Feels thread. >be me, 2012 >15/16 >meet gal in biology

lets go op, i wanna feel
hit me with it

>>718026989
OK.
>hurt, couldn't even tell me she's dating
>sad.exe
>go through school, going through the motions
>zombified
>always flirting with me
>gets me excited and hopeful
>stops talking to me
>feel like death
>texting me again
>flirts, broke up with her boyfriend
>says she wants me
>asks me to wait on asking her out for a week
>went to a rave and had a hickey on her neck
>doesn't want people thinking she broke up with him for me
>don't understand but w/e
>week later
>ask her out
>"idk anon, it's between you and this other guy"
>deal with that for a week
>fuck it
> date some other chick
>"but anon I was going to pick you"
>dead again
>break up with other gal
>tells me she might break up with him
>doesn't know yet, but he's very controlling
>wait patiently

>>718027630
Dude this chick sounds like a fucking cunt.

Fuck her, find a way to shame her and/or move on.

>>718027630
>she breaks up with him
>nows my chance
>can't even get the words out of my mouth
>"anon wait, I don't want people thinking I left him for you"
>high-school me is dumb, don't understand this
>says wait a week
>ok
>wait a week
>go to ask her out
>lip locked with some Puerto Rican faggot
>gelled black hair combed back
>Nirvana vest (liked nirvana at the time so wasn't even mad)
>skinny jeans
>wtf
>depressed again
>completely drops me for him
>don't talk for a while
>randomly texts me out of the blue
>call her out on her shit
>blames me, says I 'waited too long'
>argument ensues
>gets her Puerto Rican faggot in on it
>they start harassing me after I stopped messaging back
>calling me a pussy, faggot, etc
>roast em (was really decent at racial jokes and dissing)
>threaten to call the cops on me
>laugh
>stop talking
>I love her
>heart wrenched out, acting like it doesn't hurt
>at least trying to
>don't talk for a while
>messages me, they are fighting
>needs 'bff' advice
>whatever I'm a sucker for a cute face, fuck you
>talking to her
>supposedly he has cancer
>won't make it to end of that year of high school (junior year by now btw)
>she wants to hangout
>ok

>>718027995
Oh it gets better anon...

Go on... Also check em?

>>718028314
>hangout with mutual friend
>at his house, 3 mutual friends over, 2 of which are brothers
We'll name the older brother who's house it was as C
>C: "anon you wanna watch a movie"
> sure
>he's looking for movie
Girl I loved will be M, younger brother who lives in the house D, 3rd mutual friend is N
>N starts fucking with me in chair
>touching my ears and shit
>jump out the way
>don't like that shit
>go get a drink
>come back, N is in my chair with M on his lap
>they're flirting blatantly
>w/e
>ignore it even though she was flirting with me after asking for 'bff' advice
>hurts to see friend do this
>whatever
>I'm twice his size, I would break him if I did anything
>not trying to go to jail
>I sit on couch, try to ignore it
>they get on opposite side of couch
It was one of those big ass couches that is shaped like an L
>they're under a blanket
>see hand moving around her waist
>fingerbanged by my friend in front of me
>N knows of our history
>supremely pissed off
>can't think
>go outside

I lost a dollar once....

>>718029023
Continue.

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Recent af
>Be me
>Be dating 7/10
>First gf
>Already saying we love eachother
Feelsgoodman.jpeg
>As we date more and more, she begins to open up
>Talks about her grandma's death nearly making her kill herself, takes shit for anxiety and depression nightly
Feelsbadman.jpeg
>Never got far with her, only fingered and used a vibrator
>One day, she says she'll never be happy again, never get over her grandma's death
>Accept futility, can't get past how her depression is basically a part of her personality
>Constantly apologizes over the littlest things, even if they don't irritate me or are just funny
>Decide to break it off
>Go to see her for the last time
>At her mom's house, see her brother too
>She jumps up from behind counter, to scare me, fails
>Biggest, happiest smile I've ever seen
Fuck Me
TBC...

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>>718029311
Nice Dubs, OP.

Checked them.

Is there anymore?

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>>718029023
>wander around C's neighborhood for about an hour
>it's 4 in the morning
>get back to his driveway
>still pissed off
>punching my truck
>C comes out
>"yo anon you ok?"
>spill about them
>"damn dude"
>yeah
>he goes in after talking for a minute
>back out, tells me M wants to talk to me
>on the porch, says the flirting didn't mean anything
>I didn't bring up the fingerbang
>"I love you anon, I always will"
>dumbass me accepts
>love you too
>go inside, finish movie
FF a few weeks
>they break up
>he doesn't want her to be hurt when he dies
>I know he's lying
>she doesn't believe me
>some tension
>starts flirting again
>sketchy at first, then start flirting back
>hardcore flirting
>more than we ever did
Unfortunately never got any nudes. Sorry guys. She wasn't about that life...
>send her a picture
>some lovey dovey shit
>beta af
>probably
>says boyfriend wouldn't like that
>allofmywat
>started dating some dude a few days before
>again, didn't tell me
>pissed off
>call her a whore, gtfo my life, etc etc
>go to Ohio with my grandparents
>happy to be away from her
>all goes well
>or so I thought
>2 weeks before going back home (was there to help out great grandma with her shed cause grandparents couldn't do it themselves)
>MFW

>>718029526
And the ride continues...

