Why are you angry /b/? Why are you lost? Why do you feel the

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i am also always horny and no matter how much a wack off or fuck my gf i want other women. I am constantly watching porn and desiring more

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because i allowed myself to lose all my friends and become some no life nerd with no social skills, i basically turned into the autist i used to bully in highschool.

>>718397691

what made you lose all your friends?

>>718396731
I rarely feel anger, and when I do it's mild frustration and easy to control. I know exactly where I'm going. I've known since I was just a kid, with few changes along the way.
>>718397069
I was asexual for a few years. Sexual urges returned, but my girlfriend is still a lot hornier than I am.

Anon, we are very different. I wonder why?

Why do you assume I'm angry? Mostly I'm sad and lonely. Sad because I have to be and lonely because it's a result of the sad.

>>718397972

could be our nature. could be our nurture. Mine comes in waves. only recently i have been a sexual maniac. Whenever i exercise often i have no desire what so ever... so that may be the cure. As for anger i have felt it ever since i was a teenage in my first relationship. It is not as strong as it once was and it is for different reasons now... but goddamn i wish both were gone

>>718398000

why are you sad you are you?

>>718398360

I'm sad because it is a necessity. I am manic depressive. If I get too happy I have problems, so I try my best to live my life at 4/10. It gets tiring as fuck, but if I try to live at 5 or better I hit 10 too easy and bad things happen. Psyche ward bad.

>>718398795

anything in your childhood fuck you up? you on any meds?

>>718398310
The nature/nurture argument is kind of bunk actually. It turns out that the things we experience in our lives alter our own DNA and the DNA we pass on to our children.

I'll tell you something though anon, having the opposite issues is no fun either. Not getting angry leads to being passive, or letting people down, or all other sorts of negative situations. We have anger for a reason. Having little sexual interest is awful for relationships in general. It makes one regularly wonder if they're enough for their partner.

>have a little fling with a qt for a while IRL
>broke it off a while ago because the timing was just not good, we understood fine, nbd bruh
>she asked me just to be her friend
>it wasn't ideal but I was willing to let it go
>doing_ok.png

>fast forward a couple weeks
>had a mechanical keyboard I was planning to give her for her birthday
>i'd been planning to do so for months, but was
>figure fuck it, I'll follow through as just a friendship gesture
>not like I'm gonna use it for anything anyway (my current KB is superior)
>not really looking for anything anymore
>head down, meet her and her friend at a parking lot
>we have to park there because of winter parking restrictions: no parking on the street until spring
>greet them, try to make everyone laugh, it kind of succeeds
>ask politely if I could get some help bringing my stuff since we were all going to the same place anyway
>get a firm no
>uh...ok
>end up having to drive to the place, have my buddy (who lives there) give me a hand, then drive back to the parking lot
>they're already gone
>first_red_flag.jpg
>have to walk back in the snow

cont.

>>718398891

Yes and yes.

Dad was murdered in a botched home invasion when I was 15. I'm one of two living people who were there that night. Surely my sister has repressed it all.

Seroquel. 400mg per night.

>>718399516

cont? Are you typing?

>>718400328
yeah, I was

>get back
>still trying to keep my mood up, not letting shit get me down
>set up my rig, gonna play the vidya with bud
>we play some various games for a while
>she finally gets back
>she greets everyone, all cool...i thought
>give her the present as she is going upstairs with her friends
>don't hear from her the rest of the night
>second_red_flag.jpg
>go to the side room where i'd been sleeping whenever I was down there before
>sleep.exe

>morning
>playing some diablo with broheim
>conversation comes up
>it's about last night
>ohno.gif
>had to find out secondhand that she suspected me of having an ulterior motive
>was told that if she accepted it would somehow make me think she wanted to date me
>fucking_what.mp3
>confront the mutual friend over facebook who was initially told
>mutual friend didn't come to me first because she thought she was giving me a choice in the matter
>confront them on this and they should have fucking told me
>third_red_flag.jpg
>let it go for a while, that's future me's problem

>eventually confront her over text
>express my displeasure at having to find out that way
>explicitly declared numerous fucking times that this isn't the case
>I had already got the thing and just wanted to do something friendly--she SAID she did want to be friends after all--and that there are no ulterior motives in play here
>apparently, that isn't enough
>basically get (implicitly) told to go fuck myself anyway
>she will not listen and seems to continue to believe I'm trying to fuck her
>ohfuckthis.exe
>load up my shit in a hurry
>go home PISSED
>proceed to get shithoused drunk

What's fucked is that this shouldn't have angered me the way it did.
But here I was, pissed beyond recognition, drinking myself stupid.

This is not the first time I've found myself here, for other reasons.

I wish the anger would go away.

>>718400612

You need to find a way to "just be friends" by her definition. Clearly that means not actually being friends, which is sad, but there's no reasoning with someone like that. She thinks you're obsessed with her and will view any interaction you try to have with her as an attempt to get in her pants. Honestly, she seems pretty full of herself, so walking really is the best plan, I think. Surround yourself with other people and try to stop thinking about her. It's the only way.

Because I'm part hispanic/black 5'3" 240 pounds, balding rapidly (I have to shave my head at this point), have extreme acne scars/cystic acne, and periodontal disease (you can see the roots on the few teeth I have left), and I haven't showered in 4 weeks.

I'm going to be 20 next month.

>>718401637
>and I haven't showered in 4 weeks.

You know you can do something about that, right?

>>718401877
I'm too fucking lazy and it's not worth it. I'm literally sitting in underwear that I shit in last week.

>>718402104

If you think that way you're the one not worth it. I hope you're trolling, but I honestly have no idea.

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>>718401637

>>718401251
at this point i'm ready to just walk.

