Feels Thread. Post what you're feeling tonight /b/. I'm

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Life recently has just been kinda shitty for me for a multitude of reasons.

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This picture always made me cry.

>>699544205
Care to talk about it?

>>699544410
Had some fuckin mess with a girl, friends just piss me off, life at home is shit. I'm isolating myself and ruining my own life and it can't be helped.

>>699544723
I understand that shit completely. I had so many opportunities to get the fuck out of here (college, military, etc.) and I just fucked them all up...I'll always be stuck because I always quit what I start.

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>>699545037
It's never really too late to get back on track.

>>699545262
I'm just kind of stuck at what I should do. I try to think of the things that make me happy. I like music, reading and writing, that sort of shit. I've just never had the commitment to really do anything with it all.

>>699545413
I know exactly what you mean. There's so many things I could do or be but I just can't find it in myself to do it.

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how long is too long to try and rekindle something you fucked up?

me and this girl went on one date in february but i had a weird schedule and we never got a chance to hang out together again. Then i had some family problems and basically we stopped talking completely. she still views all of my snapchat stories, favorites my tweets, etc so she isn't avoiding me. We just don't talk at all like we used to (every single day)

but despite this, not a single day goes by where i don't think about her.

>>699545546
I love the idea of my creativity being out in the world, but I also hate the idea of doing something and it ending up being shitty...so I just keep doing what I do now. It doesn't make me happy, but it keeps me alive and away from public eye..

>>699545727
i dont think its too long yet. go for it. go for it. do it for me, if not anyone else, anon.

>>699545727
Anon, I think you still have a chance with this girl. I may be drinking and typing out of my ass, but I think you shouldn't waste the opportunity in front of you.

Don't do what many of us have already done...look at where we are now...

>>699545727
My suggestion is be straight up with her about how you feel about your relationship, then ask her out to somewhere and try to start over.
>>699545782
Every good artist/creator will disappoint sometimes. You just need to find the confidence in yourself and go for it. If you commit, whether or not you're loved by the masses, you'll have some people who appreciate your work.

Can I tell a really long story here? Are you guys going to listen to me?

>>699546326
I can assure you that even if people don't respond, they read it

>>699545727
If you found someone you truly love then you have to go for it anon, even if you fail just try for all of us who have fucked up. it brings tears to my eyes just to write this. you'll regret not trying, if not for us, for yourself.

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>>699546326
Please share.

>>699546179
>>699545782
I guess I'm just at a standstill of how to get my work out there for the masses. If I write, the last thing I want to do is start some blog or whatever...if I make music, I don't want to be like some faggot throwing out soundcloud links..I just, want a good way to show people what I can do..

>>699546326
This is my thread, and I won't leave it until it's completely dead. Just like a ship captain. I read everything.

I'm anxious that my paper won't get accepted, when to be honest, it deserves to be rejected. I am fucked if that happens.

>>699546501
If you create music, Youtube is a great place to start. Maybe join an online writing community, or just search for ways to share your writing.

>>699546629
Today, OP was not a faggot.

i am scared

>>699546665
Care to elaborate? Also those almost quads give me the chills.

>>699546744
That's too often the case for many of us, anon.. Good thing we have each other, no matter how faggy that sounds.

>>699546750
Hmm, online writing communities? Do you know of any? I literally sit on /b/ and YouTube all day, so I don't really browse around that much.

>>699546326
So I was going to browse /b/ for a good laugh but the last feels thread caught my eye. I was going to tell my story in the other one but it took too long so here it is. I'm high as fuck so bare with me.

I'm a 18 years old virgin boy who had his first kiss at the after prom party drunk and high as fuck. Had a crush on this girl who is 1 year younger than me. She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, a beautiful smile, deep blue eyes and amazing black hair. I met her about 10 months ago at my friend's birthday party, talked to her a few times but not much more. At school, I always looked at her, I tried to not make it obvious that I was looking at her but she was noticing. 2 months later, It was her birthday and since she loves Doctor Who I decided to buy her an amazing poster of Doctor Who. She gives me a big hug and a thank you. I almost started to cry because no one ever hugged me or was thankful for my actions. Fast forward about 7-8 months later after never talking to her. I see that she's online on Facebook. I write a little message that takes me 10 minutes to send because I was so nervous to talk to her. We start having conversations about everyday but they're short lived since she lives in the middle of the woods and has little wifi and service. We finally start to hangout together and walk together at school. Her friends start noticing me and warns me about her, apparently she's ''unpredictable''. The next day at school, after getting myself and her a warm cup of coffee (We we're in the middle of February) I ask her about these warnings. I noticed that she always wear long sleeved shirts or always hid her forearms. After I asked her, she rolled up her sleeves and showed me cuts on her wrists. Usually people that cut themselves disgust me but she is so beautiful that I can't stop talking to her even if I try.


Part 2 coming up /b/ros

>>699546785
so are we much of the time.

>>699547057
We then start to hangout outside of school, we went to see the movie Deadpool (wich was really good) and have a great time, I didn't make a move because I barely know her and it was our first time actually hanging out. We hangout a few more times, I get to know her more and she's a really entertaining person to listen to and she likes to listen to my crazy stories. Prom is coming up quick and I didn't want to look like a sad loner at prom. I obviously make up this plan in my head to ask her to prom. The next morning, I was looking outside the big panel windows of our school. Waiting for her school bus to enter the parking lot. I finally see her bus, my heart starts beating out of my chest, my arms are starting to shake. She steps out the bus and as soon as she entered the school I ask her to come take a walk with me. I start talking to her about some bullshit then I ask her. She looks at me really excited and says yes of course I'll come with you. On the outside I was just smiling at her, but in the inside, god it was like a big party just suddenly started, I was so happy but didn't want to show too much happiness yknow. THEN, she follows the yes of course I'll come with you with a ''but just as friends right?'' The party inside me was dead, my smile instantly washed off. I didn't know what to say, I was scared to respond, in nervosity i said ''alright''. Those words haunted me for a couple weeks until prom, but I was still hangout with her and trying to figure out how I would say that I love her so much.

Part 3 coming up

>>699546326
Go for it anon

>>699547104
It's prom day baby! I got my full Calvin Klein tux and everything ready, even had the CK socks and underwear. Got to the Casino (It was happening in a casino) and met all my handsome friends dressed up like real James Bonds. Talked a bunch, took a bunch of pictures with my group of friends, but I was waiting for her. She texted me saying ''I'll be there in a sec sorry for being late.'' I responded with ''All good I'm waiting for you at the entrance.'' I was walking to the entrance and met my childhood friend looking more handsome than ever with his white pimp suit, top hat and cane, talked a bunch but I was in a rush to see her. I opened the door to the main entrance and I saw her. Small white see-through dress that goes down to her knees, amazing black hair that goes down to her shoulders. Her bright blue eyes and her beautiful smile that makes me go in another world everytime I see her smile. She walked up to me and holded my hand and gave me a kiss on my cheek. I felt like was going to get an heart attack, my heart was pounding so hard and my legs were shaking wich never happened to me before. The prom goes well, had a lot of fun and met a lot of old friends. My best friend's girlfriend wich is a really good friend of my crush takes me in an isolated spot and starts talking to me about my crush. She said to stop being a pussy and ask her out. You didn't bring her out here just to have a good time with her, ask her out, go get it. She motivated me enough to make me go talk to her. I searched for her everywhere, then out of nowhere she grabbed me gave me a big kiss on the cheek and said I have to go.

