Feels thread. Come on in and post about what's got you down,

I'd love to talk, but I'm going to sleep. Take care and good night

>>724195208
I've kinda made my peace with this. probably gonna kill myself around 35 to 40

>>724194138
You wanna talk anon?

I am 32 and no university degree
I am unemployed and living with my gf who is very obviously unsatisfied with me

I am sad and lonely and angry and I am trying every day not to end it

Gf is suicidal, abused to hell and back as a child (violence not sexual)

She secretly hates me but is afraid of leaving me

My dick is small, annoyingly small and I am losing my self, losing my older happier self

My family is thousands of miles away and I have a herniated disk on my spine

I don't even have a laptop to escape reality to, just a small smartphone to pass the time

I used to love being alive
Now I'm just angry all day and it got to the point of hyperventilation many times

My car is broken down, and my mood is shit

Let's talk

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>>724195657
I'm planning to end it this weekend
Never really experienced any form of happiness and just want it all to end

>>724194138
I cant stand that my gf does not like to shower. Tired of finding bits of tp in her vag during sex, and doggy style is almost a no go due to the smell that rises up. She also had horrible breath even though she says she brushes her teeth on the daily....

>>724195711
what site is this?

>>724195711
How the fuck haven't you killed yourself?

>>724194138
I feel depressed and my only friend is my cat

I fantasize about suicide everyday and sometimes cut myself so i do not kms.

>>724195857
7cups. You can talk to 'listeners' who will hear out your problems, until you scare them off. It asks you to take an option test while waiting to find a listener.

>>724195911
A cat is better than a vindictive suicidal gf that secretly hates you and has nothing to lose

She might kill me anyday

>>724195909
I am scared. I have a therapist who has just thrown me on heavy meds. I want to change, and become happy.

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>>724196291
Are you Woody Allen?

>>724196291
>>724195711
Nigga

>>724195982
thanks man hope things get better for you

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>>724196361
?

>>724196438
We'll see. I'm open to things getting better but I'm tired of people saying it will when it hasn't in years.I keep asking myself when the 'getting good' part starts.

same here

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>>724196587
i guess i'm in the same boat as you then friend

>>724196881
Looks like someone is in university.

>>724197091
Nah
Just a high school grad struggling with severe mental issues

>>724195707
Oh shit son you sound like me.

I know deep down my girlfriend hates me, but too scared to leave me.

i have next to no education ( i do but i did poor in school, cause fuck school right?)
i'm working a shitty chef job which i hate with a passion.

Its gotten to the point where i have no social life, no real friend, nothing.

All i do is work, smoke weed, see GF once a week, question wether i should top myself or not on a regular basis.
i feel dead inside, depressed, i miss being 16 and living a carefree life, i miss having friends, i miss being able to love my other half, i miss my old life.

>>724197253
Yeah, well I am this guy: >>724195711
I am fucked but, I have hope. Do you? It is the only thing that drives me, I tried to OD in university which was hell but, once I finished I got some luck. Hope is there. It is all I have.

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>>724197533
Ya I think I just need to find someone in my life I trust enough to talk to

>>724197827
Ugh, I am the same way. I have an office job that pays very well but, I have a severe anxiety disorder. I can't talk outside of places where I feel safe (sounds gay but, this isn't a joke this has ruined me). I used to not be able to talk to anyone aside from my family but, medicine has saved my life. I can't talk much at work but, I am loved by my boss because I have a fantasticly high IQ. That has saved me but, I still suffer from my disorders. (I don't have autism or anything it is just a depression and severe anxiety disorder)

>>724196018
Been there done that, same situation

>>724198155
I'm pretty at good at talking with people but my depression prevents me from having any kind of meaningful relationship
Barely have any friends cause I'm such a depressed piece of shit and the ones I do have are just people that allow me to pretend as though they give a fuck about me

>>724197417
Hey I'm the exact same way to the point where that's my life in a nut shell

>>724197062
I'm just tired of trying new things and having them fail, only for someone to say "things will get better" like a broken record.

