicken out, and wonder what might have been. It's happened to me before but this time was different. I could picture her face perfectly in my mind. Stay tuned for part 2 cause this gets worse.

>>730179546
Then you lack skill my friend.

The woman of my dreams cries because I fuck other women, but it's just because she cares. Never a problem, and she always gets over it, because i've told her that's the way it was going to be when i first met her.

>git gud

>>730178912
keep your girl, get the other out
if it ever fail with your actual girlfriend you know what to do

>>730178912
Examine what you have, do you imagine a future together with your girlfriend.
Children, growing old and so on.

Consider what you have and would you want to lose it.

You can also think about losing the other girl.
Did she have other guys for those 10 years, did she show any signs that she liked you.
Often women want what they can't have, they like taken men.
If you drop this girl and go for the other, there's a chance she won't want you so much when she has you, and maybe she'll even friendzone you again.

Going to sleep now /b/ros, I wish you all do ok

>>730178958
Don't worry about things you can't affect.
Live your life.
Stop watching so much tv and news. You'll feel calmer.

>>730179755
Next time, do it differently.
Don't beat yourself up for a past mistake, just learn from it and try the next time to do better.

Waiting for part 2.
Use paragraphs if possible.

>>730180146
Night dude.

>>730177777
>>730178300
Didn't notice. Thanks for the checks. Lucky number 7.

>>730179513
I tried to do that,to stop thinking and do things without hesitation but i lose motivation quickly...just feel im fooling myself trying to be or become something im not
i have been going to gym for almost 2 years and i usually have to fight thoughts about how useless it is if after all im still being this insecure idiot.
i just wanna quit this game,have the strong feeling that i dont belong to this society or world and not in a "special snowflake" way.i really want to be a normal person but i dont had the basic foundation to be it

>>730171842
Goddamn this one always gets me. You could use this greentext to lower blood pressure.

>>730180037
this
a chick i flirted with for months broke my balls in pieces.
The day i found a girlfriend : "i kinda like anon"
the day i broke she was back at being a bitch

>>730177412
Move forward in your life, take an active role in making new experiences happen.
When you start moving forward, you won't think about the past so much.
Either that, or move forward and contact the high school girl - when sober, and be casual but arrange a meeting.

op here, hitting the sac, it was nice feelin it out with all you /b/ros, some good advice was given. Have a goodnight, tomorrow morning i will do what i must do

gf broke up with me a week or so ago. werent together long but i was starting to fall for her.

what really sucks is its hard for me to find girlfriends. Im not attractive at all so tinder and shit isnt an option, and when friends try and set me up it fails miserably.

ive realized im going to probably be alone forever

I'm simultaneously misanthropic and compassionate about people.

>>730180037
Not sure if you caught the part I have no plans of going to the other girl. I was just venting cause feels thread.

She had other bfs in our time as friends. But weve always had the friend context so its not even a huge deal to me. Im pretty liberal when it comes to my views of sex. And i wouldnt say i was friendzoned. Once (when i was single) she even showed up at my door lookin to fuck. I didnt because she was very drunk and in my upbringing that would be a bit rapey because i was not. Also at the time i was plenty sexually satisfied because i was young and in a phase and had a few other partners at the time.

And youre right. Shes consistently been confused so if i chased it theres a chance shed get all confused again. Ive read on her the whole thing you even mentioned thats its because i have something good and she suddenly emerged from the woods.


Honestly the only bonus she has over my gf is she wants children.

Im very on the fence about it, as in i dont care if i do or dont, but my gf doesnt want any at all so thats the other girls open door.

Anyway ill reiterate im.venting. my relationship is fine and i have no good reason to even try to have my cake and eat it too by cheating.

Its just that i do very much love the other one and its generally frustrating that shes bein like this. Especially now after all them years.

Goddamn women, amirite anon?

>>730177777
these _^^^^^_ are some nice pents

>>730170557
Dude, you have put yourself in a state of mind where you are reliant on other people to be happy, even if they are shitty people.

GET OUT OF THAT STATE OF MIND.

She is just some cunt. You might blabber about what she means to you but at the end of the day, she isn't worth your time.

Break up with her, and be really nice and honest about it. Handle it well. Do it in person. Buy her chocolates. If she tries to make it up to you, deny it. Be nice.

Then when shes gone, go somewhere like a bar or somewhere where there are girls.

You need to abandon the idea that being happy is a requirement of life. The happiest place to be in is a place where you can simultaneously strive for better without worrying about making yourself happy.

>>730179939
>you know what to do

You better fuckin believe i do.

No intentions of cheating as i hope ive made clear. Doesnt change the other girl is also, dare i say, hotter than my current.

>>730173645
If people judge you for what you cannot control, they can go fuck themselves. For similar reasons I no longer care that much about my stretch marks.

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>>730179755
So yesterday I went to a baseball game with a group of my friends, including the guy who was at the amusement park with me. Him and I leave our seats to go get food, and as we're walking we pass a girl who seems familiar. My friend and I look at each other and he's like "Does she look familiar?" And my eyes widened and I said "That's the girl from the amusement park!" We turn around and watch her walk away. She goes through the tunnel toward where her seat was I guess, so my friend says "It's okay- we know what section she's in. We'll find her." As we keep walking and are far away from the tunnel to her section, I see her walk out of it and she starts walking in the direction away from my friend and me. I should have turned around and caught up to her and said something, but I thought I might freak her out or something so I let her go. The rest of the game I kept thinking about that- how could I blow my SECOND CHANCE. LIKE THAT NEVER FUCKING HAPPENS. AT THAT POINT IT'S FUCKING FATE OR SOMETHING. So I keep thinking about that and talk to my friend about it and he really want to help me out so a couple times we walked around in case we might run into her again. I remembered the clothes she was wearing at the game- a white shirt and jean shorts, so I scanned the crowd a little to see if I could find her. The games ends. I've basically given up all hope and I stand up to walk out with my friends when I see her in the crowd walking through the tunnel. She had put on a black jacket over her shirt so I guess that's why I didn't see her in the crowed cause she actually wasn't that far away from me. I tell my friend "I fucking saw her!" And I don't want to run cause that would be weird, but I walk fast out of the tunnel of my section and look left and right but don't see her. My friend sees that I don't know which way she went so he's like "Let's split up!" And he goes left and I go right. Fuck. Gotta do a part 3.

