feels thread /b/ >be me 18 >HS >feel like shit daily

God, you're only 18. You'll be fine. Learn some patience.

>>723222572
yeah I know when i got college or some shit this shit won't matter but right now I feel like shit

>>723222572
>>723222717(me)

what I think I may do is just 'shell up' and not talk to anyone or do anything until this shit passes

no worries dude. the real mindfuck is still way ahead

>>723223888
how so?

You're young. With time, you'll forget about her. You'll meet new girls. You'll lose feelings for her. Just roll with the punches homie.

Trust me dude, especially if you're as into a chick as this, it's better to find out early that it's not gonna go anywhere. Otherwise you end up in a bad relationship that you don't want to end.

>>723224344
I know and I'm going to do my best to get rid of feelings for anyone but for some reason I just feel the desire to be with someone
>>723224382
that's true being in one with her and having it end would make me worse than I already am..

>>723222132
anon i'll tell you a bunch of things that you have probably already heard and are cliche but they are all true.

i was exactly like you when i was 18, i had the most pathethic over the top crazy crush to a girl and i had that shit since i was 15.
we both ended up in the same city for college so it was only natural to start hanging out.

you know what happened? i got f zoned a number of times.

then i got to be with another girl, broke my virgin spell, and found some friends to hang with, some good some bad, shit happens.

now i'm 24 and i don't give a flying fuck about that person, i can't believe i was such an idiot inmature guy, i could have had a few other girls instead of running after her, and being selfish too i mean that girl KNEW i was actively trying to get into her pants and she was still cool when we hang because i was a friend and old friend... and i ruined that she was just waiting for me to give up and that i stopped making things weird between us.

anon just focus on getting good grades and coming with a plan for your future because if you are not willing to have anyone else in your life you might as well live an awesome life. don't be a broke sad excuse of a person, re invent yourself. learn, laugh, watch that cartoon for teens that makes you smile.
that is life, not going after some random chick that you won't bother about in a few years.
if you have questions i can answer.

>>723224871

Exactly. If she's showing you she's not into you at this point, don't chase.

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Hey man don't feel bad, shit will blow over. I'm the same age, but in college. When I was in HS, I had no gf and didn't really talk to girls. This first year in college I kissed a girl, been talking to girls. I mean so far I don't think any of them want to date me, but hey I kissed a girl, even though we were drunk

>>723225062
the thing is when we went out she was the first to talk to me and well the second time (month after) tried the same thing and well that didn't work out

>>723225016
at this point I wouldn't care if I got friend-zoned at least its something

my plan is AFROTC and well just do my service and say goodbye to my classmates

>>723225527
whoops, forgot to mention. Moral of the story, you'll meet people in college that actually want to talk to you, just put that shit on cruise control for the time being

>>723225882
you see I have this defense mechanism to prevent rejection it's called 'convince yourself [girl] doesn't like you' once I do that, it's easy to fuck everything up

Listen to me now. I'm a senior in college, I was you in high school. College is completely different. All you have to do is talk to ANY person and you'll find a clique of real friends. Whether it be a roommate, random nerdy kid, doesn't matter. And from there at least one person from the clique will have a roommate who is normal, knows where the parties are at etc. Go to parties, don't draw attention to yourself but don't be a weirdo either. Literally as simple as that

>>723225804
>AFROTC
not bad at all, i really wish you good luck op. My whole point was that life is much too wide and complex to worry or suffer over one love that didn't work.

it's not easy i know, but you'll make it.

the only girl I'm interested in is my supervisor.
She has a boyfriend, and is 6 years older than me(not that I mind, but she might)

She was the only enjoyable part of my work. They shift shit around, so that I haven't seen her in a month, I get to see her next week, but I don't know for how long. after the changes, I don't get to see her as much. I think one of the reason we were separated is because we wasted so much time just chilling.

I'm pretty sure everyone knows I like her. I'm okay with that too. it's not really a secret, but I'm too much of a principled fuck to hit on someone that's taken.

life sucks sometimes, anon.

