Feels music and general Feels Thread https://www.youtube.co

This one will get you, I promise

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ShzyggtsCs

>>724083041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQWoGzWIv0E

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1MgzG2JiQ6Q&index=2&list=PLyLOVoy-Fcan_k-fF57Yl-byOrBt6eDUx

>>724083207
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ctp8Hw7uTYI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj5aZ3JYkPw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5xD01ytN8s

Try these friend

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6gMS7aiMLk

When I look up from my pillow
I dream you are there with me
Though you are far away
I know you'll always be near to me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I look around me
And feel you are ever so close to me
Each tear that flows from my eye
Brings back memories of you to me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I was wrong, I will cry
I will love you till the day I die
You were all, you alone and no one else
You were meant for me
When morning comes again
I have the loneliness you left me
Each day drags by
Until finally my time descends on me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me
I go to sleep, sleep
And imagine that you're there with me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TcnYkf5nm14

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1N8GtDkYfQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YbCLr83OBas

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GmmMy-712ZA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UgXBXHN_pko

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zb-I1QVkCRs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwAsS9qjX7c

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLm_vVUhH5s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3qlBsMoqccw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H1DgWgLp0Pg

These songs i'm posting are near and dear to my heart

https://vimeo.com/35044294
Listening to this band way too much

>>724084363

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=343_7XDRyFs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4rSkilmpjWE

my alleged girlfriend didn't talk to me for fucking days because she was 'slightly mad' instead of talking to me about what's wrong. Wasn't the first time she didn't talk to me for days on end. In other words: Rev up those anti depressants because I'm sure as hell ready to kill myself.

>>724084677
Antidepressants arent meant to make you happy. They're meant by the govt' to make you a more productive citizen. Please do yourself a favor a do not take them, They will ruin your life and turn you into an emotionless husk of a man. Take this from a man with experience

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zaDbsoeLb8

Anyone lurking?

I'd love to hear other peoples taste in music they listen to when they're down and see how it contrasts to my own

>>724084677

She doesn't have to text you everyday, but she shouldn't ignore you.

>>724085524

i'm lurking

>>724086053
How're you liking my songs?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPpG0hSOnKY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6omZ5GsuGrI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZSxJe2JWe70

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bc1AiLdlVNA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mu6XtWm2Ltg

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_K2DhiwnQMg

>>724086624

I usually sit in sad silence but I'll give them a shot

>>724086624
I'm also lurking
Not in my tastes, but also pretty close to my tastes. I'm kinda bad at judging this stuff to be honest
>>724087450
I listen to this one a lot
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jo505ZyaCbA

Hows everyone?

>>724087966
OP here. In middle school I only listened to 60s music. Literally almost nothing else.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MM_G0IRLEx4

>>724083041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kpp-Ry2ZNhY

General feels thread?
I'm so sad I think I'll die.

>>724088099
Not bad. I've been alot worse, thats for sure. How are you friend?

>>724088248
You're welcome in my thread anytime Anon. Keep posting that good shit

>>724084353
This was great.

>>724088278
I'm okay. I started dating someone a couple weeks back. I love dating and I love the joys of dating affection and companionship.

But it causes me a lot of anxiety these days. Currently I'm trying to exercise some restraint and not texting her for 2 days.

I constantly worrying about going back to being single even though its all in my head and so far things are going well. I'm happy I found someone and I don't want to go back to being alone.

>>724088248
how are you anon

>>724088496
Thanks alot brother

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=aSCWrbbUPQc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZV9OqdFFyk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4LicRs6WXVo&t=759s

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vwpmszpn1cA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ME18roepLVk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2708YshC0w

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSkGYevSvO4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EzSwJY6Twwk

These are all pretty dear to me.

>>724088833
Not good. I had a breakdown yesterday, I collapsed on the street while it was raining, and could not move for 90 minutes. My body still hurts from the contractions.
The only thing that keeps me going is that at least I feel sad.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WGtFRsCXRcc

>>724088897
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQu6IpZ7PLc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FF1lESEpYrc

That's what i'm talking about

>>724089129

you breakdown mentally or physically?

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More pics!

>>724089129
Keep fighting brother. I'll pray for you, Not sure if I believe in all that but I will nonetheless

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kgqyvRzMBbc

>>724089317
both, my existence is bad.
sometimes it gets to be to much, and my entire body starts cramping up. every muscle in my body contracts and I'm unable to move. It's painful.

>>724089495
Panic attacks?

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>>724089374
I agree

>>724089239
oh fuck yeah man

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Feeling it tonight. Been getting progressively more nervous and anxious the last few days to the point it's overwhelming now. I feel physically sick and tired to the point I just want to go to sleep and not wake up.

>>724089597
I guess I could call it that, it doesn't feel right though. I've had panic attacks, but this is different for me. I start talking to myself and argue, and it's like my brain is ripping itself apart. Maybe I've just gotten worse

>>724089495

why is it so bad?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KB_2CUj3y6Y

>>724089691
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BA9ClQmDgNk

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQpkh_zCiGc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KkuaaStZouQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5rVzsEXk3kQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oCKTPb3vQG8

Spicing it up a bit. I'm a sucker for old country songs

>>724083041
Heres a personal favorite
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DrLGtZfMfgM

>>724089955
I was going to kill myself 3 months ago, but I ended up doing acid with some people I don't know so well instead.
I feel so sad, walking around being unable to tell anyone. Today i spent 8 hours staring at the ceiling, and it's so normal for me I didn't think twice about it before it had gone 8 hours.
I am scared to be honest, but at least I am feeling something now.

>>724089905
You need to find someone human to share you're emotions with. You're tearing your self apart with loneliness and isolationism. Like alot of us, me included

>>724083041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OgEta7iyhY

>>724090267

i get that I have mad work due tomorrow and i just wanna lie around and mope

>>724090170
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A5nwqrtRwqA

Thanks for sharing brother

"Nitrous gas" and "i wish i was sober" are both great feels songs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aCw6DIQHuhM

:(

>>724090420
You'll thank yourself for getting up and making yourself do things. Try not to rely on drugs or alcohol or even cigarettes for that matter for happiness. I wish the best for you.

>>724090420
you work, that's good man, seriously lying around for too long kills you

>>724090303
I wish I could

>>724090565

cigarettes help me with anxiety. I don't know why but I love to feel shitty.

