Feels thread. Come in, talk about the shit that's got

>>724404480
Well hey, anon.

>>724404725
Evening. Hope you're feeling well.

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Oh, another one of these?

Always dreamt of going on a big ol' roadtrip in a RV with some of my friends. Traveling across America seeing whatever we could. Exploring the world while we were young.

They all died in a car crash a few weeks ago, and I don't know how to feel. I want to feel angry, but I can't. I want to feel sad, but it hurts too much. What do I do, anons?

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>>724404480
>>724404725
>>724405078
>>724405238
I just miss her.

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>>724405739
nice feet

>>724405238
Implying there aren't multiple porn, s/fur/, and cringey draw threads going on right now.

Kill yourself, faggot.

>>72440578>>724405765
>>724405739
I think you have the wrong thread.

>>724404480
I'm really fucking self conscious about how skinny I am, and I'm mega paranoid that I'm going to get beat up. I'm afraid I'm not good enough, or manly enough. I'm 5'8, and 130 lbs. I keep working out as frequently as I can, but I'm still not fucking certain it's even enough.

>>724405691
Do what you're doing now, talk about it
Why would you be angry? At them, yourself, the driver?
What's done is done, we just have to cope as best we can

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>>724405710
We all miss someone, some are more missed than others of course. But we have to move on, and get through the conflict and mess that the leaving created. Internal, or external conflict, whatever it is.

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>>724404480
thanks for the test

>>724405972
Not myself, and I can't be mad at the driver since it wasn't their fault. Plus, they also died in the crash. I've just been coping by either ignoring it, listening to music, playing games etc etc. Sadly, I decided to pick up a few emotional games that i didn't expect to be emotional. Now I'm even more depressed.

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Why wasn't I good enough for her...

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>>724405961
Not really such a thing as "manly enough"...People like to define how certain genders should be and what roles they will play in society and day to day life, but there's isn't a right way to be man or a woman. You're perfect the way you are. No matter what anyone says.

Hows everyone doing? I am open to talking whatever is on your mind let it out...

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>>724406519
Do you think you have OCD?

>>724407014
I was diagnosed with it, ADD, depression, and mild autism.

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>>724407271
Oh, sorry to hear that anon. Hope your depression goes away

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>>724406619
You were good enough. It's just that she wasn't good enough to handle you. And that's not your fault.

>>724407271
Don't let that stop you from doing great things, you have the potential no matter what afflictions and flaws you have.

>>724406698
what if I want to be a girl and im stuck in this manly shitshow of a body
am I still "perfect?"
body acceptance only really works if the person is somewhat attractive in the first place

Physically am very attracted to Women but can't stand most of them, hard to hold a Conversation with 90% of them, and honestly am intimidated by the hot ones also fat chicks are gross as fuck but usually have decent personalities and give great head but would never date one Have had sex with men and really didnt like it but get along better with them I'm a dude FYI

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I have gender dysphoria and I've been seeing a psychologist recently after I had way too much alcohol and came pretty close to dying. My parents don't trust me, I'm falling behind in my studies and I have suicidal thoughts every day because I hate my body (largely related to gender dysphoria).

My concentration span is all but gone and I can't even find joy in games anymore.

Psychologist says I'm depressed and anxious as fuck (1st percentile and 0.3rd percentile respectively) and I need to start taking medication.

what do?

>>724406698
You are absolutely a godsend. Thanks so much, that legitimately means a lot. May all your dreams come true. :)

I feel so lonely, left the country to go work came back.and all my friends moved on and havnt spoken to any of them in months.
Its so hard to socialise with people you don't know, I hear a lot of "get a hobby" and shit like that bullshit works, only ppl I talk to are online and that doesn't seem to make me happy, not much does these days.

>>724407477
>>724407504
Thanks guys.

I already found a way to combat OCD, so it doesn't affect me much anymore.

I'm not so sure about the depression, and I've figured out ways to control my ADD.

>>724405961
Hey anon, I'm 5"11 and 130. No reason to be self conscious. It's rare you'll be in a situation of such conflict. Just find yourself a good girl that likes skinny dudes

>>724406698
Those r very pretty words but we both know.in reality its not like that if you're a fat old fuck tryna pass off as a girl because that's what you identify as, you're not perfect, you're delusionally. Society dictates what's perfect not the individual.

>>724408026
Conversion therapy. If you knew about Jesus then maybe you wouldn't be having fantasies of being something you're not and something that's actually real.

>>724407477
>>724407504
Thanks guys.

I already found a way to combat OCD, so it doesn't affect me much anymore.

I'm not so sure about the depression, and I've figured out ways to control my ADD.

I wish both of you the best as well.

>>724408026
hey anon. in pretty much the exact same boat. tonight im planning on becoming an hero and came on here to see if theres any threads to talk about this stuff.
lets help one another

>>724408402
>>724408720
Shit double-post with my VPN.

