First time Extacy user, just took 180mg. Got a history of depression,

>>728917777
Looks like Kek is blessing your buzz

>>728917777
Just wait for the hangover tommorow...

Are you alone?

be carefull if you take them over a long periode of time you will fall into a hole of sadness when you dont take them anymore

>>728917868

Lad, I have no friends at all. Yeah.

>>728917777
DUDE WEED LMAO

\>>728917868
DUDE WEED LMAO

>>728918031
what's your experience with drugs?

>>728917940

Yeah, done my research, this'll be a once every 4-6 weeker thing, backed by 5-HTP to replenish the lost seritonin chems.

Shame theres so much red-tape around this, it's obviously neurotoxic, but we need further trials to reduce the damage done.

Same with psylocibin and cannabis (to a lesser degree)

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>>728917777
DUDE WEED LMAO

>>728918189

prior with weed, valium, xanax

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>>728917777
>>728917777

>>728917860
he can take 5-htp against it...

>>728917777
>180

Dude you're probably brain damaged.

Fact: Ecstasy will make any sadness go away

Fact: You will become disillusioned by how shitty the world is and only be able to find true happiness with said ecstasy

Fact: The wonderful effects of the pills will no longer outnumber the downsides after years of going to your happy place

Fact: Killing yourself into your 30s becomes a very real possibility after becoming jaded and hopeless

Fact: Given the chance, 10/10 would ruin my life again.

>>728917777
Where are you from?

>>728918403
Hook up a /b/ro with that dank, mane

>>728918613
http://hansamkt2rr6nfg3.onion/

>>728917777
>you will feel great
>tomorrow you will be depressed more than usual because your body will need time to reproduce the serotonin youve depleated
>as an ex user of extacy i recommend lots of weed plenty of rest and water the next day

>>728917777
>First time Extacy user, just took 180mg.
>Got a history of depression, so I'm hoping it "forces it out".
>It feels like it might, I feel less /r9k/, more /soc/.
>Will this feeling pass? How can I maintain this? Keep that sociable aspect.
>Currently got Pink Floyd's "Echoes" on. Fucking hell.
>I feel pretty fucking great right now. Sadness doesn't exist in my world anymore.

When effects wears off you are back to normal + you have used all your serotonin so you will get even more depressed, try reading about it only

>>728918540
lol get outta here u need way more than that for any sort of neurotoxicity.
ive taken upwards of 400mg of pure MDMA in a night and I'm a medical student at one of the top 10 universities in the world, functioning perfectly well thank you very much

I feel happy. Actually really happy.

It's been so long since I've felt like this.

Anyway, I'll stop blogging now, go enjoy the feel. Thanks for the posts folks.

>>728917777

I feel like E helped me from the brink of depression about a year ago.

I feel like I mastered the art of beeing high and sad though nowadays.


just try to keep the perspective , use it as a reminder that not everything is shit but you're perspective makes it out to be shit.

>>728918789
your first time? i doubt it

>>728918550

Fact: Not everyone is the same and you are just retarded

>>728918791
have fun!

>>728918789
>Medical student
>in /b/

Nigga stop playing

>>728918791
tips: smoke weed, have a shower, play good music on a nice system. bassy stuff sounds great on e. tell someone you love them, even if its ur mum or sister or someone, it feels good on e
go out if you feel like it you'll probably make friends

>>728918825

also fuck anybody saying you'll have a hard come down.
your a first time user and took a moderate amount, if anything you'll bathe in a nice and mellow afterglow tomorrow.

-certified bean fiend

>>728918928
one hundred percent not kidding i would prove it but lol no I'm not getting doxed by /b/ my friends are normies i would not live it down

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>>728917777
DUDE WEED LMAO

>>728918864

My opinions are only valid if I force them on to others...

Shh.. let me have this

>>728919030
yeah back this, after my first time i had such a nice glow i can remember talking about the weather with my friends mom and really really enjoying it

>>728918928
What's so surprising about that?

>>728919232
Cuz we're all retards.

>>728918859
no not my first time obviously but 180mg first time is not gonna give you brain damage don't be stupid

>>728917777

My brother was depressed.
Had his first xtc experience on a festival. Didn't take a big dose. like 100 mg or something.

As he said: "I experienced life the way it could be."

It was a start for him to work at his depression. And it worked.

