>Be me >19 year old naive boy >Fall in love with a girl

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>Be me
>19 year old naive boy
>Fall in love with a girl online 1+ year ago who lives in Canada and I live in USA
>Talk everyday and tell each other i love you
>As months roll by I feel like we get closer but also further apart
>Have to carry most convos
>Never met her
>Offer to visit her in December 2017
>She gets excited and gives okay
>Feel discouraged cause she makes most convos about herself, hardly able to have convos about myself whenever I feel like I need to talk about myself
>Always talks about how she wants a gf or an asian bf
>Knows exactly how I feel about that stuff
>Continues to talk about it
>Try to have talks about how I feel about that kind of stuff
>99% time left on read
>Feel like she actually doesn't love me and only has me around for the attention
>Want to not book tickets and go anymore but feel like I'm being petty

What do you guys think about the whole situation? Is there a straight yes or no answer to this? Am I just getting cucked when I stick around talking to her? If more details are needed just ask. I don't know what to do.