>>724090457
No problem at all man

>>724090725
>I don't know why but I love to feel shitty.
I do this same thing. I feel like I deserve it.

you know you hit rock bottom when one of the things grounding you to reality is talking with strangers about your feelings.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ugd_IywKAw

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Ooj6pEd6YM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHd-PLgKlbs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Y5aR10R3Xo

Thanks for contributing guys. It means alot to me to have everyone come together and find happiness through their mutual sadness

I've been on a 4 week binge of pain killers, liquor and anything else I could get, grills just mess you up man

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zSAJ0l4OBHM

In the desert you can remember your name,
'Cause there ain't no one for to give you no pain.
La, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la
La, la, la la la la, la la la, la, la

>>724090714
It's not easy. You have to be a bit assertive to find the right partner. You never know who might secretly be in love with you.

>>724090725
Me too. Precisely why I advised against them haha

>>724083041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mLGho8jUbbQ

>>724090614

I go to school and work on weekends typically. I have school work to do tomorrow.

>>724090841

Maybe that's it. But I just feel like feeling shitty feels good somehow.

I have to be so confident and tough all the time it hurts.

>>724090880
Nothing wrong with that man. Certainly more healthy than sharing porn, and masturbating with strangers. Which most of us also do

>>724090920
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83-dqTq7f0I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q2SABYGwH1I

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GrM2fxnkxjA

Right back at you man, it's a little light in the darkness.

https://youtu.be/6rcuSYrwUpk

>>724091081
nice

>>724083041
https://soundcloud.com/officiallystated/sets/dep

>>724090959
There's plenty of fine bitches out there, but not all of them bring you lasagna to work

>>724091080

I don't even know why it helps or how but sometimes i just feel like I need one.

>>724091031
I'm scared of being rejected for being too much.

>>724091010
Great song man. Brings back many memories

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_-XwB8exoTE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T3D68KWfZOo

>>724091181
it's not bad, but I wish I had someone who could touch me and tell me it's all good.
Nothing calms me down as when people are physically in contact with me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ey4yAgLZlw
;w;

>>724091594
I love the Band

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C_ksYL26lZE

>>724091511
Same here. When you're with them just think about their companionship and how it's helping you instead of your own problems. I've had the same problems all my life. Casual sex for me leads to love that isn't mutual. But don't think that all women are like that. Because they're not, and don't believe anyone who says so

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I can't tell if I miss her or the idea of her.

Storytime.
I met a girl on outward bound this summer (kind of like a harder version of summer camp, 10 people in the woods for 3 weeks. It was awesome). We talked all the time on the trip. I hurt my foot and was lagging behind everyone on a hike, so she stayed behind and walked with me as we talked. I really liked her then. On our last night together, all 10 of us decided to go on a night hike to the top of a mountain. I took my shirt off and gave her a piggyback up the last 100 meters. She had her head resting softly on my neck. When we got to the top, i was shivering and she asked if i was cold. She wrapped her arms around me (she had a fuzzy sweater) and we lay down together. We talked for 6 hours without stopping. She had forgotten her sleeping bag so i shared mine with her, and it was so cold but i didnt give a damn. We watched the stars and i sang to her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and we spooned. When the sun came up, i was watching it while she kept her head buried in my chest. I asked if she wanted to get up to see it and she moaned "no, please dont make me get up". Thats my favourite memory of her, her eyes squinting and hair messy but damn she was beautiful. We went back to camp and said our goodbyes to everyone (it was our last day). We started texting and decided to do long distance. We made that decision 6 months ago today. Shes coming to my city in 2 months but i still miss her every day and it hurts, dudes. It hurts a lot.

very little doom posted here...this disappoints me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2vdfTCbulc

>>724091824

I know how that feels. I can't tell if I really like my gf or just the fact that she's a human who accepts and gives me affection.

>>724091783
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1ST9TZBb9v8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5e9w6SZw-Q

Her and Bob Dylan go together like bread and wine

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Recovering anon here; kicked out of school, lost my QT 3.14 girlfriend, living at home.

All I can say is that the universe has a cruel habit of letting things get better. I can't say it'll be okay. I know a lot of people who never got better. I can say it isn't impossible though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=USAQQnQzaSs&index=4&list=FLAFzEmi_HaXtb5aQePkYG3Q

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0nmHymgM7Y&list=FLAFzEmi_HaXtb5aQePkYG3Q&index=44

Some other shit
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLi8xTa4PLu4Xk38uPlR14dYKDlLzVDFit

>>724091606
I feel you man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YRECjIHIO5A

Italian herb that sounds like original

>>724091872
OP here. Tell me if you like this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=luNuGmlASLI

It tells a good story

>>724092244
Love me some defeater. Thanks for reminding me of this band, haven't listened in a good while.

Tell me what you think of this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_guZ7ZS9cl8

>>724092034
the good american vibe...
Back in the day when music used to be a connection, not a statement
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-I_T3XvzPaM

How do you guys deal with the crushing realization that you're wasting your life away one day a time?

>>724092546
I don't.
I nearly ended it but suddenly It didn't happen.
I suspect if I don't change things around I'll end it.

>>724092546
By hoping to achieve my dreams of becoming a singer songwriter with a girl I know that also wants to become such. I just haven't gotten close enough to her yet to start a romantic relationship yet

https://youtu.be/EIFlhzdILMc

https://youtu.be/aFUzvbkEvRk

>>724092439
Good stuff man

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bLzdDD5FcJ4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iEF5bbZ38S4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1HEdwSQAxY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7UI1_V5xgDY

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>>724083041
Guess there's no one here to talk.

>>724092546
Because of my wife and the desire to have children.

but I often feel I am wasting it away.

>>724092511
Exactly. Good to see someone who at least appreciates folk music

>>724092546
It's ok, I already accepted my loneliness and live my life enjoying the little things.

isn't the point of life to enjoy it any way you can as long as you can? not money, fame or power but the occasional happiness.

>>724093032
Here bub

https://youtu.be/NaGhZcKrQM4

>>724093090
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QyIZ3pYKOQM
it's that time, wish I grew up then

>>724093231
I dig this alot. Reminds me of Mac Demarco

>>724093207
Still wish I was dead. Nothing works out, nothing gets better. I'm giving myself until I turn 30 to finally change things, but I know it won't matter.

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This poem is what keeps me going

>>724093369
Don't give up man. You have to make things better for yourself. There's tons of good things in this world, you just have to get out of whtever deppressing setting you're in and have some fun

>>724093369
I was going to kill myself 3 months ago, circumstances made it so I'm still here.
Do what we all want to do and just move away and start over again...

>>724093032
Whats got you down mate? Here returning the favor for all the help I was given before Nov.7/16

"If you can't defeat life you can at least have a strong body to endure the hits of life".

