Hey /b A few years ago I OD'd on benadryl trying to take

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>>715607531

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>>715607531

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>>715607531

>>715607531
Probably because it's true. I had severe HPPD after that shit.

Work out (I prefer runs). Read books. Improve yourself. Get good sleep.

Over the course of 5 years my life has gotten way better. My thinking and mood has improved. It just takes time. The side effects will go away.

Oh and stay away from liquor and drugs if you can.

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>>715608885

>>715608767
I should man, I smoke pot like once a week and it feels great for like 3 hours then reality kicks in and I feel worse and worse.

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>>715609152

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>>715609360

>>715607531
It's most likely a mentality thing. I ODed on amitriptyline and was pronounced dead, left in a coma for 4 days. If anything it's turned around my life and made me a better, happier person. I learned a lot from it.

Find a therapist you like, or someone else you can talk to. Go through rehab if you need to, see a psychiatrist. Don't doubt professional help. It might feel like bullshit at times but it's worth it - outside input and encouragement is a powerful thing.

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>>715609478

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>>715609586

Hey guys. It hasn't been easy, I miss her but it seems like a bad idea. I just don't want to look back and realize I didn't even try

>>715609769

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>>715609907
forgot pic

>>715609562
I was baker acted a while ago and was on antidepressants for 2 years. After a While i quit taking the antidepressants because they made me emotionless.

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>>715609966

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I've read most of these. I don't cry anymore.

Here's a feel story, /b/ros.

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>>715610190

>>715607531
ey breh
don't be sad
just enjoy the roller coaster, cause we were all tall enough to ride you know what i mean?

>>715609769
There's no such thing as "meant to be" or "destiny." You're with someone because you want to be, that's it.

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>>715610597

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>>715610672

>>715607531
(no greentext bc no effort)
be 15 yo me
sitting alone in my room
again
start thinking to myself about how much I've fucked up
look at my waist
wearing jeans w/ belt
eye belt
itistime.jpg
stand next to double bed frame
(I have a little brother)
try to hang myself
frame breaks
mfw I was too fat to kill myself
but the story does NOT end there
quickly fix frame with all the fucking super-glue
contiue life knowing that if i try to hang myself
...
i will be to fucking fat

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i wish these threads lived a little longer

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>>715610763

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>>715611208
i suppose i can dump the feels stories i have

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>>715611478
thanks you're the best

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>>715611550

>>715608648
lost, am sad now

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>>715607531

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>>715612363

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>>715612602

>>715612359
fuuuuuuuck, he didnt wreck her shit enough

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>>715612700
Sorry I'm out now

>>715610597
>a while
>tfw when "a while" has lasted for years

>>715607531
Did you see shadow people when you over dosed? It toes a SHIT ton to OD. You can take quite a bit and be fine, you just trip balls

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I'll try to post everything I can, though I'll have a lot of fucking captchas to go through. Still, anything for my fellow /b/ros.

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>>715607531
oh yes?! and i just had 5 hours talking with my gf after she found tons pf nude pics of my ex... life is hard. get over it faggot.

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>>715607531
>trying to kill self
>Better use benadryl
OMFG I legit laughed so fucking hard.

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>>715613560
That's your own fault for having them dumb fuck
You got what was coming

>>715613198
i took 100 pills, I saw not shadow people, but shadows moving in the corner of my eye the night I took them then passed out, I have no memory at all of what happened the next day, I can only piece together a few memories. One that I was in a hospital bed, the next that I was on my parents couch. Everything other than that I don't remember.

>>715612507
But I did spend my teenage years with her. I did have amazing, romantic sex with her, constantly. Just she's gone now, been over 100 days since we last spoke. Thinking about going to see her in a few days, sounds like a bad idea though.

>>715610597
no one as far as i can remember has told me that

>>715613375
hoooooooly shit, some people

>>715613684
That stupid fucking dumb cunt bitch with the camera.

>>715607531
>benadry
What a great fucking idea.

If you were going to OD you could atleast put some effort into it...

>>715609478
"I couldn't budge it"

Haha, totally lost it!

Walnut salt

>>715613979
>>715613979
fuck, right in the feels

>>715613714
>>715613740
KEK

>>715607531

doesn't the overwhelming permanence of death frighten you in the least? apparently not as much as the troubles of your existence...?

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I feel completely dead b/ros, there is literally no action in my life, nothing happens. Every day is just the same as the day before. It feels like i'm already dead. I've tried changing it but it didn't work at all. Now i just spend most of my time siting in cafes alone, reading to some books. I would cry but literally can't; i don't think I have any tears left.