>>724198616
Same

My close friend from uni died last week... freak car crash, my other friend is in the hospital as is another girl who was in the car. I'm going to her funeral this weekend... and on feb 12th my ex killed herself, my year's going great so far

Not being able to say goodnight to him is the hardest part of all of this

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>>724198662
Honestly i don't even know what else to try at this point and even if i miraculously figure something out I wake up in the morning hating myself so much to the point of constantly thinking of suicide. Last week I went out and to try to enjoy myself because i'm better than this and I'm not going to kill myself except thats going to the movie alone because I have no friends within a 5 hours dive radius. Go anyways because thats nothing new. Spend the drive thinking about driving into oncoming traffic, spent the movie thinking about the fact I'm the only one alone in the theatre.

>>724194138
Well I lost my virginity to a dude when I was 16.
>my friend, lets call him Toby for this story
>I had been friends with Toby for 2 and a half years at this point
>I come over after school one day and we're shootin the shit
>his dad comes up, says him and Tobys mom are going on a date
>me and toby are going to be at the house home alone for a couple hours
>I figure we're gonna raid the cabinets for sweets and then just chill, play vidya, eat some pizza
>no
>he says "wanna jerk off?" which was pretty normal we'd done that a few times just jerking off to porn and videos of him and his gf fuckin
>he was a cuck
>creepy furry shit he shows me all the time, Im not hard
>I go on my phone instead and start jerkin it to some /s/ (I lurked for years)
>out of nowhere he makes a pass to try and grab my cock
>I am not turned on, really uncomfortable
>straight, never even looked at gay porn, every time I even thought about it I started to shudder and get stomachaches
>he eventually just grabs my dick
>starts jerkin me off, feels pretty good
>eventually he asks me if he could suck me off
>I am really turned on and a virgin so I figured why not
>I say okay
>he pulls out his phone and asks me to videotape it
>fuckin weirdo but okay
>I come eventually, he asks me if I want to 69, we do
>I come again
>he then asks me if I want to fuck him in the ass
>lets get some shit straightened out, I didn't want to do this. I kept asking him to stop but he wouldn't and then he'd tease me and I'd get hard again somehow
>start questioning whether or not Im gay
>start shuddering and shit, stomach is in pain
>before I'm really aware of whats going on, he's pulled out lube, lubed me up, and Im in his ass
>feels okay
>he's squealing like a bitch
>I pull out for a second because I feel something on my dick
>its shit
>feel extremely disgusted because seeing poop is my one thing I never do
>I can look at gore porn all day long, I see poop, it's over I need to take a cold shower
>I almost puke

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>>724200655
contd
>I run to the bathroom and wash my dick off, almost puke again, take my clothes and go take a shower
>by now two hours have gone by, but his parents still arent home
>cry in the shower for a solid 45 minutes
>just disgusted and horrified with myself, I feel absolutely revolted
>consider suicide
>at this point I'm sure Im straight, I didnt even get fucked and I feel this bad.
>fucked a guy in the ass and lost my virginity in a gay sex act even though Im straight
>so fucking depressed
>he hears me crying and talking to myself, at this point my heart rate has spiked and I'm huddled on the ground of the bathroom having a panic attack
>I get up and out of the bathroom fully dressed, he apologizes for everything, makes me promise not to tell his girlfriend
>thats right, he cheated on her with me
>I feel worse, so much worse having realized this fully
>feel an obligation to tell her
>eventually after several weeks tell her what happened
>she confronts him, he denies it all, saying Im crazy, that Im freaking her and him out
>I know he's bullshitting and denying the facts
>tell her every single little detail, and that Im willing to go to the police to report sexual assault
>Im still traumatized to this day, the effect never went away and I struggle to function
>she said in the moment that she didnt believe me, eventually he admits to it once he understood how serious I was about the cops
>never talked to them about it after that
>I want to end Toby's life
>I think about tracking him down and killing him every day
>I want to make him suffer like I have
>all I have is endless rage and this cold, empty feeling
>I will end his life one day

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I don't believe in fate or destiny, but sometimes I like to think that when I look out my window into the night sky that there's a girl as lonely as I am looking at the same sky. Both wanting to be loved, but we just can't find it. And maybe, just maybe we'll find each other.