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>>718029311
>She jumps up from behind counter, to scare me, fails
>Biggest, happiest smile I've ever seen

I can relate. I thought I forgot. Please don't do that.

>>718029741
There are no breaks on this train, brother.

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>>718029311
>Says she wants to go to library, print off pictures for ARPG group she's a member of on DeviantArt
>Drive to town, sort of a last date
>I try to keep a brave face, talk to her and get her happy before it happens
>Go there, hide in bathroom and take shitty snapchat story
>Finally leave, she brings up going to an aquarium, shopping and shit
Feelsworseman.jpeg
>I takes me over a minute to say I don't think this will work
>She asks why
>Tell her it's because I can't be with someone so down all the time, I'm an upbeat, enthusiastic person constantly
>She says, "But...you're making me happy again."
My fucking feels...
>Think I'm beyond the point of no return, say only sorry
>Asks if we can still date
>I don't respond
>Get to her house, pick up mail, help her take the shitload in
>Feel bad, pull her in for a hug
>She pushes me away and runs to the house
>Get in, give drop the mail off and her Sabrina wailing to her mom
>Don't have balls to face up or face them, just walk out, drive away
I'm terrified she'll kill herself or something. I basically broke up with her because I couldn't get past her depression, but didn't see how much I helped. What the fuck, /b/, I love to make people laugh and smile, and I blindsided her...

>>718029865
I've been watching this scene on YouTube ever since I broke it off. Call me a faggot but...hold me...

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>>718030135
Fuck OP, that shit sucks.

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>>718026363
>we talk, flirt, etc
>wants to date me
>I want to date her
>known each other for 2 maybe 3 months
>ask out

yeah this is fake, even if a 4fag found a 10/10 and manged to not turn her away by his presence, not even a retarded snail waits 2-3 months before asking out

1/10 made me reply

>>718030385
Not OP, just some piece of shit in human skin.

>>718030135
if she an heros thats her problem.

im sorry but theres nothing you are responsible for.

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>>718029719
>2 weeks before we go back home
>random Facebook message
>wat.jpeg
>it's M
>crying to me cause her boyfriend chose drugs over her
>twice
>gave him ultimatum, her or the drugs
>MFW he chose drugs both times
>agree to give her advice
>'break up with him dumbass'
>calls me
>talk on the phone for 3 hours
>she starts flirting, hard
>didn't reciprocate for a while
>eventually gave in cause I love her
>taking about she can't wait to see me
>she's visiting Colorado
>that's on the way
>talk grandparents into driving through there to stop by for an hour or 2
>missionaccomplished
>driving back, pull up to her house
>her dad is gone
>fat army fuck lol
>like Peter Griffin fat
>anyway, play basketball outside for a minute
>fucking July so it's hot and dry as fuck
>sweaty as fuck
>M: "anon let's go inside"
>lolk
>go inside, sit on couch
>immediately attacks my face with her mouth
>she cannot stop kissing me
>offer to go to her room
>cant, got some weird ass birth control where there's wires in her pussy that cause random periods
>this time was one of those random periods
>idgaf, I'll swim the red Sea
>"no, no, I don't want to make a mess anon"
>fuck
>still making out, grinding, lots of tension
>grandparents come back, we go home
>she flies back in a week
>"anon I want you to be my boyfriend :)"
>excited as fuck
>finally
>my whole life has lead up to this moment
>"I mean it won't be official until I'm back"
>fuck

>>718030135
Eerily similar to the case with my ex.

>>718030504
She said she'll be fine today but I know damn well that ain't true. She was the first girl I'd say I truly loved (outside of family and shit, but that's different). I felt guilty when I realized what I'd truly done last night. Another horrible reason I did it was because, since I'm on winter break and had been mulling this over for a week, I wanted to up my chances of landing a prospect when I got back to college.

>>718030537
fuck this bitch

>>718030554
Care to share, then? I need to know others have made that choice and see how in the right I am since others did too.

>>718030537
She's a bitch but cont

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>>718030206
I can't hold you, anon. Instead I'll give you a funny image and tell you that you'll make it. I haven't yet, but I know I will. You will, too. Somehow. Someway.

>>718030537
I'm sorry, but the fact that you didn't cut contact with this bitch for good makes me believe that you deserve whatever she did to you after this point.

>>718030537
Been there. Reading this makes me angry at my past self for not fucking over a bitch who did something similar.

>>718030861
Slight smirk. I'm more bummed than anything. Parents raised me to be a tough shit, just worry for her.