>>730180369
My bad, I'll use paragraphs for this last part.

>>730179316
thanks, i got to admit i don't know what I what in term of relation ship. She's just the only girl around that kinda worked for me in a couple way
add to limit the flirt with other girls tho

I'll maybe give 1 fuck but thx

>>730180839
Motivation isn't necessary.
Just do it, no thinking.
As an absolute habit, a solid routine, like eating and sleeping.
You aren't becoming anything different, you are simply conquering your body and being prepared
for more eventualities and opportunities.
It also means you are healthier and more resistant to mood imbalances.

It isn't useless at all, and isn't for anyone but yourself.
Join a social hobby or club, meet new people and learn about them.
Either that or start a job which involves talking to people, even part time.
Socialising is a skill that takes practise like everything else.
If you have some money saved, go travel somewhere new for a month or three or six or longer.
Do it alone, and aimlessly, no set plan. This will make living a lot more direct, thinking about food, accommodation, doing useful stuff,,meeting a lot of people, experiencing new things.
Force yourself to think of the positives in every situation.
It will take effort at first, but after some months you will find yourself better equipped to thinkmpositively.

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>>730173645
Just shave your head anon. Besides, who tf cares about how your friends rate your appearance?

>>730181335
but also this >>730180955

>>730171286
Ik that feel bro. I had a very similer situation except my gf wasnt abusive or anything she was actualy really sweet i just knew that we werent gona get married so y drag it out. The thing u gota relize is the relationship will only end in 1 of 2 ways A) u marry her (bad idea) B) you break up if you wait till she does it when situations like this happen again youll just wait them out again and never learn to stand up for yourself. So end it on your terms your way. If its good for you then its good for her and if you really love her you want whats good for her right?

>>730180839
You're not fooling yourself. You're forging yourself in the furnace of experience.

>>730181205
Your girlfriend might change about wanting kids, a lot of girls are 'no kids!' and a few years pass, they change.
Women don't know what they want, and can't be trusted to really know anything.
Just think about what you want.
Do you love the one you are with?

Possible answer could be neither of them.

>>730181939
what a poet

>>730180955
Yeah, those are the ones to avoid.

I constantly feel like I'm a fuck up. Can't get a full-time job, can't please my wife, can't get over my past, can't go a day without thinking about killing myself, can't lose anymore weight, can't stop letting others use me.

I'm really thinking I'm ready to pull the trigger.

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>>730177412
Pic of girl I liked in high school.
>tfw she literally asked me out and I thought she was joking
>tfw she asked me if I liked buttsex
>I don't like buttsex
>I'm a 20 yr old virgin
Hey, at least she's living the dream.

>>730180980
Goodnight op.
Keep it simple, choose what YOU want, and make it happen.
No one else can live your life for you.

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I just wish I had an actual friend to talk to. I have people who lie to me and pretend they like me. They don't even do that a majority of the time either. I'm just there. That's all I'll ever be. I'm the fifth wheel on the back of the jeep. Wah wah wah pity me. I just wish I had the nerve to kill myself. Whilst everyone can go out and have fun I can't even talk to strangers online correctly. I just want it all to end.

My depression might literally kill me. I have no motivation to live for the future. I have constant headaches and am always sleepy. Also, I'm pretty sure that my physical health is very poor.

Should I just end it? I don't know what to do

>>730181105
You met one girl, you can meet another.
Girls don't care so much about looks dude.
It is hard to understand, but it is true for the mostpart.

Build your confidence in different ways, exercise, learn new skills, overcome fears, become good at some thing.
Be thankful of the experience you've gained from knowing this chick.
Move forward.

>>730182051
You might just be joining us here or missed a detail in my original post.

I do love my current very much and im not confused on what i should do. Im.just venting in a feels thread because its a bit frustrating.

My relationship is fine i just definitely love the other one and wish she didnt decide to emerge from left field when i found this one when she had like 10 years to do it.

Then i wouldnt be in this situation at all lol.

Shes a great friend anyway. At any rate shes probably gettin herself cut off soon because i dont need this sheiii in my life.

>>730181499
If this ends with your friend asking her out, I'm out.

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First time posting to a feels thread, so if I sound wimpy/privileged whatever. It's my way of venting.

>Be me, just had 18th birthday a few days ago.
>All of my friends that I have in school are all either weirdos who cling to me, or people who feel - at most- like acquaintances.
>My older sister, mother, and father are going to england this summer for happy family times.
>They didn't invite or buy me tickets to go because they thought I wouldn't enjoy it, despite me SPECIFICALLY saying that going to england is on my bucket list
>I am going to community college because I was a fucking degenerate last year
>did nothing but smoke weed and skip classes
>"reformed" and got better grades, but my gpa and transcript isn't salvageable.
>no clue as to what i'm going to do in the future
>only redeemable talent is playing bass, so you can tell how far that's gonna get me
>just a normal fuck-up at 18.


I'm so disappointed in myself

>>730181939
This.