~anon, 2017.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ioE_O7Lm0I4

>>724093517
My 'best friend' abandoned me, and now I'm between homes again.

>>724093656
Almost more than ten years of depression. Feeling like nothing matters, never been in love, friend betrayed me. No matter what I do I end up making my life the same or worse. My life can't get worse if I end it.

Bumping with quotes I wrote
The Laughs, The Smiles, The Love And The Comfort
Thank You For It All
It Was A Feeling I Had Long Since Forgotten.

OP here again. I have some stuff to do tomorrow so i'm about to turn in. I just want to let you all know that even though I don't really know any of you I love you all and I hope things get better in all of your collective lives. I've enjoyed posting all this emo, 60s, folk, metal, lofi, ect meaningful music with all of you. Be nice to each other, and try to enjoy life for what it's worth

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gDrzKBF6gDU

>>724093952
thanks man. take care and good luck

>>724093843
6 Years here mate and I am barely pulling out. Trust me when I say this it does honestly get better. After years of drug abuse, self harm, eating disorders and two suicide attempts later I can honestly say it does get better. Countless times I've had a rope around my neck, a razor cutting my flesh or a lethal mix of pills in a bottle beside me and I can say this, it does get better.
-Never loved someone, never truly have not even my own mother, no friends, betrayed many of times.

>>724093843
sounds like me.
But no one "betrayed" you if it's similar to me.
Life is shit, and people don't want to surround themselves with people who make their own life harder, I used to think I was betrayed but I was just simply making life worse for them...

Up upon this mountain which brought me to my new high it will bring me to my new low, a new low where I shall remain down below.

>>724094201
Beautiful words anon

Food no longer comforts me
Pain no longer hurts me
Booze no longer warms me
The Thought of you, helps me through the day
The Thought of you, hurts me more then you'll ever know
The Thought of you is driving me to my death
The Thought of you is why I am here to this day.

>>724094091
>>724094164
I still can't think of a reason to stick around. If I die and nothing happens after death, did I exist at all? I'd rather just end the pain now. And not to be a dick, but when people say 'things will get better' I think of someone saying "I'll pray for you". Life isn't a balancing act. It's ten thousand marbles on the floor bumping and crashing into each other without any kind of pattern.

I've heard it for years and shit hasn't gotten better. It's gotten worse.

I got more quotes I've written throughout my mental breakdown if anyone is interested.
Any questions or help you guys want just message me, I am up for the chat.

>>724083041
https://youtu.be/Sj7MPirky0g
sigh.......

this thread is giving me a lot of new stuff that I'm enjoying... being a shit 90's kid who grew up with Bright Eyes and the entry wounds of emo/screamo, I have little I can share that I'm sure most of you haven't heard a million times...

But then again, there is this...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nv0xfqIZXr4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rOQlZWkhebU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1KWSeHOixM

>>724094593

Also, this.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y413Vk9FzY0

White walls, a buzz from the kitchen.
Clothing, food, tissue and booze lie about, a bedroom.
Cigarettes, ashtrays, a computer by the wall.
The silence is muffled, going on and on and on.
A half-measure is done, a step taken or two.
To the bathroom or to the store, the days continue.
A breath of weed on a winter breeze, wet and cold staring towards gravel and the asphalt below.
Noise from above, the squeaking of the stairway.
Coming into it all again, the sound of cotton rubbing against air.
All the while death knocks at the door.

>>724094652
A test can be flawed, but sometimes shit just doesn't get better no matter what anyone says. I hate non-advice.

>>724094469
Two years in, I took enough meds to overdose myself 4 times. I begged myself to do it, swallowed all of them. A short time after I ended up having seizures and barfing up blood. I was out for 6 hours, with a heart rate throughout the roof. I couldn't go anyone but myself. So I developed a eating disorder to comfort myself. I ended up going from 140 pounds to 240 pounds within 2 years. I know when you have given up death is the only thing that warms you and trust me I know the feeling, I know the feeling way to well. I know it better then my own hand. It was the same for 3 years til Nov, 7 2016. Nov, 7 2016 I started cutting my wrist open. Walking around my town til a cop pulled me over. Nov, 7th was the last day I felt the need to die. Nov, 7th a day I tried to kill myself for the second time, was the day that things felt like they didn't need to happen. It may not seem like it honestly will get better but trust me it does. It honestly does.

I wish I could turn back the time and put down the bottle, put down the razor and the rope but I sadly cant. I sadly cant and I must learn to live with the scars from my own mind.

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Does anyone else think We're currently living in a hyper dystopian reality where you can see the current state of the modern man devolve into dysgenics and nothingness? For some reason MDE always put me into this kind of mood. For most people it just looks like some of bizarre joke/ sketch, but I really think World Peace did an amazing job of capturing this kind of half melencholic half apocalyptic feeling of suffocation.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Av5Jb52yFBo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qk213MxnHZU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SkqbHQqLwMU

OP here one last time. A poem I wrote a while back, More of a song really:

My fingers are bleeding, my hands are cold and wet
I can't shake this feeling i'm feeling so upset
I'd go upstairs but then i'd be on the roof
I can't even talk I can't even tell the truth
To myself, or to them
Got no future, got no friends
But i've got you
I've got you
I've got you
And that's all I need

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u1p9kj-odnU

>>724095049
>>trust me it does
I'm not trying to knock your experiences, but they work so differently for everyone elses lives.

I haven't a suicide attempt, yet, but only because a talk with my mom left her sobbing and I have no sure thing. If I had a gun I would have been dead years ago. Every time I get like this, and manage to talk to someone which is rare, I get the 'things will get better' talk. Years later, shit has gotten worse. I'm lonlier than ever. I'm thinking about death every day again. There is no plan to life. I fucking hate being alone and anything I do to try to change it makes everything worse.

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>>724095105

I've seen so much degenerate shit in my life, I've watched all sorts of types head down the wrong path and tried to steer people away from the same way I've seen so many hurt themselves in.

Hell I used to be one of those types until i got my shit together.

Modernism was a mistake
Post modernism was a mistake
No one cares anymore while we circle jerk about murdering ourselves slowly.

"To go to bed forever", that kind of rampant escapism and ignorance is the zeitgeist of everyone around me, and responsibility is seen as a net loss for everyone. No sense of honor to be shared, no love (because love has been degraded to just sexual acts), and people promoting marxism everywhere they go.

Everything feels to controlled.

Vampillia & World's End Girlfriend are nice, chill Japanese music that I tend to listen to when I'm feeling down... they tend to go from mellow to chaos... it's a beautiful disaster.