>>723226006
One thing that really helped me going into college was actually some advice I heard on 4chan.

When you meet people go in with the predisposition that they already like you,

Honestly, if you talk to people like they like you and you smile and shit. Believe it or not, people will actually want to talk to you.

>>723226330
it's even worse I heard she may be dating someone else but her relationships don't last long and heard her complain to her friend why people break up with her so it makes me think why would they?...

>>723226705
>When you meet people go in with the predisposition that they already like you,

that actually doesn't sound bad I may try that I see college as a new chance to not be that anti-social edge lord

>parents dump me on grandparents at 4 months
>dad moves to florida to be an alcoholic
>mother suffering from severe bipolar depression
>had 3 friends kill themselves in my life
>been robbed, nearly drowned, set on fire, beaten, bullied, nearly killed
>diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety
>grades were shit through school
>grandmother too sick to be in my life alot
>grandfather trying to keep up, fails
>grandpa has a heart attack when im 12, have to help him around alot more
>have to watch them die
>stuck to computer to escape
>19 now
>thinking about joining the army to get myself killed
>too pussy to do it myself
I need a hug.

>>723226298
Hey I have a question

All the friends I've made so far in college are more introverted/sheltered than me. The friend group I had in HS, I was probably the most calm or square. But now I'm the one having to get my friends to do shit in college. Not saying I don't like my friends that I've made, but, how do I make friends that at least want to hang, have fun, and go to the occasional party? I'm a CS major, so obviously the majority are you know, nerdy.

Anyone who is a virgin beta who is actually concerned about these kinds of things just needs to go to a state school for 4 years and make some friends. Cheap tuition, work part time. I don't even care if you major in westernized autism studies and how it impacts modern day feminism... that's not what you're there for... you're there to figure out how to be a functioning adult and learn that the world of relationships isn't as complicated and dramatic and childish as it seems in high school. Bonus points if you pick a major that will actually land you a decent job in a stem field. PS it's literally impossible to get denied to a state school

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>>723226955
Yeah bro, you can do it!

>>723227079
If you're still early on its hardly a problem. Just go to a few parties and be a casual eventually you'll meet some new people. This is the part where you have to become an adult and realize that everyone's there to socialize. So you socialize a little and eventually you have some new friends

All you need in life is a gym membership, protein, and some creatine. Get your ass in the gym and see what happens in 3 years

Spoiler:asexual muscle mannequin

>>723227446
Yeah, I'm in my second semester so I'm still fresh off the boat. But my problem is actually finding a party to go to. I know where to go to parties, but the parties are back in the state where I used to live which is an hour away. I'm trying to make friends where I now live, but I can't find parties here :/

>>723227054
just sign the papers and there's no going back (I'm also OP) and thought of being a CRO and hoping to be deployed and wouldn't give two shits if I died

these threads make me cringe so fukin hard

>>723222132
You fucked your cousin?

>>723222132
Try therapy. Getting hung up on a girl sucks. Most girls will not want to be with you no matter who you are. Finding one who feels the same way you do about her is important.

>>723222132
>my cousin will get pissy if I end our streak
Explain

>>723222132
Don't bother. Waste of time. Focus on your education and your dreams before you get caught up in a pointless relationship that will most likely not last and will leave you feeling like shit when you're done.

Go chase your dreams instead of chasing the worthless pieces of ass that run around highschools. Once you're satisfied with your life, then you can find a nice girl to settle down with.

Pro-tip, if she's fucked more than 2 guys in her lifetime don't bother. She's used up and not worth it. Self respect is also something that you'll learn to value. It's also something that a lot of men lose in their younger years trying to earn the affection of bitches. Self respect is what separates the boys from the men.

>>723227911
no but I wouldn't rule it out honestly

>>723228115
she just gets kinda upset over it but no mad like she's going to kill you or some shit and cut you out but I don't mind talking with her...at least it's someone...