I've become addicted to prostitution.

its something i generally do when im in a rough spot, but ive managed to fix my life. i run a successful business with enough income that im saving money each month but still being able to buy nice things and do fun things.

but when im horny and bored, and im sitting here looking at my bank account im trying to think of how to get more money and after slicing all my expenses i can only thing of hworing myself out, letting another old man suck my dick so i can get some cash and spend it on eating out.

ive begun to associate sex with favors, anytime a man approaches me i think 'what can i get out of it?'

>>718030720
well anon here is where you are fucking up.

you are only limiting yourself to one person. you need to expand and have a few gfs at once. if one get out of line you cut the ties and move on withe the rest.

i think the main problem you have also is that she was your first gf, so she will mean more to you than anyone else.

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>>718030135
I cry everytime

>>718030537

Continue, please.

>>718031002
Kek, and true. I don't feel like such a betafag I was before I met her. 21, lift, and got a sense of humor, let's hope it leads a new. Like I said, this just kinda bums me out when I put it in context, but it'll be fine. Just trying to keep a good thread going.
Bump

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>>718030537
>she gets back
>can't see her yet, dealing with work
Concrete construction in case anyone was curious
>she's back for 2 days
>"anon we need to hold off on dating"
>wat.
>"my ex bf (the one that chose drugs over her) is back"
>wat.
>"and I still have feelings for him
>MFW
>ok.....
>week goes by
>"anon idk what to do I really like you but I love him but I can't get over him"
>stop talking to him wtf it's not rocket science bitch
>"I can't just stop, I'm scared for him"
>wat.
>"he's overdosed before and said he probably would again if I dropped him"
>RIP me
>well there's gotta be some way to get over him
>"going on dates"
>ok I'll take you on dates, I'm not broke
>"....with different people"
>serious
>fuck
>ok
Week later
>she's on meetme (myyearbook)
>has a date with a dude to a fair
>her ex shows up
>she cries, her date holds her, emotional moment
>immediately they're dating
>"what the fuck M"
>"well he was there for me"
>no shit, you wouldn't accept my dates
>"well were dating now so just be happy for me. I'm sorry. I still love you"
>wat.

>>718030959
I think we're all hardwired to think that way, "what can I get out of it", at least to some extent. You've just trained your brain to think that way a little more.

You have to get into the habit of not doing that and then things will start to heal.

>>718030135
Tl;Dr?

>>718031196
good luck anon. just dont forget no matter what decisions you make or whomever you meet, its all for nothing and has no ultimate significance.

existential crisises are fun amirite?

>>718031501
Yeah, thanks, had one last night while praying ironically, lol.

>>718031349

i think you're right. right now theres a guy offering me 300 bucks a month to swallow my cum 3 times a month. thats it. its so easy. i walk in i jerk off to some porn and when i cum i just feed it to him. usually get a nice dinner on top of it.

i should stop tho

Here's my story

>be me in high school
>meet this cute girl in class
>We both run cross country and we start talking
>start dating
>best 2 1/2 years of my life
>I'm ganna marry this girl
>we plan to go to the same uni and we get apartments near each other
>both excited so we can finally bang without the possibility of parents coming in
>Soon she starts getting distant we havent been able to hang out in awhile
>see her talking to someone else one of her classmates think nothing of it
>out of the blue she say's "I don't love you like you love me"
>depression
>thought we were going to spend the rest of our lives together
>find out a month later for a mutual friend that she's dating that one classmate
>pissed, sad, confused
>I still can't get over her and it's been more than 6 months
>any girl I talk to doesn't live up to my expectations bc ex set it so high

>>718031574
you should try planting flowers, volunteer work, etc. Give to something other than yourself. you feel so accomplished and full and human when you do. idk

>just broke things off with gf
>start talking to this chick I've had a thing for for years
>few days go by
>finally get to the good shit
>sends me her full archive of nudes
>think myself "aw hell yeah I've hit the jackpot"
>then she starts telling me about fer kinks and shit
>tells me she dated a married couple
>tfw the girl you're into is a whore

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>>718031320
I'd get out of that situation, as soon as possible: you're on a sinking ship OP and trying to get the water out with a plastic cup. Fuck that shit.

>>718031320
dude please tell this doesn't go on, if it does cont but i'm cringing

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>>718031320
OP please do continue (my face right now)

>>718031829

thats not a bad idea tbh. none of my personal projects are moving at the moment so might as well do something.

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>>718031320
>she's dating this dude
>I'm pissed
>we talk on and off, fights here and there
>I join the Marine Corps
>come home on leave
>fuck her on her couch
>worth it
>won't leave him
>not worth it
>more attached to her
>killed me inside everytime I talked to he>everytime I'd visit her we'd make out
>she'd start crying cause she cheated
>hold her
>all better
>leave
>depressed again
>get back from leave, we get in a fight
>don't talk for a while
>I deploy
No not in country, just floating on a ship
>about 2 weeks before I come back to the states
>messages me
>begging me for my cock
>MFW
>I'm confused
>start flirting back and forth next day
>a lot of dirty talk
She never did this with me before so I'm sure you could imagine my confusion/excitement
>she breaks up with the dude from the fair
Mind you, this is after almost 3 years of them dating
>get back to the states
>go home on leave
>we sort of dated after they broke up
>cuts it off because apparently I'm flirting with my female friend over
>female friend and I had no idea I was flirting with her
>whatever
>go home on leave
>we see each other
>fuck, all seems good
>out of nowhere says she started dating her old manager from arbys
>laugh/cry mix
>says she was lonely while I was gone, needed someone and something
>pissed again

BRB, this thread deserves pizza!

