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The Feels thread
What's her name?
Is she dead?
Did she leave you?
Is she thinking about you?
(She probably doesn't know you exist.)
Just found out my grandfather is paralysed from the waist down, has multiple internal ruptures causing internal bleeding and has stomach and bowel cancer. My last living grandparent will be gone soon.
Doc told me after a few sessions that I have clinical depression and bipolar disorder, I wasn't surprised or shocked when he said, I just accepted it. The harder part is now explaining it to gf and parents.
I have a gf which the last time I spoke to her was her saying I was a depressing cunt and I should kill myself. Also the doctor won't give me any antidepressants until I've gone through the therapy which is understandable but to be honest I'd rather feel nothing than constant sadness.
Fell in love with this girl. She is great and all and we talked a lot about stuff and things. Felt like we had a good thing going, but now she just stopped talking with me and doesnt even answer my messages. its just marked as read. And it hurts so much because she said she hated whan people would do it to her and that she wouldnt do it herself
She said it after we had a huge argument over something I can't even remember. I said things just as bad if not worse.
Maybe I should just kill myself though, only person that wanted me alive was her.
Hes alone for a reason. Boys
You see that face . That is a face
Of a broken man
Men like this have been insecure shitty
People all their lives. It's easy to guess why they are lonely .
She rejected me in high school back in like 2007 or 2008 and I never really got over it. Another girl is Brittany that I still talk to. Lives in NY state and doesn't really want me as a boyfriend. We argue like husband and wife and I don't understand why she doesn't want to have at least something with me. All her boyfriends were losers who never did anything in their lives. One of them beat up her ex because he's a fuckboy. She's got DD's and some tattoos/piercings.
He was probably a weeaboo instead of killing nazis
We talk daily you fucking dumbass. I asked her why she doesn't want me as a boyfriend and she simply responded "you're too bipolar" when she's fucking bipolar herself. Women suck dick. In all senses of the word.
I'm a britfag and from what I know I have to go with whatever the doctor prescribes, I can't pick a different drug. Thanks for the advice though anons. Anyone here been diagnosed with clinical depression if so did your doctor put you through therapy first?
Met her in highschool
had a great 5 years
then we ended it because it felt like after she got a job with me
she started to hangout much more with this one guy rather than me and she barely knew the fucker for only about 3-4 months
and says that their "just friends" but it felt like they were more than just friends
>I have to go with whatever the doctor prescribes
That's a lie. You have a right to decline to take a prescription. Ask for an alternative. Here's a list https://www.drugs.com/condition/bipolar-disorder.html
Britfag here as well. I've asked to change my meds a couple of times when I thought they werent working. Make sure you have a dialogue with your doctor and they are aware of any concerns you have. I didnt get offered thearpy for depression because I was 'ok'. Then I went off the deep end and had to go to hospital for self harming. I've been diagnosed with BPD now and in theapry. It's mostly my fault because I hid how I was feeling til it was too late.
shes not real
I hope so
Her name's Ellen. I was the side piece she flirted with at work and fucked a couple times, but every time I talked about a relationship she would ghost on me. Couldn't figure out why til I saw pics of her and her bf on FB. We had an angry split and now we don't talk. I'm sure she doesn't think of me anymore.
I saw a feels thread once when I was young. Now they're everywhere. The world went and got itself in a big damn hurry.
The parole board got me into this halfway house and a job bagging groceries at the Foodway. It's hard work. I try to keep up, but my hands hurt most of the time. I don't think the store manager likes me very much.
Sometimes after work I go to the park and feed the birds. I keep thinking Jake might show up and say hello, but he never does. I hope wherever he is, he's doing okay and making new friends.
I have trouble sleeping at night. I wake up scared. Sometimes it takes me a while to remember where I am.
Maybe I should get me a gun and rob the Foodway, so they'd send me home. I could shoot the manager while I was at it, sort of like a bonus. But I guess I'm too old for that sort of nonsense anymore. I don't like it here. I'm tired of being afraid all the time. I've decided not to stay.
I doubt they'll kick up any fuss.
Not for an old crook like me.
Honestly dude, I'd say with no hair you look like your balls haven't dropped, she probably is attracted to piece of shit guys and you aren't one.
You gotta leave those girls behind, she may never come around. And this may come off the wrong way, but lower your standards, cause the kinda unattractive guy never gets a hot girl unless he's rich. And even then that is loveless.
Overall I'd rate you a 5/10 and go for 6's maybe 7's, confidence is everything
I'm more focused on creating a career for myself and starting my own business by the time I hit my thirties. I couldn't care less about a woman right now. I'm 24 and broke. Got more important things to worry about than some pussy.