>>730182499
I don't think you should end it all. I know I wish I could and maybe you do too, but it's just not the answer. Don't fall victim to your mind.
You have no idea how badly I want an answer. I still have motivation for a career, but once that's all gone I'll be in the same boat as you. And to be completely honest it scares me.

How old are you, anon?

>>730181712
>>730181939
Thanks for the words and advice...
i will try/keep trying then but i feel exhausted to be honestly,sometimes the only things that make me happy is to know i can end it all if i kill myself,but anyway i stop with that shit,i look like an attention whore
thanks

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I just woke up at 12pm after I played vidya till 4am and I don't feel bad about myself. Have I reached a new low?

>>730181881
Ive had a pretty good read on her our entire friendship and i know her well. Shes always felt confused and iffy until i found a really good relationship

Id actually bet half my income for a year if i did go after her, shed immediately be like "oh but ur my friend anon i dunno what to do!!!"

Attempting to take that friendship anywhere further has always been like trying to let a cat inside. Soon as that doors open she aint movin.

>>730182229
Find her and meet her, or stop thinking about her and go out and meet other girls.

>>730182514
yeah, ive been trying to do that but with little luck.

I don't really meet people irl, i just started college at 24, so most of the people in my classes are 18, which is too young for me, and i dont work at a job where i meet people often.

which leads me to tinder, and yeah, i might have a great personality and such, but no one is gonna swipe right on my face and find out

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>>730179755
>>730181499
I walk all the way to where like the horseshoe shape of the stadium ends, and there's the stairwell to the lower levels. I just stand there leaning against a guard rail and I see my friend walking back. He didn't see her. I didn't see her. She was gone again. The only possibility was that she walked into the bathroom near where I was now standing, so my friend and a few other friends who had throughout the game heard the first parts of my story waited with me. We waited like 10 minutes so by then it was a lost cause.
My friends tried to console me cause I was really upset and really pissed off at myself. I had now blown 3 chances to talk to this one girl who I am now idealizing as like my potential future wife. Like sure, she could be a total bitch- if I ever said something to her she could have blown me off and been really rude or something. But since I don't know that, I can only assume the best of her. That she would have been awesome and thought that me seeing her at 2 random occasions maybe did mean something and could have been fate or whatever. I just hate myself so much.
One, two, three opportunities I let slip away. If only I just ran after her. It would have seemed weird at first I guess but I could have explained myself to her. If only I was fast enough. I keep reliving the moments when I should have approached her but didn't. And I can't get over it. Especially after the second and third chances.
I know I will never see her again. Seeing her at that baseball game was like a fucking blessing from the universe and I didn't do anything about it. I just don't want to live. I have a bunch of other reasons for why I want to die, but things like this build up and what happened last night kills me inside. I know I'm too pussy to ever kill myself, cause I just couldn't do that to my friends and my parents, but I still feel that way. If only I was mote confident or outgoing. If only I wasn't myself. I don't know. That's my story, /b/.

>>730182744
most 18 year olds are fuck ups. in 5 years it will matter very little and everything you said will just be a vague slightly humorous memory.

>>730183000
Checked

Thanks for the words of wisdom

I had a crush on a girl in my Spanish class in HS.
We worked in the same group together.
>autistic staring during class
>asks teacher to be moved
>didn't even realize I was creeping her out
>somehow convince teacher to let me stay in group
>watched her fall for the football team captain
>they go to prom together
>feelsbadman.jpg

cont.

>>730182854
I'm 19 years old. Sure, you could say that I have my whole life in front of me but that isn't something I care for anymore. I don't know if I should be concerned about that.

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>TFW Family wants to kick me out
>GF wants to spend time apart
>Friends are nonexistant outside of Computer.
>Trying hard to be mroe social and work 2 jobs
>Never invited anywhere, No one to hang with.
>Just wanna talk to someone IRL. Just once.
>MFW

>>730182214
Read about testosterone boosting foods, add 5 of the best ones to your daily diet, and keep eating them in healthy amounts.
Build muscle.
Do pushups every day, good quality ones.
Walk and use the stairs.
Buy a simple set of dumbbells.
Do curls and squats.
As your muscle increases, you will burn more energy, even while sitting or sleeping, just to maintain the muscle.

That's one problem solved.
No excuses, no saying you can't. Just do it.

Past is gone, do something about your present and your future.
Plan it and do it.

Find two part time jobs, keep applying and looking for full time ones.

You can stop letting people use you.
Just say no, and accept the consequences.
Usually the consequences aren't as bad as you were expecting, and you feel a lot better afterwards.

Don't try to please your wife,,do what you think you should do for her, and if it isn't good enough then it is her fucking problem.

Also find some dude friends to talk to about this shit so it doesn't build up.

>>730182931
Hay, that's pretty good.

I still mis her

>>730182344
Social skills take practice.
Start a new social hobby, one which requires you to be around new people.
Talk with them, become good at the hobby/sport/activity, keep at it, help others to learn it.
Make friends like that.
Open up to them, slowly and steadily, ask questions about them.
Spend time with them.

>>730183096
>I was going to ask her to prom

>decide to ask out another girl to prom
>she says no
>write a song for another
>she says no
>ask another person
>she says no
>fuckit.jpg

>I decide to go to prom alone
>I legit have a great time
>feels bad watching them dance
>but other drunk girls dance with me
>fuckthehaters.gif
Still fat and need to study but I started cleaning my room today.

>>730183484
What do you mean

>>730182499
Have a blood test from the doc, ask for a hormone blood panel, and mineral levels to be tested.
Will give you some info.

Also, research testosterone boosting foods.
Add them to your diet.
Maybe starting lifting, boosts your mood and your testosterone, which affect a your mood too.

