/b/ros, Can we start a feels thread now ? Family issues, emptiness,

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>>727985654
Today I spilled my soda at McDonald's and the staff got pissed off at me.

>>727985654
I had an interesting thought the other day. when a co-worker was talking about Titanfall 2, and I thought about what I did in my free time,( YT , or here) and I struggled to come up with anything interesting to say about those things. I think i just mindlessly do things w/o actually caring about them

>>727986068
It's interesting indeed. Do you really feel the envy, the urge to do the things you do tho ?

>>727986260
yeah, it's a habit, everyday I, go to TY watch almost the same videos or the same channels, sometimes, I stare at my subfeed not at all interested by anything there.

i loathe everyone around me, even my closest friends. even my self. but you would not see it, as i am the nice guy.

>>727986448
Have you tried other activities ? Maybe still internet related.
how do you feel when you change your habits ? Just uncomfy or you wanna run back in your comfort-zone ?

>>727986646
No, not really, I found a new song via /mu/ but other than that no not particularly

>>727987086
Try it, faggot.

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You guys will get over it. Eventually.

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>>727986448

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legit man, the feeling of emptiness has got to me. girl i like ignores me, schools going to shit- i live in australia and atm theres a fear of comming home one day to my dog dead becoz snakes like to hybernate around my house and come out on days where it gets warmer. fml /B/ros

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bump

I fear I'll be alone for the rest of my life. no one would find me attractive. but I don't know what I want to do if w/ my life to "focus on myself"

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I spent my whole life pretending to be normal only to fuck it up every now and then and start getting depressed about it. I'm fake and I don't care about other people but I want them to care about me but even if they did I couldn't feel it.

>>727988930
15549

I just got diagnosed with (luckily early stage one) liver cancer. Still not good. And I have shit government healthcare (American) that won't actually cover most of the tests/procedures/medications I'll need. So even if I go into remission and beat the disease, I'll be in horrible credit-destroying debt. And I haven't found the courage or the right way to break the news to my girlfriend or family yet.

Does this count?

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i collect wojak images
>feels bad man
>feels good man
>feels
here's one that I saved from the ad

>>727988930
Understanding I was not "normal" was the biggest step of my life.

>>727989031
Sure it counts. hope you wont RIP in peace too soon bro.

>>727989031
>>727988930
>>727988632
>>727986068
>>727989052

Ayyy feel better now

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>>727989052
I collect Todds they are all on my phone rn

>>727985654
Last night I ate a spicy burrito. I am lactose intolerant. Feels like lava

>>727989101
I hope he an hero soon.

I fapped 6 times in 4 hours while hugging the pillow and watching a hentai video.
I stayed in bed all day.
I don't feel bad.

Can't get a job because of my background
Have herpes
Can't move on from "the one"
Care too much about the people I hate to an hero
Constantly fixated every morning and night of a desire to kill everyone and myself.

Practised my passions and talents for a decade and have fuck all to show for it other than broken hands and fucked back.

Super poor fag, living with parents.


Any advice ITT?
>inb4 just do it faggot

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I just realized that I'm addicted to bad thoughts and feelings.
I can't stop thinking about how my life is shit, and even when I try to clear my mind, I still come back to those thought.

It's almost as if I unconsciously like to suffer and to wallow in my self-defeating thoughts.
I managed to escape from my daily hell a couple of times, and started fixing my life, but it was always a short time, a few months at best, before I came back to hell. I don't know what to do anymore, this is not a way to live.

>>727988930
Stop faking. Be yourself, let people hate you for it, and let the real people that support you show themselves. I stopped giving a fuck what others thought of me at age 10, and since then I may have lost some people in my life, but I've not had to deal with bullshit from the people I care about, because they know me, and I know them. Being myself, in all it's grotesque and weird ways, is the best thing I've ever done for myself.
>15 years into the experiment
>respected by the people I care about
>still give no shits what others want from me.

>>727989360
That's called depression anon.
I know them feels, it's an easy thing to feed.

Change things up and seek help friend! You can do this

>>727989101
Heh, thanks anon. I'm hoping I don't die too. But the life-ruining debt might be worse.

