Feels thread. Tell anons how you are feeling tonight. Music

>>723141503
Sup Bro, I'm alright, decided not to sleep so I can see the sun rise. How about you?

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>>723142179

Working on a post. I'll post it in a min

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I got a ton of feels stuff

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Bump?

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The other night I was at the bar, doing my thing. I work there one night a week, hosting bar trivia. It's not too bad. Anyway, one of the regulars was there. Very cute girl, but she's married. Anyway, later that night we were hanging out and she got really handsy with me. She started grabbing onto me, holding my hand, etc. It was really hot. I'm really into that kind of stuff. More than sex, to be honest. Anyway, I know she's married and her husband was there too. Not sure what he saw, because I was pretty drunk at that point. She disappeared for a minute, and then messaged me something like, "Hey we're at this bar. Come over baby". I get there, and it keeps going further. We eventually were making out. It was insanely hot. I thought she was attractive before, but when I found out she was married, I forgot about it. Then this happened. That was it though. We eventually left, went our separate ways, and that was it.

I saw her the next day, but she didn't say anything about what happened. Her husband was there too, so I wasn't sure if I should broach the subject.

It honestly fucked with me. I've felt real lonely recently, from some bad shit that happened to me, and because I'm predisposed to that. Anxiety/depression in combination is a real bitch. I wanted to keep it going. I still do. I want to be with her. I want her to hold me. I need to be held by someone. I love it so much. It's better than sex to me. To have a taste of something, and then for it to be gone so fast, was a bit hard to swallow. I will see her again Wednesday, and I feel I should ask her what happened. But maybe it was a mistake and she doesn't want to talk about it? Maybe she's in an open marriage? I have no idea.

It's been real hard to deal with.

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i miss her, /b/

>>723143223
Good old Watchmen. I still cherish this comic.

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>>723143183
Were all with you man.

>>723143021
Don't get attached to her. She's a married woman, it just ain't proper.
I'm sorry, bro, but you're gonna have to take the L in this one.

>>723142419

I just watched a Robin Williams movie. Not a good one, but I like it. Did you ever see Toys? I think people forget about it. Like I said, it's not great, but I love it anyway. Robin Wright is so adorable in it. I love the scenery and the artistic style.

I don't blame him for killing himself. I would have done that too if I was him.

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>>723143442

Yes, that's what I think too. I talked to my therapist about what happened today, and she at least wants me to find out what happened. If it was a mistake, fine. But the mystery is what makes me anxious.

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anyone have the full image for this?

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>>723144417

This is my life.

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I miss her bros, but she doesnt miss me.

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>>723144855

Oh man, I remember when IDs looked like that.

this threads starting to boil down, someone add some water to the pot

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You guys ever wonder what your childhood self would think about who you turned out to be?

We used to talk all the time. Day, night, working, classes, arguing, sleepy. No matter what. Then we drifted...we talked less and less. We tried and tried, i did at least. We told eachother we loved eachother. Now it seems like you forgot. "I love you anon". Well i guess it was eggshell love, cracking at the slightest inconvenience. I still love you, built with cinder blocks and steel cages. I love you...but you dont love me. -Anon

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>>723145036
This is just too real. I have some people that would say that they want me to open up and I'll just tell them maybe some other day. The other day comes and I'm leading the conversation to something where I can finally talk about myself. Well, it always ends the same with them not ever giving the chance for me to actually say something. At least here there is the feeling that someone read what you said maybe there is someone that possibly cared

>>723144723
Atleast you have someone to miss

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>>723147526

>>723147526
Its not a blessing anon, its a wretched thing that eats your heart and curses your soul. Bound to one person and only them. She never loved me, but i loved her.

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>>723147128
It does feel like that. They would meet more people, or possibly start to those that you introduced them to. Either way they would just stop caring. "No don't worry nothing has changed between us," but you know that something inside has changed. They probably found someone better, someone that can make them laugh because being around you only brings up depressing thoughts.
They may have laughed with you, wanted to hang out, and possibly asked about how you're doing, but you feel that they just do this because they don't want to feel that the love and care they give you can't ever possibly match the amount of love you gave them.

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>>723146892
They would just be very confused about me. Never really wanted to be a success or anything too big, even when I was a child I just wanted friends and happiness. I would just ask myself if I'm happy where I am now. After he would just ask why I'm not happy and then say why I'm not doing anything about it

>>723148030
jesus christ.