Is college even worth it, I have good grades and shit but I dont think I can make it through.

>>730182672
Tell the other girl you've no interest, that you love her as a friend and that she should accept that and move on.

Start poking holes in the condoms and wait for your girlfriend to be pregnant.

>>730182908
Eh, it's not super big feel, she littered and was a bit of a bitch anyway. We haven't talked in years. She's really hot tho, and she used to be even hotter.
But she did tease me in class once.

Want the story?

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>>730175929
>>730176159
happy birthday fags

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>>730175621
I feel you anon, same thing happening to me. Too much stress and frustrations lately after a time of being almost happy.

>>730182876
It's not attention whoring.
Also I'd advise regularizing your sleep schedule.

>>730183778
I hope you're right about this. I'm willing to try anything. Thanks

>>730183259
I'm 19 as well. The future looks dim, doesn't it? I want to give you a good response, but I simply don't know what to say anymore. I want to say I feel the same, but my depression isn't real or at least I don't want to believe it is.

Are you in college, work, or just stay at home?

>>730184017
aww, he got you a cake

>>730183795
Mentally?

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>>730182229
I got more pics. She's pretty hott

>>730182744
If you reformed and studied hard, you can do it again.
Maybe redo a year and bump your grade, work really hard.
Or, take a secondary course to add points to it if,possible.
Otherwise, you have a ton of other routes, choose one and word hard at it.
You are 18 dude, you've only just started. Just don't let time pass.
If necessary, take a vocational course, so you'll always have a backup form of work if you need cash.
Plumbing, carpentry, vehicle licenses, and so on.

You can go to England anytime,,it isn't going anywhere. You'll also enjoy it more on your own.

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>>730178958
>scared shitless by all this North Korea talk

>>730184133
I'm currently in college. It's okay, I can talk with people fine and do my classes. However, I just can't help but think that there's no worth in being there.

>>730182919
Hang out in common areas, meet 24 year olds.
Hang out in a cafe at the same time every day - you become familiar with the place, then the staff, then other customers.

Join dancing classes to meet girls.
Join a sport to make friends.
Keep trying, six months of socialising and you'll be good at it.

I have the most wonderful girlfriend in the entire world. I have to go to a job interview at my work to be a manager. I hope to put a ring on her finger with my big burger bucks. I hate my job, if I get this promotion I will face the undying truth that I will work there forever.

>>730182931
Keep going to baseball games, chances are she is a fan too.
You have something in common.
Next time you see her, just say "hi, I've seen you here before - did you like the game".
Maybe you'll see her again.
Stay positive.

>>730170557
>Be me
>September 2016
>23 years old, living in my own place, in college, have gf also in college
>trip to NOLA to celebrate her birthday
>with her and two of her best girl friends
>sharing a room with two queen beds
>didn't know she planned on spending both nights on Bourbon Street
>1st night
>all hammered on Hurricanes and Hand Grenades
>she decides it would be funny for me to do one of those shots with the famous "shot girls"
>I didn't want to
>she pays the girl without my knowledge, and a ghetto chick shoves one of those long shot things into my mouth
>half the drink goes on my shirt
>not pleasant
>she doesn't know I'm a victim of childhood sex abuse and I don't want to bring that up
>2nd night
>still pretty exhausted from the first night
>spend most of the night in piano bars
>you have to buy a drink every 20 minutes to stay in those places
>exhausted and not sober
>the girls want to go to a strip club
>I don't want to go to a strip club, and I make this clear
>
>decide to head back to the hotel, via Uber
>phone dies
>no big deal, I'll walk
>walk wrong direction
>get terribly lost
>no cash because we spent so much on drinks
>spend five hours walking around NOLA by myself completely lost
>no one knows what hotel I'm talking about
>eventually find way back to hotel
>sober, just ridiculously exhausted
>open hotel room door, and they're all there having a grand old time, looking at pictures they took at the strip club
>girlfriend is a slut
>plug in phone
>only girlfriend's roommate bothered to send a text
>girlfriend is whining about how much her feet hurt (they took Uber everywhere that evening)
>wants me to pick her up something from downstairs
>I say "fuck you"
>she says "no, fuck you Anon, it's MY birthday."
>argument ensues
>"fuck you Anon, I'm sleeping on the floor"
>next morning
>literally don't speak with each other the entire day
>I'm pissed
>break up in car before 7 hour trip home
>she plays Kelly Clarkson and doesn't tell friends we broke up

>>730182919
internet is shallow and shit with a lot of fakery
stick to real life.

>>730183703
nice story
keep at it dude

>>730183395
Start going somewhere regularly.
Every day, the same time.
You'll start up converstions with the staff and other customers after a while.
Cafe, library, activity.

>>730183955
Contact her anyway, Facebook or something.
Arrange to meet, chat in a cafe, see if she is flirty.
Flirt with her, make it happen.

>>730182931
don't fucking an hero cause you didn't talk to a girl you lonely piece of shit I've had girl probs like that and it don't mean shit
I don't mean to be harsh just don't be so dramatic

>>730181105
you're out of a relationship for one week and are already thinking you're going to be alone forever? fuck me you're pessimistic

>>730184133
>>730184623

30fag here.

Got some good news for ya.

You were lied to. College is kind of bullshit. I do not regret my continued education, and yours might lead somewhere so i dont want to sat drop out..

But i got some things to tell you..

Theres a million things you can do otherwise if it all falls through. Getting a "dream job" was possible for 70s teens. Then they kept teaching their damn kids that shit.

You dont have to have the perfect job to be happy. In fact they all kind of suck.