>>723228178
thing is I don't know much about her but I could imagine guys want in her pants and shit (she does have a nice body) and unlike most guys I'm not that interested in sex either just rather have fun adventures or shit with her

If you wanna hear a sob story about hyper focusing on a girl, I have a pretty decent one.
>Be me high school sophomore
>Spent first 2 years wallowing and prancing around like a degenerate in a field of filth
>Liked anime, porn, and traps basically I was the physical representation of /b/
>Weighed 235 lbs at my heaviest
>Hadn't talked to a girl let alone hit on one since entering high school
>In enters blonde hair blue eyed beauty
>Diamonds
>Fall for this girl head over heels
>Spend whole year trying to get the confidence to talk to her
>Make small talk conversation, but nothing past that
>She writes a ton and I do as well, we're basically meant for each other
>Speech assignment in one of our classes on a personal experience that shaped us
>She writes about an eating disorder and how that effected her
>Shit hits me hard, not sure if it touched my heart or dick
>Look at myself in the mirror after class that day and realize the slob I am
>Full unkept beard, acne, long greasy hair, more rolls than an Danish deli, ect.
>I don't have an excuse for the cesspool of degeneracy I'm engulfed in
>Spark of motivation to lose weight hits me
>School year ends
>Blonde haired girl is the voice in my head that pushes me to keep going
>Lose 85lbs (235 -150) over the summer months without telling anyone outside my family
>Take care of acne and dress better
>I'm unrecognizable unless you were told it was me
>First day of school I'm treated the new kid in class
>Blondie is in my class
>Stereotypical class introduction
>My turn
>I saw my name and the room goes quiet
>Couple of whispers and gasp
>Loud black girl says "DAMNNNNN Anon you got SKINNY!"
>Glance over at Blondie, she's smiling really big
>After class I pull Blondie aside and talk to her
>Thank her for the speech she gave last year and told her I used it as motivation
>She gets super happy and starts tearing up a little
>I get her number later and we talk for a couple months
>Homecoming and I figure I'll go for it
Cont?

>>723222132
Falling in love and things not going as you planned is just another part of living. Only in movies the love of your life loves you back (or in rare cases). I see this as another step in life, something that will help me grow stronger.

OP believe me, time can cure even the deepest wounds.

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I felt the same way in highschool, but now in uni, i found some great friend with whom i spend tine with having fun and i feel accepted again. Fear not op you're not the only one, and shes not the only girl you're ever gonna talk to

>>723229249
Cont?COnt?CONT? OF COURSE CONT, ANON I'M ON THE EDGE OF MY SEAT(I'm actually interested, not sarcastic)

>>723229249
keep it going

>>723229285
yeah but for now it sucks ass

>>723229249
please

>>723222132
>>realize I don't want to date anyone but her
>>everyone else I would date is taken
>>realize I'm going to be single for awhile
go back to lereddit fag

>>723229838
It's supposed to hurt. But like every other pain, it is temporary.

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>Be me 3 years ago, virgin
>meet girl and she just gives me her number
>text her for weeks
>start dating, lose my virginity after several attempts due to me being nervous
>start seeing her all the time, I'm finally happy, though she has a lot of problems and is a recovering heroin addict
>Tell her if she ever uses again I will leave her
>9 months later, I am in love with her and we start using together
>literally my soul mate, do everything together
>passion deepens
>we see the problems heroin is causing us and make an effort to quit, we aren't getting sick any more
>relapse on Christmas because that's all we could think of, neither of us had jobs and didn't have much
>she dies
>2016 is a grief fueled heroin binge
>currently trying to clean up using suboxone but am bored with life

I see no pleasure in life any more. What's the point? You only get one soul mate. Mine's dead. I have fucked another girl a few times but it's not the same as making passionate love to someone.