>>727989442
Shrink told me I'm not actually depressed, just low mood (however you say it in english).
That said, he couldn't help me, as usual. No one can.

>>727989555
Trips talked space cowboy. You'll live

I'm goddamn useless, I see all these people that I went to HS with and they won the genetic jackpot. I'm here just struggling to keep a shitty fast-food job

>>727986646
The most interesting thing I am doing is planning for a campaign for my Fallout PnP, but I come to that only occasionally

>>727989599
Sounds like he found his degree in a cereal box dude.

Make an effort to fix it.
Or don't.

It's your life :)

I could give a fuck

>>727989599
That's because you went to a shrink and not a psychiatrist. If you did, seek help in other places.
I've had problems with expressing my shitty thoughts, which has lead me to losing any care I was receiving and stuff like that. I'm back at manning up and actually explaining that I have plans to end my life, and the shit I think about. Also, I fucked up my life beyond repair (studies - goodbye) so I was forced into a shitty corner. Now I've finally got myself into a job, a drastic change in my life that was hard to make without the pressure of hitting rock bottom. You'll get it working anon, but there's probably some major changes you'll have to make, even if they seem impossible at the moment.

>>727989285
Bump 4 curious

>>727989982
Hey a kindread spirit.
Share said tale of woe with us?

>>727989285
Apply for 9837492834729847 jobs.
With a bit of luck you'll find something you like, if you don't, continue searching.
Other than that:
>get a hobby that you feel no pressure to succeed for anyone else in
>buy a dog
>eat good food
>plan your sundays, sundays always fuck working people up because they spend it dreading monday

>>727989980
>make an effort
What do you mean? I made huge efforts, I even got results (I lost a lot of weight for example), but in the end it's all useless. Nothing matters and I always lose all the energy.
Even when I succeed I still feel like shit, so now I know that there's no point.
>>727989982
I went to several pshycologists and pshychiatrists. I will never take antidepressants again. They were worse than the illness. All doctors were useless, a complete waste of time and money.

>>727990131
It's bit of a story, keep the thread alive while I greentext.

>>727990367
some anti-depressants work for some people, some don't. Almost everyone have ones that work for them, but anti-depressants can't substitute actual care. Try some of this
>>727990302

Also, physical exercise does wonders for some. I used to be really active, which meant it hardly did anything for me anyways.

>>727990302
Hey thanks anon.

I have a casual job that I hate. I'm trying to find more work. But google lists some nasty shit next to my name as a first result..

I'm working in music.. which means I get paid fuck all. It's my passion outlet and hobby.

I'm just drawing blanks as to how to get my shit back on the right track.
I know the words and steps but it just feels never ending.

I'm not meaning to look a gift horse in the mouth, or be ungrateful.
Thanks anon.

Retarded monkeys infest my planet

>>727990382
Bump

>>727990367
Ok to be blunt.
If this shit is affecting your life or others in a negative way. It's a depressive symptom.
That and any time you've ever had a restless night or an anxious moment qualifies as depression.

It seems like you want a magic answer.

This is a long road full of hard work though anon.
I'm sorry, but keep working at it.

Even if ifs all for nothing.
You making an effort and failing is better than not doing everything you can. Because it's not about rewards, but how you live honestly with your lot in life. That's all that can affect you..

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Just started Citalopram, how fucked am I ?

>>727990936
>keep working at it.
No more energy to do anything, it's over.
>restless night
I basically never had a good night of sleep in my life. Not anxious, tho.

I'm not looking for magic answers, just answers. The doctors were supposed to help, but they didn't. I did alone what I could, but it's not enough.

