Uncovered some messed up repressed memories and now am completely

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>>728628411

>>728628411
"uncovered" "repressed memories"

the word you're looking for is "crazy"

seek expert help

What's the memory?

>>728628689
Yeah you could say that. Wouldn't necessarily be false.

>>728628698
Childhood abuse. Always known about it, just happened to see a little much detail this time around.

>>728628411
Pic you or your partner? Have you told your partner this? Best to be honest or your partner will think you're cheating and that's why no action for him/her.

>>728628698
dont encourage the fucking idiot

>>728628906
>Childhood abuse. Always known about it, just happened to see a little much detail this time around.

what, you took a bus trip down memory lane and happened to look out the window at the wrong time ?

>>728628909
No pic is not my partner. Though looks very similar but long red hair. I've talked to them about this before a lot, they also were abused as a child. But we are on the opposite sides of the spectrum for how it messed with us. My partner is sex obsessed and my libido seems to have sizzled out. I was definitely a sex addict when I was younger before I remembered all the fucked up shit sexually that happened to me. Then I realized why I was so sex crazy and it made me feel disgusting.

nice pics tho

>>728629039
I remembered some of it at a young age. Like the fact that it happened. But it took years for other memories that were more specific to come to my head. As of yesterday I got a flash of way too much detail all at once and it's messing with my dick and head.

I'm not getting any either but that's because my girl is being a fucking cunt since the river ran red.

Yeah, your vague whining is boring as fuck though. Why did you even start this thread?

>>728629416
Too bad, period sex is actually pretty good as long as you're comfortable with each other.

>>728628411
You're fucking B.G?

>>728628411
talk through it, and forgive yourself for the pain you experienced. so tell us, what happened?

>>728629181
Well if you love her and she has a high sex drive, you may have to consider becoming a cuck.

>>728629462
Wanted to know if anyone else has ever had problems having sex for mental reasons. But I can clearly see no one read that somehow?

>>728629462
thankyou

fucking whiney bitch, probably was like that as a kid too.

dad was all like i'll stick my cock in his mouth to shut his little whore mouth up

Happened with my wife.
She always kind of knew she was abused (physically and sexually) but she didn't have any concrete memories or facts. Her older sister came out one day and have a detailed story about my wife and her father. Broke my wife pretty bad.
After some therapy and time, my wife actually asked if I would be rougher with her. To kind of turn those thoughts into a good thing.
Long story short, she had a hidden rape fantasy she never knew about.
Explore this path anon. Could help.

>>728629615
You were clearly fucked by your uncle or still a neckbeard virgin. Which one faggot?

>>728628411
No, but I can offer my advice anyways. Seek professional help, honest to partner, discuss how(if at all) to continue the relationship if the conclusion is you will no longer be able to have sex with her.

>>728629602
Thanks for the real replie. Appreciated.
>>728629569
I don't know anyone with those initials. >>728629605
She's actually more against an open relationship than I am. I've told her multiple times an open relationship would be alright with me. Where we could both explore. She refuses and gets threesomes together for us instead with her hot friends. It's actually kind messed up. Feel like I'm not giving enough to her.

>>728629803
ooh yeah totally

i was neckbearded by a virgin

>>728629908
I know I need to do that. Honestly me and her both do but it's really difficult to find the time and energy.
>>728629715
We do rape fantasies a lot actually since she was raped as a child as well. It's usually a pretty good expierance but seems to never work out right for my side.

Can relate to this. I was molested by my uncle throughout my youth. He a used my siblings as well. Really fucked me up. I basically can't have sex now. I have tried so many times, I get insanely nervous and can't maintain or even achieve an erection during sex. But if we are just kissing or cuddling I will be raging hard. It's fucking torment, makes me want to end my life.

>>728629305

Roll with it. Go ahead and rub it out man. I realized a long time ago that literally nothing in the entire universe can change a single goddamn thing that happened to me, or what was done to me. For a while I felt really gross about how I'd still fantasize about it every now and again, and really, damn near the only thing you can do is just admit that it's fucked up, admit that you like it and carry on with yourself and your life.

