What's your tool of trade against depression and anxiety

>>718164086
opiates

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haven't found one, but getting enough sleep seems to stave off the worst of the depression feels

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Iron fucking willpower.

Pussy, lots and lots of pussy.

>>718164086
That. And xanax for the occasional anxiety. I get 90 .5 xannies a month but only take them when i actually need them so I've got a fucking stockpile. I did take Lexapro for 2 years and it stopped working so I switched to 100mg Zoloft and its really working great so far.

Lamotragine motherfuckers

>>718164086

Videogames, a car (used cheap and well researched), and especially not having a job that makes me hate my life.

>>718164086

doesnt sertraline make you not able to masturbate and ejaculate?

>>718164086
The same, caffeine, Madden, online poker and fapping.

Sertraline HCl 50mg
And daily Masturbation

>>718164086

A photo of Hitler.

>>718164866
>a car (used cheap and well researched)

so what did you pick?

make/model/year pls

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>>718164086
Apathy

>>718164086
>>>718164086
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>doesnt sertraline make you not able to masturbate and ejaculate?

You're able to ejaculate, just got to work harder for it.

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>>718165102

>>718164086
>>718165361
Swear that shit has some kind of Amphet in it

agomelatin 25mg
not too sure about it, second one for me

>>718164133
What kind ?

Sativa Divinorum

>>718164086
Cigarettes ,caffeine and thc.

>>718165361
When I was on abilify I couldn't ejaculate for shit. I told my psychiatrist (most awkward conversation ever) and he prescribed me zoloft instead.

Anyway, it makes you so frustrated. I could jack off and it would feel good and all, but I couldn't cum at all. I think I dry came.

This is made even weirder by the fact that I was in the mental hospital and I was supposed to be getting my vitals checked.

I have panic disorder and it's been a nightmare.

Had it under control for about 8 years with Effexor XR and the occasional .25 xanax but about 2 months ago, panic attacks started happening again. I don't think the Effexor is working anymore so I'm waiting to see my doc to figure wtf to do.

Everyday I have a panic attack and it's driving me insane. Every day I feel like I'm having a heart attack and this will be the one that does me in. Like it's my last day on earth and shit. It is crippling and I wish it upon no one.

Doesn't seem to matter how much I try and convince myself that it's just a panic attack and not to worry about it, but the physical shit like the tightening in my chest and heart rate going through the roof and shit.

I usually try and take a .5 xanax immediately if I feel one coming on and play some .io games online to keep my mind off of things until the xanax kicks in but I usually end up taking 1 - 1.5mg by the time I finally start coming down and then I pass out for a few hours and feel relatively better.

Sorry to any anons that suffer the same but know you're not alone and you'll be okay.

>>718164086
Citalopram. Does fuck all but I'm sick of trying new shit. Psychiatrist laughed at me cause it was causing low libido.
>you're not having sex so why is that an issue
Last time I tell a phyc anything

>>718165788
*Salvia Divinorum
FTFY

Taking risperidal for anxiety and boy howdy does it work. I'm an aspie so my brain is basically always nervous and wired. It shuts off all the bullshit. I'm so thankful.

>>718166105
Sorry am high on salvia

>>718164086
20mg of Paroxetine.
Did take 5mg Benzos, but it made my paranoid.

>>718166190
>boy howdy does it work
you didn't even need to mention that you're an ass-burger

>>718165361
Oh shit, is that why it takes me 2-3 hours to cum most of the time?

Sertraline user here. Been pretty good to me.

Does it make anyone else feel slightly dizzy from time to time?

>>718164086
Same op. Only low dose 50mg but seems to be working well

>>718164086
Duloxetine 60mg/night

>>718164997
Exact opposite for me.

>>718166191
Being high on salvia lasts at most 10 min. Then u can function pretty much normal again. Or you did it wrong.

>>718164086
Heroin

>>718166223
>>718166505
Used to be on paroxetine but I think a built a resistance to it, moved on to sertraline, first 50mg now 100mg. Shit's pretty good for me.

>>718166612
What

Wellbutrin + Remeron.
And Whisky.

Motown records.

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>>718166059
You have the worst psychs, what the fuck.

>>718166625
Only side effects ive had to sertraline is a lot of burping

>>718166418
Haha, well I figured I should because the meds are usually used for schizos.