>>727990382
My story begins at the age of 4
>parents split up, and are constantly fighting
>it never got physical between them, but the situation was complete cancer
>they couldn't hear eachothers names without verbal diarrhea about how horrible the other is ensues
>me and older sister become messengers between our now separate parents
>turned to lying and catering to them both because we couldn't take the situation
>mental abuse by stepmother
>this is when depression started, but was ignored and still remained somewhat functional

>fast forward 5-ish years
>weirdo of the school
>i'm fine with this
>bullied because of it
>not fine with this
>attempt suicide through hanging
>rope to short and knot to shitty
>continue living

>fast forward another 5-ish years
>bullied again
>lives with depressed mother who still acts like a fucking baby about her relationship to my dad
>"at least I'm not stupid like the rest of these people" being my only reason to even try
>find a girl
>quirky as fuck
>not my type
>still we work
>get into relationship for 2-3 years
>find out she's been cheating on me
>break it off because I can't take it
>she tries winning me back
>ends up sexually abusing me in the process
>sleep issues start to come into play
>never been this low before, life is shit
>find out this girl is spreading the rumour that I raped her
>the small patch of people I care about don't even ask for my view in the matter
>people just buy that I'm the rapist
>sleep deprivation starts fucking me up
>hallucinations, memory problems
>apply for care
>shoved around through the system, not getting any help

Fast forward another 2 years
>find another girl
>she understands me
>she doesn't need me to explain, but she listens understands when needed
>also a person that doesn't open up to many
>relationship is absolute bliss
>still depressed and sleep deprived, but she makes it bearable
>basically gets through the instance of school before university by the skin on my teeth
cont ...

>>727991166
This is my point.

You need to be actively trying to reprogram your mental habits.

Accept the truth.
You will only accept the love you think you deserve.

If you're on /b/ you aren't making a real effort to change for the better.

Read about some interesting passions.
Start more hobbies than you can deal with.
Be better tomorrow than you were today.
Just because you can.

Be so busy that everything's a distraction.
It's not a real life but it's better than sitting around fueling how bad you feel.

>>727991469
Bump

I'm 18 years old and drinking myself to death because I'm too weak to stop or seek professional help, and all I want is someone I can be myself with and talk about how I feel

>>727991693
Tell me how you feel?
What are you running from?

>>727991500
I get what you say, but I don't have the mental /and therefore physical) strength.
>Be so busy that everything's a distraction.
That's how I always "lived", but that's no way to live, and I'm literally too tired anyway.
It's a vicious circle and I don't know how to break it. But I know for sure that pulling myself by my own bootstraps won't work.

>>727991469
>2 years in and she suddenly loses interest
>I don't understand why
>She can't explain why
>I'm left hanging
>move out of town to go to university, and get away from the rape accusation
>can't get through that shit what so ever
>decide to try to get help again, now in a different town
>after many months of attempts and phone calls I get some anti-depressants, sedatives and get put on a waiting list for regular counseling by a psychiatrist
>atleastsomeonelistens.png
>life is still shit, still not functioning what so ever
>at least I sleep and don't hallucinate anymore because of it
>try to push through the rut, and finishing my studies
>it goes to complete shit and I lose my right to student loans
>use up savings to pay for rent and food
>broke, depressed and dangerous to myself
>half assed attempt at suicide
>apply for jobs
>attempt suicide
>apply for more jobs
>finally get internship in the field I've been studying
>should get a full employment by June
>still need care, still need meds, still broke as fuck
>but at least I'm not studying, at least I'm not in the hellhole of a town I used to live in
>finally starting to get over last girl
>still suicidal thoughts
>still broke
>just barely functioning

It's a shitty story, and I'm a whiny little shit, I know.

>>727992017
Moving out of town was 4 years ago, got care shortly after. The rest of the story is stretched over this period.

I'm one of the Columbine survivors. The anniversary is this month and I'm just so fucking bummed. Everybody at my work and stuff is like "come on man it's been a long time get over it" and I just cannot. I want to die. I wish I had been killed in the shooting.

>>727992017
Screencapped and saved into my "baw" folder
Atleast the story will kinda live on now

>>727991816
The problem is that you *can't* get out of it without being busy. Don't do it to distract yourself, do it to actually activate your brain and train your system to deal with stress. This is extremely hard, I know, but try finding something you can do without it feeling like a chore. It doesn't have to be productive, it really shouldn't be something anyone else wants you to do. You need to want to do it, and that is paradoxical in a state of depression. But you know what you WOULD like to do, I'm sure, and do it, even if it sucks to begin with.