And heroin withdrawals make me go fucking insane and suicidal. I don't have her to keep me company during, either. My life has become a nightmare. The only way it's ever going to get better is to stop using, but fuck is it hard. I've already been to rehab once and that didn't stop me for long.

You can say she was bad for me because of the drugs, but I won't give a shit. I've never been so close to anyone and I don't see myself ever getting that close to anyone again.

I'm broken. Pic related.

>>723229249
My bad on spelling, didn't feel like checking it.
>Ask her and she hits me with the "Oh...Anon I was planning on going with friends"
>While I may be a mongol, I'm not brain dead
>Absolutely broken up about it and start to think the whole weight loss wasn't worth it
>Self pity for about a month and gain about 15lbs back
>Look at my body and realize that I didn't do all of this for the purpose of one fucking girl
>Drop the depression weight quickly and move on
>Start gaining confidence in myself and actually talk to girls
>Still remain in contact with Blondie, though more as a friend
>Meet this really cute girl in my math class, blonde (funny enough), great sense of humor, and we click instantly
>Wasn't expecting it at all, she's been my girlfriend for almost a year now and I've never been happier.
I still talk to Blondie frequently (she's one of my close friends now), I think I learned that having oneitis for a girl won't do you any good. A relationship isn't something you actively search for, rather it's something that spontaneous, it can't be forced. Also keep your fucking health in check, that shit is so paramount.

>>723222132
Hi anon

I married the girl I dated in high school. We had a kid together, she got fat and never really got over high school and we are now divorced and she shit talks me to our kid daily.

Life is fucking long, dude. Not every flower blooms at the same time or some shit like that.

>>723230751
Exactly, love is something that just happens, you don't search for it.

>>723231490
Yeah, true. I found my soul mate like that. But it ended tragically and I'm more broken than ever. At least now I know what I'm looking for in a girl.

>>723222132
Guy....if she's your first gf, you and her are almost DEFINITELY going to break up anyway

Don't sweat it

Captcha:shelves but the pic. was sideways

>>723230749
Cool seeing my story here, if anyone has any questions id be happy to answer them. -Adonis

Shag your cousin

>>723232084
I figured but I could see myself doing so much with her but that may never happen...also when we did talk she did call me guy not sure if it meant anything

I can't post images to 4chan anymore

It just says
>upload failed
Why even live

>>723224871
No shit you desire to bee with someone as autism as we may bee. We still bee people and that's just part of beeing human

that bee pretty unfortunate

>>723232200
if she offered I wouldn't decline and she's my 2nd so it wouldn't be as bad either

>>723226061
Saved

>>723222132
>be me
>16 sophmore year
>ultra virgin
>hang out with nerd gods
>play magic the gathering everyday
>start getting sad about status as ultra nerd god (one of the better magic fags)
>like really sad
>start planning suicide
>gets bad
>mom doesnt know and save up to buy a gun
>buy gun and get close to doing it a few nights in a row
>still havent finished giving stuff away cant do it yet
>still have my phone
>no more friends to give stuff away to
>sold magic $300 of cards for $20
>gave money to mom
>journalism class
>new girl qt 7/10
>shes an ultra nerd god
>dont think much of her until she asks why i sit with magic fags but dont play
>tell about selling cards
>she challenges me with my old deck
>beats me
>dont care afterwards just sit quietly like i usually do
>doesnt matter in the end right?
>friends haze me a bit
>still dont care
>she asks good friend who knows about depression why im unphased
>"thats how anon always is i guess"
>she asks me directly
>"idk its just a game it doesnt matter"
> continue giving valuable stuff away bit by bit until the day comes
>open google docs and begin suicide note/will
>finish suicide note and share to facebook in order to get it out to as many people as possible

cont?

>>723222132
>caring about girls

Man times were so simple when you are young

>>723232268
help help i'm being repressed

I CANT POST IMAGES ANYMORE IT SAYS UPLOAD FAILED

>>723222132

Try and at least do well in school with the time you have left, nope the fuck out of there, go to college and enjoy yourself. You can virtually get laid on accident in college, and HS relationships rarely, if ever, last past the first few months of college anyway.