Part 4 coming up.

>>699547023
I wouldn't know of any, but I know there are some out there. A quick Google should do it for you.

>>699547149
I didn't even had time to tell her goodbye and she was already gone. I drunk texted her a bunch of times wich I regret a lil bit and we hung out a bunch of times over the summer. I love her so much but I'm too nervous to even come close of talking about that stuff. I have no confidence in myself and I always think she's going to say no. Everytime I say to myself that I will tell her, I end up by not telling her because I'm a fucking pussy. I honestly don't know what to do. I know all the replys will be just go straight to the point and tell her how you feel about her. But I'm so nervous to talk about that stuff to her

>>699547057
>>699547104
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>>699547196
I'm only gonna read if it's greentext. Sorry m8.

>>699547182
Alright, I'll do some searching. Thanks anon.

>>699544205
f u c k

>>699546785
>>699547069
Why

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>>699543874
I hate my fucking friends, they treat me like shit and i can't stand their negativity. Im already miserable and having friends who bring you even more down just sucks.

>>699547196
Now I've just came back from watching Suicide Squad with her and I told her if there could be something more to our relationship than just being friends. She said maybe I'll think about it. Then she left. So now I'm waiting a bit

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My girlfriend broke uo after two and a half years. We keot saying together forever but the first two years i kept fucking up. I miss her so much. We still talk and i hope we can be together still..

>>699546883
i am phdfag, graduating is contingent on me publishing some shitty nerd articles nobody will probably read. i have to send them out to journals where other autists read my stuff and decide if it's good or not. my paper sucks and i'm afraid it will be rejected and i will be 30+ and still stuck in this shithole college town.

>>699547445
I had dreams of earning a PhD some day but I turned out not be smart enough

>>699544403
Fuck I love this one.

A good friend of mine recently passed away. Skydiving accident, his parachute didn't deploy. Went to his service today, I bawwed my eyes out, I hadn't cried in so long prior. I'm so used to holding in my emotions.. I just let it all out today. On top of all that I found out that another friend of mine tried to hang himself. He failed and almost died, he was crying with me, telling me if it wasn't for me he would've offed himself a long time ago.
Hold me /b/

>>699547057
>>699547104
>>699547149
>>699547196
Anon, I love hockey like it's the fucking death of me, so let me quote the great Wayne G.

"You miss 100% of the shots you don't take."

I understand that you're scared shitless about it, hell I would be too. Each day you don't ask her is a missed opportunity at happiness and truly enjoying life.

It's time to man the fuck up and ask her. She could be waiting for you to ask, and chicks don't like to be patient. Ask her, or else you'll regret not doing it in the first place.

I believe in you, because from what I can tell, you're probably a cool fucking dude. Obviously she thinks so too, so just fucking ask her.

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>>699547069

seriously anons, i am so much more in tune with all of you awful faggots than 99.999% of people in the world. love you all.

>>699547381
I understand that. When I try to show my friends a new song I wrote, or a new poem or video game I made...they just make fun of me...it's hard to really be creative when the people that are closest to me make fun of it, even if they're just "joking around"

>>699547682
not worth it

>>699547385
Just be patient anon, and all will work out, even if it isn't with her.

>>699547196
Don't let it too late for it to get to the point where you are "great friends".

Try something like: "Hey, it wouldn't be weird if I asked you out, would it?"

That probably sounds stupid, but really you just need to be straight up but not too direct. Be honest, and be real.

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Ran out of pot 24 hours ago. Been meaning to take a break for a while, been burning pretty hard. But now that it's gone, all I want is more.

Man, I don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life. I have everything I want, did everything I wanted to do already, and no further plans.

>>699547783
My friend killed himself last year, and I have another friend that I'm worried each day will be his last because of his depression. It's hard sometimes...

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>>699546395
drunk or not, thank you all for the support. to answer a few of the questions

i was not straight up with how i felt when we hung out at all. I wasnt expecting the shit that would happen after that date so i figured i'd have the 2nd and 3rd date to get closer. it was strictly a friendly date (as friendly as sitting together drinking coffee overlooking the sunset on a blanket is) but I was planning more for the future.

if I can work up the nerve to ask her out again, i will definitely be straight up with her. I think the whole "i couldnt stop thinking about you" is actually a pretty sweet line and i want to use it. I have fucked up with girls and never ended up trying before so I know how you guys feel, but I seriously think this girl is 100x better than any i've met.

without getting too soap-boxy, the night we talked I couldn't stop staring at her because she's insanely gorgeous. she is the least vapid person i've talked to in a long time, very much a human and not a typical club thot, we had a lot of the same views and both have kinda fucked up families we were able to talk to each other about in comfort. Also we both want to leave this awful city and go somewhere tropical and beautiful.

I'm glad you believe in me bros. I will try not to let you down.

>>699548248
So I've been told

>>699548065
Love you too, anon.
>no homo

>>699548465
Who is your friend?

>>699548065
We're all in this together. We may not know each other, we may never even know when we're talking to each other, if we ever even talk to each other more than once. We're all in this together.

>>699548186
Exactly, i agree. And man that sucks they shit on your creativity. I just find it so strange when you have known somone for over 5 years and you understand them, and they act like they don't know a thing about you.

>>699548647
He was in the Marine Corps, and when he got discharged he just felt so lost. That's why I turned down my chance to join the Marines...I didn't want something similar to happen to me..

>>699548537
I want some damn updates someday anon.

>>699548800
>tfw you're joining the USMC

>>699548800
>tfw I'm joining the USMC

>>699547783
Was it the guys in California?

>>699548758
Sometimes the people closest to us are the ones furthest away...it's sad. You all know more about me than my friends, and none of you know me (probably).

I'm really scared my friend is trying to stop being my friend. She's got a new job so we won't work together anymore. She told me she "never goes out" and feels too much pressure to go out to bars with me. She seems to find something wrong with everything I say lately. I feel like I messed up our
friendship at exactly the wrong time and I never meant to.

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>>699548976
It isn't that bad. The brotherhood that they have is great. Are you a poolie yet? Have you gone to MEPS to swear in?

>>699547196
you're like 19, you're wrong, your feelings aren't right, you don't know what's good for you. you dodged a bullet, she wasn't for you, that was a physical attraction, not mental. I'm in love for the first time now(i thought I was twice before) but I know now. don't be the dude with self pity, that's unattractive and unproductive. learn, and move on.

>>699549045
Have you told her about how you feel? Usually girls can express their feelings better then guys.

>>699548989
Yeah, it was. Really sad shit. He was a really good guy, he didn't deserve it. His brother just broke down in the middle of his speech. Made me cry so bad.
>>699548936
>>699548976
On mobile sorry for double posting guys.

>>699549045
Maybe just back off and give it some time? People always come back to the place that they are welcomed. Don't shut her out, but don't pressure her to be around.

>>699548870
with the nature of this board that is unlikely lol, but I'll try to come back here when it's farther along.

