Feels thread? Feels thread. >be me >just now >see the

You are only 18 cuck faggot bitch go learn a trade or a skill and get to work

>>729650328

Thanks for the brutal honesty anon. I could really use some honest criticism right now.

>>729651070
You need to stop living so comfortably. My parents kicking me out was the best thing that happened to me, it forced me to sink or swim. Learning a skill/trade isn't that hard and you can easily make it as long as you work hard. Now stop crying on a japanese basketweaving forum and get to work

>>729650119
Also getting kicked out in two months but I won't kill myself over it. Just going to move far away, fake my death and become a professional golfer. Already have my golfing name ''ziggy yop''. I will just marry a rich milf and play Golf all day until I can shoot below 90 consistently.

If you turn on TSN in 4 years and you don't see Ziggy yop it probably mean I became a crack addict in Vancouver. Wish you good luck anon. Hope you can make it

>>729650119
fuck family, seriously. if you can afford to save, means you have a job, yeah? then get an apartment or whatever and begin your independence, doesn't sound like that bad a thing except for your shitty parents. but, like i said: Fuck family, if you can keep in communication enough to scam some cash off them every now and then that's good, but if it's more trouble than it's worth just fuck them

27 here, left home at 15

>>729650119
>doesn't want to raise a son who can't do right in school or get a girlfriend

he already did though...

>>729651643
I will remember this.

>>729651643
I, too, will look for you in four years time. Let it be known.

>>729650119
Maybe they'll let u stay a lil' longer if u get a job or some shit and help pay bills?

>>729651720

As close as that hits to home that's oddly hilarious.

>>729650119
18 is still a child. I moved away when I was 18 by my free will, though.

When you are above 30, overhauling your life completely starts feeling more and more distant, but definitely not for you yet. Pull it together.

You're 18. You're barely an adult yet. You're Parents are faggots and probably call you a "millennial ". Don't worry Just save money. Go to community college . Work your ass off and you'll land a decent to good paying job ( especially if you do anything it related. Literally will have a job in weeks with a degree of some sorts)

>>729651643
I'll keep an eye out for you Ziggy Yop. Good luck and God speed.

>>729650119
dont worry kid
soon all this shit will be just a fainting memory.

>>729650119
How did you fuck up so hard to make them kick you out? Greentext the story OP

Idk if I'll sound like an edgy kid but I just had a bit of a moment

>call dad who lives far away to ask him to do something
>he's at work
>about to be off at 3
>tell him I'll call him back at 3:30 so he can get home
>first thought is "What if he gets in a car crash on the way there"

>be me
>always had ED
>doctor prohibited viagra and stuff, because blood pressure & other issues
>anyway got a gf, was her first bf
>she had always been scared of penetration (almost got raped when young) but happy with foreplay only
>started living together in my house
>2 years later, developed lots of "no boner required" techniques & games
>had her get countless orgasms in countless modes
>also initiated her to a number of sex toys
>we were happy
>and then something planted a bad idea in her mind
>she started mumbling about being Properly Fucked
>she started camwhoring (not even a tip, being a solid 4/10)
>a guy gets in touch with her
>they arrange a fuckdate, in my house, while I was out
>she eventually gets Properly Fucked by a phimotic psychoNEET barely lasting 10 minutes
>next days she acted weird and almost uninterested in me
>at least 2 times I asked if there was some other man, she angrily answered no
>checked her cellphone (she always had the same passwords) and found she was actually cheating
>they had arranged another fuckdate on next morning
>next morning she tells me she'll be at her parents house til noon
>I had my most eerie smile of my life, "yea, yea"
>maybe she realized that I knew everything, but chose to go anyway to get Dat Proper Fuck
>as soon as she's out I summon a locksmith to change every door key
>then while badly wanting to cry, quickly pack all of her personal stuff
>before noon all of her boxed shit (including dirty laundry) is out
>and every door secured, and every window and blind shut
>then I called her parents (she wasn't there) to tell we broke
>shut off phones
>then left a note on the door:

"be happy with your new man. forget me, my house and my money. your stuff was fedex-ed to your parents"

>finally inside my bunker, crying on the sofa of an half-empty house
>at 1pm she made a fuss outside
>didn't give a shit
>and always refused to see again

TL;DR: she preferred a Proper Fuck to a happy life of pleasure,money,romance,loyalty

>>729653895
This

I have a small dick, so a gf for me is unlikely because she'll end up in Tyrone' s Arms

>>729652924
It wasn't one singular big fuck up, but several smaller fuck ups over course of my life.