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>>718164086
weed, booze, and the deluding myself into believing that one day I'm going to be successful

>>718164086
Same here. Had the highest dose allowed for a few months. Been off from it for almost a year and still recovering from the damage it does to your libido. You literally pass out if you try to wank.

>>718166677
Salvia divinorum. Like being shot out of a cannon aimed directly at the floor.

>>718166418
Boy Howdy is an actual exclamation you blunderbus

>>718164086
1 dost of DMT

experienced a reality that literally shocked my anxiety and depression away

>>718164739
Yeah I bet thatll never fuck you over

>>718166979
Would you recommend me taking DMT once for anxiety and depression? how life changing is it?

Cannabis and coffee. With a dash of music making and masturbation.

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>>718164997
Yeah, i was on it as a kid and it took forever for me to cum and it really deadened the feeling of orgasms.

The first few times I had sex I couldn't fucking finish because of that shit.

This is one of many negative side effects, I would honestly rather be depressed or kill myself than be on this or any SSRI.

>>718167081
i have no idea who you are, what you are like, nor your mental condition.

also i didnt do dmt for the "purpose" of ridding myself of anxiety and depression. i did it out of curiosity, and it was just a side effect.

>>718167081
Just blast off and enjoy

>>718164086

How's your sexual function on sertraline?

Fuck man, when I was on sertraline it took me ages to cum, and when I finally did it was lackluster at best.

Soon as I stopped sertraline, things went back to normal.

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>>718164086
Toughen it out, because I'm not a drug addled faggot.

Also music, drawing, and vidya. Playing a game I just bought called Devil Daggers, shit is so cash. I made it to 170 seconds before getting ganked by a skull out of nowhere, makes me feel like such a badass. Picrelated something I drew a few hours ago.

>>718166031
>I usually try and take a .5 xanax immediately if I feel one coming on and play some .io games online to keep my mind off of things until the xanax kicks in but I usually end up taking 1 - 1.5mg by the time I finally start coming down and then I pass out for a few hours and feel relatively better.
ive never been able to convince a doctor to prescribe me xans, but the ones i self med with are 2 mg, and are hardly even effective. you should probably updose

THIS

Lots of weed

>>718164086
Not being a faggot grabbing my balls and dealing with life

>>718164086
Depression and anxiety have dominated my life and kept me from my potential for all 36 years of my life, and I have no idea how to fix that.

>>718164086
Balls and effort. Snap the fuck out of it.

>>718164866
Which job is that?

I was on 300 mg effexor for 7 years. psychologists and psychiatrists were unhelpful. Fixed this shit on my own by rationalizing and understanding that negative thoughts are brought on by illness.

>>718167228
You should probably find new ways to unwind

>>718164086
weed and opiates

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no one has suggested some exercise/10

>>718167228
If you go to a general practitioner, you might be able to convince them that you were already prescribed xanax from a different doctor and needed/wanted to switch doctors for whatever reason.

This was actually the case for me and he just wrote me up a script for xanax no problem. BUT it was only the .25's at first. Now it's the .5's.

>>718167334
Pretty sure you have no idea what depression is like. And I am genuinely glad about that for your sake, but don't act like you understand something that you don't.

>>718167522
what illness would bring up the anxiety? How did you quit the effexor? If I miss a dose, it's pretty scary feeling.

>>718166190
Got that one prescribed once, it made me feal really shit and I nearly wanted to kill myself.

A combo of Sertraline and Amitriptyline.

Been on Amitrip for 9 years, Sertra for four or five.

>>718167808
I really envy those who haven't felt the effects of true anxiety/depression. Ignorance is bliss sometimes.

Seroquel 400mg a night. It's the only thing that will put me down and allow me to still wake up a human being the next morning.

I take 60 mg of prozac

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>>718164086
Alcohol

Shit doesn't work tho. I won't take anything from big pharma just based on personal beliefs.

If I have steady sex it curbs my alcohol problem, but tfw no gf and 2/10. Only have a decent job that's about it.

I hear once the Chads have used up all the girls and the dumb bitches finally realize theyre being used (or their looks begin to fade) can I hope to be wanted. Might just kms or hope I don't wake up after a night of drinking alone.

>>718164086
honestly? running and fucking

I found a long time ago that I get depressed easily. As most of you will get, that doesn't mean I'm unhappy or any of that bullshit. I mean literally it's super hard to leave my bed and when I drive it's hard not to speed into a tree.