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At this point, it's not the fact that she doesn't love me as much as I do but just if she actually even cares. She says that she cares but I feel that I'm just an emotional rag to her. She knows that I'm not really busy and even if I am, just her trying to invite me somewhere feels nice. She doesn't even do it intentionally but it just hurts that even after everything I'm not even a choice for her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mqWo4fgbwnM

song for my current feels

>>723148030
That one hurt

>>723141503
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=opefvtUrfmc

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Even now video games and movies can't hide the painful truth from me anymore.

>>723148621
I've probably saved this image every time I've seen it.

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Thinking about this girl, well not just her but her personality mostly. Shes always cheerful even towards an awkward weirdo. She waves at me while shes sitting with her chad and stacy friends. Im gonna leave early and I wont see her again. But Im sure Ill see someone with that kind of heart. I wish she and I were close but Ill just hurt her in the end. Her soon to be partner is one lucky person.

>>723148838
Theyre not friends

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"No it's not possible. Like really why would anyone love me?"
"Shut the fuck up anon, keep talking like that and I'm going to smack you. Look I see that there is something that can happen between you two."
"Ok whatever you say"

God I wish I wasn't so right. Guess that's what I get for ever letting her get to know me

Its three in the morning and it just started raining. Im sorta glad im awake.

>>723147893
This one made me tear up I honestly think this is my biggest fear.

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12 am. And she ain't with me.

>>723141503
is this image from anything?

>>723141503
Which anime? looks super comfy

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There are moment where I just want to tell her everything. All the bad things I felt because of what she did. No apologies or trying to justify it just me telling her everything. But at the same time a part of me doesn't want me to get her hurt and yet another part feels like she doesn't deserve to even know why but to just know that something is hurting. At least when she knows there could be a part of her that knows that she did something wrong

>>723147992
Fuck. I kinda skimmed over this the first time. But once I realized it was Scooby Doo that really hurt.

>>723148072
Wait a sec, is the character 2nd from the left Robin Williams from Good Will Hunting or Robin Williams from Jamanji?

>>723149649
Had to be jamanji

>>723149076
You still remember her, Anon. She's still with you, she'll always be with you.

>>723148978
Awh man, it's way better to sleep while it rains. The cool wind~

>>723149382
You have to tell her, anon. Communication is key. Keeping secrets like that between both of you is just gonna mess you up.

>>723149649
If I'm thinking of the right one then it's from the movie Hook (a peter pan movie)

>When no friends
I feel lonely yet I'm okay with it.

>When with friends
I still feel lonely but now I want to be alone.

>>723148030
>Every time I dead lift, I imagine I'm lifting that tree off of him

Wow im actually tearing up right now

>>723149758
I really should tell her just it gets scary because I don't want to lose her cause she is one of the few friends that I have. Being anything more than friends with her is out of the question but yet I still want to be a part of her life. Should tell her though that the way that she's been treating our friendship has been shitty for me

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>Move out of state 4 months ago because of family death and someone else in the family tried to claim the home
>Different state entirely
>Struggling through college online
>No vehicle
>Each night contemplating that maybe the next day you'll be productive
>Having to get new driver's license and whatnot for a job nearby

>>723149812
Nah the right one is from Flubber I think

>>723150428
By right I was meaning to say that if I was thinking of the correct character then it is from the movie Hook, where Robin played a middle-aged Peter Pan
Sorry bout the shit grammar

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>be me
>getting ready to graduate highschool
>Parents say "Let us get you a car as a gift, anon"
> 2002 VW Beetle
>So happy
>After a while parents tell me they want me to pay them monthly
>Shitty part time job.
>Half of my paycheck
>still pay because I feel I owe them

>Parents have new car
>Don't want to pay $1000 for inspection and new plates
>Take my plates
>Give me a bill of sale and tell me to get a new one every month
>forgot in September
>Get pulled over
>No plates, bill of sale says I bought the car a month ago
>Ticket

>Call parents.
>yell
>Tell me it's my fault and I shouldn't be so forgetful
>Stop driving the car because no plates
>Stop paying because I'm not using the car

>Month goes by
>Parents move to Texas
>Call me everyday

>Move in with my best friend of 14 years and his parents
>My best friend's mom buys me a 2001 Corolla
>Beater, but works fine
>Parents ask about the Beetle
>Tell them I got a new car
>Tell me that the money I owe them was their food for the month
>Never called again

>mfw my parents stopped calling once they stopped getting money from me.

>>723148831
>I'll just hurt her in the end.
IKTFB. I regret what I did to her. Nothing I do will ever patch things up between us.

>>723148467
Had the same situation as you, anon. She cares for you, really. But she's more comfortable with you there. She's not friendzoning you no, she just wants you to talk to her because she thinks she can help you.