>>718026363
Didnt even read all of this shit kill yourself fucking beta cuckold faggot u probbaly have a 2 inch dick and are skinnyfat as fuck

>>718032076
>>female friend and I had no idea I was flirting with her
hue
fuck this bitch man, i really hope you dumped her hard

>>718032076
at least you smashed do you have any pic's of her? Was she that hot that this happened

>>718031320
An hero you are beyond pathetic. Textbook case of manipulation all you have to do is ignore her that will bother her the most. Flirt with another chick in front of her dread game fam

>>718032076
>this dude is a pretty boy, preppy type
>confused cause she doesn't like those types
>fuck her one last time
BTW she's cheated on like, half her boyfriends with me
>come back from leave
>depressed
>tell her to fuck off
>a few months ago, she messages me all this shit (thank you for your service, I never said that to you and I'm really proud of what you do etc etc)
>reply: thanks
>sends 2long ass messages
>don't reply, left on read
>"I was really hoping you'd have something to say haha but it's ok, goodbye"
>reply: would be best if I didn't have anything to say to you at all
>"whatever, bye"
>No longer talk to her
>say till get depressed when I think about these 6 years of bullshit I've dealt with with her
>don't regret getting rid of her
>regret meeting her
>realize my loneliness
And that's it. Sorry I didn't have it pretyped, this post was a spur of the moment kind of deal.

>>718032076
Why the hell haven't you dumped her in the ocean already??

>>718029526
Holy shit, first time I've ever gotten dubs! All is well, now.

>>718032477
Do you have any pics not necessarily nudes

>>718032477
Thanks for the story anon, it sounds like you did what you could, she sounded like a bitch.

>>718030762
She's a cunt.

>>718032477
something similar happened to me too, sorry anon it feels like shit doesn't it

>>718030927
I agree. I was a moron, but finally cut all contact with her. Kinda wish she'd message me again so I can tell her to fuck off again.

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>>718030438
not everyone who is on 4chun is a fucking neckbeard like you.
Nice job generalizing 400k people

>>718031924
I'd say I was using a spork to get the water out, honestly. But she's done with

>>718032477

Could have been worse. You could have never banged her.

Now, stop calling yourself depressed like a faggot on reddit r/relationships and start putting your life together.

>>718032477
Been there brother. Never even got to fuck my crazy
Feelsbatman

>>718032376
No I deleted everything she sent to me and I stay away from her profile

>>718030135
Lel attention hor

Don't fret my man theyre dime a dozen

>>718032477
This doesn't even make me sad. It just pisses me off. Every aspect of it.

>>718032550
I never knew why. I'm just glad I got done with her shit

>>718032977
Guess thats for the best, just know you deserve better than that bitch

>>718032695
I hate myself for my past with her, It almost felt like I just couldn't stay away. She always told me she thinks were destined to be together eventually

>>718032710
Terribly. I've punching walls, my door, my truck that I love, broken shit, broke my hand, and almost failed high school

>>718033134
Maybe you would've been if she wasn't a fucktard.

Short story
>be me
>100% beta
>meet girl at work, say fuck it and ask her out
>she says fine but dates going to have to be delayed due to being busy for the holidays
>she texts me daily cute shit like miss you and all that
>go on date, get pizza, talk for hours, shit goes well
>bring her home, she starts making out with me, like I didn't even need to go for it
>first kiss (I'm really beta)
>next day doesn't message me, try to talk to her she seems different
>few days later she say she thinks it would be better if we were friends
>I fucked up somehow /b

>>718032897
If this thread survives till after work will tell my story

>>718032893
I already have. I have my downer days but they're fairly rare anymore and I have my plans for my life

>>718032897
I didn't even cum the last time we fucked. I was too interested in hate fucking her. Which turned out to make her enjoy it more

>>718033009
Same at some parts

>>718033119
Sometimes I think so, but I hate dating now. I just fuck chicks and dump em off

>>718033262
That's true

>>718033269
bad kisser?

>>718033297
tell it now i'm bored

>>718033134
Do you still miss her? It kind of sounds like you got sick of her shit but you were lonely so you went with it, I could be wrong tho

>>718029311
That depressed over her grandmas death. Just wait for when a parent dies.

anymore stories? anyone?

>>718033269

Women are tricky, they change their mind like the wind: I'm guessing it was that.