I'm very grateful I just wish I'd get a definite date. Instead I feel like I'm in purgatory, I feel constant sadness or nothingness, nothing makes me happy, I've lost all drive and it's affecting my relationship, I know I'm lucky to have a gf but not for long at this rate.
Her name is Sophie. She tore my fucking heart out more than once, yet I forgave her because I loved her. I can't get over her. She's off fucking some Chad, and I have a new gf. Yet here I am missing her like a retard.
That's good anon. I see so many bros on here saying they cant afford therapy/meds. Sorry if I came off ignorant of American healthcare system. I am but a simple limey, loving his Queen.
Broke up with gf of some years. Lonely and horny, I've manipulated two friends of mine in to having sex with me. Needlessly complicated the relationship, but I can't stop. In the midst of doing it again.
I'm a terrible person but I can't stop.
She left me after a year, saying that she stopped caring a month before the breakup and started cheating, doing heroin. She said that at first she was manipulating me, fell in love on accident, and then fell out of love when some guy she didn't know tried to fuck her while on heroin. And she let him. (I was 17, she was 16 at the time.)
Not really feels, but I really wanna fuck this bitch even though I have a girl
Exactly my attitude. I'm working on getting into an electrical apprenticeship as we speak. That's about 5 years. Then the journeyman is about 4 years more so that's 9 or so. By then, I'd be able to take the master electrician exam and open up my own business or become a licensed contractor.
>mfw my girl left me for not talking about my feelings
>What does that mean? Are you crazy? Are they going to lock you away? Are you violent? Should we hide the sharp objects? How do we show you we love you and are sympathetic to your condition without coming across as over-protective and patronising?
I've fucked up plenty of relationships but I've never met a girl who made me as happy as she did. She was smart, funny, crazy. We had a V-day date planned and I was too embarrassed to tell her the real reason I couldn't make it and made up some dumb shit. It's been 2-3 years now and I still think about her.
You've got some retarded parents. Was diagnosed with schizophrenia when I was 22 and they didnt ask any of that shit.
Least I think they didnt I couldnt hear them over the screaming clown made of fire throwing flowers on the floor. Little schizo humor there, hope you enjoyed it.
People in this thread mocking people for having mental illnesses are the reason why those people don't talk about it and end up killing themselves. I know there's going to be edge lords who will be saying so what? But still, at least they have the balls to talk about it.
I'm no stranger to sarcasm, anonymous friend.
Yeah believe me I know that feel.
I know they're all different but it seems like people these days have a general understanding of stuff like this. It's not like when they'd lock anyone up in a dark room and torture the crazy out.
What a pussy ass bitch you are. Why the fuck did you let your bitch of a girlfriend know you were hanging yourself? Try again. This time, wait till no one is around. Fucking faggot asshole! Damn it pissed me off so much reading your childish blubbering. You do not deserve to live, anon!
Oh, I love these threads. A bunch of losers that pretends to be tough harassing girls and trash talking feminism and LGBTs.
>Harassing girls by day.
>Lurking feels threads and crying by night.
A bunch of "red pilled" juvenile wizard trash. Pathetic and predictable.
Oh things have come a looooong way for sure. I can understand the paranoia or uncertainty anon might have talking about this matter though, especially if he's just been diagnosed and hasnt started treatment and is feeling 'raw'.
Yea, I was just kidding. Enjoy life kiddo. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good times, or the bad times. Not even you. Oh, btw, I was once court marshaled by the army for trying to talk a soldier into suicide. Fucking faggot reniged and told on me.
you will never be wanted or accepted. you think you're a fucking chad but all you are is a worthless fucking cunt who cant deal with the fact that he is bullied because he is a freak and deserves it so you think that because you're edgy and 'different' you are better than everyone else. well you fucking arent you cunt so just fucking leave the thread if you arent interested you fucking sperg
I left my family and moved to the state I'd previously lived in to be with my friends and do a lot of drugs, but I ended up having to live with my grandfather after he bailed me out of jail.
I didn't have a job before I moved here, even though I was over eighteen. Too lazy, too unmotivated, too impulsive, no judgement. The only thing I gained since is work experience, and even that's menial at best.
I don't have a car or even a driver's license and rely on other people, my grandfather, and public transport to get anywhere. It's more green than getting a car of my own, but it makes me feel like I'm still a little boy instead of a grown-ass man. I feel like I'm taking advantage of my grampa, because I am. We talk sometimes, but our interests are so far apart that conversations don't last unless they're about me and my life, and I fucking hate both of those things.
At 21 I'm still a virgin because I'm too lazy to bother hitting on anyone even though I've been told by several women and girls of various age groups that I'm relatively good-looking, funny, and I can play multiple instruments. I don't have the will or the money to invest the time and the effort in trying to finagle a girl into bed given my living/transportation situation.
