Is anybody attempted suicide here? no meme plz How and

>>718169022
Never tried it cause I'm not a pussy

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i never did it because ima spongebob alpha male

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>>718169022
Do or do not, there is no try.

>>718169436
You're too pussy to try it anyways.

>>718169022
Please just do it and live stream

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>>718170567

>>718170793
maybe...

I don't want my mom to be sad ;_;
I love my family

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If you're in school maybe you should give some thought on how to go out with a... ;) bang?

>>718170921
They'll be fine man it'll only make them stronget, just go ahead and do it. You'll probably be doing them a favor.

>>718169022
DOITDOITDOITDOITDOIT

>>718171094
It takes a special kind of "fucked up" to be garbage like you. Smile!

>>718170921
That's what stopped me.

>>718171235
We don't need white knights here faggot you should kys too unless this is OP in which case kys

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>>718171443
edgelord, pls go

pic related. u

>>718171443
>white knights
Did you learn to read off a fucking cereal box you mongoloid? I never said OP shouldn't kill himself. I called you fucked up, which you are. You're fucked.

>>718171443
holly fuck ur dum

>>718169022
How: Hanging
Why: Because time is a flat circle.

>>718171649
Your mom taught me how to read faggot and I read the cereal box at OP's mom's house every morning after he goes to school, I could spend a lot more time with her if he was not around so this is good for all of us, and you're just a cuck, you don't want him to NOT kill himself but you don't have the stones to tell him to do it, you're worse than a white knight you piece of fucking nigger poop

>>718169022
No
because I am competent and would be dead if I tried

>>718169022
One time I faked a suicide attempt to see how my friends would react.
Does that count?
I thought'd be interesting.

>>718169022
>2 years ago
>50mg valium
>bottle of wine
>lying on my bed waiting for the darkness to swallow me forever
>get phone call
>barely conscious
>it's my fuckbuddy i hadn't seen in a while calling to catch up
>blacked out
>woke up

kinda glad it didn't work. i've had some fun moments since.
i also didn't realize you can botch overdoses and leave yourself massively brain damaged, unable to finish the job cause you're too retarded.

>>718171981
BAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA

Oh holy fuck I thought you were serious this whole time. Hahahahaha

>>718172016
what was the aftermath?

>>718172109
Lurk more

>>718171981
Why don't you go read a book? Jesus man, that's the dumbest shit I've read all day. You just graduate from elementary?

You are asking the wrong group for advice. Perhaps asking people who were otherwise unsuccessful in their endeavours when the successful participants aren't here to respond may not be the brightest strategy. Just saying.

>>718172067
>50mg valium
It is very hard to overdose on benzodiazepines to begin with maybe alcohol would help but you're more likely to do something retarded and get arrested than die from that

>>718172331
To be fair I think everyone on this Godforsaken site would be better off just reading a book..

>>718169022
500mg Xanax, downed half a bottle of scotch.

Could feel passing out, eyelids feel like weights. Fight to keep them open
Somehow I knew I wouldn't wake up if eyes manage to shut.

Suddenly start shaking, get cold sweats, manage ro tumble down on the floor and proceed to violently throw up bile all night, thin layer of frosty sweat making me shiver.

I think the spewing saved my life.

Would not try again/10

>be me
>used sleeping pills
>over the counter not actually sleeping pills
>sleep for 12 hours
>hallucinate for an additional 9 hours
>ghosts tell me cops are coming after me at 9:30 am
>wait on porch with knife for six hours
>see cop cars parked around corners watching me
>look at watch, fuck 10:45
>come down off high
>never do again

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>>718172148
They all treated me differently.
They have me more attention, cared more about how i felt and seemed to have more of a focus towards me. They all thought I was damaged and gave me a lot more attention.
It was rather funny to be honest considering it was just a ruse the entire time. It was basically an unintentional free way to get shit from friends too. If I wanted weed they'd give it free because they thought it'd help with my friends suicide. (I said I had a really good friend who killed himself and I was a part of the reason and I was depressed and wanted to die too.)

>>718172548
Because gf of 4 years fucked another dude and I failed Uni in the same week.