Or maybe you're fucked up in a different way, and in that case I got nothin.

Positive nihilism helps, since there's really no way your sexuality is "supposed" to be, and everyone's sex is a little bit fucked up.

For what it's worth, I'm still perfectly capable of enjoying and being in normal sexual relationships, but that doesn't every now and again mean i don't think about being the victim again, and how hot that shit makes me.

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>>728629908
Forgot to finish. She is cool with the no sex for right now ability it's just I'm not. I'm feeling like less of a man and it's really not a good feeling. We've been dating for five years and she's always put me first before all else, she dealt with me when I was being a total sex crazed cheating asshole and put me in my place to become the much better person that I am today. The shit she has put up with is terrible. I am literal shit, or at least I used to be. We are in it together until the end I just wish I could fucking FUCK HER.

>>728630431

use your fucking mouth and fingers and don't worry about your fucking erection. Seriously. I've gone through periods of having so little faith and confidence in my ability to perform, that the idea that I need to muster up an erection prevented me from getting one.

Paradoxically, the less I worried about my dick, the easier it was to start getting erections again.

>>728629915
So is it just mental? Like can you get it up? Is it possible to fuck her, but you just don't enjoy it? Is it just with her you have problems? You can perform in the 3somes? Does anything get you excited? Porn, masturbation, role play, sex toys?

Have you tried hypnosis?

>>728630607
You're very right. I just can't get these flashes of memory out of my head and it's pretty hard to not, as she phrased it "look disgusted"
>>728630356
I'm sorry that happened to you. It really is so terrible. I was sex crazed and violent when I was younger but now that I remember all the shit that I literally had no recollection of happening..it's like what you said, you're reading and wanting it when kissing and cuddling and then all of the sudden total shut down when it comes to the actual act. So frustrating. I'm just thankful she's been so patient with me through...fucking everything, man. >>728630378
It used to get me off thinking about it, and I'm sure the thought of a similar situation but without being the real person could still get me going. But in general at this point, that shit has me the most flasid dick I've ever had. I feel pathetic for how I acted yesterday too. Me and my girl drank way too damn much while I have all these crazy memories coming into my head and I was quite literally having a complete mental breakdown. She ended up breaking down too about her abuse. It was bad all around. Yet here we are plenty of time after the event and she wants to fuck and I can barely even get comfortable.
>>728631035
Like I said, I was completely fine before yesterday. I mean, I DEFIANTELY am no where near in the mood as much as she is but I'm usually alright and down to fuck around. I used to be just like her sexually, it's just slowly started to simmer down.

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>>728628411

>>728628411
Seems like thread is about to die. Be well, op. That sounds like some unpleasant stuff.

>>728629181

>sex obsessed
>long red hair

fuck man. i'd get a lobotomy if i had to to get my dick back in a hot red head. no way i'd let some punk ass memory deny my dick a red head.

>>728631586
All history aside, remember that if she leaves you for not fucking enough and your next GF has even half the sex-drive of your current, you're going to hate yourself for throwing away a life that most men only dream of. So yeah, eat her out daily. Make her cum. Order some viagra from overseas, get a strap on if you gotta. Just fuck her and let a therapist deal with your past. Don't let it out on your girl.

>>728629181
I went down on my mom once, which is horrifying, but I still fuck my wife you fucking pussy.

>>728632056
you what?
howd that happen?

>>728631932
It's pretty cash, not going to lie. We have been totally inseparable since we first met. Used to fuck like wild animals during those times.
>>728631939
She wouldn't ever be able to do this. However, that Doesn't mean you aren't right that I should be trying everything I can for her though. Might look into viagra if I can't get things working soon. It's not like I don't want to, my body isn't letting me. I really shouldn't be taking it out on her, it's just hard to remember that sometimes. She is in school studying to be a therapist and loves to listen intently to me and all of my bullshit.that fucking sweetheart. Jesus Christ I need to get it in.

>>728631586
Jumping the gun a bit if this is a day or two problem. Talk to a professional. If the problem last week's and then months, you have a problem. Try meditation. Find peace in mind and body.