As long as your job isnt mind numbingly boring, or hair loss inducing stressful, youll be fine.

Also you can totally just start a business or learn a skill you can sell online if money gets tight.

Ill give ya one more piece of insight:

Shits scary when you dont know about it.
The fact youre scared of the future doesnt mean its actually bleak or its hopeless. It only means you dont know about the possibilities.

Example
I started my own business when i was 27. I dreamt of starting my own business since i was 20 but it was terrifying and i thought i couldnt do it because it was for smart people with talents.

Then when i was 27 i went to the library, took out one fuckin book on entrepreneurialship, read it, and i was immediately like "oh shit wait this isnt hard at all and i understand it all now" and had a business within a week.

See what i mean? Fear is nothing at all except lack of knowledge. If youre scared or hopeless it is ONLY because you dont know enough and you can fix that literally overnight on any topic.

You get me whippersnappers?

>>730178019
lad, you've done well

I Hate Women who enjoy strip clubs wether they go to see men or a regular strip club, they really need to be shot.

>>730184200
yeah

>>730184127
Hormones can affect a lot.
Remember, food and lifestyle changes can affect hormones greatly - don't let the doc just put you on drugs right away.
Give six months of healthy food and exercises a go before you think about medication.

Sunlight is important too, and sea air can help.
In short:
testosterone boosting foods -
Red meat, eggs, whole milk (organic if you can), Brazil nuts, almonds, walnuts, pure organic cocoa or dark chocolate, mushrooms, dark leafy greens, oily small fish like sardines.

Reduce or cut out sugar, coffee, alcohol, smoking if possible.

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>>730185337
Can't drive, I have my mom drive me to my jobs and my dad pick me up. I don't live near any sort of activity other than a gas station and a grocery store and theres no sort of public place like a park or anything near me. Idk how I haven't off'd myself already man.

I've got the farts from eating too many tendies.

They think themselves as "liberated women" but I see them as degenerate puke

>>730184398
She looks cgi.
Post more.

>>730185966
checked

>>730185965
how old are you

Thank god somebody agrees with me

>>730184972
You can leave it whenever you like.
Especially with a promotion, makes your curriculum look better.

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>>730186084
I'm 18, Just can't drive.

Get sad randomly. Dont know if im depressed or not. I dont know what to do with my life, im about to exit high school(i'm 18). I feel so stupid writing this

>>730185061
Maybe she is a shit drunk.
Maybe she isn't right for you.
Not much you could have done.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uvu_xUY6lew
thanks /b/ros this is the only place where I feel better, hopefully get a girlfriend, stop being virgins and I can fulfill my desire to die before 25, good night

>>730184623
At least you have people to talk to :)

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>>730173127
Pussy is pussy bro. You do what you got to do. I used to bang this 2/10 400lb black girl up the street and when my buddies found out I was clowned on constantly. Now I am married to a 9/10 110lb qt and they are jelly as fuck.

my ex broke up with me two full months ago and i'm still not over it. some days i feel alright and like i can move on and then i feel the exact opposite the next day. shit sucks

lost in life. terrified to take a job or pick a career that i will hate being in for the rest of my life. also scared that i will end up working in the same dead end job i have now. i have 2 people i would actually call friends and they both live in separate states now doing shit with their lives and im just stuck trying to decide the best way to be unhappy. im happy for them but im jealous they have goals and are accomplishing them.

>>730185676
nice advice, what was the book

>>730185024
If I ever see her again, I will talk to her. I've learned my lesson about letting opportunities go by. The only thing is, it's just way too unlikely I'll ever see her. But I'll use my memory of her to encourage me to nut up and talk to other girls in the future.

>>730185592
You're right.

>>730185965
Learn to drive.
To build cash, learn a skill you can work online with for now.
Earn a bit of money, save it, pay for driving lessons and a test.
web programming, anything.
Even Google adsense.

>>730186483
Two months isn't long at all. Been 7 months for me and just starting to get it all behind me. One of the stupidest things I did during that time was when my morbid curiosity got the better of me and I looked at her facebook. Triggered the fuck out of me. It's important to block all that shit and keep it blocked.

>>730186387
How close are you to getting your license? I'm in the same situation and I'm scheduling my test before summer starts.
>select all images with cars
Sheesh

>be me, 15
>hanging out with group of friends
>i forget exactly how it was brought up, but one friend says "tyler (another 'friend' who wasn't there) thinks you need to get your own friends"
>???
>i've hung out with these people literally my entire life, since elementary school
>i say "uh you guys aren't my friends?"
>momentary silence
>one says weakly "i'm your friend anon"
>was in a group of 4 excluding myself

that shit fucked me up bad, i felt like such a retard. i'm 21 now and haven't hung out with anyone (literally, i have not done anything with anyone other than my family) since that day, let alone had some sort of romantic relationship.

tfw your friends give you avoidant personality disorder and make you become an autist

>>730186441
Take some constructive risks dude, you only live once and life can be a lot better.

Work out what you want, and work hard to achieve it.
Don't let up.

Try talking to girls, not for the aim of sex or girlfriend,,just talking.
It is a skill, practise.
Then start practising flirting lightly.
Become good at it.
Take constant small,risks.

>>730186702
i'm trying to do that, it sure is hard to keep up though. good luck on your side of things anon

>>730186494
Good man.
How big is your town?
There are chances, you are both around the same age, like the same things.
Means you will go to similar places.
Like the fairground and the ballgame.
Eyes open and stay positive, that way you maximize your chances of seeing her again.

>>730186488
I honestly cant remember and for the sake of the story i was weak on that detail.