>>718033572
Sometimes. We did have good times. But not nearly as many as the bad times

>>718031661
Are you me? Because 4 years later and 3 relationships later it still hurts and I get vivid images of them fucking.
Prepare to hurt my man :)

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>>718032477
i'm sorry bud

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I'll share another to keep the thread going, way worse than my break up:
>Be 13
>Have two sisters, fucking hate them
>Have 7 year old cousin, love her to death, literally like a sister
>Winter, she falls on ice and hurts her butt
>Days later, at sleep over, slides down but on stairs, hurts it worse
>Pain intensifies, they take her to the hospital
>I remember my sister, mom, and cousin (different one) crying in the kitchen, laughing how it was nothing she was in the hospital
>How naive we wered
Ewing's Sarcoma
>Begin aggressive treatment, see her for first time month after diagnosis, nearly bawl on sight
>See her only twice after this
>Treatment is going well, doctors are talking radiation and removing tumor, though it may leave her on crutches for life
>She's more than down
>August, she has pneumonia-like symptoms, family going up daily to see her
>Find out next day she is going to die, lung spots they removed are back, cancer spreading
>Hold my last conversation with the closest thing to a sister I like say, "Goodbye, anon, I'll wait for you in Heaven."
Lose all of my shit, inconsolible for days.
>Dies a week or so later, has her own Make-a-Wish from SeaWorld as condition worsens via Skype, her own personal show no one else attended
Trainer was ironically the one who got killed by an orca later on, anyway
>Break down numerous times at wake, go outside to graveyard, plead to God to take me, that shit
>Creek near cemetery that runs to a pond, has little bluegills and fish
>Find a fishing line and hook just among the rocks
She loved fishing
>10 minutes later, hook a small bluegill under its gill flap
>Rush of such love I've never felt, before it disappears and I'm left broken again
I nearly lost my faith in God after that, but that experience and what she said to me continues to drive my hope.
The hardest thing I've ever gone through, cried myself to sleep every night for nearly 2 years. My grandpa's funeral a few years later was nothing compared to that.

>>718033714
I would purposely drunk text her to see if she would talk to me then when I wake up I would cringe seeing what I did

>>718033653
OP here. I got another pretty short one
>be 10
>grandma on my mother's side
>call her nanny
>favorite person in the world
>despite being on oxygen and hardly able to walk, she made my world
>always there for my 10 year old problems
>always bought me toys
>health is getting kinda bad
>we have to move her to a home for constant care
>age 13
>haven't seen my grandma nanny in a few months
>random day find out she had multiple triple bypass surgeries (not a doctor, only know it has something to do with the heart)
>doctors can't do anything
>she's dying of internal bleeding
>they can only slow it down
>parents are going to hospital to say their goodbyes
>ask if I can come
>favorite person in the world, had to say goodbye to her
>get told no, I had school in the morning
>didn't get to say goodbye, didn't get to go to her funeral, and parents won't tell me where her grave is
Feels bad man.

>>718033714
To be honest I don't feel to bad, the only reason I asked her out was because I was lonely as fuck and she was only a seasonal where I worked so I knew if shit went bad I wouldn't have to see her much, I feel kind of shitty about it but I kind of just dated her as a confidence booster, she was nice and I would been more happy if things worked out but overall I'm not too upset

>>718033782
Ehh life moves on

>>718034151
Damn your parents are some real assholes. Now that I can see you would feel much more for your grandma than your parents.

>>718033898
Fuck man that's rough I don't know what to say

>>718034344
Honestly my parents are pretty bomb but that's really the only time I will never forgive them for

>>718031876
sharing is caring, post that jackpot

>>718034452
That's just bizzare to me. I wonder why they didn't let you go.

>>718034452
They aren't bomb. They are bad people. They may have accidentally provided you a decent life in some respects but they are pieces of shit at their core. Rest assured.

Kids with shitty parents always make excuses for them.

OP here. This story isn't quite as painful directly but more indirectly
>be best friends with girl in high school
>call her K
>absolutely adorable, one of my closest friends. Always hanging out after school, during lunch, and whenever we got the chance
>she's a sweetheart
>pretty much an angel
>so innocent
>sex jokes made her blush like an apple
>my closest friend I've ever had, and still have to this day
>one day come to school and she's crying
>best friend instincts kick in
>what's wrong, what happened, why you crying, that kind of shit
>hugging her as she explains
>one of her close friends that she's known for years died in a car crash the night before
>tore her up
>she didn't talk as much
>didn't smile
>wouldn't hug anyone, kinda went hardcore internal
>only person I talked to at the time, broke my heart to see her like this
>wished for the rest of that year that it had been me instead of him
Rest in peace brandon.

>>718034576
Me too

>>718034656
That's fair to assume. After that time though they didn't pull me away from anything else, supported me, motivated me, got me everything that they possibly could despite not making a lot

>>718034844
this wasnt at GM high school was it?

>>718035011
Material goods have no real value compared to memories such as saying bye to your grandma sadly..

>>718035050
Nope

>>718035144
That is very true

Sabrina's ex fag over here, she just texted me. Said one of the things in the mail she ordered was Pokemon cards for me (never played or watched it, not a fan at all). Asked if I wanted them, told her to keep them.

