Currently lying in bed at 7:45 pm with nothing to do except read

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Currently lying in bed at 7:45 pm with nothing to do except read books until I fall asleep. There was nothing to do at my boring job so I arrived 4 hours late, had a 3 hour lunch, then went home 1 hour early.

All the Chads and Staceys and normies are having the time of their lives right now. I'll spend the next 3 hours reading books only for the pseudointellectual cred.

I'll wake up tomorrow and follow my weekend routine. Clean my room on Saturday, go to the gym, wonder how it could be 2 pm when I'm going to central London, where I sit around drinking coffee, browsing 4chan on my phone, feeling sad about life, then realise it's not worth going to museums when they're almost closed. I'll see Staceys everywhere and feel awful. I will walk around aimlessly. Then waste my evening either reading boring books or on the internet. Sunday is similar but with the museums closed and feeling more alone and aimless.

Background:
>aged 26
>no friends or social life since 18
>no female attention ever
>went through university with zero social experiences
>became the loner nobody talks to within two days of my current job
>never been to pub, club, or party
>missed out on all the 16 - 22 formative social experiences that people look back on fondly (teen crushes, school prom, school dances, university fresher's week, any sort of relationships at all)
>know that women all have 5000 tinder matches and think the average male is ugly; seeing attractive women everywhere is demoralising
>feel completely bitter and detached from others due to being an ugly subhuman; lifting weights did nothing