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I'm stuck playing pac-12 football, when I could be enjoying life rather than paying for school as a walk-on and constantly trying to prove myself for a scholarship, should I just give up?

I don't understand why ppl who identify as another sex don't try medicine first, the suicide rate for ppl who go thru operations or any form of sex change is staggering, there's clearly something wrong and more than "I was born in the wrong body" kinda meme.

>>724408728
Alright, I know you said it's similar but start by explaining your situation

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I'm horrible /b/.

Why does the rug always get pulled when I just start to get my feet under me no matter what I do?

Why can't I be as happy as the other people I see?

I'm sorry I don't have a job, I'm sorry no one wants to hire me, I'm honestly trying as hard as I can, I'm not a bad person.

How do I win?

>>724408679
Conversion therapy is bullshit

>>724409021
Wow Anon, I don't post pictures of you online

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>>724408026
Try the pills, see if they help you. I hope it works out

>>724409021
Why?

Some of you all have it worse off than I do. I have crippling social anxiety, and Im not sure what to do about it. I think there are pills you can take for it, but Im not sure they work. Thoughts? Should I go to the doctor? Anyone in a similar situation?

>>724409026
Stop playing victim or blaming fate, odds are you know what you're doing wrong and why things are going bad and are choosing to build something else as the source of your problems to excuse yourself from reality.

Can I get some advice/b/? I'm really about to lose it

>>724409367
Ask away friend

>>724409367
Go for it

>>724409367
Go for it. Ill try my best

>>724407611
Really need some advice guys

>>724408992
i blacked out last week for 3 days, still unsure why, i get severe panic attacks / anxiety. anywho during this time i punched my girlfriend in the face and was in police custody for 2 nights. i cannot deal with the shame and guilt. i love her so much and ive caused so much pain. ive been thinking about becoming an hero for a few days and tonight i'm going to do it. I cant bear the thought of living with myself.

I wish I was dead all the time.

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Sometimes the feels are too real. I don't get what's going on inside of my head some nights.

>>724407611
>>724409586

Sorry didnt see yours.

What cant you stand about most women? If you can approach the ugly-mediocre ones you can approach the hot ones. Rejection is feared too much. Just go for it and if they say no say "Ok sorry to bother you" and move on. Easier said than done, but do it once and youll be able to do it all the time.

>>724409676
I can't help but shrug this feeling off most days.

>>724409367
Only if you'll consider being my friend.

>>724409622
Fuck, that's not very good. How does she feel about it?

When I got fucked up on alcohol one of my friends called paramedics on me. The paramedics decided that it may have been a suicide attempt and called the police.

Before I knew it I was laying in my bed surrounded by a crying mother, paramedics and police with body armor and guns. Not a very fun night.

Since then my life has been even more fucked up than usual.

>>724409998
Also almost quads

>>724409026
This may be easier said than done, but the key is to persist through failure without beating yourself up about it. If you can find a way to make yourself not give a shit but still maintain your drive, you will inevitably be successful.

>>724409891
Really just the fact that I've never came across a girl, even that I'm somewhat attracted to, that I connect with Im genuinely am attracted to women But don't feel judged or awkward around you guys. I've been on both sides of the Spectrum and prefer women really, I have shit self-esteem I guess

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>>724404480
Fuck...

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>>724404480
could be worse I guess

>>724409998
Must feel good. It's all consuming some days. Other days I'm lucky to only feel it for a few hours.

Has been 5 years i'm in love with someone but i don't even know this person name or how it looks like for security reasons....This person may get in real trouble if tells me who is or where leaves....Has been 2 years since the person cut contact with me to protect me but i can't forget or stop loving this person..That's killing me :(

>>724410351
>I have shit self-esteem I guess

Yeah me too. As cliche and typical as this response is, keep searching. Youre lucky you dont feel judged around everyone. Theres a girl for you anon, and I hope you find her. Its really all about timing

>>724410093
shit man, that blows. my gf called the CAT team on me about 6 months ago as i was verging on suicide due to anxiety (crisis assesment team. basically they have the right to take away all your rights and make sure you are safe).

How much alcohol dd you have to consume to become so sick people called paramedics? i thought you would have to drink a huge amount ot actually die

>>724410400
It's the single thought that keeps playing in my head at anytime. I really at the whole I have blah blah blah shit, but when I was a kid I got diagnosed with major depression disorder, through lots of therapy it was discovered I was abused as a kid, physically, mentally, sexually. I know there's more I blocked out, but I don't have any desire to dig deeper. I just want to kill myself.