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>tfw

>>724195778
Goddamn anon... The fucking feels. I doubt this was ever your story and this might mean jack all but that's the shit that actually matters. Real human connection. Thanks.

>all these worthless fags ITT
>mfw
top kek
join the muhreens, the kick in the ass will do you good.
it did for me

>>724202574
Typical jarhead.

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>>724202574
k

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>>724202574
>mfw w i forgot my face

>>724202651
>>724202668
no im serious
i was a regular in feels threads years back
it was because i felt shitty about myself.
Corps gave me self esteem, a purpose, actual brothers, made me mean and fit.
its good. You dont have to do anything except hang on, they make you do the work. You just gotta survive. best thing ive ever done in my life

>>724202814
>dude lmao jump off a cliff
>if you don't die you'll feel better

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>>724203112
didnt say anything like that
im saying that lots of weak fags here just need a kick in the ass. thats not jumping off a cliff

>>724203447
You and I both know the average feels thread poster isn't going to deal with being yelled at by some guy let alone being forced to go play in the sand.

>>724203608
then they should just off themselfs because theyre not gonna do anything else.
just tryin help a few guys here who mighta been in the same place i was.

>>724203698
>join my jerk off cult of idiots or kill yourself

>>724203698
There are other options than becoming a jarhead

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>>724203447
You're a faggot trying to be inspirational on a anonymous message board.

>>724203805
its either that or keep being a worthless waste of space
>>724203827
options that require motivation, something that is in short supply here
>>724203869
sue me

>>724204128
You actually sound like a recruiter, do you get payed to come here?

>>724204194
nah, just a lance coolie 311 drunk on a 96

>>724200655
>>724201305
>I figured why not
>I say okay
>he asks me

That whole thing looks consensual
Maybe you have all that rage because that act made you question your sexuality despite your values telling you that homosexuality is wrong

>>724204128
Joining the military requires motivation you fucking idiot

>>724204782
barely
but the motivation to actually get through it basic, SOI and mos school and be something better than you were before?
nah.
you just hang on and the DI or staff sergeant kicks your ass across the finish line

Can we just ignore this guy and get back to the feels.

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I don't have much to share, here's the Elisa Sinclair story that everyone has probably already heard.

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>>724197827
I had a person like that. Then they started loving me, and I didn't have the energy to build a new relationship, so I gave in.

Now a year down the line I find myself missing just being friends every single day. I hate being "with" someone. I hate my close-knit, supportive family. I just want to be alone so I can finally be free.
I don't want to die. I just want people to fuck off with their feelings and their problems so I can do what I want in life, unburdened. Without regret.

>>724194138
I wouldn't be surprised at all if 7 Cups is ran by scientologists.

i feel you i would rather just be by myself people are always trying to tell me what to do with my life i just wanna figure it out on my own

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Im not in the worst situation, there are other anons here in deeper shit. I just came for some questions.

A few months back I stsrted speaking with a girl, asked for rides, I declined at first. But as time came around, I guess I kind of liked her. No feelings what so ever, but I like her, its a weird position Im in.

Anyways, I asked her if she wanted to hang out, and she would decline or reply saying she was in a different city. Eventually, I stopped. Just this Sunday, I asked if she wanted to hike. She said no of course, so I rolled the dice and asked if she wanted to be my workout buddy or whatever since I wouldn't mind motivation. She agreed, and asked when my Marine Corp shipdate was. Told her my date, she replied, I didn't.

Now, idk why she would decline everything I ask but when I say workout she is like "cool! Lets do it!" I mean, we are goung to meet up to workout, so idk.

Any anons have any advice to approach this? And when to ask her to work out?