Anyway, I am an incredibly mentally strong person, so I started to think of how I would beat this myself. I find that forcing myself to get up at 5:30 and run for 30-45 minutes is a significant help. Beyond that, I try to go for a walk in the sun every afternoon and I control my drinking. I don't drive at all during these periods.

I also managed to stop getting into fistfights through the control my drinking thing.

That's what works for me. I know it wont work for many others, but if you're the athlete type you might want to give it a try.

>>718164086
tile patterns

>>718167175
Doesn't dmt cause schizophrenia?

>>718167316

Start with medications and meditation.
Both are just the tools.>>718167334

>>718167888
I didnt suffer from much anxiety. I was diagnosed with major depression and it was coupled with a thyroid disorder which was discovered too late and before it was found out, doctors would tell me stuff like "drink a red bull and give yourself a kick up the ass". That's when i decided to treat it on my own. It took a while but I learned how to manage negative toughts brought on by the illness.

>>718166451
>Sertraline user here.
>Does it make anyone else feel slightly dizzy from time to time?

That's, uh.. That's something you should see a neurologist about.

>>718168497

Being slightly dizzy from time to time is NOTHING if you compare that to other Zoloft/sertraline (it's same shit) side effects

>>718166920
Christ seth

>>718168064

Seroquel turned me into a zombie and I'd sleep like a log. And I'd wake up feeling like sludge.

>>718167888
Also im still on effexor altough a much smaller dose. Its a fucking nightmare to stop using it, especially at such a high dose where not taking it could lead up to heart failure

>>718167454
I've had a few. Different for everybody probably. It's more important to leave the ones that kill you inside ASAP. Don't be stuck, etc. Figure it out. You almost certainly have nothing better to do than that, so spend time on it.

>>718167625
That's cause depressed always want pills

>>718167004
Kk

Bupropion that gives me fucking diarrhea

>>718168813
Seroquel didnt do shit for me. Doctors made me try so many meds i felt like i became a lab rat. Only accepted it because i wanted to feel better.

>>718166031

I don't know if you're still around, but that sounds horrific. I'm actually pretty OK with my form of Manic Depression. I'm slow cycling and straight up manic, so I just take my far too much Seroquel every night and it keeps me just far enough below 50% that I don't shoot off to 100% very easily. I usually get pretty heavily depressed around the fall and holidays, but this year though force of will alone (and a trip to the hospital, first time since 2005) I managed to stay depression free for the most part. I still have a fear of being happy and it fucking sucks, but at least I don't want to kill myself or feel continuous crushing anxiety.

Also... you're not alone and you'll be okay

>>718168497
Feeling dizzy is a common side effect of sertaline, was just seeing if anyone else had it.

Almost all medication comes with side effects of some kind, it's whether those side effects are worse than the illness they treat or if there are better options available.

Occasionally feeling dizzy is a small price to pay for not wanting to die every waking moment.

>>718168895
Once you have exhausted all other options, then you will realize.

>>718166031
I know those EXACT feels. Going to the ER thinking you're having a heart attack and shit. I've been there man. Shit is the worst and wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy

>>718168813

Seroquel is supposed to do that, I swear. My body and brain just utterly reject it in that way. If I weren't taking seroquel I'd be full on schizophrenic, but it dials my illness down to a perfectly manageable manic depression. It just sucks being this in fear of happiness. Especially since I've been mostly happy for a few months now. It's terrifying.

>>718164086
Lots o' Iodine and Fish Oil.

>>718168345
don't settle for some used whore, they dont deserve to have a nice relationsip

>>718164086
bupropion xl

>>718168971
>>718168813
I felt like I could barely think on Seroquel. I laughed at myself because I had trouble reading.

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>>718164086
Depression isn't something you fight, it's a dark gift. Clinical studies have shown that depressed people show markedly superior judgement in tasks like estimating whether a given shape will fit in a given hole; non-depressed people err constantly on the side of optimism. This suggests that depression is actually the removal of a filter which makes the world seem irrationally pleasant to everyone else. If you're interested in reading more about this, it's called the theory of depressive realism: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Depressive_realism

One of the theories for the cause of depression is feelings of being trapped, and that we evolved depression as a way of getting the most accurate possible information to allow us to escape situations which would otherwise be inescapable. I prefer to live in truth, even when that truth results in misery and horror. Sanity is a small price to pay for wisdom.

