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I'm deeply unhappy.
Most people at school know me, and we talk, but never about anything. We only exchange hellos and goodbyes. I'm extroverted as hell and i believe I'm funny. I make people laugh anyway. I always reach out to people, but nobody reaches out to me. My thumbs are sore from always texting and typing. I don't share interests with anyone, and I don't like video games. I don't even have a PC. Just a MAC. Every night I squeeze my eyes tight and pretend that I'm getting a snapchat, or a text from someone and we're just having this amazing conversation. I pray and hope this happens, but I have a strong feeling it won't. I love movies, and my screenplay is the only thing keeping me from taking my dad's gun from his closet and killing myself. That along with my family, and my pets. I have these dreams of just being happy for once, but something happens that just reinforces my insecurities and my sorrow. I have a great fucking life, two loving parents, and my sister, so I feel like a dick anytime someone tells me about their goddamn Dave Pelzer-tier sob story about their abusive parents or shitty life.
I'm currently losing weight by dieting and running on my treadmill, and it's not too difficult. I just get scared that the only thing people will say to me once I've lost the weight is that I look better, and then they'll walk away.
I don't want to get laid, I don't want a gf, I just want a friend. just that. just someone I don't have to constantly reach out to. Someone who likes stuff that I like.
And to top it all off, nothing turns me on anymore, I just feel hollow. I can't bring myself to fap.
Feels Thread
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How old are you?
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>>723439151
How long have you felt like this? Because either this went on for ages, or you've convinced yourself that your life has always been this way. I'm not patronizing or anything, just trying to figure your situation out.
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>>723438788
I hate having this fucking complex about myself, and it won't go away.
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>>723439299
I've really felt this way since I went from homeschooling back into public school. So middle school.
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>>723439309
Maybe I'm just needy. That's probably it.
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>>723439427
>>723439309
A lot of people have complexes, and I feel that a lot of people have felt this way. I'm by no means a professional, but maybe don't give too much "power" to this feeling? Sure, ponder over it and philosophise and feel down and all that jazz, that's cool, but also realise the value in rationality. I find that with deep introspection, I can always find the answers. How long that takes depends on my pride.
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>>723438788
Then make a fucking friend. It's not rocket science. Quit expecting everything to be handed to you like it already has your whole life.
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>>723439726
This. Stop being a pussy, OP. It's your fault you're unhappy.
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>>723439726
I try, man. I really do. I always try to stay in touch with people. Ask them how their day was, and listen to them talk about their feelings. But nobody does that for me. And when I stop doing that, nobody talks to me. What the hell am I doing wrong?
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>>723440146
I fucking bamboozled myself and I can't snap out of it.
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>>723440312
me too
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>>723440565
thanks
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>>723440312
are you a cigarette smoker? thats what ruined my life and fapping
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Some advice I found on this board:
Nothing is wrong. Even if something seems like it's wrong- there is nothing wrong.
When I say and think this to myself when I am stressed it immediately seems clearer and I remember that nothing is really wrong.
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>>723440670
Never smoked before. But great job for quitting. Keep it up, every day gets easier. Just like me and pastries, and cookies, and pies, and sugary shit. It's not worth going back to.
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>>723440873
That's interesting.
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>>723441003
never said i quit fgt, maybr you are a fgt fgt
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>>723440146
Maybe you're being overly friendly and it's creeping everyone out? I have a hard time trusting overly friendly people, I always assume they're up to something.
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>>723440873
But some people on this board think abusing animals and stealing shit is "not wrong". Some people are just plain fucked, and many things are wrong.
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>>723441314
Well if you're smoking now, just consider quitting. You'll feel better I bet. Or just start smoking cigars in public while wearing aviators and a derby hat. Also, dress in Tommy Bahama wear. Drive a cadillac el dorado. Cherry red convertible. Live in Cuba. Start a rum business.
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Come on, you are 18. You will meet a lot of people, and I really mean a lot. You'll know when others want to be friends. Also, you need a girlfriend. If you are like you say, that will not be so hard. And once you have one, get another one. If you can't have friends, you can always have as many bitches as you want.
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>>723441591
eliminate the jews?
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>>723441447
Maybe it's desperation. I give off that vibe i think.
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>>723441646
Jews in Cuba? What? I don't think so
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>>723441600
Thanks man!
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>>723438788
im also like this its called depression and a tip is don't drink alchohol ;)
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>>723441844
Addiction runs in the family, so I strayed away from alcohol. Instead I turned to food and that got me up to 350 lbs :( I'm down to 310, but it's a long fucking road.
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>>723441646
only 1500 in Cuba. You can do it.
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>>723442019
dang good luck man
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>>723438788
Well thank you all for helping me out with some hard feels. The thread's about to expire i have a feeling, but all of you guys and gals are really sweet.
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>>723441579
I didn't mean that's 'wrong' as in immoral or unethical - I just meant like OH SHIT something is just wrong in my life
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>>723441130
It helps me out a lot actually , not only keeps the day to day bullshit worry free but it also helps with existential dread also
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