Eventually I guess they just finally gave up on me ever living up to the life they dreamed for me.

Once they realized that, it was only a matter of time.

My mom kept my Dad at bay all these years. She was the last one to stop believing in me. God bless her.

I like to think this is just her last ditch to get me to fix my shit or drown. I never really cared what my father thinks though. He cheated on my mom when I was a kid, they worked it out but our relationship was never the same after that. He stopped spending time with me unless I bugged the hell out of him. I completely forgot up till now but I just remembered spending about three years from the time I was 11 until I was 14 asking him to take me fishing. This was during the cheating incident and it was looking like they would get divorced. I think once I realized I was never going to spend that time with him that's when he really died to me and things weren't the same.

My mom told me he was the one who suggested kicking me out and that she agrees with him.

I hate to sound like a whiny little bitch boy but I guess some of my back story might help you understand how I got to this point.

>>729654087

if you have some degree of certainty she will question your dick, then either she's a slut or you need some mental treatment.

Tell your parents that this is the last year they can claim you on taxes because otherwise their income will fuck you on getting Pell grants. Be firm on this IF YOU WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL.

If they don't claim you, community college is free for you. Your parents will lose claim to the 1098-T for the HOPE credit which is a MASSIVE tax win for them.

But 18? You parents sound like emotional clowns. As if you are supposed to have shit figured out at 18?

I've got kids older than you and I'm still happy to subsidize them until they figure "it" out.

>>729650119
fag, start SEO it makes you a shit ton of money after about 1 year you will make about 65k

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>>729651643
>ziggy yop
godspeed
I look forward to that moment.

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I feel like I don't have a personality anymore. I used to like and dislike things and people and had alot of interests in particular things, but now it all seems to empty.. I have no interest in anything and everything that I do does not have any emotional effect on me whatsoever. I do have alot of panick attacks, alot of negative thoughts and suicidal feelings.

I used to be happy and enthousiastic about life but certain events like breakups, friends fucking me over and random strangers being complete asshole towards me without any reason seems to have made me this way little by little.

I have no idea what my future holds and I can't talk with people decently anymore. I just hold neutral smalltalk conversations and then I don't know what to say anymore. I seem invisible towards other people, I see friends being talked to by other people and having good conversations while nobody even blinks at me or says hello. Even people that I have known from years ago in highschool or college don't seem to want to say hello to me.

I'm in this void of emptyness and i don't know how to escape this. Everything seems so negative and everything keep pulling me more and more towards sadness and confusement.

I keep hoping to be happy again one day and appreciated by people, being talked to and noticed by others but I seem to just get worse and worse.

>>729650119
If you're not ready for the real world yet, come to California and take advantage of our very liberal financial aid. If you're homeless and going to school and passing, not even getting As or Bs, you'll get $7,200 for the year during semesters. Really easy way to get a decent car and start working

>>729653895
Jesus Anon. I've been cheated on but never like that. No one should ever have to go through something like that. Rest assured there's a nice warm spot in hell for her.

>>729655698
Have you thought of suicide? I hear good things.

>>729650119
Man everybody has to move out sooner or later. It is a struggle for money at first. At your age you could invest some time learning a skill or trade that will help you get better jobs and better money. Learning a trade also means you could do extra work at weekends if and when you need and work on your hown house, so an extra two bonuses there.

I would probably be a joiner/carpenter if I had my time again.