I actually use /adv/ a lot more often so you may be more likely to see me there.

/adv/ actually helped me get the courage to ask her out in the first place. I mentioned some of her interests and they suggested hiking, so i proposed that idea, and then it led to us just watching the sunset and talking. So if you see a similar story here or /adv/, you'll know it's me.

>>699548800
I heard of stores of people losing their purpose when the got out & killing themselves. It was something we were told to be on the look out for when we got out during WLC.

>>699549295
It's all he ever wanted to be. A marine through and through. When he was discharged for medical shit it really fucked with him. I kind of understand why he did, but I'll always hate that he did it.

i've lost six friends, acquaintances, and family members to suicide at this point. including one gril that i was sort of in love with.

take the days as they come. ultimately you can't stop it, but you can make their time here more tolerable and that may forestall the inevitable. even if your friend is a dick to you or acts like he doesn't appreciate it, he does more than you'll ever know.

>>699549104
Still an applicant. But I've been talking to my recruiter since Febuary. Used to be a huge pothead and and druggie in general, he helped fixed me up. I wanted to get sobered up before going to MEPS. I head out soon if all goes well.

Fuck, don't know who else to talk to so you guys are it. Girlfriend and i have been dating for 7 months or so now, and she has an eating disorder that is really fucking with her. Its hard but we both care for each other a lot, and every day is a constant stress of if she's going to freak out or not, and how late I'll have to stay up to comfort her. Don't know what the point of posting is, sorry if I don't reply, just needed it off my chest

>>699549237
Damn dude, so sorry to hear that shit. I think I'd be okay with never trying skydiving in my lifetime.

>>699549268
I'm on /adv/ all the time. I'm sure I'll see it there.

>>699545727
I have personally rekindled friendships with people I hadn't talked with in over a year, it's not too late at, anon. Go talk with her.

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I just rehomed my cat and moved back in with my family. I have almost no friends left. Its hard to hide from them that i am empty inside. So i smoke weed and pretend to be social, when really I wake up every day dissappointed that i did. Ive been quiet for a week. I dont have anything to say. Sometimes i just stare out the window and wait for the days to end.

>>699548537
Take some screenshots. I'll keep an eye out for you someday anon. Very best of luck.

>>699549216

I feel like it's just going to make things worse. I already told her I didn't realize I was putting pressure on her and I would stop.

>>699549262

I guess that's my only option. Everything I do seems to be wrong. But maybe that's somewhat in my head, idk

Pissed because police have been lying on me and are fucking retards.

>>699549509

the point is posting. good just to have some sort of an outlet.

>>699549504
Well good luck anon. Are you in the West side of the country? If so, have fun at MCRD-SD. Shits sandy there.kek

>>699547783
I've almost lost friends of 16 years, I'm 23, one had germinoma brain cancer, one has a skiing accident that left him in a coma for 3 weeks, shit ain't easy.. I'm sorry, there is no advice for this shit, just know they would be sitting on the sidelines screaming for you to do what you want in life

>>699549698
Alright, I've been on this board for a year now but first time I've been in a feels thread and felt like posting

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can anybody please post that lolita girl story?

>>699549560
He wanted to try skydiving so bad before starting college. It was on his bucket list. I was too scared to skydive and now I'm definitely terrified of it.

If anyone is interested in taking the talking to a further point, I'm down to give out like...something. Maybe steam account? We can jump in game and have a talk or some shit?

Alright guys, this is my first memearrow so bear with me here. But I have a serious question about how I recover from when I fucked up. On here goes
>be me, junior year of high school
>see 9/10 grill in cafeteria
>always starr at her for pretty much the entire lunch, sat by myself so nothing better to do
>go the entire junior year without saying a word to this girl
>senior yeah comes along
>walk into my 6thth period class on the first day HOLYSHITGRILLSPOTTED.jpg
>sit behind her so I can basically gawk at her the entire class period
>next day, there's an open seat next to her and I say duck it and grab the chair
>we start becoming friendly, turns out she soon gets a job where I work too
>we become very friendly, develop huge crush on her
>after many months of trying to build up the courage to ask her on a date, I finally do it one night after work
>HOLYFUCKSHESAYSYES.mov
But here's where I fucked up /b/, I didn't give a specific day for our date and was kind of intimidated to ask her again.
>another 6 months goes by
>still in love with her, haven't had a gf since I talked to grill
I'm leaving for college in 2 days and I'm wondering if there's some way I can form a relationship with this girl and still go to college. I'll be an hour and a half away but I could come home on weekends. What do?

>>699549509
what's the disorder? I kinda need specifics, is she bulimic, anorexic, or does she have pyka

I look back at my life and all I feel is bad. I get socially awkward because I'm so afraid of fucking up again. I'm insecure. The only friends I ever talk to these days make me feel like shit. I recently had a hole left in me by probably the one girl I've ever actually loved. My shit life is making me isolate myself and dig my own hole and I don't know what to do but wait until it gets better.

please dont leave me alone

>>699549981
Well, I hope he didn't have anything else on his bucket list...

>>699546462
Read thus at 2:36. Damn. Fuck my life.

I just got back from seeing my kids. They stay with my ex wife. It's an eight hour drive, and all I do on it is dwell on what went wrong. I miss my kids. I wonder if there's an alternate reality where me and her worked.

>>699549724
Yeah,
I'm from California. Half of my friends already shipped out to MCRD-SD and are Marines now. Just waiting to get there myself now.

>>699550066
I'm down.

>>699550173
Sorry, she's anorexic but isn't underweight so I think there's a different classification for it

>>699548800
I forgot to tell you to be there for your friend, keep him close to make sure he's doing OK and give him the number to the VA Crisis Line (8002738255). And make sure he knows you're there for him.

>>699549981
Yeah it's stories like those that turn you off from that stuff. Like bungie jumping...fuck that shit.

>>699550209
Not that I recall.
Thanks for your concern though anon,
It really means a lot.

>>699550092
I was in a relationship while at college, ironically also about an hour and a half away. It completely ruined college for me.

I dropped out and moved back for this girl, and here I am now, single and no further education.

I know you may love her, but don't let it ruin your education. However, if you decide I'm an idiot that doesn't know what he's talking about, then go for it. Everyone is different, that's just my personal experience and advice.

>>699550092
FUCKIN' DO IT M8 WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?!?!

>>699550092
Shit anon, all you had to do was talk to her about it. Do you still talk? Hit her up and say ask if she remembers that time you asked her out and if she's still up for it.

>>699550333
Well shit, I don't know what my profile url is...but my name is Trix Are 4 Addix...and I know there aren't really any others with that name if that helps...

>>699550092
Remember, when you go to college you are going to be tempted left and right by attractive girls. If you are the type of guy who can handle a long distance commited relationship, reach out to that girl. But if not you will have several opportunities ahead of you.

>>699547783
I skydive semi regularly, I've done it like 14 times in 4 years, your friend died doing something spiritual and amazing. I would love to die that way, he died fulfilling a dream. wouldn't you be happy dying while simultaneously doing something you dreamt of? your friend panicked before impact, but there is no better way to go than dying fulfilling a lifetime dream

>>699550325
You'll enjoy it. I dropped at boot...but I didn't deserve to be a Marine anyways, I lied too much to get there in the first place..