They also collab together sometimes... I strongly recommend WEG's album "Hurtbreak Wunderland"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uZIHuHuZgMo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FU34aIUQqGM

As I look up into the sky, the stars shine brighter then ever before. As the blood runs down my arm with the razor inside I feel warmer then ever before. As I sit staring out into the ocean watching the ducklings enjoy their first swim, I am finally seeing the world for what it is. As I admire what I am and who I've become I am now the happiest I have ever been about myself. As the day turns to the 8th, I knew I was never going to be the old me.

>>724095466
To be honest here, there isn't much I can say or do but talk to you. I know I can't stop you from picking up the razor, rope, pills, snare wire or whatever but I can hopefully talk you out of it. I know when you are low the saying it gets better is always said and lemme tell you it fucking is the most annoying thing I have ever heard but it is the truth. My only advice sir, is to go talk to your mom, your dad, your sister or whoever you can. I personally never could all I have is a fucking stranger who gets paid to talk to me.

>>724095466

New voice in the mix...

Listen man... I won't say it gets better. There's no certainty that it ever does. Some people seem to be dealt a shit hand every time it's time to ante up. I've had multiple friend's who felt like they were going nowhere, life is pointless, and the best option is to cash in... but I urge you to keep pressing forward, man. Talk to people, even if it's rando's on here. There's good people here who care about the random assholes out there who have nothing else.

I mean, fuck, you're doing it now, but keep doing it. Scream into the abyss and listen for the response, man.

>>724096131

Also, sorry for all the card idioms... I'm pretty shit at talking to people...

But really, other guy and me are willing to talk & read, obviously. Vent.

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>>724095916
I can talk to my mom, but I've found it results in much of the same thing, plus a lot of crying. She's had a much worse life than I have but that's besides the point. It isn't about whose life is worse only that life keeps fucking screwing me again and again and no matter what I do it gets worse.

I've also scared off my share of 7cups 'listeners'.

>>724096131
I've never felt anything even when I do talk about it. People say it's relieving to talk about their issues. I still feel the same emptiness afterwards. I've even had friends, the same friend who stabbed me in the back, call my issues 'first world problems' even though I fucking carried him for years. I hate everything and nothing seems to change it, aside from a few brief moments here and there.

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>>724083041
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4PN5JJDh78I
Always brings the feels

>>724083367
Space Needle song was great

>>724096465
Glad you liked it bub

>>724083358
AOE: II vibe

>>724096336
Life, will never lay its pieces out for you, you'll forever have to search for them. The friends who I did have either left me or never really were my friends. Marcela, my dearest friend left me because of my depression. I begged her to stay in my life and her words exactly "If you start to bring me down, I am going to be forced to let you go." She was my dearest friend. She wasn't my shoulder or my crutch. Just a dear friend who I miss everyday. My only advice would be to talk to a professional and hopefully never resort to suicide...

>>724083230
shit tier/10

>>724096336

Dude, I get that. I talk to my mom from time to time, usually well after I crawled into a bottle, about all the shit that's plagued, & continues, my life. She's had it waaaay worse than I can possibly imagine, and still does.

She's been the rock in my life and probably the only reason I haven't eaten my pistol.

Very few friend's know the pain I carry, because I don't want to scare them off... even though I'm pretty sure they wouldn't be.

I'm sorry your "mates" fucked you, man. I've have that with my ex's, even the most recent who dated me "just to have someone around" & then left me last month.

>>724096668
Seems pretty well written to me.

>>724096634
I can't imagine what a professional can do for me. I'm not special but every life is so different that no one can be given the same answer. And when I say 'betrayed', I mean a friend who lived with me for years, while I took care of most of, if not all, the bills, dropped me like a hot rock as soon as he found something better. He gave me a months warning saying that he was moving in with his online girlfriend. I didn't even say goodbye to him when he left. I wish I had told him to fuck off and slammed the door on his fingers when I left for work.

>>724096757
The hardest part is that I've never loved anyone, romantically that is. I constantly think there's something horribly wrong with me as even ugly people and fucked in the head types can find love, but I've never been anywhere close. I've had strong feelings for a few girls but it's never worked out. My greatest fear is growing old, into my nineties, where I have no friends, family or loved ones. I'm in the hospital by myself and I've lived a completely empty life, doesn't matter if I've made a billion dollars. I have no one at my side to remember the good times. It's like now but dragged out for more than sixty years.

>>724096336

But as you kinda said, there isn't a catch all for people like us. What works for the other guy might not work for you, or me.

I'm a lonesome person. Always have been. I do terribly in groups and usually get tired of people's constant company, yet never want to be alone. I sit in my room for hours, I don't sleep, and only really leave for work or to go to the bar... Sometimes, to be with the friends I have, who are dwindling in number since they're all becoming "adults" and I'm stuck in this nightmare of not understanding how to be one of them...

>>724097142
All a professional does for me personally is releases the pressure of everything, they give me advice, some helpful some useless and some that is plan old retarded like Don't cut yourself, herp a derp shit but they do help me more then I ever expected. Give it a try trust me. I am sorry about your friend, but I can say one thing. I have been in the same boat, a friend who I saved from herself left me when I needed it most.

>>724097142

Honestly dude, I've fallen for three girls in my life, tried to marry two, and watched them slowly break my soul apart. Then go after my reputation.

I've done a lot of shitty things to wonderful people because I was hurt by them, ruined friendships and relationships, and I'm getting my just returns for that. I'm beginning to think "love" as we were taught growing up doesn't exist anymore.

>>724097146
I've always been a loner as well. INTJ, if that matters as it's kind of the 'horoscope' these days. I can deal with larger groups if I have to, as several of the jobs I've worked in had to deal with large groups of people. But I prefer to be with small groups of friends, people that I know and trust. It takes me a long time to warm up to someone, but I always feel like if that happens then they're worth it.

>>724097403
I can understand that. People always need you, but when you need them they're always too busy.

>>724097475
I'd rather have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. I feel completely empty because even wastes of life can say they have fallen in love. I've never felt it, and nobody has felt it for me.

>>724097403

We've all had them, my friend.

"Emotional Steppingstones" I call it. We're there for them to build themselves back up, then they run free... I try to look at it positively. I was the cocoon to their caterpillar...

it makes the pain easier to swallow.

>>724097616

I've always been torn on "love & lost"... you learn a lot from having someone who trust so deeply rip your heart out. But I wouldn't wish that for someone who's never experienced it.