>>728628411
If your not bullshitting I would seek counseling to work thru it asap. I let that shit slide and it ruined my marriage cause my wife thought I wasn't attracted to her and I wasn't forthcoming enough as to what about our sex life made me uncomfortable and turned off.

>>728631586
Thanks for the condolences. Nice to know I'm not alone. It's actually surprising to know how much this shit happens. I've told a couple friends and lo and behold they have similar experiences. I swear people are drawn to each other through common ground like this, even if you aren't aware of why initially

>>728632056
That's horrible. I'm sorry that happened to you. My abuse lasted about 13 years and I have only started remembering any of it in the past few years. It ended when I was 18 I'm now 25.
>>728632436
I feel like my body is shutting down when she initiates though, it's a very scary feeling. Like I can't move. But I will wait a few weeks if need be. >>728632464
This is all very true, if this was a shit posting thread then it's the most pointless one out there. I've communicated with her a lot about all of this, same as she has to me about her past and why she is how she is. I'm pretty confident she knows I value and want her. Definitely something I will keep in mind just in case...
>>728632475
You're never alone with that. Its honestly really fucked up how commen it all is and how no one really talks about it. I've never told a single soul besides my gf and /b/ about this whole thing. But I do agree that people who have those types of things happen are drawn to each other. I've had a few of my friends speak about their expierance sand of course my gf.

>>728632234
It was one night I slept in her bed after some nightmares. She had held me while I was falling asleep again. I almost always sleep really low in the bed, with feet hanging off. Apparently this night she didn't have any pants on, and as I slept I shifted way low, and woke up with her crotch in my face, and she was holding me really close to her...after I woke up, I remember her pushing me between her legs and into her pussy.

I knew what she was doing, and just...went with it. I was half asleep, and after a few minutes she came.

>>728633218
That's honestly so terrible, I'm sorry you went through that.

>>728633335
Yeah...the twisted part is that it was arousing for me sexually, but it was with mom, and it's just really fucking weird and gross to think about at the same time..

>>728628411
Me too, OP. Found out from my dad that my mom tried to asphyxiate me as a child, which is why my parents divorced and I haven't seen her in 15 years.

>>728633489
hot af desu

>>728630356
I was molested by my uncle too, he had a brainstem stroke a year ago and now has a locked in syndrom. I visit him once a month just to put capsaicine creme on his penis

>>728633489
That's completely normal. You can't stop your body from feeling that way. Trust me, I know and understand. When I think of what happened I feel so grimey and disgusting for the way it felt good while it was happening. But you can't stop your body from experiencing pleasure. It's just something that happens. That's why rape victims still get wet and still come, men included. It's fucked up but it's not your fault.

>>728633650
That's fucking awful, I'm so sorry. At least you don't have to be around her? Your dad is a good man for taking the actions he needed to to keep you safe. It's hard being a single parent. Fuck that crazy bitch.

>>728633917
You're strong for being able to do that. I would have suffocated him with a pillow at that point.

>>728628411
Happened to me as well, I will never understand why adults feel the need to touch children in any negative way. It's a game of power and pleasure and in the end there really aren't any winners.

I'm. ..has anyone checked CNN? Trump just launched tomahawk missiles at North Korea. Apparently they're mobilizing to invade Seoul.

Jesus Christ

Wasn't sexually abused but my parents used to torture me. I've broken pretty much every bone besides my back and neck from them beating the shit out of me. Feels bad.

>>728634263
I'm sorry about your situation too, man. Fucked how things come out of nowhere and derail life for a while. He had help from the rest of the family and my step mom, but dammit I love the man.

You'll be alright, given time. We all will. I wish you nothing but the best to be in a better place in life.

>>728634546
This is such random bate. I did fall for it thoug and A quick Google search says nothing?

>>728629402
more

get the fuck over it you fucking faggot, you have no idea how hard the world laughs at male rape victims.