>>699550605
We are still very friendly, which is what kills me

>>699550747
At 20? Hell no.

>>699550871
why does age matter if you are experiencing something you dreamt of?

I miss my grandpa so much. Just to see his face again would cheer me up so much

>be me
>21 years old
>year 2008
>canadian with irish descent
>have an awesome grandpa who teaches you to hunt, fish, raise birds and live in the wild
>my grandpa was an awesome dude always down to do stuff with me and no one else
>he always used to sing this song called Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town by Pearl Jam
>since he was my role model, i learned it by heart with him and always singed it with him, where ever when ever.
>He always used to take me to the forest to teach me how to shoot guns and bows
>On St-Patrick eve, he got drunk with me and my family
>he never took me ice fishing
>he told me before going to bed that he'll take me to a place to icefish tomorrow and we'll have a great time
>right after that Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town started playing on the radio. Me and my grandpa sang it so loud that we thought we were going to get noise complaints, but we didnt care.
>he looked at me and told me goodnight
>it was the last time he told me goodnight, the last time i saw his beautiful smile
>The next morning he died by falling down the stairs, he broke his neck

Now everytime I hear that song, that beautiful song. It makes me cry. I can't help but to cry to that song. Just hearing the first lyrics makes me tear up.

>>699550204
we're never alone.

>>699549475
I want something substantial to day to you. I'm sorry I don't

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I miss my cats every day.

I got them when they were kittens with my ex gf.

I still think about them every day.

I just want Chuck and Gary back.

Im feeling dumb af cause I got in a car accident with open alcohol and weed in my car and my friend with a warrent out for his arrest in the front seat

>>699550747
He was only 18, it's really something that shouldn't of happened. He was always a thrill seeker, driving fast cars like Lambos and Ferraris, speeding through race tracks, going to DisneyLand (And the rides) multiple times a year.
I'd like to believe he died doing something he wanted to do so badly and be happy for that but I don't know if I can.

the only problems I have have are about losing my dog, which people think less of unfortunately

I don't know what kind of music you guys are into, but this song lifts me up.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jfFTT3iz740
This too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9bsJ7oGokg

>>699551080
Because of how much of life you will be missing out on. Yeah it's better then being stabbed to death but damn, dying from a freak accident at such a young age would suck.

6 years ago I had it all. I was 20 living with my mother, father and sister. I had many friends - from school, work and other circles. Money, good looks and confidence. I had everything at my feet and anyone looking at my circumstances would have rightly concluded that I was living the good life.

In the past 6 years, cancer dropped my family from 4 down to 2. It destroyed me. I kept painting the picture to people that I was OK but I wasn't. I developed an addiction to meth and over the last two years it cost me everything. My money, my friends, my looks, my and finally my job.
I'm under no illusions, most of my problems are self inflicted but today it really struck me just how for granted I took my life when it was good.

I'd give anything to take back the shit decisions I've made, but for the most part, its too late. What hurts me most is that I've let everybody else down.

>>699551114
I have those songs too anon. I'm sorry to hear about that.

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>>699551293

>>699550762
I've only lied about my drug use. My recruiter made me stay quiet about it other than marijuana. It's been a dream of mine to join the Marines since shit, I don't even know how long. Can't wait for it.

>>699551415
I'm sorry /b/ro, but picking yourself back up is the best thing to do right? Finding a reason to get back on your feet would help, maybe someone why would be willing to help you through your rough time?

>>699551293
I feel you anon, my cat ran away not too long ago and hasn't come back since. Ive done everything in my power to look for her, but no luck.

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>>699543874
COURAGE AND HONOR, SAD MORTALS

>>699551602
Cute kittys>>699551293

>>699551320
That's how you should live, clearly he had Money, he chose his risks, he died taking one of them. there is no regret there in my eyes. he died they'll seeking, I would love to go the same way. he knew the risk, he knew the fun, he never considered how it may affect you. You can't linger on that. he died knowing what could happen, he just never considered how it may affect you. most people like him overlook that

I don't know why but I just came here to get something off my chest...
So this is what happened
>Be me, dating a girl for a few months but it's a long distance relationship and we never met in person so it's hard on the both of us but we make it work.
>One day, I just stop having any feelings for her, not that I didn't want her but rather I just became numb, I cared but I didn't love her. This situation has happened with me before with my family, units don't feel anything towards them, partially t due to the abuse and no one caring about me. I have done drugs, I have cut myself, I even attempted suicide but no one noticed, no one noticed the beatings... But anyway back to the situation.
>So I lost all feelings for her but I desperately wanted to love her and I know she loved me with all her heart. She always did things to make me happy or to make my way better, and she did. She was the one day of light in my life that kept me from ending it.
>After three weeks of just metal struggle she talks to me because she knew something was wrong. I was unusually distant and responded with one word answers, so she asked me what's wrong and after a while I told her and she was so hurt. The person she loved for months told her he didn't love her back...
>She was so heart broken, she broke down crying infront of her friend and kept on blaming herself, she always blames her self for things that goes wrong. I try to explain to her that it isn't her fault.
>After a while she got mad at me and we talk for hours and hours.
>After a few more days of talking and crying and me cutting myself because of depression (I had it when it all started... It really hurt me when I didn't love her but I guess it's because of the mental scaring my mother gave me, I couldn't love anyone) she told me she wanted to take a break... It hurt so much but i wanted to give her her space. We haven't talked much since...

>>699551665
You'll be a killer devil dog anon. Just keep at it.

>>699551873
thrill* sorry I use Swype

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>>699551765
I had a cat named gilbert that I had since I was 3 years old. I'm 18 now and he died last september. I feel you brother. That is me and my kitten gilbert when I was 4

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>>699551293

in my lifetime i have had many cats that i've cared about, but only one that i truly loved. she died on my birthday a year and a half ago. they euthanized her while i was holding her.

i think about her every single day, and always will. she was more caring than any human i've ever met.

pic related.

>>699543874
>same here fam, in my case, i would add i really don't have any friends, in fact, i have no friends at all, i hate my job and i feel my life is getting nowhere. every time i start doing something new i can't finish it, i literally have about $15 in my pocket and have to stretch it out for 5 days until i get my paycheck not to mention i have a baby and i need to buy diapers, yep my life it's pretty shitty right now

>>699551947
With my family, I just* don't
Make my day* better
Just some corrections

>>699552115
cats run away because they weren't happy with what you provided, that's science

>>699551947
How can you love somone you never met in person?

>Lazy as fuck
>Literally only 2 friends
>They're a couple, just had a kid
>They argue all the time, I just sit around and wait for the bowl(weed) to get passed to me
>Can't keep a job, but have to so I can move out of my current place
>Nothing keeps my interest
>I just wanna die
>Can't because my friends just had a kid and I'm their rides everywhere, can't let the baby down.
>When I'm not sober I want nothing more than to die
Other than that things are going pretty good, the usual shit.

>>699552355
Some have a desire to mate and or explore the outside world. Almost every cat who went from being outside to inside will try and get back outside.