>>724097617
>>724097616
I got to head off to bed I got work in 7 hours. Hopefully I helped you, not sure if I did but I hope I did. Take care my man.

>>724097846

yeah man, I'm going to stick around for the other guy to shoot the shit with, so to speak... Okay, Other Guy?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7xZY8VJHqU4

Died 7 years ago.
Damn.

>>724095201
Have you seen a movie called Rudderless? It's on Netflix. The fucking feels, man.

>>724097800
I'd still like to feel something than nothing but negative feelings. I find myself wishing that my 'friend' and his girlfriend would have something terrible befall them. One of them gets incurable cancer so one can watch the other die.

If he was going to use my generosity for years then I wish we never met at all.

>>724098026

was super sad when I heard that, dude.

I had just got into his music a month before it happened.

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>>724095466
>tfw far past the stage of killing myself

Suicide isn't worth it, believe me.

>be me, drunken street urchin
>no one in my family or community noticed or cared for me
>stole compulsively, etc.
>slowly went crazy from prolonged isolation and torment
>fantasized about killing myself for two years before i went and tried it

When i fantasied about killing myself, I imagined how i wanted to die. I wanted my corpse and my soul to die in the happiest place and time imaginable, so that i could rest in that image eternally.

I always had insomnia when i was asleep and when i was young, i thought the moon was a friend of sorts. I always loved being alone, not because i loved to feel lonely, but because then there was no one to judge me. In the winter time there was never anyone outside in the frigid cold to bother me, so it too was my friend.


So one night at 1am, I went to a little bridge that spanned a small river in a small park, completely abandoned by everyone at the time, in winter of course. This is how i wanted to look when i died, when I was discovered by a park goer in the morning

>body semi frozen, skin pale but clear
>big pools of blood
>with my eyes closed and smile on my face
>in my favorite park with my best friends

That way my parents would know i died happy when i took my own life.

Right before i did it, when i put the knife to my inner wrists to draw a vertival line down the middle, a thought occured. I had never felt this happy or at peace since i was a small child. I didn't feel scared, i didn't feel the constant nihilism and feeling of depression that drove me to madness every fucking day of my life, I felt happier than I could even remember i had, all because I was about to slay myself.

Thats when I realized, this is what I had to live for.

>finding a beautiful death, a death that has meaning

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>>724098131
too fucking soon, but his music lives on forever, my friend.

>>724098103

Haha, I get that, man. I've been there, literally with the same thought. But fuck it, man. Why hold onto that?

What do you do, dude? Like for fun? Work? Your mates that aren't garbage?

Contributing some more sad music

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqhRK_g7WJc

This one sounds upbeat but listen to the lyrics
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LJXcac9zI74

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PyIo1M-Sp1g

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>>724098165
That is the final meaning in life.

I made a pact with myself that day, that I would live to find the best death possible, for myself and others.

I cried a little, and turned my wrists the other way. I still had all this anger inside me i needed to let out. So i slashed away at my wrist until I had about 10 deep long cuts on the other side of my wrist, all in one area right below my hand. Non lethal, but I spilled plenty of blood.

I can still remember the full moon above me and the tears streaming down my face. I was too drunk to feel any pain from the cuts. I consecrated my promise in blood and tears underneath my best friend, the winter moon.

Never again would i feel lonely, never again would I feel needy or strained. I have that memory forever. I wear a watch right where the scars on my wrist are, which conveniently covers them completely. Every time i check the time, I am reminded of why I must still live. Suicide isn't worth it because it is an inferior death, and what pillars I never had to lean on in my youth I must always strive to become, because in that endless pursuit I can find a vastness of meaning nothing else can offer me. I have made a promise in blood to uphold these values, and i can never shirk from them or else i will find myself just as depressed as before. My life is now dedicated to becoming a pillar among others, I have recently spent my time trying to become a therapist in uni. I just want to help people in the most personal ways possible, my grandfather before me was a priest so i see it as being a legacy of sorts.

When i first found this song, i remember I began weeping openly in the library at my uni for a solid 5 minutes. People stared, but I didn't care. Nothing had ever felt so perfect.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Av5Jb52yFBo

>>724098165
I find I have nothing to live for, absolutely nothing. Every time I try to look towards the future I see an abyss. But I also feel that if there is nothing after death, what do I have to fear aside from losing my memories and experiences? If it happens then I won't feel anything, I won't be anything.

>>724098323
Because I can't let go. We were friends for over ten years and I carried him for so long. Paying more for rent, food, etc. I was always there for him when he was down yet he never did the same. I feel like a goddamn fool for ever trusting him in the first place.

I do things like singing, painting miniatures, playing table top RPGs. I still hate life and won't lose anything from relieving myself of it.

To clarify, I am open to life getting better. I have tried so many times to make it better. But it's always gotten worse. No matter what I do.

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I've always had some level of depression. And I've developed a lot of bad habits that continually fuck me any time I try to improve myself. I've considered suicide often, but I know I'm too pussy to ever do it.

But that's not why I'm here now. It's not why I'm crying, or what's keeping me up tonight.

For the third time, I've heard someone's last words to me. And for the third time, it was someone I could truly say I loved.

This time, it was "I'll miss you the most."

It wasn't even today, or the day before. It was Sunday. But between class and work, I never had a chance to let it sink in. Oh, I thought about every few minutes, but I just pushed it aside to get through the day.

But I had the day off today, and it finally hit me. I've just spent all day trying to take my mind off of her, but it just hurts too much. My eyes hurt. My heart hurts. I'm just tired. I'm tired of losing people to a premature death.

All day's been a battle between too sick to stomach to eat and shoving as much as I can into my mouth to drown out the pain. Unable to sleep, but too tired not to take a 2 hour nap. Crying and being too numb for anything.

I doubt anything will help, but it takes a slight edge off to type this out, I guess. I just don't know. I don't know how to keep going forward anymore.

Pic is most certainly related.

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>>724098026
I got into his music after I heard he had passed. Truly beautiful stuff.

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>>724098589
>I find I have nothing to live for, absolutely nothing

Then live to find the best release of death possible. When i went to die i still didn't feel satisfied. Taking your own life is beyond difficult, it was something i practiced for and when it came down to it, in my final moments before the act itself, I found myself wanting more from death than it had to offer me.

Life is a compulsion you need to find, never before since that act had I felt such empathy or connection with the world around me. Death was always something I was obsessed with, but it wasn't until i tried to come closer to it that I realized that through death i far better understood life than most.

>>724098589

I get the hatred, dude, I do. But let it go. Your friend fucked you over, and you can't undo the kindness you showed, nor his blatant disrespect. But holding onto that hatred isn't doing anything for you.