At one point I had over two thousand dollars in the bank, but then I started drinking and smoking again after three months sober and it all went off the rails and now I have -20 in the bank. I don't get paid til Friday, and I'm never going to regain that headstart.
In three years I've managed to systematically destroy every relationship for which I came back to this grimy place and now I'm running back home with my tail between my legs like the pussy I am.
I hate that I think this is a complaint, because it goes to show what a self-absorbed cunt I am, but my family really does love me a care about me, so even though I want to kill myself, I can't, because I know that the last thing I would feel is guilt.
Oh, and on top of that, my lymph nodes have been swollen for four months and I've developed a pretty gnarly cough in the past few days.
I haven't gotten it checked out because I don't have health insurance, and the choice would be between potentially catching something serious early and living the rest of my life in debt after a 50,000$ surgery that I would never be able to pay, or dying a painful, humiliating death because of the former.
been in love with a cute scottish girl for about 3 years now, makes me the happiest man alive. plus the kinkiest slut ive ever met, great ass. have yet to go through heartbreak again - dont wish that shit on any fucking human being man
Let's see. . . Format hard drive, switch ISP, swap out and destroy NIC, remove wifi password and turn on SSID broadcasting. Then maybe, try to establish an alaby (not sure if that is spelled right). Just in case.
Yes, on her way to work hit head on by a drunk driver... She was pregnant...
Yes... I was an idiot edgy faggot back in the day. Always angry, always took it out on her when she was kind. Yet she always understood me and kept giving me chance after chance. Finally broke and said she couldn't do it anymore... I only blame myself, as I should.
Impossible... As a Dudeist, well I don't really go for the whole afterlife thing... Though it would be nice to see her somewhere again. Along with little one and my other son I lost just as well, you know.
I started because she liked fit dudes and I was too scrawny. Then, I started lifting.
And she came back four months later.
But I didn't like her anymore. I thanked her for starting me on my journey.
And I told her to piss off.
why do you want to Mr. Bond?
>mfw i love getting to post this pic
what was the reason? and what did you have planned? and what did you tell her the reason was? and is that why you are not with her now?
Anon, I told you all of that. I got court marshaled for trying to talk someone into suicide. Honestly, I didn't even know it was really again the UCMJ. I figured, I was just planting suggestions. It's a free country after all. . .
"I, (state name of enlistee), do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; and that I will obey the orders of the President of the United States and the orders of the officers appointed over me, according to regulations and the Uniform Code of Military Justice. So help me God."
bro let me help you, hit the gym a couple times a week, let your facial hair grow in
it's all i needed, i was 6'1" 230lbs and i lost 30 pounds in a few weeks and got my hair cut and boom i was easier on the eyes. but in your current state you're undesirable by even the blindest of people.
Therapy is only one part of helping a bipolar person. You can say fuck you to your therapist and stop going if you choose to. There's nothing stopping you. Are you even medicated?
then diet, dieting is a little harder to bring yourself to do but it can be done. and my last comment was in good fun, 90% of people can manage to look good, im 100% sure you can fix yourself up in lless than 2 months.
>drink only water ( a lot every day)
>stick to salad for breakfast/lunch (chicken,rice, etc for dinner)
you'll burn so much weight in just 1 month it'll be hard to go back to all the shitty food and junk
alright well looks like you're not going anywhere, nothing can work if you dont try it. you're going to deny all the help that's been offered and then expect to magically look better? hell no, you deserve to look the way you do and nothing will change because you refuse to accept that sometime you gotta do what's best even if it means cutting out mcdonalds and wendy's you fuck.
There has never been anyone
My heart aches for no one
And no ones heart aches for me
I am alone
These are both me. Not sure why you're taking offence to me saying exercise is good for you just because I dont have the same personality disorder as you. I'm not the twat telling people to kill themselves but I'm getting as much shit as him. Fuck this.
Can you read or are you dyslexic? I've HAD a trainer and nutritionist. Didn't work. I ate healthy six times a day. Got to be too fucking expensive. Kinda hard to afford to eat healthy as shit when you only get less than 900 a month on top of paying a high priced trainer.
This doesnt make sense.
>my heart aches for no one
alright, you should be fine then since you obviously dont need anyone.
>no ones heart aches for me
alright again, what does it matter if you dont want anyone?
>i am alone
well since your heart aches for nobody you should be fine with nobody.
get over yourself.
She had a name but now she doesnt
She doesnt exist.
Havent loved someone in a while.
Pro tip /b/ros: Never close yourself when youre feeling depressed, because when youre ready to open up, there will be no one around except your really closed friends