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>>699552115
Adorable cat anon, my cat was named Smokey, she just got out one night and got away, I don't even know how.
>Pic related is her

>>699552055
Oorah anon, thank you.
>>699551873
I understand that he seemed thrills and all that but if there was anything he cared about, it was other people. He was the kindest guy I knew. He was always trying to make you feel better if you were down and if you had a problem, he'd sit there for hours on end listening and helping you through your troubles.

>>699552524
animals that are content with living situations don't go anywhere. That's a fact

>>699543874
My dads being a fucking psychotic asshole who's trying to get back in my life, over-controlling crazy-religious mother, I have no friends, a boyfriend that doesn't even love me anymore, no job, not to mention a past I've been trying to forget. But no amount of fucking anti-depressants are gonna heal that scar. I can't even commit suicide because I don't want to burden my family with funeral and burial costs. So I'm stuck here and there's no fucking escaping life.

>>699543874
I feel lonely and lost, unmotivated. Was in a 9 year relationship that ended a while back, but I am clueless about what to do as a single person. It's been like losing my identity. Many of my friends moved or got married, I am not that close with many people or with my family. I end up having trouble finding the "purpose" in doing anything.

>>699552685
Just because it's a fact doesn't mean you need to be an asshole to people who just want to talk

>>699552680
that perpetuated my point, he would want you to live. he was selfless and wants you to do you.. so do what he wants bud

>>699552805
You are a dumb

>>699552897
Thanks anon, I'm gonna get some rest, it's been a long day.

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>>699552758
It's ok to feel off the beaten trail for a while. It will get better, and you will find positives. It just takes a while anon. Hang in there.

>>699552726
I'll be your friend.

It sucks right now, but you can forge your own path. Nobody can make decisions for you.

OP here, just wanted to say thanks to all of you guys for being awesome and bringing me some joy on this shitty night. You all rock, no matter what you may think.

>>699553029
Thanks, sorry anon I've had a stressful night, didn't mean to insult you man

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What am I feeling? Honestly, I'm feeling empty. I've wasted so much time in my life that I don't have any left. I'm about to be a senior in high school, just recently turned 18, and I'm scared, guys. I don't know where to go after high school, I don't know how to even interact with normal people on a regular basis. I've never really had many friends, and only been in a grand total of 3 legitimate relationships. One I failed with miserably, another a choice I most certainly regretted as soon as I made it, and the 3rd a long distance one that is just recently imploding, and I don't even know why. I'm just sick of being alone, being in the background. And I try to be a normie, I really do. I go to clubs, I actually leave the house for reasons outside of school, and I can even hold a normal conversation without dropping spaghetti sometimes. I just don't know why I'm always in the background, even when I try to be front and center. And the worst part is that I know I have it better than some of you anons. Some of you guys have been through hell and back again, and here I am bitching about the little shit I go through. And I want to die because of that, in a way. Because if I can barely handle myself now, how am I going to hold up in a few years? How am I going to survive being a normal, functional human being? It's a terrifying prospect. And I want out. I honestly don't know why I haven't become an hero yet.

>>699553119
Always, man. I like to keep an eye out for these threads even when I'm not feeling down. It always makes me feel better to relate to people and help cheer them up, because I know they're in a similar place I am.

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I'm trying this soon, i think it will probably work, i suggest you try it. I dunno though.
https://youtu.be/hEd4UW5f7s4

This song also made me feel pretty hard, at least in terms of the lyrics https://youtu.be/LkfM-UK5BgM

Sorry for normie trash.

>>699543874
does anyone have that screencap with pepe looking into the sunset on a beach, with greentext describing things that will never happen? hits me but I lost it and haven't found it since.

>>699553368
I dig him man, I was glad that he came back.

>>699552447
Well it all started when I helped her with her issues, like a single alcoholic mother that doesn't have a job, her moving around alot, not making friends, her missing father, wht few friends she had, some did drugs or cut or some shit and other problems. Then she started helping me with my issues, like my abusive mother, missing father, depression, last drug use, and alot of other things. We eventually got closer and closer, we are just two people hurt by everyone, bullied by every one and cast aside for no reason... We are two damaged people who supported the other one and finally were able to stand. We have changed eachothers lives forever. We Skype every single day, text every minute.. but not any more

I'm feeling... A little lonely, OP. Not much to it. I just don't have many people to talk to at this time, and I don't like sleeping so early either.

This looks like a good place to spill the beans
>brother and i met a girl 5 years ago online
>been buddys since and kept contact
>i never felt anything for her since we were just friends and never really talked 1 on 1
>recently we started talking and its all good
>she wants to be a vet and i enlisted into the army
>she talks to me about her personal life
>recently broke up with her ex but met a guy
>she says hes just like me and she likes him
>when i heard that i got jealous and i knew that i have feelings for her
>she skypes him now instead of me
>i feel like shit and im not the emotional type but this makes me pretty sad
I dont know why i let this got to me and why do i care

>>699553289
Try seeing a psychotherapist for a while regarding your depression, they can and will help you find a better path to go down.

As for how you're feeling now, high school is stupid and petty. I've been through the exact same BS (I still am, in a certain light) but I've made an ok life for myself. I'm betting you're a decent guy, it's just that there are some real assholes out there and our parents may not be who they think they are.

Try to remember and keep to heart that you're in control of your life and your decisions. Do what you need to do for you. Sometimes shit hurts and relationships especially can be hurtful. But for each time you're hurt, you grow a little more.

It's going to be OK. Just have to get through high school for now. Worry about the rest later.

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>>699553289
YOU FEAR THE UNKNOWN
YOU FEAR NOT HAVING A PURPOSE
DEDICATE YOUR LIFE TO SOMETHING GREAT AND YOUR FEAR WILL WITHER IN HIS LIGHT

>>699553552
I fell you man. I work overnights at a hotel, so my schedule is basically the opposite to anyone else I know irl...

>>699548758
at least you're not gay

what would they say then

>>699543874
I kinda wanted to do an update thing, but I wasn't sure if anyone would know what I was talking about, do any of you remember the anon who went nuts over a girl for years and became obsessed with the number 1143, he sometimes posts with 1143 before and after his posts

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been feeling like everything I do isnt good enough lately

>>699553645
In the name of the Emperor, please post in a different thread.

or, more simply put, GET OUT HERETIC.

>>699549045
it sounds like you're moving apart

as in, she's growing up, changing, wanting different things, but you still stay the same

>>699545727
just talk to her more, tell her you've been busy, any harm can be undone.

Feeling decent. Excited to go camping with my bros tomorrow but not trying to wake up early

>>699549475
holy shit man you must be really depressing to be around

maybe you're cursed

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>>699553941
AND CONDEMN THESE SAD MORTALS TO SHITTY ADVICE
I THINK NOT

>>699549216
>>699549045
listen, the worst thing you can do right now is be a recluse, come out about your feelings, be honest with her, you need to hear her side before you can think about keeping your friendship intact

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Today is my birthday and not even my mother has said happy birthday to me. I usually don't care about this kind of stuff but today is just different, thanks for this thread.

>>699554281
Hey, happy birthday man.

>>699554281
let me be the first. Happy Birthday, and may the happiness last you a long time. Get yourself some cake. Cakeless Birthdays are shit.

>>699554433
>>699554436
fuck, I would have been first by a second. And you stole my dubs...