>>724410093
also sorry if i respond slowly, im not going anywhere

>>724410606
Thank you man Really, whoever said Conversation therapy doesn't work, obviously hasn't tried it

1 year ago I meet a girl in a school project. I wasn't interested in her at all, but with the pass of time,We started to create a bond, that changed my feelings towards her.
One day a friend tells me that the friend of the girl told him that she was in love with one of us, And the one thing she loved of this "guy" was the way she talked with him. I was the only guy that talked to her things outside of school projects so I assumed that this "guy" was me. Cont? (Its a really shitty story so be ready to be dissapointed)

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Hi b, I got HPV from either my ex or a 1 night stand I had (first and only call me mr luck ) I'm dealing with the fact of my dick becoming a fucking sprout and knowing that because I am who I am, I would never want to spread this disease. Meaning I will end up alone and die alone. I'm planning on an heroing when my mother passes away. I can't get the suicide thoughts out b. I fucking hate myself for being born with 0 luck. It's like every time something moldy good happens to me, a shitstorm of bad things come along with it. At least I'm drug clean for 2 months now. Feels bad man

>>724410792
sure, go ahead

>>724410749
Glad I can help. Just keep your head up and when around a girl you might like try and be positive, and optimistic about yourself. A lot of girls arent as bad as you think once you get to know them.

https://discord.gg/AQxCN

If somebody just wants to talk about anything, we have a channel for that and we're cool people.

dont be alone anon

>>724410695
Keep in mind I'm smaller than the average adult and have fuck all muscle mass, I had about 12 standard drinks in less than an hour

>>724410863
>in relationship
>has fling
>gets potato sprout dick
sounds like God punishing you for your dgeneracy

When I was younger I was closer to a relationship than I've ever been. I was flunking college and as I was feeling sorry for myself, crying about shit, a woman knocked on my door. I immediately dried my eyes and asked if she needed help, as she was crying as well. She said her mom was hospitalized and her friend, my neighbour, wasn't home so she needed $20 to help buy a bus ticket to see her. I said she could wait in my apartment and I went outside. We had a bad snowstorm in Ottawa at the time, so I had to hop over several snowbanks or trudge through it. I came back and gave her a twenty. She thanked me and asked if I was available for dinner sometime. Naturally I said yes.

But I fucked it up. I got sick and couldn't make our date. Later on she asked if she could pay me back and I said "You don't have to". The last time I saw her she said "You always say that" with an annoyed face. We lived in the same building so I feel like I scared her away.

Why is it I constantly feel like B is the only place I connect with people? I mean, how horrible is suicide, honestly? I just wonder what it would be like to be free from the constant burden.

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>>724410863
A smaller percentage of the population is homosexual

>>724410906
I've dated probably around 6 or 7 girls that I was attracted to but when it came to the "I love you" phase I just said it because they did I feel a stronger bond with my two good friends (not in a romantic way) just lonely and need companionship and sex I'm having a hard time explaining myself

>>724411086
wow that is alot. ive been drinking to ease anxiety for a while now, do you find that helps?

I need to forget my entire life B, how do I do it?

>>724411105
I wasn't in the relationship anymore
>implying God is real

>>724411320
You shouldnt just say because they are. I see why you do it, but that doesnt mean you should do it. It really sucks to be in that situation and I know how you feel. Im not sure how you meat girls but always diversify your ways of doing so.

>>724411477
Nobody deserves that anon my buddy has it and they froze the warts off haven't talked to him in a while but he's engaged happily and has a daughter

>>724410792
Cont...
I started planing a place to invite her, i couldn't sleep for 1 week. Finally i find a place And work for money to invite her. ( I see her like 1 time per week) the day finally comes, she doesn't appear, so I told her friend to tell her my invitation from her phone, she asks her, (no response) so she gives me her phone number,
1 day later I text her and ask if she wanted to go with me to (not relevant) and she makes a Jigsaw of words just to say, "you are not the guy i am in love, so No"
FUCK MY LIFE.JPG
Now with the money i earned I bought one bucket of ice cream

>>724411175
It isn't horrible, it just has horrible publicity. People need to be able to talk about suicide without being shamed for it. The majority of people will try to talk about your suicide and make it their problem.

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I can't take loneliness anymore.
I either keep making the same stupid mistakes or worse, do nothing at all.
I feel like after all this, I deserve *some* happiness.
I don't remember the last time I had "a nice day".
I feel like I am different and I don't know how. I refuse to think that I can't warm up to people because I'm smarter than them. If I'm truly smarter than them, why are they happy and I'm not? How do they win and I lose?
I want to change but I cannot, faking it makes it worse. They eventually realize you're different.
All the people I once trusted and loved are far away. Now all my *friends* feel fake. None of their laughter, words or movements feel real. It's not even a good fake. In a theater every character is fake but at least try to become real and sometimes become better than what's real. These people, it feels like they don't even try.
Every once in a month I get an opportunity to make things right. Find a girl smiling at me at a party for example. Yet when it's the time to make a move, I freeze. It hurts so much to know that happiness is there, waiting for me to reach, yet I choose this hell instead.
What's wrong with me.