And honestly dude, I've found you can't MAKE life better with force. It happens on it's own. It's like trying to force a square peg into a triangle hole, man. But don't give up. Find things to fill your time, that can also help others.

Donate your time to the betterment of the downtrodden. Volunteer. Fuck man, go backpack across the world. Just cut your losses where you are, take whatever money you have, and leave. Float across the planet until you find a place that feels right.

How old are you?

>>724099223
I've tried so many times it has lost its meaning. I just feel completely empty.

I'm 28. I'm growing older and older and I'm completely alone. I kinda want kids at some point but I have this fear that I'll be a terrible father like mine was. But for that to be a possibility I'd have to have some kind of female companionship, which I've never gotten close to.

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At what point do you admit that your best days already passed?

>>724099576
>and I'm completely alone

Maybe you should learn how to be comfortable with being alone like the rest of humanity? Everyone is alone, bro. Its the human condition.

>>724099819
I'm fine with being alone more than most. I can go days without talking to someone. But I'd still like friends, and a girl I can be 'me' with. The thing most people try to say is that being single is better than being in a relationship. The thing they don't mention is that they can easily not be single. So it's not that I'm alone, it's that I've always been alone.

>>724099576

Jesus, we sound a lot alike. I'm 29. I want kids, and despite everyone saying I'd be an awesome dad, I'm afraid I'll fail like mine, a homeless drug addict/alcoholic who lives in the town I grew up in, 20mins away.

But I keep finding girls who don't want kids. So much so that one did drugs to induce a miscarriage then told everyone I beat her, and the other got an abortion and then feels the need to remind me of it every so often.

>>724099944
>I'm fine with being alone more than most.
>I find I have nothing to live for, absolutely nothing. Every time I try to look towards the future I see an abyss. But I also feel that if there is nothing after death, what do I have to fear aside from losing my memories and experiences? If it happens then I won't feel anything, I won't be anything.

Pick one

>>724100000

not the poster, but you can want both. You want the idea that you have someone when you need them, but also being alone.

im going to post my own band because im a sad piece of shit and playing music with no lyrics really helps me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TJzOztkYv10

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4FDBi7dmvM

>>724100000
That's not an exclusive choice. There's a big difference between being alone for a few days and sixty years. Unless you're retarded, which you clearly are.

>>724099954
I had a child scare once, with a girl I hated. I was anxious but also a bit receptive to the idea. We weren't in a relationship so it wasn't a big deal, but I still was drinking and wondering what I would do if the child was actually mine. I'm afraid of being a bad father but I think there's the chance that I can break the cycle and be there like I should.

>>724100195
heres another by us from our really old demo i didnt even know someone uploaded on youtube

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x_B7XZ-yPRw

>>724100098
You're either fine with being alone, where with what family and friends life alots you is but an added benefit, or you're not.

Love isn't deserved, its earned. If you aren't fine with being alone, and fully understand what loneliness entails, you will never find true love. Love is built, not found.

>>724100249

Like I said, we sound a lot like... you also sound a bit like a friend of mine.

Be odd & funny as fuck if you were him. haha

>>724100249
>That's not an exclusive choice

It absolutely is. I've met with men who have been celibate their entire lives who have found happiness far greater than what you have found or will find on the path you're on. They died happy, while dying alone.

Co-dependency is not strength and it earns you nothing.

discord gg/hdjmn °

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you guys should 100% stop what your doing & go to Snapchat z .com now

>>724100557

"Strength" and "Happiness" aren't the same for all people. Some find those things in being alone, some with others. Some in the medium between.

Co-dependency can make you stronger, and can earn you everything.

So... you're wrong. But also right.

>>724100533
From what you said of yourself, we wouldn't know each other.

>>724100557
It isn't. Maybe you've heard of different personalities? A person, like myself, can be fine by themselves for a few days but will still like human contact. I don't like asking for it, even from friends, but I still enjoy their company. All I want, I've ever wanted, is someone I can share everything and be vulnerable with. I wouldn't care if she was clingy or whatever because it simply means she wants to be with me.

Simply put, being okay being by yourself doesn't mean you want to be alone all the time. It also doesn't mean that something that works for one person doesn't work for everyone else.

>>724100642
I should stop what i'm doing and autojugulate.

>>724100840

Most people don't know those things about me. I'm not very vocal with most of my friends about the sadder aspects of my life.

Either way, if I did know you, I'd treat you to a beer and a smoke. Or scotch and cigar.

>>724101015
Just saying based on your age and issues. I know people with similar things but those two don't match to anyone I know.

I'm drinking whiskey, wish I had more. Wouldn't mind for a cigar. In any case I wouldn't mind a drink and some companionable silence right now.

>>724100820
>>724100840

Extroversion vs introversion is not the same as coming to a logical understanding of what it means to be alone. There are different ways of finding self control, that does not mean self control is impossible for certain types of people (unless both of you are seriously mentally ill)

I myself struggle with being alone sometimes but have found ways around excessive feelings, in order to focus my energy on practical solutions rather than doing nothing but staying in the state of mind over and over again.

Both of you are the same in this sense, strength always comes from within, co-dependence is optional not necessary, even in the long term. If you can't find connections through yourself then you are doing something horribly wrong.

>>724101015
>>724101187
>drinking alone

Literally one of the worst things you can do. Escapism is not peace, lads.

>>724101233

Oh! Welcome to the thread, genius. Have you missed the two+ hours of us discussion our mental and emotional issues??

>>724101187

eh, fuck >>724101233 guy.

What whiskey you drinking?? You Ameri-fag?? haha

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>>724101323
>lets solve our problems in a practical manner by drinking alone and crying
>because I can't help it otherwise

Pathetic.

>>724101447
>tfw used to be literal alcholic

I'm telling you, you really screwing yourself over with these decisions. You're not the first guy who's gone down this path and you damn well won't be the last.

>>724083041
Good one for you OP. Feels.
https://youtu.be/-5LspM3rHRU

>>724101464
i want to be pathetic,
but i can hardly get out a few tears these days.

>>724101464

I'm actually not drinking. All I have is a bottle of Lagavulin and some bottles of Austrian beer I have aging... so... yeah.

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>>724101233
You say a lot of things but don't understand the issue at hand. There's only so long someone can be alone before they feel like complete worthless shit. So fuck off with your armchair psychology. I could go through every detail of my shitty life and you'd still try to peg me in the same place as someone that's been depressed for a few months.

>>724101291
If I had friends to be with, I wouldn't be here.