I personally took up skateboarding again to do this. It shuts off my brain and lets me just do what ever I do. I don't think about *having* to do it for anyone else, I don't need to perform, I just need to do it to feel somewhat alright.
Of course, it won't change your life completely, but it will be a stepping stone to get yourself into dealing with your shit.

I go out of my way to find out why people dislike me just so I can be angry about it and nurse my own insecurities.

>>727990631
ik the feel brutha
music is my life and blood but im living paycheck to paycheck
cant promise any success, but if its any comfort i lose myself in work everyday to forget about life
its the only hope i have left anyway

>>727986068
It's like there's no life to us, it's all habit.

>>727991086
20mg?

Makes me feel really weird.

Wanking was great in te begining though

>>727992415
For real?
Why?

>>727992415
Did you know any of the people killed?
I get the thing of not getting over traumatic events, but focusing on something else sounds like a good idea. Or at least get some counseling to get it out of your system. You have the right to feel like shit, but that doesn't mean you need to put yourself in a situation where it's impossible to handle. Would you say you're suffering from PTSD or is it more related to loss?

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>>727987368
Kek

>>727992017
Thanks for sharing here.
Keep your chin up til June.
Work hard bro I'm trying to do the same as you.
I'm glad I heard your story.

It's a shame that things haven't been going well so far. But it's a good outlook you have I hope you can keep it up.
Thanks for sharing.

Have a job and it makes me feel ok. Not the greatest but people have it worse.

Have herpes.

Will probably have more complications with my liver soon.

Have an old as fuck car but at least I have one I guess.

Losing weight and people are starting to pay a little more attention to me which is nice.


I don't really want to complain because I know people have it worse. I guess that's a feel. A different one but still.

>>727992615
I already play the guitar, it's my favorite hobby. But when I feel particularly shitty I can't even play, my fingers are stuck. I can't concentrate for shit, I can't even follow the story of a movie or a tv show. Fuck

I'm married with no friends, family doesn't really get along..wife has friends but I dont....would kill myself but I don't want to put my wife through the pain of my death

I smoke 5 or 6 joints a day and don't get high

https://www.google.ca/amp/s/www.lionsroar.com/so-who-are-you/amp/

Anyone who's interested in getting out of their head, at least try to, give this a quick read. Might help.

>>727992660
Why do you get angry at people for disliking you? You can't be liked by everyone, and that's fine. No one is.
To me, seeing people dislike me is a motivator. The people who dislike me for some preconceived notion are fine examples of why I have no interest in those people. If someone dislikes me for something I actually stand for, it's often a case of judging me by a single factor they don't happen to agree with. Is that someone I'd care to be friends with?
>lol no
If there's a misunderstanding, I just live my life, if I happen to prove them wrong, that's good, but if I don't, they're the ones to blame for not getting to know me.

If I'm disliked for who I truly am, well, tough luck, I'm me and I can't be anyone else, even though it's a good time to take an introspective look and assess whether I am treating others the way I'd like to be treated. I can't say I treat people bad, and you shouldn't either, if I do I try to correct it.
There will always be people that hate you, for one or several reasons. Own it, it's okay.

>>727992689
Likewise here. Good to know we're not alone.
Tell me about your work?

I've had plenty of jobs but after about a decade as a musician, roadie/ "mixing engineer" with two degrees.
All I know is music now.
Kek should've done a real trade instead

People normally dont get it because music seems like a good career to most people. Because "it's doing what you love right?" Fuck it's hard sometimes.

Thanks for letting me bitch

>>727993451
Sorry but I can't take advice from someone who hangs around feels threads. Your motivations are a lie if you're still here.

>>727985654
i need money, aint that weird?

>>727992785
I guess just because I never got over it. I still have dreams about it, I hate hearing gunshots and screaming on TV. Right after it happened, I started obsessively collecting information about it, news paper clippings and stuff, my whole life became defined by the shooting because I was so young at the time. I was just a teenager. I just feel like a broken, stunted human and I think it would have been better if I hadn't survived. These feelings always intensify around the anniversary though.