>>728919367
no we're not there are loads of clever people on here we're just antisocial and have addictive personalities

Do an 1/8 of shrooms instead and confront that shit like a man. I did this a few times in my life. It changed my mentality dramatically. I'm 32 now and almost nothing bothers me for more then a couple minutes. It taught me to move forward cause life don't give a shit if it gets ahead of you. Wait to take the shrooms until a few days from now though.

>>728919367
Just because you're a doctor doesn't mean you're not a retard.

>>728917777
yes, you will have 2-5 days of good "glow"
then you will "crash." i hope your psyke can handle it.
GL

>>728917777
Yeah you're gonna kill yourself as soon as the blue tuesday hits you
Curing depression by releasing everything that keeps you happy is a pretty shitty idea

>>728918527
Assuming this idiot has that on hand. And still, 5-htp is only a precursor to serotonin which makes it easier for the body to produce it.
But don't act like it's a miracle cure for everyone who ever did ecstacy
It's most likely gonna be extra slow for someone with a depression to recover even with 5-htp

>>728918303
Jesus christ, googling for a few days does not count as doing your research. I can tell you right away that ecstacy is the last drug you want to try curing depression with

>>728919497
Yea, good thing ops plan to become you is right in check! And he conveniently has an eight of silly sibens in his back pocket, scheduled to your order. You are a miracle worker.

I took ecstasy on Friday for the first time OP. Also depressed.

It is not the type of drug to do alone -- I did NOT want to sit still and went out to some parties for the first time in month. It was excellent.

You may feel great the next day, too. Maybe even the one after that.

But it fades.

>>728917777
the high is really nice
beware of the down that follows...
can last a few days

>>728917777
I used and sold thistles for the better part of 2 years, don't take them like medicine and you'll be fine.

Back when I was selling single stack mdma based pills were great for the daily pick me up, double, trip, quad stack mdma based pills for down days, and acid/meth/speed based pills for parties and raves. Also only pokeballs are a must. Don't know if it's still the same, but molly really fucked up the demand for thizz.
Here's some simple rules to follow
>don't take more than 2 in under 4 hours
>drink water, not more than a half gallon throughout the day
>no more than 6 pills in one day or 10 in 2 days or you'll get sick for the next week
>take half the amount you normally would if you're drinking alcohol
>when coming down smoke weed or take a bubble bath
>more thizzles when coming down does not help


Best of luck cosmonaut!

>>728919367
High functioning retards. It doesn't take much to just mute what your first instinct might be to say or act until you come onto 4chan. I'm in the law field, not that it isn't a field filled with retards.

>>728919646
You can get drugs anywhere idiot. He asked how to help with depression so I told him what worked for me.

>>728917777
bahahahahahaha you took illegal drugs to manage depression

you're gonna fuck your brain up and have nobody to blame but yourself, enjoy =)

>>728917777
when I was 16 I did the same, it showed me that I could be the guy that I wanted to be. That I could be that guy that was happy and social.

The only thing that stayed was the perspective though. The feeling will pass and you can't microdose mdma. If I were you I would visit a psychologist, showing that mdma can make you happy is a good sign. It shows that you're body can make you happy, even though it needs some adjustments.

>>728919526
>blue tuesday
highly overrated, just take enough vitamins, eat good, and work out.

>>728919791
>anywhere
Literally?
>I told him what worked for me
Thank GOD we have the default, human template himself. Anything that works for you certainly helps every other human being in the planet. Like I said, you're a miracle worker bro. Thank you so much for your insight. You're changing lives here.

Quads?

>>728919441
Spot-fucking-on. For the first time in a year I was 'on the outside'. Scheduled help two days after the crash.

>>728918527
5 HTP supplements aren't some miracle drug that insta cures an MDMA hangover you fucking retard, he's going to be hit twice as bad too because of his history of depression

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>>728919818

>>728920040
Nah it literally works like that. He'll be fine +3
Trust me I'm in the medical field too. There's a tree out here, and some dirt. A huge sign saying "medical feild" and some Hispanic farmers to collect some basil every once in a while. I would love to become a medical professional however.

haha ended up back here while trying to ctrl+shift+t a tab about unit testing opengl

Thanks for all the concern, every poster has to do the captcha so I value that you spent the time to do that.

Don't worry about the depression lads, I've booked a week off work for this, I've done a little more than erowid, and I think it'll be ok.

I want to tell a few people (siblings mainly) how much they mean to me, but it's so out of character for me.