>>724411390
I can't just drink casually really since I have to take it from my parents. Anxiety actually isn't that big of an issue for me as far as dealing with people, I think my results with the psychologist were probably affected by taking the test very shortly after the police incident.

My main issues are probably gender dysphoria and just general depression. Alcohol does help with that sometimes by just allowing me to forget about it all for a while, ignore how much I hate my body and who I am and just laugh at shit for a few hours.

That being said, I'm no stranger to taking it too far and putting myself in dangerous positions (police incident was the worst it's ever gotten though).

Do I have to complain about a girl to get someone to respond to me?

>>724411776
I also live in a small town in KY so there's slim pickings I felt like shit saying it and not meaning it

>>724412011
No, but it helps.

>>724412023
Yeah thats what I assumed. How small exactly?

I'm in high school, and I'm really into this girl, who also happens to be one of my friends. She acts pretty flirty to me alot of the time, and for a while I actually got it into my head that she might even like me a bit too, but I recently found out she is in a somewhat secret relationship with one of her redneck country friends that she has known since she was a kid. We're still friends and everything, but I'm felling pretty down. I was planning on asking her to prom, but that plan's shot.

>>724412178
Not as small as I'm making it out to be but small enough.

>>724410351
https://youtu.be/2FMccwa-0vA?t=6m37s

>>724412456
Ahh ok, well I hope you find your girl, because most likely she's looking for you.

>>724412866
Thanks dude. Appreciate it

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I'm becoming something that I hate and I don't know what to call it. I guess a manchild is the closest thing.

Every time I visit my friends in my hometown it seems like I have less and less in common with them and I don't know what to do about it.
I've started drinking myself sick, and I've been feeling an overwhelming sense of loneliness for the past month. It's hard because, for whatever reason, up until February I've been the kind of person who wants to love them self before anyone else, but I'm falling into a spiral of self hatred and disgust.

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Ive been talking to this girl for about a week and a half now, but I dont know if shes into me or if shes just being really friendly to me/pitying me. Its really fucking with me because I really enjoy talking to this girl but I just dont know what her feelings are towards me. I am afraid to ask because I feel she would just ghost me if I came out and told her. Unfortunately shes the only person in my life, while I am not the only person in hers

>>724411999
im really sorry to hear about the dysphoria, i know its cliched to say but i cant imagine it would be an easy thing to live with.
Are you on SSRIs or other meds?

>>724413030
No problem. Im glad to help

>>724413034
You sound more like a drunk than a manchild.

It happens, sometimes it happens to the best of people. If you have no one to talk to, if you hold your emotions in you drink to let it all out. I feel the same way in some respects. I don't express myself, not unless I'm drinking. I feel weak if I am sad.

>>724413303
>shes the only person in my life
no idea what your life situation is:

from someone who's been there, try your best to fix that

find any way to meet new people and practice it as much as you can

if not girls, at least you'll probably end up with some cool friends

>>724411192
out of closet homos are 2% HPV is 15% but only sluts carry STDs.

Lost my best friend about a year ago after I gave someome her name. Don't really feel bad about it any more as I liked her more than a friend and she was in a 4 year relationship.

I've been trying to buy a commission from my favorite internet musical composer, but I haven't heard back. I think he might be dead.

Girl I love is now dating some guy. She says he's a great guy who values her and is intelligent. I am worried she's going to marry him because she's in her mid 20s. Idk what to do or how to react, I'm just miserable knowing this girl who is perfect for me is dating someone else.

>>724411965
>What's wrong with me.
probably low self esteem
sounds like you have no confidence with women.
not necessaraly a prblem with you but a problem with experience. lots of people start out with no game at all and become players.
talking to a girl doesn't have to be any different than a normal conversation if you overcome anxiety of speeking to people which to a certain extent is natural to have. most people fear public speaking for instance, same shit imo. can be overcome. no game guys can get game if they try and research into it. pickup culture is real insofar as it will get you layed.

>>724413321
No I'm not taking anything at the moment. I know that to most people it sounds like a stupid thing to get bothered over because most people are lucky enough to be happy with their biological sex and can't really relate at all.

It's honestly horrible though, I have suicidal thoughts every hour because something as simple as talking to a female is enough to remind me of how far I am from my goals.

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>>724413524
I'm a sophomore in college right now. I have only like one friend, and im a khv I just want to feel loved I guess. This girl has been the closest ive got to that in my whole life

Im usually able to ignore the loneliness and feelings of social un-worth, but a couple of things have happened lately that I cant get out of my head, just a couple of things people have said after a faux pas

How do I ignore the things that run through my head all day?

I've got a bit of a negative memory that I've been recalling a lot recently. No idea why.