It was a few books and they were generic how to have a business at home books. They were all extremely helpful. Any book will do in the business section of your library (books are better than internet. You pick and choose your research on google. In a book a complete coherent compendium of everything you need to know is laid out neatly for you from a veritable source and publisher)

The point still stands, that the only thing that stood between me and my goals was i didnt know enough and i let that scare me.

Took a couple days of moderate study to break that barrier.

Im.not saying you must start a business, though i recommend it. All i mean is if youre afraid or hopeless, learn more.

I should also add my day job is im an industrial carpenter. Its a very fun job, im making more money than ever on it (even more than my business even which still pays hansomely when business is good) and i only discovered it because i was looking for new income sources and all else had fallen apart.

Me nor any of my friends would have imagined me doing this and i could have done it with grade 10 math let alone the university education i have.

All I did was step outside what i knew and learned other options.

You may find something else i would never even think you suggest to you. Just learn.

>>730186485
Know that feeling.
I discovered that if you just start doing anything.,those fears go away.
You are never stuck in a job, you can change or quit or do something different when you want to.
Just pick something you think you'll be good at, and do it.
Do the training course first if necessary, if you don't like it after 6 months, change.

>>730186830
ive been there. had a group of 6 friends stayed strong with them from middle school up to about 3 years ago (when we where all about 21). randomly got group message and they where all talking shit about me and how they keep me around to mock me.
>mfw they had inside jokes about me dating back to 6th grade
>mfw i decided to ghost out and no one questioned it or tried to contact me
>mfw one of them finally messaged me after 6 months
he needed to borrow money

>>730187187
thanks man, ill give it a shot

>>730186830
21 isn't 15 man.
You are old enough to take care of yourself now, take a risk and go out and talk to some people.
It helps if you do hobbies you like, a sport, an activity - start up a conversation, spend time with them.
Hang out, arrange plans.

The dicks from back then were clearly weak faggots.
Forget them.
Had a friend when I was 15, best friends since the age of 11, one day he said to me and another mutual friend "next school year I'm not hanging out with you guys, want to find new/cooler friends".
He tried to get in contact a few years down the line, I totally ignored him, fucking fake piece of shit.

>>730186920
I found it was about the first three months that were the hardest. Didn't help when I looked and found out she was engaged to someone who she'd told me not to worry about (classic I know) within that time frame. All we can do is let time take it's course really. It really is nice when you finally let go though. I know the phase you're going through now is where you feel like you'll never be the same again but you will in time and maybe you'll also be a bit wiser and learn from the whole disaster.

>>730186999
I live near Baltimore.
Thanks I'll always keep an eye open. It's gonna take a while for me to forget that face.

>>730187633
Good luck.
Once you've done one thing, you feel a lot more in control and everything feels possible.
Keep facing your fears, and listen to this dude >>730187172

>>730186999
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>>730186802
No, I'm legally blind so it's been pretty tough getting the physical driving part down. And haven't had time to really study either.

>>730187172
nice advice
I have come up against things at various times, and you are right - sitting down and wading into the knowledge of it helps a lot and things start to fall into place, it becomes easier.

in general though, I haven't found a good income yet and I'm 36.
my life took a massive dive, I lost my girl and my health in the same time period.
before that I had ideas and opportunities, which aren't around or viable anymore.

I'll keep going forward though, and thinking of ideas.

>>730187533
yeah, it really sucks when it comes from your "friends," especially when they have nothing to gain from it, they're just giving their honest opinion of you

i had one friend say "bro we needa chill sometime where u been" on facebook or something and i was pretty surprised, but nothing came out of that. i ended up messaging him like a week later but was ignored. that was the only time one of em contacted me since that day.

>>730187650
i do take care of myself. i go to school and work full time.

the problem is i've become boring and i've pretty much completely forgotten how to make and sustain a relationship with someone. 100% of my free time is spent on my computer, i don't feel any interest in doing something else unfortunately

>>730187762
No need to forget it.
It is a pretty nice memory to have, to have seem her at all.
Lets you know what you like.

Hope you meet her again man, stay positive, go for the ballgames and the other place you saw her regularly.

Is she like black or something?

>>730170557
I can't believe I got fat again

>>730188097
You can do it, study the theory in spare minutes.
Visualising the maneuvers while sitting on a chair in your house really helps,,focus your imagination and pin down the right order of things.
Repeat ten times in a row or as long as you need to have it right.
Helped me with,mine.

>>730186494
I have been in the spot where it sucks cause of girl problems and I said "I wanna drive 90mph into a telephone pole" and now when I think of the stupid situation I just get annoyed at how much of a dramatic bitch about it, if you don't see her again it's not a big deal and you'll get over it within 3 weeks

>>730188273
Find a new hobby outdoors and do it regularly.
At least once a week to start off with.
Then build it up or add new activities.
Martial arts, sports, chess club, dance classes anything.
Choose one,,stick with it and become good at it.
Making friends will come back as a skill too.
Practise and talking and making friends will be fine again.

>>730188669
*how much of a dramatic bitch I was being about it*

I'm tired ignore my shitty typos

>>730186845
Thanks bro, I've never thought of that, but how would I do if I'm ugly like shit and over I can not talk normal with people? I do not have friends, I want to die young not to become a fucking old man who harasses women, I work in a cafe with attractive guys and I see how some girls look at them and they treat me like shit, the only thing that keeps me alive is Having sex with a beautiful milf from my job and buying me a fucking pc, I sound like a bitter but I'm not, I'm ugly inside and out, but thanks for the advice maybe I'll serve some day, and you have a girlfriend? What does it feel like to have a girlfriend?

I have to sleep dudes.
Good luck to you with your stuff, watch Arnold's six rules of success on youtube,and apply each part to your life.