"No live organism can continue for long to exist sanely under conditions of absolute reality. Even larks are supposed by some to dream. Hill House -- not sane -- stood by itself against its hills, holding darkness within. It had stood so for eighty years and might stand for eighty more. Within, walls continued upright, bricks met neatly, floors were firm and doors were sensibly shut. Silence lay steadily against the wood and stone of Hill House and whatever walked there, walked alone." -- The Haunting of Hill House, _Shirley Jackson_

>>718169131

Exercise helps, but it's not a perfect solution. For me the benefits of exercise are offset by the negative effect that if I'm feeling too good or am too happy I'll fly off the handle into a manic episode and who the fuck knows what happens then.

>>718166223
30mg of Paroxetine, been nearly 10 years now, doesn't do much but takes the edge off it, and fuck going through the awful withdrawal anytime soon

>>718164086
Weed man helps a lot try it

>>718169131
Lolololololololol. Kid.

>>718164086
120mg cymbalta, 8 10/325 norco, 120mg methadone, 5mg xanax, 60mg Adderall, weed and molly or coke to taste. I think I might still be depressed, but I can't keep a solid memory for more than a few minutes at a go, soooo... I'll call it a win?

>>718169443

Yeah, same here. Were you being fed a steady stream of it throughout the day? I use it strictly as a sleeping pill and it works pretty well. I get the DUHs pretty hardcore, but then I fall asleep and when I wake up I'm pretty good.

>>718169443

Seroquel is some funky shit.

Abilify was much better for me, and now I'm on Latuda, which was (still is?) the first antipsychotic to be metabolically neutral, so no possibility of weight gain.

>>718169467
Severely depressed fag here. This is interesting and I'll read on it, but I would gladly be an ignorant fool who could be happy. I don't think this is a good trade. But again, I want to read on it.

>>718169584
Why even take the cymbalta fuck

>>718169467
Tl;Dr evolution

There. That wasn't so hard.

>>718169698
To treat the neuropathic pain from the spinal injuries.

>>718169346
idk man, all my friends are getting married and having kids.mom was hinting at it a bunch too. I just straight out told her "I doubt I'll ever get married or have any kids". She looked really disappointed. Oh well. I'm too fucked up to be a parent.

>>718169698
It also lessens some of the more violent twitching.

>Does it make anyone else feel slightly dizzy from time to time?

I take mine before bed so no. But the diarrhea fuckin' sucks in the morning.

>>718169627

One of my doctors Once tried to wean me off of Seroquel and onto Ability. Yeah, that didn't work at ALL. I went from having a hard time waking up in the morning and being kinda lazy to never being able to sleep or concentrate. Yeah, no thanks. Give me the sads again please, at least I could function.

>>718169665

I get hit with severe depression every now and then. The best cure for me is my friends. My true friends will call and if I don't answer will show up at my house and drag me out with them. If they didn't do that a couple of days of sad can easily turn into bedridden for a week or two. It's a fucking nightmare and I never want to experience it again.

On the bright side I'm fairly confident I'll never try to drop the toaster into the bathtub again. It just plain didn't work the first time and I couldn't will myself to do it a second.

>>718169467
I'll be reading into this for sure. Thanks, anon

>>718168345
Sounds like you've got some cheerful prospects on the horizon!

>>718169467
Well this is really interesting I suffer from depression and never looked at it this way

>>718166451
When I used to skip a day I would get real light headed and when I came off the pills, I had about two weeks of stumbling about like a drunk because it made me so dizzy.

>>718169467
Being able to see the world completely unfiltered sucks balls by the way.

It's an interesting world view to visit, but I don't want to stay there.

>>718166451
>Does it make anyone else feel slightly dizzy from time to time?

I take mine before bed so no. But the diarrhea fuckin' sucks in the morning.

>>718170169

I suffer from depression and sudden extreme claustrophobia. I can understand the theory perfectly. When I'm feeling trapped I see so many options. My keychain alone can offer me a dozen possible fixes to any problem when I'm locked in that hard.

weed

>>718164086
Kratom. i found a very powerful white vein that's similar to a strong cup of coffee laced with norco.

>>718169590
No, I got some that somebody didn't want. At first I couldn't believe that people are prescribed that stuff. It was definitely interesting in a way. I ended up finishing what I was given, which kind of surprises me. It was a while ago but I'm pretty sure I used some for napping... like a mummy.

I you want to avoid your thoughts for a while: syroquel

>>718164086
Firearms, feminine boys, fashion and weed

better than any dating site! a lot of horny as fuck sluts of your city on http://bla.st/l8r3f

>>718170198
>Being able to see the world completely unfiltered sucks balls by the way.