Fuck that.

>>718402334
Haha so funny. Fuck off

>>718396731

I'm angry because I'm tired of waiting. Every year gets worse and worse. I even tried to fix it all, I really did. I got off my ass. Started my own business. The business is growing, but I won't see a profit for months with the clients I have. I'm just sick of the fucking waiting.

>>718401637
ew hispanic

because i have a stem phd yet somehow i've been NEET for over 10 fucking months

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>>718396731
I'm angry because I don't know what direction I want to go in on RuneScape. I need 75 Divination and Dungeoneering for two separate quests respectively, but they SUCH SHIT 'SKILLS,' not to mention I'm only at 72 Dung because I used lamps and Tears of Guthix to that point; I've never actually dungeoneered.

I'm also frustrated that my body weight won't just lost the last 8 pounds I want it to, despite all the daily cardio and jogging I've been doing (not to mention taking in less than 900 calories per day).

Fuck's sake.

>>718402358

Yeah, that was me agreeing with you. The thing is, you'll need to fill that void somehow or you'll find yourself drunk and angry thinking of what could have been.

>>718400033

So... anyone going to help me or do I stay sad and alone?

>>718402706
Hold up. What's going on with her asshole?

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because i am the ugliest person in the world and no girl would ever hug me let alone be my gf

>>718403065

Her asshole has a clitoris too. This happens sometimes.

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>>718403065
She's just old...

>>718396731
Because good things happen to bad people.

>>718403014
That's my problem now.

This is just one more thing on a list of shit that's happened lately, not all related, but all shit nonetheless.

3 days sober. had a terrible pain in my esophagus for about 2 days a few weeks ago and now i cant take a sip of whiskey without it burning for hours. i dont like being sober.

>>718396731
1. School stress. Pressure to be someone due to family. I just need alone time.
2. Lack of sex. Virgin and want sex so badly but can't catch a break.
3. No after what I do or think I can't escape loneliness. Ever since 3ed grade I've contemplated how I will always be alone and how I can't verify if anything is real....now I feel lonely and am terrified of talking to someone, blinking, and learning they weren't real
4. Fat (but I can change this)
5. Family responsibilities. I just want to be on my own but my mom drags me in.
> 20
> M

>>718403171
I'm a straight white guy and I find you to be a cute cuddle bear. If you lost a little weight and cleaned your hairstyle up a bit you'd be handsome g

>>718402706
It's like her pussy never stops...
Perfection.

>>718403171
you look like that kid who sees dead people.

>>718402104
Pics

Because I let my girlfriend of 4 years, the love of my life, who I intended to marry, walk out of my life because I broke her trust. It wasn't working and she wasn't as happy as she might be without me. So I asked her to break up. I told the brightest light in my world to go.

Its my own fault, and even though she made some mistakes too - its mainly my fault. And I loathe myself for it.

>>718403760

Sucks, bro. I am sorry. Is her life better for it at least?

Because I can't find an SJW tumblrina willing to domme me.

>>718403994
Its life. Every day I think about going to her...I don't know what I would say or what I would do....but I still think about her all the time.

Its been a few months. Im not a stalker or anything, so I actually have no idea whats going on in her life. Hopefully she got into the law school that she wanted to go to.

>>718404195

Shit, dude. That sucks. Here's hoping you find a way to turn back time and undo your fuck up.

Because my girlfriend can't stop fucking drinking.

>>718396731
the girl i'm so fucking into turns out to like girls instead so i'm in shit now

>>718404430
Again. Thats life.

Thanks for the wishes. I wish it wasn't as hard as it is. I barely sleep, barely eat, and nothing really keeps my attention or appeals to me anymore. I wish I could get out of this loop of self-loathing and pity, but nothing has worked yet. I wish I could go back and change a lot, but I can't.

>>718404458
>Because my girlfriend can't stop fucking drinking.
Keep on beating her til she stops drinking.

>>718397069
Welcome to being an adult male anywhere in the world, anytime in history.

I'm not sure how to be a good person. What's my purpose in the greater scheme of things?

>>718405107
Don't reinforce that myth.

>>718403171
u cute fam. mosy girls go for personality be funny.

angry or privileged?

>>718405191
Go shove those participation trophies up your ass. It'll be the most sexual satisfaction you'll ever have in your compromised life.

I'm here becouse i grew up discovering things on the internet, and the most interesting people i knew were from here, i didn't get many things from my father or family, but from the people i saw online.
So right now i haven't found anyone the way i did before, people i know irl are indeed normies or aren't intelligent enough to mantain an interesting conversation, and the ones who seem to be "intelligent" are just getting good grades by studying and following the system and therefore are nothing but brainless people.

>>718396731

I was given up for adoption, by people who didn't want a child at their age. The first couple who adopted me gave me back the following day. The third couple, the ones who raised me, they did so without any compassion, love or affection. I grew up not knowing how to show those things to others and as a result, carrying on friendships is always a stressful process and romantic relationships are pretty much out of the question.

I've been fighting against that, though. Trying to fix the damage that's been done to me by others and the damage that I've done to others, as a result. I'm in my early thirties now; yesterday was m 34th birthday. I feel like this is my responsibility, that its something I have to fix. No one else can do that.

Unfortunately, that's hard. It takes a lot of work and the people around you often don't understand what you're trying to do. To them, you're the same person you've always been, unless you physically change yourself. Thus, they treat you the same way they always have, which is a problem. I think that's why I'm so fucking angry all the time. Its like trying to take down a brick wall using a toothpick; no matter what you do, people try to drag you back into the same old habits, the same old mindsets. It can be hard saying "No" to the people closest to you. Well worth it in the end, I imagine.