Persevere,,never give up, and face your fears whenever they present themselves.
night dudes.

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I tried to kill myself about a month ago, and ended feeling like a huge faggot. I grabbed a knife and tried cut my wrists open (the long way, I'm not THAT much of a faggot) but I couldn't withstand the pain (hmm... maybe I am that much of a faggot). In the end I panicked and removed every trace of what I tried to do. I subsequently burned the suicide note.

A faggot is me.

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>>730171842

My wife hid that she started cutting again. Then was diagnosed schizophrenic. Expect to come home one day to find her gone.

>>730188968
Be positive about yourself, think about your positive attributes.
What are you good at, what have you accomplished, no matter how small.
Help people, improve yourself through exercise, healthy eating, hard work and study.
Learn new things, practise being social like I said.
A lot of ugliness is in people's heads. I used to think I was ugly as a kid, I don't know why, now if I saw a kid that looked like me I would think he was cool.
As an adult I have a lot more confidence in !myself, and I try to improve myself in the ways I mentioned.
Being postive is important.

Talking with people, talking with girls, flirting, and so on are all skills which need practice.
Remember that, and keep trying.
Make convedations with customers, colleagues.
You can start small, "nice weather", or "how are you today?" and scale up over the weeks.

Little by little.

I had a girlfriend until a month ago.
It depends on the girl and you of what it feels like.
But when it is good, it is good.
Someone who really cares for you, who you can enjoy being with and do stuff with and spend time with being comfortable. That's a really special feeling and worth the risk and worth the practice of being social, even if it takes years.

>>730188187
Sorry to hear about you health.

I dont know what your limitations are but ill tell you my next business venture. Maybe a lightbulb will flash on over your head:

My dog has allergies. He basically cant eat any commercial dog food product. We home cook for him (using vet approval and special additives to balance it nutritionally)
That eventually lead us to puree meat and vegetables and dehydrating it into treats.

With packaging which we can do at home and a few easy licenses, we figure we can approach local pet shops and have them carry our product.

Everyones got a huge boner for local non corporate products these days so we stand to capitalise on it. It could fail but im confident it will work.


Im not saying do that, but thats how easy it is. Everyone has money. Just figure out how to make them give you it.

You can buy a carpet cleaner and charge 50-100 dollars to go to peoples houses and detail their cars so they dont have to go anywhere.

A million things you can do. Just see how.others make their money and copy it.

Job market blows. Make your own job.

>>730189412
Forget it and now make use of your life.
Work and study hard, make use of your potential in each day you can.

>>730189701
That's a good plan, and an honorable one.
good luck with it.

I'll figure something out, but my health problem is quite rare, seen a dozen specialists and none of them have done a thing or even diagnosed the cause.
It has severely affected my life, been two years now.
Came out of nowhere.,It won't kill me.,but for quality of life it is shit.
Hard to feel motivated for anything when there seems no bright future.
Guess I need to work harder on solving my health problem.

>>730188669
I hope I'll get over it. I'm sure I will, but I just needed to let it all out, ya know? I talked to my friends about it a little, but I don't want to bother them and have them judge me too much, so I figure if I tell you guys, I'll still get judged but you don't know me so it's all good

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This girl just contacted me like a week ago, haven't seen her in like 5 years.

We used to be best friends and i'd go to her house to sleep with her, but we never told anyone else or dated publicly.

I really don't want to see her tomorrow morning tbh. My best bro friend contacted her on normiebook. We all used to be part of a group of friends, so he set this whole thing up, but he doesn't know about me and her.

It is gonna be weird as fuck and i will probably be hungover as shit.

>>730190288
just go
maybe you'll have a spark between you
make sure you talk to her right away, don't hang back.
tell her the truth, that you felt a bit nervous the night before as it has been so long

>>730190274
It's good to let things out.
Especially to your friends.

You'll be fine man.
Stay positive

how to i stop being scaredy bitch baby and get the courage to start talking to people online. the idea of getting in a conversation with someone and maybe turning out to be "boring" scares the shit out of me!! help a /b/rother out

>>730191022
how do you talk to people in real life?

>>730191022
>>730186845
do that

Just try. Talking is a skill you need to practise to be good at.
Don't let fear stop you for trying, because you'll always become better.

>Be me 17.
>This exactly moment.
>Girl who I love is next to me.
> I cannot say it because of her boyfriend; my best friend.
>What to do?

>>730191347
If she doesn't know, then it isn't real love.
One way love never is.

Has she shown any sign she returns it.
If not, then maybe it isn't worth it.

Spend less time around her, spend more time around other girls.

>>730186702
This anons right, after a break up never stalk an ex on social media, all you'll see is the good things in her life and it'll tear you apart.

Wanted to ask this girl out for some time now, and ended up not. Found out months later that she was waiting for me to ask her. I'm obsessed with her, but she has a boyfriend now.

>>730191022
"Hey what's up?" can go a long way.
You just have to keep adding to the conversation. Like when you're replying to someone, you have to reply almost in like 2 ways. You have to respond to whatever the other person just said, but you also have to add something for them to respond to.
Avoid conversation killers like "yeah," "lol," "that's crazy," stuff like that. Unless you add something after it to keep the conversation going

Just posted this another thread, but here we go anyways:

I'm just realizing lately that I really don't have any true, close friends who actually give it shit about me. I've always been the loser of pretty much every friend group I've been a part of, and I've never been able to figure out why. I'm about 4 days away from finishing my first year of college, and I'm just so dissatisfied with how my year has gone. Hasn't been the sex filled party every weekend kind of paradise I was expecting, literally never even kissed a girl until I drunkenly made out with some blonde at the only real party I've ever gone to, which was back in January. Not even like I'm all that unattractive. 6'0, pretty lean, blue eyes, all that. Grades have been no problem though, switched from business major to engineer. Honestly the reason I did it was just to make myself as busy as possible. I can't give myself time to stop and think, otherwise everything mentioned above catches up with me and I end up feeling really depressed. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I'd ever kill myself, but it's pretty tempting at the moment. I really wouldn't mind having some horrible fatal accident, but I just couldn't kill myself on account of what that would do to my family.