Yes, it does! Fuck... seeing all the pain and suffering and the complete and utter pointlessness of it in that we could help at least 75% of those who are truly suffering, but don't out of self interest. It literally breaks my heart on occasion. Crying right now because of it. It's OK though, crying means my emotions still work. I need those.

>>718164086
My tool is growing the fuck up and not being a whinny kid.

Life is hard, but you still have to try your best even if the results not god.

>>718170276
Yeah now that I think about it ... I see how that could be possible but is insanity worth it ?

>>718170407

How much did you have and how much did you use at a time? 400MG isn't even a recipe for a definite 6 hour nap for me. And if I choose not to take it I could easily be up for 90 of the next 100 hours.

mirtazapine 45mg for massive depressive disorder and it barely helps. i don't spiral into depression but i'm still always anxious. drinking a bottle of vodka every day. have seizures if i don't drink for a day+

my inner monologue says "kill yourself" 30+ times every day.

no god would give a man this type of life

Got me some 20mg oxycodons retard. Almost chipped my tooth biting them.

>>718170108
yeah.. great...

>>718170682
those are prodepressants

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>>718170475
I'm 48 years old and have lived all my life with severe and untreatable clinical depression. I lose entire months sometimes, lying in bed and pissing into bottles. But I use the power of insight and accurate observation gained from my depression and have focused it into a life of activism and community organizing. My life is a shit-show of misery and loneliness and despair, but what keeps me going is the knowledge that this pays for my ability to help others. The world is a terrible place, but if you can find the strength to bear the burden, you can make it just a little bit less terrible for others.

>>718170577

NO!!! FUCK NO!!!! That's what I've been trying to say. Click my ID and see what else I've been saying. I am a firm proponent of sanity. If I lost my mind for real there is no telling what I could do. I am built like a diesel dump truck. If I went fully off the handle, like took an Ambien vacation it is entirely possible that I could leave a string of corpses and have no recollection of murdering them. That is literally my biggest fear. The fear of accidentally committing homicide terrifies me.

>>718170729
They make me happy as fuck ;)

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>>718164086

>>718164086
I use to be on 150ng of Zoloft. Prior to that I use to drink myself almost stupid every night. Finally got drunk and broke down in front of a really good friend and told him how badly I wanted to kill myself. The next day I went to medical and got put on it and Inderal. I'm suppose to be on it but after being on it for like 5 months I was happy and got myself a girlfriend so I don't take it anymore. Still wonder if I was being a pussy who couldn't kill himself though .

>>718169443
Being able to talk about meds and the whole situation with people going through the same thing would have been pretty helpful i think. I hope you guys get through this and end up being able to help people going through the same thing.
It gives you a unique perspective on life and forces you to understand yourself, and i know that if you're able to beat this you'll be stronger going forward.

>>718170633
Go er. Say kill myself. Not now but when you're ready for a 9mm BJ. AA

Effexor XR and Trazadone

>>718170854
When you have them

>>718170796

I feel sorry for you. Thank you for doing what you do, but I could not live your life. I enjoy physical activity too much to waste away in a bed all day EVERY day.

Maybe I shouldn't be here. I've been crying now for a good while. On the other hand, these tears really are offsetting the happiness I've had too much of lately.

>>718170475
It's even worse than that.
The suffering doesn't matter, everyone dies and in 100, 200 years no one will give the faintest shit about any of us alive now.
Even the famous who are remembered are just ideas and concepts and it won't matter to them either.

Humanity will die one way or another and at the end of it we'll have been worth no more or less than all the other particles of space dust.

I used to think about that almost 100% of my waking time. Fortunately it only happens now when I'm being philosophical.

>>718164086
>zoloft
>go to pharma and get box and instructions
>"your dick will not work also you'll wanna die an extra amount for about 3 weeks once you start taking zoloft"
>take zoloft
>labido dies
>zombie mode existence for 3 weeks
>emerge super fucking happy
>4 days later i'm super fucking sad
>repeat

fuck zoloft

>>718170599
I dunno. They were white puck shaped pills. I think I only ever took two of those at a time at most. Definitely slowed a lot of brain function for me however much it was.