>>723232553
Cont boy cont

>>723232553
COOOOOOOOOOOONNTTTTT

>>723232553
Why didn't you kys faggot?

>>723232553
Please cont anon

I desperately want a relationship but I've really never met anybody who I felt like I wanted to be more than friends with. I suppose it's just as well, seeing as nobody's ever felt that way about me either. Same sorta situation as OP, I'm hoping that you guys are right and that college proves differently. It's not even about getting laid or anything, I just don't want to be lonely anymore.

>>723232204
She called you "guy"? That may be a bad sign
Even th captcha was a bad sign 25mph

>>723232553
You degenerate, what a waste of time and money

>>723232936
that's why I come here for the shenanigans for personal help I wouldn't tell anyone I know

>>723233010
good to know

>>723232553

Who the hell sold you a gun at 16?

>>723232553
Cont cont cont cont cont cont

>>723232553
Fake and gay
Sit on a pike anon

>>723222132
Well OP, you'll get past it. its a temporary problem but that doesn't mean it doesn't sting. I had a similar issue. and for years i never opened up to anyone. my reasoning was was sound because most people wanted a hook-up no strings attached, my only attribute was my body, not y humanity. The person i always wanted the person who saw me as someone other than aesthetic, left a long time ago you and i will always miss them and love them. but here is my contention anon, this is the place you will find the most support for your problems. 4chan. A place notorious for being full of shitty people.

Here people congregated and actually listen to what you had to say. You've been undeniably torn down now and we are still here for you, whatever you need fromm here on out emotionally or otherwise we are still here. Right now more people are trying to cheer you up here on /b/ on this feels thread than have likely tried it anywhere else. So, whats the relevance of that, she will always mean something, but there will always be someone else out there for you, to lean on, or to just pal around with, and eventually to be with. You will miss her and that's the sad part, but tell me if she was disinterested, would it really have worked out? You will find someone Highschool is Highschool, good thing the average lifetime is 19.5 times longer than highschool. pain is a part of life, but so is acceptance.

here in this feels thread is something special, even though we're all here for different reasons, for different events, and different equally as vivid problems. We share what you are going through, good luck OP. -Adonis

>>723232553
What kind of cards ??

>>723232553
I think he finally kicked the bucket

>>723222132
I have never really known who I am or who I want to be
>be me, 18, HS
>Parents grew up poor, so they drove me to work as hard as possible in school to get the best college and therefor best life (tiger parents, but oddly im white)
>I have had many hobbies, Double bass (classical), but I never knew if I wanted to do them or if its my parents thinking for college apps
>I have no good memories of my family being a family, only fights and anger toward me not doing well enough, and any positive moments are jumbled in my brain as just motivation for the next grade
>Im not like my parents, and so I end up squandering any respect and cool thing I get to do
>because ive been inside studying all the time I never get to see girls, and so I waste an international music tour in spain by chasing some cellist who goes to some soft violinist anyway
>I dont even remember much of the trip
>now I am empty going to college, waiting every day by the mailbox and refreshing my email hoping the next decision will validate my existence to myself and my parents.
>see all my friends have passions and careers they want, where all I am is chasing the degree with the highest salary so I can buy happiness
>On that note I never really had friends either cause I was not allowed to go out, and so /b/ contains my only friends
>im a social outcast at school, and so any college essay about friends is a complete lie

