i feel kind of inconvenienced by my girlfriend. so we're

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i feel kind of inconvenienced by my girlfriend.

so we're not really long distance, but we basically are because our schedules are loaded so we only see each other maybe twice a week max. i work two jobs, go to the gym five days a week and have a full time girlfriend and it's a lot. i've always been someone who has loved time to himself, and i don't get a whole lot of that anymore.

today was a perfect example. both times i sat down with some time to myself finally, my gf asked to talk on the phone so she can vent about her job (the same things she always says). i don't want to talk to her, i want to finally be by myself for a little. but i feel obligated to talk to her because we have so little time to talk.

it makes me wonder if i really care about her the way i say i do, and it's really conflicting. something that's always rattled in the back of my brain -- i was happy before i met her. very happy and pleased with myself and my direction. a lot has changed since then, but still. i feel like sometimes i'd be happy without her.

like, i'd be sad if she left me, i'd lose my best friend and everything we've gone through. but... i know i'd get better.

it's just really conflicting and i don't know what to do