>>715609802
>>715609802
help me understand what's going on anon

>>715610597
>tfw when my dad tells me he loves me at least once a week
>"You know how when someone dies, their family always wishes they could've told them how much they loved them one last time? Just in case."
fugg :,,DDDD

you want a feel?
stub your toe

>>715615124
Not really anymore, it used to a while back and it kept me in line for a while, but now when I look at death, it just seems like an escape into the unknown

Anyone got that one picture of Clippy talking about how our species has so much potential or something?

i don't wanna die
but it hurts anons, no one loves me and what did i do to get this? i don't want my dog to leave me and my only parent to give me bad feelings

>>715615907
she hates me, i hate my toxic relationship. i want to fix it but suicide is the only

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>>715607531

well OP, here's how i feels:

fuck you. stop depressing everyone. die.

>>715616007
well said Double Oh Seven

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>>715607531
Watch this YouTube video, m8. You'll appreciate it hopefully as much as I did, being a fellow an hero thinker myself.

https://youtu.be/yZxrs9JNhfk

>>715613903
I love you. Take care of yourself and remember you have a purpose here. Get back on track anon.

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>>715616007
Here's how I feel: Fuck you. Stop being a cunt. Go be a faggot elsewhere

Here's some depressing greentext I have for you all.
>talking to a girl
>super cute, dont even know how I managed to gather the confidence to talk to her
>things are solid for a week, I call a few nights and we chat for four hours straight just learning about each other
>suddenly, one day, she seems way less chatty
>not sure why, but I just roll with it. Figured she had a bad day and wasn't feeling very talkative
>the days roll by, she talks to me less and less
>won't let me call anymore
>keeps leaving my messages on read
>today
>my friend bought movie tickets to the new Star Wars movie
>see it at 1am, a tradition of ours, we did the same thing with The Force Awakens
>out of the huge group going, one person drops out, says he doesn't like driving at night when the roads are bad
>Its been snowing all day.
>light bulb in my head
>text girl, ask if she'd like to fill up the spot, says I can cover her ticket too
>"I cant tonight but thank you!"
>remembers she works tonight
>realize I forgot to tell her the show time
>tell her its at 1am
>no response
>"Still don't wanna go?"
>"Nope."
Its currently 7:53 and I still feel like shit.I don't even know what I did to make her hate me so much.. I just hope we hit a rough patch of black ice or something, swerve off the road, and I can die.

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at school i pretend to be nice. i am a clown of sorts i try to make people laugh or atleast talk to me. i say hi to them as kindly as i can, sometimes i even say kind stuff like how good they are at something, but when i get home i just go to bed sleep till the next day and do the same.
i always try to be as kind as possible even to those i do not like or those who do not like me,
i give them gum, say hi, talk to them, laugh at their jokes. but nobody says hi to me nobody genuinely laughs at my jokes, sometimes they don't even notice when i am gone, i was gone a whole week, only the teacher said "hi welcome back".
when i get home there is no point in trying to be kind so i cry alot or try to escape reality with games that i am good at, i like games because when i play them are the only times i hear "good job" or any kind of nice words.

i can't bear with sad people at school because when i see them i do not know what to do. i can't be kind because they probably don't even know who i am. and i think i would get sad and break my illusion of happiness if i confronted them, and i would not like them to feel pity for me.

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>>715610212
OH MY FUCKING GOD THE FEELS
LITERALLY TEARS
THANK YOU ANON

>>715617426
ask if she is in a relationship.
or try to figure out by other means if you feel uncomfortable

>>715613625
lol this is my life

>>715612507
fuck you too

>>715617723
>she broke up with her boyfriend of two years a month before I met her. I checked her Snapchat, she's shopping with her older brother.
I doubt until 1 am, but hey

>>715613609

Uh... Diphenhydramine can stop your heart in large doses. Also, it's OTC.

Dave, sup bro

>>715618400
Update: its not her bother.
I think I'm finally ready to die.

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>>715616717

thank you for your response. As i am a profound faggot, i will do that somewhere else. however, i would like to remain here to say one more thing:

kill yourself, you are a fag.

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>>715612722
Oh. My. God

>>715614022
I want to smack the living shit out of her.

these threads always 404 too soon

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>>715621462
true

>>715607531
shit man, you need to resolve the things that made you consider taking that action, and presumably from a place of rash desperation and without much planning at that if you were using benadryl

I actually tried to off myself with some stupid amount like 3 or 4 grams of DPH when I was a teen like ten years ago, not a good time in my life and can't say things ever got all that much better realistically beyond some minor material success and at least not trying to an hero again (though I did get my eyes opened to the idea of taking drugs recreationally and tripped on the shit a few times in the years since before just being sensible and getting used to drinking or smoking weed once in a while) , but the attempt itself wasn't the issue so much as the environmental factors and the (probably chemically treatable) depression

I don't have any real advice beyond suggesting you think about what sort of things are within your power to do to improve your life or sharpen your mental process if you feel that it's truly deteriorated, and look for meaningless ways to enjoy life

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>>715607531

>>715608885
So fuckin true man

>>715613774
this is me in some time mark my words