Just a segment of my pity-party. I hate myself and life in general

>>723232000
checked

>>723232553
Please come back anon, I'll give you a cookie if you cont

>>723233195
godspeed anon

>>723232553
>am found by sister and saved
>large scale upset by school
>sent to every councilor in a 50 mile radius
>school has big suicide prevention week
>am forced to tell my story
>still suicidal and most kids just look bored
>"i was in my room with the gun in my hands... and i wish i would of done it before my sister got there"
>school cancels assembly and im suspended
>still dont care fake it to therapists that im doing better
>return to school and sit with magic fags silently like usual
>get about 50 expected "glad your back" talks from randos i dont know or like
>one day decide im gonna try to get some before i go
>start talking to qt from before
>she says shes been through the same stuff blah blah blah
>start getting more flirty
>beat her in magic and buy her burgers
>shes ultra competitive
>still is
>we start getting closer
>6 months then a year gone in the blink of an eye
>realise shes becoming more than some ass before i die
>shes meaning something to me
>she tells me she loves me
>im shocked at first
>werent official always in flirt mode but at this point we had kissed and were spending everyday together
>we come up with cute nicknames but not conventional ones
>always call eachother ugly
>1 year passes
>senior year and ive cleaned up my shit
>looking better feeling better
>she is still with me and we are moving in together soon
>fast foward 5 years to now
>married with 2 beautiful daughters
>happiest ive ever been
>still have gun and hang it up on wall now as sort of a fucked up joke

>>723233087
convinced my grandpa to buy it in his name as a hunting rifle

>>723233239
magic: the gathering

>>723233455
congrats anon

>>723233455
>still have gun and hang it up on wall now as sort of a fucked up joke

Kek

>>723233195
man of the year

>>723233455
Wow anon, that actually made me tear up a bit inside
But you're still a fucking faggot

>>723233195
well shit, right in the feels.

>>723233649
you to man, you too

>>723233455
Post pics of your kids
And how old are they ???

>>723230710
Been there but with pills

>bee me 18
>go to college
>fail out one semester
party now study later.wmv
>go to a community college
>at friends amok in'
Me: All we do is smoke here lets go for a ride!
Friend phone: bring bring
Hello.wav
His friend; call her Sam
Sam having rape flashbacks
My friend like a brother, who didn't touch her, to her
>we get in car go to her house
>walk in her room
>as I walk though the door she looks up want we stare each other directly in the eyes
Instant_attraction.luv.html
>we start talking
I'm super cautious
Says sex is cool
She's a drug addict too recently out of rehab for pills, opiates and others
>we become duck buddies then start dating
>I slowly start doing more drugs
>she moves in to my friends for a week
>one mile down the street from me
Her molesty brother was home for a week

I'm eating a gun if I fail this current semester. I'm on academic probation due to a mental breakdown that I had two years ago and failing two semesters because of it. I'm struggling with time management and I'm having trouble remembering what I've read when it isn't discussed in class. I choked Monday on a test. I literally drew a blank on most of the questions. I missed a deadline today for an assignment that I completely forgot about since it wasn't listed on the course schedule or syllabus so that's a big fat zero that's going to hurt my GPA.

My only way to succeed in life is to get a degree that doesn't require manual labor. I'm out of shape and can barely bench 40lbs. If I don't succeed in getting an education, I'll be homeless. I can't do anything else BUT a desk job.

Suicide by a self-inflicted gunshot wound is my preferred method, but I'll probably swallow two bottles of Tylenol and Lunesta and Ambien if I can get a hold of it.

It's a do-or-die scenario, literally.

>>723222132
weird thing happening to me, whenever i try to upload an image i get
>error: upload failed

anyone know what this is?

>>723233687
Thanks anon, we can all join hands and be faggots together

>>723233195
damn, just damn.

>>723233695
there is a thread going on where pics of kids are somewhat needed so...

>>723233705
My GF got molested by her brother when she was little too. Wow wtf? Please continue.

>>723222132
not invalidating your experience here or anything bruh but why the fuck are feels threads always about girls

I know it kinda blows at the moment but it'll be alright. I'm kinda in the same situation as you so I completely understand. You're just 18 and you have a whole life ahead of ya, hun! Sure, it'll suck that you're not in a relationship while others are around you but high school relationships are usually just that, they tend to just last in highschool. Don't sweat it too much alright? You'll find someone eventually!