>>718172361
>maybe alcohol would help
i don't want to give anyone any ideas, benzos and booze don't mix. even if you're trying to off yourself you can fuck it up and end up retarded, it has happened.

that said, they're both independent cns depressants, your cns is responsible to automatic functions like breathing.my goal was to pass out and cease breathing.

>>718172067
50mg val is same potency as 2.5 xanax. no where near enough to be an hero

>>718172809
It's more like 20mg. zero tolerance, and i was drinking box wine until nauseous.

i gave it an honest shot

I once attempted to commit suicide by jumping off a 21 story balcony. I landed at a perfect angle on a hill which broke the fall but left me paralyzed at the C7 level.

Since then life has become incredibly stale as all my passions and reasons to live are either unattainable due to my limitations or illegal.

Tbh, if you're gonna off yourself, get a gun and blow your brains out. Make sure you don't survive, because there is nothing worse in life than to live handicapped.

>>718173047
Fucking idiot.

You deserve being crippled.

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>>718172566
nigga u got bigger problems than sleeping pills

>>718173047
that sucks so much man, i'm sure you've had moments of joy since the event?

>>718173047
got more content to add to whatever the fuck your doing now??? stories???

>>718173168

i doubt it. c7 would blow. im a t9 and its fucking terrible. many thoughts about this.

I've tried overdosing on a bunch of meds that were just in the house. Tylenol and Advil. I ended up convulsing on the bathroom floor in my own vomit and listening to a high pitched noise while I felt like I was freezing and sweating before I came to the next (I don't really know how long.) It didn't work. I was stupid and didn't think about how much to take. Probably trashed my organs though.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=arAOYBZZSE0

>>718173047
Why? Wouldn't it make more sense to do it now? Roll yourself down a hill into oncoming traffic or some shit.

>>718173128
no shit

>>718173121
You are correct. I deserve to die at this point. But I was in a coma for three days after attempting suicide and I'm now too afraid of stepping in that dark place called death.

It's very cozy and smells of blue cheese.

>>718173418

I feel for you. I cant imagine having done this to myself on purpose, my accident was just that, an accident.

>>718173247
>>718173168

Well to say no would be silly, since I still enjoy humor.

But I've had many, many dark moments since then. The only rejoice I find in my injury is that at least my hands still function properly.

>and that's really not much to live for

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>>718173012
whoops 5**
either way most drugs are really hard to die from even if you take lots. you're lucky

>>718169022
yes and I'v done it right the first time

>>718173338
I'm now too scared of death to try again.

I'm a coward and a loser. The ultimate cosmic punishment.

I tried once. I intentionally drove a car off a cliff. It sllid down about 150 feet. Hit a tree on passenger side. Didnt roll. Didnt fire. Didnt even get injured. Went to hospital for an eval; lied my way out of a 5150. Went to work the next day.

>>718173047
do you play any instruments?

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Drank about 3/4 of a 1/2 gallon of rum. Took all the xanax and assorted pain pills I had. I do not remember how many it was.

Woke up roughly 17 hours later. Didn't remember a thing. My room was thrashed. I had greasy handprints all over my mirror. I'd pissed the bed. Don't remember anything. i was chugging the booze like it was gatorade on a hot day.

Woke up. Assessed the situation. Called a friend and she immediately knew what was up. I think a lot of people had been waiting for me to do it.

Some days I'm sad it didn't work. But most days are tolerable. Some are good. I will say this. I actually am a lot more ok with myself than I was when I made my attempt. I'm 38 now, was 35 then.

>be me 18 years old
>senior in hs
>been feeling depressed lately
>literally just don't know what to do with my life
>about to graduate - stepping into the unknown

>friday morning
>get dropped off at school
>sit in the library until bell rings because i have no friends
>play agar.io for half an hour
>stop playing because people are using nazi symbols and pepe the frog for their avatars
>and the librarian thinks pepe is more offensive

>reddit is boring, 4chan is blocked
>it's all just pointless and repetitive
>I get up
>bell rings
>time slows down
>it seems as if people are just pointlessly living their lives
>going from class to class with no idea why
>the world spins on and i don't spin with it
>1 minute till class
>i walk outside
>start crying because it's gonna happen
>i'm gonna end it
>i'm gonna jump into traffic or wait till the train comes
>i walk across the sidewalk into the parking lot