>>718170850
Man I feel you so hard .... for some time now my days are fading into one .. I dont know if im a life or dreaming

>>718171065
Right now 3 packs of 30. Just took 3. Little itchy right now. Going to get some centrizine

Zoloft made me try to COMMIT suicide. I have 13 or 14 lines from a box cutter while I was on a shift working at Walmart and mentally lost it and I don't even honestly remember going to the bathroom to cut myself but I almost bled out until I came to my PARTIAL senses and bled my wet to the back where I asked management "how to stop bleeding, because I think I'm about to die." I ended up in a psych hospital after that. Tried cymbalta, did the same thing, they then put me on Wellbutrin and it made me hallucinate scary shit and now I'm on Pristiq- which is just making me want to die and I'm always angry. I hope either I find a medication that helps me or I end up on one that just puts a bullet in my head. I'm so tired of being tired.

>>718170533
that attitude is retarded.

everyone's brain is different; some aren't fully functional. to think that everyone that gets depressed should just harden up is idiotic. some people have disorders where they have to swear every few moments, so to believe that some brains are wired in a way that dysfunctions and makes people anxious and sad far too much is too far fetched?

grow your knowledge the fuck up, faggot

>>718164086
>mom dies with dog at her side in bed
>dog dies one year later in the same week
>lock self in room for three days
>only come out to use toilet
>dont eat or drink
>sister has me committed
>pumped full of remeron and other shit
>go completely insane
>dont remember the next four months
>apparently did a lot of embarrassing shit

depression sucks but the meds make it worse

>>718171100

You had 100s or 200s. The 300s and 400s are oblong and the 25s are tiny and yellow, I think. Then again, it's been a while since I'd have brand name seroquel. It's quetiapine fumarate or some such, that's the actual name. Its a slow release, so if you ever get them again and want to be stupid ASAP crush them and toss them in a glass of juice.

>>718171071

I'm changed my world view such that what you're worrying about doesn't matter. That's all a certainty. There it no possible way to stop the end of humanity. It's even more inevitable than death and taxes because eventually there won't be any humans to pay taxes, but the universe will still plummet into darkness and go cold.

Therefore, the only thing that really does matter is life. I do all I can to save what life I can. Be it physically helping animal life or being here trying to help other humans cope with humanity.

>>718171295

You sound like you're non 24. It's hard as fuck to live on this planet if you don't fall into a natural 24 hour rhythm.

>>718170970

I just had this very discussion on facebook a week ago. As you can tell, I do what I can.

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>>718171071
Do you even Ubermensch? Nietzsche was not a nihilist; he was trying to show that if you have the courage to throw yourself into the Abyss, there IS solid ground on the other side. Recognizing that there is no inherent meaning or purpose is half the journey. Once you're in the Void where there is no external authority or purpose, you must now beginning constructing your own internalized morality. You force the cold, uncaring clockwork of the Universe to bend to your Will not because you must but because you can. The Ubermensch smiles at despair and takes heart from emptiness because it creates a space where he can create.

>>718170633

You need to work yourself off of the alcohol if you ever want to live a normal life. Alcohol is one drug that you definitely develop a physical dependence on. If you can just smoke weed or use anything that doesn't have a physical dependence that will kill you if you reject it you can eventually work yourself off of it, but the alcohol is too much. Try your best, but I do not envy you because that must be a hard fight.

>>718171786
Nietzsche has became a fucking meme at this point

>>718171579
You were depressed, not chemically depressed. You had a pretty good reason to feel like shit, so you didn't need medication.
Medication is for sick people. You weren't sick and so you had a bad reaction.

>>718171608
>It's hard as fuck to live on this planet if you don't fall into a natural 24 hour rhythm.

rings too true man. i slip into a nocturnal rhythm and i am emotionally fucked. waking up when the sun goes down and everyone else is winding down when you're winding up. a recipe for isolation.

better than any dating site! a lot of horny bitches of your city on http://bla.st/l8r3f

>>718172024
>>718171579
Ya, grief and depression are a tricky two. It's difficult to know if you're just emotionally sensitive and overwhelmed with grief, or emotionally unstable and mourning yourself into a depression.

>>718171786

Read and regurgitate, eh? As if you really understand what you're going on about.

>>718171487
Yeah, but cass here there is a legit physiological damage are very rare. The vast majority of people tht say they have depressi or anxiety are just whinny cuts.

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I got to strip clubs and forget about the assholes that are dissing me. Drugs do not have tits.