>>724101447
Canadian. Crown Royal.

>>724101464
>>lets vent in the only way that's available
>>because if we had friends and family to talk to we would
Fuck off. You're literally a stupid faggot that doesn't know what he's talking about. That's not even counting people who only feel comfortable talking about this shit anonymously.

>>724101652

Ah, never been big on Crown. Always been a Jameson guy, or Bulleit. Been getting hard into bourbon and scotch recently.

And the countless craft beers.

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>>724101804
I've never been big on beer, and it was one of the first drinks I had so it kinda stuck with me.

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>>724101841

I get that.

I always say there is a beer out there for everyone. The trick is finding it. If you're a whiskey man, you'd probably like stouts & porters, which is what I'm really into.

Oh, and yeah, I wouldn't know you. I'm American, just outside Washington, DC.

>>724101652
Believe me, I've known far worse than anything you have to offer, and they've done far greater things with their lives than you could ever hope to be in your current state.

>he thinks drinking alone and crying is the only vent possible

pathetic

>anonymously

Go talk to someone in person ffs, you can pay people for that or just attend anonymous meetings. This isn't the damn 50's when you were expected to be alone and stay alone with your feelings pent up forever.

I did the same, and it always boil down to the same shit every time. If you're not comfortable with talking about irl, then you need to become comfortable about it, or else you have no reason to complain. At the end of the day you choose your own path.

>>724101594
>tfw used to be clinically depressed, severely anti-social alcoholic and thief

Yeah you're not the first or last. If you choose to give up, don't complain about the results.

>>724101652
also

>freud

Freud a shit, and straw men get you nowhere

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I don't know how much longer I can last. I am literally out of hope. My job prospects are looking terrible. Either I do a job I love and live on the street with the money it pays, or do a job I absolutely hate but get payed enough.

I'm so useless. I just have no motivation to do anything at all. Every time I look at the work I need to do it sends me into an anxious panic. I go to therapy and I try so damned hard but it seems like it doesn't help me at all. I am so screwed up in the head that it's like no matter how much work I do I will always be in the spot I am now.

I honestly want to die. I can't take it anymore. I can't. I just want to take a gun to my head and pull the trigger. I have never been more depressed than I have been now. Breathing hurts. I just want it all to be over.

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its hurt me so much that i live with a girl that i love, i tell her that but it was a mistake. We were so close together, dont know how it can come so easy for her to forget about everything that we have in 2 weeks i cant look at her

>>724101951
It's not so much about being a 'whisky' guy, it's that beer makes me feel like I drank a cup full of foam. The least offensive beer I've drank was Alexander Keith's, but I still felt like my stomach was full after a few drinks and I didn't have any kind of buzz.

>>724101994
Look at this, making assumptions. I don't know your life and you don't know mine, so let's not get into a pissing match.

Also,
>>only vent possible
It's all SOME of us have. Some people can't bear to talk about this with people in real life, so we come to these threads to talk about our issues. We don't always find answers, and sometimes we don't look for them, only a place to talk about what's got us down.

So again, get fucked. You don't know what you're talking about. So go ahead and make some bold claim about how your life is clearly the worst here in the thread, because it doesn't matter. Go on about how you took control of your life because it's just that easy, I guess? Doesn't matter that every life is different and everyone has a different amount of choices and opportunities available to them.

>>724102286

I get that. That's another reason why I like stouts & porters. Higher % and less foam/head if the bar tender knows what they're doing.

I've never heard of Alexander Keith's... Where I live, I have breweries all around me, so not being a beer guy here is impossible, or people will mock you for your lack of local pride.

"OH! You don't like National Bohemian/Flying Dog/Roy Pitz/DuClaw/Antietam Brewery? WHAT ARE YOU?!"

Mind you, most of them suck. haha

In any case, goodnight all. Except the local autist that ruins every thread. I hope you don't find any sleep for a few days because of your obvious retardation.

>>724102286
>Look at this, making assumptions. I don't know your life and you don't know mine, so let's not get into a pissing match.
>hurr I'm going to puff my chest up like a retard on an anonymous image board where it literally doesn't matter just so i don't have to talk about my feelings

Jesus, just say what traumatic shit happened to you that was so awful that you can't even talk about it on image boards already. All you've done so far is retreat from confrontation over and over again.

>how did i take control of my life

Already posted it.

>>724098165

I can add all the reasons why things lead up to this as well, so far you just seem like a lonely twat complaining about literally nothing.

>>724102286

Also, dude, stop wasting time on the assholes here, man. I'd say hit me up personally and we can chat or something, but yeah...

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>>724102623
>>724102820
>try telling people a way to find loneliness not feel so empty
>both of them immediately sperg out

Like I said earlier, its a weird feeling seeing people choose a path which I've personally seen so many others choose, all to stay in blissful ingorance that the reason they are alone is because they, like everyone else around them, do nothing about it but complain.

You can make suggestions but they will scoff ar it and hit the bottle.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4eUu1pnnHo8

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V2KSoCXDQPo

>>724103041

Yeah, but you're being kind of a prick about it.

>>724102253
Did you guys happen to have dated for a couple of years?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IZCl6Gm14Y4

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N-JqkB56ZbI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncN7xqY7Ges

>>724103223
>being kind of a prick about it

Have to be. Seriously, sometimes the only way to get someone on their feet is to give them a kick in the ass. You basically have to assume a father/ authority figure type role.

I'm only being as strict as I had to be to myself to keep myself out of prison for burglary or attempted murder (which had i not come to an early epiphany I could've easily come to commit).

I've been literally to the gutter and back, and hung around some incredibly unsavory types. This kind of harsh exterior is a kind of persona you have to assume when dealing with the worst.

Think about how much of a dick Gordan Ramsey is, then think about what his results look like. That kind of what its like.

>>724103475

And I get that, but that sort of approach doesn't work for everyone. Sometimes, you have to be level and cool with people. Gentle.

I won't disagree, your method works, but so does a kinder approach.

>>724097142
anon you're angry that your friend moved in with his girlfriend ,even though he gave you a month's notice?? That is what you are calling betrayal???

>>724103701
>Gentle

Thats the problem. Gentle doesn't usually work for when you need to tell a man to behave like a man. In this case, I'm telling you to be strong. People do have different reactions to this based on personality and childhood experiences, but at the same time the only way to get a sense of this mode of behavior is to personify it if they lack the experience.

Being soft is for afterwards once you can break through the exterior and people can reach an emotional catharsis.

https://youtu.be/ek2zKjf6Qk4
Here is some to cheer you up guys

>>724103938

Again, I agree. But I've found a lot of people, especially in our generation, are the one's who don't what it is to "be a man" because we didn't have that in our lives to grow with.