>>730192005
It's kind of funny when time passes though and you realize that peoples lives on social media are not really as they seam. I thought of it at the time like she was riding off into the sunset and living happily ever after. As if that ever happens!

>>730192474

Dude, when I went into college I thought that I would have to completely turn my life around and become incredibly socially active and get a girlfriend and all that shit or else I would kill myself. Instead I never went to real parties, never got a girlfriend, 24 y.o. now and still never kissed a girl. But I ended up being happier in college than I ever imagined I could be. And that's just because I learned to live for myself and to enjoy what I enjoy without holding up socialization or a girlfriend on a pedestal as some magical cure to happiness. If you've made out with a girl and you're attractive then you're already far beyond what I have. If I could be happy then so can you.

Just focus on what's important to you. Who cares if you aren't having the social life you expected? If you're getting good grades and you have a hobby you enjoy then you're doing fine. I only feel like a piece of shit now because it's been 6 years since then and I haven't progressed at all. But you have plenty of time before you have to worry about that.

>>730189682
People sometimes look at me weird, girls too, it sucks my life, but what you say is true, thanks for the advice again, I know what will happen if I talk to a girl, she'll notice I'm weird, ugly And virgin, I'm not funny, she will be bored, but what if I wanted to try is to talk to the milf I mentioned before, is beautiful, has a bitch face and a plump ass, I wish I could establish a friendly relationship and wish I could fuck her, later
After that I would kill myself with more tranquility, but it is impossible, what should I do, do you think if I offer her money she has sex with me? Is what I want and I would die calm, sorry if what I write is ridiculous and I think that sometimes I realize that what I want is ridiculous, but sometimes I get bored of feeling such shit and I want to feel like a lucky guy

>>730191202
I'm really shy and look it so it's usually the extroverts who start the convos and keep it going. I mostly just nod or try my best to not stutter when I say something

>>730191331
>>730192049
Thanks alot! I'll keep these in mind

>>730193608
I'm well aware that having a girlfriend isn't the magical cure. Problem is I'm just not happy with myself as a person, and I really don't know what to do about it. Besides, I'm a firm believer that I need to have my ducks in a row and be happy with myself before I even think about having a girlfriend. She shouldn't have to put up with my issues, although I'm more than willing to be there for hers.

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> TFW you have 45,000 followers on Instagram
> People coming to me be like, "Hey how do I get 45,000 followers? Give me some tips."
> You tell them what to do
> They don't do it.
> You realize 90% of people are there will not even do one simple task you give them.
> You think back to before you were an internet marketer and you used to hate reading things like, "Most people will never do what they're told to do" and think they're inauthentic as fuck
> You think back to the times you used to shit post anonymous on message boards about how they were inauthentic shit scammers.
> You realize now that you're the "inauthentic shit scammer" the problem was never them.
> The problem was you.
> And every one else who wants an easy fix in life.
> How do I even help these people?

Had 3 plans, 2 with girls, one tonight with a friend, all get canceled in a row. Feels bad. Having hookups or just being with that good friend distracts me from the feeling of being lonely. I guess I feel like I'm in pain in someway, kinda gay. But I wish I had someone that could empathize with me with that feeling, someone I truly like, and then I want to fuck her.

Im sure this is not unique but, I'm so fucking usless, i cant even manage a fucking fast food job. And not nearly smart enough for college, I cant even join the military due to my bipolar disorder. I would an hero, but I dont want to do that to my family

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That feeling when your baby girl gives you a hug.

>>730194174
I don't think you can help those people. If they don't listen to your tips, that's their choice and you can't do anything about that.
What you can do is post some tips here so we can better understand the situation

I have everything set in my mind in a perfect plan but my body overrides I try to do. I procrastinate until last second because it feels good. Maybe because I'm bored with life. I feel like I'm just going through the motions when it comes to work, school, studying and act only if it makes my body feel good. Can't maintain a habit due to this. Also have very little emotions around people and have a hard time opening up to people.

>>730194556
Instagram has gone to shit in the last few weeks due to the platform kicking out automation tools like Instagress.

What still works:
- Manual copyfollow of targeted accounts
- Share 4 Share groups.
- Canva is a great image creation tool (free)
- Steal hashtag sets of accounts ranking in top9 hashtags who are similar to yours as they're already proven to work. Stay below 1 million volume.

>>730193955

What exactly is making you unhappy then? The only thing you mentioned is the lack of social life/girlfriend. What about yourself makes you unhappy? It sounds like you might just have to shift your perspective and your expectations. No one is perfect and no one is always happy. You're not supposed to be, and if you expect to be you'll just always be disappointed.

If I died tomorrow I wouldnt care. 2nd year college student with high gpa, have part time job, and go to gym. Life doesn't really doesn't stray far from those three. Have some friends but hard to open up to them because don't want them too close to me. I'm not really excited when it comes to the future because it feels like everything is drawn out to me. I'm always playing the safe side and frankly I don't have enough courage to get out. Sometimes I know that I miss some great opportunities because of this and I later convince myself that I'll get it later in the future. I lack personal initiative and only do things if I must like study last minute. I want to be a more initiating person but how ? Also why am I like this