>>699554281
Happy birthday you cuck fag

>>699554281
Hey happy birthday man. Even though it may be hard, try to make it a badass day.

>>699554281
Happy birthday, /b/ro

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>>699553918
WHY DO YOU FEEL YOUR OFFERING IS INADEQUATE TINY SERVANT OF MANKIND

>>699553836
so I guess nobody remembers the fucking paragraphs of shit I wrote, to explain all those tiny details, well, basically, if you remember them, I think that if there is a god, he's trying to tell me to move on from 1143, I think I've finally let her go, I've actually been a lot happier now that I have, but the guilt still persists, I've started talking to other people recently, it's going well recently. Anons, I think I finally escaped the feel hole.

>>699554281
happy birthday

>>699554071

well, i tried. at least you aren't talking about "the greater good" and all that nonsense.

For Terra. <sigh>

>>699554281
Happy birthday faggot

>>699554281
Happy birthday man
Best wishes for you

>>699554598
Thats great anon, always good to move on.

>>699554591
Hey, you're cool man. Thanks. You've just been bringing a smile to my face.

>>699545727
>but despite this, not a single day goes by where i don't think about her.

You get one life. This is it. Tell her how you feel. Right now.

>>699554281
Happy birthday.

These /b/ros are right. Get some fuckin' cake.

>>699553645
FOR THE EMPEROR!
That made me smile. I have been considering getting into 40k lately. I'll probably either play Necrons or Tyranids. Yes, I know I'm a HERETIC.

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Thread has been moved here. Dubs, trips, off by one trips decide next thread move.

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Hearing her name fucking kills me even now

>>699553438

>>699545354

>>699554952
>>699544127

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>>699554688
THE GREATEST GOOD THESE MORTALS CAN ACHIEVE IS TO UNDERSTAND THEIR FEELINGS
TO FEEL IS TO BE HUMAN
TO BE HUMAN IS TO BE GREAT

>>699554732
I still feel weird though, it's like there's side effects from the process, sometimes I do crazy shit, or go into a fit of anger, sometimes I feel guilty for moving on, and I change all of my profile pictures and descriptions to "IIIVIII" or 1143, sometimes both, then the next day I'll change it back, I'm super glad the girl I'm talking to didn't ask about it, it would be the embodiment of awkward considering she's sent me a nude by this point. (not boasting just explaining my position)

>>699554281
happy /b/day fellow b faggot

>>699549043

>>699543419 →

>>699540023

>>699541408

alright /b/ros bear with me here first post on here
>be me 19yr old virgin skinny like 5'9"
>going into sophomore year of college go to a school known for being kinda nerdy (i'm a cs major)
>currently live with my brother (21) who goes to same college physics major and baseball player popular with everyone and family loves him all around a great guy
>alright so on to the story first semester goes on make probably a total of 2 friends
>first day of second semester classes stuck in history
>walk in and see a beautiful brunette
>just do my own thing and go sit in the back of the room
>weeks pass 0 courage to approach this girl
>fast forward to last couple of weeks of semester
>for some ungodly reason she decides to sit next to me this day (i always sat in the back and kept to myself)
>she strikes up a conversation just about the class and finals coming up just general college shit
>at the end of class i ask her her name since we had just started bullshitting about classes and stuff
>I'll just call her H on here
>next class period she sat next to me again
>we walk out together start talking about where we are from turns out she went to a different highschool in my school district
>work up the courage to ask for her number get it and text her as soon as i get back to my dorm
>no reply until later that night w/e its college
>fast forward to finals week at the local NHL teams playoff game, was supposed to hangout with her after the game to work on our finals for the class we have together
i'll continue just need to go get a drink

>>699555121
rerool

>>699546374

>>699543874
That's the high life man it only gets better.

>>699543419

>>699545727
I know this feel, happened to me once, I just came back one day, acted normal, and everything went well.
If you want, depending how close you are try to make an advance

>>699555311wasted
Rolling
>>699548536

>>699555434
reroll

>>699548536

did you guys ever think that maybe, just maybe

women aren't special?

>>699555495
reroll reroll

>>699553668

>>699551385
man, makes me depressed that nujabes is dead

>>699555710
Ee

>>699555121

roll

>>699555763
Yeah, me too. It's sad, but we all go at some point.

>>699531529

>>699548160

>>699555913
What awaits for me after this, if there is anything terrifies me. I hope there is something

Who turned off the dubs?
>>699550766

>>699555134

what chapter are you anon? what battle barge? campaign? any secrets like that Logan won't trim his nose hair or Tu'Shan has really bad gas?

this could make a good thread of itself...

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>>699549268
Lol, I was harassed a little and some other shit when I posted on /adv/ asking about help with a girl. Lucky you... Ended up getting my heart broken by her... I try not to show it, but fuck dude... It hurts. It's a good and bad thing I only let my feels out on threads like these, where I am "anonymous"
>mfw /adv/'s advice fails

>>699541209
I ain't asking for much, just a dub or two

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>>699554281
I hope this will help you feel better, anon

>>699556200
DONE

>>699556200
>>699556200
>>699556200
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>>699556200
HERE WE GOOOOOO

Got any tips for me so I don't make the same mistakes you guys did? Like in school or with girlfriends.

>>699543874

Haven't renewed my lovely library books.

It's been three weeks, and I don't know if I can afford the fines..

Also haven't called my sweet grandma, cuz I'm a bitch

>>699551812
Where is your honor when you are left to die on the battlefield forgotten by you comrades while they think and bask in their victory while you lay dying on the field

>>699556504
If you ever have to think, is it worth it, then it isn't worth it.

>>699556216
A true hero

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>>699556047
I AM ONE OF MANY
YET ONLY ONE
THUS IS OUR WILL ABSOLUTE
AND I TOLD LOGAN TO SHAVE THAT GAY ASS WOLF BEARD

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I love you guys.

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>>699554591
I just feel like I always fall short in everything I do. I always think about how I could have done something better, could have done more. I end up feeling like a disappointment to myself and others.

>>699545727
I've reconnected with girls after years anon. Just be real with yourself and her, if you want another go, let her know

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I had my chance with this girl whom my madly in love with. Alas I let it slip and she is now married with a kid. Things have been downhill ever since I fucked it up. Drinking, drugs and countless girls. Fucking stupid I know but I just can't seem to let her go.

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>>699554281

Happy birthday m8

Have a Reimu

>>699554904
Right now won't work, my phone is broken and she's at a concert lol.. But soon. V soon.

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>>699556869
THE ABILITY TO IMPROVE DOES NOT MAKE YOUR EFFORTS LESS

>>699556604
Wow, that sentence was pretty deep for only a few words. Thanks for the tip anon I'll keep that in mind.

>>699551114
Feels hit when I read song title. I'll remember him when I hear it now
>feelsbadman.jpeg

The feels is exactly what I needed tonight, thanks everyone.

>>699554071
i love you, by the emperor

>>699557179
Agreed.

Just like /adv/ pushed me to ask her out the first time, /b/ is giving me the push to try again.

I'm feeling good, but with some anxiety. I have a lot of different projects I'm juggling and it's been kinda tough. Nevertheless, I'm in high spirits now and again. Definitely need to exercises more tho, I feel like a fatass.