By the way, if anyone knows of a unit test mocking layer for OpenGL I'd be happy to listen. Might just abstract out GL/DX/Vulkan to a layer, worried about performance hits for that...

>>728919818

Grow up.

>>728920349

And don't call or message your siblings while tripping. Write down the things that you'd like to do. Do them later.
Turn off your phone.
Enjoy your fucking trip.

>>728919818
Opiates stronger than heroin are legal drugs. Anti-depressants with lower efficacy rates than placebos but also destroy your sex drive and may lead to suicide are legal drugs.

You're an idiot who doesn't understand how the world or even how their own body works for that matter.

>>728919989
It's better then being an angry little teen boy like you're acting. Have fun keeping up that mentality towards everything. You will get tired quicker as you get older.

>>728917777
ENJOY YOUR SEIZURE. HOPE IT DOESN'T HAVE LSD ON IT OR YOU'LL PROBABLY GET ASSHOLE CANCER AND DIABEETUS!!!!

>>728920349
Hey, brother. Willing to read something I wrote from the heart?

>>728920760
Did you just admit I'm right while throwing in a stomach punch due to lack of argument?

>>728921609

Sure, unless it's "DUDE WEED LMAO".
The market is saturated with that content, 'we're looking for fresh new idea at High HQ.

>>728919989

Jesus christ you need to grow up.

>>728920349
Here's another captcha filing monkey going out of his way just to reach out to you. How does that make you feel? Your mom and your sister may mean a lot to you, but know that I truly do love you more. Not your fake persona or the character you play for family, but the information seeking, antisocial, depressed human that's searching for love and hope. You've found it. My love is yours. The captcha is worth it. Just like you. Do you hear that sound? The sound of the air conditioning operating as it should, the fan in your computer, the beating of your heart? There's no coincidence here. I'm with you, just like I will always be past this point.

>>728921853
Bad enough he died for your sins, now he's the immature one? Come one man. Getting off topic again.

>>728917777
Dude, mdma is never a good idea if you ask me especially when you're depressed, bcz of the hangover.

If you wanna fight depression drop acid (250ug+) a couple of times till everything makes sense, then occasionally smoke weed to expand the knowledge you get even further. I did that and got from suicidal to genuinly happy, i got friends now and just feel good 24/7 without any drugs.

>>728921740
No, you're not worth arguing with because you will just say the same thing over and over. Your first two posts were almost identical. Why even bother?

>>728917777
How does this make you feel?

https://m.soundcloud.com/tenstring/passing-time-instrumental

>>728922289
What is this? A reply? A response? A continuation to the "argument" you happen to see no worth in feeding? What is irony? Is it something you can taste?

>>728918031

Go outside.

>>728918403
Dude what?

OP, what comes up must come down...The after effects will more than likely worsen your depression way past the point you were at previous to taking the roll. It feels great for 4-6 hours then youre just left with a terrible depressed feeling because your serotonin is drained. Should really only roll when youre already up and happy. Experienced psy user <<

>>728918403
That weed looks terrible. I hope you weren't trying to prove a point by showing that

>>728917777
You're going to have a serotonin crash and you will feel more depressed than you did before taking an eccy

Do something fun tomorrow. The day after is always rough. You may want to smoke some weed when you're coming down. So that it's not as bad.

>>728922564
I paid $40 for tha bag, was I ripped off or something? He said it's the best in town

Lmao you act like you can do better or something

>>728922776
Not him, nobody can be that stupid.

>>728922812
Fuck off dude every town is different. I got like 3 bluntz from that. A grinder made the difference

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>>728917777
who needs xtc if you got uncut & pure cocain ;)

>>728917777
I'm just stopping by to check these bad boys.

>>728922913
You are right modern day grinders have a magical portal inside them that throws your weed into a parallel universe in which everything is a bit bigger and then sucks it back and voila you have 6 grams worth of weed for the 3 blunts instead of the 1 gram you put in.

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Since your alone get some headphones and listen to some blackmill and clams casino.


Also masturbate.... Don't be gay but put something in your butt. You're welcome.

>>728923471
jesus,don't fucking masturbate! I tried it, i knew it wont work out,it didn't work out. After 30 mins i had a wetty in my pants.

>>728923040
Was thinking about trying some coke,how is it ? How long do the effects last ? How much would i need for my first and probably last time?

>>728924166
Some people love coke. I wouldn't bother. Its super expensive and only lasts a couple minutes.