>8th grade, small school
>nerd, loved vidya, acted quirky, thought it was a nice trait
>smart and helpful, almost to the point where the dumb students would take advantage of me to do their work
>wasn't popular, but classmates liked me
>...at least, I thought they did.

>homeroom class does assigned seating, and at the end of each month, it gets changed up
>new month, new seating arrangements
>a 5x5 row of boxes is drawn on the whiteboard at the front of the room, one box for each student in the homeroom, each box representing a desk
>teacher draws names out of a hat to determine order of who chooses their spots (first name drawn gets first choice, etc.)
>as shit luck would have it, my name was drawn second-last, so only two spots to choose from, each on opposite sides of the classroom
>I approach the whiteboard and prepare to write my name in the empty box on the right side of the board, behind my middle school crush, since I figure I might be able to talk to her a little more
>then a voice shouts out
"Come on, don't sit here! Sit over there!"
>it was the class douche. if I chose the spot behind my crush, I'd be sitting next to him.
>figure I'd toss him a bone and sit at the other open seat, because don't really want anyone mad at me
>then a couple of other students, who would be sitting on the left, piped up, telling me to go sit on the right side of the room

Too long, continuing...

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>soon enough, room begins to erupt in a shouting match, with students on each side of the room pushing me toward the other side
>even crush was getting involved, shouting at me to sit at the empty desk farthest away from her
>teacher just stands there
>goes on for about 30 seconds, feels like an eternity
>eventually break down crying, right there in the front of the room
>teacher gets up and marks my name where I originally intended to put it - behind crush and next to douche
>I go to sit down there and say hi to crush
> she just looks at me with disgust before turning around

I thought I was at least tolerated by them. Doesn't matter much now, went to a different high school than all of my middle school "friends", but it still hurts to think about this. HS senior now, graduating in 3 months with flying colors, and for some reason, this fucking memory keeps popping back into my head. Worst thing is that those fucks ruined me socially. Don't know if I can trust anyone now, because I'm not sure if a person really likes me as a friend or if they're just toying with me

>>724413885
You'll pull through. Seems to happen to 90% of men in my family. They fall for someone who fucks them over to 10-15 years and then they divorce, not remarrying until their 50's with someone who isn't going to sneek off with someone else.

>>724414060
:(

college, but freshman

big college? any clubs?

>>724413984
most people get over their "gender dysphora".
whether or not its a legitament thing what do you think about the fact that statistically you are unlikely to feel like a woman into your adulthood?

>>724413885
If you truly loved her you'd allow her to marry whoever makes her smile, you may love her but if she doesn't love you then to truly love her and wish the best for her you'd allow her to see and date who she pleases. Just be her friend.

How is everyone doing? I am up for a good conversation so hit me with what you got.

>not feeling connected with the universe at all times
Get out in nature, take the shroom and meditate.
Be present, be now.

>>724414559
It scares me, it's part of my self identity at this point. The thought of being in any way masculine kind of disgusts me at the moment and I think I would rather die than eventually end up like that.

Have really bad depression. Am not working, waiting for disability. Everyday I just feel so hollow and wish things could be different.

>>724414082
meditation frees you from your own bullshit. its a solid solution to the problem you describe.

>>724413984
fuck i accidentally closed my browser and i lost my giant response haha.
tl;rd thats pretty shitty what youre going through. are your parents supportive?

>>724410488
Story?

>>724414883
Sitting in your own filth won't help you trust me. I've done it before months at a time. Nothing quite beat like not showering for a month at a time and starving yourself. Jokes aside you may wish to change up your living condition.
-4 years, 2 attempts.

>>724414869
that is interesting, rather die than change a label you apply to yourself, even if that change of label reflects your genuine desires?

what holds you so fast to this small part of all of the details which might be said about you. why does it matter so much to you?

>>724414914
I haven't told my Dad because he would fucking kill me and has a tendency to get very angry very quickly.

I've told my Mum but somewhat regret it, she's supportive but she should rather I wasn't the way I am which I guess is reasonable.

>>724411151
Just go and talk to her?
Tell her she can buy you lunch if it means that much.
Go somewhere cheap yet not shit like a Thai place.
If she declines then fuck it. Peace of mind.

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A few months ago I came inside my sister in law. We've been having an affair for awhile and her and her husband had been trying to get pregnant with no luck.

The condom broke and when the test came back she was just like "Fuck it, it's probably yours but we'll pretend like it's my husbands. I want a kid and I won't tell if you don't."

At first I was kinda pissed at her but now I'm thinking about what the rest of our lives are going to be like. Every time I see my kid I'm going to know that I can never truly be their father.

I'm not sad about it. That was some fantastic pussy and now the cuck is raising my kid like his own. It's a win-win. And as long as she's present I can cum in her whenever I want. Stay depressed you weird little faggots.

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when i was young my friends and i used to ''play'' the choking game, some days ago i remembered how fast it was to lose consciousness.
I hope hanging myself will be as easy as that old game.