>>727992817
Only through friends or chatting with them in school, I didn't really personally know any of the victims. I do know a few of the people who were injured, however. It's awful, but this is the reason I don't feel an intense loss like those who did know the victims personally.

Well, after the incident we all were sort of made to see therapists or psychologists or whatever. At that time I think that was my diagnosis, that I was suffering from PTSD. She said it would get better, that I would stop seeing Harris's face everywhere, but it never stopped. I still see him everywhere. I saw his face during the shooting. It's so hard to get over, to relate to people now. I wish I could just drop it and forget, I really do.

>>727993069
I know exactly that feeling. I'm a guitarist myself, but I can't play at all when I feel bad. It's probably because it's so driven by accomplishments and artistic visions. Try something you won't judge yourself when you're doing. Building things is often a good hobby for this. Especially if you build shitty things.

>>727993607
You guys must not have real talent. I write my best music when depressed.

>>727993529
>anyone who posts in feels threads is untrustworthy and incapable of giving decent advice
You know, you're in a feels thread. You contradict yourself by implying you're the exception, and is therefor capable of assessing whether or not advice is good or not. Either that, or you're just retarded.

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been living with my gf for about 3 years now. i've fucked up a lot and things are way different between us (lied to her and was just shitty in general) not even sure if i love her anymore and just want to be alone but if we break up she will be homeless and jobless due to medical conditions. i'm trying to save up money so i can move out (moving in with a friend just need a car and to pay utilities) but i'm constantly having to spend money on groceries for my family because my parents spend all the money on alcohol and my little sister. get told i don't do enough around the house because i don't immediately clean up after myself and everyone else in the house. i work 6 days a week and even struggle with that because of a concussion i got about a year ago. i'm at least 30 lbs underweight but can't gain weight cause depression. i spend a shit ton of money on weed because it helps me eat and sleep. i want to stop smoking but every time i try i have mental breakdowns because it was my only relief from this constant stress. i just feel like i'm stuck in an endless loop with no way out unless i treat everyone around me like complete garbage and hate myself even more for it

>>727993584
My only advice is to try and push on with life, try to get a hobby where you're disconnecting yourself from your thoughts, at least for a while.
Also, cannabis can be a nice relief for some people. Under the right conditions, hallucinogens can also reverse this, but I must stress the "right conditions" part.

>>727993883
When did I ever imply I was the exception? Even your reading comprehension is bad man.

>>727993958
forgot to add that i can't really talk things out with my gf cause i have assburgers and can never explain myself properly and it just ends up with both of us being upset/frustrated

>>727993069
Buy a metronome and train not only monotonous tasks like chords and scales (still do it though) but transcribe by ear simple songs you like.

Make a set time to sit everyday.
It's ok not to shred yet you haven't sucked enough. The more you suck the less you suck.

Watch Paul Gilbert, joe satriani, Guthrie govan rick graham, pebble brown, rick beato, pyramid or something like that and pick a small chunk to become an expert in. Eg. Master your major scales. Get that shit down if you don't have it.
That's the keys to your musical car. It's worth the trouble to have it engrained

Find inspiration.
Intervals, plini, poliyphia etc.

Then learn modes.

There's no such thing as too slow or too fast.
There is only clean or suck.
Go too slow and go too fast.

But never stop and never give up.
Don't allow a bad habit to be repeated.

Whenever you think about guitar. Pick it up. Why not? Think about the patterns you would have played.

Be disciplined.

Like L'Oréal you're fucking worth it.