>>718171786

That is a very heartwarming thought process. Realizing that you must construct your own code of ethics AND actually doing it in a way that successfully integrates you into our current society while all the people who just don't understand your level of thought still think you're one of them? That would literally make you the most powerful mind in town. I mean, I try to do my best to live a good life, but I don't think I've ever quite broken it down that far. I just got so sick of hating myself and my own existence that I've focused not on success or whatever, but just on being happy.

"What do you want to be when you grow up? I want to be happy!" It is the best answer ever to that question, I truly believe that.

>>718172024

This checks out. It sounds like a psychiatric break induced by grief.

>>718172270

True. i spent most of the past decade waking up for work at 6:30 PM. It has completely thrown me off. i am having a hell of a hard time adjusting to my new job's 8AM start time, but i am doing my best and I am HAPPY to be seeing the sun again. It's still hard keeping track of the time and remembering when to end my day by taking my meds. I probably should have already, but I haven't.

>>718171786
>Do you even Ubermensch?
Not really.

And for all the posturing, Nietzsche is dead just like everyone else.
"My name is Ozymandias, king of kings:
Look on my works, ye Mighty, and despair!"

I wouldn't say I'm a nihilist as such, I understand and partake in the human experience and enjoy it, it's just that when I stop and think about it I realise it doesn't mean anything. My existence is just electricity and chemicals making some experiences feel good and others feel bad.

I make the best out of life and never deliberately make things a worse experience for others, but in the end, I just know that it doesn't matter.

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>>718172744
"We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us." -- Charles Bukowski

>>718172744
>but in the end, I just know that it doesn't matter.

Why can't you just change your mind and decide it does? If I may draw a parallel with video games... You don't have to win the game to enjoy playing it. Some of the best games have no true objective.

>>718171786
>Do you even Ubermensch? Nietzsche was not a nihilist; he was trying to show that if you have the courage to throw yourself into the Abyss, there IS solid ground on the other side. Recognizing that there is no inherent meaning or purpose is half the journey. Once you're in the Void where there is no external authority or purpose, you must now beginning constructing your own internalized morality. You force the cold, uncaring clockwork of the Universe to bend to your Will not because you must but because you can. The Ubermensch smiles at despair and takes heart from emptiness because it creates a space where he can create.
This is one of the philosophies that created the Third Reich. It failed.

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>>718172355
idk wtf to think/do. i still haven't gotten over it. im tearing up right now because i thought about it. current living situation just adds to it all.

my mom was bipolar and ive been diagnosed with it too. bless her heart but i dont want to end up as broken as her but theres nothing i can do and no one to turn to.

only reason im still here is pic related. when she exits im going to be right behind her.

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>>718164086
pretty much this

>>718173178
Wow you are stupid

>>718173184

Aside from your dog what kid of support network do you have? Do you have friends? Do you go out? What, other than 4chan do you do or do you enjoy?

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>>718173362

>>718164086
Paroxetine and sedoxil here.

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>>718173178
>Third Reich
Nietzsche did not support fascism. It's the antithesis of disregarding all external authority in place of a rigid internal morality; if anything, Nietzsche was an anarchist. Furthermore, even with Nazi scholars trying desperately to cut and reshape Nietzsche's work to make it look like it supported fascism, they were still forced to fabricate large chunks of text out of whole cloth to do it.

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>>718164086
Venlafaxine AN SR two 150mg pills, its a bitch to start on you lose your sex drive and your tired all the time but once it kicks in its good but alcohol has no effect unless its the hard shit

>>718173038
I guess it would just feel like I was being dishonest with myself.

That filter we were talking about.

you guys ever try buspirone? it just makes me dizzy with weird heart beats.

>>718173515
>>Third Reich
>Nietzsche did not support fascism. It's the antithesis of disregarding all external authority in place of a rigid internal morality; if anything, Nietzsche was an anarchist. Furthermore, even with Nazi scholars trying desperately to cut and reshape Nietzsche's work to make it look like it supported fascism, they were still forced to fabricate large chunks of text out of whole cloth to do it.
You do not know you history. The amount of altered profiles of Nietzsche for the past fifty years is an abomination. I would not trust any western university to teach Nietzsche accurately. Oddly, the only ones that teach real Nietzsche is in Russian.

>>718173514
cocaine/whiskey kept me going for a few years...
and i was a long haul trucker most of the time... still dont know how i never wrecked the rig

>>718173362
my best and only friend died in september. sister moved out of country so dont talk to her for almost 7 years. only reason my cousin lets me live in his basement is so he doesnt have to pay somebody.

cant find a job, have to donate plasma to feed my dog. if im not on here im sitting with dog staring at a wall for hours at a time.