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Why are we so fatally designed?
Our emotions often cloud our logic,it's not once or twice we are brought to the brink of suicide because our emotional baggage keeps piling up and eventually crushes us. We are emotional/sexual creatures living only for the further continuation of this miserable species and to seek a place in the tribe.

>>718035283
What's a Sabrina?

>>718035437
My ex, scroll back up, she's the depressed one I broke up with.

>>718035517
Oh shit right. I was thinking of the psychic Gym Leader.

>>718035223
But even then, you can't really take anything with you when you die can you?

>>718035646
Also true

>>718032477
Going through something similar dude it sucks but im gonna pull through if it takes me years

>be me
>have a friend
>she's really sweet, kind of quiet, but good person to talk to when you get her out of her shell
>didn't really know her that well until early 2016 but knew her since about 2012
>knew she was in a long distance relationship with another friend of mine who wound up treating me kind of like shit and dropping our friendship without telling me why
>figured they were good together, they were always playing games and shit, virtually glued to the internet-hip
>find out later he would do really mean and selfish things over the course of their relationship
>would outright exclude her from things or not talk to her for months at a time before picking things back up like nothing had changed as soon as he got bored of whatever caught his attention away from her
>when she'd ask to be included or if they could do stuff he would say shit like she was trying to pull him away from his friends and isolate him
>but when she'd finally wander off to do things without him while he was excluding her suddenly he was interested and was always pulling her away from people she was friends with, including me on occasion
>only to drop her again as soon he had her to himself
>did just some really weird emotionally abusive and neglectful shit
>but wound up calling her emotionally manipulative and abusive

[con't if anyone's interested, gets pretty good with the schadenfreude and some genuine good feels after some sad ones ]

>>718035992
Definitely need to get out of it, it's heart wrenching

>>718036313
You have my heartstrings, anon, go on.

So this is how this thread ends? I'm glad you anons shared, stay strong, men, life will always get better.

>>718033297
Me,but different story first

>be like 6,in preschool
>meet best friend ever
School had policy to feed kids coffee,fuck knows why,I don't drink coffee
>he offers to drink it,instant best buddies
>we spend days over at eachother's houses
>friends for years
>fast forward to 12 years old
>he's diagnosed with some rare leukemia
They find this out because some welts left by a bully refused to heal,gets tested and boom
>He's out of school for a while
>gets bone marrow transfusion
>year later
>it doesn't take
>make a wish foundation comes,he gets a CD-Rom,40x christ datspeed
Nobody had CD-Roms back then cept rich fuckers
>Play games and have fun for old time sake
>So horrifying seeing him with a catheter,and laughing causing him so much pain
>Dies few weeks later
>At funeral,can't look at casket,don't go to graveyard,can't say bye
>Fast forward a few weeks
>His mom calls me and his best friends to come to house
>We go
>She says we can each go to his room and pick 1 thing to keep as a keepsake
>I take a transformer toy
We both got transformer toys 1 year for Christmas,our favourites to play with
Fighter jets that transform to autobots*

That's it

He passed away when we were 16
Will miss you man

ah fuck it, I'll give it a go

>Be me
>13 years old, average kid
>barely any friends, I mostly stayed at home even for the summer
>didn't mind tho, I had computer games, drawing and Scrappy my dog
>boxer, 8 years old but still playful as a puppy
>i would run with him in the backyard all the time, he loved fetching
>he was my best friend
>he was there for me all those years
>as silly as it might seem, I talked to him about my problems and doubts
>he obviously couldn't understand me, but sitting down under a tree with his head resting on my lap was calming
>therapeutic, I might say
>he was old and ugly, beaten up, bones where now weak, his face covered in white hairs and his tongue always hanging outside his mouth in that silly way
>but he was my puppy
>he was my best friend
>summer was now ending, I was getting mentally prepared to get back to school
>only 2 days away, nervous as fuck
> just finishing my dinner when Scrappy started to scratch the door to catch my attention
>let him in, parents already asleep
>we got into the living room and layed my sleeping bag on the floor
>set up his dog bed besides me too
>lay down, he does too
>start scratching the back of his ears, just as he liked it
>suddenly feeling better, I didn't needed friends or for people to like me at school, I had my doggy
>fall asleep, still a little nervous but definitely happy

The next morning, he was dead. He died in his sleep, at least I was happy that his last night was besides me.

Many tears were cried, it's been almost 3 years and I still cry sometimes.

I still miss you buddy.

>>718037542
Oh fuck my dog is 15, I dread that day.

>>718037709
Mine was too, it's not as hard as you think.I raised mine since he was a pup, it'll be alright.