Just stay busy

Well let's start off by saying my father wasn't in my life. My mother, god bless the woman, always had a knack for finding the absolute worst prices of shits for boyfriends and having children with them. I grew up with assholes as my only role models which now that I think about it is probably the reason why I'm so bad with women. I absolutely hated my mothers boyfriends/ "husbands". The first one was there since I was an infant up until I was 7. He was abusive as hell towards me and my mom. They had 2 children who are my half brothers and they too would get physically abused. I'm talking can't sit down in desks at school from all the beatings. Sometimes for things as small as dropping a glass of water. He kicked me down the stairs once because i cried when my mother left to work. This whole time I thought he was my father until one day at the age of 7 my mother hands me the phone to talk to my REAL father. That basically turned my world upside down. Anyways The last time I saw him( moms first boyfriend) was from the back of a cop car as he had beaten my mother really bad and smashed her hand by closing a window on her hand. So mom found a new boyfriend. This guy was with her from the time I was 7 to about 15 or 16. This guy was really cool at first and didn't seem to mind that this woman had 3 kids as he had 2 daughters from a previous relationship. All is well until my mother gets pregnant with his child. All of a sudden he turns into this depressed, mid life crisis, verbally abusive asshole. He now looked at all of us differently. He would have fights with mom at the dinner table and call me and my half bros, lazy trash. And he would constantly threaten to kick us out of his house. There was a time where all our clothes would stay in suitcases because we never knew if we were sleeping there or at a shelter that night. Guy was an absolute asshole. I wanted to fight him every time he would start an argument but I was only a kid
I'll continue if anyones interested

>>727993865
>talent
Great bait there mate
>there's no such thing as talent, its all about practice
I've been playing for 10 years and have sold records, I think I'll be the judge of my capabilities of something as subjective as music, rather than a troll in a feels thread on /b/.

>>727994148
You're implying your the exception by assessing what's good and bad advice, since you consider people posting in feels threads incapable of giving advice. It's a P - NP related problem.

>>727994100
Thanks man. I got really into writing about a year after, but I couldn't do it for long periods of time because the focus wasn't there. I was always so tired. I did try pot for a while, but it probably wasn't under the right conditions. First time, I did feel actually happy and light for like five minutes, then it went way. Maybe the weed I got was just bad, but after that it didn't do much for me.

>>727994244
You haven't sold anything. Let's be honest. And claiming as much on 4chan is just pathetic.

To say that talent does not play a factor is idiotic. Those asian kids playing amazing guitar with no soul is very different then hearing the greats.

>>727994345
you're*

>>727994345
I never implied your advice was good or bad. But taking advice from losers isn't productive. Neither of us have no way of knowing what's advice that would actually work because like I said, we're still here.

>>727994164
Yeah thanks man that's good advice, but I'm no longer a beginner and I know how to practice. It's just that I can't always play like this.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1SqA9V5vL39

>>727994385
What a load of bullshit. Jimi Hendrix got great by playing a lot of music, not by playing a lot of scales. That's the difference, not some inherent talent. Asshats can't pick up a guitar and just play, unless they've played other instruments before. Even then, they can't play.
>why the fuck am I replying to this bait?

>>727994477
So by expressing moments of self doubt means that you're a loser incapable of giving advice then? How are you able to determine this, if you're a loser yourself?

>>727994590
He got good because he worked hard and had talent. The shear number of guitarists out there is staggering. Those who stand out are usually the ones with talent. There is a clear dividing factor.

I have a buddy who plays great. But his recordings aren't anything that would ever move you.

Just accept your mediocrity. I didn't say you couldn't make money. You'll just never be remembered.

>>727993865
Lol that's not really depression then if you're doing things you love and getting satisfaction?
Also post your amazing songs??

I get the idea, but I think it's a big call to pretend that all songs are depressing or blues jams.. because anything that provokes a physical reaction is enjoyment. That and not even all blues is sad or depressing.

Thanks for telling me how superior you are though

:) I don't even mind. I already feel like shit kek. Are you just trolling for easy targets to compensate for some inadequacy?
We're friendly here, no need to hide

>>727994754
You're spending your time in a 4chan feels thread. We have to draw a line somewhere. This is a loser hangout. I don't see how you find that to be a controversial opinion.

At the very least I don't think anyone can disagree with the fact that we shouldn't be taking advice from losers.

>>727987368
Fucking keks.

Holy shit.
I feel better


I challenge all to read this and not fuck your sides off

>>727994385
I've sold music in a niche genre to people from all over the world. I never claimed anything grandiose, but I have no reason to prove myself to someone who simply states how shitty others are without putting themselves in the firing line. You're a bottom feeder, and you know it.