>>724414102
>>724414211
your mind plays back shit you are insecure about. cognitive dissonance. introspect and try to understand what ideas/parts of your own worldview are dissonant.

>>724411394
Get shitty job. Save around 2-3 grand. Say fuck you to your shitty town and fake friends and move somewhere no one knows you. Start from scratch.
At least that is what I did. It's worked out well.

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>>724404480
i can't never get them dubs op
what do?

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>>724406519
with ya bud

>>724415231
The actual label is only somewhat important to me. When people refer to me as a male it doesn't usually bother me. That being said, the way that males act, are expected to act, and appear physically does not appeal to me at all as something I would want for myself.

It's really quite a difficult thing to explain as to why it matters to much, and why, even if I changed my mind about wanting to be female, I would not want to live that way.

I guess it's largely to do with disgust, embarrassment and a loss of personal identity.

>>724415833
fair enough. i do not doubt that your experience is genuine. i just don't understand it very well, i get the fetish, i do, but i don't get it beond a sexual context, personally.

>>724404480
Link to the site?

>>724415412
This was nearly 10 years ago. I actually had that in mind, 'you can take care of the tip'.

But she never answered her door. I assumed her mom took the turn for the worst.

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>>724415416
Hey Faggots,
My name is John, and I hate every single one of you. All of you are fat, retarded, no-lifes who spend every second of their day looking at stupid ass pictures. You are everything bad in the world. Honestly, have any of you ever gotten any pussy? I mean, I guess it’s fun making fun of people because of your own insecurities, but you all take to a whole new level. This is even worse than jerking off to pictures on facebook.
Don’t be a stranger. Just hit me with your best shot. I’m pretty much perfect. I was captain of the football team, and starter on my basketball team. What sports do you play, other than “jack off to naked drawn Japanese people”? I also get straight A’s, and have a banging hot girlfriend (She just blew me; Shit was SO cash). You are all faggots who should just kill yourselves. Thanks for listening.
Pic Related: It’s me and my bitch

I feel lost and I don't care any more. I used to dream of getting lost when I was younger, just being lost in general but now I hate all dreams for I feel lost. I don't know what to do with myself, but all I can do is feel lost I feel and feel that as I am lost I have to act lost and so here I am not acting lost but as lost as I am. I don't know what I want any more, I still dream of being lost, I think. I just wish I didn't need to talk to any one, all people ever do is hit me over the head for being so lost. As if that ever helps. So I feel more lost? Where do I go to find where I am? On a map but I can't read and my eyes are crooked. Even if I do figure out where I am I lose myself to where I need to be to be where I am going and so I just feel lost. Like there's nothing more to me than this lost self and so I act this way but I don't know but I think it's beginning to kill me. I don't think I'm actually dying, I don't think I am actually lost but I act that way. So I must atleast feel that way, but that doesn't mean anything but no one seems to care that makes it even more valuable. I mean, I get that they do but I am so lost that I can't even find my way to another person. I don't know what to do any more because now my mind feels like it's trying to cover as much ground as possible and it's tearing me apart. It feels that way atleast, am I in pain? No one seems to see, or to care - but which is worse and what am I avoiding by asking?

But that's what I mean, I'm lost and I don't know what to do.

>>724412333
Just ask her. Who knows how serious they are especially in high school. Fuck i high school I remember everyone half dated someone and it was never serious.
If it doesn't pan out then just stop being friends with her. No need to have that type weight and reminder on your shoulders. Maybe she might even miss you. Have some balls anon.

>>724416035
It's fine, not many people do, it's kind of one of those things where you have to experience it to truly understand it.

>>724415355
telling yourself that her opinion is reasonable is not the best train of thought.
If you dont mind me asking, how old are you? you said you get alcohol from your parents so im gguessing under 21? assuming youre american.
Im Aussie, and 22 fyi

>>724415526
hello anon. after alot of research i found that hanging is not a nice way to go. there are other more pleasant ways apparently

>>724413668
Story?

>>724404480
She's coming back this summer. She likes me, or at least, liked me. I'm a fucking nobody with a shitty, dirty apartment and a literally dead-end job. I've never been to college despite having every opportunity. I don't even have a driver's license. I don't know what the everloving fuck she saw in me, but I can't help but hope she still does.

Even if she does, there is no good ending for this relationship.

>>724416535
I'm also Aussie, and all I can say is less than 21

>>724416677
tell me about it, i don't need some complicated or terrifying way, no guns either because living in naziland.

>>724416139
This does not seem like the whole story then. What is really wrong? Are you a NEET?

>>724417085
I was in college at the time. I found work later on but I always was alone. The thing wrong is probably with me, deep down.