>no one is outside
>cars stream by without a thought
>i walk to the side of the road.
>take off my backpack
>lean over the road
>as always i am a huge pussy so i don't jump into traffic
>a car stops by the side of the road

cont

>>718174032
>a woman gets out
>"are you okay?"
>yeah i'm fine
>she sees i'm crying
>puts two and two together
>"please don't kill yourself"
>"don't you have a family"

>tells me about her daughter, who has been blind since birth
>she knew that her daughter would never amount to anything
>about how hard it was to educate her and raise her
>about how she wanted to end it
>tells me about her plan to shoot her and her daughter at the same time
>gives me her number on a piece of paper
>tells me i should call her if i ever feel like ending my life

>at this point i still feel depressed, but not suicidal anymore
>a couple of girls have been watching us talk
>by the look in their eyes they know i wanted to kill myself
>woman tells the girls to take me to the school nurse
>i go with them

>it's clear that the girls have never felt depressed in their lives
>basic vapid instagram type
>at least they care enough to keep me alive
>i get to the nurse and tell her
>she calls my parents and the school police


To this day, I still feel depressed. I went to a mental hospital after my second suicide attempt (the above was the first). I'm on zoloft, which helps a little. Whenever I walk by my old school and see those two girls, they wave to me. I think they still remember. Never saw the woman again though. Hope she didn't kill herself. I don't have her number anymore.

>>718169022
I attempted suicide at 8 years old, was abused by my uncle and felt i had to take my life.

>>718173212

>am now in college, struggling with alcoholism and depression.
>somehow get girls every once in a while, but all superficial
>i know its hard to be with someone in a wheelchair and understand their disinterest
>also dick dont work well
>legs dont help either
>constant nerve pain
>frequent urination which becomes unbearable when I want to do any social activity
>shoulders in constant agony since I cant use most of my back muscles to even out the effort i do with them
> health dwindling at an ungodly rate
> skin sore scares every month

Pfft.. the list goes on forever. Perhaps I should really look into offing myself the right way

>>718171443
are you literally 12 years old or do you have a very serious lack of self-awareness

Dozens of times with alcohol, spent about two years trying to drink my way to the other side. There were times when I was sure it was gonna be a success, but I'd always wake up the next day.

Other than that, once with the whole belt + stool + door thing. Belt slipped, woke up on bathroom floor the next morning. Didn't try anymore after that.

I still think everything is pointless and hate myself, but one day I decided that even though existence is pain and every second of every day is pretty much garbage, its the only thing my conscious self will ever experience, so I'm just gonna ride it out and see where it goes.

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>>718174171
>>718174171
troll and fake, fuk off

>>718174171
man it could always be worse. some folks get dementia in their 20s, grab that and take value that you're not retarded from the fall.

it's pretty much certain that that if you carry on that spinal cord neuroscience will be able to fix your problem. they've got partially severed people walking again.

>>718169022
I tried barbs and bag years ago. woke up on floor more than 24 hours later confused.
I realized I need to tie arms, or sort of loop them under a belt at my waist (I pulled off the bag I had rubber banded).

Havent gotten up the courage to try again

>>718169022
Nice dubs anon. I tried to off myself with drugs but ended up just having a crazy tolerance and addiction lol.

>>718174316
>alcohol to die
yeah i saw that movie leaving las vegas and I was like shiit, that's the funnest way to die (drinking to oblivion)
>nah
DTs fucking suck bro. you get em?

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>>718174447
i wish i was trolling mate, i really do.

Here's Betsy, my trusty wheelchair

>>718169022
yeah a few times worked pritty well...

>>718174840

Yeah it was a pretty god-awful few weeks when I finally stopped. I didn't even actually decide to stop - my shit car died on me and I couldn't get to the liquor store anymore. I grew up in bum-fuck nowhere, so getting anything besides beer meant a 40-minute drive. Without a ride, my dad basically held me prisoner while I detoxed and weaned me off with beer. That's when the belt thing happened.

>>718174690
>>718174690
Shut your whore mouth.

I'd MUCH rather have dementia and laugh myself to madness
than lose sensation and movement in 80% of my body and
suffer the social consequences of being in that state.