Not about my family but at least about someone who felt like family.
>Be me
>Loved racing/NASCAR
>Always loved to bike as a kid
>Fast forward to teenage years
>Riding a motor bike, doing tricks
>Try out a new trick
>Go off ramp, trying to do a backflip
>Front of my motor bike hits a rock, I go flying off and crashing into the ground
>fuckmyhand.jpg
>Can't move anything above my wrist
>Rushed to ER, turns out my left hand was paralyzed from the wrist up
>atleastitwasntmyright.png
>Placed in ER room next to 7/10 near my age
>I try to wave to her
>fuck just realized
>wave with my usable hand
>she waves back, seems to be watching TV
>we make small talk
>She's watching Speed Racer reruns
>tell her I like racing, especially NASCAR
>We become fast friends
>From the look of it, it seems she broke her leg or something
>Huge ass cast on it
>Says she's going to have a surgery soon
>Fast forward a few weeks, nothing very important happens in-between.
>Some tests, x-rays, something about nerves
>Watching Speed Racer with her, when doctors come in and say its time for her surgery
>She gets excited
>Goes out to her operating room in a wheelchair, blows me a kiss on the way out
>Completely flushed
>Watch Speed Racer for the next 3 hours
>Get worried more progressively as time goes by
>Seems to be taking a while, then again surgeries always take a while.
>Fast forward 2 hours later
>Shes still not in her bed
>Something is def. off
>Call nurse and ask if I can walk
>Says sure, unhooks me from wires and things
>Jog past rooms, looking for the right one
>See what appears to be a body in a bag
>Oh fuck please dont tell me
>Ask doctors who it was
>It was her
>Motionless
>Go back to my ER room
>Lay back down onto bed and cry hard into the pillow for hours
>Grab laptop on table hours later, eyes still red as hell from all the crying
>Spotted this thread and started commenting.

Godspeed, Rachel.

>>729654502
My Dad was a highschool drop out that started a construction business and my mom settled for being his house wife.

That's what their definition of "having things figured out" was. They weren't much older than I am now either.

They think because they settled down at 21 and 20 that I should be reaching that settling down phase pretty soon.

>>729656915
Looks like the doctor wasn't fast enough.

>>729653895
Lesson learned anon. Most bitches would do this given half the chance. Don't trust them.

You absolutely did the right thing changing the locks and packing her stuff. The note was also very well done.

Cut all contact. You have protected yourself and your assets. It may be worth getting a new phone number. She will be persistent at first, but don't crack.

Soon, time will heal the wounds, then you will learn to thank your younger self for being strong, then eventually after a period of years; maybe then you can forgive her. Not for her, not to let her get away with it. But for you. To let go of all that anger and hurt.

By that point, you'll be loving your awesome life so much that you will barely even think of her any more.

>>729654317
we're all gonna make it brah

>>729655698
Listen to Lil Peep

>>729655698
I too have this feel and am 33 years old now. What do you think made things this way anon? I'm still trying to figure it out yet I am still blaming other people, the struggle of life and capitalism. None of these things gives me any insight on what to do to make myself happy.

I've recently started to look into the possibility that I am on the high functioning autism spectrum. I've taken a fw online tests and scored highly in them all. This would explain a lot of things in my life. Although I'm not sure why it's got worse as I've got older. Maybe the drugs.

>>729656915
This hit a nerve with me for some reason. Probably because I fall for girls very quickly. And also always end up dwelling of what could have been. "For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these; 'it might have been'."

>>729650119
>18
what the fuck dude. no one gives a shit about what happened before 18. im 30 and cant even remember shit from before 20. shut up and live your life

>>729657608
i relate also, 27 tho. shits gotten worse, but in a weird way. When i was younger i was always depressed and angry, lashing out and shit, not too bad really. But now i am numb and that anger i used to feel would be normal compared to complete apathy and emptiness. No interests and i have slowly stopped communicating with friends/family, gave up on my relationship, quit university and leaving the house.
I just pretty much sit here and smoke weed and take downers if i can get them and read the worst shit (dailymail, sun, 4chan) all day repetitively.
Might be on the spectrum also. I used to blame a lot of shit, other people on my problems. I think my parents were a bit negligent but apart from that I've come to think it's just 'faulty wiring'

>>729651643

God speed Anon, god speed.