>>724416827
fair enough friend. do you have many friends that support you? i want to help :(

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>>724408954
no go on

>>724410351
I feel ya man

>>724414696
I'll bite
I was not too long ago like many of these anons. Hopelessly in love with a girl for many years. Never even gotten close to feeling the same way about anyone. She came in and out of my life for five years and I ended up ruining it on purpose each time.
Drove myself into a depression. Depression led to drug dependence. Dependence led to flunking out of college.
Decided to work and save money and start life from scratch 2000 miles away. Worked my ass off in new place now I'm a top uni full ride, have many people who care for me, and am out of my depression.
However, I would not say I'm happy just not sad. More satisfied. Do you think I'm actually out of my depression or it will end up coming back if I do not get help.

>Long-distance relationship
>She's getting depressed because we can't see each other thar often
>Says she loves me and really wants to be together
>But unsure
>Confusedaf.jpg
>Legitimately cried for half hour
>Thinking of moving to her
>Scary.png
>Seeing her again in 3 weeks

Help. I love this girl more than anything in the world, but I don't know how to alleviate her concerns and I'm scared I'll lose her.

>>724417427
The blame always lies with you anon. Learn that before you run out of people to blame.
Go back to college? I failed out too and in two years time I buckled down and was able to get into a top 10 nationally ranked uni.

>>724417646
We could talk online or whatever if you don't kill yourself. As of this year and late last year I am lucky enough to have some friends who support me but in general my friendships with them have been weakened recently because I've isolated myself a little bit and some of them seem to think that I have bad motives.

Would you like to talk online? If so how?

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"Overcoming Depression"

>>724408317
Get a doge and you will gain a friend for life

>>724418132
Why are you apart?
Nothing you can do to alleviate each others' doubts or feeling. Even the most rational argument pales to what someone irrationally feels. You have to actually do something. If she is worth it move to her or her to you.

>>724418186
I always knew she could never love me. I just had the self depreciation that things suck but I would eventually find my way out of it.

>>724418685
Thinks do suck but you can find your way out. All it takes is effort. Fuck her and change what you actually have control over.

>be me 14
>I had a widowed grandpa
>he always invited my family and my Aunt's family over for dinner every night
>he always got us the best Christmas presents, celebrated everyone's birthday and hid eggs during easter
>he bought a pool and built a swingset just for me, my siblings and my cousins
>he always understood everyone's problems and told us great stories of when he fought in the war
>as we started getting older we all started growing further away
>he would still invite us over for dinner and we would all make excuses of why we couldn't make it
>fast forward to Christmas 2006
>be 18 at the time
>grandpa invites everyone over to open presents
>only 5 out of 25 people show up
>Me, my brother, my Aunt's husband, and my 2 cousins
>grandpa was looking really sad but still tried his best to sound happy
>after spending all day with him I was the last one with him
>I helped him clean up and told him thanks for this
>he wanted me to stay so he can show me this new computer game he got (it was a apache helicopter game)
>I told him I was busy and left
>the next week he invited everyone for dinner but no one showed up
>the next week he invited everyone again but no one showed
>the week after that he wasn't answering anyone's calls
>we all thought he was just upset
>the next week we went to his house and when we opened the door a foul smell was coming from the dining room
>it was dinner from last week
>we found him in his bed with tears caked on his face, a bottle of pills, a glass of water and a picture of the family in his hands
>the autopsy showed that he overdosed on sleeping pills
>I've never cried so hard in my life and I've felt like a piece of shit ever since
>feelsbadman

>>724408578
>5"11 and 130

Did you just escape from Auschwitz?

>>724419556
end your life you piece of shit anon

>>724419556
Wow, that really fucking sucks Anon

>>724417042
http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods

>>724418934
I still can't help but feel that I should kill myself.

>>724419556
holy fuck

>>724420367
Well if you can't help yourself then maybe you should.
Not being an ass but sometimes some people just can't survive in this shit world. It is not like the movies. Life will more times than not not just fall into place for you. Sometimes you just have accept that you lost.

I have some oxycodone left over from wisdom tooth surgery. Would that make it easier to hang myself?

>>724408026
Whatever you do, don't "convert". Around 40% of people who've converted immediately had regrets about it, and once you chop your dick off, that's it you're not getting it back. Try out the anxiety/depression meds your psychologist suggested.

>>724421585
Can't hurt. From what I understand hanging is pretty quick. More about breaking your neck rather than choking out.

>>724421654
In my country you can't just "do it". The psychologist I spoke to said that there were many steps along the way including stuff like hormone and blood checks, psychiatrist visits, starting at less extreme and more reversible things like voice therapy and hormone blockers and a few other things to try to reduce the chance of you regretting it.

But yeah, I'm taking it as slow as I can. The only problem is that every day I get further from what I would like to be, especially my jaw has been making me uncomfortable recently since it's starting to look quite "square" and masculine.