I was just like you, Now i'm a fuckboy, If you had a date with your dreams girl, I think you aren't ugly, So.. You just have to take like.. an egocentric acctitude, Even if you feel like shit, Also being with uglier people always work, It maybe sounds stupid but it worked for me, Get a new style, Act like shit with your uglier friends, Make they to feel like.. you are a king(? your acctitude will be more dominant and you will have all girls behind you, Even if you are not interested on her, Sex is never a bad thing, At least you will enjoy your sexual and social life until you get in love from a girl.. you will know how to get her.

>>723233455
>things that never happened

>>723222132
easy anon, you need to fuck your cousin

bump for feels

>>723233921
let him dream

>>723233763
bump for answer

>>723233195
underrated post

Why are feels threads always about girls?
I have many rather serious feels and they're all decidedly not about girls
Consequently I feel alienated

>>723234188
breh

>>723234188
a feels thread is a feels thread, post away

>>723234188
share em, it's because most people generally have relationship problems with their partners or friends and just wanna get them off their chest. feels threads are pretty much just community therapy and sharing your emotions

>>723234188
>>723234288
wow

I'm looking for the Danish mindfulness dude

I'm the anon from a few months ago, scared of telling a girl I love her

>>723233834
I will but she actually had two older brothers
One raped her started around 8 he was like 2 or 4 years older
The older one idk but he did touch her
>>723233705

>we start dating in February
We met on Jan 8 2012
Fucked on Jan 18 >haha it was by friends bday and he had a gf and he didn't get laid
>Started going 4 real out in February
And I'm doing pills now
>Librium
>seroquil
just dabbling but as time progress I do more and more I'm head over heels for this girl
I'm fast forwarding through the sap and our luv because of all the time and effort and names and people I could get into
I'm a weirdo who does weird things for weird reasons
Lots of context may be needed flienoffound.404.html

We one time gave a guy a ride home and he was like yo if you ever need a mean guy call me check my criminal history
>he murdered a guy with a fuckin axe
>we started hanging out.....that happened
>sold good pot.....

One day she and her friend from therapy were chilling at her house and my gf started to get sigh* triggered (hate that word) because her friend started talking about her molesters
>So my gf took out my pocket knife
I loaned it her because her mom was taking her to eat at some event in her ex's area
And she could use it to stab him if he came skulking around
>she proceeded to cut herself so many times her bandages looked like a cast
>she said "look what you made me do" to her friend

>Anywhoooooo breakup time
>August/September
>I'm so angry I kind of want to sodomize and kill him for raping her for 8 years
>tell her of plan
>she breaks up with me over the sodomy
>on a lot of drugs at this point (in to particular order of frequency)
•kpins
•weed
•seroquil
•buespron (don't care how it's spelled)
•tramadol (actually liked These so much I took my dogs fucking medicine to get high)
•drinking a lot
•concerta
•adderol
•robo tripping
•percs
•vics
cont....

>>723234974
good story wheres the part where you sucked the autism outta that kid

>>723225016
thanks anon, not OP but in a similar situation and needed this

>>723234974
Sooo I need to go to sleep

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>Long story short
we go back and forth fighting
Tell her I hear voices (lie)
Think becaus she's nuts and think we can still be crazy people in love
A lot comes out
>she habitually fux virgins to get over being raped and having hers stolen
Yes, I lost my virginity to her
>she intentionally tried to get me addicted to her scripts so I wouldn't leave her
>she went to her ex the day after we broke up
>she said he was blackmailing her with nudes
I tell her mom
He mom finds phone and sees drugs
>gf goes to rehab
>we fight a lot over FB
>meanwhile now her scripts are gone so I have no benzos
>I'm doing 160ish mg of concerta a day 3x dose
>can't focus on school
>up for 3 days at a time and crashing for like several months
Losing my fucking mind
>so depressed and the concerta is making me focused on how sad I am but keeping me awake
>Have siezure in now ex-gf's pregnan friend's apartment bathroom floor, and peeling on myself
>She drives me home