>>729656915
YOU WAVED WITH THE DERP HAND, YOU GAVE HER THE DERP HAND!
Fuck anon, havent laughed like this in awhile. Much love and respect though. Sad to hear. Also fkn hilarious. Fuck you

I missed my childhood so much. I would kill for 10 more minutes as me when I was 7, filled with child-like wonder, and not on this computer, now with a dirty mind and shitty sense of humor
>Be 7
>Family wasnt very rich so we lived in a kind of ghetto neighborhood
>Grandma was nice
>Dad was cool
>Grandpa was awesome
>I loved Transformers (early movies not the shitty ones) and Bakugun
>Would go in the backyard with cuban bread to feed ducks
>Grandpa was really awesome, if I didnt already mention
>I think he was an engineer cause he built a lot of stuff for me
>Built our family a playground
>Got me a go-kart
>A fucking go-kart, oh my god he was awesome
>I was filled with wonder and cuteness
>Had high pitch voice
>Watched minecraft videos, I actually had a British accent from watching too much Yogscast for about a year
>Be 2 years ago
>Grandpa is diagnosed with Leukemia
>Visit him, he's still friendly
>Smiling, thanking us when we gave him flowers.
>After about an hour, we went.
>Fast forward few weeks.
>Grandpa started acting livid in hospital
>Forgot who most people are, except for my sister
>And me.
>Get the news few days later he died
>Have no reaction.
>Lost innocence at a young age, so I was dark humored and ruined at around 8-11 years old.
Thanks to this fucking shithole, the internet. So, fuck you, internet, for making me abandon my childlike wonder and innocence in exchange for absolutely nothing but trauma.

>>729659431
Boo hoo.

>>729659431
That's not a product of the internet anon, it's just a product of growing up.

I just turned 19 and I want to die

>>729659684
You don't understand. I'm only 12 years old.

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>>729659818
>12 years old

>>729659818
b&

>>729650119
Stop your crying and get a fucking job, you cunt. You are embarrassing your parents and all you can think about is yourself, you selfish fuck? If I was your father I'd kick your pansy ass up and down the street for being such a pussy. Man up and get your shit together.

>>729650119
are you going to make no attempt to improve in the future?

if so, you're weak. die faggot.

>>729660095

Not looking for sympathy, just stone cold advice. And I see what you mean. I've got to get my shit together.

OK, this has been eating away at me forever now.

>be me, 20
>virgin, lame, you know how it is
>meet incredible girl who gives me hope for life
>talk for months and become best friends
>start dating in September 2014
>never been happier in my entire life
>be dating about a year or so, she's perfect in every way. Loves the same movies, music, games, and she's the most beautiful girl that's I've ever seen
>text back and forth every day, see each other 2-3 times a week
>honestly thought I'd found my soulmate
>suddenly lose contact with her
>not responding to texts/snap
>FB inactive
>no answer at the door
>finally texts me back a month later
>she's dating some other random guy
>I'm totally crushed
>Can't get out of bed for nearly two weeks
>can't eat
>can't find it in me to go to class
>and yet I still can't be mad because I still love her
>she just posted pictures of her engagement ring today
>I lost the best girl in the world

It hurts so bad, I don't think I can wake up tomorrow.

>>729658224
You dont get how much this relates. Angry and depressed kid became soulless unfeeling adult. Barely dragged myself through uni and joined the police. Dont think im on the spectrum though, i put it down to being touched and emotionally abused as a child

>>729661291
This is what chicks do.

>>729661291

You need to find ways to make yourself happy without having to use others as a crutch. You need to be happy alone before you should even think about women.

Also this sounds like you read too much into a friendship, there was nothing there. You will find someone else once you fix yourself.

>>729661545
oh yeah that happened to me too, the abuse. Lol, always forget that, probably fucked me up too.
Am trying to drag myself back to Uni just so i can make a wage and live out life as quietly and drugged as possible. Thought about just becoming homeless and giving it all up but I would have to end up socializing more than if i maintain some kind of job

>>729651643
For the mother land anon

>>729650119
deep feels youve got there my friend

>i wont be able to afford internet here for much longer

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One day her and I will live happily ever after, r-right?

>>729662216
no, sorry buddy. you might live together forever, but happily? no.

>>729650119
Do you smoke pot