Hey fellas this song has been helping me get over my 5 year relationship. I miss her a lot but she abused me in the end so it's time to move on. Maybe we all should.

https://youtu.be/H7lxPn9ctC8

>>723150705
You did good, anon. I feel you, my parents are manipulative too. I'm 18 but I can't leave because they've pretty much skimmed all my savings.

>>723150238
She's unknowingly testing your boundaries, anon. She'll only stop if you tell her and talk about it or you'll snap and scare her off so bad that she won't talk to you no more.

>>723150671
Oh I understand now. And ya I just double checked and the one on the right is definitely from Flubber. Although, I think the one on the left is the character from Hook that you were thinking was the right one, but I'd have to look it up to be sure.

>>723146892

They would be proud of what I have accomplished and yet terrified of what I have become.

>>723141503
I dont want to die in a hospital bed so im going to join the legion. If i make it out private military contractors will hire me no problem. I feel bad for my family but i need this. Also everyday im hereim stuck in an alcoholic lifestyle with everyone treating me different. Im also ex mil with slight ptsd

No new posts so I'm just gonna vent. I'm tired. Tired of life, tired of putting up a fake persona, tired of talking, tired of even trying. I can't even anymore. If Life was a game, I'd want to pause the game, chill for a bit, then come back to it. I don't want to kill myself no, I want to experience life. I just want to get out of this shitty routine of mine and just escape from reality.

>>723152176
How old

Whats your physical build

Any health problems?

>>723152309
>19
>A bit chubby
>Not that I know of, I did have surgery to remoe my inflamed appendix tho
I know, I know I'm still young. Life's wonders are all around me. But I'm the eldest in my family, I'm the lead example for my brothers, I'm the guinea pig for my parents. I have responsibilities. Frankly, I think life won't stop for me. I've been taught since young to just submit to life and it's banalities.
>Dad's been working 9 - 5 for 20+ years
>Mom's been running a slowly declining business for 15+ years
>Will I just submit forever and punch in, punch out for the rest of my life?

>>723152176
When was your last bowel movement?

>>723152775
Get off your ass and try to save mommas shop you ungrateful shit. At least you got parents, imma orphan for fucks sake, 1 more year im 18 and im on the streets.

>>723152836
Made me giggle
>3 hours ago, an extension from an earlier poop.

>>723152933
>underage
MODS

>>723152933
>Momma's shop is a fucking pharmacy
I don't even know what the fuck to do to fix it

>At least you got parents
Thanks for making me feel better about having narcissistic parents. Shit dude, my mom's been stealing money from me to fund her business.

>tonight
It's 11am and I'm at the hospital with a cut in my fucking hand, in fine since I don't have to work rn

i don't even have a her OR him

He lives in th US, and I in NZ. Our timezones are only 3hrs apart, however..Hes always so tired.. his sleep schedule is fucked. He's up at 4am his time and when I am finally free to hang out on Skype, he won't. I've been in this relationship for 4 years. He doesn't know I wait for him just to say hello and ask how i am. I never bitch at him.. he's just always sleeping.. at least 12-15 hrs a time, and i just wait.. I'm tired /b/, but I really like him.

thread is dead

>>723155455
Like my emotions

Hope everything works out you you guys.

My teacher just broke my heart today. We had a big test the other day and I got a D. He said "Anon how did this happen? You're a straight A kid. This is so far beneath you."

God that hurt. Because it's true. It's not that I'm stupid, it isn't that I lack understanding. I am just so fucking depressed. I just can't think like I used too. I am literally watching my future slip through my fingers

>>723155666
Satanic trips says you should therapy / councilor

>>723155666
well it's better than my future
and my future is doing literally nothing with my life and pretending i'm tony montana
i like it so far

>>723154233
>All those posts about missing her\him
> Meanwhile I never even held a girl's hand
At least you HAD someone anons. Meanwhile I'll be soon 20 and in those 20 years no one took interest in me, and I never had the balls to try and make the first step.
Not only I never had a gf, I can't put my life together since I moved 4 years ago. I made no new friends and slowly push away the old friends I've known since primary school.
Shit sucks.

>>723155718
It doesn't help either. I have so many damn problems nobody knows what to do with me. I was bullied and saw something extremely traumatic when I was a kid. All the therapists I've had just don't know how to help.

>>723155777
I'm fast heading down that path. Honestly it's going to be a miracle if I make it past age 25 without taking my life. I'm not confident I will make it that far. I honestly think I will have taken my own life before I even reach 26.

I just miss her

>>723141503
I have a round chambered in my pistol. The safety is off. Every few minutes, I put it in my mouth and see how much force I can put on the trigger (double action) before bitching out.