>>728634706
Thanks, man. I really appreciate it. I wish you nothing but the best as well, I'm sure that information is pretty hard to handle sometimes. You will be okay too.
>>728634568
I can relate, my dad was sadly like this as well. I hope you moved out and are living the life you deserve.

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>>728635092
name? insta? something?

>>728634980
I'm not ashamed. And I know for a fact that the only people who laugh at it are other men who are too fucked in the head sexually to understand life, and people that rape men. Plus even though I'm fucked in the head and currently in the dick, I have a hot as fuck and kinky as all hell gf who I know will never leave me. So I'm pretty happy besides my broke dick.

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>>728635257
Sorry. Haven't got any info to give. But glad you like. Here.

>>728635396
More pics with redhair? Like that look so much like a friend of mine, wanna see more.

Was molested by both my foster parents. Really never got over it. At least you have a girlfriend. I can't even keep eye contact with people.

>>728635715
You can get over it you just have to really want to. Absolve yourself of any blame you may have. You are a victim, never feel guilty because of those monsters

>>728635691
Who does it look like to you? I hope we dont know you haha.

>>728635884
A ecuatorian girl, its not her, not even have the same tattoo, just looks like her.

>>728635852
I really hope one day I will. I'm 29 now though, so it seems like I won't. But I never give up hope of a better life.

>>728635992
>>728635715
That's so terrible...it's not your fault. Don't blame yourself. You can open up to people, not everyone is out to hurt you. I'm sorry..what a horrible thing. What absolute wastes of air. Do you still speak to them?

>>728635977
Honestly I doubt she would even care I was mainly hoping so you don't know who I am speaking all this crazy shit about myself. Girlfriend is the chilliest girl there is. Don't have more with red hair though. phone is broken and everything on this is old.

>>728636183
That's the worst part, I don't hate them. They were my parents to me. That's why it's messed with me so much. I speak to them on occasion. It is very hard to though.

>>728633218
Dude, wow. Did she or you ever bring it up? I guess it happened the one time. How old are you both?

>>728636340
Then just show more pics.

Just wanted to say that after looking through all the threads of tonight that I really appreciate this one. Besides the few twats there's a lot of support in this and I'm digging it.

>>728636445
We never talked about it.

The only reason I remembered this is because there was a similar situation that happened with my wife that triggered the memory coming back.

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>>728636515
Pretty much dumped all that I can off this. Everything else includes me or full face. And that I know she would mind.

>>728636757
That's fucked. Have you ever spoken to your mom about it? I mean, I'm sure you've thought about bringing it up. Or at least I would. In a non sexual way of course, more like a sense of clarity and maybe reconciliation

>>728636811
Wanna share them in private? by mail? because I wanna see more.

>>728628411
What a wholesome thread. I needed this tonight. Thanks, op. Hope your dick and head get fixed. You seem like a chill dude.

>>728636937
>>>728636445
>We never talked about it.

I never want to bring it up. My mom has lots of mental illness issues, I won't get anything from her on it. Generally, I've got a good perspective on it, personally. It's fucked and weird, but it's something you have to put behind you like any other thing which is fucked up.

>>728637038
Haha no I'm alright. Who knows, if I get my dick working soon maybe we'll do another couple thread on here. We've done a few in the past. Keep a look out for a hot red head and her boyfriend in a few days. Maybe Friday or Saturday hopefully. I know we are getting some Molly this weekend to do some therapy excersizes for us both. Molly is so therapeutic, it should really be viewed that way more often. There's nothing I love more than taking Molly with my girl and getting past all those mental walls that the subconscious keeps putting up. Then we fuck and joke and laugh and feel so fucking wonderful for even weeks after.

>>728637094
That just makes it worse, I'm sorry man. That's incredibly fucked. Do you talk to her in general? God I can only imagine. My shit was fucked too but mom stuff is a different level.

>>728637094
Is she fat and gross or a milf? Fuck man, I have no idea how I'd even process that if it happened to me, how old were you when it happened?

>>728637421
Or a milf? Seriously? Cmon dude. Wtf

>>728637492
kek

>>728637278
How will we know it's you?

>>728634349
Why end his suffering?