>>727989360
Same

>>727994821
Who said I got satisfaction from it? It doesn't make me happy.

And actually my music has never been described as sad. I never pretended they all had to be.

>>727994941
I never said you claimed anything grandiose. I only said you have no talent based on the way you describe your playing habits.

>>727994876
It's true.

But I think everyone knows the right advice to give a friend in need but never how to address it themselves.

Like a friend you aren't close with you can be more honest than people you truly care about.

Why you treat the people you love like shit essentially. Yes you do it too, wether or not you see it yet.

Too close too see.
Forest from the trees and all that

>>727994756
So, Lil Wayne is a good guitarist because he will be remembered?
Music is subjective, what moves me doesn't move you. Everything is a derivative of something else, if you fail to see this, you clearly haven't practiced enough.
There's no such thing as talent. Prove me wrong, not by stating the subjective opinions of what is good and bad and then claiming they're born with this magic, when in reality they've most likely all practiced their asses off, and sucked major ass to begin with.

In school I was always 'that kid' and I was fine with it, I didn't care that I didn't have any friends, I just wanted to be alone. About two years into secondary school this changed however, I found people who I would hang out with on occasion, (I still had no social skills but they didn't care) but for some reason they stopped talking to me and I don't know why. Every attempt at conversation goes nowhere and I don't know how to fix it. I never really wanted friends before that but now I've had then they seem like really cool things to have, I haven't had a relationship like the ones I had back then and I sorely miss them.

>>727995094
We'll have to agree to disagree. It's not good to take advice from losers.

>>727995202
Lil Wayne is your frame of reference? Really? So now we know you have bad taste in music.

It's fine. Enjoy your hobby. That's all it'll ever be for the most part.

>>727994975
The fact you are bragging it's your best work.
You are satisfied.
Now you are getting rewarded with attention.

You sort of did.

>you guys must suck, I make my best work when depressed.

I've made my best work when I feel really fucking good, when I feel like dancing.

If my shit doesn't make me dance at least then why the fuck would I sell it?

I only cook food I would eat too.

My best work is about a "dark" subject matter but honestly if I was actually depressed I wouldn't have paid the money for tracking at all. I would have been depressed instead.

Am I clearer this time?? Sorry

>>727995258
So I'm to disregard this too then? Or should I listen up because you're so alpha?

You must be tough coming to bully a feels thread.
Did only fight with the kids in the special school too?

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>>727995046
You claimed it was impossible for me to have sold music.
You still claim there's this illusive bullshit known as talent. You have yet to prove that it exists, that you possess it, or that you are even capable of producing any music.
You're narcissistic in your way of defining your, supposed, superiority based on *your* experiences. Anyone who doesn't experience something like you do must be wrong, or suck.
There's plenty of world renowned musicians who didn't produce anything at their lowest points. But of course, the faggot on /b/ must know that anyone who can't produce shit while depressed is clearly just shit.
>anon has never been depressed
>doesn't understand what depression is
>and can't understand how it affects everything of ones being, actions and abilities

>>727995316
Kek
Different anon here.

Sorry bro. You need to make an argument if you expect to feel superior for being right.
I'm not sure you read what he said

>>727995316
Clearly my point was that Lil Wayne is shit, and is universally considered one of the worst people to have ever touched a guitar in front of an audience.
>being this incapable of reading comprehension

>>727995637
Kek I'm with you bro. I'm fairly sure the narccisist call is the only accurate truth.

This kid is a troll who feels a little joy in the perceived weak spot.

He's also lurking a feels thread.
Pity him, for he is hurting inside too. Along with the keks at his expense

>>727994928
Bump

why do i expect strangers on the internet to care when the people around me don't even care

>>727996002
Because you can rely on honest empathy from complete strangers who are physically disassociated from you.

Whereas people irl are either too close or too far to give a fuck about honesty outside of what they take for granted.


You know we're reliable because we're fucked as well and we can't all be heroes. So we're always here.

Probably the most reliable thing, finding likeminded depressives in /b/

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>>727996361
I was literally just watching that.
What kind of 1337 hax0r magic do you have?