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>>718173511

Can you give me an answer i can infer knowledge from?

>>718173625

But that is not dishonesty, at least not to me. You know how the chemical and biological processes happen, for the most part. Can't you just tell yourself that the fact that they ARE happening is enough to say they matter?

As I like to joke, we all matter.

>>718173680
Can you elaborate on that?

>>718173680
The Dunning-Kruger is strong in this one. There's at least one in every thread where Nietzsche is mentioned, the guy who has an off-the-wall take on Nietzsche's work, who has never actually read anything by Nietzsche except perhaps Beyond Good and Evil but has very strong opinions based on blog posts he vaguely remembers reading somewhere by someone with a political axe to grind.

>>718173038
in a way it's pretty cool that we get to kind of author our own lives potentially. the purpose could be an unappealing one to you, and we just get to go out and find stuff as far as we know.

i like what somebody had to say about life being a pretty great thing, and wanting to protect it. i want to sort of make the best of it all and encourage others to do so as well. the business of life has a lot of us brainwashed i think. it's important to find personal meaning, and then move towards it. peacefully too, i'd say. find what maters to you and move towards it. if nothing matters enough in your life, move away from that as best as you can. there's not a whole lot better to do maybe.

>>718173914
>only reason my cousin lets me live in his basement is so he doesnt have to pay somebody.

*to babysit

>>718173943
he sucks off school teachers for weed and blow

>>718173914

What you need to do is find a purpose. Get the fuck out and see the world and see people. Take your dog for walks. Try to interact with the people who like your dog. Do literally anything but sit in your sadness and stew. If you try to meet people more opportunities will enter your life. See if you can do things socially with your cousin. The basement dweller life isn't healthy for you and if you like your dog you'd get out more and walk her.

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I take a low dose of testosterone.

I lift weights.

And I try to fuck as many women as I possibly can.

And I have had major depression my whole life. Attempted suicide once. Old friend here.

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Just a tittle tip you guys: Antidepessant and antipsychotic drugs do not work. Well, they do, but not how you would expect. They are all antagonists on anywhere from 10 to 50 different receptors.

An antogonist drug blocks out any action of the receptors for which it has affinity i.e. your brains neurotransmitters are partially deactivated.
Psychiatrists themselves have fuck-all clue of exactly how these drugs work, it is none of their concern believe it or not. Antidepressants and antipsychotics are just the morphine/barbiturates/benzodiazepines of today (since the 20's they have tested these "miracle cures" because they could make a patient docile but as soon as they found out it has a shitload of unwanted side effects they started found a new class of chemicals to play with) except while these "old" drugs merely get you addicted and feeling good, the antidepressants and antipsychotics have tendency to switch off parts of your brain function essential to the person you are.
Soon they will find out it is no better than their previous attempts at randomly calming patients down and replace it with something else. Just because you look docile doesn't mean you are cured, or even treated of your ailment- your symptoms have merely been shoved to the side and will come back with a vengeance.

Alprazolam and morphine for me, when I feel like it I'll take what the RC market has to offer such as acryloyl-fentanyl, flunitrazolam and clonitrazolam. Then again I'm a dope fiend, but at least I know what to expect from most of these chems I do.

Pic related, best recreational benzo out there. Potency is also not bad, approximately 10x flunitrazepam. I'd recommend clonitrazolam, etizolam or a phenazepam analog if you are not looking for recreational effects but rather stabilization.

Hypericum Perforatum 300mg
Been on it for more than a year. Living life day by day. Recently quit nicotine cold turkey. Life is good.

>>718173948
>The Dunning-Kruger is strong in this one.
Typical intellectual response to keep in political control. Disavowing the entire psychology authority typically keeps your type in your place. Whomever have more weapons and hire morals wins. This is how Rome fell. Fuck off.

>>718174221

Keep telling yourself we're the ones who are wrong and enjoy abusing your drugs, fool. I know the anti psychotics shut off parts of my brain. That's why they're so helpful. It sure does feel nice to get a full night's sleep a few times a week. It's a shame I'm such an addict. At least the spoons in my apartment aren't all burned.

Honestly, though, sorry for that reaction. There is just as much a stigmas against those who are dependent on street drugs as there is against the mentally ill who are properly treating their problems with medicine. You really should seek help, but you seem convinced that your way is better.