>>718037819
Same. Trained him since lvl 1

Dude wtf same thing just happened to me. Same year and in bio for me too except my girl wasn't that cute

>>718036313
>>718036313
>be 2016
>she's telling me the two of them kind of broke up
>saying last conversation ended super badly but no 'official' break up
>she's super distancing herself from him though
>she's blaming herself for the whole thing
>telling me that she's manipulative and controlling
>none of this makes sense
>sure i didn't know her that well but pretty decent judge of character
>girl literally had nothing bad to say about anyone
>was always there for people who needed her
>just didn't add up
>sounds more like an abuser convincing their victim that it's the other way around
>decide to hold off on judgement completely but slowly we start spending more time together
>get to know her for a while
>she's telling me about how she feels her whole identity has been taken from her
>she doesn't know what to do with her life anymore because she'd been with this guy for years and they'd made plans and shit
>her inspiration is lost

and that was the fucking saddest thing to me because she's an incredible artist and writer and all that amazing talent was just stopped up because of this jackass

>"i don't ever want to write or draw anymore anon"
>we talk every so often but more and more frequently
>i check in on her from time to time, don't want to smother her or anything but definitely want her to know that i care and she can talk to me anytime
>we start playing vidya and shit together
>the more i get to know her, the more i'm convinced she's absolutely not controlling in the least
>very passive unless someone's really been shit
>except for this guy
>we'd talk about him from time to time and it always made me mad
>"it was my fault anon, i'm a bad person"
>fucking determined to get her to a point where she's not saying that anymore

>>718026363
>I fell in love with a beautiful girl named Cecilia in the 9th grade
>I spent nearly every day with her, just as her friend
>I had known her 3 years prior to when I started thinking of her this way
>got to know her very well, much better than before
>I wish I couldve just said, I love you. I know you don't love me, but thats okay.
>I never said any of that, and now I am alone
>I have been alone since then, after Cecilia and I stopped talking I havent loved again
>that was it, she was the one, there is no other alternative
>no one has made it closer to my heart
>no one has cared as much as she did
>no one has been that soft, that kind, that strong, that funny, that pretty
>she was everything I wanted and more
>if she called me tomorrow and needed anything I would drop what I was doing immediately and get in my car and go
>but I will never get a special call from her ever again
>I was just her friend then and now Im nothing


I just want to go to heaven, or somewhere else. Im so sick of feeling alone, unloved, unappreciated. This feeling doesn't go away. It just festers and gets worse.
Please just tell me it gets better. Please tell me it'll be okay. Someone help me, god, anyone. I cant handle this anymore. I cant type right now because Im bawling my eyes out. Im so desperate for love, for anything to hold onto, please someone just try to help me

I cant take this shit anymore. Ive reached my breaking point so many times. I mjust done

>>718038620
Dude, you've clung onto someone from high school that badly?

This isn't a cringe thread.

>>718038598
Hurry up, this thread ain't gonna avoid 404 twice. I need to know!

>>718026363
Better than being cucked after 3 years with a chick.
>be 18
>ask chick that I've been crushing on for months at school
>she says yes
>spend 3 years with her
>during time try to get her parents to like at me
>never really works
>her dad puts up a camera in the kitchen that overlooks living room without our knowledge
>one day we decide to do in the living room instead of usual places (front porch, car, my apartment)
>we got caught via camera
>she leaves me because of her parents are pissed as fuck
>not even 2 days later
>find out she's dating someone else
>someone who tried to get us to break up when we first started dating
>some time later
>find out only reason she dated him was because he cried his way into her life
>recently found out they're getting ready to get married
I don't even know how to feel about this, extreme anger. How do you cry yourself into a relationship?

>>718038620
Sometimes feeling alone is what we get. It's better than feeling nothing I suppose as emo as that sounds but honestly, embrace it. If you're to walk a lonely path then do it with pride and dignity. Yeah there's no dignity in not meeting a societal norm and yes there must be something fucked up with us if people (not even the trash want us) then yeah dude, just live with it.

You don't have to believe in a god to believe in a purpose. Try to better yourself for you for the time being and the rest will fall into place.

I would never judge you if you ever wanted to kill yourself though anon, I know not all of us are fit to walk this path but just know there are other options but you have to find the strength and courage to walk down that path, and it might be strength and courage greater than that of someone who wants and is determined to kill themselves.

Life is an existential crisis, and yes some of us are "privileged" with a better deck of cards to play, but instead of looking at your neighbors deck and wishing you had the same thing, work with what you've got, even if it's nothing I'm sure you'll eventually find some contentment and peace. And if that's not enough to find in this horrendous life, then I don't know what else to look for.

I'll say some prayers for you anon, even if you don't really think it will help you, I'll think of you every now and then so remember this and hopefully it'll help you not feel so lonely brother. Be safe, stay strong man.

>>718032199
>being this mentally retarded

What the hell, i got some.
>be me
>grade 8
>not so popular, beta as fuck
>girl in my class
>call her c
>dont know her to well, but am friends with her friends
>come to school, find another girl crying
>know her ok, best friends with C
>C is sick, but i don't know what it is
>weekend
>forgot about C
>go into class on monday
>everyone is crying
>in a weird class, so we all have know eachother for three years
>turns out C had cancer
>she had an operation
>turns out C had a heart condition
>i have the same one
> the doctors didnt know and her heart failed during the procedure
>all my friends are super depressed
>get a day of counceling abd a day off school
>im really depressed because all my friends are sad
>feel like shit because i didnt get to know her better
Ive got a second, but its not about me
Ill cont if someone replies

>>718040134
Go on, we're all just sharing.