>>699555311
>after the game text her on way back no response feels bad
>ignore it it's late she probably went to sleep already
>end not talking for a couple of days
>hear from her about a week later asking if im going back to hometown for summer
>i am she immediately says how we should hangout and itll be a great summer
>summer comes finally
>barely pass most my classes didnt put in shit for effort spent more time playing csgo and jacking off
>decide to see what she is doing one weekend in my amazement she says that we should hangout and get lunch on Saturday
>Saturday comes around woke up to a text from her (may not seem like much but first time a girl has texted me first in a long fucking time)
>end up meeting at a burger place in town
>i show up a little early waiting outside nice day not ass blazing hot yet (Texas weather man)
>set time comes and goes get a text form her she's running late
>she finally arrives looks drop dead gorgeous
>go in let her go first and grab my wallet i order and she goes to get drinks as i pay
>lady behind the counter says something that is probably gonna haunt me for a long time
>"you have a great girl, yall seem perfect for each other, dont ever let her go"
>dont think too much of it say thanks and get on my way
>sit down for lunch and get to know this girl
>turns out she is really cool
> she's into alot of the same stuff as me
>now im not your normal computer science major i love firearms, trucks,gaming and hockey
>we hit it off and ended up spending almost 2 hours sitting in this burger shop talking and having a great time
>she wants to grab a smoothie before we head out
>go across the street to get one
>she starts to pull out her credit card, i interrupt and tell the cashier to do the right thing he takes my money bro confirmed
>as we begin to leave she asks to see my truck wat.jpg
>she tells me she loves trucks
>show her my truck nothing special its nice but nothing crazy just a nissan titan
there is alot more want me to cont?

>>699557459
Exercising actually helps calm my anxiety. Try getting out and running around a bit.

>>699557716
please do

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>be me
>another year deadicated to getting /fit/
>all i do is work, play videogames, and workout
>all of this so i can go to cons in the summer and cosplay
>i have alot of confidence, but when it comes to other girls like me who do the same thing i get all beta
>this year i actually connected with someone who met everything that i want in someone and she really took a liking to me
>we went to this stupid con rave thing and she got all shy and left
>and now im drunk and wishing i knew where introvert, nerdy, girls hang out
>maybe shes there

I've lost all my feelings for just anything that I'm just anger and sadness. And I'm fucking 18. My dad never spent any time with me and I never had any real friends in school. I only recently found out what's it like to have someone be there for you and I don't even know how to use them without making it feel like I'm a whiny little bitch who can't handle his own problems. I'm going into grade 12 and all I want is to die so I don't have to deal with any of this shit anymore.

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>be a 23yr old virgin faggot
>get drunk with bros on a friday
>go downtown, meet a chick that is really cool
>a little chitchat, nothing deep
>she wants to come to my place
>start slamming beers
>drunk as fuck and so is she
>go to my place, smash but dont remeber much
>p sure i fucking sucked
>whiskey dick of death
>couldnt cum and dick kept going limp on me
>drove her home the next day little chitchat in the car
>fallen for this chick
>tfw you were just another hook up for her
>added her on facebook about a week ago, this happend 4 weeks ago
>dont have the courage to start conversation
>now i just stare at her facebook too scared to talk to her

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>>699558436
>is lesbian
>wonders why straight girls wont fuck her
i wonder why dumbass

>>699557716
Yessir. Please cont.

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>>699558965
nigga

>>699558951
She is probably trash man, there is a shitfest in store for you if you tried to pursue a relationship, those kind of girls can't commit and will cheat after a drunk night out

Consider yourself lucky

>>699557716
>walk her to her car talk for a second, hug her and we each say we had a great time and how we should do this again soon
>as i walk back over to my truck and pull out my phone for music and there is a text in all caps from her saying "OMG THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN"
>felt good for once it seemed like there was a girl that wanted to be around me
>we being texting pretty much everyday
>start to realize how much i enjoy being around this girl and that im really starting to like her
>and for once im not the one starting all the conversations
>tfw birthday is coming up going downtown to a barbeque place that we go to for most family gatherings
>invite her she says shes's not sure if she can make it because of work
>invite a couple of friends from highschool aswell only one replies he has a frat function and cant avoid it
>spend my birthday dinner with my family as none of my friends nor her showed up
>whatever i have great tight knit family where we all give shit about each other
>my bestfriend aswell as one of my brothers friends came over to my parents house after dinner for some nhl and rocket league (i was still living with them at this time)
>end having a good time just hanging out and bullshitting
>all in all not a bad birthday
>continue talking to this girl almost daily
>she brings up how we need to hangout again soon and starts giving out some ideas
>later that week i ask her what her plans are for the weekend
> i planned on hanging out with her and asking her out on a real date
>she says she is gonna go to some thing with her boyfriend this weekend
>my stomach dropped like a fucking bomb
>i felt crushed but just kind of ignored it and put it in the back of my head
>she was still texting me everyday even after that
>a couple days later i was sitting with my parents and she texted me saying that we should meetup and get dinner or something
>i agreed cause i truely like being around her one of those girls that makes everything better

>>699552726
Alec? Is that you?

>>699554281
Happy birthday, Anon!

>>699554281
Happy birthday, my dude.

>>699554281
happy birthday mate

>>699559654
>arrive in town square and meet her
>she was sitting by the fountain reading a new book
>cant help but notice how beautiful she looks
>she's asks if i have eaten and if i wanna get dinner
>i had already eaten but i said i would go somewhere with her while she gets something to eat
>we walk down to some place that is like high end mexican food (idk if thats a thing it was like a fancy mexican food place though)
>she orders and everything and we just hangout and have a great time talking about everything
>i dont remember how but the conversation turned sexual somehow with her asking if i think its bad that she had slept with x number of guys already
>i told her that it was no big deal as the number was actually really low compared to most girls
>we got to talking about that and then she ended up asking me how many girls i've been with and when i said zero she seemed shocked
>i ended up telling her how ive only ever kissed one girl and that was in middle school
>and how long story short i wasnt popular in highschool i was that kid that was "friends" with everyone but never got invited to do anything
>she actually seemed to like the fact that i didnt seem to care that i hadnt been with a ton girls
>i dont know about yall but i want it to be with someone i actually like and not just some girl who i wont talk to again
>anyways we just continued to talk about everything and when time came we left she payed immediately and didnt even seem to see if i was gonna pay so that was good
>i knew she wasnt one of those girls who use guys for free stuff
>just start waling around the town square and talk some more about recent events
>end up sitting down on a bench and just talking for probably another hour
>eventually it comes time where she needs to go as she has to work tomorrow say our goodbyes and head our ways
>everything seems normal still text everyday and she brings up that we should hangout again and starts asking where i wanna hangout

>>699561001
>>she actually seemed to like the fact that i didnt seem to care that i hadnt been with a ton girls
>>i dont know about yall but i want it to be with someone i actually like and not just some girl who i wont talk to again
fake, you woulda atleast said 1-3 man

>>699560570
Hey tim

I thought I was over her, but today I had a dream about her. She hugged me and rested her head on my shoulder, she loved me. I woke up, I tried sleeping again, and again, and I didnt get off my bed until 4pm trying to have the same dream again but I couldnt