Are we twins?
Do you like fucking redheads to prog Music too?

>>727996281
i can't rely on it though because no one even responded to what i posted. don't wanna point out which cause i already feel pathetic enough for my last post

My ex I hadn't seen in 10months saw me at a bar with mates and had a few drinks in already. Comes and hugs me and drags me outside saying she wants to "talk" confesses she has feelings we hookup right there and then. Though she has a long distance boyfriend who she's never met but he is flying in to meet her two days after we've hooked up. I now feel dead knowing she's with him for these 2 weeks

>>727996680
Hey dude. Just to push the point.
I replied because I'm showing I care.

What's the problems? I'm happy to listen for a little while

>>727996711
That sucks bruh.

I was the long distance boyfriend once if that feels any better?

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>>727996528
your left hand is touching your face

>>727996941
She was my bestfriend for years and my girl for another. To me She's always going to be mine.

>>727996828
this was my post
>>727993958

>>727996680
The guy with the rough dads?

Sorry i haven't gone through the whole thread.
Bump it.

The idea here is an attention seeking thread.
Don't tell yourself not to seek attention.

>>727997101
Hey bro, I'm glad you showed me. I did read this one earlier. I wasn't going to reply because I can relate in a few ways. But not in the same way.

Would you like to talk about the problems or the solutions?
Either way is a valid approach.

>>727997035
Kek

Yeah them feels.

I had a girl named lucy
Super smart, hugely beautiful and clever. Way out of my league and that's the only reason I let her go.

I'll never get over it. Like a beta faggot.


Perhaps when the thought of her with her current "boyfriend" subsides a little. Maybe try and rekindle that flame?

>>727994756
There's tons of guitarists that would move thousands of people given a setting to do so. Musicians you'd probably love, but they don't stand out of the crowd for several reasons. Art is subjective, and the Hivemind will always have trends that fuel what's considered desirable. Talent is still not a thing, and being skilled is not a factor to become well known, famous, or even legendary. Skills come from practice, you've simply stated that people become known because they are subjectively good, something that you somehow implies they have talent. You haven't in any way shown that talent exists, you simply assume it exists because there are subjectively good musicians, or that they are famous, which isn't even related to objective skill.

>>727997400
i don't even know. i just think about stepping into traffic on my walk to work on the days i can actually go. i don't want to have to deal with any of this shit anymore but the only way to get out of this shithole is to deal with things til i have the money

>>727997684
Also to back you up here.

If his friend is so good. Why can't his recordings move people?

Answer. Because he's shit. You can move people with a telephone mic if you have practiced you're craft and developed your skills

>>727997722
Then it's good you're talking. You know inside somewhere you need and deserve the help.

And it's true. You do.

Don't do it faggot. Think of the poor traffic, the cops and medics and technicians that have to handle your meat sack when you are gone.

Also your family would probably be hella sad.

When you're dead you wouldn't care. Obviously.
But fixating on these potential outcomes isn't actively trying to make your life more positive right now.

If you are not working actively for yourself. Then yes everyone is against you. Including yourself.


Keep going anon. Chin up, keep a strong back and work hard until you can't.
Kill your self when your body has nothing left to give. You have movement, use it. Communication skills and access, employ that shit.

what do you do for work?

>>727998563
the only thing that stops me from killing myself is that i still care about my gf and one of my sisters. i always seem to care way more about other people than they do about me. every time i try to actively work for myself it'll last anywhere from a few hours to a few weeks and then i'm right back where i was. i'm pretty much at the point where i can't work. in the past 3 months i've gone in to work maybe 30-40 days out of 70 something. my communication skills are pretty much non existent because of the assburgers. i'm a shoe salesman at a small family owned store. my co workers are 60+ years old and always at each others throats

>>727985654
https://discord.gg/PVmXUtx come talk anons

wanted go out with some friends today some shitty excuse happened. it seems like everyone is avoiding me. im too old for this shit dude.kinda bumbed because i was looking forward to it. ive been stuck here at the house for 3 months now.

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welp guess i took too long to respond. thanks assburgers