>>718038598

>>mid 2016
>playing vidya on steam
>"ex is talking to me anon."
>he wants to do stuff with her
>guess whatever he was more interested has bored him now
>she's keeping him at arms' length but they still talk every so often
>telling me about stuff that he says and he's 'afraid she's gonna cut him out of her life completely'
>meanwhile he can see plainly on steam ID that we're doing TONS of shit together
>she completely avoids him most of the time and plays with me instead
>can see him logging into steam to play the same game she's playing only to find out later on that he only did it to ask her if he could play with her
>she almost always said no thanks, but that he was free to talk to her anytime
>then he'd log out and sadface away
>feeling petty as fuck but occasionally laughed
>"anon you're kind of my bestie now"
>feelsgoodman

present day

>she's slowly getting her inspiration for art and writing back
>he's finally fucked off after a few less than good conversations with her wherein he made it pretty clear that he wants a dog who will wait for him to come home instead of a person who has needs
>she still vents about him occasionally but it's almost always therapeutic and doesn't always come with super sad feels anymore
>i had something to do with that
>"anon you're kind of my bestie now, i'm having so much fun with you"

really want to ask her out but maybe later in the year so she doesn't worry that i'm only in it to date her
wish me luck mates

>>718040236
Do it soon, anon! Trust me, I've pissed away too damn many opportunities because I waited FAR too long. You can do it, anon, you are a best friend to her and treat her right as a boyfriend. I believe in you, son! Just do it!

>>718033269
You could of fucked up but women can be finicky shallow creatures that change their mine on a whim. Might not have been you b bro.

>>718038620
I'd say see a therapist before you an hero, sometimes talking to someone making real life goals etc helps. this is from some depressive canadian stoner who has never seen a therapist, so take it with a grain of salt.

>>718040867
Das gay bro

>>718040236
Sooner the better, friend zone is real, at least bring up that your interested, or let it be known that you are interested

>>718040134
Alright, second story
>be me
>be 15
>has small group of friends
>one girl is trans and keeps switching pronouns, girl for now
>also super depressed
>starts dating other friend
>not to interesting
>i don't give a fuck
>they sometimes fight
>boyfriend hates it because trans girl might get to depressed
>usualy, another girl, A, takes trans girls side
>boyfriend and trans girl have a huge fight
>break up
>A takes trans girls side
>suddenly, trans girl ends up in the hospital
>friends all worried
>boyfriend feels like shit
>i dont know what to do
>me and other friend just stand back and watch
>the trans girl pisses off A
>A takes boyfriends side
>A tells me to block trans girl
>trans girl freaks the fuck out
>not there for the rest of the year
>i dont know what the fuck to do
>next year
>every once in a while, i hear something about her
>met her at the mall today
>evidently she doesnt hate me, as my other friends all got threatened by trans girls mom
>actual threats btw

>femanon
>christianfag growing up
>cute guy at church i didn't really know at the time but he was cute and outgoing and charismatic and about two years older than me
>would smile at him like an autistic fuck from across the church building
>crushed like mad from the time i was ten
>never stopped liking him
>got to be friends with his sister
>she found out I liked him
>watched her do nothing about it
>fucking bitch
>she wound up breaking my brother's heart years later
>slowly watch this guy grow up as I grow up
>see him at church gatherings and shit, sometimes talked
>funny, always made me laugh
>both of our parents know that I like him
>he apparently liked me too at one point
>parents didn't do anything about it
>christianfag girls aren't supposed to do anything about it on their own either
>finally eighteen
>say fuck it, i'm asking him out
>he's been in college for a while
>knew he had friends, was always worried he find a girlfriend so i never tried to talk to him much, didn't want to get more attached than i already was
>stall forever about actually asking him out or showing interest
>find out he has a girlfriend
>they're getting engaged
>get invited to the wedding
>mom makes me help them put wedding invitations together because our families wound up close for a while
>they have two kids now
>his wife sings better than i do
>tall, about 8/10 redhead
>never got over it

>>718039894
How the fuck

Tfw no gf
https://youtu.be/bAMKwm0uOIg

>>718042170
Because I joined the Army, anon. Never join the army while dating somebody. Better to find out at 21 than now, what kind of cunt she was. Was shit when it happened, because I drank myself to sleep every night, but now I'm a bit more mature and I don't wallow in it.

>>718041955
Whyd he chose other girl? are you ugly?

>>718042436
i don't look great, no - decent face but too thicc. that being said he was kind of chubby himself and so is his wife, but she was still prettier than me

older too, it was really more an issue of timing and that i was a sheltered twat who wasn't allowed to do anything

>>718042981
Welll as long as you're not an ogre you should have no problem landing a better dude anyways.

>>718043110
thanks m8

>>718042358
I'm more confused about how he cried himself into her life. I'm already in the Marine Corps