>>699561001
>tell her that i am down with whatever she wants to do
>she suggests that we should get some ice cream or snow cones sometime soon
>sounds good just let me know when
>literally dont care what we are doing if im with this girl im happy
>weekend approaches and im sitting at home when i decide to see what she is up to today
>says she isnt doing anything and ask her if she wants to hangout
>she says she's down and brings up that we should go out to the lake
>its a beautiful day so im down
>get a text about an hour before we are supposed to hangout that she has to cancel as she needs to go look for some form her mom says she lost
>she is working for her mom this summer
>tell her its all good and we will go to the lake another time
>monday rolls around and she texts me saying that we should go hangout at the lake when she gets off work
>hellyeah.png
>ask her when she wants to meet and headout
>dont hear back for the rest of the day feelsbadman
>text her next day asking what happened
>get a reply on how she is sorry and some stuff at home is getting in the way for her
>tell her its alright and we'll just have to hangout some other time
>dont hear from her for a few days and decide to text her
>no reply
>let it go for a couple days and try again
>no reply
>starting to feel a little like shit now
>another week passes no word from her
>and another with no reply
>call her a couple of times no answer and never a reply
>end up sending her a text saying that its hard having s friendship when one person doesnt reply
>still nothing
>fast forward two weeks text her just seeing if she wants to get lunch, told her i would drive back as i had moved about ~45 minutes away to where we go to school
>still no reply
>fast forward to today decide to call her rings and goes almost straight to voicemail
>look it up and im pretty sure that im blocked on her phone
>have no idea what i did wrong
>literaly cant stop thinking of what the cashier said the first time i hungout with her

Never had much of a connection with anyone. All my life I was isolated because of the way I think and what I value. The fact that I'm legally blind never helped, I've had assistance technology in every class since the 4th grade and all of it was an eye sore. Huge TV screens and double sized books (double sized backpack on account of the appliances) people either made fun of me or avoided me through all of my schooling. Distant father who never said much... he's a great man, I just never got to know him really. I have survived a constant battle between my mother and step mother over my choices, psychology, manipulation, custody... my very being. Neither of them showed real love, ever, if they did it was to serve a calculated purpose to attempt to own me. But I digress, the point of all of this is that throughout my entire life I have felt detached from humanity altogether. I have to be within a literal inch of my phone to read texts, i my right eye twitches and moves constantly, i can never look into a girls eyes without looking like a freak! people still avoid me to this day and I avoid them because I simply don't fit the normalsy regiment... but today... today like any other I was taking out my trash when I noticed a little girl who couldn't have been more than five years old playing with toys in her yard next door. I had to get close to get to my trash barrels so I turned my face away like I've adapted to do and flung the trash in. But on my way back into the house I was suddenly startled by her, she yelled out a friendly "HI!" and I had to glance back simply out of instinct and said "hey" with a smile to appear as normal as possible. I quickly turned back towards my home but was stopped again by her. She rang out "what's your name!?" I turned back around told her. She smiled at me and told me hers, without questioning why my eyes move, without judgement, without blinking once at me, still smiling so joyously. I told her quickly "nice to meet you"

>>699561265
not fake, i see no need to lie about it doesnt do anything but put me in a hole so to speak

>>699561993
"Sorry anon, im having family issues"

And you reply by insulting her with "its hard having a one sided friendship"?

You deserve to get blocked dumbass.

>>699561993
final post for this
>almost everyday since i've stopped hearing from her im plagued by the line that lady said
>had a couple of dreams where i had bumped into her at school most turned into nightmares
>in them she would say something along the lines of how she never wants to see or hear from me again
sorry if the story sucks i just had to get it off my chest and cant tell anyone i know
its been keeping me up at night and these threads help me to deal with it, so i thought i would give back a little

>>699562025
And headed back inside. I didn't realize it right then but I felt happiness, no ordinary happiness but the kind that comes from another human being acknowledging you without any preconceived notion. This kid hasn't been corrupted yet and I very nearly cried after I got into my home and realized I was a normal human to that kid. I'm afraid of hoping for that kind of life but I'll remember that moment for a long time.

>>699562332
that reply was about a month later i should have stated that, and i regret it every single fucking day

Hey /b/ I hope to get some replies and advice but if not at least I can get this shit off my chest

I've been in an LDR for about 8 months now and really she's everything I've ever wanted. She's extremely traditional and fucking gorgeous let me tell you. She's great and I love her. We met for our first time this July and spent a week together. It was incredible.

However, before the trip, we had some very serious problems. I'm not solely blaming her because I'm not perfect either, but she is insanely hostile. She will treat me like literal shit because she is mentally fucked up due to things her dad did to her. I know she doesn't mean it. I exploded on her a week before the trip and told her how I felt about the way she had treated me for months. She cried, she was afraid I was going to leave her, and she spent the entire night drinking ( alone ) and texting me repeatedly. I felt terrible for hurting her.

The trip was fucking incredible. No complaints. After we went home, it began again though. She's getting herself into therapy because she doesn't want to ruin us but she's only been to one session. Maybe I'm just an impatient faggot. It just sucks ass to be treated like this. I'm always there for her whenever something goes wrong but she is rarely there for me..

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>>699545262
du bist warum nicht "P

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>>699562417
I'm sorry anon. This story got me going but I can't begin to understand the pain you're feeling. It's good you got it out though. I know it'll be hard to move past her. But try. For yourself.

>>699562933

Well man, one of my personal rule is to stay away from people with problems, because most of the time you end with the short end of the stick. That been say there is a lot of thing to consider before making a decision.

>>699561497
yea

>>699563477
I do want to say that she's not batshit crazy or just downright fucking insane. The problem is that she has an anxiety issue. She gets stressed really easily and she doesn't really know how to handle it.

>>699547196
Just do it man, sometimes love needs a little time

>>699563233
dont be sorry for me man, i fucked this all up, i hope all of yall learn from this one give girls some space and even if it seems like the right thing at the time dont send a stupid fucking text, because it'll have one effect and thats a negative one, i feel like even if she would have replied things wouldnt be the same and they never will be again

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>>699561183
What is this from?

>>699563845
I know she has a reason she end up like that, but maybe you should think more about yourself, i undertand you really care about her, but at the end of the day you should think about whats the best for ya. Do you deserve to be treat like shit?

Well tomorrow I'm going to join the coast guard. I know it's going to suck but I hope I don't quit during boot camp and can just deal with it.

>>699564508
Well i can only wish you good luck.

>>699564747
I mean I'm going to get paid good and look like a hero to my family. And I love this country and am happy to serve it and maybe die.

Look,I just want to say that I love you /bros so much. Like honestly, you guys have always been there for me with the greatest wit and the greatest advice, the best raids and the best bait. And even with all of the trolls and the cancer that happens in here, there is still a system to all of this complexity. And to read the responses on these threads, to see that other anons actually care, it's just a beautiful thing to see. Thank you /b/ros

>>699565109
Dont forget girl like heroes too, best of luck and if you ever feel about giving up just remenber all the benefits.

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>>699564370
Reasons To Stay Alive by Matt Haig. Here, have another