Hey dudes, I'm caught in a circle in life. It's always the same shit, I work my ass off all week 7-3 come home usually get bitched at for something I didn't do or some shit. Go to my room and relax for a while, 6 I go eat dinner then shower it's about 8 then I pass out. Then it's the weekend I usually do nothing or hang out with friends and every time we hang out it's the same shit go get food and chill at someone's house. Talk about the same shit nothing new. I don't like this job anyway but it's a career job so I have to put up with it, not a lot of people to talk to but I like keeping to myself. I wanna start drinking but I'm not 21 yeah I know "anon you don't gotta be 21 to drink" but I'm all out of booze at my house and don't feel like looking for a plug. This is probably not making any sense but I'm just rambling. This lady friend is bitching at me 24/7 now we're not even fucking dating and she acts like its a relationship but I think it's coming to a end so that's cool I guess she was a whale anyway. My family is so toxic for eachother I keep thinking about moving out and that makes me a little happy. Fuck man I've been so busy with work I haven't even thought about this shit, I'm not living /b/ I'm just going

>>724422441
Save money. Move to a new place. Start a new life. Even if you have to live with roommate they will generally keep to themselves and you'll likely be living with someone who is old enough to buy you alcohol.
Live anon otherwise you are just trudging along because you fear death more than giving up.

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Not the worst but still pretty bad

Well I guess I'll tell you faggots about my life:
>Born with a tumor, first operation was when I was 1
>rheumatoid arthritis from the age of 3
>spent most of my childhood in a hospital
>Never learnt to socialize
>No friends
>No life goals
>Everywhere I look, even if it's a painting with bright colors, it seems grey-ish
>My whole life is in this grey-ish bullshit
>Nothing seems to work the way it's intended
>Family hates me
>The only redeeming factor why would anyone want to even talk to me is the fact that I live in a sorta big flat and can throw a party since the neighbours aren't pricks
>All my 'friends' only ever hang out with me because of that

>>724423014
I don't really fear death I just go on because I have have to

night /b

>>724423937
You don't have to do anything.
You were not brought her to fulfill some prophecy, lead some legacy, you likely were no born into greatness, or have some divine expectation placed upon you. You like most of us sort of just appear without having a say in the matter.
That said it is my belief that to choose to go on you need some reason. Some make families and that is their reason. I don't know. I could be wrong but people that just let themselves get stuck in life, do not see a happy ending or do not want to even try to get one are just too scared of death to admit they have no reason to live and just take things into their own hand.

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>>724404480
I enlisted in the military so I could find out what I wanted to do with my life. Well, just a month in, I realized that I just wanted to live by friends and family, I don't care what job I work as long as I see them.

Now I'm here for four and a half more years, unable to see my family any time soon.

Also, I haven't had a girlfriend since Sophmore year of Highschool. Feels bad.

>>724406394
>>724406519
>>724410363
GIVE ME A LINK NOW YOU COCK GOBBLERS

>>724425369
I get what you're saying, this just sounds dumb but I'm just living long enough to get some kind of cancer from smoking or alcohol poisoning, I don't want to commit suicide cause I don't want to put my family through that shit they lost their last born I don't see the point of them losing their first born so early.

>>724426058
https://www.7cups.com/free-emotional-wellness-test/

Hi /b/ros

Finally a feels thread. Here I go:

I have a girlfriend, we have been together for five months, and I don't want to be with her anymore, but I'm still with her because my psycologist told me to, he says it will help me mature, we'll break up eventually when we leave separatedly for a study abroad program.

I stopped taling care of myself when I started dating her. I really didn't want a girlfriend, I just wanted company, and I didn't know her well. It's one of those consuming relationships, I don't know if she loves me or needs me.

I learned to care, but not to love her. I lost myself while dating her. I am now an insecure person, I'm jealous and I hate her past, she has kissed with over 30 guys and I can't stand it, she was a whore but miraculously she was a virgin, and she lost it with me (that I can assure, she was a virgin), so this is like her first serious relationship, and it's not that bad, she cares about me and is a good girlfriend most of the time, with her, but her defects, man, she's narcissistic, spoiled, controlling, also, it's hard trying to engage in deep conversations, I feel like I can't talk, I can't express who I am because I feel like she'll never get me (my thoughts and way of seeing the world, in a deep way, a way that happens to be beyond that shallowness that is so her), never.

I lost myself, now I'm taking care of me and honestly, I don't give a fuck if she breaks up with me, sometimes I wish that would happen, but again, the therapy stuff, which I get, I know it'll help me lower my ego and take this as something that will help me grow.

So I'll stay with her until a little bit before summer, around may, when classes are over and she returns to her home for summer, because I leaveon august.

Always ger to know the person first, bros, always. I come to learn this a kind of a hard way, kind of, because, like I said, it's not that bad, I get to enjoy it, but she's definitely not whom I want to spent the rest of my life with.