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Suffering from major depression and schizophrenia. I think a lot about killing myself. I wan't to cry but i can't (can't cry for years). I have no friends, but i don't give a shit. Daily i take 15 pills, but it helps me shit. If i have a gun i would fucking do it, but in my country guns are illegal. I live alone in my 1 room apartment. I worked as a sysadmin until i went to a psychiatric hospital (i was 16 months on the closed station). I do not know further.

Hi guys, not much is wrong. Not much is right though either. Life is just mediocre and plain, I thought I'd be more than I am.

>>723143591
His lifelong depression didn't kill him.
The worst variant of alzheimer's killed him.

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More than anything else, I want to die painlessly and not see it coming.
As soon as possible.

I just miss her

>>723152775
I was gunna say military.

>>723147217
Sometimes it's best not to say anything at all about yourself. Just keep it to yourself like I did. It's not pretending if you're only defending your own dignity. When we lose our shit, right there and then we will know who our real friends is.

>>723146892
I would call myself an asshole for not getting any shit done or maybe got into a fist-fight with the other me since I hated him so much and the other way around.

>be me
>a few years ago at the age of 15
>dad leaves for a Japanese woman and barely talks to us
>I get a disease that makes it hard for me to live without pain
>dad chose not to pay or help financially
>mom breaks down mentally
>her boyfriend is bipolar
>find the best girl ever
>finally gives me a reason to stay
>gives me meaning to my life instead of feeling like a financial and emotional burden
>last night at 4 years of us dating she leaves
>beg her not to leave
>I tell her I love her
>she says she loves me too
>ask her what this means
>she says we still aren't a thing
>cry myself to sleep not knowing how to feel
>wake up to fund she blocked me on every social media we had

Feels bad man.

I honestly think I've found the girl I want to spend my life with. She's amazing, to me at least. Maybe not the most attractive to most but in my eyes she's the most perfect woman ever. I work so much I'm lucky to see her once a week and we've been together almost a year now. I'm just waiting for her to get tired of me and leave. It'll crush me when she does and I can tell it's coming.

It's been 10 years since depression first reared its ugly head my way. Heartache after heartache, night after tearful night I've stayed up and watched the sun set and rise. It's had its ups and downs, but this last time.....I felt something break.

Her name was Shandi. I had worked with her at the local grocery store for several years and always had a fancy for her but never had the courage to speak up. She had been in a relationship the entirety of the time I had known her anyways so I wasnt really expecting much to begin. The day came when they broke up. I had tried my very best just to be her friend. Sometimes after work we would sit in the parking lot and smoke and just talk about random bullshit for hours on end.

I never expected to fall in love. A one night stand at most, that all I really expected if anything. After all, why would anyone fall for me? But she did. She helped me open up and express myself in ways I havent been comfortable doing in years. I can still remember the smell of her hair as we laid in bed cuddled up together in the middle of the day. I remember the peaceful look on her face as the sun danced its way across her skin. It was the first time in 10 long, lonely years that I remembered what it was like to FEEL.

Then came the day. She started feeling....distant. Her attitude had shifted snd she wasnt talking as much. I tried to maintain a chipper attitude but....things just werent the same. We parted ways on peaceful terms and I truely thought she was still the one....the only one for me.

A month later she began dating my coworker. The day before christmas to be precise. Now I sit here in my bedroom. Its 6 am. I havent slept in almost 3 days now. I couldnt tell you the last time I ate it took a shower, hell I barely even feel the care to go use the bathroom.

Idk why I just wrote all this, maybe someone will give a shit. I doubt it

>>723150428
Nah man that's from Hook like the other anon said, the one from Flubber is on the right with Mrs Doubtfire, not sure about the one next to the one from Hook, Jumanji maybe?

>>723141503
2 words: FAG

This is my personal feels music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F2YJbTrxeos

Here's my story /b/, btw this happened, it's not some bs:

>many years ago was a girl in my group of friends
>she's perfect for me, I think I love her
>too much of a pussy to ask her out
>fast forward many years later
>she sees me in a bar
>all smiles, gives me a hug
>suddenly gives me a strange look, seems a little upset
>"are you ok?"
>"anon, did you not know how I felt about you?"
>"uhh, no? you never said anything"
>"I was too shy. I was in love with you"
>"me too"
>both stare at each other in silence
>all those years of regret written on our faces
>feels like we just stood and stared for hours
>I know I still love her and that she still loves me
>eventually she says "I'm married now" in a blank, disappointed tone of voice like she was resigned to her fate
>shows me photos of her kids
>eventually gives me kiss on cheek and walks back to her friends
>I can see she's upset and her friends are looking at me like "wtf?"
>tell my friend I have to leave, I walk out and take a cab home alone
>will never forget that look of regret