An entire generation of people raised by their mother's and grandparents. A literal lost generation who don't know how to manifest their emotions in a healthy way, and also don't know how to take care of themselves. Full of lost hope and promise.

It's like yelling at a broken dog, man. They piss themselves because they don't know how to cope.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMErlY2CIs0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RVmG_d3HKBA

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rDBbaGCCIhk

cheer up music?

>>724104356
>Again, I agree. But I've found a lot of people, especially in our generation, are the one's who don't what it is to "be a man" because we didn't have that in our lives to grow with.
>lost generation

I mean this would go far into philisophy, modernism, post-modernism, anti-modernism (traditionalism) as well, so it would be very complicated.

I too lacked said central figure yet found myself through sheer force of will. I have been more broken than most, too the point of literal suicide and borderline anti-social personality disorder and back.

Some people fail at this, yet the answer always remains the same. Sometimes people need to be forced to understand the right thing. The best method I've found is the make them vulnerable to their own feelings, break them, then tell them where in life they have gone wrong when they are in a mode of catharsis.

Catharsis only occurs after a great struggle, so you're right in it not being easy, but it is still the only answer.

Contemplating the future of our generation is a lot of what this gets into btw when I first posted it. Most can't see why it has so much meaning, yet it is a perfect allegory for the state of every generation post Boomers. Always in denial, and will not realize their folly until they are very old unless someone can get through to them.

https://youtu.be/Qk213MxnHZU

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>>724104412
/a/ fags will appreciate this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qcOiJnWniWg

>>724088146

based king crimson

>>724094593

you must be an oldfag, 29 here.... This hits home

>>724105268

nope, 29 also.

>>724098570

nice story anon

>>724105470

well at 29 we're getting old tbqh

>>724105268

Fuck, it's too early... or late...

yeah, I've been on 4chan too long. Years, hours... whichever. haha

>>724105550

Not quite. Life doesn't stop til it ends... I may be 29, alongside you, but I still intend to rush headlong into battle like a foolhardy 19 old me.

haha.

When that girl at work you really like is walking by from her department. It's been a year and you still haven't gone and talked to her.

>n-not a t-true story lads ;-;

https://youtu.be/V65-n6qNMaY

>>724105512
thanks. First time posting so I'll probably edit it some for maximum feels

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mh2D0bpXLuI

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ws4908LsEAo

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iXt63CC0mSM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vrXpFh2IHZY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7PbAT6zOihc

The first four are good, but no song has both hurt me and made me feel more loved than the last one. Holy shit, I hurt just remembering.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hhTuB9-GYkY
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=M4pfuox1N8A
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3J5mE-J1WLk

The last one is supposed to be a suicide note

Does anyone listen to thelazylazyme? Also:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJ4KPrrbOU4

Sometimes you just need some lofi to help block out the bad feels

>>724106296
>>724106372

post tits + timestamp for feels

also what brings you to the feels thread in general femanon?

>>724106372

What do you think of this one?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYjlMevX-II

>>724106443
Bruh, I'm a guy. I listen to that stuff cause I've attempted suicide twice and I still have clinical depression, I kind of resonate. I feel like such a fag saying this shit

>>724106443
Not the same person. I'm>>724106296 and >>724106401 and >>724106513

I'm a guy too lol

>>724105733

Oh I don't plan on not enjoying life, just pointing out that you had to be around my age becuase that was highschool music to the tee for our age group

>>724083041
LOL, hipster crap over produced to make it sound as if it was recorded 40 years ago.

>Cant these assholes invent anything? All they do is re-hash and resurrect.

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>>724106547
>>724106591

just banter m8's don't worry about it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jo29PoLkoOM

>>724106513
That fucked me up

>>724106833

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H_rdYY9CIWE
This one is a little.. hard for my usual down mood, but damn it's strong.

>>724106932
good one. Ever heard pre Jazz white music? It's absolute trash from any perspective.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=szp9x1ZlZn4

Idk why, but this one always gets me

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>>724107042
>Ever heard pre Jazz white music?
>pre jazz
>trash

wew

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QxHkLdQy5f0

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>>724083041
So deep
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aA9OqUuA6a0

>>724085524
https://youtu.be/wXVQNSlFJ6M

>>724107165
Excluding classical of course. Figured that was obvious. I'm talking about when recorded music was just becoming possible, like 1900-1920, before whites realized that Jazz was damn good.

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>>724107165
on that topic

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1-TrAvp_xs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bosouX_d8Y

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a0hFZPvanMs

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TZCfydWF48c

>>724107353
Interesting video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1T9VvaKNW28

>>724107353
>1900-1920's
>no good music

Pretty sure music then was just fine, its just more obscure.

>>724107601
see >>724107491

>>724107426
I prefer piano to violin/orchestra, especially when life sucks.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Tr0otuiQuU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s-8xX-ox__A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1N8jKsu1NCE

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>>724107491
>it literally just gets worse as it continues

Its like watching rome go from republic to bread and circuses empire in a few minutes.

The lyrics hit too close to home for me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-Mjx4WY2xM

>>724107672
Haha once it get's into like the 30-40;s it's not so bad

>>724107728
Compared to the 1800's? Meh

>>724107491
It just jumps between hymns and folk and classical for the 1800s, with the occasional crap that I referenced already (eg 1868, 1872, 1876).

Ok im at the 1990s, the songs the chose were NOT the top of the years. 1996 Macarena? lol.

Alicia Keys Fallin 2001 shows the two towers lmao

Gangnam Style for 2012. sigh, it was a MEME. Jesus Hussein Christ come on.

>>724108068
Popularity is popularity, the most popular music then was not as good as now.

wrong generation fags might have a point, not that music isn't good, but popular music has steadily gotten trashier and trashier since the mid 1800's.

Last dump, then I'm out.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUs0O81n9-A

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vt1Pwfnh5pc

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l7GciTxOcwU

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pak0LEhFyAY

>>724108162
sure dude. I see what you mean, but that isn't what >>724107830
and I think there was one more were saying.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zprCVgMKXT0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XgMRNiEPPYg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1CjxQXXA7o
Just a thought but watching and observing the world more and more makes me feel strange. I can feel things are falling apart, slowly.

>>724107830
I'm more into the 50-60's tbh

Im crippingly lonely and sad. This site and its shitty memes and these feels threads seem to be the only motivation or comfort i get recently. I love you all /b/ros. Because right now it seems this is all i got.