Feels and story time. Well a little high and buzzed, been feeling

>>723339178
Background
>be less than a month from 21
>be amerifag
>average height, normal figure fairly slim
>About average looking I'd say
>Pretty bad general anxiety, depression, severe insomnia
>uses many substances and the help of friends to get by
This takes place a few years ago when I was 18, a munch younger naive person

>>723339526
As another general background I was always known as the innocent really nice guy through school and with most of my family, excluding my cousins. I had few friends but they were close, anway

>>723339659
We must go back!
>Be me, 18
>Just started to push being more social and fight anxiety
>Have high sex drive so frustrated beyond the warp
>Never had gf before
>go to prom for a private school of home schooled kids
Let that sink in
>Senior year and all senior girls get on stage to pick prom queen
>See this girl named Jennifer get on stage
>Jaw drops, all spaghetti out of pocket
>"I.. want.. no, need.. to ask her to dance

>>723340047
>She was not chosen for prom queen
>Celebration of the bitch and douche top_dogs
>Then they call for a seniors only slow dance
>"Oh shit!"
>I actually have a reason to approach a girl
>girls and guys walk down stage
>follow her into the crowd
>Trying to see her distinctive red and black dress, only colored one I had seen
>push through crowd and see her talking to her friends
>"Hey excuse me, I was wondering if you'd like to dance?"
>Suaveasfuck.webm
>Girl turns around
>Whathaveidone.jpg
>Not Jen
>Girl with similar dress and hair
>Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck
>notice all the excited faces of her friends
>Gotta be a fucking gentlemen
>take her hand out to dance

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If I have to dump porn to draw you faggots in then it can come to that

>>723340829
>We introduce ourselves as we go to the floor
>"You know anon, I've never been asked to dance before"
>Damn I fucked up
>Feelingrealbadman
>Figure out shes a senior but we don't talk much, she seemed really shy
>I engaged in convo but thats it
>Struggle to not laugh and cry due to shame as I see friends on the sidelines
>Freaking out pointing and roflcoptering hard, they know whats wrong
>not the right girl
>Song finishes
>Parted ways
>Still have no idea what her name was