Fucking idiot. Most people that endure dementia aren't aware of their condition once it gets to its degenerative stage

>>718175357
>the belt thing that happened
nice

i've had 4 hospital assisted detoxes. i'm too retarded to wean. hats off

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>>718169022
Tried a few times. Did it out of boredom. Last time I did I used a .22 . Funniest part is it ended up being a dud round. Took it as a sign. Haven't tried in 5 years since. Based anon lurking here.

>>718169022
Yeah, back in 2008. I was successful.

>>718175470
Your situation sucks but dementia is a fucking nightmare. Louis Theroux's a Different Brain, documentary on youtube shows.

It's like a slower way of being dead.

>>718175242
Damn, stories like yours make me wonder how I'm doing as decent as I am after all the crazy shit I did. (And also why I don't try to do any better than I am.)

If you're thinking about another try - I think about it often, but not very seriously- try to remember that it leads to nothingness.

I'm in no position to preach to a dude in a chair, but hey, I don't see how I'm wrong.

This is it. This is all. If death means your neurons stop firing and what "you" are stops existing entirely, even if existing is terrible, how can that be any better?

That's what I tell myself anyway. This is all I've got whether I like it or not.

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>>718169022
Swallowed a handful of Trazadone once. Didn't die. Regretted it. I'm not the suicidal type. Blame it on the alcohol.

>>718175242
Do you want to commit suicide again?

>>718175506
Damn.

I had my last beer in 2012.

Sadly I'm not really clean though, but the goal is no longer to die.

I'm sure the cigs and speed and blow will probably catch up to me one day.

I feel you buddy, I hope you feel better. Just remember:

>It took 13 billion years for the universe to conceive you

>You are made of the same material the universe created billions of years ago

>You are a self-aware intelligent animal species

>Almost the entire animal kingdom is distantly related to humans through evolution

>You will have the ability to become immortal through advances in technology

>If you kill yourself, how do you browse dank memes?

>>718175995
I've considered your point before. It's all perspective from there.

Is nothingness better than a life of suffering?

I'm honestly too scared to find out.

>>718169436
Never tried because you're a pussy

>>718176316
Are you diagnosed with anything?

>>718176111

Honestly, yes and no.

I can't do what I loved anymore. That was soccer and fucking.
The mind takes a toll when its natural tendencies are hindered - running, moving, and reproducing.
To the point that's it's almost taunting me to try again.

But I met girls along the way that have given me reason to live again

>They let me rail coke off their tits

>>718176891
are you hopeful for technology getting lower half back?

They're really close

>>718169022
Yep
I overdosed on limes

>>718176608

Maybe it is, maybe it isn't.

The way I see it, we all get to find out one of these days.

I just try to remember not to get ahead of myself.

>>71718176637

I've been told I'm ADD, and of course depressed. I've even heard borderline personality disorder.

Medication is fun sometimes but it never really "helps."

I think the pointlessness of existence is kinda like the Santa Claus myth - once you realize how none of it matters and that knowledge is burned into your head, you can't magically or chemically "undo" it, you just gotta find a way to deal with it.

>>718177141
could u not hold them all

>>718177032
The israelis have already designed some very impressive technology to permit walking again.

Be it through exoskeletons or transplantable microchips, they are all in the refining stage.

The only two problems now are that they are monopolizing that market and that technology will remain inaccessible to the majority of those who need it due to ridiculous pricing, and this rare little concept in modern medicine that shows that until a millionaire gets that injury/disease, no real effort will be made to cure/solve it.

>>718177221
lol i get the reference

Year ago. I was faggot ate pills and ended at children psychiatry

>>718177220
>you can't magically or chemically "undo" it
you can treat it, like you can treat any disease; i think reasoning that you're hopeless is part of the mental disease.

I started taking an maoi at max dose a few months ago, for the first time since i was 17 I'm able to go outside without crippling fear and anxiety.

I never thought I would be so thankful for a head med.

>>718177274
Capitalism at its sickest.

Nevermind, trump is a symptom of the system in revolt. Eventually and likely in time for the medical technology you require socialism will overcome the stigma installed by faggots of the late 20th century and you will get your back back.

>>718171235
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