End up starting to clean up comparatively to how I was

>Take an internship we were "competing" for (friends store so we could get a reference, she's a junkie he'd never hire her in any way )
>Hang out with her one more time after she returns from rehab
>She raids my liquor cabinate and I get mad at her even though I'd be putty in her hands
>But because of her near immediate relapse I take her ass home and stop talking to her
Felt good after a while of being rid of her
Then building myself up again from ashes
I fast forwarded because I was so madly in love with her I could go on
Even after 5 years
I can still remember the first time I told her I lived her
March 3rd 2012, we were in bed in my old dorm visiting me roomie (I got kicked out so my bed was the empty one yay)
About 8:30-9ish am

She destroyed me and is probably one of the top 10 bad decisions in my life maybe even top 5 but damn did I have some fun crashing
Felt great after building back up too

>>723235929
I tried way more drugs than listed here
But to list all them would take to much effort

>>723222132
more like a cringe thread

>>723222132
you'll get over it

Baww

>>723222132
Same happened to me, kisless, met a girl, didnt talk for a week or so. Then she rejected me and she's seeing another boy. I'm just watching em be happy. You can't do anything about that. Accept it and move on.

>>723222132
Stop being a bitch, you don't need a woman. 18 virgin, huh and you complaining. 3 years you shitting in Dipper's, rest has been in school. Live your life more and don't depend on others for subsidence to give your life meaning.

for those who are saying college is different, I get what you mean, but at the same time that's not an excuse. I went to college and I was super excited because I thought that girls would be more interested and easier to approach. Turns out I didn't need to change my location, I needed to change myself. I am now a 21 y/o senior, I've met plenty of people, I've grown as a person, I'm a lot more happy, but I'm still a virgin and I haven't had a single relationship the entire time I've been in college. TLDR; don't go to college to get laid, go to college to discover more about yourself.

>>723222132
Thanks! We need people like you to not feel sorry for OURselves

>>723222132
Really into my feels right now /b/...

I just remembered a random moment back in middle school, 7th grade. A group of cute girls called me a "grenade" while they all laughed and talked about Jersey Shore. I didn't know what the fuck they were talking about at the time, and I didn't until today. Just found out that grenade means:
>A group of ugly, fat, pale, repulsive, and/or slovenly females.
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>>723225804
Yo afrotc bro, what detachment

>>723227865
CRO niggas really don't do shit but sit in the chopper or at a desk and direct PJs. Go ALO or pilot if you really want to actually blow shit up

>>723239786
damn, have you tried working out?

>>723239889
I'm not fat but I'm ugly

>>723232105
How have you been since you told the greentext?

>>723239952
Genetics are a bitch. Schizophrenia and Cancer run in my family. I think I'm pretty good looking, but I'm a 21 y/o virgin, so maybe I'm just lying to myself lol

>>723240156
Yep. I turned out to be the only ugly girl in my family though. My sisters, my mom, my aunts, all good looking. Same with dad and uncles. I don't know how I lost the genetic lottery :(

I'm 20 and still a virgin but at least I'm not kissless :(

>>723240285
are you sure you're ugly and not just hard on yourself? sometimes people will insult others because they are jealous.

>>723240426
I'm probably a 4 at most WITH makeup. I'm starting to like my body, especially my hips and my butt, but face I feel I will never get over

When no guys make any moves on you or not having any dates to prom or any other school dance or event... it makes me realize I'm not just being hard on myself. I am a little shy though but obviously because I am insecure :/

>>723240686
Well, I don't know what you look like and I won't be able to with image posting down, but maybe you are actually really attractive and guys don't approach you because you're intimidating, or they assume you're already taken.

>>723240156
heart disease runs in my family

>>723240782
good luck /b/ro. At this point I'm just preparing so I'll be satisfied with life at it's inevitable end.

>>723233455
good shit m8

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